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hiragis climbing up the ranks
#oml he infested my mind after the fight with banjo#and then the other night i had a cutie pie dream#about like all the wind breaker guys#but then he just stayed in my head after#same dream last night and same general idea just watching itself into my brain crevices#had to write a lil to get it out#and it didn't work he's still there#so either i'll post smth one day#orrrrrrr more likely i just talk about hiragi more#just know he's chewing on my brain rn#alongside with chika and kiryu#☆— yapping
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Iida, bro, you Gotta remember to knock first ...
#im almost sorry iida had to interrupt- but i just dont think it would happen until... much much later lol#was gonna wait to post but im sick of seein it in my drafts and then everypanelofizuku got to The Panels so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#tododeku#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#izuku midoriya#shoto todoroki#shouto todoroki#tenya iida#bnha fanart#mha fanart#bnha comic#mha comic#digital art#this takes place after the stain arc btw! i will always think of the shot in the anime where iida leaves and its just tddk alone..#like... todo Probably could have left then too- but i like to think he stayed bc he wanted to be alone with izuku /////#ah mutual pining my good friend mutual pining <3#the version of bnha that lives in my head#mha#bnha#olly art#tddk
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golden cheese has 99 problems and honestly these two somehow are or will become every one of them
#long tags. my silly thoughts#special guest shadow milk. what a goon.#i like to think shadow milk cookie is always around somewhere ready to crash the party since he's always watching#that and intentionally staying next to burning spice cookie after his latest interest. he's a fun target.#this is a normal day for them when they aren't being their silly evil selves#gc is concerned as to why pv's beast is there and if there's gonna be trouble until bspice stabs him without a second thought and thats tha#ive been drawing for the past 13 hours straight. oh no#i was gonna make this flow better but i just wanted it out of my head. forgive me#i forgor to sleep#burningcheese#goldenspice#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#crk#art#crnl's crk journal
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okay pitch for season 8. 911 redux of captain bill hader catching jake and amy making out at work and having a heart attack but gerard walks in on buck and eddie's first ever kiss which inevitably turns into more and just drops fucking dead on the spot.
#sami rambles#in my head it's after the first time eddie goes to church and nothing has been resolved it's actually made him a bit worse in the#immediate aftermath and buck can see it on him so he keeps trying to corner him about it but eddie does not want to talk so eventually#buck corners him in the supply closet and they have a bit of a whispered argument and then eddie just fucking kisses him#and buck kisses back because. this is eddie what else is he gonna do? and also he's forgotten all about his boyfriend who even is that?#and it's messy and desperate and a little bit spiteful but it's them it's them and then the door opens and gerard starts cursing them out#before he clutches his chest and drops to the floor and eddie just gets to work because to him this is a sign from god that he's not allowed#to be gay actually whoops!! so true bestie i will stay in this closet then! meanwhile buck is just malfunctioning#911 spoilers#911 show#buddie#evan buckley#eddie diaz#buck x eddie#911 spec
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GET BACK, PART III — Ringo doesn't talk much, but when he says he's not going abroad, they are not going abroad. And when he says "I wanna go on the roof", they're going on the roof. (x)
#the psychology of this scene is unparalleled#the way george closes his eyes in the first picture like 'oh fucking christ not this again'#the way paul's head is litchreally about to explode from trying to keep everyone happy#the way ringo holds george's 'et tu brute?' glare in the 5th gif#and his smug nod to paul in the 6th#ringo knew he was the most powerful beatle. he just knew#john also coming to paul's rescue (but only after ringo does lol </3)#paul's panic-rocking#and to think they still stayed together another year-ish after this lmfao#btw yes paul DID say let's' that many times in the first gif. that is not an epic typo on my part#the beatles#mine#get back#beatles#paul mccartney#ringo starr#george harrison#john lennon
