#but like. they could've at least told me that???

[nabitsun]

— special cup ꒰ toji x reader ꒱

you want to prove your boyfriend you can totally do better than him in mario kart . .

tags : [smut] toji being a grumpy loser, slight corruption, fingering, finger sucking, boobies, mm edging, he's a big tease... + whatnot

wc : 4.9 K

"how's that even possible? this shit's rigged."

"you just suck toji. it's no big deal."

though staring right at the screen with your arms crossed over your chest indolently, you feel the heavy stare bore into you by the man on your right who doesn't seem to share the same opinion. "three red shells in a row, how am i supposed to dodge that?" he slumps back into the couch with a final scoff, letting the controller rest by his side as the hopeful music plays on repeat in the back. the music of failure.

"if you had kept the banana around like i told you, maybe you could've kept that fifth place a little longer." you shrug, glancing at his sluggish stance. you'd watched toji carelessly drop a banana on fourth position out of pure spite, regardless of the advice you'd gave him to keep it "just in case".

he escapes a sour chuckle as he throws his head back, shaking it in disbelief. "alright smart mouth,"

it's your turn to shake your head, raising your hand in the air to stop him, "less whining and more winning, fushiguro. focus!" you coached, a glint in your eyes that only made toji's smile wider.

he hooks his right arm under his head, staring at the ceiling, "yeah, you got it easy don't you?" he blustered, his voice more coarse from the position. you don't indulge in his taunting, in fact you find it more amusing than you probably should.

"i'm not the one who can't play for shit," you quip back, a smile on your face. you waited for an answer that would satiate your bratty attitude, though it never came as only silence filled the room, along with the nagging bumpy music. you turned your head to see toji sitting straight, head not thrown back anymore but perfectly still as he watched you, eyes low, though appeared a faint smirk on his face when he nodded profusely to himself.

"come over here," he says, patting the empty space between his legs lazily. you trade glances between the spot on the couch and his serious face, an eyebrow arched suspiciously.

"i can stay here."

"nah sit here, c'mon." he sits back further into the couch to allow more space for you to fit in between his legs. hesitantly, you hoist yourself up and step closer to toji, he silently watches you as you place yourself in your designed spot. he exhales lengthily once you're sat, getting closer to you as he almost presses his body against your back.

"there you go. gimme those hands," he beckons with his own, taking your wrist with one whilst the other reaches for the controller. the light plastic material soon drops directly in the palm of your hands. "i'm watching." he presses, his face right next to yours.

"huh?"

you turn your head to stare at him, oblivious of his motives as uncertainty crawls upon your face. he raises his eyebrows, the rosy tint of his scar extended as he smiles, "huh? you heard me the first time girl c'mon, play." he snarked.

you quickly pick up on his demand and shake your head, though keeping the controller in your hold. "hey, hey, wait. this isn't about me, i'm not the one struggling to get in first place." you huffed.

you watch toji's eyes roam through the room, his mouth faking hesitation as it turns downward. "mm, i wouldn't know about that."

"what do you mean?"

"i've never seen you actually win, that's all."

you jaw falls right off you're not even sure it's not dislocated with how much force it dropped. a scoff of indignation escapes past your lips, that's the least you could say. "you're so wrong for that. you've seen me countless of times!" you protest, seeing the man eyeing you with cruelty in the way his smirk never ceases to increase.

"argh, for some seconds maybe, but did you really end up first at the end?" he clicks his tongue, tilting his head as he fakes thinking, "i'm not really sure.."

you watch him stupefied — maybe a lot more mortified — as you feel every muscles in your body tense up with frustration. "move your ass. i need space." you push his torso away from you, making him back away anew against the soft couch. no need to tell you twice, you've already picked up the controller to hit replay on the special cup.

"atta girl, show me what you got."

"i'm doing this just so you can shut up right after i clock you." your voice barely audible through your teeth as you grumble.

"like i said, i'm watching."

cloudtop cruise circuit wasn't that bad ; first lap had been completed easily, the second one had debuted and though you'd been taken over once or twice, you'd been finding your way back on the first spot easily. nothing to complain about really. nonetheless, a certain distraction had slowly been making its way over you, crawling onto your skin. literally.

