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Full offense but if a "friend" did this to me, I would get mad. Like actually mad.
Like, I dont think its appreciated how incredibly fucking rude this is?
I'm dead ass serious.
Like, if a friend recommends a book and you have no time to read it or otherwise its somehow too complicated for you then you need to grow a pair and just admit that your unable to really read it for one reason or another. Have a REAL conversation with your friend about how, while you appreciate them wanting to share this with you, its just not a home run. If your still open to recommendations then tell them or just remind them of your problems and try to lay down some things to keep in mind for future recommendations. Alternatively if your just not a big reader then establish that! You still wanna hear their interests, and your okay with them talking about books they've read, but reading just isn't something your super into. And thats fine!
While spark notes do exist, they exist largely as a Study Guide for people who are studying a piece of literature for a class. They are NOT actually meant for casual reading. You guys are probably thinking more of abridged editions of some books which cut down the content for quicker easier reading.
And thats honestly what makes this so rude. When someone recommends a book, they are not recommended a bulleted list of plot points. They want you to try and experience the text as written. Complete with all the quirks of the format, the authors word choice, the specific vernacular, everything.
Going through a bulleted list of the plot points of the Iliad is never going to be the same thing as reading a translation (even an abridged one) or a spoken narration.
A plot summary of The Lord of the Rings does not get the same feeling across as reading the trilogy.
Fuck it literally can't be DONE with any book by Terry Pratchett because that mans subtle word play haunts fans of the work for YEARS.
Plugging it into a worthless ass AI engine is a bigger slap in the face than just not reading the damn book at all because it means you have no respect for the EXPERIENCE your friend was genuinely trying to share with you! Its treating the act of reading a book someone shared with you as though its a chore you have to deal with.
I would be so fucking pissed if someone did this to me.
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I have a confession. I do not care for the soc boys. I'm sure they have very interesting character traits and lore the actors and fandom have come up with and that is so fun and great and I know none of it and I am perfectly content with that. Shout out to all my mutuals who love the soc boys I hope you are having fun with your Ken dolls but I will not be joining you. keep slaying.
#not saying i hate them i just cant get my brain to like them the same way i do all the greasers and the soc girls#excluding bev for some reason melody ily bev ily but i dont latch onto her the same way i do cherry and marcia 😔😔😔😔#shout out to all my soc boy mutuals i hope you are having so much fun#the closest i will ever get to caring for the soc boys is randy#man was an asshole tried to kill a kid saw his best friend die went fuck all of this dumped his girlfriend left town and became a hippie#shit start great ending good job randy 👍#this is also why i havent gotten into parry#i love the gays i promise but i did not latch onto paul the way the rest of the fandom did 😔😔#i totally get it i see where yallre coming from i understand#its my ship-in-law ill support parry truthers 4ever#but im a dar-bit truther for life#yes i am also a mar-bit truther#and an aroace darry truther#i win no matter what#but anyways#i am not part of the community i am an ally ✊️✊️✊️#its also fun cuz since i know jack shit i never get annoyed at mischaracterization because i dont know what the correct characterization is#i can see anything about them and go 'yeah sure'#and it could be so out of character#and ill never know#i stay winning#anyways love yall 🫶#although i do think a reason i havent latched onto bev is because i never see anyone talking about her#if you love bev please tell me about her i want to know everything#the outsiders#the outsiders musical#two-bit talks
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........how would your gender be a worm? you're a person? thats the weirdest response ive ever seen to try and get away with upsetting someone im ngl its screaming "i have a neo gender so i can do no wrong so clearly everyones an asshole for pointing out when im being in the wrong" like bruh its ok to upset someone and apologize theres no need to try and get special behavior and claim insects are genders like my guy touch some grass please your a really cool artist and id hate for this to be the reason i block because you dont wanna admit you triggered someone accidentally
People control their internet experience. It has nothing to do with my gender other than the fact I will be posting worms and if someone doesn't like worms
Then I'm not the blog for them. I'm not going to apologize for being myself in my space. I'm not here to please you or anyone else.
