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If you have a problem, Toji can easily correct it.
cw: 3.1k words (dawg it was NOT supposed to be that long), brat! taming, oral (m receiving), face fucking, piv, overstím, dom/sub dynamic, dacryphilia, dub-con, punishment, breath play (kinda idk), Daddy (?) kink, creampie, spanking, pet names (baby, sweet girl, doll, mama, ma), no use of y/n, just plain debauchery.
No because Toji has to have his hands on you. Whether it be your hips, your back, your neck, your ass, hand holding, his arm around your shoulders— anything to let him know you were in arms reach and close. It wasn’t like he was a needy fuck, no, not some strict spouse that didn’t let you do your own thing.
But when you were together, he wanted— no— had to keep you near, you needed to be together.
But today, since you’d left from your place and to the bar with friends, you’d been avoiding his touch.
Purposely.
Just wanting to test the waters out since you didn’t mind constantly being close. He was your spouse after all. Unless you said otherwise, he could touch you anytime he wanted.
His hand went for your back for the sixth time tonight and there you were, silently shifting out of his reach as you went on and on to your friend about some twitter gossip he didn’t give a fuck about. He was being oh-so patient with you but you were being a brat.
He looked over at you who acted as if all was well with the world and hysterically laughed to himself, fuck, you were good.
Toji put down his beer he couldn’t be bothered to finish. His hand slowly making its was around your shoulder, you were trying to get out of his grasp yet again. But he snuggled you close, a casual look on his face as he replied to something a friend said. He’d looked down at you with a glint in his emerald eyes.
‘keep it up.’
It was silent, unnoticeable to those around you.
Fuck, you were 10-0, you knew you were losing and had already lost the game you were playing. But sometimes you gotta shoot for the stars, aim for the moon, make a slam dunk when you don’t even know the first steps to playing basketball!
So you went for an illegal home run on bullshit.
Avoiding Toji’s gaze, his touch, his voice— hell— going to get another drink you were gonna pass off to your friend just to get away from him. You were hitting all the bases, and with knowing smile, you jumped on home plate.
Imagine giggling and waving with a stupid grin on your face on national tv after losing the championship game knowing the coach was about to hound on you like the second rapture— it was like that when the night came to an end.
You both said your goodbyes without any issue, Toji’s hand at the small of your back like a gun.
‘Keep still.’
He didn’t need to say anything, you didn’t have to try anymore, he’d give you what you wanted.
~~•~~
“Hmmaahh Toji—“
“No.”
“Papaaa.”
“God damn, you’re so loud— Shut. The fuck. Up.”
You regretted it.
Seriously, you regretted it.
If you had, had your lawyers (you) properly look over the legal documents (aka the current situation) before you signed it, they would’ve snatched the pen away and burned it.
Counting.
A “game” Toji suggested you two play when you got back home. No matter how much music played, or the way Toji made casual conversation with you about your shared plans for tomorrow despite his knuckles turning white as he gripped the steering wheel— there wasn’t enough room in the car for you to say no.
The game consisted of you having to count to 100 as Toji’s large hand laid excruciating slaps to your ass. It was fine the first ten but then you got to 20, and then suddenly— you groaned, gripping onto the older man’s pants leg. As if he, of all people, was going to save you from this situation.
“Thirrty threeee.”
He scuffed, “Don’t tell me you can’t count. Start over.”
“Wha- Toji!”
“I won’t repeat myself.”
Another painful smack. You hiccuped, looking back at Toji who was looking down at you emotionless. As if he was telling you, ‘We can start again, it doesn’t matter to me.’
“O-one.”
“Keep going.”
“T-twooo.”
You were slurring your words, tears coming out of your face and you lost count again around 40
But that wasn’t good enough, he’d rangled you to the floor and on your knees (he knew your ass hurt and made sure to give you a quick break, a sweetheart :) ), forcing your mouth open without a care about how you felt and putting the tip of his swelling cock to your pretty, moisturized lips. Not wanting to make him any more upset, you opened your mouth. You expected praise because that’s what Toji always did, but instead your head got pressed to go further down his manhood. You went to take the base of it with your hands but Toji slapped them away.
