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tbh carlos being n3 makes sense... people love to hyperfixate on the 2 slams but 1) he missed out on 3 masters due to injury & olympics 2) he had early exits in 2 ATP 500s 3) he didn't reach a masters SF outside of IW
like idk it annoys me when people act willfully obtuse and complain about the ranking system when it's a metric of its own and rightfully rewards year-round consistency above all. a slam is a slam, just like a n1 ranking is a n1 ranking. we're free to debate on which one is more "important" i guess but to imply one necessitates the other is weird lol
#this is NOT a zverev defense post btw i hate his guts#but people need to learn simple math i fear!#and carlos dropping to n3 says more about him than that rat#like theres a reason why there r 58 unique slam winners in the open era vs 29 no.1 players#and of those 29 only 19 have actually become ye1#txt
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The Dragon of Runestone
Request: Yes or No
Summary: Prince (Y/N) Targaryen has kept to Runestone with his grandsire in preparation for taking the seat of House Royce but when his uncle passes and his cousin is usurped, he makes the decision to fly to her aid and unite with his family.
Pronouns: He/Him/His, M!Reader
TW/CW: Typical GoT/HOTD warnings, Targcest/Incest (Half Sister-Half Brother/Cousins/Stepbrothers), mention of Daemon's two dead wives, mention of Luke's death, age gap Jace and Baela are around 18/19 while (Y/N) is in early to mid twenties (don't ask me his exact age I didn't want to do the math), Daemon is a questionable father but what else is new, drinking, Jace is a SIMP, sexual/suggestive content
I hate how intricate Rhaenyra/Alicent/Helaenas hairstyles are in comparison to Rhaena and Baela who get the simplest of styles. I also had more written but it was going into full smut territory 💀
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Luke was dead.
Despite the days and weeks that passed, Jace hadn't yet wrapped his head around it. His partner in crime, his shadow, his closest friend, his little brother... dead. Slaughtered mercilessly by their kinslayer of an uncle. His mother had been clear in her instructions when she agreed to send them away, fully and completely adamant that they not engage with anyone. Luke followed his mother's orders diligently and the Greens took him without remorse.
The cold that'd washed over him when he received news of it, when he read the letter sent to him by his stepfather and felt the realization settled in... the cold of the North had nothing against it. Nothing against the unsettling iciness that swept through his veins or the way his heart squeezed and dropped to the pits of his stomach. Lord Cregan Stark's attempts at comfort had gone in one ear and out the other during the descent down from the Wall.
He prayed it'd been a mistake, that Luke's name had been miswritten, and Daemon had meant another Velaryon. Convincing himself of such a thing allowed him to fly back to Dragonstone, allowed him to dream that the moment he got there, he'd see his brother and Arrax waiting for him; that they'd laugh about the misunderstanding and settle down together to talk about Storm's End and the North while the sun set over the horizon. But all he received when he climbed off Vermax were pitiful, sorrowful looks from the servants and guards of Dragonstone.
Luke was dead... and he was partly to blame for his death.
It'd seemed like a good idea at the time, for him and his brother to mount their dragons to ensure those who'd bent the knee when his mother had been named heir planned on keeping their oath. It'd seemed simple enough, as well, to fly out to meet and dine with nobles who'd trip over themselves to please two princelings. But Aemond had beaten Luke to Storm's End, and chosen to spill the first blood of war over silly childhood pranks.
Jace attempted to distract himself through various means such as training twice as hard and attending his mother's council meetings; all in hopes of swallowing his guilt and grief into the back of his mind. He shed enough tears, sobbed enough into the shoulder of his mother, and told his pains to Baela. It was time to focus on avenging his brother, on claiming back the throne usurped by his uncle and the wicked Hightowers. Distracting himself, as he quickly grew to learn, was easier when his stepbrother lingered around and took his place at the table. Visenya born again, they called him. The Dragon of Runestone.
Jace enjoyed watching him during meetings, observing and taking note of how he conducted himself. (Y/N) cut down power-seeking nobles with ease, his violet eyes piercing into those who dared interrupt or speak over Rhaenyra. It was comforting despite the blatant indifference he had for his cousin outside of war meetings and discussions. Rhaenyra needed powerful people on her side, powerful men that others feared enough to remain silent on their opinions and desires.
He only had a few years on Jace; born three years before his mother's sudden passing. Jace heard the rumors that Daemon had been insistent the babe wasn't his until (Y/N) was born with those signature silver locks, forcing him back to Runestone to see his firstborn son and admit Targaryen blood flowed through his veins. Rhea refused to allow him to take (Y/N) far from Runestone but her wishes were ignored when she passed, leaving her inheritance to her only child and her estranged husband to do as he pleased.
From what the twins had told Jace, even as a toddler and young boy he'd fussed when tended to by his father's new wife, Lady Laena. Kicking, crying, biting, and shoving; it felt as if the boy knew she'd been a swift replacement for his mother. He'd been developing from a boy to a tween when his half-sisters were born and even then, he ignored them in favor of being with others on Pentos or flying with his dragon, Bantis.
From a young age, Jace had idolized him; the cooler older boy with an air of indifference and mystery. He simply couldn't resist the allure, and neither did Baela.
"I think the first time he ever looked at me had been during training," Baela had told him one time, back in Driftmark hours after her mother's funeral. They'd been young children then, and it'd been the first time Jace laid eyes on (Y/N) outside of stories and paintings. He'd been captivated despite the never-fading scowl and snarky attitude. "I picked up a training sword and hit his friend in the leg with it. It was the first time I ever heard him laugh." The glimmer in her eye had been undeniable.
Focusing on silly little feelings hardly seemed appropriate during a time of war, but it took Jace's mind off the reality around them. Especially when he could rest his arms along the stone railing of a balcony overlooking where knights trained and watch (Y/N) knock men twice his age down onto the floor. His eyes followed each movement of his arms and legs, gaze lingering on the tight grip he had on his sword and thoughts drifting to wonder what it'd feel like to have them pressed on bare skin.
"You can speak with him, you know." Jace flinched, his body instinctively straightening up and heat bursting across his face as he turned to face his betrothed. Baela smiled at him, teasing and friendly, sliding up to take the spot beside him and releasing a thoughtful sigh at the sight of her older half-brother. (Y/N) slammed his foot into the back of his sparring partner's knee, the blade of his sword pressing against the man's neck. He smirked and it sent a shiver down Jace's spine.
"I doubt he'd like that," Jace responded, albeit a bit whiny, but he felt comfortable enough around Baela to let go of what was expected of a prince like him. They were to be wed one day, after all. Baela glanced at him out of the corner of her eye, a soft laugh escaping her.
It was true, in a way. (Y/N) hardly liked any of his family, apart from those in Runestone. He'd fallen out with Daemon the day his father chose to wed Rhaenyra; an argument so vicious it ended with (Y/N) striking Daemon in the jaw and flying away on Bantis, never to answer any letters from any of them again. King Viserys appeared to have been the only one left he cared enough about to visit, but he'd proven to at least hold some love for them by ensuring Lady Jeyne Arryn kept to her oath without being asked to and flying to Dragonstone to serve on Rhaenyra's council before a letter could be sent to Runestone.
"He is kind when he wants to be." Jace looked at her sideways. Baela laughed again, the sweet sound carrying with the wind that tousled her silver curls. "It's true, I swear! I've seen it before. He can be kind. He is just... hard to reach. You cannot blame him for being distant, I suppose. It can be hard to have Daemon as a father."
"It must be." Jace thought back on the rumors surrounding Rhea Royce's death. He winced when the sparring partner tapped out, the knight's nose trickling with blood. The squires and available knights around shrank back when (Y/N) turned toward them. "The only times I've heard them speak has been from arguments heard all around Dragonstone. I hear even Caraxes and Bantis cannot stand to be around each other."
"Father does love him and wants him around but... he has little patience and (Y/N) has never tolerated being yelled at," Baela spoke, her hand flying to grasp his arm as she did and feet turning toward the stairs leading down to the training area. Jace felt himself automatically tense when (Y/N)'s sharp violet eyes turned in their direction.
Gods, he hated how easily his legs weakened and cheeks flared in (Y/N)'s presence. The others around dipped their heads respectfully, bowing to whom would be their future rulers once the Iron Throne returned to its rightful heir. Jace managed to tear his eyes away from the prince to nod to those around, motioning for them to leave with another nod. They quickly did, practically scrambling away before (Y/N) could pluck one and toss them around.
"Brother," Baela greeted, her hand leaving Jace's arm to lace her fingers together before her. (Y/N) gave a hum of acknowledgment, the tip of his sword digging into the mushy ground when he leaned into it. His hair had long gone askew from the constant movement but Jace thought it suited him perfectly. "Perhaps it'd be better if you stopped beating up our knights."
"They're knights." (Y/N) drawled. "They ought to get used to it before facing real battle. If they cannot do well in training, they'll die on the field. The sheep of the Vale are tougher than some of the fools here."
