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simon was the only one who could understand you. of course, he understood your interests and your distastes, but he was the only one who could understand you.
on days where you couldnāt get out of bed, couldnāt shower, couldnāt live, simon was the one who understood. heād lay in bed with you, bathe with you, even when he barely fit in the tub and would have to maneuver his legs in an uncomfortable position to fit the both of you.
when the world was against you, simon stood tall by your side.
when you didnāt have it in you anymore to keep on going, simon gave you a second chance.
he knew how you felt. how when things got bad again, nobody was there to pick you back up, to tell you things will be okay, to hug you. simon never had that for himself, so when he met you, a shattered reflection of himself, he provided you with what he didnāt have.
unconditional love. undying affection. admiration on days where you felt you didnāt deserve it. everything he didnāt get before you, he gave you twice as much.
simon glued back your broke pieces with the utmost care. and when you broke again, heād do it all over.
simon loved you for you. he loved every fragment that cracked along the way. loved you on days where you didnāt love yourself, and loved you on days where you felt like you were on top of the world.
where most people saw an ugly flower, shriveling up into rotted petals, he saw the garden of eden blossoming right before his eyes. he watered every intricate flowers, providing you with warm rays of sunshine in order to assure you would grow.
he took his time with you. he remained patient, because love always is. after all, you canāt bloom a garden without the occasional parasite or weed, and simon would get on hands and knees, fingers in the dirt if it meant tending to you.
#angieās rambles#this is a vent post#i am Not okay#but anyway hey guys#call of duty#simon ghost riley#cod#cod x reader#ghost cod#simon riley x reader#ghost simon riley#simon riley#simon āghostā riley x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#ghost x reader
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being physically disabled as a young adult after being an physically active child in and physically active family, who still participates in the online spaces for physically active hobbies but cannot participate physically meansā¦ iām a living nightmare. i talk to people who share this interest with me, and my existence is their worst nightmare. they see my crutches and hear that i cannot walk far or climb a ladder and think, thank god it isnāt me. my existence is horrible and unimaginable to able bodied people.
#iāll never forget the guy who when i told him i was physically disabled and couldnāt walk much but could walk with aids#he said āoh thatās not that bad!ā#he meant it genuinely and i understand where heās coming from#but man#tell me you know nothing about disability without telling me you know nothing about disability#i just agreed and moved on but it stuck with me#cripple punk#cpunk#disabled#physically disabled#physical disability#spoonie#fibromyalgia#vent#this is a vent post#vent post#you can ignore this#this is about urbex but i donāt think itās relevant so i wonāt tag it#okay to reblog
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i found him
he doesn't like sharing the bed
#undertale#flowey#my art#artists on tumblr#this is a vent post#if its for me or for him is up to debate#why is furniture so expensive ;;
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I see one more post about how the Nulls are just poor little sad autistic meowmeow victims of Kal's ableist machinations and that being psychos are just rumors or he personally maintains mental illness in them, I will start a riot.
Admit it, dude, when you see the word "psycho" you don't think of people with Antisocial Personality Disorder, you think about the stereotypical serial killers the media slaps you with. If you don't know what behaviour patterns to look for, you won't find the clues exactly why are they "psychos". You expect a bloodbath, but ASPD is not about bloodbath!
Stop fucking victimizing the Nulls all the time. They are very much aware of their own mind, and they are very much aware that Kal is a manipulative bastard sometimes, and they are totally okay with it!
Stop fucking erasing their mental illnesses by saying shit that is all the fabrication of Kal! Seriously at this point, you give too much credit to this man.
sincerely, a random dude on the internet with an actual personality disorder.
#this is a vent post#btw I'm almost finished with the ASPD blurb I just need a few more quotes to organize#kal skirata#ordo skirata#null arcs#repcomm#republic commando#star wars
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I have entered the phase of learning the names/dates and other very precise informations, of my revisions, for the exam I have to retake.
So, of course, my brain goes "don't wanna." at the prospect of learning by rote. My dude, I need to know those things. The only way is by rote. Let me do it!!!!
#;-;#it's an elementary school task#come on#this is a vent post#i will end up having to look for a diagnostic because at least i'll know what solutions could help me#if i know what exactly is the problem#uuuuuuurgh#rocket science sounds more fun than learning those handful of dynasties right now TT-TT#hi tumblr void
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yea i love being the friend you only have time for when nobody else is available!! i love not getting a text back when i ask if we are even still seeing each other TODAY. yea. i love seeing how everyone else matters more to all of you. i love seeing all of you not give a damn about my feelings!! thank u!!
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Saw a guy at work today (I work in a restaurant) who looked like a VERY old logan (the wolverine) and he was just sitting there alone drinking a beer and eating a greek salad (very badass of him)
Also my boss crashed into me and broke 6 glasses but we stay silly
I had something else to say but forgot it
#deadpool & wolverine#wolverine#logan howlett#marvel#gotta be one of my favorite genders#this is a vent post
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Your local duskwood shitposter starts her first group therapy today and I'm so freaking nervous, please wish me luck. :'D
Posting it here because Iām in a hole full of self-pity and that's why I need to mimimi. xD And I'm not ashamed xD
#send help#hbj talks#personal#not dw#<3<3<3<3<3#this is a vent post#I need a Jake to drive me there and to pick me up afterwards it would make me feel better I think xD
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At this point all ads are intrusive and I want them dead
#before you talk about nuance that's not my point here#tumblr's ads will blast audio even if the app is minimized while I'm doing something else on my phone#and while i typically keep my phone muted at work? rn i am at home on my day off#ads are fucking intrusive. that is what the state of the internet has reached and i fucking hate it#this is a vent post#Cyanide speaks
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I think today is the single worst day I've had in twelve years.