“Keep your hands to yourself baby. No touching tonight.”
And what the hell did that mean?
Even though a third of his girthy cock was in your mouth, and he was still gripping your hair to get closer— there’s no way he expected you to take all of him, there’s absolutely no way.
“Relax your cute little throat, or I’ll shove it all in. Your choice.”
Shit.
“Theeeere you go, baby. Therrrre you go! Look like a fucking slut trying to take all ‘f me, good thing I’m here help, right?”
Toji was big, too big. To the point, you couldn’t breathe as he slowly gave you the last few inches of his dick. But fuck, the less you were able to breathe the more you relaxed. It oddly made you feel good. You could hear your clit pulsing as Toji pulled your head back, causing you to gasp and then shoving it back in before you got the chance to breathe. In and out, in and out, in and out, in—
The man gripped the curls, that took you so long to define each and every strand, his cock leaking even more at the sight of you. You were so perfect. Hopless but perfect.
“Your pretty mouth— shiit— must’ve been made for this. All you wanted to do was take this dick. Haaa, prove tuh Papa how bad you are but you only want me to abuse that tight fucking throat of yours.”
You had precum falling down your chin to your breasts, his balls slapping against you every single time he thrusted into your tight ass mouth, you could hear the sound of squelching in your mouth— it was filthy.
But the way Toji looked down at you, his emerald eyes looking as you were the scum of the earth— God, you couldn’t get enough of it.
Your nose was touching the black pubic hairs, your glanced up, his head thrown back, moans unable to escape him because you felt so damn good. That sight alone, turned you on further, a harsh moan coming around Toji’s veiny cock.
You were a moaning disheveled, disgusting, mess after that. You felt good simply knowing you were the one making Toji lose himself around you. It wasn’t helping the lack of air going to your brain. Your gummy walls were fluttering and hard, your brain felt foggy, all you could focus on was Toji and Toni ramming into your mouth like you were the only person on earth. You felt his cock twitch at the back your throat and suddenly, your mouth warm. Film to the brim with a thick, white substance.
“Swallow.”
Toji shoved you off of him and you fell to the floor. Gasping for air, cum dripping from your chin but your mouth was empty, and your cunt sopping in your panties, fucking clenching again and again for him. You weren’t just trying to catch your breath from his thick member being in your mouth, your chest out disheveled breaths, your legs were shaking— and Toji knew that lazy, stupid look like the back of his hand.
A deep, bellowed laugh came from the man’s stomach as he looked down at you. You’d unknowingly came. Untouched.
“Fuck, since when could you— shit mama.”
He was shaking his head, delirious with the thought, you were complete and utter putty in his hands.
“Again.”
“Huh?”
“Come on, suck it again. You’re not done.”
Toji wasn’t one to usually do punishments, there was no need to. You knew better.
But it was things like this that, in the grand scheme of things, weren’t a big deal. But Toji always made it very clear to you when he was angry— that it wasn’t just bully!Toji fucking with you. This was asshole!Toji who was gonna drag you down to hell with him, the one who you’d think is calm but had a knife behind his back, the one you actually pissed off and the one who would make it so very clear— you didn’t need to try it again.
Your eyes were puffy from crying so much, snot kept trying to come out that you kept sniffing back up and rubbing away, full lips swollen from taking his large cock to the hilt, your ass was completely red, you could practically see the hand prints on your brown skin, bite marks and hickies only left around your thighs, and your poor, sopping cunt was sore. Your clit was begging for mercy.
Above all else, this whole time: Toji wouldn’t hold you.
Wouldn’t let you wrap your arms around his back or shoulders when he was drilling you into oblivion, wouldn’t let you use his chest when you were riding him, kept your hands above your head or pinned them to the side, wouldn’t kiss you or even bite you. He wouldn’t even grip onto your hips for leverage as he was fucking from the back or as you rode him, only grabbing you by the hair or giving your ass a hard smack.
“No. Take all of it.”
“Stop it, you know how to move. Fuck it like it’s yours.”
