#but then its like.... ok it wasnt meant to be then....??????
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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying “LET me kill the joker” to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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frye fits i might as well share since i doubt ill do anything w em
#onaga clan fits :] based on some postgame hcs before the game can actually rveal what thatll be like lol#forst ones just an alt of her thief fit other two r meant to be more formal#frye splatoon#only tag that gets#i hope i did ok on these ! i need to find more reputable online sources for like#fashion (both traditional n modern) around the world#google is so exhausting to sift through nowadays.#mayhaps its just me. but it feels like its only filled w ads#and information written by ppl paid to write a little blurb who don’t actually lnlw anything about the subject#rip#i swear it wasnt always like this. orz
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Sorry I forgot Hanneman suggested Byleth undress after they show up with a different hair color. And I miss Hanneman. And also while swapping between Houses and Hopes and seeing Hanneman pop up to help in a Hopes paralogue is just devastating since he doesn't ever actually join you at all and I am denied my old man rights.
So I had to draw this. Thank you for understanding.
#fe three houses#byleth#hanneman von essar#i like that Byleth just kinda stares at him and he realizes WHAT HE SAID and the implications and is like#step back uh forget that I said that#like man so zoned in on research he blurts that out and has to backtrack mentally to AH socially bad to say that my bad#if i need to tag this as anything lemme know even though it is a conversation in game basically (minus the marriage)#also if you have never married hanneman i genuinely enjoyed his s support and was VERY surprised and hes just#honestly one of my favorites overall in 3h ?? and im still bummed i cant play as him in thropes like thats just mean#also i think if byleth was like oh well if its awkward to see someone undress randomly#then marriage would solve the awkwardness this is truly the best deduction#which is really funny that i can see it happening with both leths despite my hc of them#with fyleth as bi and myleth as ace i think both would just be like AH cool we can avoid awkwardness by marriage#and hanneman just wants to go lie down in a ditch because he said something like that#and and byleth doesnt even know about religion while working at church school they dont know about school regulations#that wasnt really on their mind to check ok just saying you could tell byleth no to something#and then they just go oh school policies i understand unfortunately#and the person is like no we just meant its frowned upon to do archery practice in the tea garden its not technically illegal just dont??
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a piece i did for aleena over on twitter in lieu of stickers from my raffle, given that she already owns most of them LOL
they requested flug in the camp leader outfit from the Elmore short, and given that that's probably my favourite short i was more than happy to oblige!
(considering making that middle one into a sticker... he's just so cuuuuute)
#villainous#villainous fanart#dr. flug#demencia#5.0.5.#my art#aleena was sooooo patient with me and i super appreciate it#november and december were a total mess for me with me running that secret santa#did i talk about that? hi i moderate the r/neopets secret santa art event now#I GUESS#it was totally a labour of love i really cherish being a part of it#but i was WOEFULLY UNPREPARED#so its january and im not even done sending christmas cards out yet#and i meant to make more headway on that this week but i got sick#so. next week. i hope.#in between building ikea furniture#we desperately need storage so i bit the bullet and got a wall shelving unit#i'm very excited ive wanted it for like. two years now.#it wasnt cheap but thats what credit cards are for baybeeee#ok thats it love you bye#if you reblog please delete my tags lol
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Does this mean Clan Wren is alive in your AU? And by "Clan Wren", I really mean Tristan, since I ship him with Ezra.
very very little of clan wren's alive, could be like 4 ppl tops who knows, but i think its unrealistic every single clanmember died. ON TRISTAN i've been flipflopping between yes and no since the show started. bc on the one hand all of sabine's family being dead works rlly well narratively, she's lost every mandalorian she loves and her whole culture and home planet and has some severe survivors guilt bc she should've been with them instead of her other (also half dead) family and she's dealing with it by being in her fleabag girlfailure era and trying to completely ignore the fact she's mandalorian at all. plus i don't want to disregard ALL of canon gotta keep some things.
