#bitter jensen girl blogging

[jensenknowsdeanbetterthanyou]

As a Jensen fan I fucking love JIB, I know it can be the wankiest of cons and the person who runs it is a total shit but it's also the only con where Jensen gets solo panels, or panels with Rob or Richard and it's all mixed up and we get to see a bit more of their friendships on stage. Misha fans don't know how lucky they are, every single Creation con he gets solo panels all to himself, where he can talk and not have the extra tall one annoy everyone. You can watch his panels and not have to think about editing the other person out. We only get that at JIB! Once a year! I'd love it if we could get that else where, but right now it's JIB or nothing, so yeah excuse me for not joining in the JIB is meh this year opinions, I am revelling in all the new Jensen content and news about what he's doing next.

[lol-jackles]

do you really believe that jared is a better actor than jensen?

specially in the l few seasons?

his name is the first on the call sheet” you guys go around with this like it’s his saving grace , jennifer aniston’s name was the first but if it weren’t for characters like Monica and Chandler no one would have watched that show .

I don’t have anything against jared , but his fans are so bitter and they can’t praise him without belittling jensen,his acting, his looks, his wife, or even his a*s

body shaming him won’t make jared better.

I’m sorry you had a rough time with jensen’s bitter stans , but boy oh boy try seeing jared bitter stans talk about jensen (without engaging) with them , you could physically taste their hate

Jared is a character actor. People like to say character actors are "better actors" than personality actors, however there is a reason why character actors are usually not leads in movies or tv shows because most people actually prefer personality actors, which Jensen is good at. Jared is a character actor trapped in a leading man role.

Jared's first on the call sheet isn't a saving grace, it's facts, and it gets brought up more by Ackles Army than Jared fans. Why? Butthurts, Anon, all butthurts. You got to read this treasure. In the early days of SPN, AAs tried to downplayed first billings ....

AAs 2005: “The only reason why this Jared guy has first billing is because the ‘a’ in Jared comes before the ‘e’ in Jensen.”   

AAs 2007: "Jared only got first billings because he was better known thanks to Gilmore Girls."

AAs 2008: "Jensen is the real star, this credit order business only happened because of their agents, and Jensen's agent was asleep at the wheel."

AAs 2009: "Billing order is of no importance, both Jensen and Jared have top billings."

AAs 2011 through 2017: “Jared has top billings only because the ‘a’ in Jared comes before the ‘e’ in Jensen.”

Newbie fans: "But doesn't Ackles comes before Padalecki in the alphabet?"

AAs: "Shut up Jared stans! Why do you hate Dean so much?!"

AAs 2021: "Dean was originally supposed to die by the end of the 1st season, that's the only reason why Jared's name was first".

The bitter AAs hate that the first billing t hing because it was evidence of Jared’s success at an earlier age than Jensen’s.   The only reason why Jared’s fans bring up his first billing because they know how much it needles and aggravates the AAs who just won't let it go and keep bringing it up, if not more than the Jared girls do.

Jared fans stay in their lane when they're on a bash bender and don’t actively tag actors and their fans their hate. AAs (and Destiel hellers) aggressively and relentlessly tag Jared and his fans their hate. See the difference? AAs, minions, and hellers would go into Jared’s SM to send threats of violence and even death. Jared fans don't return the favor and stay out of actors' SM. Sure they’ll take screenshots to laugh about it in their own TL or blogs and tag it “anti”, but again they’re not sending their hate directly to Jensen. See the difference?

I've never body shamed Jensen what the hell are you talking about?

Whenever Anons tell me that Jared fans are just as bad as AAs and hellers, I always ask for receipts. I'm still waiting for them to pony up the receipts years later. Anon, you could be the first! I'll be right here waiting for your receipts of Jared fans sending public threats of violence and death to Jensen on twitter, intagram, and tick tock. You know your mission, now go!