“We don’t touch each other, now do we Doll?”
You’d apologized numerous times already, saying anything that could come to mind that would make the man happy but, no. Toji wouldn’t accept it, hell- he didn’t even give the idea of your apology the time of day. Your movements had come to a sudden stop, taking a few deep breaths. You needed a break, a minute— maybe a vacation after this. The man had spent hours eating you out like Jesus at the last meal till you snatched his head away by his hair.
Another mistake.
He’d had you sat in his lap, riding his cock, your hands hold your chest because ‘touching isn’t allowed.’ He kept you cumming, kept you shaking, kept your whimpering for more, more, more.
It didn’t satisfy you.
You hated how you felt, it made your heart ache, you felt nauseous. You felt unloved, detestable, abandoned— even though you knew Toji loved you. How he adored every inch of you, and you him. The older man was right there, in arms reach literally, you’d been taking all of his borderline monster cock tonight, everywhere he wanted, but he wouldn’t because you weren’t a good—
Oh, fuck.
No, you were really gonna cry. Like hyperventilating, sobbing on the floor after a terrible day of work and you can’t find the food your mind was dead set on eating cry. The sob was building in the back of your throat, more tears stung your eyes, your hands were shaking slowly reaching up his stomach. Trying again, the words unable to come out.
‘Please.’
Toji saw it, you were an inch shy from going into sub drop. He had looked like he was bored of you, but his eyes followed your every move. How your hips shook when he gave you one thrust to keep moving. Or how you’d tilt your head, curls following to the side of your face when you called out to him, for him to do anything to you.
Problem was, Toji didn’t just want you to feel what he felt earlier tonight— he wanted to completely ache for his touch. Even to go as far as pleading with the devil just for him to brush his fingers against your chin.
If you had to be a sobbing, babbling mess, so be it.
You were his to fuck up, his to fix, and his to discipline. And he wouldn’t have it any other way.
Your weary eyes stuck on him, you looked so helpless, how precious, his sweet doll. Toji quickly put out the cigarette that he’d gotten half way through, motioning you over with one finger.
“Come ‘ere.”
Hell.
You were having an outer body experience. You felt your body fall on him, the sob escaped without a second thought, you clung to him as hard as you could. Your nails scratching his lower back as he held you tight. The two of you were practically blending together.
“Sorryy, ‘m sorry Papa- I-I-I didn’t mean toooo!”
That was a lie, but he knew what you meant. Though you usually stayed in your lane, sure you pissed him off now and then, but you were his brat, weren’t you?
“ ‘S okay baby, but just don’t like it when I can’t touch you. Told ya that before, didn’t I? You should listen to me next time, yeah?”
It didn’t sound comforting.
It never was.
But when you were in his big arms, the smell of cigarettes and a hint of oak on him, his soft kisses on your teary cheeks, the sound of his heart beat— you felt so reassured. Treasured. Cared for.
He hummed, sitting you up, still sitting on his fat, pulsing cock. He took your pretty face in his calloused hands, thumbs gently at the fallin tears. You leaned into his touch, fuck you loved his hands. So big, warm, veins all over them, they could be so sweet sometimes but so damn mean. Regardless of what happened, you’d be craving to feel them.
“What’s the safe word, [+]? Tell me.”
You sniffed, “dear.”
The older man’s hands slowly went down your sides, to your bruised hips, gently rubbing circles with his fingers.
“Wanna say it? ‘S okay if you do. Big girls say it.”
The room was still, the only sound was the both of your breathing and your soft sniffles. You kept rubbing your face, trying to get yourself together after being at your lowest and then being brought back up. Your hand gripped onto Toji’s bicep, just trying to feel him, any of him.
“Don’t need to. I’m okay.”
“Yeah?” He hummed, “Then whatd’ya wanna do baby? Whatever you want.”
Your voice cracked, it was embarrassing but who gives a shit? You needed him. You were desperate for him.
“Fuck, need you to hold me Toji!” you mewled.
Like a switch, the man was on you. Yanking you back down to him, slamming your hips down on him while thrusting up into you like his life depended it.