"toji," you let out a sigh.

his voice rings like a bell, sweet coated tone, adorned with righteousness. "yeah?"

"give me space, i need to focus." you wiggle away from his reach, his hands are placed upon your waist, gently squeezing at your sides in some vicious attempts.

"nahh you don't. you're a natural at this, aren't ya?" his hands are getting tighter around your body, only to move your hips back into his crotch. "mm, look at you, you're killing it. y'don't need to focus." he drawls, body slumped down with only his arms extended on your body. you exhale sharply through your nose, your body relaxing into his hold as you weight the angle of the drift you make, slightly releasing the pressure on the joystick.

"plus, you might need a little booster, hm? can't do no wrong with that." he purred lowly, his hips meeting his own movements on you slowly. though, toji knew better when to touch you when you got hit with a blue shell, allowing some fleeting seconds to swat one hand away, earning a groan from the man. "take them off."

"shit, you really try hard huh?" he asks, obeying as his hands drops by his sides in defeat.

"you should try it sometime, might help you."

toji sucks a sharp breath through his teeth, feigning hurt, "harsh, ma’."

overtime he learns to keep looking at the screen with his head tilted without trying anything too stupid, although he slowly regained some territory on your hips, he stays still this time. it's when the third lap begins that toji redresses himself, his chin rests lazily on your shoulder. he doesn't say anything for some time, only watches intently.

"c'mon flip that fuckin' mushroom over." he whispers, getting tensed as the said mushroom blocks your vision, and your winning ticket at the same time. thus granting his wish, you do flick the red-spotted mushroom away from the road with a red shell, a few seconds before crossing the winning line. you drop the controller by your side, turning around with a proud face as you look at toji.

"there you go, satisfied?"

"a single race is too easy. complete the whole cup."

you were about to retort something particularly nasty, in vain as you renounced. you squinted your eyes at him, turning your head to get a better look. "i might start thinking that you just don't want to admit how good i am and how truly bad you are, you know?"

he denies your assumptions with a shake of his head, "don't start acting cocky doll, that was one race." he shows his thumb up in the air to demonstrate the number, not convinced by your performance whatsoever.

"uh huh, alright."

first lap of bone dry dunes was fine, you kept enough distance with the rest of the karts to allow yourself to breathe, although still staying on your guards for eventual threats. it didn't even occur to you that the worst threats of them all was sitting right behind you. you tried to ignore it at first, thinking that it wasn't all bad intentions, that his hands finding your waist was just a way of showing his devoted companionship to you, that once his fingers diligently slid under the fabric of your shirt to caress your bare skin, it was only to encourage you. though you should know so much better of toji, especially when his voice starts getting an octave lower in your ear.

"you might win if you keep this up," he whispers.

not phased, you answer immediately. "it's the point, idiot. remember i'll make you shut up?"

"yeah," he starts nuzzling his nose near your nape, "i do." his lips grazing against your soft skin. toji traces small circles on your lower back with his thumb, climbing up slowly along the side of your waist until his whole hand engulfs your sides. the tip of his fingers press gently into your skin, simultaneously parting his lips enough to linger a single wet kiss in the crook of your neck.

your breath hitches at the tingles the kiss leaves down the length of your spine, nevertheless not quitting the screen in front of you as you remain focused. "toji, what did i say." you breathe.

"what? can't concentrate 'cause of a little kiss hm?"

the mocking tone in his voice makes you frown, directly poking right at your ego. "of course i can."

"then act like it." he taunts, making the grip of your fingers slightly tighter on the controller. "you're doing good so far, y'wouldn't want to lose that." he coos teasingly.

you sigh, frustration getting the best of you, you decide on moving closer to the edge of the couch, thus further away from him. nonetheless you don't get to stay away from him more than a couple of seconds when his hands press on your body to drag you back up into him firmly.

