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Fucked up how an adult can make a simple benign poor choice of words one time and give a child a complex forever
#at this one teacher#where are you now teacher#were you ever aware that ur choice gave me crippling self hate and shame for years to come#did you ever know it was even a poor choice of words and that it was bad? or did you never think o it again#like tell me#YOU NECER SPOKE TO ME ABOUT IT OR ANYTHING#would you have???? did you ever want to?!? I’ll never know#i don’t even remember what u look like it ur name but I remember sitting at the beach at 11 years old thinking about how I was#was too dirty and evil to be a woman and that I had let all women down#that I was a monster#i remember my stupid ex friend couldn’t even be ducking nice to me one ducking time about it either#i don’t remember what the class was about but I remember looking at the other girls and feeling like an ogre who didn’t deserve to be in#their presence#i know this incident was not the root of these issues and probably just a catalyst but it sticks out as easy to remember for some reason#i know you were a psychology/PSHE teacher and would end up preaching mental health to us in a lecture many years later#i wanted to take psychology for my GCSEs because I was really interested (and good at it I think)#but you were the only teacher for it so I didn’t take it#i remember at parents evening my mum and I sat opposite you and we talked about how I wanted to do psychology#but I declined and refused to tell anyone why#it was because you were the teacher and I felt ashamed#you couldn’t have known but I kind of wish you’d asked me why I changed my mind or at least something#instead you just looked at me as if you knew#but said nothing. AS IF YOU AGREED#THAT I WAS BAD.#so that settled it#you made it clear to me you meant what you said#and there was no point in me trying to fix it#so I never took psychology#i think I could have been so good at it#do YOU
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being physically disabled as a young adult after being an physically active child in and physically active family, who still participates in the online spaces for physically active hobbies but cannot participate physically means… i’m a living nightmare. i talk to people who share this interest with me, and my existence is their worst nightmare. they see my crutches and hear that i cannot walk far or climb a ladder and think, thank god it isn’t me. my existence is horrible and unimaginable to able bodied people.
#i’ll never forget the guy who when i told him i was physically disabled and couldn’t walk much but could walk with aids#he said ‘oh that’s not that bad!’#he meant it genuinely and i understand where he’s coming from#but man#tell me you know nothing about disability without telling me you know nothing about disability#i just agreed and moved on but it stuck with me#cripple punk#cpunk#disabled#physically disabled#physical disability#spoonie#fibromyalgia#vent#this is a vent post#vent post#you can ignore this#this is about urbex but i don’t think it’s relevant so i won’t tag it#okay to reblog
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The fandom's bias and tendency to wanting to agressively associate EVERYTHING with Percy and getting upset when a character isn't associated with him really taints their view on actually significant relationships, and it ruins Percy's canon character tbh.
I came across a video edit appreciating Jason and Nico's friendship, and the comments were just filled with people raging on how Percy should've been included instead of Jason because he was "much closer friends" to Nico than Jason was. It's appalling how much ppl can turn to a blind eye when it comes to Jason.
People hate Jason SO much in this fandom that they literally refuse to admit that Nico canonically considered Jason as his first ever friend, not Percy (this is literally said in Tower of Nero, by the way)
You guys are seriously so hell bent on wanting to take away every little thing jason had that makes his character meaningful, simple to give it to percy when it isn't even necessary. Doesn't percy have enough good characterization already? Why deprive Nico of a genuinely good friendship? Jason spent time and effort to make Nico comfortable and succeeded in earning nicos trust. He taught nico to never push people away and not to be ashamed of being himself, Isn't that beautiful? Why do people get salty abt that so much? Because of course, it's about appreciating Jason for once, and not Percy, isn't that it?
My perspective on Percy and Nico is that, they were never really "close" to begin with and never ended up being close either, and that's okay. Percy tried his very best to be a brother to Nico, but they somehow always had tension with eachother because of Nico's internal turmoil of idolizing and crushing on Percy whilst simultaneously associating him with Bianca.
