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#🔪.text#discord#i hope the username gofuckyourselfdiscord isn't taken because oh man i wanna do some shit like that#i don't want a fucking username you piece of shit i want my privacy and my unique identifier#not have to think of a brand new fucking username that i have never used anywhere else just so i can still have my god damn privacy#because i don't give my discord out to people!!!#that's the whole damn reason i like the previous system!!#people can't find me unless they see me on a server (unlikely) or unless i give them both my display name AND the number!#with a username?? well i generally only use two usernames. saltyghost or knifegremlin. with variations if necessary#obviously people would then be able to find me by searching that up.#i don't want that.#i have discord to talk with people i ALREADY KNOW.#sure i join servers. sometimes. very rarely.#and i almost never talk on them. because i am not a social person!! i don't like talking to people!! i just want to be left alone!!!!#and yeah i know i'm not like. famous or whatever. i'm not gonna have people swarming me or whatever.#but still. i still want my privacy#and i do not feel like i will have that with a username#ugh#i knew this was probably gonna happen eventually#but i'm still pissed about it#and i'm probably gonna try to think of some petty name lol#and hopefully don't get banned from discord for it lmaoo#if i do i guess it's not that big of a deal bc i made a revolt account so.
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I'd like to discuss the elephant in the room. Why did we get zero Loumand sex scenes? We got hints and implications, but season 1 was pretty explicit. Do we think that that's a creative choice or something else is happening?
I'm glad I ended up ruminating on this for about a week because episode 7 & 8 really solidified my opinion on it.
I do wanna start by saying that it's very clear to me that there was supposed to be more explicit scenes between them. There has been some thoughts tossed around that censorship happened with the 9 pm timeslot (as opposed to the 10 pm timeslot of S1). I believed this hearing Assad and Jacob talk about the BDSM dynamic between Louis and Armand, but what really sold me on this was Production Designer Mara LePere-Schloop talking about the bedroom set and more specifically about their beautifully carved custom headboard. (If you're a production nerd like me or just want to know more about the design philosophy of IWTV I recommend giving the entire thing a listen!).
I think there are several reasons I think as to why they decided to leave any more explicit scenes on the cutting room floor but above them all is: you cannot separate Armand's sexuality from his abuse. I am really against pulling a "well if you read the books" card but reading just the first couple chapters of "The Vampire Armand" makes me understand so much about not only Armand as a character, but the care being taken to his adaptation. It's clear to me that alongside Rolin & Co.'s commitment to not watering him down to a one-dimensional villain they are also trying to not fall into Anne Rice's tendency to romanticize his trauma.
Sex and sexuality is not the same pillar of Louis and Armand's relationship it was in Louis and Lestat's and so I don't believe their story suffers from the lack of on-screen sex. But I also firmly believe that maybe we don't need to be slutting out the character who we literally just watched talk about how he doesn't remember his life before being sex trafficked. And even when he was "freed" he was still being repeatedly assaulted at the hands of, and under the eye Marius de Romanus. Like it is extremely important to remember that Armand's craving for dominion in his relationships is a manifestation of trauma that deserves the same level of care and depth given to every other trauma portrayed in this show.
