#but the way you phrased it surprised me a lot 😂

[kyoupann]

Hi! I see you reference your job a lot. If you don’t mind sharing, what sort of field do you work in? What type of job do you do? Just curious :)

Omg, do I??? Don't tell me that 😭

It's nothing crazy. I just work a simple desk job in tourism. I work with multiple restaurants, handling their administrative/accounting, and legal paperwork (to the best of my ability, once it's out of it, I call their lawyer). Up until recently I also took care of all HR matters, but my boss realised it was too much for one person so they lightened my load without affecting my salary yey! 🥰 I also do a bit of social media managing and I'm a booking agent for a local content creator ✌️🐳

[revelboo]

Heyyyyyyyyy it's meeeeeee the devilllll back with a figure update and Suprise! It's not blokees! It is however, everyone's favorite cryptic

You have no idea how tempting it is to paint his claws and cables

😂 That’s the Gear Factory Demonic Whisper figure, right? I’d just ordered everyone’s favorite Cryptid daddy, too

Bad Idea Pt 17

TFP Soundwave x Reader

• Making a little sound of protest when his tendrils lift you enough to slide a blanket under you and then you’re eased back down. Head turning to rest on your arm as another blanket is draped over you, you watch him hesitate before touching your cheek with a servo. The touch almost an apology, but you know he has whatever secret alien stuff he does to do and as much as you’d love to spend all day exploring each other, you understand. “Kick ass,” you tell him and he flips the end of your blanket over your head before leaving you, but not before the drone darts inside to light on the berth and give you a very judgmental stare.

• Hates being away from you, but can’t just leave Starscream to his own devices since Megatron’s preoccupied. Doesn’t really trust the Seeker not to be scheming without someone keeping an optic on him. Entering command, he’s not at all surprised to find Starscream sprawled on Megatron’s throne ordering Vehicons about. Though the little human he’s cradling against his chassis and idly petting is new. Staring until the Seeker gets uncomfortable and slides off the throne, wings flaring aggressively. He probably should be a bit worried about Starscream having a human, but if it keeps him from plotting?

• Squawking at you in a decidedly disgruntled tone, big bird flares up his panels. Offended at what you’d done with his daddy, maybe? Does he know what you two did? Sitting up and wrapping your blanket around yourself, you offer him a smile. “Can we maybe start over? Play nice?” You ask and he hisses at you, croaking like a crow. Alright, then. You decide to take that as a no, though to be fair, you have no idea how smart the drone is. Maybe he’s like a big parrot and he just repeats stuff and there’s not a lot happening in that dumb, bird brain. “You can hate me all you want. Not my fault he’s a total DILF.” And that head tips, a calculating gleam in those optics. He doesn’t know what that means. He can’t.

• Working at his console, he vents as Starscream pulls something from subspace and offers it to the little human he’d perched on his own console. Can hear the Seeker crooning to the human he’s apparently calling ‘Fluffy’ and who appears just resigned as they take the package of food he’s offering them. Spotting him staring, the Seeker’s wings flick before he pointedly turns his attention back to fussing over the beleaguered human. At least they’re keeping him busy, he supposes.

• “DILF. Soundwave total DILF.” Hopping around on the berth, the drone croaks at you. Combining that harsh snarling voice saying Soundwave’s name with your own voice while you chases after him, wrapped in a blanket. “Shut up! Delete that right now!” You demand, aware that you have no way to back up the words. Something big bird seems fully aware of as he evaded your clumsy attempts to catch him. While shouting his new favorite phrase and you swear he’s laughing.

• Returning to his habsuite, he pauses in the doorway to watch you chasing after Lazerbeak as the drone shrieks. “Soundwave total DILF!” And you spot him standing there and stumble to a stop looking absolutely mortified, can feel your horrified embarrassment crashing over him in waves. Head tipping, he hooks a thought in the human information network, because that’s a word he’s not encountered before and you’d called him- ah. “DILF!” Lazerbeak cackles as you put your face in your hands and his tendrils restlessly writhe.

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[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

skully j. graves halfway checkpoint

Consider this part 2 of my evolving opinion on Skully! My initial impressions of him can be found here. Now that we’re at part 3 (presumably out of 5) of the event, I wanted to check in with updates on my feelings!

A lot of the points in my first impressions post still stand. However, what I’ll say is that Skully’s… villainous side… has definitely come out very strongly, especially in 3-20. A lot of my friends were squealing and getting super excited over this part. I feel like a lot of his popularity comes from 2 factors: 1) his overt flintiness (since much of the Twst fandom seems to long for this kind of (yume) content) and 2) Skully is one of the few characters who consistently acknowledges Yuu and asks for their opinions on stuff. The latter is very in demand, especially for the western fandom, which is very individualistic and often views Yuu or their Yuusonas as an integral character. And that’s valid! It’s just that this alone isn’t enough to satisfy me.

I’m… admittedly less thrilled about the direction Skully’s taking, and it’s completely for reasons related to my personal tastes 😂 I had mentioned in my original post that Skully reads to me as a Halloween-flavored Idia due to his otaku-like obsession with Halloween and how negatively he reacts when people express dissent toward his opinion. It feels very elitist and gate-keepy, which are aspects of fandom culture I find distasteful. (This is also a large part of why I didn’t like Idia at first.)

Edit (noticed this later and decided to tack it on): Another thing that really bothered me was that Skully keeps asking Yuu for their opinion. It SEEMS polite to consider them, but his intentions are way less selfless than they appear. Skully is often asking Yuu for their thoughts AFTER some other character has disagreed with him. So he is literally only consulting Yuu because he wants someone on HIS side. If you ever pick the dialogue option where you disagree with him, Skully insists there must be a misunderstanding and he will explain it to you no matter how long it takes. Don’t you see??? He doesn’t want to know what Yuu truly thinks; he wants validation in his own way of thinking. That’s NOT actually being considerate. The same shit happens when Skully tries to kiss Grim again. Grim dodges but Skully sneaks behind him and kisses him anyway because I guess that’s what gentlemen do according to him. Bro has demonstrated time and time again he does not value consent nor what others’ thoughts are on anything that differs from his own thoughts.

Those aspects of Skully get even more prominent in part 3. Throughout this section, Skully keeps reassuring himself that while he’s going along with the group’s plans for a boisterous and exciting Halloween, he’s certain that Jack-sama will surprise everyone with a Halloween that is more in line with a solitary, depressing one Skully envisions. Once Skully learns that Jack has no such intentions, he is disappointed and proceeds with a series of crimes 💀 Skully:

Tricks the Pumpkin King into drinking a sleeping poison

Does the good ol’ crazed villain laugh

Pulls a serious of expressions not even a loving mother would excuse

Curses and shouts

Assumes control of the Halloween plans

PUMPKINS GRIM when Grim and Yuu walk in on the scene of his crime (even when Grim gives zero indication that he thinks Skully is responsible for the poisoning)

Stuffs pumpkin!Grim into a sack

Colludes with Lock, Shock, and Barrel (for what yet, I don’t know)

Casually decides to show Yuu the best Halloween ever AFTER ALL THAT (it’s still not clear at this point if Yuu also got Pumpkin’d or not); the phrasing is still quite romantic but this is still a hostage situation, no??????

