#but mom (who is also adhd and probably other stuff) was talking about how she does that to but shes actively listening each time
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Mom reminded me that I'm a bit of an insane person.
I listen to Reddit story reading videos (not the insane part but close)
While I write. Like fics and stories.
I forgot that this is not a normal thing to do... My stepdad was like "how do you know what you're listening to and how do you know what you're writing?"
My answer was just. Yes.
ADHD is one HELL of a brain. Hm yes can't write 1000 words of a fic without listening to a 40 minute reddit story video.
#goat squawking#big big BIG#adhd moment#sometimes i forget#how different i am from others#in terms of small stuff like this that ive always done#i was also talking to mom recently about looping songs#and how i do it and I'll literally put on a banger song for like 4 hours on loop#but like im not actively listening at that point i just like the sounds#but mom (who is also adhd and probably other stuff) was talking about how she does that to but shes actively listening each time#and hyper focused on the lyrics
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okay i watched all 43 minutes of the james somerton apology video at 1.5x speed, heres a summary for those who dont want to time sink:
- the video is monetized, he says hes giving it all to hbomb so it can go to the people he stole from but the way he words this implies he did not ask him ahead of time. the same allegedly goes for the other videos up on his channel, which are also up because he wants his editor to have a resume to point to
- apologizes for the plagiarism less than 5 minutes in. thanks the people who were nice to him
- says part of why he plagiarized was because hes aware hes a cis white gay man and wanted to be more inclusive of other queer experiences
- but that he has memory issues so he didnt remember to source them a lot of the time. blames this on a head injury as a child and its resulting epilepsy, as well as his recently diagnosed adhd
- also states there was a lot of stress due to his mom dying because she wanted him to make a movie with his portion of her life insurance
- a comical string of errors occured where he would write a script only to realize half way through they couldnt film it. this went on for years until apparently they finally finished one on the night the hbomb vid dropped. this takes up like 15 minutes
- talks at length about how he tried to kill himself and how scared he is of unhinged people who watched hbombs vid
- james will soon be releasing a new video, which according to him will be entirely by him and properly cited. says its more of a documentary than a video essay
- mentions his past videos misinformation but doesnt say what it was over. says it wasnt malicious and they werent trying to lie
- made a new patreon so people have to explicitly resubscribe after this scandal. says this video is not about him promoting himself despite having done a lot of that for the past 15 minutes
- says theres no excuse for what he did despite making excuses earlier in the video
- wants to make a documentary about the author of the celluloid closet, one of the books he stole from
- says "i know its easier to watch a 20-30 minute long youtube video than read a book" when he is under fire for plagiarizing books in his 20-30 minute long youtube videos
he does not mention:
- his misogyny & his responses to previous allegations of plagiarism from smaller creators
- probably other stuff i dont remember
youre welcome
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random question but i came across a post of yours where you talked about how mark oshiro sort of erased an aspect of nico's ADHD by making a joke about how he only liked mythomagic cards because he's gay and there are hot guys on the cards, and then TSATS also seemed to really downplay the themes of neurodivergence in the series. and it made me wonder if you have any thoughts on how the show has portrayed the demigods' ADHD and dyslexia so far? i've seen some people say that the show also downplayed it a lot, and i'm inclined to agree... which feels really weird considering that rick's own son's neurodivergence was specifically a major inspiration for him writing the series. but if i recall correctly a lot of scenes showcasing that in the first book were taken out of the show.
Oh absolutely, a lot of scenes and general discussion about adhd/dyslexia were removed in the show (and some of the disability-coding in general - i appreciate the change they made with making Chiron disabled based on his mythos rather than just using a wheelchair as a disguise, but i wish they had kept Grover's crutches in a similar manner honestly) - I've made a couple of posts discussing it: here, here, and this reblog is relevant to my opinions about the matter. There's probably some other stuff in my pjo tv crit tag.
I think the main sentiment i have regarding it - which i've seen a couple of other people mention as well - is how much the show ignores or outright removes and downplays Percy's personal struggles with his disabilities to instead emphasize Sally's experiences instead, particularly in manners of her taking out her stress on Percy - which alongside being completely antithetical to Sally's role in the books, is pretty ableist and why I continually compare show!Sally to Autism Speaks Parents. Autism Speaks tends to make an emphasis on the struggles of the parents of autistic children rather than treating autistic individuals like a person experiencing their own struggles. One of the major points of Sally's character (and later Paul) in the books is that she's an incredibly accommodating parent and works hard to make sure Percy is supported when he's struggling with his disabilities, because he's not been able to find that accommodation elsewhere. That's part of why Sally is such a great mom in particular, and is intentionally supposed to directly contrast Annabeth's home life struggles with her parents having difficulty navigating how to provide that same level of accommodation to help support her (and how Annabeth finds that accommodation at CHB instead, because that's the metaphor that CHB is supposed to represent - an appropriately accommodating system they can rely on, and then exploring how that's still a flawed system and looking at how disabled kids/demigods fall through the cracks and how to change the system to better support them).
The show also almost completely ignores Percy's ADHD/dyslexia experiences in general after the first episode. I was honestly really happy with, in the first episode, how clearly Percy's poor experiences in the American education system, particularly relating to his neurodivergence, have informed his reaction to situations such as people trying to tell him he's a demigod in coded language. It was essentially the perfect update to something i've discussed in the past here, about how the original "all demigods have adhd/dyslexia because it's secretly SUPERPOWERS" thing was presented as the basis for the series and why that teaching/parenting style fell out of favor. We see Percy in e1 acknowledge how dismissive of his struggles it is to constantly just be told he's "special" - and we even get explicit acknowledgement of how that description is used aggressively and for ostracization (from Nancy), which is extremely true to the experiences of kids who grew up with that teaching/parenting structure. But then we get to episode 2 and... all the acknowledgement of ADHD/dyslexia/etc is gone. We get at most a one-off acknowledgement from Luke that demigods are all neurodivergent and that's it. Pretty much nothing else for the entire rest of the season, save for flashback scenes that only emphasize Sally's experiences, not acknowledge Percy's. No further acknowledgement of Percy's dyslexia, or Annabeth's, or anything about their ADHD, or even Percy's completely removed PTSD (which we know for sure because of both writer commentary [see: that second post i linked about the LA Times article] and Percy's total lack of reaction to Mr. D). Nothing.
It was extremely disheartening to say the least, having such a strong start and it evaporating completely, and I fully agree with you.
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Explaining some stuff
Vent
(Reading this part isn't really necessary and you can skip it)
So, I don't really do these things cause I'm not really a big fan getting into too much personal shit but I really needed to get this out
I genuinely feel like my irl mom is losing hope in me, I'm not getting any better with my studies, school is hell, my classmates aren't any good either.