"stay put." he warns directly in your ear, making you shiver despite being focused much elsewhere.

it's all about strategy with toji, you'd have probably noticed sooner if you weren't so focused on trying to prove him wrong. he would only touch you methodically, time stamps for each of his fingers on your skin, lips on your sensitive neck. have to throw a green shell at your opponent? there goes an open mouthed kiss on your shoulder, making sure the tip of his tongue comes in contact so ever slightly on the surface. have to drift on the dusty path at full speed just to hit the brakes at that one moment to not crash? the warm and rough pad of his hand would roam along your waist, even extending high enough to graze your ribs with the tip of his fingers. anytime you'd let your guards down toji would swirl himself around you like a snake around its pray, waiting patiently on the occasion to crawl his way under you. give him an arm and he'll take the whole damn leg with it.

"you smell real fuckin' good, y'know that?" words spurts from his tight throat, almost growling in your neck as the kisses intensify at the base of your neck.

"toji, move.." you faintly complain, just above a whisper as you swallow with difficulty, your fingers clutching onto the keys of the controller harder than you'd intend.

his mouth trails up your neck, leaving wet patches all along, his tongue practically glides onto the surface without ever leaving it. "want me to move? where do you want me to move mama, tell me." he mumbles against you, his voice gruff. you catch yourself closing your mouth shut when your lips part slightly at the feeling you know way too well. you bring your thighs closer, shifting in place as you start feeling oddly uncomfortable in your current position. and let's not talk about your eyelids that are so so much more heavier, you're fighting to keep them open, fluttering your eyelashes to wipe that glossy film clouding your vision.

you dropped two ranks. it happened very fast too, his right arm hooking below your own to have better access, then comes his hand cupping your tit, groping it crudely just to cancel out with the soft touch of his thumb on your nipple. that's when you missed a drift about twenty seconds away from the finish line.

"focus." he warns once again, still close to your ear though his mouth had stopped devouring your neck. you had some luck in you to drive past the second kart but not enough to reach first place right before the finish line when the lap was over, and so was the second circuit.

"aw, what happened? got distracted?" toji mocks beside you, hence turning your head to send him a cold glare to which he only smiles.

"who's fault," you complain, eyebrows knitted in frustration when you turn around to select the next course, "now my rank is ruined."

"m'sure it's not, you'll do better on this one, yeah?" he fakes encouragement, caressing your waist up and down as if to wipe his prior traces on it.

third circuit, bowser's castle. you wouldn't have been dubitative if it wasn't in 200cc, but unfortunately for you, and much more fortunately for the man creeping up behind you, it was. the prior approaches toji would grant you were no longer tactical, but a lot more spontaneous. it was no longer one hand that was mainly doing all the work on your skin but it was now two of them. his left hand digging in your tummy, then wrapping around your waist securely, "c'mon, you got it.." he breathes as you manage to maintain your first place. you feel the light brushing of his hair against your jaw when he nuzzles his nose into your neck to give it a peck, an innocent one comparing to what's coming.

"you're doing so good, aren't you?" he asks softly, his left hand sliding down sooo slowly to pick up on unbuttoning your pants. worst part is, you don't think you even realize it at first, it's only when his fingers plunges down your pants and that you miss to catch an item box that you really feel it. when the pad of his fingers rub against the cotton of your panties without a single warning, circling motion right above that single bud of nerve just aching to be touched. it's when you retrieve your lips back in your mouth, firmly shut as you hardly breath in through your nose to subside the feeling away. "yeah, realll good." he murmurs, your body caged between his own as you try to close your thighs to make it stop, in vain.

"mmf tooji," you whimper pitifully, your body starting to melt into his, you back presses against his torso as you let yourself drown into his touch, carelessly.

"mm what is it mama," he tilts his head to look at you, a smile on his face whilst he trades glances between your eyes and your parted lips. his fingers only increase their pace, middle finger pressing onto your clothed clit lightly as he circles it. "want me to stop? that's what you want, huh?" he croaks, glancing at the tv to see you remaining first, surprisingly. your breath gets stuck in your throat, only able to shake your head at his question while you're fighting tooth and nail to keep that first place despite everything trying to drag you down.