on the other hand that's sad and also trizra
#then again you can still have sabine's grief storyline if tristan's alive but dealing with the grief very differently to sabine#however i feel like it works better if tristan died too and. ok maybe hes dead im still not 100%#goddamn now im annoyed abt how much potential the ahsoka show had again#bc like. IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABT HOW AHSOKA AND SABINE ARE USING EACH OTHER TO DEAL W THEIR GENOCIDE-GRIEF#ahsoka takes on a non-force-sensitive padawan to distance herself from the jedi/ her lineage#and sabine becomes a padawan to try distance herself from being a mandalorian!!! both using each other unhealthily!!#but in the end they realise this isnt how its meant to be. they need to accept who they are#ahsoka has to come to terms with what her master became and that she IS a jedi#sabine has to come to terms with her grief and accept what happened to her family/ her survivorhood and that she IS a mandalorian#even if she wasnt on mandalore then#and go accept mand'alor din's call to every mandalorian to return to the planet and she leads her broken clan#GAH FUCK ALL THE POTENTIAL WAS THERE WHY DIDNT THEY HAVE ANY FUCKING CHARACTER MOMENTS!!!!!!!!#ahsoka show#thanks for the ask!
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every time someone makes a video about the worst dw episode in terms of badly handling social issues and mention multiple chibnall episodes but not spyfall i feel like im losing it
#im not a big dw commentary video watcher but vera's 43 minute video abt idiots lantern being like#arachnids in the uk and kerblam dont even COME CLOSE like why is spyfall not on this list help me.#what do you ME A N#save me jay exci#its not even a bad video like yes the ending of idiots lantern was shit but seriously tho#she also said kill the moon probably wasnt intentionally about abortion and i cannot se how but ok. interesting#fully forgot its also a dw chsnnel it autoplayed to dw videos cus i was watching her talk about the neil gaiman podcast#im so not used to watching these but its fun actually#like i love to listen to people shit talk fear her as if its meant to be the same kind of episode as blink#year 7 friend simulator
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my sunshine
#persona 4#yosuke hanamura#kanji tatsumi#yosukan#yoskan#pushing my hc that yosukes fave colour is blue. and that kanji likes pink.#I MEANT FOR THIS TO BE A DOODLE BUT THEN I. DID A WHOLE ASS BG AND EVERYTHING??#its cold as hell over here so i felt like drawing something wintery#yosuke voice; holy hard nopples its cold.#and i loooove the midwinter outfits. so i had to use em for this one.#also the flood plain is like my fave location in p4. perfect backdrop for stuff and things to happen.#also this wasnt even meant to be blush its like. when youre cold you get all red. its meant to be that.#or is it blush? i love ambiguity :)#VERY IMPORTANT NOTE. kanji made the scarfs :) ok bye#tedpost#tedart
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am i tripping or is x3 relatively way better than dark phoenix like,,, obviously the second half of x3's plot is atrociously wrong (apart from when erik keeps bringing up charles) but the initial set up and premise feel less flat than dark phoenix with more things going on than just jean/phoenix and erik and the brotherhood don't feel as shoehorned?
i fear i feel you ..... however ive always held the belief X3 wasnt a terrible movie on the sole basis hank was there and the movie started with old man bickering while adopting their daughter so this aint a shocking opinion to meee
'but snap hank was in dark phoenix too' ok he didnt piss me off in X3 !!!!! moving on !!!!!!!!