Sure, they talked it out a little in the end, but I'd like to think that some tension would always be there, because they started off at the wrong foot, and there was too much bitterness and resentment to come in their dynamic. And them never actually being close "brothers" makes their dynamic very significant and authentic. In the end, Nico acknowledged that Percy was a good person, and I like to think that's the farthest they've ever gone in their dynamic. They both are on amicable terms but the awkwardness still being there is very realistic, the weight of Bianca's death would always be associated with Percy to Nico, and it's neither of their faults. That adds SO much to their angsty dynamic, why get so upset about it when it's such an integral, and meaningful part of the story? Nico and Percy not being close friends shows how complex character relationships can be.
Percy doesn't have to be close with everyone just because he's the main character, it really deprives him of actually meaningful connections. The fandom forcing him to be buddy buddy with everyone simply because they HAVE to associate Percy with anyone and everyone, and getting angry that Jason is closer to Nico than Percy is, is just really weird.
Why do people feel SO threatened about Jason all the time that they have to get all defensive and suppress his connections by dragging Percy into videos that doesn't even have to do anything with him? I swear y'all are creating this whole Jason/Percy rivalry thing because you cannot bear to see someone rival Percy, and you want Percy to be the only powerful/good person in the books.
Let other characters befriend eachother without trying to insert Percy in there all the time.
Percy and Nico would never be like Reyna and Nico, or Jason and Nico, and that's completely fine. I like them better that way. You can't be best friends with everyone. That's just how life works.
#I hope people don't come at me for this#Some parts of the Percy fanbase can be scarily defensive and aggressive so I won't be surprised if I get mean comments abt this lol#but I said what I said idc. Jason is canonically Nico's closest friend. You hating jason isn't going to change the fact that it's canon.#There's literally nothing wrong with Percy not being best friends with Nico why do ppl act like it's a bad thing.#You can agree or disagree with me but pls be respectful#pjo#pjo fandom#percy jackson#jason grace#pjo hoo#pjo series#pjo hoo toa#annabeth chase#piper mclean#leo valdez#frank zhang#hazel levesque#nico di angelo#reyna avila ramirez arellano#reyna ramirez arellano#heroes of olympus
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I could never be a vampire bc I would've sat there and listened to all those Vampires go on & on about wanting to go after Louis De Point Du Lac after he just described in explicit detail how he Itachi Uchia'd an entire coven in a single night in his book... and you want to go after him? Are you dumb??
#iwtv#interview with the vampire#louis de pointe du lac#amc iwtv#like yall wanna go TOWARDS the danger????#Louis really said “knuck if you buck bitch”#i love him#lol they wouldve had to take me out too#cause i wouldve read the book and agreed with him#my queen did nothing wrong#he actually shouldve killed them all slower
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@nowfallc PICTURE!! FOR YOU!! PLEASE TAKE IT!! <3
#agh I’m so so nervous but I’m big and strong and you all agree with me <3#plus it’s nearly 6 in the morning and I pulled an all nighter to finish this. which I’m sure is not helping my stress levels At All!#ALSO!#I’m gonna do another one!#you will NEVER know which picture so get fuckin ready HELLLLLLLLL yeah!!!#<- as for those of you who were Present when I said which picture I was gonna do. ummmmm. shut up! say nothing!!#ALSO…..2!!#wanted to share how I did the scuff marks cuz I felt like it. and also I said I was gonna do it. anyway!#what you wanna do is get a real textured brush. ideally something pencil adjacent#and a mid grey color#and with LIGHT pressure you follow the edges of whatever metal bit you’re rendering#you can go a little heavier on the corners if you desire#from the corners you take a smudge tool and gently blend in the opposite direction of the corner if that makes sense#and then take an eraser (IDEALLY one that’s the same as your rendering brush)#and gently erase back towards the corner. but with a much smaller brush size#add little scratches and pick marks as you please#and that’s it#you know maybe this would make more sense with an actual diagram I’m so so bad at explaining stuff agh#I’m gonna shut the hell up now 🙏#trigun#nicholas d. wolfwood#trigun stampede#trigun fanart
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i’d love to know how much of early day's spn subtext was deliberate or just a happy accident bc the subplot of 1x08 bugs is sam and dean butting heads about how they were raised and sam hating it while dean tells him he should accept it as they protect a family; predominantly a father and son
the father and son argue bc the son is different and not who the father wants him to be while the son feels ignored and shunned (aka sam). sam spends the episode empathising with him and telling him he can look forward to going to college to get away from him just like he did while dean cuts in to say he should stick with his family