I think people have gotten too comfortable calling IWTV a romance when it has always been Gothic Horror. Romance and sex are pivotal to the story but I have found the demands for sex scenes this season a bit absurd and also? unfounded? Loustat share more kisses on screen but there are two sex scenes and both are very plot relevant. I truly figured we were all in agreement that the eroticism of this show is found in the various displays of power, and the dynamics it creates and not the actual clapping of ass-cheeks...which also wasn't happening in S1 either. S2 does not suffer because of the lack of sex-scenes, but the likelihood if it suffering trying to make one work is
#char.txt#interview with the vampire#iwtv#iwtv meta#loumand#the vampire armand#armand#answered#I didnt bring it up here just because this is really an opinion peice#but jacob makes a good point about because this is an interview with them yk still as a couple its also about privacy#its also just not the part they are trying to sell them on Daniel knows they are fucking we all know they are fucking#theyre trying to show that this isnt the stepford wives (it is)#ive written this response like 3 times trying to remove my disgust at the fandom from it LOL#but the way people have talked about this with armand has...really rubbed me the wrong way#like the more i learned about him the more sinister it kind of felt to be like ''well why arent the fucking on every surface''#IDK if you want the extremely personal and petty take too i will gladly give that
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In Time and Stars
#in stars and time#isat#siffrin#josh art tag#been wanting to practice less “literal” drawings....#like people doing a certain thing or being in a certain place or even just standing there#and instead do more like conceptual stuff?? idk how to word it#but i love doing stuff like this#and i feel like i havent done it in a while#i think last time i did was early in the year when i was still really into the Magnus Protocol#and was illustrating lines from each episode#some of which are my best performing art ever lol#i still remember my sibling telling me they had come across my art on their dash and later on their insta explore page#they had apologized since me and my sibs have an agreement to not search for or interact with each other online just for privacys sake#but i found it both funny and kinda insane#was not expecting my art to get big enough to find its way to that sib lol#uuuhhhhh anyway back on topic#ive had this idea of a siffrin illustration where either have their face or the back part of their head being a clock#and i tried a couple drafts in my sketchbook#and ended up liking this one! it had the addition of the shooting star and from then i toyed with the idea of adding the title text#i have another less literal piece for zelda that i wanna do#but i also wanna work on my isat animatic#....and i also wanna play stardew....#i need more hours in the day 😔
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juvie buddies
#alek art#td duncan#td mal#total drama#total drama all stars#(if i want to get technical)#2024#duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16#ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different#duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt#scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it#duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here#i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a#gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because#i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont#see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo#but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it#duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his#privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in#juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike#is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon#madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together#duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault#mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a#lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he#knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt#matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify#had me messed up
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Take more of my art, neeeeeeeerd
#oh my god I almost included a photo of two of my friends in this#tumblr lagged and I clicked them accidentally#not a huge deal but. I want to be very respectful of their privacy and had a moment of panic#art#my art#traditional art#not the proudest of this piece btw#it's. fine#working on something right now that I'm REALLY proud of but it's still in progress
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obviously they won't say anything about it because they only comment on things that are nonsensical, but even kcarats are mad about this collab so i do wonder if they'll end up saying anything or will just act stupid lmfao
#like at a certain point you gotta address it#you can't simply brush off every valid criticism as just ''haters''#like don't post a video of you fanboying over the fuckass in prob hopes of fans going omggg his dream came true#i often think artists don't owe their fans anything in terms of music their time and privacy#but they do owe fans some respect and being linked with this dude for sure is not it lmao#like were they truly expecting for their fanbase who is mainly female to be liek yaaay a song with a dude that hates women!! so fun!!#ah so sorry i'm just still so annoyed will be annoyed for a while#thought about getting back into giffing them this month but yeah i don't think that'll happen#not that anyone cares i could deactivate and people wouldn't notice LMFAO#yeah idk it's just shitty i get liking an artist and not knowing anything about them truly me with so many#but when you're gonna collab when you're gonna basically invite them to be a part of your brand your project....#you need to be a little more careful about it and think is this going to alienate my already existing fanbase#is this someone that i want to be associated with basically#b.txt
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Guess what came early!!!!!!!! :3
#i wasn't expecting it yet lol i even had it shipped to my new name which won't become my legal one til beginning of next month but it worked#i ordered it in 3xl just in case and it's a bit oversized which ofc works great with the emo theme lol#the purple print is slightly glittery too which is so so magnificent. i love this sweater so much holy shit#mine#dan and phil#phan#dandandphilshop#dnp merch#face partially covered for privacy but i still wanted to show how happy i am lol. i didn't even plan to be wearing the tit hat i just wear#it all the time cuz i love it lol (and i always need to wear some kind of hat cuz my antidepressants make me more susceptible to sunstroke)
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Lol. Lol. Lol.