Like, wow, that’s… 😭 I’m not necessarily upset that Skully does bad things in the first place (lots of the Twst characters do questionable things), I’m just not sure if I’m following his reasoning for doing all of this. It seems like a LOT to me. Like, very niche and highly targeted anger.

He seems fixated on his own idea of Halloween—the Halloween he grew up with and was taught about in his village. For whatever reason, he is very sensitive to people challenging this version of the holiday or doing anything new. In fact, he becomes IRATE about it and drops the gentlemanly facade (which also seems to be something he is concerned about maintaining??). Skully is very frustrated that people don’t understand him, and that now his Halloween idol is also letting him down. Notably, his politeness deteriorates when he speaks about those who disregard his opinions on Halloween. He either becomes very gloomy or very mad (usually the latter), venting about worthless idiots who don’t understand his vision. Very strangely, he also mentions vaguely spiritual terms like atonement and his purpose in this world. Skully’s obsession with Halloween is so intense that it is evident even in his UM.

I get that his hometown was into this stuff, but even then, it seems pretty excessive??? Why is he so… insecure about this? Why does he react so violently? It really makes me wonder what the backstory will be for this massive Halloween fixation. Surely it’s not just being bullied by peers for his special interests (though that might play a role in it)? It sems to go far deeper than that. I would like to know, but I won’t be setting my expectations too high in case i end up being disappointed 💦 Historically, backstory reveals haven’t always made me like characters more.

I also feel like he’s not as crafty as previous Halloween villains were. Rollo ran on spite and constructed an elaborate plan to entrap the NRC students, Fellow relied on his UM and smooth talk… Skully is somewhat tricky in that he poisons Jack, but then he automatically gives himself away by pumpkin-ing Grim??? Why didn’t he just pretend he visited Jack and found him already poisoned? It would be so easy for him to play innocent and Grim and Yuu would believe him because he’s been mostly nice and even agreed to follow along with the Halloween plans even if he disagreed with them. He literally could have blamed Boogie’s Boys or Oogie Boogie himself, ANYONE. And how exactly does Skully plan on taking over Halloween after all of this??? He doesn’t exactly command power. Skully just seems a little short sighted and disorganized, and I don’t know if I enjoy this kind of a character.

Skully’s controlling, angry otaku energy is unfortunately NOT appealing to me whatsoever… Again, it feels like the worst aspects of Idia OTL But!! i’m really happy for all the people who really like this about him and I’m of course staying open minded for where this event will take us. Who knows, maybe parts 4 and 5 will completely turn him around for me, maybe once we get the backstory. (This sort of happened with me and Idia?? He’s still not my favorite guy but I definitely empathized with him a lot more after seeing the post-OB flashback.) We’ll see!

P.S. I wonder if the R cards this event will be the first to be pumpkin’d similar to how R cards in Playful Land were the first to be puppet’d?? That would certainly get the biggest threat to Skully’s plans, Malleus, out of the picture quickly. First it was Tamago-sama… Now it’s Kabocha-sama…

P. P. S. Slightly morbid to think about how those skewered pumpkins Jamil was stroking could have been pumpkin’d people 💀

[kurishiri]

Hiiii!! I want to say how much I really appreciate and enjoy reading your translations!! I enjoy rereading them often because it helps me understand something new about the character I am interested in!! Right now it is Darius so I have been reading a lot of your translations on him and I can’t wait to read more about him on his bond levels as I really want to know more about him and how he is with Kate. I am really curious what kind of suitor do you think Darius would be and how his overall character is with Kate? Again thank you so much for your hard work and hope you have an amazing 2025!! 🫶🫶🫶 Please take care!! 💕

haaii, happy 2025! ✨✨ and ty for your kind words too. i’m so happy to hear you’ve been enjoying the translations i do – it makes it all worth it 🥹🙏

and as for darius…he’s indeed one fascinating cookie! i’m gonna put thoughts under the cut bc ,, uh it may or may not have gotten kiiinda long 😂👌

darius vogel essay ↓

HIS CHARACTER.

i feel he, as a character, is quite childlike in the sense he just does whatever strikes his fancy because that’s what he wants to do. but he’s also very calculating and subtle to not show potential weaknesses. i wouldn’t be surprised if he’s gone through a lot of trauma overall, though, seeing how he seems to dissociate from himself, going so far as to think he’s “above” humans, as if he himself isn’t one (and yet, he is also very human, in an almost raw sense – his interest in kate as his “favorite” shows that he is not actually that capable of letting go of worldly attachments, and he is drawn to the idea of the “impure” in his birthday epilogue, when he smeared berry sauce on kate’s cheeks and wanted to keep his eyes on that).

interestingly, how his childlike front and calculating personality interact is something we can witness in one go when we can look at his relationship with food. he probably has had some form of food trauma (e.g. dealing with assassination attempts via poison in his food), as he seems to need to see others eat the same food first before he himself eats. but he doesn’t ask this directly, instead phrasing it like an invitation for the other to eat first. in this way, he doesn’t have to put himself in a more vulnerable state than the other. he eats with proper table manners while dining with crown “out of consideration,” but he prefers to eat messily, likely as an act of rebellion…could he have been in a very controlling environment when he was young?

this could in turn spur him on to be controlling of others in the present. i don’t think he is incapable of love like he claims, but i do think his sense of love, thanks to what could be growing up in a controlling environment, is inherently warped. i mean, if we look at dari and his relationship with ring…i don’t think it’s that darius doesn’t hold any “love” for ring — he probably thinks it’s a form of love in a way — and i think ring does need darius in the sense that darius is the one who can provide him stability and validation. when ring is hesitant to do something, he turns to darius. if darius thinks it’s alright, then ring does too. but also, darius is arguably very controlling over ring and manipulates him too. could be abuse, if we’re speaking bluntly. (one that i think, in a sense, ring can feel too.)

RELATIONSHIP WITH KATE.

so if we extend from that logic, i think his relationship with kate would get a bit twisted and gnarly as time goes on, when kate starts to become more than a “favorite” that darius sorta likes to coddle over like a pet. he seems to hold some yandere tendencies fs over kate — which goes further to show his sort of controlling nature. hell, he joked abt shipping her to germany. darius calm down! we can discuss this ,,!

anw it’s probably more so a relationship where kate chooses to “fall” along with darius. stuck in this cycle of trying to prove love exists to him and whatnot. or, i think it would be cool for it to sort of be that way. i know it’s an otome game, but also i think i kind of like the idea of sort of exploring a more complicated relationship, where whether it’s really truly romantic in nature is sorta left more vague and up to interpretation.

at the moment, though, from what i can glean from these two…kate seems to want to get along with darius, yk, like she would want to do for others. she sort of wants to treat darius as an equal, even though she is a bit cautious of him, very understandably so. she doesn’t seem that afraid of approaching him as a whole, though she also expresses some dissatisfaction at him sort of treating her like a pet and whatnot. however, it feels like in the end, it’s always him who gets the last word. they also seem to be opposites in the sense that darius doesn’t believe in love, while kate believes no one can truly live without love, to which darius says to “prove” that love exists. so maybe there’s a bit of that opposites attract sorta vibe going on too?

basically, kate can either “prove” love to darius, or the “poison” darius imbues in her will act on her first. perhaps that’s a matter of time.