I just feel like going into a deeper spiral of my depression, I'm in need of therapy but I think my parents will say I don't need it since I'm normal lmao. Still undiagnosed with ADHD and autism, probably dyslexic as well yayyy
But seriously, I don't really know how to continue much more, the only reason why I'm still here is because of my online friends and my literal fear of dying and maybe getting sent to hell
My current gender dysphoria is also very much not helping alongside a break up (which I did cause but I'm more worried for her than for myself) I don't really know man
Trying to focus on school is hard enough but the way my mom is so disappointed and maybe losing hope might just drive me insane, she said she'll pull me back if I fail the next quarter which hopefully not
I know she's struggling too, I'm basically useless in my own house, I barely do anything, I don't help, I'm a burden to them
Break
Will I take a break? I'm still unsure and debating on that, I wanna but then again, the internet is a second home to me, it's where I can be free, it's my escape, it's one of the things that make me happy especially with my online family
I do hope I get better, especially with the people supporting me (which I'll be honest, mostly online strangers lmaoo) either way. I'm glad I haven't ended my story just yet, I know there's gonna be more. Good or bad, I'll probably just keep fighting knowing there's people who love me despite not even knowing me that much
Appreciation and Special thanks to
@marycom15 they're basically my mom, in which I was the one to say that but eh, I love them a whole bunch and supported me through quite a lot of stuff, super silly despite calling me out on a lot of things, like stop that/silly knows me a little too well
@iamineskew funniest person I've met, my father (albeit I didn't want/silly, love you/pp) wouldn't stop flirting with my mom in front of me but I'm actually fine, I love them a whole bunch, such great art too! I'm super inspired by all his works
@boothefanficeater my best friend ever!! We don't talk a lot because he isn't online as much lol, I consider him my super best friend anyway, literally the one that made me what I've become (cough.the Prokour CEO cough) they also have lovely art, I wanna eat it
@wimdywhimsy just a cool person in general, supports literally everything I do, all of the things they do is amazing, I love ALL of their ideas they bring on the table, my sibling ever
@canadianketchup is literally almost always the first person to interact with whatever I do, I love interacting with them, I wanna do it more but I'm a little shy giggles
@sundewhasaudhd one of the BEST people I've ever met on the dsmp space,I love them sm, they're just so passionate with everything they do and it's just so admirable, they're not afraid to socialize and bring up their interests it makes me so happy
(I almost forgot to mention aahhhhh)
@theshadeblindcolor a newer addition to my little family but I love them either way, such a cool person with cool art! I love everything they do, their aus are so sick I wanna read more about them and to some more fanart
And shout out to all my old moots too on previous account, all such lovely people I couldn't have it any other way, especially my ava/m family @izzyindahouse @the-ace-of-spadez @flairya @mary-games-and-arts
I'm so happy I met all you guys, I'm glad to be a part of even the small portions of your lives and I'm super happy you are all a part of mine<3
#i told mary i was gonna do my assignments but i wanted to write this out giggles#I'm doing it a promise mom
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I just read a bunch of Owl House Criticism and have to say… a lot does make sense. I still rate the show very high and honestly I blame the pacing for a lot of the issues we DO have with the show. I also think people are taking this way more seriously then they should and some do the complaints feel nitpicky.
One thing a lot of people brought up is Luz’s character and how the first episode showed her casual dismissal of others and their safety occurs. Then there was a few comments on how Vee is right to call her out on running away and other things.
I don’t fully disagree. Luz fucked up big time her first episode where she brought live animals and fireworks to school. It’s just… no. I don’t deny people should have punished her for it. I vote that the Shakespeare play and the cheerleading thing aren’t worth punishment though. Because both are honestly just quirky kid things. She wanted to be cool so she did something she liked to try and impress others. They thought it was creepy and reacted to it. Good reasons for her to be kind of shoved aside by some people. The spiders and snakes though? Yikes.
But to just call her a bad character puts a nasty taste in my mouth because I think she is one that is a good character and whom I think would have been fun to explore. It’s just… she’s kind of a concept that was tried but fell flat.
I think the summer camp thing was handled badly and I would have liked to be explained why they never tried to talk to her about what a reasonable amount of creativity is in her school work. If it turns out they had attempted to do so multiple times but she never listened: the camp is probably a better idea then not. More so given her actions could have gotten her arrested. Honeslty leaning on that idea would have been interesting. Luz being told she had to go to camp or face probation or something would have been an interesting hook.
My friend said she felt therapy would have been better and yeah that’s a good point: but what if they did try and it didn’t work? What if they felt a camp was less expensive ? (Which it probably was.)
I would have liked more evidence that Luz was an outcast. I saw a lot of criticism on this because if you just look at the show face value: Luz does seem like she’s whining about a lot of stuff. Her mom turned out to be like her and only wanted her to not get bullied as Camila did in school. She could have made friends at camp. There’s just so much there that does make Luz seem like a bad person for being upset. And honestly it would be interesting to explore that to, to really pick apart the dramatic ‘me against the world’ mindset of teenagers who see themselves as outcasts. But the show is supposed to be about weirdos and found family.
So: I would actually nix Camila being a nerd. Manny was the nerdy one who loved fantasy, encouraging it in Luz. I would have had him be the one who was more open about Luz’s everything while Camila was more wary and put off. Sure, she could still laugh at the snake skin incident, but I would want her to be less accepting of the other stuff. I said that the first episode reminded me of my mom when I got my diagnosis of autism and she didn’t understand it. I would want to lean in.
Manny and Luz should have been canonly neurodivergent. Camila is neurotypical and she constantly compared her two family members because Manny could mask very well. Luz couldn’t. But I would have Camila struggle to understand that her daughter’s own brand of autism/ADHD is vastly different then her husband’s because it’s so common. I can’t tell you how many time people are like: oh you’re lying about being this cause you don’t act like BLANK.
Camila and Luz then have a conflict which makes it more understandable why Luz is willing to lie to her mother about not being at camp. Because Camila is set up to not understand Luz and possibly she would be pushing her daughter to act ‘normal’ because she doesn’t understand. Again this is inspired by my mom. I have vivid memories of her worrying about appearances and how others think of us, with her pushing me towards things I didn’t like. Some of it was out of concern for me, but there was a huge lack of understanding that drove a wedge between us for a while.
I would then have the idea that Luz is bullied be obvious. Luz would reference it or recall incidents. And I would have them be unpleasent. Being ditched by so called ‘friends’, name calling and mocking. Maybe having her things stolen or random crap dumped in her locker. I would have her be the outcast from the start. I would also address her being a POC person in a small town. Luz could have met Masha or the other two kids: I want a reason why she didn’t connect.
I grew up with almost no friends but people generally didn’t hate me. I got bullied a bit but most of the time I was ignored and happy about it. When I was a kid I was very particular and drove people off due to this. When I made friends I was with other weirdos: some of whom were alone because they were just… I can only call them very weird and slightly disturbing. One of whom was a girl who’d flip on a dime if she liked you or not.
Masha in canon is goth and is there to be the ‘cool goth kid’. I would have had them be dismissive of Liz’s fondness for the Azura series and possibly the type to mock her for liking a ‘gushy girly book’ because take it from this enby: a lot of us go through the phase of shunning anything feminine and romantic to be ‘cool’. I would have a reason why two people who could have totally been friends weren’t.