"If you feel their performances are inadequate then feel free to train them." Jace felt more than thankful to have Baela at his side, otherwise he would've stuttered through his sentences harder than a babe learning to speak. (Y/N) regarded him with little emotion. "We deserve to have the best of the best protecting us and our claim, after all."
"Whatever you say, Jacaerys." (Y/N) raised his sword and slipped it back into its sheath, unaware of the disappointment coursing through his stepbrother's veins. Baela glanced between them, her fingers tightening around each other and teeth catching her bottom lip. She stepped forward, blocking his path before he could depart.
"Why don't we catch up, Brother? It has been much time since we've spoken. You must have many stories to tell of the Vale, do you not?" Baela, ever the quick thinker, said as she looped her arm around (Y/N) and sent a look Jace's way. The brunette nodded along with her words, a prick of hope sparking in his chest.
The older prince's eyes slowly slid between the two, a single brow lifting for a moment before he gave a curt nod. "I suppose I have time to spare. It'll be over wine, however. I could use a drink or two."
"Over wine." Jace agreed and found himself unable to resist a giddy grin from spreading across his face.
The buzz of wine coursing through his veins hardly helped with the heat flowing through his body. Conversation had surprisingly started easily with Baela asking questions about the Vale and Runestone, perhaps the taste of Dornish wine having some to do with (Y/N)'s relaxed, semi-open composure. Jace absentmindedly listened to his betrothed and stepbrother speak, his hand swirling the cup of deep red wine that he assumed to be some sort of Dornish wine. It tasted sweet, addictively so.
His eyes flitted around the bedchambers given to (Y/N), mostly lingering on the bed Jace noted to be the perfect size to fit three or more people. His thumb pressed into the designs of the goblet in hand, his mind racing with his vivid imagination.
He'd hardly done anything with Baela apart from holding her hand or embracing her, but he oft' thought of how their life as a married couple would go. He'd never been with any else before, man or woman, unlike many of the men around him. He was a prince, for Gods sake. He was meant to be the very definition of a gentleman... although that certainly never stopped the thoughts from conjuring late at night.
His teeth caught his bottom lip and tore a bit of skin off, the heat rushing to his stomach making his grip tighten on the goblet. Baela and (Y/N) looked dazzling in the warm glow of the candlelight and moonlight seeping in through the balcony. Baela's brown skin looked warmer, dewier, so much so that Jace wanted to run his hands over every inch of her. He loved when she released her hair so it tumbled down her shoulders and framed her face with those perfect curls. Her purple eyes glimmered with each flicker of the candles, and her full lips looked utterly enticing.
(Y/N) looked similarly, his hair pushed back from running his fingers through it multiple times and his features softened into a look of contentment. He'd rid himself of his overshirt when they entered his room, leaving him in an undershirt with the sleeves pushed up to his elbows. Jace's gaze trailed over his arms, strong enough to no doubt lift him from the ground. He slowly moved his gaze upward, studying each detail of his body until he focused on his face. He startled when the two made eye contact and (Y/N)'s lips curled upward into a smirk that reeked of trouble.
"Jacaerys," (Y/N) called, dragging his propped-up feet off the table and planting them firmly on the floor. Jace swallowed thickly, contemplating taking another swing of his wine. Baela delicately sipped on the last of her wine and reached for the pitcher, pouring herself the last of its contents. "Have you ever gone to bed with someone before? Or have you been keeping your hands to yourself 'til marriage?"
Baela grew still, her eyes widening at the swift change in topic from something innocent to speaking of sex. Jace flushed, heat spreading across his face and neck, his ears growing unbelievably hot. She was a lady. Hardly the sort of subject two men would speak of so carelessly. Sex was only spoken of with certain people: parents, septas, maesters, and partners. Sure, he'd heard plenty of filth spew from Aegon's mouth, but it hardly beat hearing it from (Y/N) in front of Baela.
"I-" Jace cut himself off with another swallow, his adams apple bobbing and tongue unable to form words. He pressed his lips together, his free hand curling against his thigh and eyes flickering wildly between Baela and (Y/N). "I-I have not. I... I was taught not to bring ruin onto a lady by... such acts."
"Ah, you sound like a prude." (Y/N) laughed lightly and set his goblet on the table, the smirk hanging onto his lips. "I'm certain your parents would hardly fault you for... indulging with one another. You've thought about it, haven't you, Jacaerys? She's your bride-to-be, after all."
Jace's face felt as if a dragon had blown on it. "I-"
"What about you, Brother?" Baela cut in, her composure drastically more calm and collected than Jace's but he noted the way her thighs pressed together beneath the skirt of her dress. (Y/N) tore his amused stare away from Jace and onto his half-sister, his finger running circles over the rim of his goblet. "Have you... been with anyone before?"
"'Course I have." He gave a light scoff and envy flooded Jace's stomach. "Maids, ladies, whores, knights, lordlings. I'm not a child nor saving myself for whichever noble lady ends up my wife. There's little to do in the Vale apart from typical lord things; hunting, riding, and those sorts of things get boring after a while."
Maids, ladies, whores, knights, and lordlings.
Women and men.
Jace's gaze darted over to Baela, meeting her wide-eyed stare as the two came to a similar realization, and then, the same idea; a spark ignited in her eyes and a light flickered on in his head. Gods, was he glad they were betrothed. They were so similar in so many ways, he certainly couldn't wait to rule side by side with her. Jace knew coming to an agreement with her would hardly ever be a hassle.
"Show us, then," Jace said, the wine dancing in his body only filling him with confidence and boldness. (Y/N)'s head tilted to the side in question, and for a moment it was easy to forget he was the child of a brutal prince. "You have much experience under your belt, do you not? Why not teach us how to properly bed one another?"
"I'm certain you know where everything ought to go, Jacaerys."
"Obviously," The heat returned to his face. "But... I've never kissed anyone nor touched anyone. You have, however."
Jace received a hum in response and (Y/N)'s head tilted back in thought, seemingly contemplating the idea. Jace felt nerves beginning to bubble up in his stomach, anxious over what the response would be. It'd be one thing to finally have one of his dreams fulfilled, another to have to face him the following days with a sober mind and a dejected heart. Baela met his eyes again, giving him a subtle nod of encouragement. He could still backtrack, still laugh it off-
Fingers grasped the side of his throat, coarse fingertips dipping into the hairs on the nape of his neck and digging into his skin. He only had a brief moment to look back at the older prince before lips pressed against his own, a sharp shiver darting down his spine and body tensing. (Y/N)'s lips felt soft against his own but Jace hardly knew what to do apart from tentatively parting them. He shuddered when (Y/N)'s tongue invaded his mouth, his hand nearly dropping the goblet as he clumsily searched for the table in order to set it down. Once both hands were free, he pressed them against (Y/N)'s shoulders and began meekly mimicking him.
When they pulled back, Jace sighed at the string of saliva connecting them before (Y/N) wiped his mouth. He grinned at him, a breathy and amused chuckle leaving him at the dazed sight of Jace.
Be it the wine or simply the giddy feeling constricting his heart, Jace could barely think straight, his thoughts only focusing when (Y/N) patted his thigh, his attention directed onto Baela. She rose from her seat and shuffled around the table, carefully sitting sideways on her half-brother's lap. Jace's breeches felt excruciatingly tight, the feeling only growing as he watched the two lock lips.
Baela lifted her hand to cup (Y/N)'s cheek, the other tightly curling around the sleeve of his shirt. (Y/N) kept his palm pressed to her back while his other hand danced downward until it reached the skirt of her black and red dress, his fingers curling and slowly dragging the fabric upwards to reveal her calf and then her lower thigh. Jace squirmed in his seat, battling with urges threatening to take over his mind; a battle he began slowly losing as he watched (Y/N)'s fingers dig into the flesh of her thigh.
Suddenly, (Y/N) stood and took Baela along with him, setting her down on the edge of the table and pulling away to grab his forgotten cup and blindly toss it aside. It clattered with the stone floor, the wine spilling and darkening the shade of gray. Effortlessly, (Y/N)'s fingers undid the knotted laces of the back of Baela's dress, his legs pushing hers apart and causing the skirt to ride up further. Jace watched, eyes bouncing around their bodies until he looked at (Y/N)'s face pleadingly.
"Put what you learned to practice, Jacaerys."
With those words, Jace shot up from his seat, nearly knocking the chair back from the sheer speed and force. Baela's chest lightly heaved with pants, her half-lidded eyes meeting Jace's when he stood at her side. He leaned in and despite the need blazing in his lower belly, Jace kissed her gently, sweetly, moving slowly and taking his time. Her lips felt soft and plush, and they parted easily. It was clumsy but endearing, and it made his heart swell.
"Shit," Jace cursed, reeling back from Baela when his pants loosened and a hand dipping beneath his breeches. (Y/N) chuckled breathily against Baela's neck before latching his lips onto her and searching around until he found a spot that made her breath hitch and hands fly to grab the collar of his shirt. Jace's legs threatened to give out from under him when (Y/N) lightly squeezed him, forcing him to brace himself against the table and drop his forehead down onto Baela's shoulder.