[dramalove247]

Favorite Things: See Your Love

Shows should not be allowed to have this much cute and fluffy. They set the bar way too high, even for fiction! The focus on being seen, embraced, and loved unconditionally tells a really beautiful and touching story and we love it more than is healthy.

This show made us laugh and cry. Below are some of our favorite moments and posts we found on tumblr (spoilers ahead):

Going to start with the ending because we CAN NOT with this scene. This show had so many devastatingly beautiful and romantic moments that we are overly obsessed with. And then they gave us this. The way they see each other and love each other completely and unconditionally is everything. I don't love you in spite of who you are, I love you because it's who you are. FJHHSOIYOIHWKNW!!! Too many feelings!

We love translation posts and this one by @thisonelikesaliens compared the translations of this one phrase on different platforms. We agree that Gaga won on this one! Too funny!

This scene made us choke! Thanks for the GIFS @pointlesscandies

This edit post by @theside-b was so HILARIOUS!!! 🤣 It lives rent free in our brain now.

This scene. Their faces. We were completely destroyed. Had to share these GIFS from @tokkistuff

It's what makes you YOU 😭😭😭 I'm not crying, you're crying! Thanks for the GIFS @taeminie

First @theside-b made us laugh with their hilarious edit, and then made us cry with these beautiful GIFS. This entire conversation was everything. Love this show so much.

This scene was 🥰. But this post by @hughungrybear made us 😂

Some of us have to do mental/emotional gymnastics when dubcon is part of a story. We're not sure being intentionally mislead is much better, but it was definitely a surprise and we'll admit, the scene was a little funny and @pointlesscandies post made me laugh!

Did you love it as much as we did? What were your favorite things?

[moondaepuppy]

actor au!Debut or die

(I love actor au's, so here's my brain rot)

(During the audition process) Ahyeon wanting to ask moondae for a hug after his audition scene with him (because he's a fan!!)but doesn't because he worries it would be weird/make moondae uncomfortable (meanwhile moondae knowing he wants to ask for something and waiting for him to bring it up~), then ahyeon regrets not asking because he thinks there's no way he's getting the role. But he does???!!!! Then at the script reading he finally asks, but for a handshake, but ends up admitting he wanted a hug, so moondae, mid hand-shake, pulls him in for a hug.

(Also: moondae watching ayheon's dance audition tape numerous times.)

Eugene getting banned from the snack table within the first days of filming

Everyone turning up to watch moondae's solo scenes, even if they're not scheduled on set

Having to do far too many takes of moondae's pop*con audition scene because people's laughter kept ruining the take and moondae kept breaking character (the judges reactions were real)

[Lee Sejin's vlog of the BTS of the pop*con filming going viral]

(the pop*con choreo was made by moondae, with some help from ahyeon. Sejin was there also but moondae threw him out of the rehearsal room)

Gunwoo having a cold exterior and seeming unapproachable but his personality is an actual puppy, while moondae is vice versa. The two get along well, the cast and crew joke that maybe they really did swap bodies

Eugene and Sejin pranking the rest of the cast

[Image of Shin Jaehyun with his arm on the back of park moondae's chair during the script read-through.]

The crew watching in awed silence during cheongryeo/moondae scenes (novel readers you know) because the intensity/tension and chemistry is insane. The two just feed off each other so well. Jaehyun also tends to improv a lot in the moment, in ways that may be surprising but work so good. It drives moondae crazy (the control freak haha), but he's always good at staying in character (aside from the one exception 🍿😂) . Jaehyun is usually pretty chill but around moondae his mischievous side is drawn out ~

(also Raebin watching with sparkle eyes, because he's a fanboy of Shin Jaehyun)

That time Kim Raebin (wearing a face mask) was lost and mistaken for an intern and ended up carrying around everyone's coffee because it felt too impolite to say no and then the timing to say something never came. (It wasn't until Eugene came looking for him that people realised.)

On-set, Eugene asking moondae and ahyeon to explain certain words/phrases in the script he's unfamiliar with. His scripts will have notes in their handwriting dotted throughout.

Eugene doodles in his script and others. (Bae sejin secretly likes this, and 'accidentally' leaves his script near Eugene sometimes haha)

That time ahyeon almost burnt down his van trying to make food (the crew left a sign on his stove: 'AHYEON. NO.')

During scenes where they're eating, the director would worry abt Eugene because he eats a lot (he has the same appetite as his character) (and they have to do multiple takes) but the crew quickly realised they needn't waste their energy. (Director: "Eugene, really, don't eat so much during the scene! You'll make yourself sick!" *Eugene pouting, the cast laughing* Lee Sejin: "There's no need to worry, Eugene's stomach is the endless abyss haha~" and then later→ director, stern, ignoring those puppy dog eyes: "Eugene! You have one pizza limit for this scene! I mean it! We can't go over budget!" *Eugene pouts, until the cast give him their leftovers* (this makes it into the final cut).

[clip from bts, director interview: "Lee Sejin is very professional while working, as long as you keep him away from moondae." (Cut to lee sejin who is laying on the floor, crying from laughing, while moondae is stood next to him. "Director, please change the script to me killing him." (Off-screen) "My answer is still no, moondae."]

[wishpid]

Bite Me

Pairing: Vampire! Jay x Human! reader

Length: 1.43k words Genre: imagine, drama

Warnings: not edited, mentioning wanting to cry, feeling nervous, slight angst, mini argument, use of the words: hissing & snarled, insecure (or is he?) jay, the phrase 'kicked puppy', regret is brought up a lot, mention of killing people, jay's pov at the end, some long paragraphs (especially in jay's pov)

Synopsis: Your relationship with Jay has developed further, and you're sure that he's the one you want to be with for the rest of your life. Speaking of your life, you tell your vampire boyfriend to change you.

Note: This is continuation of 'Still a Monster' but this will still make a sense alone. I use underline italics for sarcasm and underline for emphasis. I wasn't expecting this ending, but the story had a mind of its own and we ended up here 😂 More: Check out my orchard to find more of my works! And feel free to look at 'Vampire! Jay' on Pinterest

@kim2005bomi

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

"This was such a lovely dinner" you tell your boyfriend as he gathers up the dishes. "Thank you, Jay" you say as you gently pull him down for a kiss.

"Anything for you, baby" Jay said as the two of you separated. Today was the 5th anniversary of your relationship, still going strong despite Jay's worry that you leave after learning about his vampirism.

"I have one more gift for you". Your eyes sparkling as you thought about the surprise you had for the immortal man. He turned to look at you with his brows furrowed and a slight pout (one that he would deny having if you mentioned it).

"You didn't have to get me anything else. You've already given me a new necklace and watch".

"But I want to". Mummering under your breath, you added "it's more of gift for the both of us".

"What did you say?" Jay asked, looking up from the sink. You only smiled and shook your head in return. Taking his hands, you led the male towards the couch; similar to when you learned about his secret. Your heart was beating was fast as you grew more nervous and you were sure Jay could hear it. The vampire tighten his grip on your intertwined hands, as if to confirm that thought, before leaning in to peck your lips once again. Taking a deep breath, you decided to plainly tell him how you felt and your thought process.

"Jay," you stopped looking into his eyes and the love that you found in his made you want to burst into tears. "You're the love of my life and I want to have a forever with you. And I trust you so much which is why I want you to change me" you told him, trying to maintain eye contact but ultimately looking down to you conjoined hands. You were hoping that he felt the same way, that he wanted a forever with you the way that you did with him. Jay cleared his throat and pulled his hands away from yours. It was enough to make your desire to cry grow stronger.