Luz would be an outcast among outcasts. Just that shade of different.
I want her to have suffered in school. I want her to have to explain that it’s true no one understood her. I want her to be able to look Vee in the face to go: you know nothing. Because Vee only sees a surface and not the full sum of it. Vee who isn’t into Azura and thus gets Masha being: oh you matured cool. I want to hang now. Who goes to Camila who is thankful her baby seems able to mask now.
I want Camila to be able to mistake Vee for her own kid because ‘oh god yes she’s finally normal’. And I want Luz to point this out. I want Luz to point out to Vee the other kids said camp was prison. And that ‘you might have liked it for some reason but can you say I would have? Masha thinks I’m a freak for liking Azura. They told me I was a loser for it.’
I want there to have been a damn good reason more then we got for WHY Luz stayed in the isles.
Not to say I don’t want Luz to feel bad about lying or anything. I just want the whole outcast thing to be more apparent. Luz feeling awful about lying and about resenting her mom who does love her versus the fact she never felt safe in the human realm is an idea worth exploring!!
#the owl house#owl house rewrite#luz noceda#camila noceda#vee the basilisk#toh critical#I guess#more ‘I still liked the show it’s just that this would have been interesting’
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Let's talk about Eddy's family
Out of the three boys, I feel we know the least about Eddy's family. We may have met his brother, the only adult to ever have a role in the show, but of the Eds, he talks about his parents the least. And I refuse to believe his brother is just Like That all on his own. Something happened to that guy and I wanna know what.
So, let's look at what we know:
Eddy was physically abused by his big brother. On the flip side, his big brother also passed his knowledge onto him, the show implying that his bro took on the role of a mentor in Eddy's life. Eddy also inherited a lot of his brother's stuff from him; whether Eddy's brother had a choice in that matter or not is unknown, since Eddy could have simply taken the items out of his brother's room after he was gone.
Bro is much older than Eddy, though we don't know exactly by how much.
in the episode 'Ed... Pass it on...' we learn that the older boys in the neighborhood (Kevin and Rolf), who would have clearer memories of him than the other kids, are terrified of bro.
Eddy idolizes his brother. He pulls his pranks, wears his clothes, and speaks his praises any chance he gets.
Eddy's dad is most likely a homophobe judging by the implications of the only direct description we get of him in the bible. He doesn't want his son to be gay and worries that he is.
Eddy's mom thinks Eddy can do no wrong. Now, I've seen a lot of people interpret the line about Eddy's mom as a continuation of the line about his dad, and that she, too, is homophobic but doesn't believe Eddy is gay. However, I think they're separate statements. Eddy is a guy who gets in a lot of trouble, and usually when a kid gets in trouble, their mom is the first to be told. I think what the bible is communicating to us is that Eddy's mom flat out doesn't believe the stories about the trouble Eddy gets up to. It's probably one of the biggest reasons he keeps making trouble without fear of consequences.
Here's where things get a little more up to interpretation-y:
Here we have Eddy throwing a mug that says "#1 son" out of his closet. So. Yeah. He's the favorite child and his parents aren't afraid to say it out loud.
Eddy's dad, like Eddy, seems to have a short temper and isn't shy of getting physical with people, including his own children (important to keep in mind that this is a hyperbolic, slapstick cartoon, and not any sort of canon proof that Eddy's dad is abusive.)
Then there's the way Bro is talked about in the bible. "Before his brother went... away," why the ellipses? Was there something else to be said other than just "away?" I think the hint here is that Eddy's brother didn't just grow up and move out. There was some sort of inciting incident that lead to him living on his own. There's also the fact that Eddy has no idea where his brother lives in BPS, and that when he does show up, the first thing his bro asks is "Do mom and dad know you're here?" Eddy answers "AS IF!" which tells me that Eddy's parents would not approve of Eddy being around his brother, and both brothers are aware of that. This is followed up by bro asking "Does ANYONE know you're here?" Which. Big scary imo. Really fucking weird thing to ask your little brother before you start beating on him. Like he wanted to know what he could get away with.
So with all that in mind, here's my own personal headcanon that is not in anyway present in canon this is just what i like to imagine happened:
Eddy's brother was the family's scapegoat, whereas Eddy (in his mother's eyes, at least) was the golden child. Extremely rarely do children grow up to be violent just because. I think bro learned that behavior at home. I've discussed before that I think Eddy has ADHD, and that shit hella genetic, so I think his bro has it, too. Their mom and dad were new parents when they first had bro, and probably knew squat about raising a neurodivergent kid, and neurodivergent children are more likely to be victims of abuse. When corporal punishment didn't end up working out so well on bro, I think his parents changed tactics for Eddy. I also personally think that his mom felt guilty for how bro was raised, which is why she's so lenient with Eddy. So now, bro is jealous of Eddy and bitter about his own abusive upbringing, and he takes this out on Eddy by being exceptionally cruel and violent towards him.
This led to bro eventually doing something bad enough to get his ass sent to either juvie or prison, depending on how old he was at the time. This was hidden from Eddy, who adores his older brother, and was told that his brother had simply moved out. And that's how things ended up how they are in the show and how Eddy's brother ended up the way that he is. Again, this is just my own imagination. While it makes sense as something that could be true when you look at canon, I don't think canon actually props it up as accurate in any way. Anyway, I'm curious to hear what you guys think of bro and Eddy's family!!! especially if any of you know what the hell "Eddy's genes are working the fastest" means.
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Charlotte 'Charlie' Owens
“And thats Charlie Owens. Her and JJ have been attached at the hip before even I met him. Because JJ and Charlie are a package deal. Maybe because they’ve got similar home lives. She works a lot of jobs to keep her and her mom fed, and yet she acts like she hasn’t got a care in the world. Its honestly impressive. She’s the demolition expert of the Pogues. If Kie is a hippie, then Charlie is an anarchist. I honestly think she’s a pyromaniac..” - John B Routledge
Pogue to her core
Age: 16 (season 1) | 17 (season 2) | 17-18 (season 3) | 19 (season 4)
Gender: Female (she/her)
Sexuality: Lesbian
MBTI: ESTP
Birthday: March 22nd
Family: Unnamed father, Rebecca Owens (mother, barely), Max Owens (maternal uncle/father figure), JJ Maybank (her brother.)
Backstory: Charlie was born to a runaway father and an alcoholic mother that Charlie took care of more than anything. Charlie was always bitter when she saw other kids that had moms who loved them and played with them, when she had to go home and worry if her mom threw up anywhere. Charlie thankfully had an uncle that would stop by and check on her as often as he could, and who got her her first job so she could make some money of her own. But he still couldn’t be around all the time, sadly. So, to pass the time, Charlie would set leaves on fire and burn ants with a magnifying glass under the sun (John B wasn’t totally wrong. She’s an undiagnosed pyromaniac. She also has undiagnosed ADHD). One day, when she was four years old, she met JJ when he came to sit next to her at recess in preschool. They began talking and quickly became best friends and attached at the hip. Then in the third grade they met John B Routledge, and the rest is history.