#snap chats#so funny how things are intersecting cause people are talking about DP on twitter#like with X3. it wasnt my favorite but i could at least be like 'ok that was fine'#DP just had me bored or like. Miffed#idk i should rewatch them movies again.... awful because i rewatched dark phoenix twice in a week for some reason#I DONT KNOW WHY?? I WATCHED IT ONCE THEN AGAIN FOR SOME RESAON BUT OK#anyway no youre right with the brotherhood bit like we were actualy introduced to them in x3#or we saw how we got here. in dp We Just Fuckin Here. Inexplicably. Erik Werent You Wanted For Terrorism#why you just hangin out in this relatively nice field with supplies LMAO#oh but about hank tho. this my beef with the hank/mystique bit like girl why he so pressed at charles like that#as if mystique wasnt charles' sister like hank you gottttt nooooo right to be more upset than charles#like people crticize DP for how antagonistic people are to charles and WHILE CONCEPTUALLY i dont think thats a bad thing#i think it can be fun and interesting to criticize charles sometimes- or at least question him every now and then#but it do be kinda comedic in this movie cause its so....... Oh Hello JLAEKAJK LIKE WHY YALL SO MEAAN TO HIM WHATD HE DO#god this rambling is not meant for tags im gonna run out. all ima say is X3 did handle the dark phoenix thing better#even if the movie still isnt. super good. on consensus idk i should rewatch it it been a while
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i just think you deserve eternal happiness actually. funny and actually nice. u are jesus. anyway No pls i AM AFRAID u are simply too cool and i cant deal
#“cant deal” im a millennial at heart x#ok no i love u though#asks#mewtuals#blah blah!#ok im talking here u asked for this basically im going insane theyre so fucking stupid like i know im the one who made them but they keep#NOT SPEAKING anf its so annoying like can you stop being teenage boys and start knowing how to fucking SPEAK#also i am NOT being a creep i dont focus on it its literally not mentioned but theyre in college okay.#well one of them is#no wait both of them are Sorry i tell a lie#anyway its pissing me off like dude can u grow UP and be COOl omg its makign me mad like i could literally just make them know but also im#obsessed with making it “realistic” (its literally rpf girl) and like i dont wanna go to the opposite end of the spectrunm and make them ha#all that therapy speak like omgmfgnfkjnhkj its making me mad.#and like ?? i wasnt coming out in 2007 omh wait no wrong time i cant do times I WASNT COMING OUT IN THE 2000S IS THE POINT#SO HOW AM I MEANT TO KNOW JOW THST WOULD GO OMFG#imgonna bite someone im so mad#like i just checked it's 25593 words.#TWENTY FIVE THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED AND NINETY THREE WORDS. THAT IS RIDICULOUS#FUCKING NOTHING HAPPENS IM HONNA THROW UP#but also im obsessed w word count so im hesitant to dlete ...#no ok all scenes are important i think but uuugggggghhhh LIKE OMDGFNJGNFJNH#anyway im so mad like can u just stop being stupid dude im gonna beat myself up#no because like why did i start this. what relevance does this have to anything.#it is. to be fair to myself. i think the best thing ive ever written though#so#everything is FINE and i am a okay
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John is so capable of violence, has seen and endured and caused so much violence, has learned so well how to hurt. He has rage inside of him. Against abusers. Against himself.
But he is still so gentle and nice and comforting and he smiles and the numbers hug him and he tells Megan with tears in his eyes how you lose a part of yourself when you kill someone. He wants to help.
And. He wants to die but then. Why not live to help people. Then. Why not live because it's nice.
#i lovelovelove the superposition of violence and gentleness in him waow#anyway. wheres that post i wrote about poi being about not being defined by your past and doing what you can is enough etc etc#also idk im just veryyy not normal about john being suicidal and then less suicidal#i didnt like his death#like beyond my fav character died idk it rubs me the wrong way that he was suicidal then crawled out of si to just pretty much kill himself#not that im against stories of suicidal characters killing themselves. (just tired of non suicidal ppl writing dumb shit ig)#but idk. for him to end like this when i feel like hed have at most passive si#i dont like the idea of framing his death as a sacrifice. as smth he wanted and was “meant to be”.#i understand he wanted to save harold and i know how he gets when harold is in danger but it felt like he threw his life away too easily#i just wanted to see him get out of his suicidal/self sacrificing ways. save harold and save himself as well#anyway my john is antisuicidist and goes to alt2su meetings ok bye#like the way he helps homeless people bc he knows what its like. he goes there when he has peaks of si but also to help people#johns sidequest of dealing with chronic si and learning about suicidism and peer support gjdjzjffj#wasnt planning on rambling in tags but anyway im normal now 👍#person of interest#john reese#tw suicide#nourann.txt