"And what?! Turn you into a monster like I am?!" he hissed as he got up. "No way. There's no way I would willingly do that to you" Jay adamantly continued. He walked away, back into his kitchen and stood at his sink.

"Jay!" you cried out at his words. While you knew he was struggling with the things done in his past, you didn't think that he still saw himself as a monster. "I don't think of you that way, and I know you don't think of the rest of the boys like that" you said, walking up to him and pointing your finger into his chest. Jay snarled at the action and his fangs glimmered at you in warning. "And I know you wouldn't let me do something that I'll come to regret. So other than 𝑚̲𝑜̲𝑛̲𝑠̲𝑡̲𝑒̲𝑟̲ reasoning, what are you scared about?" you argued back, not backing down from the male, glaring into his eyes now opposite of earlier this evening. You weren't scared of Jay, he was only acting tough and trying to get you to drop the subject, he wouldn't actually hurt you.

"And that's why I'm not going to change you!" the male snapped but despite his demeanor, and proving your point, took a step back to create distance. You rolled your eyes in response as you put your hands onto your hips.

"What part of you being the love of my life, did you not hear?!"

"But that's only for now! What happens when you change your mind?" he screamed and it clicked for you why he was against the decision. He was scared, scared of being abandoned, scared of you leaving him.

"Jay, my love, did I leave when you told me a vampire?" you asked him, stopping to wait for his answer. The vampiric male only shook his head, not verbally responding to you. Jay's demeanor had changed dramatically, no longer acting aggressive. If it wasn't for the situation, you would liken him to a kicked puppy. "I've continued to stay by your side in these past five years. And I would hope that you're not, but hearing you say that makes me wonder if you're doubting the love I have for you" you continued before pausing. Turning away from the male, you let out a shaky sigh. "But either way, I wouldn't want to force you into something that you don't want to do". You walked away from Jay, heading towards the bathroom. You didn't want to leave him alone, for fear that you'd be confirming his fears, but you need a moment alone.

ꨄ︎

Jay crouched as he heard a door close, he wasn't sure where Y/N had gone. He leaned his forehead onto the cabinets, scrunching up his hands into fists. Jay banged his head on the door as the sound of muffled crying emerged from somewhere in the apartment. He hated when Y/N would cried, e̲s̲p̲e̲c̲i̲a̲l̲l̲y̲ n̲o̲w̲ when he was the reason behind it. The vampiric male understood Y/N's why, he wanted the same thing. Jay would love to have Y/N by his side for eternity, but this popped up from nowhere. He didn't want his partner to do something that they could come to regret. Jay stood up, abandoning the spot to find the room Y/N was in. Stopping at where the cries resonated from, he knocked at the bathroom door. "Babe, come out when you're ready to talk?" he told the other before walking off again. Jay sat in the couch, after the heated discussion, he wanted to give Y/N space.

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Jay turned his head around as the door screeched open. Y/N sniffled as they walked into the living room. He stood up but hesitated pulling them in a hug, despite his want to give comfort. Jay watched as they sat in the arm chair to the side, effectively creating some distance between the two of them. Y/N looked downcast, their head and shoulder curled into their chest. The human's hands gripping their elbows hidden in the jacket they were wearing. "Baby.." Jay trailed off as he stared at them, still standing in the same spot he'd froze in. The vampire cleared his throat before continuing and slowly settling onto his previous seat. "Baby, I just don't want you to regret anything. Changing means leaving a lot more behind than anything that you could gain in the immortal future. It means leaving your family, friends, the place you live; basically everything and everyone you know. I don't want for you to look at me with hatred for having changed you in 100 years" he explained to his partner. While Jay's dead heart had fluttered at the thought of Y/N being a vampire with him; he knew they didn't know everything they would be getting into. Jay stills feels guilt from killing innocent people, but he also hated watching his family age and grow from afar. It was torture, one he wouldn't wish on his worst enemy let alone his lover. "You would never be able to return to the life that you have now. Your family would mourn you with a funeral, the people who care about you will cry over your death. You'd outgrow not only your parents, but your siblings and their children. You'd never get to see them up close again; who knows if you'd ever get to see them the way you know them again. Changing you means changing every aspect of your life" Jay pointed out further to the downtrodden Y/N. They had looked up from their lap, Jay could now see how red rimmed eyes and tear-stained cheeks. They let out a whimper at the immortal's words. It was obvious they hadn't realized exactly the full extent they would be giving up in exchange for eternal life. Jay held out his hand in comfort, leaning towards the other's direction, he was surprised by the hand that overlapped his. He squeezed it as much as he possibly could without hurting Y/N. "But i̲f̲ in a year, you still want to be with me like that. Then we can talk about me biting you more, but for now think about it" the vampire let the human know. Jay knew he couldn't ignore Y/N's wishes and words either. So if they really wanted to become a vampire to continue being with him then he'd make that possible, but only after a fully informed decision.

[munsons-maiden]

Okay I swore to myself I wouldn't read Flight Of Icarus but there's been a very desperate anon in my inbox for a week now repeatedly asking for meta and reassurance and I can't say no to someone with such anxiety so I read it today and I'll put my thoughts in a post later tonight.

Specifically @ anon: I really don't think Eddie's mean or an asshole at all in the book. He's exactly like an abandoned teenager with a narcissistic father who emotionally manipulates him would be, and considering this is set 2 years before the series, I feel it's a well-enough written prequel showing the road to how Eddie became our Eddie. As for the love interest, Paige is quite...bland? He likes her, though, and he is a simp. He's not a player or something like that. She's more into him than he is into her, but it's relatable why he's so guarded - and it very obvious that with the way people perceive him, as a fuckup just like his dad, romance isn't exactly something he deems possible for himself and he's made his peace with that. It's developing into a friends with benefits situation, so no big feeling but he still simps and is sweet and he cares, he's not using her and shooting his shot to get out of Hawkins is very relatable (again, he's using her for that but it's clear he's not playing any games, and that he genuinely likes her). He is a romantic it's definitely there. Paige just isn't The One - I don't know how else to phrase it, bear with me here. He's a bit passive in the romance part; it's her initiating things and he's mostly taken by surprise that she likes him that way when every other girl before that treated him as nothing but a dare, which, I think, is why he's not out for being anyone's boyfriend, actively. But he doesn't say he doesn't want to, he just doesn't think it's in the cards for him and with the way Hawkins treats him, it's relatable for him to have his guards up. And while it's not exactly love, there's nothing wrong with taking what's offered, as long as you actually like the other person and treat them with respect, which he definitely does. It's a crush, for sure, but there's a lot of very heavy stuff on his plate. Again, I'll make a more detailed post but since you were very upset and anxious about it, I figured now that I read the book for you (I'm giving myself a little pat on the shoulder for that 😂) I'd make a post to soothe your nerves a little until then 🖤

Disclaimer: I still don't see the book as canon. More like a parallel universe version of the story of how Eddie became Eddie, if that makes sense.