Hobbies/interests: Lighting things on fire (mainly leaves and trash and dandelions), reading (horror and sc-fi, mostly. She’s a big Stephen King fan), b-movies of the horror variety (she likes making fun of the terrible sfx makeup with JJ), riot grrrl music/aesthetic, being reckless with JJ
Hair: Brown and slightly wavy
Eyes: Brown
Other appearance details: She has a medium sized birthmark under her right upper arm
Face claim: young! Neve Campbell

“Charlie, since when the hell do you know how to make explosives?!” "Since I got my hands on The Anarchist Cookbook in the 9th grade."
Dynamics
John B: They’re pretty close. John B doesn’t want to admit it now, but when he first met her back in the third grade he had a crush on her, and now that he knows she’s gay he’s embarrassed about that LMAO- Still, they get along great. Oh, and Big John was the closest thing to a father figure she had
JJ: Idk if you could tell, but these two are inseparable. JJ is never seen without Charlie, and Charlie is never seen without JJ. The other will always be close behind. I’d even make the bold claim that they’re platonic soulmates. They’re the platonic version of Bonnie and Clyde. Do NOT leave them alone together for too long, something WILL be on fire when you get back. Also they probably got paired up for the infamous egg baby project in home ec class, and the egg did NOT survive (they got an A for creativity for how TERRIBLY they failed) The teacher honestly should have known better- These two gonna give poor Pope gray hairs lol. Charlie is the first of the Pogues to realize just how bad JJ’s home life is, and he comes to her about that stuff most of the time. They kissed ONCE in middle school when Charlie was questioning her sexuality, to see if she liked boys and they both HATED IT. So obviously JJ was the first person she came out to other than her uncle.
Kie: They get along well despite their personalities sometimes not meshing. Charlie was surprisingly okay with Kie tagging along with them in middle school. She'd elbow JJ in the ribs whenever he was about to say something dumb, and told Kie she was cool, and she can come along, just ignore JJ's dumbass (LMAO-). Charlie was also VERY excited to have another girl in the group, so that may have been why.
Pope: As I mentioned, he keeps JJ and her in check. In return, she encourages him to get out of his comfort zone. Whenever he decides to bend the rules to help the Pogues, she'll tease him by going, "Ooooh, look at Mr. Rebel here~" to which he rolls his eyes with a smile.
Sarah: Charlie was surprisingly open to Sarah tagging along with the Pogues. She never had a personal problem with Sarah, and often stood up for her when she felt Kie was being unfair to her. Her and Sarah get along very well, and she appreciates that Sarah, unlike other Kook girls (excluding Kie obviously), doesn't find her fascination with fire and horror weird.
Cleo: They get along well. I don't even have a specific reason for thinking this, they just vibe well together
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Hiii!! I’m Juni! ^^ ✨🩵
I heard about this super cool app called Tumblr from Dewey and thought it would be cool for me!
What you can expect from me:
🩵 Headcanons.
🩵 A Bit More Fleshed Out Things On How I See Juni.
🩵 Roleplays.
🩵 Reblogs Of Ducktales Characters.
🩵 I Do Allow Crossover Roleplays Though It Will Not Be Considered Canon, Just A Bit Of Fun! ^^
🩵 Drawings Of Juni - Some Will Be Bases & Some Will Be My Own Drawings! ^^
🩵 Staying 100% In Character Although Sometimes I Break It To Let People Know How Certain Stuff Isn’t Okay!
🩵Roleplay Starters ^^ - I’ll Try Anyways!
🩵 Stories! I’ll try to go in depth of how I think June saw F.O.W.L while also trying to stay in character - There will be wholesome dynamics too!

Personal Juni Headcanons:
🩵 Was Viewed As The ‘Expendable One’ In F.O.W.L - This Was Because Of Her Personality More Than Anything.
🩵 Love’s Anything Sugary - She’s Not Really Hyper Just Happy. 🧁 🍪
🩵 Is The Weakest Of Her Sisters - I Mean It’s Self Explanatory But Webby DID Take Her Down Instantly In ‘The Last Adventure.’
🩵 Will Try Anything. ✨
🩵 Loves Stargazing 🔭 🌟
🩵 Has Anxiety - I Mean.. Being In F.O.W.L You WOULD NOT Be Okay. Often Hides It With Excitement And Happiness.
🩵 Probably Neurodivergent ( I Personally See Her As Autistic - ADHD ). Autistic With Heightened Sensitivity & ADHD With Daydreaming, Struggling To Focus & Lack Of Organisation.
🩵 In My Mind She’s 10 Because I Don’t Think Clones Are The Same Age As Their Host. She Could Be Physically But Mentally No.
🩵 Has A LOT Of Emotional Support Toys ( Specifically Mr. Squeaks ):

🩵 Also Attends School Because Every Kid Deserves To Go To School - Doesn’t Talk About It Much Because Bullies.
🩵 Bad At Math - She Tries But Doesn’t Get It.
🩵 Very Creative- You Get Her A Shoebox And Some Art Supplies And She’s Made A Cute Little Backdrop For Playtime Or A Dragon.
🩵 Has Many Nicknames: Juni, Junebug, Joy, Starfish ( Most Of These Nicknames Are By Donald ).
🩵 June Doesn’t Call Donald ‘Dad’ Or Daisy ‘Mom’. She’s Hung Up On The ‘Black Heron Created Us, So She’s Our Actual Mom.’ But She Does Love Donald & Daisy Too.
🩵 June Leaves Flowers In The F.O.W.L Base To Honour Black Heron’s Memory. She Also Occasionally Talks To Black Heron’s Photos / Videos That Were Still Logged On F.O.W.L’s Database And Always Says ‘Hi mommy.’ 😭
🩵 June’s Dynamic With Dewey ( In My Headcanon Anyways ) Is That They’re One Side Of The Same Coin And For Some Reason I Kinda Love This Dynamic Lol.
🩵 June Also Has A Dynamic With Huey But Not As Much As Dewey ( In My Headcanon ).

My Version Of Juni:
Juni is, simply put, a dreamer. She cares about her family, her friends, everyone around her even if they didn’t care much for her ( F.O.W.L ).
While she’s not as intelligent as Huey or as cunning as Louie, she definitely has her own charm and adorable energy. She simply shows people that you don’t NEED to be what others are expecting you to be, you can be yourself and the right people will love you for that.
June is ditzy, airheaded, sensitive and very emotionally intuitive. She’s always ready to lend a hand or help others without expecting help back. She’s the kind of person | student at school who definitely brings in baked goods that she baked the night before or doodles in class.
On adventures I see her as being perceptive especially when it comes to seeing things others might have missed. It could be small and insignificant but it could also be the key to solving a certain puzzle or a clue to something.
So TL;DR: June Is Airheaded, Ditzy, Sensitive, Adventurous, Curious, Perceptive, Emotionally Intuitive & a dreamer. She’s smart in her own way 🩵

Add-Ons From Lala:
✨ Mod is @nebulalaa I don’t post anything on there because anxiety.