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Trying on the cosplays imma wear to a con in a month and getting excited that ill be cosplaying said characters in a month
#prince's talk tag#yo its gonna be so fun!!#im doing h/omura‚ p/ers/ona3 protag and my boy rui in that order#h/omura was supposed to be a duo with my friend (they were to cosplay her gf)#but theres a s/tar r/ail meetup that same day and there wasnt one last year and they wanted to go so they're gonna do that instead#and the other two days i have cosplay meetups i wanna do so there went that#but its ok i know my friend really wanted a meetup last year so im happy theyre getting one this year#imma show up to the p/r/s/k one again and give out extras I get from buying the cd singles bc i dont need all these#plus i wont just be in his school uniform i bought his new troupe outfit so ill be in that!!#and for the protag i got his new battle uniform from the remake so thatll be fun!!#i brought an evoker prop but i need to find like orange tape to put around the muzzle so they know its fake and it cant shoot#the picture showed it with it on so i thought it would come with it but nope!#gotta hope security will be find with the tape on it#like it literally can't shoot the trigger doesn't move its just meant to be posed with#we'll see i guess#i was looking at the panels and i saw some that interest me but ill doubt ill go to bc knowing me ill spend my time in artist alley#but there was one i was really interested in but its at the same time as one of the meetups so i have to forgo it OTL#its a manga industry panel. i went to one at a different con like 9 years ago and i learned a lot about how they publish and print manga#so i kinda wanted to see how other companies do it if theres a difference#tho there is a manga lettering panel the next day and that doesnt interfere with anything so maybe ill do that one if anything#bc i have a love-hate relationship with type#man i can't wait for next month!!
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I feel like Dawn would end up starring in PokerStars studios at some point. It just feels like her kind of place.
I feel like that's more of a Serena thing. She was really into Pokevision and Showcases are all about showing yourself and she is an Idol, friends with Lisia now!? She is meant for such extravangances.
And I know this will sound bullshit because no one understands dawn like i do/j but like... Dawn.. doesnt seem to like getting too much attention on herself?
Like, she has an outgoing personality, is a social butterfly and is not afraid of being loud and all that but.. She's very bashful when she is made the center of attention; specially around those she doesn't know.
When she learns the battle in DP029 is gonna be recorded, her first instinct is to get out of the camera's view and get her hair fixed (not to mention any time her hair gets messed up and made fun of and how one time she passed out because of it).
Ash asks her for a dance at DP082 and while one can only guess why she rejected it, I wouldn't be surprised if it was out of shame (specially with how he danced lmao).
When she wins the award for best bonding with Grimer in DP088, her reaction is to blush shyly at the praises (unnusual for her!)
During the johto festival in DP143, Lyra calls Dawn on for a battle and her first reaction is to freak out. Only after some peer pressure (and support), that she goes for it.
Dawn only did the cheerleader thing during rematches and everytime there were very few people around (and the fact she didnt dress up for the Leon battle kinda adds that she only does that with a small number of people as witnesses)
Meanwhile..
Serena seemed very comfortable and not at all nervous about having a camera on her at all times for the pokevision thing in XY021 and having her videos seen by folks worldwide(!)
She did the modeling thing for Valerie in XY073 and while she did look nervous, she seemed to get over it pretty fast the moment her friends showed up (even talking to them from the catwalk lmao).
Dressing up as Ash and taking his place during a battle with a random dude at XY115 with no shame? Other pokegirls could never.
She made a Showcase presentation for the whole town to see at XY138!!
She is an IDOL!! OFFICIALLY!!!
What I'm trying to say is... Dawn would skip sleep to memorize the lines for a movie and then fall asleep in the actual recording and she knows it. And she is not living that kind of shame.