[pikapeppa]

Year-End Writer's Round-Up: 2023

It’s that time of year, writer friends — time to take stock of what we’ve been up to this year! Tagging to literally ANY AND ALL WRITERS who would like to participate, but I’ll throw down some tags from the top of my head: @contrivedchaos @jadefyre @kittynomsdeplume @iamcayc @hollyand-writes @elveny @johaerys-writes @crackinglamb @mogwaei @alyssalenko @about2dance @cthu-boo @chloefraazers @fogsblue @lordofthenerds97, join in if you fancy!! If you're not a smut writer, feel free to leave out those stats, and feel free to add any accomplishments and "metrics" that are significant to you! 🥰

(Blank template at the bottom for convenience!)

Words written (published or not, WIPs totally count too!!): 999 496 — ARGH IT WAS SO CLOSE TO A COOL MILLION. I did this calculation on the evening of Dec 31 and I was like DAMMIT I NEED TO WRITE A DRABBLE LMAO. 😂🙈 Honestly, I’m surprised the word count was so high this year — I could have sworn my word count had dropped because I wrote very little for a few weeks after BG3 first came out LMAO!

Smut scenes: 42 — I've done better LOL. I’ll blame the slow-burn BG3 ships I’m working on currently. 😂

New things I tried:

I started dabbling in M/M smut this year, in the context of my beloved Horizon F/M/M polycules (Aloy/Drakka with either Kotallo or Nil). Usually when I write F/M/M threesomes, the focus is on the men pleasing the lucky lady of the group, but I headcanon Drakka in particular as being very unapologetically bi, so it’s only fair and right that he get some sweet M/M action. I’m looking forward to putting this M/M practice use on Halsin/Tav/Astarion when my BG3 writing finally gets to that point! 

This was also the first time that I wrote an AU where I gleefully yeeted the canon deaths LMAO. I’m usually a stickler for adhering to significant plot points including character deaths, but the dastardly and darling @iamcayc nudged me into writing Here Come the Dreams, where Varl and Fashav both get to live, and it was a total delight to keep those darling men alive and happy. 

I wrote a smut scene in first-person POV for the first time, using the adorable voice of Karlach from BG3. This was a particularly interesting challenge because I feel that the first-person voice calls for a more urgent in-the-moment kind of narration, which means that I had to alter my usual way of writing smut in terms of phrasing/wording and pacing, so it was a fun challenge! 

With Astarion/Tav/Halsin, this is my first time writing an OC who falls in love simultaneously with two people, and it’s been… interesting trying to negotiate the polycule coming together. Of course I had to get enamoured with (arguably) the two most emotionally complicated male LIs in BG3 and make my own life difficult, LMAO. I’ve been struggling a little with bringing the relationships together and it’s been slowing my writing down over the past month or two, but I’m trucking on because I love both Halsin and Astarion and I really do believe in the dynamics of the OT3. SILVANUS GUIDE MY HAND AS I FIGURE THIS SHIT OUT.

Fic I spent the most time on: 

Even The Hardiest Desert Blooms! I really sank my focus into my beloved Desert boy this year and wrapped up his fic, which is always a bittersweet feeling when you adore the pairing. 😭

Fic I spent the least time on:

Burning Blue (Karlach/Dammon). I was bitten by a sudden bug of adoration for them, and that piece basically came together in a day and a half because I was on fire to get it out. I LOVE THIS PAIRING SO MUCH. 😭🔥

Favourite thing I wrote: 

Even The Hardiest Desert Blooms has always been my self-indulgent pleasure because I just love Drakka to the moon and back, so focusing a lot of this year on his fic was a treat. But Here Come the Dreams was also an enormously fun project because I just went ham and hyperfocused on it for a month and a half. I really wanted to see if I could finish it in a month just for shits and giggles, but AS ALWAYS it ended up being longer than anticipated so I didn’t meet that goal, but it was still a total ball to come up with a fun little project and finish it as quickly as possible. 

Favourite thing I read: 

Hands-down, without a doubt, What’s A Sex Tape Between Friends?  by @auntie-coagulant. I don’t read much fanfic, and when I do, it's only for the ships that I don't write. So when I saw this fic recommended in the Kotallo server and I was like “Travis/Lis?? You have my attention.” My eyes were popping and I was HOWLING by the first chapter, and I’ve been dead in the water for this fic ever since and procrastinating on finishing the fic because MY EMOTIONS ARE NOT READY FOR THE HEARTBREAK.

Writing goals for next year: 

Finish Coming In Like A Western Wind. I’ve been sleeping on this fic since September because Astarion and Halsin turned my head and I feel really bad about it… but I do mean to finish it! 

Just keep on keeping on with my BG3 fics for Astarion and Halsin! I’ve been DYING to write smut for Halsin for months, and I have images living rent-free in my head of Astarion enjoying some very tender sensate focus, so let’s hope I get around to writing these scenes before I explode. 

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Template time!

Words written (published or not, WIPs totally count too!)

Smut scenes written (if applicable)

New things I tried

Fic I spent the most time on

Fic I spent the least time on

Favourite thing I wrote

Favourite thing I read

Writing goals for next year

Enjoy, friends!!! And cheers to another fulfilling year of writing! 🥰🥂

-- love from your friendly neighbourhood Pika! xoxo

[mintchocochipsposts]

2024 Writing Review

I was tagged by @vechter & @androxys; if anyone else wants to participate, consider this your tag!

number of stories posted to ao3: Only 2 this year :/

word count posted for last year: 7,239

fandoms i wrote for: Detective comics

pairings: All gen this year

stories with the most kudos, bookmarks and comment threads: usher down the sky by far.

work i’m most proud of (and why): usher down the sky was in the works in various different iterations for over a year and wound up becoming really, really personal.

work i’m least proud of (and why): some things that fly there be; I wanted to do something way longer with Selina but it didn't really make sense with a pre-Robin Tim. This one was also sitting in my drafts for over a year before I finished it up. But writing Tim in the Robinson Park apartment was really fun!

share or describe a favorite review you received: @vechter and @androxys left such really nice reviews on usher down the sky :) But also a giant thank-you to everyone who's commented on my fics, I know I'm really slow at replying but I appreciate everyone's comments <3

a time when writing was really, really hard: Basically all spring and summer; I was working full time and essentially doing school full-time and this was not conducive for writing (or for having a life 😂). I finished school in August and have had way more time to write since then! You can really tell from my Works tab when I was taking my licensing exams in 2023 and when I went back for my next degree right afterwards. Hoping this year is a whole lot more conducive for writing!

a scene or character you wrote that surprised you: I couldn't get the plot beats to iron out writing from Cassie's POV in usher down the sky; I wound up writing the whole thing from Dick's point of view, and he was a lot harder for me to write for than Cass.

a favourite excerpt of your writing:

The sky behind her is lit up, electric; the city looks like it’s on the edge of a storm, like lightning’s about to burst forth any second, like the atmosphere’s about to bloom into viridescent light any second. “Everybody dies. But not like that,” she says somberly. “And I let them kill. All those people, and I was dead when Blüdhaven needed me.” She reaches out her hand, like she’s trying to grab onto something. “The pit. It felt like burning.” Batgirl looks at him, almost swaying in the drizzle, and he feels flayed by her eyes. “I couldn’t stop them either. Chemo burned too.”

how did you grow as a writer last year: I read a lot of really great books and quite a bit of poetry and I'm hoping my prose is getting better as a result!

how do you hope to grow this year: I want to figure out how to stick to my long-term plotting. Maybe won't be a pipe dream this year!

who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer, beta, cheerleader, etc.): everyone, and especially all my mutuals! For people I haven't thanked yet, thank you @apokoliptic, @zahri-melitor and @jjohnnyutah who've all been in my inbox and interested in my wips! Also thank you @cherrystainedknuckles for your Oracle posting!

anything from your real life show up in your writing last year: Pleading the fifth.