✨ It’s worth noting that June is based off of me irl. And people may not see her the way I see her and that’s okay!
✨ Sadly I know there are gonna be SOME people that will find this post distasteful ( especially with the mention of sensitive topics like Autism & ADHD but I have been respectful when talking about said topics ). Also, believe it or not; I also have Autism & ADHD in real life.
✨ I do accept art of Juni! I actually love it, it makes me feel all giddy inside!
✨ Sometimes my posts come off as mean spirited and I just want to say that I don’t intend them to be! If you think a post of mine comes off as mean spirited please let me know! I don’t ever want to upset people.
Also The Story I’m Sticking With ( That Didn’t Make Sense To Me At The End Of Ducktales ) Is That Donald went on vacation but it wasn’t very long. He’s all about family so I can’t see him just leave his family again, y’know?
So June lives in Donald’s houseboat by the pier with Donald, Daisy and her sister May.
I don’t have anything else to say right now so:
Goodbye!! ✨🩵
#Yes I changed this#made it nice and tidy 🩵#also in the headcanon section: I see Louie having a dynamic with my Headcanons version of May who’s like.. girly but ruthless at the same#time lol
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30 days of autism acceptance 4-6 https://www.tumblr.com/autie-j/776209993374531584/30-days-of-autism-acceptance-2025?source=share
Day 4 special interest
My big lifelong special interest is plants. It isn't all plants, but I don't know a clearer category. Plants that grow wild around here, taxonomy, foraging, poisonous plants. I don't really care about houseplants. If I get better (I know autism isn't a disease and something you can get rid of, but some people can get better from late regression, and then I could work with support) I am going to be a naturalist and I have know that since I was little. When I was a toddler I liked volcanoes but since then it has been plants.
For a couple years I have also been very interested in mental health and disability and autism. Probably from being in the hospital, partial, IOP, residential, or freshly out of one of those at any given time for about 2 years and having to research or ask questions and know my stuff so they couldn't trick me. I don't usually call it a special interest even though it probably is because I don't like it and it isn't calming to me and I want it to go away. I can't stop thinking about it though. I still love plants and I'm hoping it takes over all the way again.
Day 5 how can the neurotypicals help
First, I don't like when people use neurotypical to mean not autistic. The word for that is allistic. They might have really meant neurotypical but just in case: Neurodivergence includes bipolar, schizophrenia, ADHD, dyslexia, personality disorders, OCD, intellectual disability, sometimes depression and anxiety, any disability/disorder label that makes your mind different.
Neurotypicals, and neurodivergent people who are less disabled than me, can help by listening to me about accessibility needs like warning me if they're going to make certain sounds and doing it every time, not just when I am able to ask; telling me if I've made them upset and not assuming they know what I'm thinking; and making a point to include me and giving me time to type things on my AAC if they're trying to have a conversation with me and a third person.
I just saw an episode of Daniel tiger (it's a bit young for me but I like 3 other pbs kids shows and I'm trying to learn ASL and it has episodes of some shows including that interpreted) where the class learned how to play by their autistic friend and ask him to play even if they thought he didn't want to and talk about buses with him and be quiet when they see him cover his ears and not complain when he is allowed to walk around the classroom and they aren't and it was so cool and I wish everyone would watch that and follow it.
Day 6 miscommunication
I used to be able to speak but I can't anymore for the past year and 9 months. My language is fine though. That is unusual, it's more common to have a very hard time with language and grammar than no speech. My SLP says her other clients my age can't make full sentences. (Which is ok and people should still listen to them). So all the time people can't understand my handwriting or what my device said, but my best stories about embarrassing miscommunication are social blunders like the question said.
Once I posted online a picture of a buzzer from a restaurant that said something I took to be about liking the food. I was informed that it was a joke about masturbation. In middle school we all had to design logos for the black student union on a t shirt making website with free graphics. I chose one with a bunch of people holding a sign. I didn't look at people that much so I didn't understand that even if I made the silhouette people black in color they were still white people because of how they were shaped. My friend corrected me. I used to like really tight hugs and my friend's mom told me I was going to crush her to death. Next time I saw them when it was time for hugs I said "I want to crush you to death!!" I was joking like she was but nobody understood that. This stuff happens a lot but I usually don't find out what I did wrong.
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My personal headcanons about Eddie’s dad that the book may end up contradicting but at this point idgaf
Warning: Mentions of child abuse, loss of a parent, homophobic language
Masterlist
Feat young Jeffrey Dean Morgan as Al Munson
-He’s Wayne’s younger brother. Both their parents passed when they were young adults, so Wayne always felt obligated to look out for him, which was a lot easier said than done because Eddie’s dad has always been pretty wild.
-I assume the Munsons aren’t originally from Indiana, since Wayne’s accent definitely isn’t Midwestern. In my mind, Eddie’s dad was a little bit of a drifter that rolled into Hawkins one day when he was like 24 or so and started seeing Eddie’s mom (who was like 18 and freshly out of high school at the time) with the intention of moving on in a few months and forgetting all about her.
-Instead she winds up pregnant, and he definitely isn’t interested in settling down and raising a family, but Wayne ultimately talks him into doing the right thing and marrying her.
-Eddie’s dad was never really cut out for family life. He hated being stuck in Hawkins, and has always resented Eddie because of it. When Eddie’s mom was alive, he was pretty absent, always going out drinking or committing petty crimes, hopping from job to job, probably seeing other women behind his wife’s back.
-Then his wife died and he was suddenly the sole parent responsible for a kid he never wanted in the first place. Those few years where Eddie was living with just his dad were pretty rough.
-A non exhaustive list of shit Eddie’s dad put him through at the time:
When Eddie’s mom first died, his dad would want to go out drinking, so he’d just put little grade school Eddie in his car and have him sleep there in the parking lot of whatever dive he was hanging out at. (Eventually he gave up on this and just started ditching Eddie at home)
He hated spending money on Eddie. They barely had any to begin with, and the priority with what they did have was always booze and cigarettes. There were nights that Eddie went to bed hungry because his dad didn’t bother buying any food for him. Most of Eddie’s clothes and shoes were old and ill fitting because he wouldn’t bother replacing them.
Even when he wasn’t out drinking, he was neglectful of Eddie. He rarely put in effort to make sure he was properly taken care of. Eddie would come to school covered in dirt because his dad never made him take a bath, his clothes often went long periods of time without washing etc. His peers would often pick on him because of it, and at the time he didn’t have D&D or anything to fall back on.
Eddie’s dad had a nasty temper, and no matter how much Eddie tried, he’d always end up doing something to anger the man. He’d scream at and berate Eddie, and sometimes get physical. He’d also take this opportunity to throw their situation into Eddie’s face. He’d say Eddie was a burden, how he was unwanted and how it was his fault his mom was dead.