He loved snapping his hips up to meet yours, the gorgeous sight of your ass and hips rippling was droll worthy. He rasped, “Attaa girl, haaa, atta. fuckin. girl. Handle it so well ma. ”
“Toojiii!” Your eyes rolled to the back of your head, mouth agape as you took every harsh thrust against your cervix. It was all so much, your chests pressed against each other. Toji’s breath was right your ear, biting your earlobe then sucking the sensitive area, his hands holding your two sore ass cheeks, using it as leverage— just what you needed.
“Love you! I— hmmm— love you, fuckin love you Papa! Sooo mu-ughh!”
“I knoooow mama,” he snickered, you were such a love sick baby, “bein so sweet f’ me. I love you baby.”
You moaned at his words, your heart swelling right along with your cunt. Pussy clenching around him and he groaned. He slammed you down on him even faster, even swiveling your hips around so you could cum.
“Toj—“
“Fuck, come on sweet girl, know you want to. Get there, hfff- fuckin make a pretty mess like you always do.”
You felt your lungs leave your body, quickly patting Toji’s shoulder as you quickly sat up, shattering around his dick. But Toji wouldn’t let you go, sitting up further against the headboard of the bed, taking your legs and throwing them over his biceps, his hands gripping into the two mounds of your bruised ass. Tip rubbing your folds that were crying ones, filled with plenty of white tears.
Toji eased his monster dick back into you, your mixed cum gushing out of you getting a moan out of him. He was drunk off you.
“Toji- ca- aagh! I can’t.” You hiccuped, using your hands to try and take him out of you. But he held you tighter putting your foreheads together with a huff,
“You can, hmm- shiit baby— you will.”
He was already slowly, slamming you down as hard as could. Your gummy walls, basically begging the older man not to let go of him. You two were huffing and puffing in each other’s open mouths, one of your hands going around Toji’s shoulder, the other griping his jet black hair that felt so nice between your fingers.
“Gonna— gotta give it to you just how you need, huh mama? Hmm— fuck meee baby— Just needed your Toji to set you straight.”
Your toes curled, a ‘yes papa.’ Leaving your pretty dark pink lips.
“Shit— kiss me Doll. Kiss me while you cum on my cock.”
Your lips immediately went to his, deliriously molding his pink lips to your two tone ones. It was sloppy, his tongue was at the back of your throat, you could hear how fucking wet it was a yards away. A string of saliva forming every time you pulled away for air.
His thrusts were slow, but they were so fucking mean, kissing your cervix every time he slammed you back down to the base of his cock, then lifted you up, up, up so the mushroom tip was almost hanging out then back down, so you would feel every. single. ridged vein, every pulse that ran through his manhood.
Your climax is like a punch to the gut, you scream into Toji’s mouth and he bit your lip. Immediately tipping over at the feeling of your walls clutching onto him like you needed his milk.
Your body shook as the black dots in your eyes consumed you. Toji brushes your hair back, fully enamored at the sight of you, leaving tender kisses around you neck and chest, heavily breathing from everything you two have just done.
“Good fuckin girl.”
#tojisteddy presents#toji x reader smut#toji smut#jjk x reader#toji fushiguro#jjk toji#toji x reader#x poc reader#poc reader#black reader#x black reader#toji oneshot#first time writing about sucking#I did RESEARCH🤓🔬#lmk what y’all think#toji x y/n#toji#he’s manhandling out of love
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iskall's video feels to me as an attempt to garner sympathy and save face, rather than a professional conversation,
doesn't mention what the allegations actually were, a common tactic: not all your viewers know what's going on, so don't inform them, so you don't lose them (i understand being cautious IF he's actually suing/investigating anyone, but i think "i was accused of xyz" is not an incriminating statement);
most of the video is wailing about cancel culture, "they're out to get me! it's a witch hunt!", nobody deserves death threats etc., but most of what said is not informative, more so manipulative imho;
who is investigating who?? im no big city lawyer, but if you went to the police crying "help they're defaming me on the internet", what are they going to do??? i find the story that a lawyer or policeman (💀) is out there investigating these people from other countries most likely, over the internet most likely, over screenshots and googledocs they wrote and posted to their twitter, extremely hard to believe. (it's not news articles they're writing about him, it's TWEETS).