#answered asks#|→ diving for pearls#i find funny when folks are like 'serena is insecure and anxious' and 'dawn LOVES attention'#when...not really???#sure serena has some insecurities. but with stuff she KNOWS she can do? she is SUPER confident in herself#see rhyhorn race and how she teaches ash about it. she knows what she is doing and she has full trust in her abilities#dawn... on the other hand#my girl has no self confidence lmao#her daijobus are meant to give her that confidence boost but thats also why daijobanai is like her second catchphrase yknow#not to mention how she always leave her pokemon to make important choices for her#i mean its cute i love you for that my daughter but.. you can tell she wasnt happy about ambipom or ash and brock leaving :´)#i love dawn she is an absolute MESS#wish people understood that about her. but some people will always read her as budget serena or manic pixie dream girl and UGH#my girl as a true sinnohan needs therapy ok
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rest in peace “we have to build the republic of heaven where we are because for us there is no elsewhere” and “i cant choose my nature but i can choose what i do” and “if you must and you can then there’s no excuse” (2000-2022) when it was good baby it was good baby
#his dark materials#think this show sometimes suffers from overarticulating its themes & ideas but this season especially they cut so many lines from pullman#that expressed his key theses really beautifully but then take other things that didnt need to be directly preached to the viewer#and overexplicate them. like in this same episode explaining the entire adam & eve metaphor in detail like ok… youre meant to#figure that one out on ur own. but come on as if will proclaiming his free will & power of intention OUT LOUD to his dad wasnt a key moment#hdm
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heol
#⠀ᶻᶻ⠀turn it up!⠀#unrelated its ltr not even what i linked but chasing time - azealia.. Dontttt omg ts is so facking good who made that beat!!!!!!!!!!#ANW. if breakaway is minhui then this is yijun. mayb the single ver more than true romance ver actually.. it js sounds more raw#i rly wanna talk abt why he hates jaehee#bc i’ve yapped abt minhui and talked abt DY/JY sort-of parallels in replies somewhere i found it the other day#and ik the ‘he doesn’t fit’ is what's been written (in pieces + that yt rundown i think) but likee it goes deeper than that#im gnna struggle to put it into words properly but im talking to myself so i can not make sense as much as i want thanks#ok. so he goes on and on abt how jaehee ruined BS bec he ‘didn’t fit’ into the four that they were without him but. he’s lowk projecting#he joined JG in 2016 - jiyeol mai hyeonmin and KOHEN were all there before him. jy’s in ‘08 mi + kh in 2010 + hm 2011#they chucked their whole childhoods away for jg - and in reward they were meant to be jg’s first boygroup#they ltr would’ve debuted in 2013 if it wasn’t for hyojoo being like hey! this is kinda weird lol! a 17 yo two 15 yos + a 13 yo is weird!#yj was late as HELLLL 2the party. he wouldve been left as a trainee while JY MI KH HM debuted as 9ANTHER if it wasnt 4 The Kohen Mai Thing#aka they started messing around in like 2014 while jy pretended he wasnt abt to crash out and hm had to listen to jy trying not2 crash out#then it got real bad like august 2016 and all of a sudden they HATEDD eo they couldnt even b in the same room#(aka. kh wanted him mi wanted jy and said Lollll i hate u die)#all in all: kh kicked off debut team. spot opens up for yijun right as he enters the company. he’s not cut out for ts at all#he was lonely back home and now he’s lonely here and now apparently he’s in a debut team with 3 guys who know eo and he wants to die#hyeonmin like smiles at him like ONCE during practice and he latches on fastttt this leech 😭😭😭 tries to worm his way in via hm#spoiler! it only half works theres sand under his skin he hates it all he’s not meant for them he needs a gun#it gets better over the years and jy + mi sorting their shit out & cutting off kh completely makes yj feel wayy more secure#and then they debut even if it is after yoonhae’s literal death. and then jaehee comes in like Hiii i like to act and colour ^_^#HE WNATS TO DIEE ITS HIM ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!!!! cant even bear to look at him#like the walls are UP he’s not letting himself become kohen. and when jh tries to get close to min - ltr exactly like he did.......#ITS NEVER BEEN MORE BONSOVERRRR#so there. he’s mean and hates him and wants him dead for that. Yayyyy#kh has def said some nasttyyyyy shit to yj too ijbol like mind you he didnt leave jg until jy did! THIS YEAR!#the song. is abt himself. him to him in the mirror. to kohen. to jaehee. he’s mad at shit that’s never happened and he’s never gonna stop#the ‘why did you fall for me’ though.. that’s him to min like#he feels like he’s conned him into it - bec the first couple months he only rly was around him to try and get into the inner circle#and then he fell in Lol. Gay