"nuh uh, you don't?" his voice above a whisper, uncontrolled and shaky as he sees the way your chest heaves with every breaths you take. "we're gonna do something... the longer you keep that first place, the longer the reward. good trade?"

you get closer to the finish line, eyebrows scrunched up and internally begging for your torment to end.

"mhm," you hum, completing the first lap intact.

"yeah i fucking bet it is." he laughs crudely, a sour smile quickly disappearing off his face when he swiftly shifts behind you, retrieving his hand. "open those legs f'me." he grunts, and you waste no time to obey. his fingers are back on you soon enough, sliding under your panties to rest directly on your bare skin, urging a small moan to escape past your lips. his other hand rest on your inner thigh to keep them open ; he's way too scared you'll just shut them close, robbing him away from what's in between.

you can't help but take a quick glance at what's going on below, muttering a small "fuck," at the sight, though toji's quick to interrupt your moment when his left hand leaves your thigh to lift your chin instead, aligning your eyes on the tv.

"eyes up here, doll." he prodded. his fingers run down your wet folds, sliding up and down your entrance when his middle finger teasingly prods right against it, testing the waters. "you're very fuckin’ wet for someone who doesn't get distracted." he teases, breaths irregular as he's getting more worked up than he'd admit, he circles your entrance a few times before slowly dipping the first knuckle inside.

"mmf fuck—" you close your eyes shut for a second, then remember, "what'd you think was g'na happen," you quipped, breath shattered as you tried to keep your eyes open at all cost, though you notice more than a few mistakes in the way you drive, earning you to back down at second place. what you did not expect though was the way toji tore his hand away from your panties, dropping it lazily on his thigh and leaving you empty. you complete the second lap nonetheless.

"what?!" you snap as you quickly regain lucidity, a deep frown settled on your face.

"oh i don't care about that back talk, you just dipped second, though." toji shrugs, his fingers now tracing circles on his thigh lazily.

you don't answer, only huff with a deep roll of your eyes as irritation crawls its way back up into you. you don't need to be told twice, if toji wants to play his stupid game, then so be it. it's on your two mildly adhesive wheels that toji took care of picking – more for the aesthetic of owning a bike than for its benefits – that you speed towards your salvation, loosing in the process your main goal which is to prove your boyfriend wrong.

he remains silent, breathing slowly as he watches you regain territory on the circuit, lips parted as if he is himself also secretly waiting for you to get your place back. "c'mon, don't you want it?" he pressed through gritted teeth, his fingers almost digging into the fabric of his jeans now. you can't help but close your legs, trying to rub your thighs together to meet the lost touch, though his hand comes forcing you to open them again with a click of his tongue, "don't play dirty, ma’."

you whine faintly, a pout growing on your face that toji can't help but notice. it's almost pathetic how expectant you are of his touch when you reach first rank again, earning a pleased hum from his part directly in your ear when he leans in against your back. his fingers are back on you – well, back in you with the way that his middle finger plunges inside your wet hole, quivering with impatience as it automatically grips him with force.

"shit, would you look at that, huh." he says lowly, a smile stretching on his lips mockingly. he keeps going deeper and deeper until he reaches that spongy spot far way up, that's when he curls his finger to tease gently the spot from the tip of his finger.

"oh, my gg—od," you whimper, your sentence cut short midway as your breath gets stuck in your throat. you really are trying, every way possible to not let anything rob you away from that first place.. and from that finger.

"yeah, feels good doesn't it?" he coos in your right ear, still trading glances between the screen and his hand buried in your underwear, busy pumping your insides slowly with your cunt quickly gushing out from your own wetness. "you want another one baby? hm?" he asks with a high-pitched voice as he quickens his pace inside of you. you nod furiously, panting and almost throwing your head back into his chest when you can feel the tip of his ring finger brushing against your folds. though you should remember to keep your eyes open, that might spare you from bumping into walls and driving off path as you tumble down once again.