anyways, this video should've been 3 minutes long. "i have been accused of xyz. here is how hermits handled these accusations. here is how VH team handled the situation. here is how it affected my life. due to this, i will be going through an investigation/lawsuit/wtv, which is why i've been inactive." NO MOREEE.
but we need several solid minutes crying about cancel culture otherwise uninformed yt viewers hearing this first time won't take the side of me, innocent little iskall! okay 🤦♂️
#i agree every party could've done smth better in this situation#but the more iskall talked about cancel culture the less i believed him lol#iskall85#iskall situation
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elphaba should have been on social media. your mutual constantly warring nastily for her life against the same three anons. always locking and then unlocking to tell someone that a comment like theirs ought to get them killed and then being like Really what did i say that was so bad. when people start dogpiling her over it. otherwise she's mostly chill and posts vegan recipes and talks about how her cat Malky is such a funny and particular beast. she would be like Well since twitter is going down the hole if any of my mutuals want to find me again look to the western sky
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spending any amount of time on twitter is like walking slowly towards the chernobyl elephants foot
#i just want to see peoples art i feel like fanart is so hard to see here now bcus ppl get demoralized when nobody reblogs it#but like otherwise i have to go on TWITTER#its genuine hell#anyway people are talking about how izzy dying is somehow the worst thing anyone has ever done and it erases any good that came from ofmd#yknow the show with one of the most diverse casts and crews ive ever seen in my life thats about middle aged gay romance#but yeah killing off the morally gray character who most of the fandom hated last year negates every bit of good the show ever did#legitimately fuck off#i think we all need to take some media literacy classes PLEASE#cus like wtf do u mean he died for no reason it was practically spelled out in all his big speeches in the last ep#and it was foreshadowed the whole fucking season!!!!#just cus u couldnt see it doesnt mean it wasnt there#and just because u didnt understand what the show is trying to do doesnt mean its bad writing#grow tf up PLEASE jesus christ#thanks for coming to my ted talk#anyway
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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Vampire Mercedes lore doodles (and vampire Lorenz bullying)
#carrying over my posts from twitter choo chooooo#these were stewing on twit for a bit cuz I had other doodles I wanted to doodle#BUT ALAS even doodles take time and energy. maybe in 3-4 months from now#2023 art#fe3h#mercedes von martritz#Lorenz Hellmen Gloucester#in this AU mercedes can go outside and enter rooms and stuff she just cannot see her reflection#lorenz cannot eat certain things but otherwise hes good to go#well that and the blood drinking stuff#i can't write fics but i would like everyone to imagine in their head the comedy hijinks of Ingrid Felix and Ashe trying to hunt a vampire#while Mercie Annie and Sylvain are like woah vampire?? so weeeeird#Annie knocking over and smashing things into every mirror while mercie stands there like#'you could have also just put a sheet on it...?“#meanwhile Dimitri is fighting his own demons he has no idea what's going on communication is dead just like his dad#Lorenz going on a lore dump about Gloucester's history w vampires#hilda rolls her eyes but when she looks over at Claude he's furiously taking notes the absolute nerd
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Why are people always so shocked when South Park handles a topic well?? I’ll see so many articles that are like “wow even SOUTH PARK is calling you guys out” tf you mean? They’ve BEEN doing this??