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tried putting on my radiator for the first time this winter (we've had snow this week.... its focking cold) but it trips the fusebox for the entire flat lmfao. I'm fuuuucked 😐
#all the other radiators work fine its just mine :'(((#and bc its thw weekend they wont come out to fix it until monday at least so thats great#its fine i havent needed it on this week so far and i have layers and a hot water bottle so ill be fine but i did cry abt it a bit#but not so much abt the radiator just a lot on my mind.. i couldnt pick up my prescription after work either bc the secretary left half an#hour early and the very kind nurse who had a look for it anyway couldnt find it and i cant get there any earlier next week bc of work#i know itll be fine ive already sent an email to ask if they can send it to my local pharmacy instead ill get my meds before they run out#but still i cried a bit walking home from the clinic 😢 just been a long week even if not a bad one. and i miss my friend whos moving#he'll be on the plane now.... man. its a bit selfish but im also sad abt it bc he always noticed how i was feeling when i was at the gym#like if i was privately dealing w some shit or just wasnt quite myself he could tell n would find a moment to gently ask or just be there#without probing abt it like man hes so reassuring and kind and has such a big heart. before he left he asked me to look out for some of#the quieter ones in our group and make sure they feel included and someones listening to them when he wont be around to anymore#😢💔💔💔💔 and i know i didnt know him long enough to become proper good friends with him but it meant a lot that he looked out for me#like all i really want in this world is to feel seen n safe esp when im having a hard time. and none of my closer friends really do that#and thats okay like its not their fault and they just express their way of caring differently but sometimes i feel so lonely ah....#and also my period is due and im kind of scared of how painful itll be bc the last few have been so bad snd i find loneliness a lot harder#when im in a lot of pain and anyway this is all probably just the pre period hormones making me so tearful so it doesnt matter#its ok made a big bowl of rice so im going to eat that wrapped up cosy in bed with a movie i think. and then sleep#.diaries
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ITS BEEN A FUCKING WEEK. PASS THE DETRITUS
#howling#had a lvl 1 trauma at abt 720#which sucks but we were managing fine#call er back at 750 as protocol to ask if theyve transfused and if theyll need more and to make sure they have a t&s ordered#secretary confirms that both units were transfused + they wont be needing more (lol) + a type and screen WAS drawn just not ordered yet#ok cool. all i have to do is wait for the specimen so i can crossmatch the units#im chilling in bloodbank doing bloodbank things#meanwhile. er calls the front desk (blood bank has a separate phone line. they specifically called the lab line instead)#lab assistant takes the call (like normal). theyre not sure what er said exactly but theyre planning to transfer the patient somewhere#and mentioned 'something like mpp???'#midnight tech was upfront and overheard. immediately asked if they meant MTP#lab assistant wasnt sure but said she had asked if er wanted to talk to blood bank (aka me) and they said no#both the assistant and the tech assumed that they DIDNT actually mean mtp because that would be fucking bonkers#if they casually mention it to a lab assistant and NOT FUCKING BLOOD BANK#and i didnt hear about this phone call until like maybe an hour or two later btw#anyways. yeah no they called an MTP#thats always fucking awful but they DID bring down the t&s partway thru#patient had no history and the only other specimens on file were drawn at the same time#so i order a confirmatory type to make things easier later on. it needs to be drawn by either the nursing team or by a lab assistant#screen is negative so at least we only need to do an immediate spin crossmatch on everything#we get all the units emergency issued + the platelets are ordered and issued normally after the t&s is done since it doesnt need a xmatch#er cancels the mtp. theyve transfused 6 out of the 8 units we sent them. two remaining units being sent to or#or is told directly that the mtp was canceled and that theyd need to call a new one if things escalate again#ok. things are calming down. its fine. i got all the xmatches done and theyre all compatible which is great#we get in a delivery from arc of platelets bringing us back up to 6 on the shelf (we need 5 on hand tomorrow morning for an open heart)#(at this point i find out about the phone call i mentioned earlier)#i get a call from or. my heart sinks immediately#or nurse says they need 2 rbcs and 2 platelets and theyre sending someone down RIGHT NOW to pick it up#we still hadnt gotten that confirmatory btw#im too stunned to say anything else so i just go ok. and hang up
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