the entire episode, dean defends john and the way he raised them ("maybe he needed to raise his voice but sometimes you were out of line"), it even starts with him and sam arguing over their illegal ways of making money and how they were brought up in the life; dean adapting to and enjoying it and sam wanting to be honest and straight
they talk about sam being sure john is and always has been disappointed in him just for dean to say john used to go to stanford whenever he could to check on him and something about his expression is so bitter; like he knows john would never express that care for him
but at the climax when they're trying to get matt to convince his dad to leave, sam is the one telling him to tell the truth and make his dad listen whereas dean tells him to lie; implying he wouldn't trust his son enough to believe him
he outright scoffs at sam and asks him what he was thinking for trying to get matt to tell the truth
the entire episode, dean is advocating for the kid to work it out (almost to just take it) and stay with his family but when push comes to shove, he tells him to lie
sam who spent years resenting john and his family for how they were raised, fell back on "making him listen"; echoing all the arguments he had with john, trying to force him to understand who he is while john's too blinded by vengeance to even begin to try. the same way sam refuses to see how they were raised and why they were raised that way from john’s point of view, hinting at how similar people they are (which still isn’t an excuse but also not the point rn)
dean winchester, the king of repression and masking (and fawning), dean who at this point is still staunchly defending john, tells a shunned kid with a harsh father to pretend in order for his father to care enough to listen to him and believe him
dean knows reasoning won't work bc he's watched it happen over and over again with sam and john
even the way matt tries to say, “but he’s my… (father)” feels like he’s coming over to dean’s point of view; that matt as a son respects his father to enough to tell the truth and no matter how much they’ve fought, that should trump everything. but dean still insists he lies. and matt tells the truth. and his father doesn’t listen
there's no way they intentionally made dean subconsciously know that a man raising his son in a mimicry of how john raised them wouldn't respect or trust his son enough to believe him about something potentially life threatening after half a season of john ignoring them about something potentially life threatening
right?
#sam accusing dean of being perfect and thats why john never yelled at him actually makes me crazy#especially when you take in how much dean fawns when hes around john#fawning being the fear response of making yourself as unobtrusive as possible so you dont become a target#deans fawn response is to be the soldier; to always agree and listen to orders and be johns mini replica so he doesnt make waves#its not just him being a good son despite how much thats hammered into us over the course if the show#thats why he tries so hard to get sam to just agree and do as hes told; not just bc he thinks john is right but so it wont cause an argument#arguments he expressly hates despite being highly confrontational with literally everyone else#he only has a fawn fear response when it comes to john and sam; not even bobby gets the same level of repression#anyway i unintentionally started a rewatch and dean flipping on a dime about how the kid should be with his father twigged my interest#and how much of it was intentional? in the good supernatural in my head all of it is#but alas this is the real supernatural and it was probably completely unintentional and means nothing#especially since the episode ends with the kid throwing away the things that make him different#and sam saying he wants to apologise to john in person for the things he said to him when he left for stanford#hes dean says he will apologise then theyll immediately be at each others throats again but he doesnt really progress at all beyond that#he spends the whole episode saying relationships are a two way street and sam said awful things and should pick up the slack between them#and he ends with that same mindset so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ likely all of it was unintentional#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#carry on my wayward son#talk meta to me#supernatural#spn#meta#dean winchester#sam winchester#john winchester#john winchesters a+ parenting
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i keep saying idgaf and i won’t post more about the episode but that’s a lie
can’t stop thinking about the topic of symbols this episode. ashton asks everyone to add some aspect of fcg to their clothing so they can all be reminded of them when they look at each other. they spend the evening making these symbols, acknowledging that what they carry on their person MATTERS. and then just as quickly, orym walks in with otohan’s blade on his back. and laudna is reminded of her death and the destruction otohan inflicted on them and will be every time she sees it. and then she’s told “it’s just a thing! it doesn’t mean anything! it’s just a sword!”
“It’s a symbol.”