"Sensitive, the both of you." (Y/N)'s muffled voice said, and Jace caught the way he dragged his teeth along Baela's neck, enticing a shudder and soft whine out of her before he lightly dug his teeth where her shoulder and neck met. Jace barely had a chance to respond before letting out a strangled groan at the feeling of (Y/N) slowly stroking him, his hips bucking and knees trembling with each slow drag of his hand.
Jace whined suddenly when (Y/N) retracted his hand, a sound that made his neck flush in embarrassment and lips form a disappointed scowl directed at the older prince. (Y/N) rolled his eyes at him, fingers hooking along Jace's pants and breeches to swiftly tug them down to his thighs. The cold air from the cool breeze flowing in through the balcony made him shiver, goosebumps rising along his skin. His first instinct was to tug his pants back up and hide himself from their prying eyes but he pushed the urge down.
"Take it off." (Y/N) told him, or rather ordered him, the tone making Jace woozy with the desire to fulfill his every command. He clumsily did as told, nearly stumbling over his jittery legs as he undressed fully despite the cold nipping at his exposed skin. (Y/N) eyed him over and then grinned again, his hand roughly grabbing Jace by the hip and tugging him closer to slam their lips together. When he drew back, he nodded over to the bed and Jace's features brightened, eagerly moving toward the bed.
(Y/N) carefully tugged Baela's dress down her shoulders, dragging the sleeves down past her elbows and freeing her arms. She shivered at the cold first and then wrapped her arm around her chest, her skin feeling as if the sun were glaring directly down on her. (Y/N) snorted softly, his eyes surprisingly soft as he peeled her arm away from her chest, leaving butterflies fluttering around her stomach. He wrapped an arm around her waist and lifted her, his hand pulling and tugging at her dress until it fell down her thighs and partly over Jace's scattered clothes.
His arm dropped so he could lift her by her thighs, her arms wrapping around his shoulders and head burying into his neck as they moved toward the bed where Jace awaited them. (Y/N) lowered her down on the bed, the covers feeling soft and silky against her skin. Jace's chin hooked over her shoulder, his hand cupping her jaw before lowering to explore her neck and shoulders, trailing down her arm and moving onto her hip.
"You're beautiful." He murmured, and any tension in her body disappeared. She smiled and kissed him, already addicted to mushing their lips together no matter how clumsy or messy. Jace pulled back, brushing his lips over her cheek before swooping down to peck her shoulder, his long brown curls tickling her jaw.
"I think..." Baela spoke softly, head turning toward the older prince still standing and still clothed. "Someone has far too many layers on."
"I do not recall saying I'd bed either of you." (Y/N) spoke, attention shifting downward when Jace pushed the bottom of his shirt out from his pants to expose the skin beneath. Despite his words, he did little to stop the brunette from undoing his belt nor did he protest when Baela tucked her knees underneath herself and rose to unbutton his shirt.
"You said you'd teach us," Jace reminded him, his lips pressing against (Y/N)'s happy trail and hands eagerly mimicking what the older prince had done to him moments prior; swiftly undressing him and leaning back to look him over, the sight alone making the brunette's mouth water. "We have to practice on someone, do we not?"
The corner of (Y/N)'s lips twitched upward. "I suppose."
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So many women want to have more power in our bodies so that we can do more, be more, and create more but the problem I see is that women have to learn how to hold our own power through learning to hold our own stillness. So often women are constantly talking, constantly having bad sex, constantly needing people to validate our experience, constantly needing to tell someone about our new workout program for example, constantly distracted, or constantly looking outside of ourselves in other ways, instead of having periods where we hold and contain our own energy with ease and grace.
There is so much wisdom that unlocks when you are able to focus and direct your life force and not need to spill or leak it out over the place in order to feel safe, comfortable, loved, relaxed, or regulated. Then and only then will you naturally receive more power because you learned (or remembered) how to hold what had already been given and expanded upon it. This is simple math.
But women may not realize that we fear our own power because we also know subconsciously that if our power gets bigger, we could maim and destroy with it, shaking the very foundation of this earth. Until you discover acceptance for everything, making the unconscious conscious, especially related to how powerful and capable you truly are, you may find that you continue to repeat cycles. Lover-Warrior. —India Ame’ye, Author
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How to tackle resistance with manifesting
For people who have been manifesting for a while now, I'm sure some of you, not all, but some of you notice that it's easier to manifest certain things compared to others. It could be easier to manifest things happening around you compared to physical changes for example, this is because your subconsciousness likes to protect old beliefs related to whatever topic you struggle with, it will have natural resistance towards those old beliefs because there's something that you need to face.
Think of it like a math formula, if you learned a formula and know that's how that formula has been done for years and years and that's what your subconsciousness knows but someone suddenly says well, "It's wrong", you will automatically go, "There's no way", it automatically resists to that new belief, cause that's how you've always done it right? The subconsciousness learns things this way, it thinks that formula has to be right cause that's just how you know it. There's no doubt in your mind the alphabet is a specific order too, this just proves this is how the subconsciousness remembers things.
Now this is something I struggle with myself, I tackled it for a bit just for the resistance to come back and here's why it came back, the thing I was trying to manifest was something deeply rooted in trauma and fear so, I first asked myself, why am I so resistant to this topic?
Turns out the resistance to the manifestation, which was to lose weight, was the fact that I was scared that I was stuck at that specific weight forever and it will continue to be that way and things will never change, now this was something I had believed for years and years to the point I wasn't suprised nothing changed cause deep down I knew I didn't expect it to.
I thought it was my 'fate', I had really bad body image overall so it wasn't anything knew, but the fact I even knew what was stopping my physical changes in the first place was a good start.
It means I could do something about it and face it with a new positive light, which I still am, it doesn't change overnight for some people and that's perfectly okay, everyone is different.
I have been working on my self concept and doing shadow work to find out what caused the belief to even appear, what the effects of those beliefs were on me and how much it affected me, what new beliefs I could use to replace those old beliefs and how I could accept that I didn't need to believe those negative things anymore because it is simply not true and does not correlate with my new story.
Accepting new core beliefs is as simple as choosing to believe a new story that resonates with you and makes you feel good, it doesn't have to be complicated at all, repitition is key. I also suggest try to notice your thought pattern throughout the day and see how you react to certain things and find out why exactly you react to it the way you do, you might be suprised by what you find. Give time to yourself and listen to your thoughts to see what needs to change internally.
Happy manifesting !!
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A Primer on Dyscalculia: The Learning Disorder You Weren't Told About in School
I rarely see people discussing this learning disability, to the point that many believe it doesn't exist (ie, saying math is the universal language and everyone understands it but just doesn't try) so I thought I'd explain a bit about what it is.
Dyscalculia is a learning disability characterized by difficulty with math, numbers, and some systematic learning that requires the use of memorization and application. Like its relative, dyslexia, it is not that someone is "stupid" or "not trying hard enough" to learn math; our brains are essentially wired not to absorb information in this form.
Common symptoms of dyscalculia include:
Inability to do basic math problems
Struggling to count, often using their fingers to count
Difficulty using multiplication and division
Challenges with visualizing heights, lengths, and widths
Difficulty counting change
Struggling to read a clock or divide time into reasonable measurements
Challenges with memorizing numbers, dates, and sequences
No one is actually sure how many people have dyscalculia because it is rarely diagnosed. Right now, estimates are around 3% to 7% of the population, but this is likely a vast underrepresentation.
Educators still believe the myth that everyone can do math and that those who say they can't are just refusing to apply themselves. This causes lifelong problems for dyscalculiacs because if not treated early enough, it is nigh-on untreatable.
Many people with dyscalculia may complete math problems in unusual and time consuming ways. For example, if you asked me to divide 145 by 5 without a calculator, this is how my brain would have to do it:
100 by 5 (20)
20 by 5 (4), then multiply this by 2 (8), then divide 5 by 5 (1)
And finally, add up all the results (20+8+1) to get 29.
Numbers that are not easily divisible or "chunked" like this would be nigh-on impossible for me to do in my head. I wasn't able to memorize the times tables and in fact needed a laminated times table well into elementary school (think 5th grade).
I distinctly remember feeling like everyone else was on the helm of the USS Enterprise when they could so easily shout out answers to simple multiplication or division problems, and I was always the last person to do those stupid times table sheets. Sometimes I couldn't even complete half of it by the time everyone else was done.
I failed 3rd grade math class and had to be assigned a tutor. This was despite getting all As in every single other class. In fact, I failed multiple math classes during my academic career.
Since my grades were so high in other classes, I had to petition to be put in a remedial math class. Everyone assumed that because I did well in things like English, science, civics, and so on, I must have been able to do what my peers could.
A college-level physics class was the hardest class I have ever done in my life, and I have a Master's degree in International Relations, which requires a lot of very dry and complicated political theory. That is the A I am most proud of because it required far more effort than anything before or since.
No one told me what dyscalculia was or identified a problem throughout my entire time in education. I had to seek out resources myself in adulthood before finally learning what my problem was. This, of course, led to significant "math fear" and self-esteem issues, especially in a society that is obsessed with STEM.
This learning disability can have far-reaching effects and impact things that other people may not even consider. There are many connections between systematized learning and math.