Yes. Insect is a gender. Sorry you're living life where there's no whimsy.
Im a GORE blog. I am by definition a trigger. Come here at your own risk. Learn how to follow and/or block tags. If you want to see something without following an entire blog then
Just follow the tag dude. I'm a very compassionate and patient person. But not when you come to me expecting me to be an Internet Pleaser.
You might be used to being able to wave around a block like it's a weapon at other people but im a 32 year old man. I'm a worm. I live in the grass.
:3 i hope you get to be a worm soon too ♡
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Asking the FLoc crayon [neon carrot] bc someone has to.
neon carrot: if you could give them any npc as a spouse, who would it be and why?
THIS IS SUCH A HARD QUESTION.
To address the obvious answer given recent activities: no i dont think he should marry Feducci, but he… might, if given the chance. The man CANONICALLY sent Sam 12 cellars of wine with a note reading "TO PASSIONS UNMATCHED" i dont think anyone can blame him for feeling like they had something special!!!! Feducci seems like he could make him very satisfied intimacy-wise but would also almost certainly Make Him Worse.
Samuel's constant difficulty with Marriage is that he isn't really… romantic in the traditional sense. HE HAS A LOT OF PHYSICAL DESIRE but romance rarely does anything for him outside of stories, and he gets antsy whenever he's locked in to a particular life plan. HOWEVER: he is usually too Catholic(TM) to really embrace a no-strings-attached lifestyle, and his tastes are well outside the typical Veilgarden hookup anyway (one of his most sensual experiences was getting murdered by an actual literal lance through the gut, so…). The real reason he bought multiple viric dreams of the Bishop of Southwark was that he was trying SO hard to Want Marriage, but even with someone so physically intense and driven, that dream of settling down for life isn't what he really wants; he just wants the part where they're wrestling by the fire.
The other complication is that he has finally found partners he can be happily intimate with: Peter and Jack (@little-red-notebook and @reliably-derogaffectionate's characters, respectively), to whom he is essentially a friend with benefits. He was best man at their wedding somewhat wistfully, but since they've both assured him that they still want him involved in their relationship, it feels very easy to be with them; a closeness he wants without the expectations that come with being a Spouse. It's still, you know, making love outside of marriage, but Samuel has never been good at avoiding that, and at least here he knows he's not leading anyone on or cheating on anyone.
An Ideal Marriage for Sam would involve some amount of polyamory to give him room for these inevitable, ah, extracurricular activities, someone that doesn't tie him down, ideally someone he can do physically dangerous things with and, importantly, have sex (these two activities can be combined). But I also think in an ideal world he would have someone who respects his own principles and doesn't try to smother his hope for compassion with duty, which feels like the big sticking point for a lot of the aggressive characters (like Southwark and Feducci) that Sam's attracted to.
I don't remember well enough to say how many of these points she hits, but I keep thinking of the Zubmariner from the Sunken River ES, as someone no-nonsense in a way Sam really respected and found attractive, but who also has people she cares about. She might be too cool to fall for this soggy loser, though, and the chances of her turning out to be a lesbian seem high. (Also Sam left her behind…. that's a choice he regrets, and I kinda wanna replay that story at some point, with the idea of him actually trying to go back for her). But in general, the idea of Samuel marrying a principled pirate where they both know their first love will always be the zee feels like something that could turn out to be a genuinely happy partnership for him. BUT WHO KNOWS maybe in a year I'll come back with a totally different answer I never saw coming.