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HELP okay so i draw in my sketchbook (duh) but i also write whatever thoughts im thinking while i draw... THE MARGIN STUFF IS SO WEIRD IM SORRY IN ADVANCE LOLOLOL
#I CANT THIS IS SO FUNNY BECAUSE I FORGOT I WROTE THIS STUFF#utter shock seeing “booper-dooper” in bubble letters months after forgetting#OKAY IN MY DEFENSE i kept seeing someones clip of mark saying booper dooper on a kids show and a tweet saying he regretted being on there#and just the clip and knowing his regret stayed in my head so i filled up the margins with marked up plier#also this was my first time drawing yes man and mr house and joshua graham im sorry#my art#art#artwork#fallout new vegas#new vegas#fnv#the king fnv#mr the king#joshua graham#craig boone#yes man#yes man fnv#yes man fallout#fisto#fisto fallout#protectron#courier six#fnv courier#courier 6#arthur morgan#for like one image (jellybeans)#sketchbook#mr house
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it's meant to be the happy time of year - c!tommy + if we make it through december (phoebe bridgers cover)
❄️ / ❄️ / ❄️ / ❄️ / ❄️ / ❄️ / ❄️ / ❄️
#mine#tommyinnit#web weaving#dsmp#dsmp web weave#had to dig through the vods for this and felt myself actually seething at the fact they did this in a PRAIRIE#the song fits really well regardless but exile would have been SO much more atmospheric if it had been somewhere snowy#<- my opinion dont come after me i like the beacj vibes too but come on!!#also just easier for me the poor web weaver why didnt they think of ME#was gonna leave this for when i have more time but its ctommy day so I had to....#im ngl posting this when ctommy would have turned 20 has me feeling some type of way#like to me its yeah he DID make it thru december he got out he got himself out and now he is fine... maybe not in canon but#in MY head and my heart he is happy or becoming happy#idk maybe im just trying to excuse the fact that im posting a webweave abt december & winter in july#also ALSO#i knowww this would look so much cooler in audio visual format but unfortunately i cant edit and i certainly cant draw BUT im gonna try to#learn editing this summer and this will be my first project <3 so stay tuned if ur into that
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For the Spirits— Chapter VII: Take Me South
Take me south when it's the time
Pour me away like golden wine
I'll form a splash and it will dry
But in the shape of you
—Pure You by Nothing But Thieves
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Yume placed her hands on her hips and took a step forward. “That I do, yet I can't help but wonder about the timing. Heading South, seeking information on the Tribes…it's all very sudden, don't you think?”
The folded parchment hidden under his vest suddenly seemed to hold the weight of the world. Zuko placed a hand on his chest, where the sketch rested just above his heart. He stared thoughtfully at the floor.
Why now, indeed?
#zutara#atla#zuko#avatar the last airbender#prince zuko#zutara au#for the spirits#new gods au#spirit touched zuko#atla fic#atla fanfic#zuko fanfic#atla oc#lu ten#lu ten atla#zuko's crew#For the Spirits Chapter VII: Take Me South#AKA In Which Lu Ten Is A Little Shit And Zuko Is Done™ (He Is Also Having An Existential Crisis But That's Just The Usual)#Ten Ten comes back! After six chapters he comes back!!!#I missed my baby boy SO much#It's time for him to annoy Zuko with his well-intentioned yet somewhat-disturbing chatter#Lu Ten is in his own little bubble. Ghosts have a...certain way of looking at things and it bleeds into his dialogue and antics#He is always such a delight to work with. Exploring his perception of the world and his interactions with Zuko is incredibly fun#Hopefully we'll see more of Lu Ten in the future... Or will we?#I'm so excited for the Southern arc you have NO IDEA#It's pretty short but so intense and I can't wait to see your reactions to what I have in store#I hope to surprise you all#Just how will the Crew react to Zuko's rather out-of-nowhere decision to head South? Will anyone reach out to him?#Stay tuned for more emotional damage and spirit shenanigans!#The art for this chapter should be posted soon. It's one of my absolute faves so far.
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I loved your idea for film blue & reading your response reminded me of a theory I have about the shuggy dynamic & since I love your meta I'd love your take.