#i’m not saying the methods were 100% right but gaslighting her by saying symbols mean nothing is wild#also those of you saying that laudna needs to apologize to ashton i beg you to watch the cooldown#where tal literally says ash agrees with everything laudna said#critical role#cr spoilers#c3e95#cr laudna#ashton greymoore
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I'm really just Feeling Things tonight about the conversation with Gale after Elminster's visit and like. Gale is So Insistent that if Mystra says he needs to blow himself up, then it must be the best option. The only option. And of course he is! Because what's the alternative? If there's another way, any other way, that means either
1. Mystra doesn't care enough to consider whether there might be another option. Gale blowing himself up is the easiest solution, so that's what she goes with. Or, even worse,
2. She does know there's other options, but tells him to sacrifice himself anyways, because it gets rid of two of her problems at once.
Gale doesn't just assume she's right because she's a goddess. He goes along with it because of what it implies about him, and her, and how she sees him if there is another way. He has to believe that this is the only option. Because the alternative? That he's disposable at best and actively unwanted at worst? That's just too much to bear.
#bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#meta#i'm sure this is nothing that hasn't been said before but like. goddamn i've just been thinking about it and it hurts my soul#and tbh i feel like the fact that everyone else in camp is like 'that's a stupid idea we're not doing that' really drives the point home#even elminster has that line about how 'even the waves of fate can break upon the shores of will'#which is as close as you can reasonably expect him to get to outright agreeing that yeah this is shit and you should look for other options#but at that point gale is the one person who can't imagine that there's another way. can't stomach the thought#because it would mean some things he's really not ready to face yet#i'm like. banging my head against a wall the writing is So Good and it makes me So Sad
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crazy how ive been seeing people absolutely losing their minds over the way amy is written in the generations remaster and how she was character assassinated and her crush on sonic was removed and im playing it right now and the literal first thing she does when you free her from white space is call sonic cute which is nowhere close to what she said in the original. wtf are you people on about
#and after that she was like ''omg you got me a ring ? wait thats not the kind of ring i was hoping for..'' or something along those lines#which i cant remember if that was in the original or not but either way . what do you MEAN they got rid of her crush .....#i havent played much though so maybe her crush really was toned down in certain areas but even if it was ..........................#1. why would that be character assassination why do you want her feelings for a boy to be her primary character trait so bad#2. like i said in the post theyve literally added a reference to her crush where there wasnt one originally#i dont think theyre trying to erase it. i think you guys are just getting mad over nothing .#sonic x shadow generations#sxsg spoilers#and like i agree to an extent that a lot of the rewrites feel unnecessary#and im not particularly a fan of the idea of them altering the story content of an existing game#but the stuff with amy feels like a massive overreaction#is it just so/namy shippers who think sonic and amy have to be together or the world will end who are talking like that.#because i wouldnt be surprised if this was the case
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Sorry I really didn’t mean I’m attacking you or your ship. I also don’t think it’s a red flag, most gay men I saw don’t really like shuggy either. I mean, probably the entire world prefers any other shanks ships? On almost every site, con or store there’s always tons of mishanks and Bennshanks and never shuggy. I get it’s also about dynamic and connection those two pairs have, like with the parallels to other ships the base for them is extremely strong. But the minimal shuggy does speak volumes. I genuinely wonder about this. Shuggy is unpopular and again while I do agree there’s strong connection between “rival ships” I don’t think that’s the only reason… and like…. Buggy is ugly, isn’t he? He doesn’t have cool style, doesn’t look cool, makes ugly faces all the time, also is a coward. I like him as comedy character and shanks brother though!
I understand where you're coming from when you say Shuggy is unpopular amongst some people (actually, before anyone says anything. It IS an extremely popular ship in Japan but I have seen A LOT of hatred towards it in this side of the fandom, so that's what I'm talking about when I say it's unpopular). I have talked about this before. And I have said a lot of times that the reason why is often because people only focus on looks and Buggy is not conventionally attractive for the fangirly twinkified sexualized gaze numerous sides of the fandom and the general audience seek. Like, I am not forcing people to ship them, but I have had people admitting the only reason they don't is because of the looks, and I personally believe that is a very (despite valid, of course) dull way of seeing ships. And respectfully, I don't care that other gay dudes or all the people in the world agree with you. It's not a red flag to not like Shuggy, what it is a red flag, though, is to come into people's inboxes to do what you're doing!