Dyscalculiacs may also have trouble with:
Learning languages
Playing musical instruments (because sheet music and tempos are a form of language + math, though it is possible to learn by ear)
Reading maps, including general world geography
Estimating distances
Navigating a new place because they can't make "mental maps"
Dancing (due to the sequencing)
Reading diagrams
Remembering step-by-step instructions without a cheat sheet
Completing complex tasks that have a lot of steps
Starting a project that necessitates doing things in a certain order, such as building something
Cooking or baking (because it requires measuring and matching measurements to specific ingredients)
Repeating sequences, like a phone number
Remembering numbered streets or highways (like I-480, 5th street, or etc)
Playing games that require counting or keeping score, like Yahtzee, card games, and so on
Completing spreadsheets with numbers
Of course, not every dyscalculiac will struggle with all of these things because there are different degrees of severity. Many also learn tactics to compensate. For example, I never learned sheet music but did well in choir because I memorized all the songs entirely by ear.
I have developed visualizations of common routes I travel and can navigate to them by remembering the landmarks I pass. If you tried to ask me specific step-by-step directions of anywhere, I couldn't tell you, but I can tell you that you'll pass a KFC on your right if you're going east (parallel to Lake Erie), and then you will turn left at the big shopping center.
There are plenty of adaptations that everyday people use which are lifelines to dyscalculiacs in ways that other people may never recognize. Formulas on spreadsheets, conversion websites, built-in calculators, and turn-by-turn navigation apps are all examples of accommodations that appeal to everyone but are especially important to dyscalculiacs.
So, the next time you scoff and say "everyone can do math, they're just being lazy" or "cooking is easy" or "anyone can learn a second language if they want to" or "using a calculator is cheating" and so on:
Recognize that you are ignoring a very real learning disability. These statements are ableist.
Such rhetoric is equally damaging as anti-dyslexic statements like "everyone can learn to read," "open dyslexic fonts are ugly," "audiobooks are cheating," "video lessons are lazy" and things of that ilk.
Ableism takes many forms, many of which people refuse to recognize. Difficulty with math is a widespread problem, and it often has nothing to do with trying hard enough or refusing to learn. I remember breaking down in tears trying to do my times table; I would spend hours trying to understand them.
These issues are NOT a lack of willpower or application. They have to do with real neurological deficits. Please be kind to those who can't do math, and stop assuming we're lazy.
#learning disability#learning disorder#neurodivergency#neurodiversity#neurodivergent#dyscalculia#actually dyscalculic#disability#disability rights#invisible disability#disability justice#accessibility#disability awareness#disability advocacy#actually disabled#disabilities
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💐 Welcome to my fandoms house 💐
Finaly you made it here and i'm so happy because you decided to follow me and i hope you enjoy your stay🐰✨
Everybody is welcome here except Homophobes, racists, Pedophiles, Proshippers, Gacha heaters, and all the nasty people in general
So in this blog i make a lot of things here like memes, arts,edits, ect, sometimes they look good, sometimes they look cringe🙂🙂
Also i'm in love with James. He is the one who will be more present in this blog, sorry not sorry!!
And also these things here bellow👇🏻👇🏻:
I can do:
Tweening/animation
Drawing arts(even with bases or without them)
SFW (make characters kissing,marking echothers, moaning...)
Drawing simple backgrounds
Art requests
Art commissions
Things i can't do:
Gacha heat
Gacha cringe
Drawing diffecult backgrounds(like forests/cities/beaches, i really need Pinterest so bad😭)
Drawing animals(don't worry I am learning now)
Animate eyes
NSFW (18+)
Letting my oc's naked
🚫 But this blog is also contains swears, yeah a very ✨MOROCCAN✨ swearing, yep i like swearing a lot (But not to this degree), so if you have nothing nice to say here just leave my blog or block me IDFC 🚫
🎧°•My bio and information•°🖤:
🌺Name: Jessy the bunny or Jess in short🎧
🎧real name: N/A🌺
🎧age: 17 yo🌺
🎧birthday: December 1st🌺
🎧nationality: Moroccan🇲🇦🌺
🎧Zodiac: Sagittarius♐🌺
🎧Favorite food/drink: pizza and cola🌺
🎧Favorite color: green/black/brown🌺
🎧Pronouns:She/her/they/them🌺
🎧Gender: 🩶🤍🩷demi-girl🩷🤍🩶🌺
🎧MBTI: INTP🌺
🎧LGBT: 💜🤍asexual🩶🖤🌺
🎧hobbies: drawing/cooking/reading books and manhwas(especially the yaoi/yuri ones👀💦)/doing Gacha videos and art/writing stories/listening to music/swimming/animating/tweening🌺
🎧favorite shows: Thomas and friends, Squid game, happy tree friends, dragon ball, smurfs, south park, lazy town,Hazbin hotel, Halluva boss, the owl house, the amazing world of Gumball, the amazing digital circus...🌺
🎧fears: dark, insects, social phobia, bullying (yeah i'm weak),being ignored, men(irl)🌺
🎧likes: Chocalate, cookies, sleeping, Science and Biology, English, watching videos or making them, anything sweet, my kitten and baby hamster, plants, the sea🌺
🎧dislikes: butter(i'm allergic),Maths and physics, Injustice and insult, school(yeah i hate school soooooooo much because of those fucking classmates), Sports, thomas and friends AEG,making friends irl because they are treacherous,spicy food, not getting enough attention🌺
🎧features: Nervous, introverted, depressed, funny, shy, autistic, ADHD, Have a short tempere, Anxiety🌺
🎧I'm a young artist, plz don't judge me!!!🌺
🎧my DMs are always open, but mostly for commissions🌺
🎧I'm also calling someone who's older than me by mr or miss as a respect for them🌺
✏️°•Extra Information and rules•°✏️:
💚I'm a little bad at English, so you may find some spelling and grammatical errors, so I sometimes use a translator
🖤Don't ask me hateful or disgusting questions, otherwise I will block you
💚I swear a lot, but it's not because I'm rude or something, it's because I'm nervous and I don't control myself, but that doesn't mean I'm mad or upset with you, so don't get me wrong
🖤I don't interact with many people, including: kids (under 13), NSFW bloggers, Zionists, proshippers, pedos, gacha heaters...
💚Don't spam my inbox, if you ask me very much or asking me something multiple times, I'll ignore it and I'll never answer it!
🖤don't steal/repost/copy/use my art without my permission, if you want to use my art as a pfp, ect, ask me first and credit me
💚I have Instagram, Youtube, Tiktok, Pinterest, whatsapp channel,Facebook and discord, so if you saw my art in another social, tell me immediately I will deal with it
🖤I still have some difficulties in drawing, so sometimes I have to use drawing bases to practice, so don't attack me please!
💚Although I like to draw cute things, on the other hand, this blog contains mature content, such as blood, cursing, and some chaotic thirst so be careful.
🖤for the art trade, if you want to do an art trade with me, you must be my mutuel, if you're not I won't accept to do an art trade with you.
💚as for commissions, If you want to commission me, you must be genuine and honest about it and not deceive me, otherwise I'll block you!! But if you'll be late in doing it or don't have the capabilities, there is no problem!
🖤if you're being rude to me, you're not welcome and I'll block you
💚Don't ask me about face reveal in private, even if you're close to me, I won't do this because I won't feel comfortable
🖤In this blog, you have the right to express your opinion, but don't interfere with mine because everyone has their own opinion and we must respect it!!
⚠️°•TW•°⚠️:
Swears
Gore/blood
Sexual themes
Violence
Bad grammar
Cringe behaviors
SFW (safe for work)
Vent
Simping (uhm fuck)
🤍°•FAQs•°💛:
🌟Q:what's your favorite fandom?
A: thomas and friends and Squid game, and this blog will be based with them thank you very much✨✨
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🌟Q: what's your favorite characters from your favorite fandom?
A: 🚂Thomas and friends🚂:
James, Duck, Thomas, Gordon, Percy, Oliver and Toad, Donald and Douglas, Marion, Skiff
🦑Squid game🦑:
In-ho/Young-il/frontman, Gi-hun, The salesman/Gong-yoo, Dae-ho, Jung-bae, Sang-woo, the black officer, Thanos, Ali...
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🌟Q: As for the engines, in their human form, can they fuck or reproduce?
A: Unfortunately, they can fuck whatever or whenever they want but they can't reproduce or have kids because they don't have biological hormones or DNA or whatever it's called like a normal human being
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🌟Q: what are the ages in your Au?
A: 3 years until 60 years, There are those who are older than this, but I limit myself to these ages because I want them to be limited
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🌟Q: what are your self insert's sexualities?
A: Every self insert into a random fandom has its own sexuality, for example my versions, I can't let all my versions being Asexual, bc if I let them it'll be boring so I tried to diversify their sexualities, for example Soft Jessy is lesbian, Bad Jessy is trans, Galaxy is pan, ect...
But fo the other fandoms I usuelly let them bi or pan or even straight to make sure that everyone has its lover/soulmate/partner/boyfriend/girlfriend...