"hey nah, what you doing girl.. c'mon you really gotta try harder." toji pouts in fake sympathy, stopping the motion of his finger though he doesn't take it out this time.

"ughhh toji p—please, please.." you cry out, tears almost making their appearance at the corner of your eyes as you shake desperately, third lap well started and you just keep on being a messy driver.

"hey, hey, what'd ya say again.. less whining more winning? right?" he tilts his head in hope to somewhat lock eyes with you, eyebrows raised as if really asking you.

"it's not the same thing toji," you whine pathetically, shaking your head at his statement.

"no? i'm pretty sure it's even worse though, you're not even whining you're fucking pleading." he drawls mercilessly, leaning in slightly against you and in the same way, his finger pushes deeper inside, teasing your soft spot once again and earning a choked mewl from you.

"so what is it, are you gonna win or are you not?" he presses.

at this point you don't even believe you can, but you nod nonetheless, palm sweaty around the controller as you manage to speed some more to reach to the fourth position. toji sticks to his words, he doesn't move an inch inside of you, almost making you forget his finger is well buried inside if it wasn't for the faint wiggling of his knuckle anytime he tries to tease you. he would almost feel sorry for how sad you look right now, glossy lips turned downwards in a pout, brows knitted together in a pleading face, he would almost give in if he were to look at you for too long.

bowser's castle is a pain in the ass, and you're the prove of it, barely ending up on the top when comes the finish line, earning the low rank of third. you think it's over, dropping the controller on your hips lazily. silently, toji presses on the button for you when flashes the next race on screen.

"are you kidding me," you falter, discouraged more than annoyed as you slump back into his chest, rainbow road making its appearance on screen.

"not the worst, it's your lucky day." he muses, his left hand rubbing your belly as his other one curls inside of you, making you jump in place as you slap his thigh, earning a soft scoff from him. "you can do it mama, i'm sure you can."

"of course i can, but not with your hand buried inside of me." you mumble, getting ready for the countdown.

"prove me wrong," he breathes softly, letting you depart as the alarm chimes in loudly on the third beat, allowing all the cars to speed down the road. it's fairly easy to get back on first position from the start, it always is, the harder part is to keep it for the whole damn race, and even more so when toji's finger started pumping in and out again.

first rule is to not close your eyes, you always have to keep them on the screen, not at the back of your head – easier said than done.

"thaat's it, just like that." toji drawls beside you, praising your good driving skills as if he wasn't introducing a second finger past your hole, stretching your entrance anew. he sucks a deep breath in when he feels you clench around his thick fingers, swearing under his breath at the sound of your cunt when he pushes you juices in and out of you slowly.

oh but the second rule is to take a lot of advance on your opponents, a lot. that you can do. maybe with more difficulty as you start to ride toji's fingers on the couch with your legs starting to tremble in anticipation. you keep biting your lower lip secretly, keeping it firmly shut under your teeth as your chest heaves rapidly with the movements of his fingers.

"fuck, you're taking my shit so well f’me." he holds you firmly in place against him with his other hand whilst two of his fingers start to curl inside of you, bumping forth and back onto your soft spot repeatedly.

you have to lay a hand onto his wrist for a second to urge him to slow down, tapping onto his skin, "toji, if you don't stop i'm— really.." you falter, not finishing your sentence when you retrieve your hand back onto the controller.

"mhm, i know baby, i know." he purrs, sliding his fingers out of you to run them through your folds and up to your clit, soaking the entirety of your cunt as he comes once again skimming over the bud delicately at first, following with more pressure as the pad of his finger easily slips against it more rapidly.

first lap completed. you dip down second but toji's fingers remain on you. i mean how could he notice though? what kind of man would he be to watch a boring shitty race when the perverted sight of his girlfriend's pussy is right under his nose, loudly chanting for him as he frantically flicks her clit?

you bring your knees up and toji compels to lift your legs up, blocking your view for some seconds as he pulls your pants down to your thighs. "‘s better like this yeah?" he mutters more to himself, not tearing his gaze away from the messy wet patch on your panties.

he doesn't really control himself anymore honestly, not more than you do. minus your capacity to process a thought, you don't think he even cares about what's going on over the screen. he tucks your panties to the side, his fingers almost pruny with how wet they got find their way back into your hole. "fuuck, you're makin’ such a mess." he growls lowly, chest going up and down at a rapid pace whilst his hand practically hammers into you by now, making you moan loudly.