I know you don't mean to attack me or anybody who ships them but your tone does wonders showing otherwise. Your perception of shipping is just based on looks and the fact that you came here, to a blog that explicitly ships these characters and is fond of Buggy, talking shit about one of the characters' looks... Is just straight-up mean and not following the social etiquette this site should follow, which is "let people do whatever the fuck they want".
So with all due respect, what makes you think I won't find your questions offensive in any way? Because you keep talking bad about a character I like in my inbox for literally no reason. Do you expect me to admit that the ship is unpopular because Buggy is ugly and boring? Well, I do admit people view him as ugly and only a comedy relief, but I don't. Expecting others to find beautiful and interesting the same things you do is having a very close-minded vision that One Piece's plot itself is against.
By the way, you're showing that you clearly don't like Buggy in the slightest because you're only talking about the traits that you find negative about him. But of course, you like him as comedy relief. Of course, you like him as a character in Shanks' story and not as a character himself. Despite Buggy having lots of depth. Your perception of these characters seems, in my opinion, extremely empty and, as I said, only based on looks. And you're free of shipping whatever you want however you want! But please, please, don't do this anymore. This is just petty high school mean girl behavior. Even Regina George would word this in a more polite way.
So, as a little advice for you, let people ship whatever they want without questioning their favorite characters! I am sure you will live a more peaceful life!
#this is my polite way of saying get the fuck out of my sweet sweet peaceful inbox !#i think i made pretty clear in the last ask that i did not agree with your views and that your tone was pretty much attacking me and others#and also???? NOT COOL??????? BUGGY????? ARE WE TALKING ABOUT THE SAME CHARACTER#ONLY COMEDY RELIEF?????????? sweetie you did NOT read chapter 1082 or. well. understand buggy's character at all#and to answer what you said in the last ask: no i do not think shanks should be with someone prettier bc shanks wants to be with buggy#and also who said shanks is the pretty one in that dynamic damnnn he is not the one who pulled cross guild let me tell you#okay i am being meannn i love shanks you all know i do but uhhh#buggy's character design and story are like. extremely way more colorful and interesting and it's obvious oda loves him so damn much#and nothing against you seeing them as brothers btw that's a reasonable view of the dynamic but#the wording makes it seem like you just care about shanks#and sending these asks to someone who obviously cares about both but is extremely fond of buggy is so ????#why#like why would you do it#don't you have better things to do 😭#not even gonna tag this as shuggy bc this is triggering my rsd and god i am sorry for the people reading this#i love you shuggy shippers mwah mwah#ask-bean!
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sometimes i wonder why cheating and infidelity became a joke in fandom spaces. like maybe i take it too seriously but i really don't think the idea of breaking someone's heart into a million pieces and betraying their trust is something to be laughed at. i don't even know how it started but it doesn't seem fair to just make it comedic relief when its so hurtful.
#auburn's rambles <3#also as someone who has jokingly been accused of cheating on a fictional man i can say for certain i did not laugh.#or when people joked about said fictional man cheating on me. Not Funny. Did Not Laugh. why are You laughing.#its probably a personal thing. but if nothing else i know rubia is gonna agree with me LMAO#tw cheating mention
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I'll never understand the hate toward acofas...
#and dare I say it's one the best books of this series...#honest question did you rent your brain to someone?#every time I read people's reasoning they just show their true color lol#specially the one who act like they're feminists!!#I have absolutely nothing against it I am using the benefits of feminism but I think people have lost the meaning of being one#to the point they sound misogynist#only because Feyre is now living the life SHE ALWAYS WANTED#since book one...#but then again we all know you don't agree to the life style Feyre chose#iykyk lol#(and Elain)#this also can be said about her too#just because she chose a life without a sword y'all call her boring
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well a male friend got very bothered when I said it was “incredibly cruel” to say it’s dangerous to men or bad for women to have a “fear based mentality” around men, which maybe I shouldn’t have said it such, but then he compared feminism to both the current actions of themodern medinas yisrael and North Korea and talked about how girls ruined his friends life by falsely accusing him of stalking them and said he was crying over the bus talking about it and I was being hypocritical for being bothered by antisemitism and Hamas when Jews are violent but not ready to go #notallmen (Jewish male friend btw) so I don’t know how to respond
#I just think comparing even feminism you don’t like to North Korean is insaneeee#I was just like women get accused of hating men all the time for nothing like#Have I ever gone I hate you MAN#I just said it was cruel to start accusing even women or feminists who are problematic of being problematic due to their *fear based#Mentality* or *siege mentality* like they have a siege based mentality because they’re under siege#And if I bring that up I’m just hating men#Like I do feel this is a pretty exhausting form of emotional labour I just said I didn’t agree
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Normalize enjoying platonic ships without getting attacked for not shipping them romantically.