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🌟Q: how did you make your Oc's and are they real or imagined?
A: I made them randomly so that I don't feel like I'm filming the videos alone and that they aren't real people, I made them according to their personality, their life, the story of their past, etc.
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🌟Q: who are your besties?
A: 🎧@miasonyson🎧
💞@lovable-chica💞
💎@asktoyokoakemi💎
💜@viktuurishipper96💜
🎀@bertramtheoldwarrior🎀
🌠@blueskygirl22🌠
🎩 @jammyjams1910🎩
💖@just-an-emily-existing💖
💟@promprom2007💟
🐾 @thefluffyrailway-official 🐾
👁@tttemeetsthestarskys👁
🧁@sugar-miss1🧁
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🌟Q: are you doing art requests?
A: yes I do them,like if someone asks me to draw anything about TTTE Au or other fandoms Aus, But for their Oc's they just have to wait until June because it's summer and i will be active anytime
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🌟Q: Are you gonna do art commissions?
A: Yes, I do them and I really want to, because I need some money to help my parents, so now I am waiting for someone to ask me
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🌟Q: How tall are the engines?
A: Well, in terms of height, the shortest is Toad and Percy is the second shortest engine and he's almost 5’8ft,and the tallest engine is Gordon, The flying scottsman, Spencer and Diesel 10.Their hight is 7’11ft because they're big and tender engines
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🌟Q: What are your favorite ttte/SG ships?
A: None, I'm a multishipper XD, but here are some of them:
🚂Thomas and friends🚂:
❤James x Emily💚
💙Thomas x Rosie🩷
💙Gordon x Rebecca💛
💚Duck x Oliver💚
💚Henry x Hiro🖤
💙Edward x Molly💛
💙Sir Handel x Peter Sam💚
🧡Rusty x Duncan💛
💚Luke x Millie💙
🖤Diesel x Mavis💛
....
🦑Squid game🦑:
💖player 456 x player 001💖
💖player 230 x player 124💖
💖player 380 x player 125💖
💖player 222 x player 333💖
💖player 120 x player 095💖
💖player 388 x player 390💖
💖player 101 x player 212💖
💖player 101 x player 111💖
💖player 218 x player 199💖
💖player 230 x player 196💖
💖player 456 x player 218💖
💖player 456 x player 067💖
💖player 388 x player 222💖
💖player 212 x player 067💖
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🌟Q: Does Lady's magical dust have any benefit or any influence on the rest of the engines?
A: Yes, it definitely has a benefit for the engines. Thanks to it, it can save them from becoming victims of scrap, or if something physically harms them in their human form, it comes and treats them because ordinary doctors cannot treat human engines
🎀°•some basics of my Au•°🎀:
🌟some of my oc's transform into their true forms for many special reasons, for example demons, wolves, rabbits, etc., but the duration of this transformation is specific
🌟These reasons in particular may be either psychological, such as sadness, shame, and the desire to feel lonely and calm, or physical reasons
🌟The characters are distinguished from each other by their superpowers and magic, which makes them 100% different from ordinary humans
🌟Each one of us has his own personality, and this is the result of their personalities and feelings being different
🌟Characters can fuse and create new characters, but only if three basic conditions are met: If the two characters have a relationship of love, brotherhood, or strong friendship, If these conditions are not met, they will not be able to fuse
🌟ech character has a rival with another character, The reasons are as follows: Either he had a bad past, or that person was famous and forgot about his friend, and so on
🌟as for the humanized engines, their blood is a bit darker than a normal human being, and also if they lost anything or got cut like if they lost their arm or their leg or anything, don't worry, Lady is here for help
🌟and also they can eat, drink, wash their teeth,taking shower, and almost anything about humans, but the only thing that they don't do in their human form is breeding and reproduction, and the engines in their human form become even more stronger so they can done their jobs very fast and easely.
💗🌟Thank you so much for your time and reading this and i hope you enjoy your stay here again ^^🌟💗
✍🏻°•My Au's headcanons+Refs+ Stories•°🩷 :
❇️°•Commission info•°❇️
🌟°•Original oc's•°🌟
🚂°•Original engines•°🚂
🌹°•other social medias•°🎧
💞°•Official ships•°💞
♡__________________________♡
💫°•Some fandoms i drew•°💫
🖤°•Douglas and Oliver headcanons•°💚
🌈°•original face expressions+color pallet chart•°✨
💐°•Self inserts•°💐
🎀°•Some random ttte headcanons•°☁
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🚂°•The main 12 steam team•°🚂
📖°•ttte fanlore/AUs/fanfics/crossevers/series•°📖
💚°•the emo controller•°🖤
🖤°•Casual emo controller•°💚
🚂°•the narrow gauge engines•°☁
💙°•the Gresley family•°☁
🚂°•the diesels•°⛽
🪄°•Magical/ghost engines•°👻
🤍°•Other ttte characters•°🤍
⬆️°•the steam team's height chart•°⬆️
✍🏻°•About my humanisation•°✍🏻
♡__________________________♡
✏️°•Some simple tutorials•°🖌
💙°•Original stories/lore•°📖
😌°•This could be useful•°😌
🎧°•Artist profile•°💚
🌠°•Unrelated ttte stuff•°🌠
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🌺°•Side blogs•°🌺:
☆• @sodor-magical-world (my ttte historical fiction AU) •☆
☆• @thesillybunny58 (a shitty blog where I can reblog some random posts ehe,and sometimes I forget that there is here lmfao.) •☆
☆• @the-octopus-game (my Squid game lore/AU blog) •☆

#pinned post#original oc's#social media#💞Official ships💞#fypシ#viral#thomas and friends#thomas the tank engine#artists on tumblr#gacha club#gacha life#💫Some fandoms i drew💫#Au#Oc's#fandom#💐self inserts💐#Ttte#historical fiction#Sodor Magical World#jessy the bunny 🐰🌺#ttte emo controller 💚🖤#📖ttte fanlore/AUs/fanfics/crossovers/series📖#💙Original stories/lore📖#✏️some simple tutorials🖌#🎧artist profile💚#🌠unrelated ttte stuff🌠#☁some random ttte headconons🎀#Original engines#Art commisions#💖let this creavity live💖
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THINGS THAT I THINK CHEEKY IS VERY GOOD AT AND BETTER THAN V AND L AT:
(AKA, Cheeky is getting bullied on the interwebs, and I’m choosing to take that personally.)
Science and Mathy Things- Cheeky worked as a scientist for The Corporation for YEARS. Science and Math were her main jobs, and jokes about her not getting a simple math equation (FALSE ALLEGATIONS, DISPROVEN LATER) aside, I bet that she’s really good at stuff like that.
Being Clear- Cheeky is BLUNT. She says exactly what she’s thinking, no holds barred. She does what she wants, and has a awesome time doing it. She is one of the ONLY characters to be straightforward about intentions, blind spots, and feelings on issues. Part of this is probably because the others have to hide aspects of themselves in order to stay safe, and she didn’t really have to do that, but MY POINT STANDS!!!
Learning and Evolving- Cheeky is smart. Wicked smart. She picks up on things really quickly, learns from her mistakes with little to no trouble, and finds where she can be the most service. I’m not saying that other characters DON’T do these things, but I am saying that Cheeky doesn’t get enough credit for all that she does. She’s the ONLY light magic user in the world. She doesn’t have a mentor, boss, or anyone who TRULY understands her powers. V and L can only take her so far, a lot of her learning is practical application. And yet, she picks up on concepts very quickly, to the point that MULTIPLE CHARACTERS have commented on it. I could go on, but I won’t.
Emotional Vulnerability/Stability- Nuff said. I’m playing, but seriously, Cheeky adds a human element to V’s dynamic that is needed. V cares for and about people, obviously, but he doesn’t make it a point to tell them that or express that. (Probably due to a fear that they’ll be taken from him stemming from his childhood but WE DON’T HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THAT-) Cheeky, however, has incredible empathy. She’s a protector, a healer, and a good person at heart. It’s even reflected in her magic! She does things that are difficult for her, and she handles it like a champ. Is she probably a little more sensitive rn because of the whole Atrocity situation? Maybe. But still! She also is able to bounce back from difficult situations with relative ease. (Most people would NOT be that chill with finding out that their whole life is a lie and they’ve been under mind control.)
Her Magic- Look, is Cheeky the strongest magic user? No, not by a long shot. Twinkle has more magical prowess than Cheeky, and Twinkle is making it up as she goes! But Cheeky still does have access to a whole other side of magic that the others don’t. And I think that makes her pretty neat. Furthermore! That same magic helped her break free of mind control (which we don’t have record of many people doing) and stay alive!
In Conclusion!
Cheeky is a boss, and I will not stand for this slander of her good name.