[laf-outloud]

Adding on to the Season 10 discussion on your blog today…

For most seasons of SPN, Sam is the plot protagonist and Dean is the the emotional beat protagonist. That doesn’t mean Sam never has emotional beats or Dean never has plot points, but that’s often where their stories focus harder.

Halfway through Season 9 this changes. Dean gets the mark, and Dean is the one going after Abadon. Dean is mad at Gadreal (even though part of what happened with him was his own fault). Sam is … not allowed to feel emotions about the first half of the season because he has to deal with Dean, I guess. Also, Dean sidelines him. So, this leaves Sam with nothing to do, but sort of support Cas for an episode. It’s totally off kilter.

I think it’s not only a matter of Dean not being as compelling as the lead protagonist, but those seasons that feature him as the lead almost sideline Sam, whereas seasons where Sam connects to the plot, they still give Dean other stuff to do.

This is a sort of side note, but I also hate late seasons writing for when Sam is the emotional beat protagonist. The writing is cliche and lame. Jared does his best with the material, but the words are not great. He has moments that are absolutely fantastic (talking to his dad in Lebanon, for example), but a lot of what he’s working with is lame. Jensen had better dialogue to work with in early seasons when he had to emote all over the place.

And for Jensen, Jared had better plot to work with in early seasons while he got a lot of warmed over Sam plots, so he wasn’t exactly helped either.

In conclusion, late seasons are not good, overall. Lol.

Welcome to the Bitter Sam Girl's Club! There are so many reasons why the later seasons didn't work, which you've also shared. Main, I think the writers in the later seasons were lazy when it came to figuring out Sam and his journey, and therefore gave their best work to Dean (which wasn't that good).

Also, if you look at the writing crew, the majority were men and Sam was basically female-coded... and people wonder why these men found it so hard to write for him.

(Also agree that Jensen was much better in the earlier seasons before Dean became a caricature.)

[moonlayl]

The Supernatural writers decided that the best way to end Dean Winchester’s story was to kill him. To reduce him to nothing outside of Sam. They decided that killing  a character who has continuously struggled with low-self esteem, sacrificial tendencies, and mental illness was the only way for him to rest. He was killed on an average hunt by a nameless extra monster of the week, and by being pushed to a wall and impaled. Years of development gone; ignored; erased. Hunting was dangerous, and due to Dean’s upbringing and low self esteem, he had accepted that dying an a hunt would be the only way to go. But that was at the beginning. That was when Dean was at his worst. Dean did not want death. Dean wanted life. He wanted to live. The beach, new experiences, a dog, he wanted all of it. And he got it for maybe a second before it was all ripped away. Eighty years, and he finally became free, only to immediately die. Only for his entire characterization to become about Sam and only Sam. His dying scene? Going on and on about how great Sam was. His time in heaven? Spent aimlessly driving, waiting for Sam. He was the most affected by Chuck’s reveal that he was nothing but a puppet all these years. So devastated and broken. And he finally won. They defeated Chuck. He became free. Free to write his own story. And then he died. The writers chose to do that. They choose to write about Free Will, and terrible heaven, and addressing the bad codependency, and then do absolutely nothing about it. They chose to write an ending for him using a very basic surface level of understanding about what kind of character Dean was. Dean Winchester, one of the most beautifully complex fictional characters ever established deserved better than these writers. Jensen Ackles who portrayed Dean for 15 years and was the sole reason that Dean became more than just your average stereotypical cocky, playboy, badass, deserved better than these writers. Better than the message they choose to send. Better than the ending they chose to write. We deserved better.

[someoneoffthestreet]

am I doing it right

[hunenka]

Dean Winchester has been through so much. He's lost family and lost ones. He spent 40 years in Hell. He was running and fighting for his life in Purgatory for a year. He survived apocalypses. He faced gods and demigods, the devil, a Knight of Hell, the Father of Murder, the Mother of All Evil, the Leviathan, and countless other enemies, both supernatural and humans. And he may have come out scarred, but he survived, he won, and he kept fighting.

What a tragedy that after all that, the thing that finally beat him, the one thing he couldn't survive, is Andrew Dabb as a showrunner.