Normalize enjoying healthy friendships and non-romantic relationships.
Normalize characters interacting regularly without being buddy-buddy or lovebirds.
Normalize enjoying when characters HATE eachother actually without having them fall in love.
#miley's rambles#i feel this needs to be said for a lot of fandoms.#i actually like some characters being JUST friends. nothing more#to me#friendship is more solid than romance sometimes#i wish characters were allowed to canonically be good friends and spend time together without being shipped#people just seem to be really obsessed with other people's relationships for some reason#it's cool to enjoy things but it gets to a point when you harass someone because they don't agree or don't like it
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"gender bent au" what if I hit you with a metal chair.
"gender bent mag" what if I take your internet away and make you think. for once
I see people headcanoning Tim as trans femme. I'm in the crowd cheering for them screeming at the top of my lungs. someone yells GENDER BEND AU? i approach from behind, crouched down.
EDIT I'm not sorry for going insane in the tags. enjoy the rant because I think it's important. 🏳️⚧️
#this counts for ANY fandom#but with podcasts i will get extremely violent#if you don't agree I don't mind keep writing and reading your stuff and have fun#but realize that in a podcast as human as tma there's literally no gender that matters starting from the archivist.#pronouns don't equal gender but literally everything you hear starting from the characters voices and what is being said about each of them#DON'T EQUAL GENDER#you can hc them ans switch their so called genders#but understand that my deep dislike from genderbend aus come from gender as not a concept but a feeling and experiences#gender is so much more than labels.#and now to get into the specific media i saw this from. tma? please. the archivist is the first to be nonbinary simply because himself +#doesn't care and jonny has a much broader view on gender that i bet he never cared about making the characters fit. they exist in the +#archives and have voices and that means nothing. alice might be trans. a LOT of characters can be trans. are you going to gender bend them?#tma#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#tma podcast#jon sims#jonny sims
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Wilco Zeelenberg, teammanager of the trackhouse racing motogp team, just heard last week that he will be fired after this season. Again (just like with Bo Bendsneyder) this didn't went down in a good way. There were no signs that he didn't do his job right and also Miguel Oliveira doesn't agree with the decision. Because Wilco has raced for 15 years himself, he knows what the racers need and understands them.
Wilco told ziggo sport in an interview how it went. He lost his father just before the Austrian GP and because of that he wasn't there in the race weekend. When he came back everyone suddenly had a new contract, something that is normally his job to do, and he didn't got one. So exactly one week after losing his father, the team told him he was fired. The weekend in Aragon and last weekend in Misano were very hard for him. He is comitted to finish this year and give his all for the team, but he is very disappointed that the trackhouse slogan ("We are trackhouse") doesn't seem to be as true as the team made it out to be. He hopes he can continue to work in the motogp paddock next season
#wilco zeelenberg#motogp#trackhouse racing#trackhouse racing motogp#2024 season#2025 season#miguel oliveira#what is going on in the paddock?#this is not how you treat your staff and racers#he wants to finish the season in a good way#and hopes that another team can use him#but he is very sad by the way it went#and also said that miguel didn't agree with it#and was also sad that he would be fired#and said that they would lose a lot of experience with wilco#also#wilco helped build the trackhouse team from 0#the new owner asked him for a lot of advice and help#and wilco gave everything to get the team where it belongs to be#and after 8 months they just drop him like its nothing#very weird this happened again#seriously not nice
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