"wait! toji– toji, fuck, fuck! please wait—" you stammer as you feel the hot building inside your lower belly growing bigger and bigger, pressing into you as if it was about to explode at any moment.

"fuck doll, why do you want me to wait huh? you ain't greedy anymore?" he hisses, his fingers getting milked around you as you drip further down your ass. needless to say that the controller in your hand is entirely forgotten, the stupid music race is filling the background – though not more than the both of you – and your kart is poorly immobile on the moon.

your right hand comes hugging his own, wrapping your fingers around his forearm as you dig your nails into his skin, "c'mon ma’ just cum f’me." his croaked voice urges you, the length of his black and spiky hair tickles your temples as he watches his fingers disappear each time he plunges them deeper in and out of you.

the lewd squelching of your pussy is the only sound overtaking the room, boldly silencing anything around but your soft cries as you plead and plead. with his left hand he easily slips a finger inside your mouth, resting on your tongue as you eagerly suck onto it, letting your saliva coat his digit. "that's it, suck on it, such a good girl." he accentuates on each word, grabbing your jaw with the rest of his fingers as he moves your head around playfully. you're panting, eyes closed and barely able to form any sentence as you moan around his finger, which he slowly takes out of your mouth to direct it under your shirt, pinching on your nipple with his wet index and his thumb.

minus seeing the stars on rainbow road cheering on you, you slowly start seeing them at the back of your eyes when the boiling sensation at the pit of your belly starts to explode. "fuuuck, Oh– god please please toji, i’m gna—" you gasp for air as you grab onto his arm even tighter, throwing you head back against him in silent cries.

"i know, i know, let it alll out, theere you fuckin’ go," he softly says, watching you come around him shakily with your hole pulsating around his fingers. you hardly catch onto your breath, swearing mindlessly after he gives your pussy a few last lazy pump, before slowly taking his fingers out of you.

"thaat's it, see? that's what you get when you focus. that's my girl." he taps gently onto your pussy making you jolt for the slight overstimulation. the music of the race track still echoes in the background, thing that toji doesn't seem to notice.

"Toji," you swat his hand away with a grumble, "i'm last."

[dragqueenstarscream]

I'm currently at the hospital for a attempt

Uhhhh

Starscream massaging? Optimus after a bad flair up djjsjdhf

-🫀

(oh gods, i hope you're ok!!)

tfp starscream x optimus prime

contains: established relationship, the burden of leadership and the pain that comes with it, mentions of self harm, autobot starscream, starscream trying his best

optimus never lost his cool.

at least, that's what the rest of team prime thought. in all their time knowing him, he'd always been level headed, calm, and collected, even in the worst case scenario. some thought that primes were simply built that way. others assumed that he'd been this way even as orion pax.

starscream knew better.

ever since the two of them had become official, starscream had learned more and more about the autobot leader than he'd ever expected. he had a soft spot for human movies, especially the old black and white ones. he tended to carry most of his stress in his shoulders. corny puns made him smile. the more time starscream spent with optimus, the more the autobot leader opened up.

but there was one side to him that optimus didn't like anyone seeing.

starscream knew that side too.

it was why, when optimus had disappeared to "investigate an energon deposit," according to him, starscream had followed behind him. once he'd heard that optimus had disappeared again, he'd opened up the groundbridge and gone straight to optimus' coordinates.

the groundbridge led starscream to a thick forest, the trees changing from green to yellow and orange. starscream knew this place well; optimus would often come here whenever he needed to clear his processor. sure enough, as starscream followed the driven path through the trees, he could see optimus in the distance, sitting by the edge of a rocky cliff overlooking more forest down below.

"optimus?" starscream called out. optimus turned his head slightly to one side. one of his audial fins twitched at the sound of starscream's voice. as starscream moved past the trees and made his way towards the cliff, optimus curled in on himself.