#I’ve seen fans of the show do this too#like why do people act like this show is nothing but a bunch of hateful nonsense???#I can’t help but wonder at times if some people here even LIKE the show because a lot of what I’ve seen makes me think otherwise#it’s one thing to be critical of the show (and you probably SHOULD be in all honesty)#being a fan of this show doesn’t mean you can’t acknowledge its flaws#there are a lot of things in this series that absolutely could’ve been handled better or aged poorly etc#but DAMN some of y’all I swear (mostly Twitter people)#like I once saw someone complain that the show has antisemitic jokes???#uh hello??? are you new here??#You don’t have to LIKE it I’m just saying#why are we surprised when a show known for being offensive is offensive??#I also just think people need to learn the difference between the show making poor writing choices (as they definitely have) and having#personal preferences#Not EVERY decision made in the show you don’t like means it’s bad writing#sorry I didn’t mean to go off of a tangent lmaooo#people just be getting on my nerves sometimes 😭😭😭
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wip of something that might never see the light of day
#wip#the fun part about having a cervical disk degeneration is that I can't draw for more than 30 minutes without feeling like im going to die#and that's why 99% of the shit i post is unfinished work or shitposting/meme cuz they are much faster/easier to make#I also just wanted an excuse to draw telemachus again cuz I want him to have the fluffiest hair in the world and idc if nobody agrees#I'm always picturing animatics of the songs in my head but I don't have the patience to actually make them#so instead I just scribble random scenes that I would like to see in said animatics#anyways if anyone want to donate a new spinal cord to me I'll pay you 50 cents and a pan of brigadeiro#was this wip post just an excuse to vent about my cervical pain? most probably but we can pretend otherwise#anyways I usaully post wips and unfinished shit on my bluesky if anyone is interested: @llamapallooza.bsky.social#and none for twitter. bye.
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‘Rose, oh roses, grant me my wish. Blooming from the stone, the Golden Rose sang to me.’
“An exiled scholar once cultivated these roses specifically to survive the desert.…but something so special should be regarded alongside someone worthy of its beauty. Delicate, yet strong. For your personal archives….”
“personal archives” because my s/i is an archivist at the akademiya, and now here it is in our teapot bedroom muahaha
#⋆.༦࿑ོ⁺ 𓂃 𝓳𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓶#i was so blown away when i got this back ueue i adore it#ft. the golden rose like from the desert quest hehe i have it in our room in my teapot too (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ#okie stop here if u don't wanna read my ss rambling#//////////#im vry much a romantic & luv to be charmed n whisked away into something wonder-filled n spectacular n grand#but i also like tht this is not … That …. and was instead nurtured from smthg small#i wld say im fun n flirty but only when there are no real feelings on the line otherwise i am TERRIBLE at expressing that lolz#so i think these quiet hours reserved just for us are so delicate n special becus#mayb there IS no need to hide n tht is what makes these moments so intrinsically intimate to meeee !#but i think the Years long span going from akademiya era rivals -> friends -> post-aq lovers is what makes it so perservering#growing strong enough tht the roots have crawled n curled n dug its way into every corner of our hearts ♡#this was ridiculously soft *throws up* bye#illustrated by mozzachiz on twitter ♡
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waow
#before anything else i must warn this is going to be. unorganized thoughts mostly#in the last year or so ive tried to regain confidence that i am in fact plural and am not just faking it#or mistaking other symptoms for DID. shake off the denial y'know. as is so signature for this damn disorder#a diagnosis probably wouldnt even make me feel more sure lol. and also getting diagnosed for this specifically is like#the final boss of psychiatry to put it lightly lol#but when it quiets down in headspace ur always gonna feel like. maybe its over. whatever that was#it was just me and brandy for a while#but guess who had a godawful night and then a godawful morning and split a new alter ‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥#he hates it here! he might hate me for creating him! im not sure !#hell im not even rly sure if im juno or brandy rn lol. my mind is just so messy today#i woke up.. when did i wake up. like 9:30 i think and its 1pm now and i haven't gotten out of bed#i don't even remember all that time passing . i couldve sworn its only been like an hour. two at most#on the one hand this has all been kinda terrible and mentally exhausting but at the same time. hey cant say im faking now LMAO#the other hand is brandy. the other hand is absolutely brandy. i am tired lol#im only posting this here so i can just like. process it i guess#ive had a weird time finding an outlet to just spew random thoughts into since leaving twitter so. sorry#idk if anyone's expecting this of me but i always kinda feel like i need some level of professionalism on this account#keyword some. i know this is tumblr#but idk if these very open posts are. annoying? weird? uncomfortable? entertaining somehow?#i know I know theres no point in worrying abt how others percieve you . knowing that hasnt stopped me from doing it lol#i dont remember where i was going w this. maybe i didnt have a goal in the first place#idk if you read this far i dont rly need u to act like u didnt see it cuz like. wouldnt have posted it otherwise#but idk why i am posting. idk what i want out of anyone who has read all this#maybe just. interact w this post in some way idk. it's actually kinda grounding for me if you can believe it#bleghh im thinkin of cheating on my weed break just to treat myself after all this. weed + a long walk would fix me
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Today marks the one year anniversary of one of my favorite fics: Like Sand Between your Fingers by @eternalmomentss !!