#lmao sorry just talks Sams Feelings On Marriage instead of answering the question#fl crayon ask game#flondonposting#fl: the bloodstained deacon#sam is aromantic he just isnt ace and doesnt know what to do with himself#ftr Poor Edward is not here because i have too many thoughts abt him and that wouldve taken over the post#but the tldr is that I think it would just be kind of a bittersweet outcome for both of them#i think it could work out eventually but id need to write an entire fanfic to make it happen#ask shazz
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Mil actually posted this. yep you read that right, that's them justifying the actions of a school shooter there
@ii-neg-confessions IS RAGEBAIT! BLOCK AND REPORT THIS IS REALLY FUCKED TO HEAR
also kinda a smaller part 2 to the original post i made just with more screenshots and such
here are some more fucked up things that were said/assumed (PLEASE READ END BIT, ITS IMPORTANT)
more under cut
and this
which theres no evidence to support (CORRECT ME IF IM WRONG WITH SOURCES)
and this
(satomi isnt fired from my knowledge, tengolf has never been a "stalker x victim proship" thats a ridiculous claim to make, and the clock and gaty thing is such a fucking stretch and there are other poc va's on the show that arent in that position thats really weird to assume thats the reason why they were hired. as a trans man ive never heard of or cared about "transface" which isnt a real thing cause gender is subjective and people who believe it exists purely want something to be mad about (a trans character being voiced by a cis va would be "transface" apperantly) itd be different if they were in person actors and not CARTOON VOICE ACTORS but i shouldnt have to say that cause you guys are smart i hope
last thing, this
most of this is completely ridiculous, i shouldnt have to say that forgiveness and positivity isnt a lie, im really confident in the fact that Mil is really misreable and needs some sort of help, cause again you can believe whatever you wanna believe but they are so overwhelmingly negative that it seems theres something going on with them and its kinda sad to see how misreable they are
(should clarify; some stuff like the thing about luigi is true but also why are you spreading politics on a page about a fucking cartoon dude its not that deep never has been)
my goal isnt to support and defend internet celebrities who havent heard my name a day in my life, my goal is to spread the truth and stop the fear mongering going on here twoards anxious people who dont want anything bad to happen/they dont wanna consume "problematic media"
also i think Mil ( @ii-neg-confessions ) is ragebait so block and report them and their main cause they dont deserve a platform if all theyre gonna do is be a negative nancy
okay thats my 2 cents bye ily all take care of yourselves
#inanimate insanity#osc#object shows#object show community#osc community#ii#ii neg#ii negativity#ii confessions
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NO MAX DONT SAY THAT!!!!
max never calls bill "dad", he always just calls him "old man"
so whenever max actually calls him dad, that shit just hurts bill even more, my man is on the verge of tears
also i gave him a mullet for some reason idk if itll be permanent?? i just wanted to give my son a cool awesome mullet
#the eltingville club#welcome to eltingville#eltingville#eltingville club#eltingville fanart#the eltingville club fanart#bill dickey#eltingville bill#eltingville oc#the eltingville club oc
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this last week has not been the vibe gang
#how did i go from repression acceptance to borderline 4chan tranny in 7 DAYS WHAT THE FUCKKK#ok the thing is if i start hrt now now i could prob pass#im only 5'9#but if i have to wait 2 years im cooked soooo bad#ill be 6ft by then#and like#im aware 6ft cis women exist#but i dont want to be loved as a tall person#i want to be loved by someone i can literally look up to#ok so if i go on hrt now it would be awks at school but the ppl worth it dont care#at least i would be the center of attention#and if i went of hrt now i wouldnt be so tall#and i would have bad shoulders but not awful ones#also my facial features will be more feminine#and bcs im going into a high paying job i can afford to get surgery#maybe i could do diy hrt if the waitlists are too long??#how would i explain that to my parents#'oh hi mum! oh dont worry that package is just borderline illegal drugs from fuckin albania or something and its making me grow tits!!'#my dad would kill me#why did i have to be so damn tall#fml#the worst part is that guys would kill for my genetics#being over 6 ft means i could actually pull#but no for some reason i dont want to be a man#ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#its not fair#how come i have to have everything wrong with me#could i not just have been born a 5'3 woman who isnt super pretty but pretty enough to be friends with the super pretty people#and despite all this im still torn between vanity and being trans#if it came to ugly non passing trans girl vs miserable handsome man id choose 2nd option easy
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he’s just a swinging space age bachelor man!!!!