"optimus?" starscream repeated himself, softer this time, as he came to sit alongside the bigger bot.

optimus avoided starscream's gaze. "i thought you were back at the outpost."

"i was," starscream said, "until i came looking for you."

hearing a faint grinding noise of metal on metal, he looked down to see that optimus had been gripping his upper arms so tightly that he'd gouged deep lines into his plating. starscream could tell by a glance that ratchet would have a nasty time pounding those out. knock out had encountered the same trouble when starscream would do the same thing to himself.

"you can go back to base now," optimus tried to reassure him. "let the others know i'm alright."

"i'm not leaving until i'm certain that you're not going to hurt yourself more than you already have," starscream insisted. optimus turned to stare out past the trees, and starscream winced when he saw optimus' almost angry expression.

"my burdens are not yours to carry," he said.

"optimus," starscream said, "when you took me in, you told me that i didn't have to fight alone anymore, that you'd be there for me. now, i want to do the same for you."

optimus' expression softened, if only slightly. he glanced over to starscream, then back out to the trees.

"i fear for this planet, starscream," he admitted. "every day, megatron gets closer and closer to its conquest. it's not just the autobots and decepticons whose lives are at stake. if he succeeds, billions of humans will be subjected to the same carnage he brought upon cybertron." optimus sighed deeply and said, "i cannot fail this world the way i failed our home."

"optimus, you weren't the one who failed cybertron," starscream insisted as he reached up to rub optimus' shoulder, running his claws over the gouges in his plating. optimus froze, but relaxed after a few moments. "if anything, that was all megatron's doing. he could've actually done something with cybertron, but instead, he turned the whole planet into kaon. he's the reason it went to the pit."

seeing the forlorn look on optimus' faceplate, starscream switched tactics. "and anyways, cybertron isn't gone for good. we have three of the omega keys. we just need to find the fourth, and we'll be able to start again. we're so close, i can feel it!" risking a smile, starscream said, "we wouldn't be here without your leadership, sweetspark."

optimus shrugged, putting on a look of indifference, but starscream could see a glimmer in his optics. "you have more faith in me than i realized."

"well, shame on me for not showing you," starscream said.

as he looked at optimus' scuffed and aching frame, an idea came to his mind, and he got up and moved behind optimus, sitting cross legged on the hard ground.

"starscream, what are you-" optimus' words trailed off into a low groan as starscream began to knead at his shoulder plating, trying to work out any stiffness.

"i hate seeing you in pain, sweetspark," starscream murmured. "maybe this can help a little."

optimus leaned forward a bit, exposing more of his back.

"thank you, starscream," he said, his engine starting to purr. starscream smiled as optimus started to relax beneath him. he knew that things weren't completely fine just yet, but at least it was a start.

"optimus," starscream said as he moved his servos further down his partner's back, "once you're ready, we can go back to base, and i'll put on that movie you like. i can't remember what it's called. it's the black and white one you watched during that silly human holiday."

"it's a wonderful life?" optimus guessed.

"that's the one," starscream nodded.

"that's a christmas movie, starscream," optimus said. "christmas isn't for another few months."

"does it matter?" starscream asked. "silly human customs be damned. i know it's your favorite. i'll get you some energon, and we can watch it while everyone else is recharging."

optimus sighed, but starscream could hear the faint smile in his voice as he said quietly, "thank you."

"i know you would do the same for me," starscream shrugged as he continued to massage his partner's aching back, watching the sunlight fade beyond the treeline, giving way to the stars overhead.

author's note: for those who haven't seen it, "it's a wonderful life" is an old christmas movie about how one person can make a whole world of difference. it sounded like optimus to me, so i kinda hc that to be his favorite movie.

if some of the wording or grammar seems funky, it's because i'm writing this while at work. i'll proofread it and fix things once i'm back home and at my computer.