Do you think Oda is trying to imply that the Shuggy fallout is not only a personal loss, but a loss for the world as a whole? There's a lot of talk lately about Shanks' personal failings with interpersonal skills & coincidentally that's where Buggy's strength lies.
In fact the Shuggy dynamic is sort of written in a way where they make up for what the others lack so I wonder if the miscommunication with them is also supposed to make us believe the world would've been better had they stuck together?
Buggy was the first of the two to recognize the danger with Blackbeard and it's when he isn't in Shanks life anymore that Blackbeard was able to hurt him. Buggy didn't rise up in the world until way later in life despite his charisma, but Shanks did fairly quickly. We can see how Buggy being a warlord/emperor is setting into motion big events at a seemingly quicker pace than Shanks ever did (intentional or not). Imagine if they had set out as co leaders way back when? Would Shanks be as passive or would Buggy's ambition & anxiety push him to be more proactive in whatever it is he's supposed to do on behalf of Roger.
With the anime finally animating the loguetown breakup/fallout and to be reminded of Buggy being pushed to reclaim his dreams because Shanks is also heading for the One Piece I'm starting to think Oda is writing them as a delayed destiny type of thing. That they were always supposed to carry on Roger's will together & the biggest mistake of the past is anyone thinking only one of Roger's apprentices was supposed to be his heir so to speak. They were supposed to be a team not rivals.
Last thing I want to bring up is how Luffy keeps being put in Shanks' shoes when it comes to his crew except where Shanks failed Luffy didn't. The Usopp conflict in Water 7/Eneis Lobby especially plays like a 2nd Shanks & Buggy fall out to me.
Not only are Buggy & Usopp both extremely insecure in their own power, but they too interpreted their friends words/actions as a slap to the face. However Luffy was able & willing to do the work to close the distance between his Nakama & resolve the miscommunication while Shanks just...gave up essentially. Being not only an example of how Luffy can do what Shanks never could, but also the new generation succeeding where the last one failed. I can't help but think when we learn Shanks & Buggy's history Oda intends for us to think about this parallel and view it as mistake.
So I wouldn't be surprised if we got at least one more reunion between Shuggy & when we do they come to this realization that they have a chance to correct the mistakes of the past and team up for something significant in terms of plot. That their destiny's lie with eachother not against.
thoughts?
I think this is the first time someone has sent me an ask that's not anonymous. This made me really happy, so thank you, and hi!
Is "I agree and disagree" a proper answer? I don't know. I think you're right in that the "evolved" (emotionally mature, post character-growth) versions of Shanks and Buggy could have accomplished a lot together. But that's just it -- in order to evolve, you have to start somewhere. It's like expecting Luffy to still be able to protect his crew the way he does now without going through the tragedy at Sabaody and Marineford. Shanks and Buggy were always fated to part, because they needed to grow separately to meet back up again as true and equal counterparts. To change, you've got to experience things that make you realize you need to change.
I think there is a world where Buggy would've followed Shanks and been on his crew, but in that world, he also would've never addressed the root of his problem: his own insecurity. He needed to go out on his own to find himself. "Would Shanks be as passive?" "Would Buggy's ambition and anxiety push him to be more proactive in whatever it is he's supposed to do on behalf of Roger?" The questions you're asking are insightful and fun thought experiments, but in my opinion, a narrative impossibility. Loguetown Buggy would never follow a Shanks that fell back on Laughtale, and Loguetown Shanks will always prioritize his idea of the "greater good." So when you say the world would be better "had they stuck together," I half-disagree, because I don't think this hypothetical world could ever exist. (Also, from an author's standpoint, it feels like cheating your way to the end without earning it -- bypassing all the juicy stuff about character writing, like the internal and external conflicts which push characters to change.)
However, the idea that they're destined to carry on Roger's legacy together is such a great idea -- I love that! It warms my heart. I've always viewed Roger's will as something split between Buggy and Luffy, but what you proposed is something I can totally get behind. And I could 100% see Oda going in that direction.