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MY Least Favorite stereotypes of the Ilvermorny Houses
Pukwudgie:
I don’t like the idea that they carry around med-kits. That just stereotypes them way too much. It feels like it’s the older Pukwudgies giving tips to younger students on what herbs, teas, healing spells. Older students would also help with mental health exercises and how to deal with different triggers. Not all healers have to be in the medical field, maybe they are good at emotional healing, helping other students with their mental health because they understand their own mental struggles. It could be small things like reminding their friends to eat, take a break, drink some water. They are probably better emotionally healing because their house represents the heart. But just because they represent the heart doesn’t mean they won’t beat down anyone who threatens their loved ones. Ruled by the heart they follow emotion/feelings more than logic. They are protective, might have anger issues, and might even have a self-defensive or fight club. They probably know the signs of someone who is suicidal or on the verge of having a mental breakdown.
Wampus:
Most people think of them as the big dumb jocks who hit first and ask questions later, but this is not the case. The stereotype is that you might envision them with huge muscle and amazing at athletics. As J.K Rowling stated Jacob would be in the wampus house. Even though he is chubby, pudgy, not the fastest or the strongest. To be a warrior you need to be brave, but being brave doesn’t mean having no fears. They get knocked down all the time, and even though they are tired they keep trying. Because sometimes you fight not because you think you can win, but because you need to be able to look back later and say that you fought, and that you tried. There are different ways you can be a warrior; it doesn’t always mean you’re in combat. Sometimes being a warrior means to fight against your own doubts, insecurities, and demons that plague your soul.
Thunderbird:
Their whole stereotype is that they are restless wanderers, always looking for the next adventure to fulfill their high. But having the soul of an adventure can be interpreted in many ways. For most thunderbirds it can be trying out a new coffee shop down the street, doing to a local food festival within their own town. It doesn’t always have to mean you’re traveling across the world, spending money to do extravagant things. It could just be taking baby steps to expand their introverted lifestyle. It means having the simple courage to try new things and be open to new experiences. They are more like daydreamers who encourage each other to try different things without breaking boundaries. Thunderbirds are very Intune with their emotions are likely to trust their gut/intuition which leads to them exploring a different way of doing things. Many have the mindset to take what resonates and to leave the rest.
Horned Serpent:
Since their house favors scholars many think they are just stuck-up book worms which further from the case. They may not necessarily be studious, but they love to learn. Some of them might have some learning difficulties such (ADD, ADHD, dyslexia, math dyslexia). Others gifted burnout kids that still get great grades because they can hack the tests and guess well. Some of them might love learning but hate school because it adds unnecessary stress to their mental health. But they are eager to learn about different places, ideas, aspects and concepts. They want to learn by real world applications more than books, they want the freedom to make mistakes and instead of getting penalized they are able to learn and grow as a person, that way they can pass on their knowledge to others. Being a horned serpent, they are most likely to also be street smart as well as book smart and by Combining the two it helps them and those around them succeed.
Written by Gloria.T.P
#wampus#pukwudgie#horned serpent#ilvermony school of witchcraft and wizardry#harry potter#thunderbird
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Brain Out of Order
It is frightening how much my memory has been effected the last few weeks. And the brain fog on top of it is not helping.
I can not keep my shit together. I constantly forget things I need to do and forget to look at my To Do list I keep to not forget. The list isn’t helpful if I forget about the list.
I am constantly late to things, I can not keep my calendar or remember if I have to be somewhere. I am so scared to commit going anywhere or doing anything with people out of fear Ill forget. I used to be the chronically 20 minutes early person and now I am the chronically 15 minutes late person. I hate it. I never wanted to be the always late person, even when i try to leave an hour early I end up 15 minutes late.
I can not keep track of my phone notifications, messages, keeping in touch with people, I can’t keep track. Some of the break from notifications is nice, but it can also be isolating.
I forget to pick up my meds at the pharmacy, or forgot that I picked them up but can not find them in the apartment. My partner finds them most of the time. I sent him to the pharmacy yesterday to pick up meds I already picked up 2 weeks ago…
All of those things I can mostly deal with the frustration from myself and others. My friends and family say they understand and are giving me some slack with these things because they see the complete 180 from how I used to be and I can tell they are worried. I appreciate their grace and they are just happy that I show up. It still doesn’t make it hurt any less as I grieve the me before.
But what is starting to really freak me out the most is I am unable to keep track of finances. I can not remember what bills I paid and when even though I write on the bill that info, and I keep a log but forget to keep the log, or I can’t remember where I put the bills. I can not keep track of how much I have spent of my allotted budget for the month. I can’t figure out where my money is going. I am definitely over spending (not to a danger point, but still should not be left without addressing). My system doesn’t work anymore, I am trying to find a new system. I keep trying to look at them and get everything back in check and I just get confused and overwhelmed. Nothing makes sense. But my finances are so simple for the most part, I should not be feeling like I am trying to balance my books that mysteriously turned into another language.
I feel like a toddler who just learned how to count to 5 trying to do calculus. I love math, I used to find immense pleasure and joy balancing my checkbook and doing my finances. Something I used to enjoy is now something that causes instant dread and overwhelms me with emotions and stress, which makes everything worse.
I am the keeper of the finances in my household, I can not give that responsibility to my partner. There are many reasons why I have to be the finances person of the relationship. And now this is worrying me. I need to keep the finances together. I can not afford to pay someone to help me.
I am organized, I am a color-coded, alphabetized, spreadsheet goblin, and now I can barely keep anything together.
I hope that this is just a bad brain month and maybe my future brain will be better, but it seems to just keep getting worse. I continue to remain hopeful, late, but hopeful.
Any suggestions or recommendations to help keep my shit together would be appreciated…
#cfs#chronic fatigue#chronic fatigue syndrome#chronic illness#chronic pain#exhaustedbunnytm#mentally tired#spoonie#tw vent#vent post#brain fog#exhausted#mentally drained#invisible illness#chronically ill#losing my mind#mental health#emotional#struggle
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The Rowntrees Ultimate Decades Challenge - Winter 1374
I'm not feeling as motivated to play and I'm starting college soon, so I'm going to try writing shorter posts from now on. This year will be a story in 4 parts (one each season).
At the start of 1374, news arrived in the village: the fighting in the war against France had come to an end! A few men who fought came back to the village, but news from Gilbert hadn't arrived yet. The family waited anxiously for Gilbert's return but were not sure when he'd arrive. For the time, Kymmie chose not to say anything to Sabina, to not get her hopes up.
Since Finnian's injury, the women were left to take care of the garden. Kymmie and Sabina did not have the strength or stamina to work outside for long hours, so a lot of the tasks fell to Edussa. However, having her work in the garden brought down the store, which Kymmie was often too busy to open.
Edussa loved running the store. She learned simple math from Kymmie when she first married into the family and enjoyed counting up the change and bartering with customers. While gardening, she tried to come up with ideas to make gardening more efficient, so she could return to running the store. Then one day, Edussa came up with a plan she thought was good enough to run by her mother-in-law.

Kymmie had noticed that Edussa did not enjoy gardening and tried to calm her daughter-in-law.
"I know gardening is boring, but perhaps it would help for you to concentrate on the food and money we will get once the crops are harvested," Kymmie advised. "And you taking care of the garden means Finnian is not stressing about it, and he will heal faster."

Edussa was not convinced. "Um, yeah," she said distractingly. "Speaking of the garden, um, I had an idea of how we can take care of it without me having to do it. But I'm really not sure it will work."
Kymmie wanted to chuckle at Edussa's nervousness. She went for a joke instead. "What is it, sell me off as hunting bait? Because I think I'm too old to fetch that good of a price."

Edussa smiled weakly. "So I was thinking, we can't afford to hire a gardener. But... what if we can?"
Kymmie looked on, confused.
"There's going to be a lot of men coming from the war, right?" Edussa spoke quickly. "So, there will be more people, but the same number of jobs. And probably some people who don't have any life to get back to will pass through our village. And all these people will need jobs but won't need to be paid much. If we hire a gardener now, we can pay him half the usual price and still find someone."
Immediately after she said her idea, Edussa wished she hadn't. Kymmie was usually kind to her, but what if she thought Edussa was lazy or ungrateful for not just dealing with the current God-given circumstances?

But Kymmie beamed at her instead.
"Edussa, sweetie, that's a wonderful idea! You are a very clever young lady to think about the situation like that. You are right. I remember my father telling me that after he came back from the war when he was young, many stragglers showed up on his farm looking for jobs. I will open the shop tomorrow and ask around for someone looking for a job."
Kymmie wondered how many ideas Edussa had kept quiet about because she feared a negative response.
"Sweetheart, you're a very smart woman," Kymmie told her daughter-in-law. "When you have ideas, even if they end up not working out, you should still tell me about them. It's important to be curious and constantly think about ways to improve your situation."

After talking to Kymmie, Edussa was ecstatic. Her entire life she thought her purpose was to be a good mother, and she was shocked when her first child didn't bring her the joy she expected. Now Edussa realized her purpose was to be a good mother, just not in the way she thought. She wanted to run the store successfully and come up with tricks to sell more stuff. And one day, by being a successful businesswoman, she would make enough money to guarantee her children didn't have to be serfs. Edussa was grateful that she married into a family where she wasn't just stuck as a farmer's wife.