I’m a big Eddie has ADHD truther, and I’d imagine this was a point of contention between him and his dad. ADHD wasn’t really known back then, so his dad would just chalk his symptoms up to him being “dumb”. Eddie would struggle with school work and his dad would tell him he was just stupid and that he shouldn’t bother because it’s not like he’d ever amount to anything.
He made Eddie keep his hair buzzed. If Eddie expressed interest in growing it out he’d say stuff like “long hair is for women and f*gs”
-At some point, when Eddie was middle school age, his dad finally got arrested for something that came with serious jail time. He wouldn’t be out until Eddie was at least 18, so their options were either for a relative to take him or he’d end up in the system. Of course Wayne didn’t hesitate to take the boy in, and the rest is history.
-Wayne has forgiven his brother for a lot of the shit he pulled, but one thing he can’t ever forgive is the way he treated Eddie. It took a little while of living with Wayne before Eddie came out of his shell, all thanks to the abuse his father put him through.
-Wayne does still communicate with his brother though, sometimes talks on the phone and even goes to visit every once in a while. Eddie on the other hand doesn't. He has no interest in a relationship with his father and Wayne isn’t going to force it on him.
-Eddie’s dad dropped out of high school at 16. Part of the reason Eddie’s so insistent on graduating is because he doesn’t want to be like him.
-But of course, even with all Eddie’s efforts, it’s still hard to escape the shadow of his father’s reputation. People have always assumed that Eddie is just a no good delinquent like his father. They were even more convinced when Eddie started getting into “immoral” activities like D&D and metal music (never mind the fact that Eddie’s dad didn’t like either of those things).
-Overall, Eddie’s dad is just super bitter and jealous of his son. He’d never admit it to anyone, not even himself, but deep down he hates that he threw his life away and now he’s rotting in prison; he wants to see Eddie end up the same way because the thought of his son being a better person than him upsets him.
#stranger things#Eddie munson#feral raccoon boy#headcanons#Eddie munson fanfic#eddie munson headcanons#stranger things fanfic#stranger things fanfiction#Eddie munson fanfiction#Wayne munson#eddie munson x reader#stranger things headcanons#Eddie munson angst
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35, 17 and 7 from those fun "weird writer" asks 🥳
I've been pondering how to answer #17 for so long that's it's become tomorrow, twice. Anyway, here we are:
7. What is your deepest joy about writing?
I think for me it's a pretty even split between two things:
Realizing a vision. Getting that scene to move just like I imagined. Getting that dialogue to flow just like it does in my head. Getting that one line to be just as pretty or poignant as the feeling behind it.
Reader impact. Someone reading my words and feeling them deeply. Someone seeing themselves or their emotions or experiences reflected in my writing. Or for fic, someone seeing something they love or resonate with in a character in how I render them.
17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.
This is a tricky one! I feel like I should talk about fic (since this is a fandom blog primarily, though I should make a sideblog for my original stuff soon) and honestly I have so many fic WIPs that are roughly at the same stage of production that I'm not sure which to pick.
Plus, with fic I tend to be so focused around whatever details (canon or headcanon) that draws me to a character or dynamic that not much gets left out, because if I can't fit it in the main fic I will write a fluff snippet or something with it. Also, most of my long-form fic are pre-production or very early days, so it's hard to say what might have been left out.
So instead, since my Beverly/Deanna fic is the only long-form one that actually has chapters up on AO3, let me regale you with some random Beverly Crusher headcanons that will probably end up in the fic eventually, but have not yet:
Beverly is bi/pan. The end of the Host says nothing about her sexuality and everything about the mindfuck of your lover suddenly dying and being told this new person is them, and I will die on that hill.
Beverly has ADHD and/or whatever neurospiciness I have (jury is still out on that. In fact, jury has not yet been assembled). Like, seriously. The impulse control that makes you fly into a literal sun to prove a point. The teenage experience of saying something and not realizing you'd hurt someone's feelings. Just her vibe is the vibe of someone who is making a real effort not to move more. Do I project onto her? Yes! Am I still right? Also yes.
Beverly has very specific comfort foods and whenever she moves, she always spends a period of time wrangling the replicator into making them right. Am I still projecting because I'd probably do that? Yes.
Beverly speaks some Portuguese. Why? Because I like to make chars bilingual whenever I can, and also I speak some Portuguese so there you are.
Relatedly, I have a sorta lore-headcanon that some subset of people would struggle with listening to music through the universal translator because of the disconnect between the relative mismatch between the length of the music for a given line and the length of the (translated) lyrics (which would be more obvious with some language pairs that others, obviously). I imagine like a lot of things, some people's brains would be able to compensate for and ignore this mismatch better than others. For some reason, I hc Bev as one of those people who always switch the UT off for music because it makes her brain itch otherwise.
Beverly will always love Jack but struggles with accepting that not all her feelings for him are as noble. And reasonably so, because uuuh... he sounds like kind of a crummy spouse. Like, between canon and inference from the infrequency of promotions in Trek broadly, there's a good chance he fucked off into space while Wes was still an infant. Maybe even before he was born. And iirc the way the years work out, there's a chance Bev was still in med school while basically single mom-ing a newborn. I side-eye that man, I tell you.
I really should stop there especially since I am not actually answering the question XDD.
35. What’s your favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?
Hmmm, tricky. Probably the idea that adverbs should be avoided. Love me some adverbs! Same for the passive voice. Well-used passives can be so impactful!
Oh also (though I haven't seen this one as much) the idea that you shouldn't use a buncha different verbs as speech tags! Yes, they can definitely be overused but used well, you can pry "murmurs", "sighs", "grumbles" etc. from my cold, dead hands.
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I will never get over the fact that the person who I considered one of my greatest friends actually Did Not In Fact Like Me for at least 4 years and during those 4 years deliberately tried excluding me from every conversation with others about my interests.
If a new anime came out and she wanted to talk about it she would specifically only talk about it when I wasn’t around.
When I started talking about said anime she would immediately lose interest and the cycle would continue
It happened like… 5 times 😭😭 like MHA, AOT, Undertale, Yuri on Ice, Tokyo Ghoul, DRAWING IN GENERAL it’s really funny now that I think about it.
I just straight up did not notice the entire time too my ass was so clueless I couldn’t fathom that she was doing this. I only found out because someone else told me 2 years after it started happening.
I will also never forget about how 3 of my highschool friends, 2 of them I knew for 13 years, got into relationships, didn’t tell me for a whole year, and laughed at me when I got confused when they were talking about how they’d all been “going strong” for a year.
I will never forget being considered weird and strange and childish for my interests esp since I was interested in them for way longer than my peers. That I was weird for liking things like anime and donghua even though I grew up watching anime and donghua (I could never beat the Asian poser allegations even though I was the only Asian ) but then 2017 hit and liking anime was cool all of a sudden and multiple people suddenly forgot they called me abnormal for liking ugly cartoons at my big age and were asking me for recommendations
I remember saying things to people and they would laugh but I’d never understand why it’s funny, to this day I don’t get it. I am very good at this now tho with my college friends so my SHS was probably just full of dry people.