#“their destinies lie with each other not against”#WAHHHH#imagine my head exploding#bc that's what's happening rn#love love love it#but yeah i just don't necessarily view the shuggy split as a “mistake”#buggy was only able to go after his dream *now* because shanks turned away from laughtale *then*#if they had stayed together buggy would never think of himself as someone who's on equal footing w/ shanks#& thus do what he did in 1082#it was the unfortunate event that needed to happen. at least in my opinion#that's just my take though -- everything you said is still a completely valid and well-thought theory!! so thank you for sharing it with me#ask
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so there's a reason my new job got back to me so quickly about my application and that's bc it's an absolute fucking shambles like actually perfect timing for me to decide to rewatch the bear bc i have never more felt like ive been thrown into a broke on-its-knees establishment trying to crawl its way up the ladder where i am somehow a godsend to them. my old job was crazy and shambolic in the sense that the industry is just Like That but this one?????? insanity. every 5 mins i am questioning what im doing with my life. ive already had a walk-in fridge moment
#so i explained before that there's 3 venues and on my very first shift they had me doing the restaurant venue for 2 hours#which was FINE like i was a bit cautious bc my manager is VERY stressed all the time and the place generally feels like it's falling apart#not the building itself just. the way it's run like it's just got new owners and the previous manager apparently#EMPTIED THE TILLS AND TRASHED THE PLACE like cost them THOUSANDS of pounds and on top of that#there was beef with the head chef and the new owners that meant he left and took the ENTIRE BACK OF HOUSE WITH HIM#THERE ARE NO KITCHEN STAFF ATM. I HAVE TO LIE AND TELL CUSTOMERS WE DONT HAVE FOOD ATM BC OF 'REFURBISHMENT'#WHEN IN ACTUALITY THE /RESTAURANT/ DOESNT HAVE CHEFS. DO YOU KNOW HOW CRAZY THAT IS#and then the front of house staff are very lacking aside maybe 2 people we're ALL NEW and all of them EXCEPT ME#LIKE LITERALLY JUST ME IM THE ONLY EXCEPTION. ALL OF THEM ARE UNTRAINED#so when i applied with bar training coffee training and very solid waitressing skills they genuinely treated me like a saviour#like i am FENDING off shifts tbh im in a v good position bc they need me too much to get shitty w me if i refuse hours but i can literally#have as many as i want bc they will just give me them. like they're obsessed w me im rota'd for over 60 hours this week#but anyway that very first shift after 2 hours in the restaurant i then walked to the mini golf venue on the OTHER SIDE OF TOWN#and my manager stayed for 30 MINUTES. IF THAT. and showed me around the place + how to close THEN LEFT ME THERE#FIRST DAY HE GAVE ME THE KEYS AND LEFT ME TO RUN AN ENTIRE VENUE. IT'S NOT SMALL EITHER IT'S A WHOLE BAR#AND I HAD TO CLOSE ON MY OWN TOO and ironically the shift itself went rlly well like it was so chill#it was kinda boring but honestly i kinda rated it it's v easy money and the close went perfectly nothing cropped up that i was unsure about#and then. AND THEN. i havent even ranted to my mutuals about this yet bc i was acc so horrified by it but i locked the front doors#and went to lock the gate AND THE KEY GOT STUCK IN THE LOCK. WOULD NOT COME OUT. HELLA VS KEYS ROUND 3927593#my mum even showed up and tried to help me wrestle this thing out i called my manager and he literally told me to just snap it#bc he'd rather a snapped key that NO ONE could get out than just leave it there overnight but bc of my recent house key moment#i was like AM I FUCK SNAPPING THIS KEY. WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING. so i had to just leave it and at the time#i was realllyyyyyyyyyy beating myself up but my manager is actually rlly nice he's just stretched v thin#and ive also had time to be like uhh actually they shouldnt have left a random 21 y/o girl alone with the keys on her first day#omg i havent even talked about what happened on saturday. ACTUAL SHAMBLES#LIKE THIS /\/\ ISNT EVEN CLOSE TO EVERYTHING! IM RUNNING OUT OF TAG ROOM! IM GONNA REBLOG THIS TONIGHT W MORE PROBABLY!#BC GUESS WHO IS WORKING A CLOSE LATER AT THE NIGHTCLUB THEN OPENING THE RESTAURANT AT 8AM. GUESS#hella slaves to capitalism
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Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.