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Weekly Review 14 March 2025
Some interesting links that I Tweeted about in the last week (I also post these on Mastodon, Threads, Newsmast, and Bluesky):
An AI that can grade maths problems like a teacher: https://dataconomy.com/2025/03/07/can-ai-grade-math-like-a-teacher-research-says-yes/
At least some tech executives recognise the dangers to privacy that AI pose: https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/07/signal-president-meredith-whittaker-calls-out-agentic-ai-as-having-profound-security-and-privacy-issues/
Looks like a bit of a messy free for all in terms of legislation on AI in the US: https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/07/us-lawmakers-have-already-introduce-hundreds-of-ai-bills-in-2025/
Many years ago we'd use ensembles of simple AI to boost performance. Turns out that using multiple AI in concert is still a way to get better results: https://www.informationweek.com/machine-learning-ai/why-using-multiple-ais-is-trending-now
AI summaries of app store reviews. I feel that this will not end well: https://dataconomy.com/2025/03/06/ai-is-now-summarizing-apple-app-store-reviews/
If it's human artists using AI as a tool, I don't think it's a problem, but purely AI generated art shouldn't really be worth much at all: https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/06/christies-ai-art-auction-reportedly-exceeds-expectations/
Some tips for getting the most out of Copilot: https://www.computerworld.com/article/1611598/microsoft-copilot-tips-how-to-use-copilot-right.html
Why an AI arms race is a bad idea: https://theregister.com/2025/03/06/schmidt_ai_superintelligence/
AI is just a tool, it will soon be useful as an aid to scientists, but won't replace scientists themselves: https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/05/experts-dont-think-ai-is-ready-to-be-a-co-scientist/
Fear of AI is already leading to violence: https://www.theguardian.com/global/ng-interactive/2025/mar/05/zizians-artificial-intelligence
An AI to assist physicians. But how well does it guard patient privacy? https://dataconomy.com/2025/03/04/microsoft-new-ai-assistant-aims-to-fix-doctor-burnout/
Don't use AI to replace connections with real people: https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/07/health-expert-warns-of-leaning-too-heavily-on-ai-for-social-connections/
Now propagandists are poisoning AI training data: https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/07/russian-propoganda-is-reportely-influencing-ai-chatbot-results/
AI don't really innovate, so the fear that they'll become software yes-men is well founded: https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/06/hugging-faces-chief-science-officer-worries-ai-is-becoming-yes-men-on-servers/
How AI can be applied to project management: https://dataconomy.com/2025/03/06/artificial-intelligence-in-product-management-how-al-eases-the-life-of-a-product-manager-tools-overview-and-personal-experience/
An overview of agentic AI: https://www.kdnuggets.com/what-data-scientists-need-to-know-about-ai-agents-and-autonomous-systems
The problems with AI transparency, especially in healthcare: https://www.extremetech.com/science/the-paradox-of-trust-and-transparency-in-ai
Avoiding mistakes when building an AI governance platform: https://www.informationweek.com/machine-learning-ai/how-to-build-a-reliable-ai-governance-platform
Turns out certain advanced AI can also get stuck in the trap of overthinking: https://spectrum.ieee.org/reasoning-in-ai Next they'll be getting procrastination anxiety
Another tech industry giant warns about the dangers of AI: https://dataconomy.com/2025/03/04/steve-wozniak-ai-warning-it-has-a-dark-side/
A PhD-level AI isn't that impressive to me, I know lots of people with PhDs and some of them aren't that smart: https://arstechnica.com/ai/2025/03/what-does-phd-level-ai-mean-openais-rumored-20000-agent-plan-explained/
It's not all bad news regarding AI in education, a lot of applications are really helpful: https://www.theguardian.com/education/2025/mar/06/the-english-schools-looking-to-dispel-doom-and-gloom-around-ai
The BBC intends to use AI to better serve its readers and viewers: https://www.theguardian.com/media/2025/mar/06/bbc-news-ai-artificial-intelligence-department-personalised-content
Using AI to process a vast (1M+) number of data sources in real time: https://www.bigdatawire.com/2025/02/27/the-ai-firm-turning-1m-real-time-data-sources-into-actionable-intelligence/
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ECM DEFINITIONS
3D PROCESS / RESEARCH
eight-circuit model of consciousness in simple terms so i can better explain how i understand it lol
so this 8CM thing was created by tim leary and later expanded by robert anton wilson.
PART 1
(1) bio-survival circuit: this feeling starts from birth. physical survival and safety, fight or flight, bodily functions. this circuit is activated in survival moments.
example: needing food & water, survival in life-threatening situations
negative: too afraid to do anything, fear is too strong
(2) emotional-territorial circuit: differentiating self from others in childhood, the need for belonging, social hierarchies, competitive nature, EGO, where
example: social status,
negative: low self esteem or narcissistic behaviours
(3) the rational-symbolic circuit: language, thinking, understanding (its like a intellectual circuit). this circuit is activated when human have to understand the world through languages, math and logic.
example: school, books and learning.
negative: burnout, cognitive overload.
(4) the social-sexual circuit: exploring our own human sexuality, forming relationships and friendships, communication,
example: making friends and forming bonds, understanding and feeling comfortable in your own self.
negative: society standards or cultural differences or what is or isn't allowed. social isolation
PART 2
the second part to this from 5-7 is tuning into our subconscious minds and is where we think about the circuits 1-4.
(5) the neurosomatic circuit: mind and body, holistic health, heighten bodily awareness. de-stresses the mind and puts it in a clearer state of mind (like how i understand it is that this circuit prepares for the next circuits)
example: become in tune with your mind and body. lots of people say doing yoga or something that makes you use your mind and body together.
(6) the neuroelectric circuit (reprogramming): becoming aware that your brain is creating your reality. a science way of understanding is "you can feel and sense how each cluster or individual neuron communicates with another group or single neuron." your reality and your thoughts create your world which is in your mind. you are looking out into and at your mind. this circuit is reprogramming and deprogramming how you think. "thinking about or reflecting on how and why one has certain thought or behaviour patterns and the development of the ability to consciously alter these for one’s benefit."
example: never feeling that what you do is good enough, which can come from childhood trauma from a parent or parental figure.
(7) the neurogenetic circuit: this circuit is linked with DNA. you can feel as different people. "Every plant and every animal and every mineral and person is interconnected and one soul split into countless bodies experiencing itself through everyone." evolution and adaptation.
example: understanding that you have a mix of so much others in your life/self like influences from other people in the past, how others trauma mixed into your life.
(8) the neuroatomic circuit: this one is the hard to achieve cause its very spiritual. individuals experience a sense of oneness with the universe.
example: people usually experience this state of mind during a near death experience or maybe before death. nondual awareness (a state of consciousness that is empty)
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Understanding Students' Resistance to Learning (Week 5)
Küçükkaragöz and Meylani (2023) define learners' resistance to learning as "a learner's unwillingness or incapacity to absorb new knowledge, ideas, or abilities—even when given sufficient opportunity and support" (p. 72). I am familiar with this feeling, as I was once that learner. Imagine studying for exams, purring in your heart and soul, and making an honest effort. One feels that one is learning a lot and expanding one's body of knowledge. Confident in the knowledge, the exam is harder than one thought possible and comes out completely deflated. What is next? If you put in more effort, something will happen numerous times. At that point, it seems that nothing one does makes a difference. This is the exact point where learners often give up.
This was me many years ago until I met teachers who became my strongest advocates and supporters. Growing up, Math was not my favourite subject. In fact, it was my worst and most hated subject. Reasons included that people kept telling me how hard it would be and that I would have to always memorize concepts to do well. My biggest fear was that I don't do well when asked to memorize concepts. Memorization does not equal understanding to me, which is an area I have struggled with all my life. This was until grade 10 when I met a teacher who clarified that memorization was unnecessary in her class. I did not believe this at first, though she seemed so confident that I was willing to try it. Well, she was right. By removing the need to memorize concepts and enabling me to come up with formulas by thinking them through, I could go from an F to an A math student.
So, what happened? It's pretty simple: I developed trust with an educator willing to give me a chance, and I gave her a chance. As a result, not only did I succeed in math in high school, but I also took math classes in university as electives because math was easy for me after that. Also, I tutored math as an adult for extra money in university. If it seems that it is all about trust, that's because it is. I felt this teacher was on my side and wanted me to succeed. She believed in me, so I decided to start believing in me. That is my secret to success in math, and I am very grateful for these experiences.
References
Küçükkaragöz, H & Meylani, R. (2023). Resistance to Learning: A Comprehensive Review of Contributing Factors.
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Why Homeschooling Might Just Be the Answer We’ve Been Looking For
Hey Tumblr fam! 🖐️ Today, I want to share something that’s been on my mind—a conversation that really hit home for me. It’s about homeschooling, and trust me, even if you think it’s not for you, this might change your perspective.
So, I recently sat down with Cheryl Daley, the host of the podcast "The Homeschool How-To." Cheryl’s story is incredible—she went from working a regular 9-to-5 government job to becoming a full-time homeschooling mom. What sparked this change? The craziness of the past few years, which made her and her husband start questioning everything, especially when it came to their kids’ education.