#this is why i didnt want to move home 😂😂😂😂😂😂 being expected to cook and do the kitchen things#and not a single person cleaning in this house except for mom!!! = also me because i cant let my mother do all the work#anyway im tired lol!!!!! and i want to live with my 2 friends in the city#and meal prep together have my own space and not be subjected to more You should exercise comments#this is weight gained from depressive stress eating mom :-) i am Stressed and im trying not to cope this way but it is a process#anyway i miss my dorm i miss seeing 40+ people at meals i miss having the privacy to sing my heart out#i miss living in a small and manageable space i miss my FRIENDS i miss that boy (this is not a positive thing to miss admittedly)#i miss living right by the coffee shop that sells the Best Sandwich Ever and a honking good lavender vanilla latte#i also miss being able to fit into my favourite jeans. this is a self inflicted issue and it annoys me#anyway i am medium miserable and there is still a HECK TON of things to do#like unpack and go to the grocery store because its my father's birthday and ive committed#to cooking birthday dinner because birthday lunch was an unfortunate flop#o yeah also i miss having access to cheap obscenely strong black tea. that kept me going through finals#im only here a month before im off to my summer job which will be Away from here!! but darn it all its going to be a Month
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My Adventures with Superman must have saw my suffering from last episode's rooftop scene and peeped my plea for a Clois rooftop kiss because good lord, that whole scene exceeded my expectations!
The music.
The scenery.
The lighting.
The blushing.
The way Clark just lunged in and lifted Lois up.
The way he spun the two of them as they went further into the air.
The sun peeking behind Clark and Lois as they're kissing.
The forehead touch when Clark says "I love you, too."
The soft chuckle Lois lets out after he says it.
The smiles on their faces before Lois goes in for another kiss.
ABSOLUTE CINEMA.
#my adventures with superman#my adventures with superman spoilers#my adventures with superman episode 9#maws#maws spoilers#maws clark kent#maws superman#maws lois lane#clois#maws clois#clark kent x lois lane#I know that in my initial post I wanted to be like the first two rooftop scenes#when clark switches back to his civilian form and meets up with lois on the roof#only this time with a kiss#but goddamn this was so much better#don't get me wrong I still want a clois rooftop kiss with clark as clark#but I am more than satisfied with the kiss I got#and props to jimmy for giving them privacy#like a true wingman#now that I think about it#we haven't gotten a clois kiss where clark wasn't superman#huh#maybe next episode will surprise me#or at least until season 2#but hopefully next week
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#i'm back in the UK and dying to create again so hopefully back to writing in the next few days!! 🙏#only thing is i've been back for just over 24 hours and allll the stress from before the holiday has come rushing right on back#i am so so busy. hopefully i get a new contract soon but in the meantime i'm almost glad to not have work despite the lack of income#just so i can get through all these other life admin things. i'm so tiiiireddddd#i'm also literally going to designate a couple of hours to tackle DMs :') hours i would normally be working lol#would love to record wavs but my sister is still off work so no privacy to do so atm. ughh i just want to play with chhinkni 🙃#nttalks
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i wanna go to anthrocon sooooo bad but i'm worried i won't be able to save up enough money for it 😔
#it's 7 months away but still....i wanna get in on registration early#i need to go to a con again so bad it's like the ultimate enrichment for me. plus i wanna take my gf to one#it's literally the main thing i'm looking forward to this year so i just hope we can make it happen...#it'd be a lot more doable if we had roommates but we want privacy y'know#but yeah we also really need to meet people in the area. and a furry con is like#THE place to go to meet the kinda people we wanna be friends with
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I've had one of the worst crying fits in a while just. Simply venting from time to time, to friends or the void, no longer helps.. I assumed there was the logic same as throwing up - you let it out and thus heal. But it seems like it was more like linking fire logic - it keeps offering remedy for as long as possible, but meanwhile all the banished darkness keeps stocking into a dam (the deep) until the dam inevitably fills...
My problem is that my biggest problem can not be solved. It is permanent. I thought I was strong enough to just assume it as my new life, but recent months the ugliest things possible are finding their way in my heart. In retrospective I suspected that the day where I finally die (metaphorically!) will come and it will feel like a blessing to finally give up and drown, no more struggle. The day it finally eats me could not come soon enough, I thought. And yet somehow after everything I feel nothing but scared and disgusted, and still clinging to the words offering focus I've heard before, to my concepts of morality even after I saw how it is all pointless. I don't know what it is that still makes me resist even if I see that I can't anymore and falling apart at the seams. Recently I even screamed for God's help even though I am not a Christian. It is this bad. I can't ignore or resist this problem any longer, I can't manage by just venting every time it hurts because the metaphorical dam is full, I can't solve it... What do I do...?