I don't have external meltdowns.
I could. I don't let it happen.
I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.
So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.
She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.
Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].
It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.
They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.
I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.
I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.
I couldn't understand what made her like this.
But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.
If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.
And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*
And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?
My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.
Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???
And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.
I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*
She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.
I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.
So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.
But I told her hundreds of times.
I probably should have just screamed at her.
#good stay out of our yard' and he didn't seem to know what to say to that#but other than that I don't think anyone in my adult life has ever seen me turn aggressive at all to the point where people 100% like to#play games of testing my patience and my boundaries because they think my tolerance is infinite#but like I have autistic rage tantrums on both sides of my family and they are just happening inside my head#And somehow it took me until now to realize that being that way was actually -expected- of me by my parents and especially my mother#and that by keeping myself outwardly level headed to be considerate I actually took away whatever signals she can understand#to have empathy for how I must be feeling#I mean it's still all on her#but it makes so much sense of why she's fucking *like this*#And why my sister thinks I hate her just because -she- stopped texting -me-#but that fucking guy#Every time I was like#In my adult life I have screamed at someone ONE whole time and it was 1000% deserved#And I threw heavy objects around one whole other time and in my defense I didn't do it in front of the guy he just felt the ground shaking#heard the thuds and came back to the logs blocking his path because that fucker wouldn't stop parking in our yard after being asked#and then TOLD not to about 10 times because he was acting entitled to just park in our yard and was crushing my plants???#seriously I don't know what his deal was but he wouldn't stop telling me how much the ground shaking scared him like it was supposed#to get my pity like I think this guy took one look at the logs I had just tossed down and was suddenly afraid of this “woman” he was#bullying in their own yard and so my ability to feel bad for scaring him had gone straight out the fucking window#I looked at him and said stop parking in our yard instead of your own you are killing my plants#he'd just fucking be like 'well the last people to live here let us D: :)“ and I'd be like ”good for them?“ ”stop“#and he'd just keep doing it#I was having a week of insomnia and was finally having the best dream#the kind of sex dream you have like twice in your life#and this fucker had just gotten some noisy ass little bike with a spoiler on it#and starts it up right under my window at 3am from IN OUR FUCKING YARD#so I had a nice long anger nap and just after he got home from work and was sleeping in his house#I picked up these chunks of deadwood tree from the back#there was like 3-4 logs that used to be a WHOLEASS fucking oak tree Like these logs were not as heavy as they -looked- but they were still#this fucker deleted half the tags I wrote and I am not retyping that fuck you tumblr so fucking hard
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my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled
OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY
#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it#rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf#you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something#he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing#i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience#like [i can help you if you've never done it before?]#honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that#SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY#anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels#would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it?#rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes#but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party...#maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance#at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down#rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety#because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL#yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is#i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden#eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so#but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too#eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰#i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights?#or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol#yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels#yes. yes this is the vision#yakurei#replies#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival rei
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I am thinking about Osha.
I don't think we've really gotten to know her on screen yet, and I'm looking forward to the rest of her story. But we've gotten plenty of hints to her character, enough to start to paint a picture.
Osha loves her sister. They're siblings, and they fight; Mae wants them to be the same, twins forever, and Osha wants to do her own thing, be different. But they were raised together, know each other too well for anything but love or hate to grow. Or both.
And Osha loves her sister.
But then her sister was gone. Gone in a fire, that killed their entire family; gone after threatening to kill Osha, after their last, perhaps worst, (perhaps not), fight.