I took photos as a kid like Tim Drake, but I didn't have any camera near as good as his lol.

any new wisdom you can share with other writers: The hardest part is the first draft; you can edit if you have a framework to edit from. Also read, from a huge variety of books; it will give you so many new ideas for phrasing and construction!

any projects you’re looking to starting (or finishing) this year: I am going to finish my Donna and Oracle fics; my goal was to finish them in December but I moved twice and started a new job this week and did the holidays with my family and that might have been a pipe dream; I'm hoping to get them done this month and posted. I might have to split the Donna fic into two chapters, so the Oracle fic is probably going to be done first. I also really really want to finish fireflies this year!

[yakuzacanons]

Finally, inbox is open! ✨ So, boys finding out that their s/o works at the maid cafe? "Okaerinasai, master ~ You can relax here ~ What will your order be ~ ? Omuraisu made with love or fuwa fuwa pancakes ~ ? ♡ " D A M N ! I just imagined the whole situation 😆😂🤣

Heeheee make brain go BRRRRRR

Kazuma Kiryu

Outwardly, isn't phased and honestly doesn't care what your profession is as long as you're safe. Inside, he can't help but imagine what you might look like in your work outfit or the things you say and do. It makes him blush a little. Maybe he'll stop in sometime? Maybe.

Majima Goro

This man has two modes and two modes only. He's either super cutesy about the whole thing, sometimes even greeting you with a phrase you might say at work in a cutesy voice, or he's very protective, saying things like "Tell me if a guy creeps on ya at work, okay?".

Saejima Taiga

For the most part, he just thinks it's really cute. Also probably one of the only guys to ask how your job ACTUALLY works. Like do you come up with the cute phrases yourself or is there a script? Things like that.

Akiyama Shun

Most likely of all the boys to actually visit your work just to get the adorable special treatment from you. Knows how your job works and will gift you little accessories to wear to work. He secretly think it's really hot.

Tanimura Masayoshi

Kind of surprised but not bothered by it. It's just not a job he would've really put at the top of his list of guesses as to what you or anyone would do for a living. Likes to stop in on rare occassions to share an adorable dessert with you.

Ryuji Goda

As long as you like the job, he's content. He just wants you to know he could easily financially support you and that you don't have to strain yourself to work if you don't want to. Silently cheering you on. In his heart, you are the number 1 maid at the maid cafe and anyone who tells him different can chew on his fist in their face for all he cares.

Nishikiyama Akira

Secretly a little jealous and he hopes customers don't get the wrong idea or try to get too close to you. He tries to work through it himself as he doesn't want to make you feel bad. Might be a little physically clingier than normal, like walking around with his arm around your waist more often.

Daigo Dojima

Similar mindset as Ryuji. He just wants you to be happy and to know that financially you're both quite secure. He does secretly think the outfits look very adorable on you. He won't ever say it though, he just avoids eye contact with you every time he sees you in a new outfit.

Mine Yoshitaka

Actually probably totally gets off on the idea, more so than Akiyama even. He'll definitely visit you at work at least once just to get a feel for it. Of course, he'd much rather it be just the two of you at home.

Tatsuo Shinada

Also sort of the jealous type like Nishiki, although he might actually say something about it. Not necesarily in a way to make you feel bad or that even needs something to be done, he just wants to get the thoughts off his chest and in the open. Totally supportive though, says things like "Knock 'em dead!" a lot when you leave for work.

Ichiban Kasuga

He turns red as a tomato every time your work comes up. Poor man can't help himself, he just thinks it's so adorable! He'll totally help you practice your cute phrases at home. Ichiban can get very into the spirit of things, but for the most part it's not sexual. He just thinks it's that cute!

Tianyou Zhao

Honestly neutral, even more so than Kiryu to an extent. Wants you to do well and hopes no one tries anything that makes you uncomfortable. Packs you work lunchboxes before each shift you have, sometimes with little cute notes inside.

Joon-Gi Han

Probably has the most of an opinion about which accessories go with which outfit. Lots of times he'll be outside and be like "Ah, those shoes would be good... I should get them" and most of the time he's almost scarily spot on with his taste for your work clothes. Seldom stops by your work but when he does, he usually brings you a gift.

[quillsandblades]

Hey, Mina. Here are my assumptions:

You're a chaotic person. Not super organised by conventional circumstances, but your style fits the phrase "organised mess" perfectly.

You are fluent in the language of silence.

You're one of those film people you'll see reading books by flashlight, with the cover of their bed thrown over their head late at night.

You... Prefer reptiles over mammals and amphibians (completely baseless regarding anything on your blog, it's just a feeling).

People tend to view you as a mysterious person, and because of this, you are often described to be surprising, possibly "spontaneous."

You're a night owl, an insomniac, or an anxious person, but either way, you find yourself watching the stars fall asleep before you do.

I love all of these!

So yeah, I am a little chaotic. Not all the time but when I am, the line, "There's an order in that mess!" totally applies to me. I've even said it on a number of occasions lol

I don't exactly know what you mean by "language of silence" but from what I've interpreted you mean I can read into silence and small gestures well, like infer someone's mood by a subtle change in expression. I write those things a lot too, especially in levihan, but I'm not this way myself

OMG trueee! I've read books like that a lot haha, made me feel like a fugitive in hiding 😂 Although I didn't always have a flashlight so then moonlight had to suffice

I don't exactly have any preferences between the classes of animals but they're all ok as long as they're not sitting on my shoulder or climbing up my leg. But if we're talking about studying them... hehe I'm in

I don't really know how people irl view me tbh and no one told me whether I was predictable or spontaneous. But if you ask me I don't give that mysterious person vibe at all lol

Lastly, yep I'm a night owl for the most part. I'm not insomniac, in fact, I sleep too much. Which is a problem sometimes. But I don't stay awake till dawn so usually the stars watch me sleep rather than the other way around

Thanks for sharing these lovely assumptions 💕 Wishing you a wonderful day!!

[walkingstackofbooks]

DS9 4x24 Body Parts thoughts (I’m re-watching, so beware spoilers for future episodes!) [8 Sept ‘23]

Jadzia knowing what Keiko likes :3 "She's been talking about this for a long time."

Not Quark having to face his own mortality. Something's clearly up as soon as he walks in.

"How good can he be? He doesn't even charge!" XD Pretty sure you'll be regretting not going to Julian soon...

"Everyone will want a disk of Quark on their desk!" Oh, Rom, you're trying so hard :3

"You're a liar. But I love you." Aww, Quark <3

"The baby... just had a change of address, that's all." Golden XD

"The only two people available were major Kira... and me." Iconic -- yeah, Julian really didn't have to phrase it like that if he didn't want us to think he was a viable option!

"So you're telling me Major Kira's going to have my baby?" Both of their faces XD

"Oh, forget the bidding. This has all been a mistake. My life, coming here, putting a bar on this Cardassian monstrosity of a station. What was I thinking?" Quarrrk

"He always liked me." "He used you when you suited his needs. I don't think that's the same thing." Oh Rom, sometimes Quark should really listen to you.