What’s more romantic than traveling through time and space with your rival? No idea
Here’s a close up of their faces
This fic has rearranged my few brain cells in the best way possible (I want to go crazy over it, but maybe another day..) Anyways, this is a redraw of a drawing I made celebrating its finale!! (Before I actually had a proper blog lol) I hope you can notice improvement-
#actually the only reason I ever got tumblr was to share my drawing with her#otherwise I think I would’ve just joined twitter#anyways this fic is awesome and it makes me go insane just think about it#I took a lot more creative liberties eternal I hope you still like it lol#idk where you are rn but I hope that you’re having the best timeszone ever hehe#I love your fic and I hope you know that it and your reply’s to my crazy comments seriously made my days#YOURE THE BEST EVER#goro akechi#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#shuake#akeshu#persona 5#v’s art
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I was just thinking about how Barou would be a brat tamer.
First of all, he likes being the best and the one in control at all times which extends to his relationships. He is "The King" after all. He has no time to deal with your attitude, he is on a schedule and you will not disrupt that. However, if you do end up disrupting him? You're in for it. You leave your stuff lying all around the house he spent his Sunday cleaning? Oh you're really in for it. You question his authority or the way he does things, especially in front of people? Bye, you're in so much trouble. He likes submission, praise that he is the best at everything he does, and most of all, he wants everything to be done a certain way. He's not one to skimp on your punishments and he does not give a lot of slack to your leash (metaphorical or literal). You may get a warning from him. Maybe. Just one. However, sometimes you don't even get that before he's correcting your behavior.
His favorite method of punishment is a good, classic spanking. It's effective and he's quite strong, his hand leaving angry red prints and sometimes even welts. He'll bend you over his knee and make you count each harsh slap to your skin. If you really did something against the rules he sets for you, he'll spread your legs roughly after your spanking and give one firm smack to your cunt just to punctuate his point. That always gets the scream and whimper combination he loves to hear when he's punishing you. Depending on what you did to warrant punishment could also affect the method. For example, you were mouthy to him today, talking back to him in front of his teammates. Absolutely not. For that discretion, he took you back into the locker room and fucked your throat raw, using it as his personal little fleshlight and fucking it until he spilled himself into your mouth. You waited, mouth open showing him, allowing him to spit into your open, cum filled mouth, before swallowing only when Barou gave his permission. He never punishes you by fucking your cunt--to him, that's a reward no matter what and if you were being a brat, you definitely don't deserve that. However, using your body for pleasure only he receives? That constitutes a punishment.
#I also think if you’re not a brat that he’s gentle because he’s scared he’ll break you otherwise#and he treats you like a delicate little princess#until you beg otherwise#but he has no preference between good girls and brats#he just handles them differently#for the record#I do NOT simp Barou#I just keep having ideas involving him#and twitter keeps showing me the hottest fanart of him with his hair down#and he's huge#and we aren't going to talk about it#he's number one on the denial list#babybird.bluelock#barou x reader#bluelock smut#bllk barou#barou shouei#barou shoei x reader#bluelock x reader#barou smut
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As a Jensen fan I fucking love JIB, I know it can be the wankiest of cons and the person who runs it is a total shit but it's also the only con where Jensen gets solo panels, or panels with Rob or Richard and it's all mixed up and we get to see a bit more of their friendships on stage. Misha fans don't know how lucky they are, every single Creation con he gets solo panels all to himself, where he can talk and not have the extra tall one annoy everyone. You can watch his panels and not have to think about editing the other person out. We only get that at JIB! Once a year! I'd love it if we could get that else where, but right now it's JIB or nothing, so yeah excuse me for not joining in the JIB is meh this year opinions, I am revelling in all the new Jensen content and news about what he's doing next.