The shit that keeps me up at night is also that all my teachers would tell my parents that I was highly distracted and always fidgeting or daydreaming, and that if I just worked on discipline and motivation I’d be a better student even though I wasn’t doing bad by any means from class 1 to fucking 6th form and no one clocked that I had ADHD is WILD
My mom, who majored in child psychology didn’t clock that I had ADHD for 19 entire years and called me drug seeking when I got my diagnosis and started treatment, because I was nothing like the ADHD kids that she worked with who were all 4.
Also the fact that my childhood was lowkey a giant fluorescent sign of it all and no one clocked it is hilarious. I pulled the straps of my shoes so tight they’d rip because I don’t like the feeling of shoes having air in them, I have dents from it like my feet would not get proper circulation because my shoes were so tight. I cut along the seems of all my school socks because if the seem touched my toe pads I would cry. My favourite thing to do second to playing Mario kart and watching 3 movies on rotation (ponyo, cindarella, Monster High: 13 Wishes) was to stack my collection of kid encyclopedias ( 14 at its peak), read them then put them into another stack. I had more kid encyclopedias but I didn’t like them because they had a different publisher so none of the stuff was in the same layout 0/10
The call was coming from inside the house but everyone had the phone on silent
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My Information Post
Writing requests:
If you guys wanna see me write something specific, go ahead and ask!
The only things I would prefer not to write or even talk about (due to my personal comfort levels) are:
Incest
Pedophilia (unless it's someone saving someone else from it, like the bats saving Danny from Vlad and isn't explicit)
Smut
Current events and current politics. I come to tumblr to escape the outside world and get a break, not to see it more
My fandoms that I am good to write for are:
DC x DP, Security Breach Daycare Attendant, Undertale, Batman, TMNT, and Lord Of The Rings
I will probably be writing the most for DC x DP as it has a stranglehold on me
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Everything you need to know about me below!
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My created stuff tag is #robyns garbage
My chatting tag is #robyn rants
My main blog is @raccoon-robyn ! I mostly just reblog stuff there
About me!
I am 25, and my pronouns are she/her. I am engaged to be married on Halloween. I have been writing since I was a small child, and I have loved stories since I was born. I am autistic, and I have ADHD with a couple of other mental illnesses sprinkled in for flavour. I am also the second eldest in a family of 4 kids and two parents. I have one older brother and two younger sisters.
I am the owner of an orange cat named Taco (Taako if you listened to TAZ Balance), and my parents own two cats, which look like they were twins with barely any differences in their colouring despite them being from different litters (although by the same mom) named Coke and Tot. (All three make a full meal deal)
I am Canadian, and I live in the middle of nowhere, where the biggest event of the year is a rodeo. I helped out on my grandparents' farm for most of my life, and I have a deep love and have a good knowledge of farms (compared to most people's knowledge of them) and how some farm animals behave (mainly sheep, donkeys, and a bit of chickens).
I do not consider myself a cowgirl, and most of the town I live in wouldn't, but for anyone who has only been to a farm once or twice at most and don't have regular access to one, I would be considered one.
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I hoped you don't mind me asking, but what makes Violet your favorite from the other thea sisters? Would love to know some of your thoughts about her :]
Hahah, see it all started when I was a wee nine-year-old who just got into the series. When I first saw these cool mouse women on a book cover, I immediately gravitated towards the one wearing this half-saturated purple because her color palette was the easiest on the eyes (I wasn't very fond of everyone else's super-saturated clothes, especially Colette's since I was very anti-pink). Then I learned about said purpur mouse in the books and :0 she's Asian just like me, :0 she likes books just like me, :0 she's smort just like me, SHE'S JUST LIKE ME FOR RE--
Ye I kinned this silly, and the silly was my blorbo mainly for her aesthetic, color palette and her being the smort one (ego go brrr). I would say that I still kin her to a degree, but nowadays she's my blorbo because she's a socially awkward dork who is also capable of dishing some intense shade. A lot of this can be chalked up to the fact that she is probably the most fleshed-out from all the girls in terms of personality (in the English books anyway). To this day I'm not really sure how to characterize the other girls, because think about it: what are the other girls' canon personalities besides "nice"? Pam is the group comedian with a sassy streak (that doesn't get showcased enough) and also f o o d (she's got more stuff going for her in the Italian books tho, like she has this complex about not wanting to inconvenience other people with her discomfort or emotions); Nicky is athletic and super-passionate about nature (plus apparently a fear of disappointment both for herself and other people) and as much as she is my second fave most of what I know as her personality is headcanon (like haha Australian dumbass); Colette and Paulina are the worst offenders because I can't for the life of me pin down their personality besides their passions, which no, do not count as personality traits. The most I can gather is that Colette is the nice receptionist woman who is also very particular about appearances to the point of taking too long with doing her makeup or picking out clothes and is a romantic; and Paulina is... uh... She's the group smort, tactician and analyst (which is a shared trait with Violet), she's passionate about nature (which is shared with Nicky), she's into science (also shared with Nicky believe it or not), she an IT kid, she likes photography, she's nice, she loves her sister, uh... and she's the mom friend (but we don't see that enough), she's probably the healthiest chronically online person to ever exist, and that's about it. Violet's basically got everything about her fleshed out and kept in by Scholastic's story-trimming asses, and I love her for it. I would love to get to know the other girls more, but as of now, you will have to give me more meat on the bone because as it is, they've got very little to their personalities. Yes, I do have the Thea Sisters' official blog and bits and pieces of the Internet Archive to fill in some of the blanks, but there're still significant pieces missing.
Anyway uh Vi. She's socially awkward, she's a dork, she deals with stage fright and not wanting to embarrass herself, she's a perfectionist (which artist mood), she's an overthinker when it comes to her social insecurities, she's a roast lord as I talked about in my Geronimo x Thea Stilton crossover post yesterday, she's pragmatic and punctual (which clashes with Colette's chronic tardiness and leads to entertaining shenanigans), she's attentive and good at retaining information (god I wish that were my ADHD ass), she's that one quiet introvert that listens to everyone talk and then talks either when she needs to or when she's enjoying herself, her luck in DnD/the special edition books and beyond is crap at everything except staying alive, she is loyal to her friends which the later books used to make her the friendship prophet to which I say BULLCRAP SHE DOESN'T THINK OF IT LIKE THAT SHE IS LOYAL TO THEM BECAUSE SHE SEES THEM AS FRIENDS WORTH A LIFETIME AND SOMETHING TO BE PROTECTED AND SHE'S NOT THE TYPE TO SPOUT SENTIMENTAL UNSENTIMENTAL CRAP LIKE THAT--
She's adorable and I love her. My child, my baby, my blorbo. I love this silly purpur woman so much, and the more I learn about her the more I get to appreciate her.
#thea stilton#thea sisters#questions with e#do I feel like I just barfed all my brainrot juices for everyone to see? yes I do#do I regret it? uhhhhhhhhh I'll answer you in a day or two
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Just a rant feel free to ignore.