#ride the cyclone#rtc#fanart#ricky potts#richard potts#i dont know the tags for this man#musical#noel gruber#constance blackwood#mischa bachinski#ocean o’connell rosenberg#i spent like 2 weeks on this#not In Total Duh but it took me a while ok#I wasnt even sure if i wanted to share it really#i listened to space age bachelor man and it had Such an effect on me idk why#i was just so happy i loved it so much#the acting is so good he has so much character#God ilove the goofy outfits and the masks#and the vocals and rhe silly choreo#it just filled me with joy and made me feel inspired for some reason#like yeah bang those space cats ricky#yeah i put ***5*** watermarks on this one colour me paranoid#i dont like the idea of people stealing my things boohoo woe is me#art
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maybe this is a stupid question but it's been on my mind and i want to know what other people think;
examples: the creator of my life as a teenage robot supporting the trans jenny headcanon, voice actors in general stating that the character they voice is a certain LGBT+ identity, etc. i really want to see people's views on this so reblogs are appreciated!
#polls#this question is so dumb sorry#but i dont want to submit it to an anonymous poll blog and wait forever for it to come out#OH YA reason i asked this is because of pickles from metalocalypse lol#(for those who dont watch it : its a cartoon hes shown naked once with no dick so ppl hc him as a trans man#the creator said it was intentional and supported the headcanon but some still dont take it as 100% canon#so i thought “hmm what does it take for someone to consider a recognised headcanon as canon?” thats why i asked lol#also watch metalocalypse its funny#OH ALSO ALSO i personally think it depends on closeness to the project#like if the creator said it = semi-canon#like lets use nagito komeada as an example. implied to be gay and the creator has implied he wouldnt be into women in a tweet#but it's still not 100% confirmed so i wouldn't take issue to someone shipping him with a girl
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I've been watching the adventures of tintin 1991 with my sister and were watching the blue lotus part 2 and when Chang showed up I literally sat up in my chair and pointed at the screen like he was a famous actor. He has entered my brain forever, and I have you to thank for it.
for a character that popped up for only two adventures he left quite an impact on me too. I can imagine he'd make quite an impression when staying over in Belgium and making some appearances in the paper!
my sister was studying the opium trade and its links with colonialism so we were watching the 1991 cartoon episodes for The Blue Lotus and The Crab with the Golden Claws. I remember a) cringing every time Mitsuhirato appeared b) cringing at the voice they decided to give Chang and c) my sister turning around and looking at me every time a Chinese Musical Sting™ would play (we're Chinese)
#asks#fanart#animation#2d animation#tintin#adventures of tintin#chang#snowy#milou#gif#gifset#idk how but the 1991 animated blue lotus somehow felt more racist than the original comic????#they changed chang's design but for some reason kept mitsuhirato exactly the same?????#if they changed chang's design for no reason why not fix a racist caricature???#why did they make chang's voice like that#they kept the same voice in tibet even though he's visibly older?????#he looks as old as tintin but tintin sounds like a man and chang sounds like a little kid????#if they wanted him to be younger why not change his tibet design?#tbh i dont like any of the voices in the 1991 show other than calculus but calculus is always the best part of any tintin adaptation#i liked the voice cast in the bbc radio play adaptation of tintin in tibet#rant over sorry lol#racism cw
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Impulsively shoving a guy's hand in your mouth after having the thought "oh just like when my little sister used to prick herself on a rose thorn" and then immediately being treated like a pet who ate something they shouldn't have? Wonderful. Thank you, Thane.
(also not pictured is Thane apparently trying to scrape your tongue with his hand BEFORE pouring the holy water down your throat because NO. BAD.)