#jensen ackles#bitter jensen girl blogging#jibcon 2024#oh and there was buzz actually all about jensen at least#he was trending on twitter and there's loads of excitement about his news#like i get misha wasn't here this year so it didn't have cockles but it's disrepectful to say the whole weekend was meh or pointless#just because misha wasn't there#like the rest of the cast don't matter#do we go around saying cons with no jensen are meh or pointless? we don't say that about cons misha goes to without jensen#the whole world doesn't revolve around misha and things can still be fun without him#saying otherwise is basically being like a jared stan#they used to say the exact same thing#that anything without jared which often involved jensen was worthless without jared there#so like maybe don't be like them?
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augh . this show
#i have a tendency to get REALLY attached to one character from every show I'm interested in#to the point where my perspective of the show is kinda warped by their views#like if they hate a character i'll hate the character that kind of thing#and this is fun most of the time. a pleasant enough experience#certainly an interesting way to go abt it lol#but this time#I got attached to Peri#so what comes with that is. I like Hazel. I like Cosmo and Wanda a lot. And I also like DEV a lot#(he's also just a great character so far in general)#and I've come to really like where i THOUGHT Peri and Dev's dynamic was going#but some of the staff on twitter are saying some Mysterious things#and implying that Dev's just gonna be Proper Evil for a while. even beyond the series finale#and it's really throwing me off guard#like if he's gonna be evil then I feel like he and Peri are just gonna hate each other? but i like the idea of them getting along#so now it's just. twisting my mind in different directions#i don't think i'll ever HATE Dev even if Peri does. He's a very interesting and compelling character#but still#anyway if they really do end up making Dev a longstanding villain i just??? i don't think that's the best choice for the series#especially considering it's a KIDS CARTOON#saying ''this kid is mean but he has the potential to be good :)#unfortunately he won't be. he's evil now!''#like huh. what kind of message is that for kids#i hope this is just them tricking us lol. intentionally misguiding us#bc otherwise... mmh... idk
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hi 👋
#rambling#hi 👋#i know its been a while since i've posted#but i still lurk on here regularly :p#i dont really care to create content or scroll+rb anymore#but i'll keep in touch through dms if anyone wants to <3 or we can exchange discord info💞#i've become more active on twitter? 🤡🤮 but i still feel more comfy typing long rambles here lmao#theres a lot of ateez stuff if u end up looking at it#i been going through stuff the last few months :p#N E WAYS i've decided that i wanna leave my job in a few months 🙈#and the stress of it made me wanna come back here and use this blog like a diary 🙈🙈#i mean. it feels like it's the right time for me to leave#it's just the anxiety of not knowing >.<#also job huntings the worst 🤮🤮🤮🤮#but im ready for a change ^^#and i wanna be optimistic!! so im manifesting that the whole ordeal goes smoothly and im not unemployed for long!!!🙏#if u read all this. i love u and i hope u have an awesome week!! :) 💖💖💖#also reply with something good that happened to u recently!#celebrating u would help cheer me up rn :')#otherwise. have a good night! see u space cowboy
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ngl ive been thinking abt moving back here and being primarily active here again. the bot followers on twitter are starting to piss me off real bad
#ill still be using twitter ofc its kinda hard to stop using it when its so easy to get news on there rly quickly#but otherwise im thinking abt mainly posting here again... i havent been going on twitter that much lately anyway..........#its just funny how i moved to twitter in like 2018 bc i thought it was nicer to post on and then some rich douchebag took over#now the site is just a huge piece of shit like he is#i know its not much better here but at least i dont have to deal with bots 🙄#whatever. ill fink abt it#i dont have much to post anyway ive been spending most of my free time playing video games. and by video games i mean honkai star rail#if i feel like it ill talk abt my sillies here i suppose. maybe ask me abt things. idk#ask me abt gallagher ill write an essay for you#allyrambles
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