KIRA AND KEIKO IS SO PRECIOUS. SO PRECIOUS.

"I GET TO SUE FOR MALPRACTICE! And I'm going to live." XD XD Quark's priorities are certainly clear!

Brunt is the best villain. I love this as a plot so much.

"Maybe I wasn't clear. I'm not dying." "Maybe I wasn't clear. I don't care." 👌👌

"It's people like you that give honest Ferengi businessmen a bad name." "I can reform." I love this whole conversation, seeing the flip side of Quark being better than other Ferengi rather than "worse" then the Federation lot.

Miles is so soft with Keiko <3 It's strange seeing her being the vulnerable one, usually Keiko's the one to look after Miles when he's Been Through A Thing. I like it though. :3

"I shouldn't have to make an appointment to see my own child." Ohhhh 😭

"Defying Ferengi tradition isn't so bad." XD

"As an assassin." Garak's face going to complete shock. He has a perfect :o face

"We have an idea that we'd like you to consider." "It's just an idea. We don't want to pressure you." "We have an idea we don't want to press you." "Go ahead." <3 The way Miles and Keiko exchange nervous looks <3 <3 <3

"Garak? If you're in here, I'm not gonna be surprised!" Yeah, this isn't going to work. 😂

Rom's acting as the Grand Nagus is very impressive

Oh this is an actual dream? Not Rom in a holosuite?

Keiko's casual touch :3

"Are you my aunt?" "Well--" caught in headlights. "Sounds right to me." Awww. Yay DS9 polycule! :3

Sisko and Odo being overly dramatic XD

"Where do you want this" "You can't do this! Not without paying a storage fee!" Hah! Funny how fond I've come to be of Quark's ways.

"And you thought you had no assets." Awwww. Sweet. Only a few episodes ago Quark was saying friendship was pointless, now look at him 😂❤❤❤

[writingrosesonneptune]

Writerly Questionnaire Tag!

🌾Thank you to @cowboybrunch for the tag here!🌾

Gently Tagging: @saturnine-saturneight @tabswrites @magic-is-something-we-create @chauceryfairytales and leaving an Open Tag for anyone who'd like to do this!

About You

When did you start writing?

In First Grade, we had a class project to write a story, and I kept at it from there! Before we had a computer, I used to write and draw on copy paper and staple them together into books.

As far as when I started having longer term projects, that was probably halfway through elementary school, when I gained access to Word (back when it was pre-installed on computers and wasn't subscription based. It also crashed every few minutes).

Are there genres/themes you enjoy reading different from the ones you write?

I don't write much about generational baggage, but I love to read about it!

Is there an author or fellow writer you want to emulate, or one to whom you're often compared?

Not particularly, even though there are plenty of authors and other writers I admire. I'd be flattered if my writing was compared to someone else's, but I try my best to focus on phrasing things in a way that sounds right to me personally.

Can you tell me a little about your writing space(s)? (Room, coffee shop, desk, etc.?)

I mostly work on my tablet in the living room! Back issues and vision loss make computer screens too difficult for me to work at in recent years (I say recent but it's been ten years 😂).

My shelf full of sketchbooks, writing notebooks and previous drafts is right next to my chair. As is a rubber chicken. And watercolors/gouache supplies. It's a messy shelf.

What's your most effective way to muster up some muse?

Pacing in the dark!

Did the place(s) you grew up in influence the people and places you write about?

To an extent! I used to write a few contemporary stories that dealt with environments closer to what I grew up with. But. Drawing direct connections like that felt too close sometimes, and for various reasons, I'm uneasy writing fiction set in those environments. Maybe that'll change someday!

That said, some of my early circumstances do find their way into my characters' lives - not as a 1:1, but meshed in there, somewhere.

And as for the climate, I do enjoy writing about hot, dry places as much as other climates. And having camped a lot as a kid (in different parts of the state), the woods also feel familiar to me.

Are there any recurring themes in your writing, and if so, do they surprise you at all?

Oh, they're there. Loss of Stability and Poverty (surprisingly, this one is largely absent from The Scorpion At Dinner) are near-constants.

Recovering after Abusive Relationships, Characters being forced to reckon with their Self-Worth, Societal Isolation - the gang's all here.

Festering Rot also shows up a lot, in both literal and figurative forms.

Your Characters

Would you please tell me about your current favorite character? (Current WIP, Past WIP, Never Used, etc.)

Unfortunately, I am physically incapable of picking a favorite anything ever.

Which of your characters do you think you'd be friends with in real life?

Guillermo (the chef from The Scorpion at Dinnner) would have some pretty interesting conversation.

Which of your characters would you dislike the most if you met them?

There are some choice antagonists in Pelican Queen. But as far as just like... personality clash? Inez, Ghost-Hand, or Stryn. They're all too set in their ways of thinking, and we'd get into headache-inducing arguments way too often.

Tell me about the process of coming up with one, all, or any of your characters.

Ghost-Hand is actually a good example for how a lot of my characters develop! In the first draft, he was actually more of a benevolent and even friendly guy, if still very distant. And while he was important, I didn't feel like he worked very well in the story.

On rewrite, I played around a lot with various characters' motivations and backstories. For him, I kept the beginning of his backstory mostly the same, with slight differences, and his personality slowly started shifting until I hit upon a key departure from his original history - his encounter with Stryn. Instead of parting ways, I decided to have them remain in close proximity, story-wise.

Do you notice any recurring themes/traits among your characters?

*Tubthumping by Chumbawamba plays in the distance*

How do you picture them? (As real people you imagined, as models/actors who exist in real life, as imaginary artwork, as artwork you made or commissioned, anime style, etc.)

I sometimes get a loose, fuzzy idea of what a character might look like, usually like real people who exist only in imagination. Their features are never as clear as people I've met in real life. Usually, if I need to visualize a character, I have to draw concept sketch after concept sketch to get a decent picture of them. The concept sketches veer more towards stylized art, because it's easier for me to exaggerate features to make them distinct from one another.

And sometimes, in spite of this, I never nail down how they're supposed to look. No matter how I render them, the vibes are just off. Maybe I'll figure them out someday!

Your Writing

What's your reason for writing?

I want to read the stories in my head! And sometimes I want to introduce those stories to others, too!

Is there a specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating coming from your readers?

Any comment at all is extremely motivating 🥹

How do you feel about your own writing? (Answer in any way you interpret this question.)

I enjoy rereading a lot of what I've written in the last handful of years! There are certainly instances where the phrasing is not where I'd want it to be, quality/consistency-wise, but overall, I feel like I'm more or less improving.

If you were the last person on earth and knew your writing would never be read by another human, would you still write?

Bummer! I hope something like this never comes to pass! But as long as I had the tools, I would still be writing. It's a nice way to pass the time, and I do get a sense of comfort from it from time to time.

When you write, are you influenced by what others might enjoy reading, or do you write purely what you enjoy? If it's a mix of the two, which holds the most influence?

I'd love to say I focus purely on what I enjoy (and I generally do, in documents I don't plan to publish), but there is an element of outside influence that keeps me from exploring some of the avenues I used to (where did you go, The Women's Wrongs?). I've been trying to break out of this mindset lately, and dabble in offshoots from what is currently canon in some of my work.