#bewitching sinners#palmier baker#thane verashkova#accidentally ingesting vampire blood because of big brother impulses is wild#also the reason hes so alarmed is bc in that world you kinda soulbond to others and thats how you soulbond as a vampire#you drink each others blood and so hes flipping out because while he hasnt had your blood yet#hey your ex is going to absolutely kill me if we bond on accident and i dont think i wanna die like that!#which is VERY cool to know thank you thane im so glad your concern is actually less of being bound#but about being murdered thats really cool#also the fact thane is found in the library studying with arshem my beloved ex and is BRIBED TO LEARN RECIPES#by arshem with vials of mixed blood hes just CASUALLY CARRYING is like hey man#thank you for being group mum i love you for it#and then later on arshem actually is like oh thane you can drink my blood later since you havent fed for a while#and thane is super chipper about it like HECK YEAH THANKS !#hey boys youre adorable thank you for existing in this incredibly fucked up world#im in a choke hold with this otome im sorry#you ever try to be nice to a guy and think surely this will help him a little bit then you get background lore#and you realize youre probably making things A LOT WORSE FOR HIM by being nice#im going through it with my emotions as i learn about palmiers actions pre game swap so like#dude please i am BEGGING YOU palmier please have ONE redeeming quality in you at some point#i want to adopt one of the love interests as my son though and im obsessed with the fact he can speak fish#my son can speak to the fish and he gives me fish as a present bc i might need it later#and i do actually in fact need said fish later for another quest#thankyou my son i love you and i appreciate you youre amazing#gonna have to draw arshem at some point and everyone will immediately go yeah that makes sense
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You see, i keep thinking about fics sending characters back in time and how they just fix everything and they're sweet and i love them but also
There's things you just can't change, you know?
How would a 8 year old fucking stop a traffic accident on the other side of his city, not even the country they're in
How does a child prevent someone somehow from getting an illness that will kill them, both psycological and not
I'd love a story where yeah, they fix what could be fixed but stomp into walls that just couldn't be prevented, not having money for the doctor, personalities that just won't do as they wish, people forgetting or ignoring a kid's advice, someone that needed more than a few words to turn away from certain paths
And i don't mean it in a "Destiny finds a way" type of thing, they can do stuff, they really can, but somethings go far, far away from their capabilities
#me thinking about this p5r new+ game sorta fix i want to write#and also#about all the fix it fics for the#batfamily#so i'll tag it#it all ya know#persona 5 royal#i dont see it much with the other games?#persona 5#p5#p5r#you know mostly things with#akira kurusu#and#akechi goro#cuz#shuake#but still#been seen it a lot with#Tim Drake#for some reason?#id be more of a believer in#jason todd#but also if you sent him back it feels complex for him to want to#you know who would tho#dick grayson#and i cant recall the last time i read one of his that was nicely done#anyway#oh Right the man causing everything lol#bruce wayne
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How do we feel about Beach wear Noritoshi....
Everyone thinks he'd go covered head to toe wearing those wet suits divers use, but no. Noritoshi isn't the type to want to attract attention to himself when it's not needed, so he'd try to blend in. Emphasis on try.
He's the guy wearing a covering or some shit. I think you'd have to fight him to wear a translucent one. (if you splash him with water, you'll acheive the same effect thoughahahaha) even though it's a beach, he's trying to find an appropriate way to cover up, hes just like that. yes to sunscreen ofc. I can see him in a sun hat, but it's not his.. maybe he took it from one of the girls
HIS HAIR WOULD BE UP BC ITD BE TOO HOT AND THE SUN HAT WOULD HELP HIM FROM GETTING OVERHEATED H.H....H IS FACE WOULD BE FLUSHED BC OF THE HEAT AND. AND. AND.. he's like the beach babe on the shore, soaking up the sun and reading a book or smth. if you splash him with water, i can see him trying to get you back. then boom bam, hes in the water with everyone else.