Fallen into the feelings of social outcast in my home again. Fallen into the feelings of if I call in because I'm sick I'm gonna get fired or if they don't fire me, my supervisor will treat me like trash. I hate ADHD and depression. It's starting to feel like unless I'm screaming about something no one hears me, like I'm just getting lost in the crowd.
I'm the only person who doesn't partake in getting high every day. I'm the only person without a significant other be it romantic or platonic. I feel like the only things that people want to talk about is weed and going to do stuff I don't want to do. I ask to do stuff that I do want to do and I'm told sure and then it never happens.
I wish there was an easy way to make friends that don't make me feel like every choice I ever made was wrong. I wish I didn't hate myself for not having found my person yet, well then again this time last year I thought I did have my people but they chose their oppressive father over the friend who talked them off the ledge so many times before. I'm just disposable, when push comes to shove I fall off or out of view.
I know this is just the anxiety and depression talking and what ever cold thing I have, but I'm really hurting. I don't know how to tell my family I'm feeling this way because they're all so happy and they have every write to be. After all my grandma who's been in and out of the hospital for just under a year came home again today and hopefully she's able to stay longer than a week.
Don't get me wrong I'm happy she's home too, but my brain is beating itself up. I feel guilty for being upset and depressed about things that I can easily change by just talking when such good things are happening around me. I really want to just smile and laugh and enjoy spending time with the people I care about, but it feels like I'm too different from all of them.
I like anime and manga (my current hyper fixations), I'm also really into very specific kinds of games ones with story but also a lot of free reign to do what I want. While my family (mom & dad, brother &his fiance) all like to sit outside and smoke weed getting high and playing more story focused games, or going to play disc golf, or talking about my brothers wedding that he says probably won't happen for a while because of money and the state of the world which makes sense. It's just I can't relate, I've tried too but I just can't. I've taken edibles before and don't like how they make me feel, I can't play games where there's so much story every step of the game is already mapped out and no matter what you can't avoid it, and I don't like being outside and I'm sure disc golf may be fun for them but at the end of the day I'm just a fifth wheel in there group of two couples.
They have all tried to include me and there are days where I feel like I'm part of the group and not just someone asked to come along out of respect or obligation. But as of late I just feel like a burden. I feel like if I say this I'll bring everyone down.
I just wish I was different and hadn't lost so many friends in the last year (like 6 or 7 if I'm counting right). I wish I wasn't on the ace spectrum sometimes so I could relate and have a significant other to go do things with, but at the end of the day I'm just me.
I'm just a 21 year old, nonbinary person, who likes to be alone but also wants to be part of the group. I'm just an ace person who doesn't understand what it's like to have that one person who knows everything about you and you know everything about them. I'm just a nerd who is too picky to try new shows and games that don't fit a specific category. I'm just a person ment to have only online friends. I'm just a person who is just barely serving in a world where everything is difficult.
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op re your tag: #do you think they played 20 questions
yes! yes, i absolutely do! because, as you said, two hours is a very long time to spend treading water while maybe-possibly-probably about to die, but especially with somebody you don't know well.
and this is stiles we're talking about! adhd motormouth stiles stilinski, who cannot bear uncomfortable (or even comfortable lol) silences at the best of times. so put him in an incredibly tense situation? with somebody he doesn't know well? somebody he is nervous around (because contrary to popular belief stiles does actually have some self preservation instincts, plus y'know, there's the whole derek is objectively hot as all sin thing) and of course he would start babbling away incessantly! ofc he would!
so yeah, yes, uh-uh, you can 100% bet your bottom dollar that stiles is gonna rope the local creeper wolf into playing 20 questions!
that boy will also absolutely be getting derek to play the “i go to the shops and buy...” recall game that his mom used to play with him when he was a little kid! he will absolutely be forcing der to sing the national anthem with him (derek does not sing, he doesn't, but he's maybe about to possibly die and he's losing his mind a little, so sue him if he grumbles through the verses an octave deeper than stiles's ridiculous soprano)! stiles absolutely asks derek what his favourite thai order is. it's pad thai which stiles mocks him for because it's “such an unbelievably basic choice” (which derek responds to by resolutely telling Stiles to fuck off) and stiles in turn shares with derek that his favourite is tom yum goong, which obviously means he is so much more adventurous than derek (which is when derek tells stiles that hot and sour shrimp soup is not really that adventurous and then reminds stiles that stiles can resolutely fuck off)! and then what with the whole probable death thing, stiles absolutely starts to wonder if derek might be thinking about his family, wonders when the last time was that derek got to talk about them. so he asks derek to tell stiles stuff about them and at first derek is too stubborn (upset) to talk about it, but stiles keeps asking him more and more questions about his mom and dad and brothers and sisters and cousins and aunts and uncles and grandparents, and derek realises that he really does want to talk about them all, so he starts answering stiles's questions, only in short sentences at first, but then even finds himself regaling funny stories about them and thinks about all sorts other fond memories because of this, ending up telling stiles things he hasn't thought about in years and it's really nice to. so he asks stiles about stiles's family, and stiles says he's never had that much of it really but talks about how losing his mom when he was little was and is the fucking worst thing that ever happened to him. because she was his best friend in the whole wide world (he loves his dad too, but saw even less of him back when he was a deputy). he tells derek about how he misses her like a lung and that he talks to her sometimes (which derek does with laura, too, but isn't about to admit to that) and that derek's deadpan humour often reminds him of her. he hears derek huff a little bit and it's the kind of huff that sounds almost like a laugh, a kind one, and stiles knew that talking and talking and not shutting tf up to try and break the ice during this week's perilous situation would eventually pay off, and hey! look at that! he absolutely got the trauma edgelord lycanthrope to not only open up about his life but to cheer up a bit and not be such a sourwolf and even laugh a little, too! which hey, if they're about to die, that's objectively the best thing a human and werewolf could do together, right? the PG version, that is, heh.
so yeah, i think op is spot on and we don't talk about this scene enough. which is a real shame because omg there is soooo much scope here, and we absolutely should delve into it more, again and again and again, because i think it's absolutely what stiles and derek would do xp
We really need to talk about the fact the stiles was prepared to drown to keep Derek alive.
He was treading water for two hours with Derek weight on him and only when his muscles started to give up did he try and hang onto the diving board. If Scott didn’t get there in time both stiles and Derek would have drown.
Also they couldn’t have been completely silent the entire time. Do you think as they both felt stiles weaken that they’d have to come to grips with the idea of dying. Do you think how Derek was paralyzed in the arms of a human (he doesn’t trust humans) and spent the entire time thinking “well this is the moment he’s going to let me go and I drown”; and how shocked he must of been when stiles refused to let him go. I know that stiles was definitely thinking about his dad. I wonder when the moment was that they realized they might die in that pool. The final moments before they both went under when stiles is trying so hard to keep them both alive. The way that stiles talks about drowning after this incident.
I really feel like we don’t talk about this enough.
#might have to write this fic now#love everything you brought up here op!#thank you for helping the brainrot to ferment a little further and in turn inspiring this <3#sterek#stiles stilinski#derek hale#the pool scene
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