Whether those tangents will ever end up seeing the light of day, who knows?

[pinkcalamity]

Hall of Shame blooper - a quick observation

Coming 2 years late (3 if you count that they probably recorded it in 2020) here I am to talk about some things I observed during the kiss. The first time I saw it I was surprised, even scared because after all the puns about blowjobs, a kiss was definitely not to be expected. I was completely embaressed when I watched it and even after watching it a few more times I still feel a little embarassed. But anyway, let's get to the points:

"Come over here with that sweet lover mouth" this phrase, oh this phrase sounds a lot like a pick up line, the slight and quick look at the lips and back to his face while speaking kills me and then the slutty smile from ear to ear (rascal!! 😂😂😂😂)

Cam understood right away what he wanted but his smile was much more discreet and went in fot the kiss without even thinking twice

The way Cam holds Noel's face is EXACTLY THE SAME way Ian holds Mickey's face when he goes to kiss him, this just gives me chills

In addition to holding Noel's face, gently pull it forward to kiss

The way Cam caresses Noel's face during the kiss is so soft, so tender - maybe I'm emotional but - I dare to say that Noel melted during the kiss and well couldn't stop smilling too

The noise their mouths make when the kiss ends, chills

For a millosecond (you blinked, lost it) Cam arranges his fingers on Noel's neck just before kissing him again

The second kiss is, I can't say exactly, there's something about it that I can't explain, couldn't find the right word but it's there and - maybe I'm emotional again - I think this kiss was a little (very little) deeper than the first; obviously the caress and the smile continue during this kiss

Is the noise when this second kiss ends more intense? (Maybe because this kiss was a little deeper?) I think that's the word for now but I think you understand what I meant

Noel's hands rests very gently on Cam's arm when the kiss ends, I think it's a way of returning the affection, the tenderness

They only open their eyes when the kisses end, simply incredible

The way Noel looks at Cam after the kiss ends is that he simply gave himself completely (and maybe, just maybe deep down, he wanted more)

Cam's voice when he looks at the camera after the kiss is ... softer, let's say

Never ending Noel's smile

I could be very wrong, it could very well be my mind playing tricks on me, things in my head BUT I think if they could they would have given at least one more kiss, at least one more

The fact that these kisses were not part of the script makes this much more impactful, special and the main reason why it left me completely surprised when I watched it

It wasn't Gallavich kiss, it was Cam's and Noel's kiss, jesus THIS IS SOMETHING ELSE!!

And that's all, I know it's been a long time but I just needed to share it somewhere.

[asinglemagpie]

The Golden Raven: Here Be Spoilers 6 (Once More With Feeling)(Chapter 11-12)

It's bedtime, which means it's reread time!

Wholesome Trojans warm my heart in a way few things ever will. Though the "look, he's scared of Rhemann, in no world is a danger to anyone" line of thought is kind of hilarious.

"did Jeremy and Kevin combust when they saw each other out of uniform"? Something was bust 👀 (No one can tell me Kevin is straight, sorry 😂)

Jean may hate exy but he sure retreats to it when he's uncomfortable.

I hate Hannah Bailey. I hate that she drew attention to Jean hurting himself - because he wasn't uncomfortable, he was trying to bite his tongue and not topple into flashbacks. Baby has PTSD, you cretin. I mean sure she can't have known that, but we'll adjusted people don't hurt themselves to keep themselves in control. It's common sense that maybe drawing attention to it is shitty.

The fact that double-D went "no he did nothing wrong, it's cool" when they realise they'd crossed a previously unknown line is just... It's part of why I love them.

Even if they didn't drop it, but did try to get his help so they wouldn't cross that line again.

Derrick, you live in such beautiful hope 😂

Poor Sebastian, I love that he's trying. Confused but trying! (Plus most bi people, myself included, used the phrase "chicks and dicks" back then, even if it was a gross simplification... And y'know, gross in general. Look if there's one thing AFTG should teach you is that we said a lot of reaaaaaally shitty things in the '00s and it was just so fucking normal.)

Kind of tempted by a Bourne rewatch. I should do that tomorrow! The end song annoys tf out of me though. Never been a Moby fan.

Oh, to be the fruit cradled so lovingly in Jean's hands *dreamy sigh*

I was so tempted to do exactly what Jeremy did with the sticky notes, I still am occasionally. Mostly they'd annoy me after five minutes, but he avoids home as much as possible so it can't be so bad for him.

Home 😭

Okay serious talk time. Jeremy is on academic scholarship, like everyone else, one has to assume because it's how they hook players to go to them. No matter what happens with his family his education is secure, as is his spot on the team. He is never going to get access to his share of the family money. If he let himself recognise that and let it sink in then he could leave. Because he can apply for legal reissues/copies of his paperwork and apply for a new passport. Heck he could wait until he needs his passport for a game and then officially never go back. He's an adult, they cannot legally make him stay. The ONLY thing I can think of that's forcing him to stay is that his step-father has assured him that his family in the forces would make his and his friends' lives hell if he tried. That is the only reason that he would stay and go through this imho. Guilt can only blind him so much.

I mean, Jean in bike leathers would get me all hot and bothered too. Jean checking out my sister when I'm hot for him would have broken the basket. After her comment I'd have broken it over her head.

That Mathilda wasn't used as kindling is the second tragedy of the house fire.

Jeremy accepts suffering quietly just the same way as Jean does, and urgh, my poor heart hates it.

It's okay, Jeremy, you can marry Jean and become a Moreau. Surname problem solved!

The postcard 😭 Reacted to with the Andrew Minyard book of romantic utterances.

Trojan horse pancakes, with thankfully no unpleasant surprises inside.

Bryson absent because he's too busy taping his artwork to Laila's door because his mother didn't want to sully the fridge with such sub par imagery.

"except us and the Foxes" AND BRYSON! How have you forgotten this so soon?!

Jean might be French but I bet he only knows that fact because of Kevin "history nerd" Day.

Look, mascots and cheerleaders are fun, but sports can exist without either and the crowd does just fine. Jean just has a very European stance on the matter.

Last year under the thumb of tyrants! Then freedom on a pro team! (Like to charge, reblog to cast!)

I wonder is the reporter said his name right or it was more "jeen ee-ves morrow".

The press starting to put shit together... I should link that amazing post about what Neil's been doing in the shadows, but I'm tired and lazy and I know where to find it (under all the same tags as this one lol).

The second reporter is so lucky Jean doesn't get the reference because his reputation might have been lived up to when he made that jackass swallow his own teeth.

I fucking love Cat.

Someone mentioned that the need for so much caffeine could be because of his former long-term drug use. I keep meaning to do some research on it.

Eli. Another hook-up. Honestly we are so lucky that Jean has the Raven mentality towards sex or TGR would be about Jean becoming a serial killer.

How no one considered pottery class might be messy and dressed appropriately does and doesn't surprise me 😂

Jean really was made to be a baker or professional chef in another life.

I love that all the fandom I've encountered all agreed that Jean would be a natural and Jeremy would be just short of a disaster, and we were dang right.

Jean and Cody please me. He needs friends, they make him better.

Anonymous tip, my ass. BRYSON!

(I've angrily screamed about this so many times that his name automatically comes in all caps.)

"I want you to stay." My heart 😔