OH FUCK that's even IF he goes to the beach. it's like seeing God in the flesh, idk man I'd go blind........... hed probably come along when he realizes theres hot people at the beach. he cant have you looking at people in that state, hold on hes going. give him five minutes..!
EXTRA
[untied covering version under the cut. like his booefjehsaf are out aha.]
ahahahahahahahahaa *froths at the mouth*
mf dont even begin to look at me like that
#kamo noritoshi#noritoshi kamo#noritoshi#kamo noritoshi x reader#noritoshi kamo x reader#noritoshi x reader#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#FAM IMA BE SO FR W YOU. ITS SO COLD WHERE I AM RN#AS OF POSTING THIS#BUT ITS FUCKING SUMMER SOMEWHERE OUT THERE SO LETS FUCKING GO#IM TELLING YOU WHEN I FUCKING SAW THIS ASK I FROZE#HOW ARE WE FEELING?????#FAM WE'RE FEELING FUCKING DEAD AND RESUSCITATED#GOD I FEEL LIKE YOU ANSWERED MY PRAYERS OR SOME SHIT BC I WANTED TO TAKE THIS MANS SHIRT OFF SO BAD BUT NEVER HAD A PROPER EXCUSE#OFFICER. GOD. TUMBLR STAFF.... THIS IS PURELY FOR THE SAKE OF ANDSWERING MY BELOVED CULT MEMBER'S QUESTION#I SWEAR THERE IS NO OTHER UNDERLYING REASON#OFFICER PLEASE#nah its embarrassing how hyped i got for this ask#you got me wide awake at 8 am bc of beach wear......#I WANTED TO SHOW HIS WAIST BUT THE FUCKING STUPID COVERING BLOCKED IT ALL.#WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME @ MYSELF?!??????#DOES THIS COUNT AS SUGGESTIVE????#NO. ITS JUST HIS CHEST. DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT 👊💥💥👊💥👊💥💥#HOW COULD I FORGET ABOUT THE NORITOSHI THAT TEASES YOU BACK...... IM SUCH A FOOL. GOD STRIKE ME DOWN RN......#DUDE I DABBLED IN IT A BIT HERE BUT OH MY FUCK.... IT NEEDS AN ENTIRE POST OH FUCK#tysm anon I'll love you till my heart rots#you dont understand my devastation half way through when he kinda looked like beach geto. pinterest if you ever get your filthy paws on thi#and call him geto. istg ill gut you alive#null rot
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#red vs blue#rvb#locus#felix#sam ortez#isaac gates#felix mcscouty#lolix#mine#*24#art#rvb19 spoilers#just to be safe ig?#i love how even no one in the mercs discord rly knows what the hell was up with the random felix 'cameo' in restoration lol. we're all just#'idk man. maybe it's charon maybe sigma just used him as a base. who knows.'#its kinda hard to even make it into a merc plot point bc the reason WHY he's even there is non-existent. if epsilon didn't namedrop him#i wouldn't even have noticed tbh. like yeah his armor has felix's colors but that also could've just been sigma/omega mix too y'know#ofc tucker's relationship w/ felix can't be discounted reg. meta and epsilon and betrayal of trust etc. idk maybe i'll expand on this later#like maybe felix is in there bc tucker felt very betrayed by epsilon and felix to tucker is the embodiment of betrayal so meta = felix?#BUT i do like ghost felix haunting shit. even if it's not actually him but like a narrative/traumatic thing#he said you'll never get rid of me what i did to you will always linger <3#i do have some thoughts abt... Everything and the concept of haunting. wash's 'ghosts' and the guilt. meta wanting to destroy epsilon/the#past to be free. resentment of the past. nostalgia for it. the guilt of survival. moving on as a complete severing vs carrying it w/ you.#ok i'll stop rambling now lol#this didnt turn out exactly how i envisioned but i dont wanna work on it anymore and its not bad or anything so
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I fear that anything I write about the transmasculine experience will pale in comparison to a song written by cisgender heterosexual man Will Wood. like he got it. he wrote it all down. how tf did he do that was he possessed