And Osha was brought to become a Jedi.
She'd wanted to be a Jedi. That's what their fight had been about; that's what drove Mae to start the fire, led to their family's deaths. And Osha was told it was Mae's fault, and blamed her: if only Mae hadn't started that fire. If only Mae hadn't been so angry, so awful. If only Osha hadn't driven her to it. If only she'd just agreed to stay.
Osha blames Mae, because otherwise, who else would she blame but herself?
Osha loves Mae, and hates her, and blames her. And then she comes to the Jedi.
The Jedi don't practice hate. They don't cling to love. They feel it, cherish it, and let it go, let it pass through them. They don't let it hound their thoughts, guide their actions, lest their emotions lead them astray.
And Osha wanted so much to be a Jedi.
But to do that, she had to let go of her hate. Let go of the blame. Let go of her last ties to Mae and her family, even as they curdle and fester.
Let go of her attachments.
No wonder she left the Jedi. No wonder she struggles so hard, aims for Mae when the Master is right there, sticks around when he offers her something else. She's been clinging to her hate of Mae for so long, her hate that's become indistinguishable from her love, so she doesn't have to look at herself. Look at what happened. Let her family go.
I don't think Osha is to blame for her family's death. I doubt Mae is, either; even if she started the fire, she didn't intend for what happened next. I don't think we have the full story.
But I don't think Osha does either. Or Mae. Or, possible, even the Jedi.
They're all still trapped there, in the fire on Brendok, one way or another. Mae with her revenge, the Jedi with their shame, Osha with her guilt, and fear, and anger.
None of them have been able to let go.
#they get into your head and stay there#they said about the witches#they sure seem to have stayed#in the minds of everyone there that night#i just want to know!!#great show#also not sure who else caught it#but kelnacca's hut?#was covered with symbols from brendok#which makes two jedi who went weird#after that little trip#three if you count sol's breakdown#because he is BREAKING DOWN#in that last episode!#the acolyte#the acolyte spoilers#star wars: the acolyte#osha#mae#verosha aniseya#mae-ho aniseya#jedi master sol#what happened on brendok??#star wars#my thoughts#meta#acolyte meta#long post
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#what was supposed to be a fun day ended up in me & my mom calling a doctor and eventually ambulance (no sirens) for my grandpa#it's 11:30pm and we just got back home after 10+ hours#long story very short we found him covered in urine and tripping over his own feet. not drinking or eating much for days#i made the call to get him checked before the weekend and i'm glad i did. he's staying the night at the hospital now#where they can do some tests. the er doctors suspected he was close to a delerium#i haven't had anything to eat all day and i'm physically and emotionally exhausted#gonna eat some pizza now and watch the f1 quali before i pass out#he's doing okay now and he's in good hands. just had to empty my head for a bit
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#I had a dream about the handsome chubby straight dad from work#I was working alone and he came into the store right when I was about to close#which he’s done a couple times in real life and I’m always more than happy to let him stay even though it’s after hours#but anyway in the dream he came in and I walked up and reached out to shake his hand#then he grabbed my hand and held onto it and pushed me up against a wall#his entire body was pressed up against me and he had one leg pressed between mine and I could feel his bulge on my hip#he held my hands up above my head and looked down at me and said ‘‘this is what you want right? I’ve seen how you look at me”#I barely managed to choke out a ‘‘yes sir”#he said ‘‘I used to do this all the time. had an overnight bag for any situations that might come up just in case’’#he said that his wife knew what he was doing and that the one time he’d brought her in was so she could meet me and approve of me#‘‘I’m sorry if I misread but I think you want this as much as I do”#he was so handsome and big and feeling his body against mine while he had me pushed up against the wall was just asdfghjkllkl#fuuuuuuck#I woke up so fucking hard y’all#just absolutely bricked up and throbbing#anyway I promise I’m being completely normal about this dream#me#personal as hell#lubbock texas#we've always been around
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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