Across today I've written drafts about the two majorly dire events I was involved with. One not my fault, and once very much my fault. I'm not going to post either of them because I don't think making them public will do me any more good than the writing already did.
Have you ever wished that you could throw up so that maybe some of the poison you feel crawling in your veins will be gone from you?
At some point, useful self-reflection becomes unhelpful rumination and eventually self-flagellation. I think I've done what good I can for now.
I'll be bringing this up with my therapist on Monday.
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stared at the scars on my arms and now I'm wondering where it all went wrong and if I couldve prevented it all
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Tell me why every fictional character who has an anxiety disorder also has at least one love interest (except for the one character whoās asexual, love you Beth March from March Family Letters). For that matter tell me why everyone I know IRL who has anxiety issues also has a partner or at least an ex. Tell me why the DSM says women with social anxiety are likely to be married but not to have a job, and Iām the reverse. Tell me why itās only me whose self-isolation has been so bad that Iām about to be 30 and never been kissed. What is it about me specifically? Whatās it take, huh?!
#this is a vent post#i know I need to find an event or class or meet up to go to every week and get to know the people there#i know I should try the dating apps again#Iām just saying all of the āthere are so many people in your age group who are in the same boatā is starting to ring a little hollow#itās not even just characters with anxiety disorders#temperance brennan is out here being bad at socializing and believing sheās unlovable and she has sex out the wazoo#like you have to all be lying to me about something#I know no one owes me shit but itās not fair that everything in the world is about this one thing I donāt get to have#sometimes I canāt even listen to music because I hate myself so much for not being able to relate to all the love and breakup songs#sometimes I want someone to call me ugly or break my heart just to feel something
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Me and my wife have been trying to have a baby for a year now and I just got another negative result. Idk what so do, everytime we try it just hits harder. It's so expensive and I hate being poked and prodded all the time. This is our third try and it only took a year because its so expensive and we have to wait to save up money.
Its honestly heartbreaking. They tell me I'm a perfect canidate for pregnancy, but it still feels like I'm doing something wrong because it's just not working. We want this so so bad. We have one more try before we have to drop more money on sperm. This just sucks so bad
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It may sound controversial, but saying shit like "you are normal babybabu, there is nothing wrong with you" to a person with personality disorder causes more harm than not.
You mean it well. I know.
And before you are getting smartass with me, this is not a persmission to go to every person with a PD to say: you are a freak.
When you praise us, you have to be specific. When you are disappointed in us, you have to especially specific in the details.
Because that's how we are forming healthy connections between informations. That's how we are encouraged to choose more healthy ways to cope, pursuing more healthy ways to live life, or choosing healthier way to communicate our feelings.
My personality is not a constant thing, it's not evolving! It's appearing and disappearing, just like that, that's why it's called personality disorder.
It's a fucking shelf I have put labeled jars with traits as ingredients and carefully pour them into my witchcauldron and pray that the concoction will help me getting through a social situation without acting weird. My morals jar is always empty, I have to go to neighbor to borrow some if I want to have it.
Saying shit like "there is nothing wrong with you" totally contradicts with everything we were going through all our life. Why we are feeling isolated, why we are constantly reminded how our way of thinking about life is wrong.
"there is nothing wrong with you, you are normal" It's a fucking lie and even you know it when you say it.
#this is a vent post#yes I'm still furious about yesterday#aspd#bpd#borderline personality disorder#antisocial personality disorder#cluster b#neurodivergent
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I donāt mean to be that person but it kinda grates me how libfems that comment on how deprived sk or Indian men are for their sex crimes ignore the very same sex crimes that happen right in front of them in more āprogressiveā countries right under their noses. Like the depravity they are horrified with happens within the very same parameters and industries that uphold prostitution ( āsex workā) and the pornography produced and consumed in their daily lives. Like they only react to extreme, concentrated wide spread cases of misogyny as if the men around them arenāt the same but donāt act out because of some legal protections that theyāre privileged with or got lucky to be born in a richer countries or one that has āprogressedā in social norms in relation to the treatment of women. Itās very irritating that noise is only made when some event becomes a āhot topicā and worst of all is that they uphold some of this exploitation because of their brand of feminism.
#ic.text#this is a vent post#like Iām glad more awareness is spreading but jfc connect the dots already#you literally have PH profiting from child sex trafficking and OFās being predatory and moms pumping out their daughters but where the#outrage over that ?? you have the Tate brothers and widespread p*rn use and red pill and ai deepfakes used to terrorize celebs#and subreddits with r*pe p*rn with thousands of followers and and the list goes on#but yeah plz gawk and only act surprised when itās from some āābackwardsā counties that need feminism#like girl we need feminism right fucking here first holy fuck
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