#im obviously exaggerating#and i/me/myself is both relatable to a transmasc and transfem (just trans in general tbh) experience#but like#so much of my trans experience has been shaped by other peoples desires. other peoples expectations of my body and what they deem attractive#i DO wish i could be a girl#and that way youd wish i could be your girlfriend/boyfriend#like YEAH#especially in the demo version#“for some reason i find myself caring what you do to me”#yes yes yes exactly#“am i pretty enough to fucking die” translates perfectly into “the norms and expectations placed on me to be attractive as a girl#by society are killing me. but i cant escape it. i have been taught and conditioned to view myself through the metric of your attraction#to me. i need to be pretty. i need to be wanted. and i dont think i can be wanted as anything but a girl. but being a girl is killing me.#it is death. it is rotting me inside and out. is this what you wanted? for me to be a pretty corpse? ill do it. for you#ill fucking do it if thats what it means to be loved.“ and a cisgender man wrote this. fuck#and the last line in the demo being “big girls dont cry”#?????#holy shit fuck#anyways will wood thank you for summarizing transgender angst in your hit song about being cisgender#will wood#will wood and the tapeworms#wwatt#i me myself#i/me/myself#i me myself demo
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so. this scene has been talked about a lot:
I think this scene is a really interesting example of the criminal minds writers giving tiny pieces of character backstories that are never elaborated upon, (or, more broadly, forgetting early established character details) because unlike a lot of examples where lines are said and immediately forgotten about, I do think this revelation informs a lot of Hotch's character. I'm not necessarily saying that the writers always had it in mind when writing Hotch that he experienced childhood abuse, but I do feel like you can see the ways in which he was affected. I don't know—this made more sense in my head, but it feels a little less forgotten about and a little less thrown in than some other examples. I think a big difference between this scene and some later ones is that:
The trauma happened pre-series
and
It was established in the first season.
criminal minds isn't great at letting their characters be affected by their in-series trauma for more than a few episodes (and then maybe it'll come up once or twice down the line because the writers remembered it happened) and a lot of later instances* of characters being revealed to have some major pre-series trauma suffer because the impact it would have reasonably had on them isn't consistent with earlier portrayals and sometimes even contradicts established information.
not that it can't be interesting to look at those earlier portrayals of their characters with the backstory that is added later. again, this all made more sense in my head: essentially, the reason i think this feels different to me is that the writers knew when they started writing hotch that he was abused as a child, while other characters who have traumatic backstories revealed have those backstories added much later, and so the writers have a not-great choice between showing the effects their trauma had on them when there was no sign of it earlier, or moving on with their character as if none of it ever happened.
*i'd like to quickly establish that i'm not talking about morgan here. that was also a pretty early reveal and feels consistent enough with early characterization that i wouldn't be shocked if the idea was first floated while season one was being written
#as for how i think hotch's childhood abuse actually affected him#that would require a longer post and for me to watch more episodes so i have more evidence#but the very simple one sentence version is that i think hotch fears becoming his father#was it his biodad or stepdad? i dont remember. he had both right?#either way. if criminal minds writers were like#hey nineteen year-old canadian#for some reason we want you to cast hotch's father for a flashback#i would want the actor to look as much like thomas gibson as possible to really drive that point home#even if it WAS his stepdad#and if it was his stepdad it could fuck people up even more because instead of being told he looks like either of his biological parents#he'd constantly be told how much he looks like his unrelated abuser#man im sorry im just rambling in the tags ill shut up now#criminal minds#criminal minds rewatch#criminal minds s01e08#natural born killer#aaron hotchner#not fic#criminal minds 1x8
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