📉 The Downfall of Traditional Schooling
Let’s be real—things are a bit of a mess right now. Literacy rates are dropping, the economy is in trouble, and everything feels… off. Cheryl shared some eye-opening stats about how literacy rates have been on a decline since 1910! 😳 And with everything that’s happened in the last few years, more and more parents are pulling their kids out of traditional schools.
For Cheryl, it all started with the pandemic. She wasn’t on board with the mandatory masking and started digging into alternative treatments. But what really got her was the censorship—every time she tried to share what she found on social media, her posts got flagged or taken down. That was her wake-up call. She realized that maybe, just maybe, the system didn’t have her best interests—or her kids'—at heart.
So, she and her husband decided to pull their son out of daycare and dive into the world of homeschooling. And what started as a temporary solution turned into a lifestyle they couldn’t imagine giving up.
🎒 Why Homeschooling?
Homeschooling used to be seen as something only "weird" or super religious families did. But as Cheryl discovered, it’s actually a powerful way to take back control of your kids’ education. Traditional schools often push an agenda that’s more about creating obedient workers than fostering creative, independent thinkers. Cheryl’s research led her to some shocking discoveries about how the education system has been manipulated for over a century by powerful interests like the Rockefellers. 🤯
Homeschooling gave Cheryl the freedom to tailor her son’s education to his interests and needs. And she’s not alone—her podcast is filled with stories from parents who have found that homeschooling is not only doable but incredibly rewarding.
🙋♀️ How to Start Homeschooling
One of the things that hold people back from homeschooling is the fear that they’re not "qualified." But Cheryl says that’s just not true. Parents are more than capable of educating their kids—sometimes even better than traditional schools because they can offer personalized attention and a curriculum that’s actually relevant to their child’s future.
Here are some tips Cheryl shared for anyone thinking about homeschooling:
Start Small: Don’t feel like you need to dive into a full curriculum right away. Start with simple goals like reading a few books together each week.
Use Everyday Life: Turn everyday activities into learning opportunities. Cooking, for example, is a great way to teach math and science.
Join a Community: There are tons of online groups and local co-ops where you can connect with other homeschooling families. Cheryl’s podcast is a great place to start if you’re looking for resources.
Be Flexible: Homeschooling doesn’t have to be a 9-to-5 job. If something isn’t working, switch it up. The beauty of homeschooling is that it can be whatever you need it to be.
Involve Your Kids: Give your kids a say in their education. This makes learning more meaningful and fun for them.
🌱 Why Homeschooling Might Be the Future
More and more parents are turning to homeschooling because they’re fed up with the traditional system. They want more for their kids—more freedom, more creativity, and more opportunities to think independently. Homeschooling offers all of that and more.
If you’re even a little bit curious about homeschooling, I highly recommend checking out Cheryl’s podcast, "The Homeschool How-To." It’s packed with practical advice, inspiring stories, and all the info you need to get started.
🎧 Where to Find Cheryl
You can find Cheryl’s podcast and more resources on her website at The Homeschool How-To. It’s a great starting point for anyone interested in taking control of their kids’ education.
So, what do you think? Could homeschooling be the right choice for you and your family? Let’s chat about it in the comments! ✨
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Tbh with the USA schooling standards (where you don't even have to teach your kids how to read or to do basic maths (((i'm not talking about special cases and disabilities here)))) i no wonder feel that so surprised that USA people could call Tiktok an information website and list that as to why it shouldn't be banned ._.
and same with any politicians that call it an information website and list it as the reason why it should be banned ._.
Same with how the discussions online lead by USA look like, with telling the whole world what is right and what is not and telling everyone else to shut up. I definitely am petty about that given all you need to write a post online is basic writing x basic computer knowledge. The whole other world of information doesn't matter to write crap online. No wonder people started doing the 'shut up i'm speaking' and people started thoughtlessly reblogging anything that goes with a dear fear of daring to comment with question. ._.
In countries where education (whether it be school or homeschool) is mandatory up certain age, if someone writes/creates something stupid then at least there is a basis on which everyone can laugh it off. Having no education doesn't automatically makes you stupid just like having education won't make you automatically smart or retain knowledge but at least it stands as a basis, even while there are still questions about poverty and school lvl. However in a country where nothing is mandatory it creates tons more of questions about poverty, education, privilege of education and privilege of.. not education???
And i just feel shocked that people online were laughing off USA kids being named Laeuigheh or whatever, but i'd never see anywhere mentioned that in USA legally they don't even have to try to teach you to spell. Because if they try to teach you spelling and you fail so hard you can't even spell a name then it sure goes as simple lol. But if you legally never had to even try to learn to spell? That's terrifying. That's simply terrifying.
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The Mac Proper also encouraged Melissa and I and Jen Colleen Terry Colleen and more and that's all Hera To have children and the smoke next door and interference and they didn't get the tech they didn't wanna get and they didn't want it for years and they have admitted it already. Say they're going to put it in writing but we've been doing it for quite awhile how you doing and making a lot of and the guy next door wants to take over using that but other match want to grab him and have him do it and he's getting small enough for them to do it usually it's a frames group I suspect which group is a little bigger than a fringe but they're getting hit and then how W and top siders really they call them and now they're telling me they'll be exterminated for their indiscretions. mac proper say. however. The Giants are gigantic they're very very huge and Trump probably supersized it and didn't tell anyone and is constantly doing it and thinks nobody notices his **** **** attitude but they were led there too by will and Bill but it's not exactly what people think trump is an idiot in an imbecile and thinks people will have him threaten me when that's not the case will and Bill had to supersize him there's a simple reason K Jew a different and they know about them even if they're mega dinosaurs the blood in them because they ingest so many bugs would disintegrate any kind of electronics any kind of shield the connection would get ruined and they acknowledge that's true and you need to use thorium in a system and it is not simple but nobody is forced to do it until now. So it's dangerous for us but Trump is a complete loser. Not know most of this stuff. Have a parallel with the empire that he's attacking. Does not have a parallel with the empire when it comes to his **** cities attacking the populace as he's trying to get their stuff. And there are other groups who are volunteering to do this kind of work BJA and his constantly inhabit people miscellaneous does it as a matter of course and more there's robotics with will and bill same thing it's just not as insulting. We're in this business trump and what I can do is Trump you pretty easily and horrify you beyond your wildest dreams. Person who's gonna be horrified even though I'm gonna help him accomplish some tasks that he wants to do because he's not right about the math is Brad. He is going to be out of his mind with fear. And I intend to do it to be his lethal protector and she was saying some garbage like that in Bradenton but I do have the ability to do that your future is very grim trump already every day you're adding to it and I'm hoping people get revenge on you with some of my programs but really I'd like them to start their own in this short amount of time we can get rid of all the terrorists that the max want to use. You'll become pinhead it's the most torturous existence on Earth because mother and father have taken from all the idiots and use their own stuff which works very well and I'm allowed to do it too and you keep threatening me with certain things as well fishing hooks and all this other stupid **** saying I'm a labrador retriever because you're a **** and a **** **** and you're not very bright and you're a ****. Sickly all the time. Torture is going to be extreme and most of you don't understand it and you don't see all of it you don't only see part of it but it is intense you have to use your people like you are now in order to be reassembled and things like that after your ripped apart by fishing hooks and other types of hooks so I hope you enjoy that and you learn how to conquer your fear and your pain and to live with it after certain organs because there's a parallel with the max it's not just them and we hate you if you turn a song like you have you're gonna be dust like you're almost.
Zues Hera So he's gonna march around saying it's fake and we're gonna get away with it and after the fact he says someone else didn't and he gets in a fight and we go after him he wants the motivation so we're gonna keep doing stuff and yeah I'm granted someone else does the film saw and Trump gets cut up a little bit too much he says but that's also in store for him. We have our own version it's quite unique because it is one of the wooden robots.
We're out to get this guy next door but our son and daughter are correct his stuff is minor ivy and we're gonna take him down and stop complaining. We have a lot of work to do. Car is gonna be awesome it's a lot of fun thinking about our son being Car is gonna be awesome it's a lot of fun thinking about our son being free to drive around and experiencing life a little bit and we don't need this **** next door doing what he's doing. We're gonna take him out. A kick car would be nice it's dangerous but it would be nice there's a whole bunch of these scams that this guy is not doing and says he's not going to because he is smoked. Like Milli Vanilli it was work he did awhile ago and you get a check and Social Security would be threatened or anger fist that's the new one and that's during this recent. Social Security in Milli Vanilli was prior to but really trump is sitting on all these there's thousands and he himself has a couple scams they're paying out for these months and he's the doctor and he says those aren't valid and he'd be using a threat and he won't do that. you have to ask what what he's doing because he took over Social Security by having a son make some cash and that little bit of cash the information's long gone no but it won't do anything so he's in moron and is going to lose
Hera the first part
Thor Freya the second partwe take him down for this idiot shit he just poulled. tried for the mail while themail person was going to the truck. pulled in went right tot eh mail box. missed. tons say it he is an ass about it. we hti him now this is over teh otoop again
hey trump how manyy troops is enough. hardwdre ships and stashes caches citie show many loser.
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