[icannotgetoverbirds]

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[habibisagi]

thinking about the guy that was so down bad for me who'd ask me to stream genshin impact to him whenever he saw me playing and then he'd in detail describe to me how he wants to eat me out under my desk 😭

[drysauce]

i mean it in the best way possible (to u) but wow from what u've been posting ur uni friends sound like fucking cunts. hope it gets better :/

haha well, yeah no i agree with you

the thing is it's not really uni friends. those just either don't reply or reply that they're busy when it's about something esle than school, they're clear with us that they have their own friend groups they value more and outside of the university setting we don't really keep in touch too much. i mean i tried befriending one girl but it eventually backfired at me so i decided it's not worth to spend my time and health on that

the thing that's happening lately is with people i have known before for ~5 years out of which one of them is my rommate. and only around january/february this year it started becoming clear what we stand on. that's probably why the whole thing is so frustrating to me now, especially that situationship with my roommate/best friend that we ended up in. it's such a complicated and multilayered situation at this point that it's just simply more tiring than upsetting

but in any case thanks for nice words, i hope it gets better too

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

If there is at least one thing I can credit FE for doing better than Tales in localization, it's not trying to actively go out of their way for an entire game to avoid subtext or direct text between two men that is romantic or implied romantic. Funny when it's so present that the attempt doesn't even work; infuriating that it was attempted to begin with.

So as much as I often have issues with some of FE's localizations, at least they have a leg up on loc Tales for that.

[gaydryad]

so for Writing Reasons I've been going back through all my old personal writing (including some very old social media posting) and the sheer force with which I wanted to dress up or roleplay "as a guy" from ages 12 to 15 is truly stunning. WHILE BEING AWARE OF TRANS AND NONBINARY PEOPLE. AS A OPTION. FULLY ZERO-BRAIN-CELL AWARENESS-ZERO ASS EGG

[daz4i]

hate when i vent abt my pain and ppl tell me "everyone has stomach aches, it's normal" okay but are their pains bad enough to make them cry or unable to stand..... at least once a week...... bc i think that if this was normal society might've collapsed by now. but what do i know

[protect-namine]

had to go (near) bgc today......... I was so STRESSED just being there. I haven't been there in years but I get flashbacks to how bad commuting to and from bgc was like. and that stress is just gonna follow me every time I'm near that area

ofc no one here knows what I'm talking about except for maybe like a handful of people, but just know that if you're ever in metro manila, do NOT believe anyone who says it's nice to be in bgc. it is a soulless capitalistic haven without good public transportation. dude I'd rather commute to makati, or hell, mall of asia than bgc. bgc is a hellscape (if it's not apparent from the post, I live in north metro manila) (this is also funny bc like. it shouldn't be terrible to go to bgc bc it's quite near makati but makati is sooooo much more accessible. commuting to and from bgc and makati itself is also its own nightmare)

[nihilismtrcit]

SCHOOL YEAR OFFICIALLY OVERRRR 🎉🎉🎉

this was a long ass year but the last month and a half was really tough with my co-teacher leaving without much warning. still v much wish her The Worst✨ bc i am a bitch who holds grudges but honestly so glad her negative energy is gone. i’ll actually be getting not just a new teaching partner (who i met and she’s LOVELY and has a similar vibe as me) but also a whole new first grade team. and the three of us are all super chill! also our whole classroom’s getting redone and i’ll be stepping into the new role i requested working as special ed support in the room

excited for next year! but first, SUMMER

[celenawrites]

After half a month of waiting, they cancelled my order of "The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes". I'm sad af :(

[cyphyra]

currently having a crisis over the real possibility of having to cut dairy out bc my tolerance seems to get worse by the day

[drysauce]

really mad at how my father asked me if i saw the reanimation action like it was some kind of a spectacle after a guy drowned at the beach today

[softwaluigi]

why is there just one guy who gets to keep all the memories over here. like can I have some of those

[snekdood]

every time im like "hey lets go finish sorting that art from that time period that sucked a lot" i go and i even just glance at it and get triggered and then try to distract myself.

[puppmeo]

Have you ever been assumed to be romantically attracted to someone and even just the thought of that makes you want to throw up . Anybody