I am developing the feelings I didn't know I had capacity for and feelings that have no place in this world... unless they do, and I just don't see the way to "turn" safely. To accept all this without giving up or becoming a horrible person, but just 'allowing' it. In other words I don't know how to break in the same way as a chunk of metal melts to be shaped into a new thing. So I'll just break eventually, after I keep up for a bit longer. I have no choice but to let out and then immediately pick myself up with hope right after, but this option has expired its function.
#personal#/vent#I know it doesn't sound serious at all and yeah it is hard to provide full context without feeling my privacy invaded sort of#I share a lot online but I still don't want to elaborate on some things
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i've been complaining about my aunt and cousin ever since we moved in together, but now knowing that we're gonna move away soon is making me sad. i'm gonna miss them 😭
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https://twitter.com/xrckdyou/status/1777312221044834377
The man could not be more clear. And he is so incredibly kind about it despite the fact it obviously bothers him for the reasons he says and likely others. So sad the people who want to “free him” are those keeping him in a box.
Thanks for this! I'd love to see the whole thing, but it's been harder to get full interviews this go round (that's on me, gotta dig, don't have time). That said, I did a quick lurk around twitter and tumblr, and jesusssssssssssss, he said what he said and was pretty clear, even resigned about it, and yet! You either get variations of a) wahh, he's gaslighting us again (which, lmao, nope) or b) well, he didn't deny it, LOLZ, #married. When I tell you he resents his fans, dot dot dot, oof, yeah, it's honestly no wonder
#i think my favorite is the people who 'don't understand' why he's saying this and how it doesn't 'help him'#idk maybe he doesn't want people speculating about his private life? even--ESPECIALLY--the so-called supportive ones?#i have my own UO and it's that a couple of things can be true that people can't/won't get--maybe just maybe larry was realTM a decade ago#and it ain't real now#or maybe it's a hot mess month to month and it causes him quite a bit of pain actually#and what's to deny in that scenario? why does he have to pick a scab to feed these demons? why does he OWE anyone that?#people scream how they want the truth but in reality? no they do not!#because it comes back to the same old same old: how 'supportive' is the larry fanbase if/when one of them comes out and says pointblank:#yeah we were a thing but that was a decade ago and we've moved on#thanks for respecting our privacy in this difficult time 10 years later!#it won't happen because it can't and won't matter to the base#people will STILL scream they're married etc
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cannot put into words how badly i want to move out. love my parents but i don't know how much longer i can go without complete control of my time,,,
#the most annoying thing of all time ever is being interrupted#and having to adjust my plans because of someone else getting in the way#like i just want to be able to do my own thing at all times without worrying about external influence#and that's pretty much impossible in this house#don't even get me STARTED on privacy#like they rarely invade it but it's still something of an issue#and i just love to be alone. which is also impossible in this house#let me out of here immediately#girlblogging#this is what makes us girls#just girly things#this is a girlblog#just girly thoughts#just girly posts#girlhood#i'm just a girl#hyper feminine#girly things#pinterest girl#it girl#dream girl#femcore#femcel#the female gaze#girl blogger#gaslight gatekeep girlboss
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I did say was done talking about it but just wanna reply to the anon who sent me the long ask, I agree with everything you said like that’s EXACTLY how I feel and my best advice as im handling it too, is to just block accounts/pages whatever is causing those feelings or popping up, and if you find yourself thinking about it, or wanting to go check things, try to redirect yourself to smth positive!
#positive stuff in the fandom or outside of it#and a break although may not wanna do one it can be helpful!#im really excited for all his upcoming stuff too and I really enjoy the space here so I don’t want to just leave that right now#and#cause my problem really is the self control of going to check both out of curiosity and probably just torturing myself lmao#but again im feeling everything you’re feeling#also you put it so perfect about how not a bad person but A MAN#yep😭#but I feel the same way about invading privacy and there was the one thing that happened that I feel guilty over still which then again was#pressured but#that’s another thing dnxndndn#also anon feel free to message me privately if you ever want to because I literally am not joking when I say I feel exactly what you feel#kit talks
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