[jawritter]

I can’t believe that here I go, having to make another post.

Before I get started in my rant, just know that it’s not my intent to offend anyone or make anyone upset. That’s not what this blog is for. Not by a long shot. I’m a fiction writer. I’m here to create entertaining content for you guys to enjoy, and it’s not a joy for me by any means to make this post, or have to address this, but here we go. 

HATE TOWARDS JENSEN ACKLES ON MY POST, FICS, OR ANYTHING ELSE ON MY BLOG WILL NOT BE TOLERTATED! DO NOT SEND IT IN A DM, DO NOT SEND IT IN AN ASK. YOU WILL BE BLOCKED, AND IF YOU ARE HATEFUL ENOUGH OR MAKE THREATS TOWARDS HIM YOU WILL BE REPORTED AND BLOCKED!

As I stated earlier, I AM A FICTION WRITER, my content is fiction! It’s made for the enjoyment of my followers that choose to read it. I’m not proprietor of your fandom or social media experience. I don’t have control over what comes across your dash, BUT I do have control over what comes across mine. I will not tolerate body shaming Jensen, I will not tolerate threats of any kind to him or his family. I will not tolerate this weird Jensen/Jared competition that has started as of late. Don’t come on my post with that shit. Don’t come on my blog with that shit. I don’t know how to make it any clearer. 

I write fanfiction in regard to Jensen Ackles and the Characters he portrays, because of that, I sometimes write character adjacent. Meaning you might see Jared, Sam, Misha, Cas, Karl, Butcher, Hughe, Jack, Danneel, etc.in one of my works or even in one of my post. I did not and will not. participate in “prequel gate”. I don’t watch Walker. I don’t know anything about a tattoo that’s supposed to be racist. I don’t want to know. 

It’s okay to have a difference in opinions, I have so many Sam girls, Jared girls, Misha girls on here that I talk to DAYLY, we get on just fine, they’re amazing people, but when you come on one of my post or in my ask for the sole purpose to belittle my followers because of who they stan, (and that goes for anyone), or to make Jensen look bad just because you’re bitter, (and I can tell you’re bitter just by the way you worded that), you will be blocked and reported for harassment. 

I’m sorry to clutter your feed with drama this morning, and I’m sorry I even had to make this post, let’s go about the rest of the day and just enjoy the content? Yeah? 

[nancylou444]

Alright here’s a rant..

I totally get not wanting to watch the prequel. I totally get how it could be tainted for people. How the releases have not sounded great. I’m pretty wishy washy on it myself (just because the story doesn’t really grab me) but I know if there’s a supernatural related show out there I will at least check it out.

I also totally get how people were hurt by Jensen, and they can’t get on board with him. I think the logic is a bit wonky, but to each their own right? I feel like your prequel comments- though sometimes deliciously snarky 😜- are pretty fair. I’m an adult capable of understanding and accepting fair criticisms. I’ve agreed with some, disagreed with others. That’s reality.

I’m tired, however, of these prequel critical debates turning into all out Jensen hate and smear posts. It becomes transparently obvious that THOSE posts aren’t criticisms based on fair judgements, concerns, or questions- but more about hating JA and wanting the show to fail because they just want HIM to fail. I can’t take their “concerns” or “criticisms” seriously anymore because they’re so unhinged. The last post you published had a comment saying Jensen was just forever bitter he wasn’t the main protagonist….. in what world!?!? That Jensen wanted to erase Sam?! Jensen who stood up to hellers for 16 years defending Sam’s importance? He never caved to hellers in order to protect the legacy of the brothers and Sam specifically. Jensen who said SPN was Sam’s story through Dean’s eyes? I get being upset but these are categorically untrue claims.

I���ve followed you for 6 years and never sent an ask. I’m just grateful that blogs like you can be critical but still have love for both of the Winchester brothers and both Ja an Jp.

6 years? That's borderline nancy444/nancylou444 territory. 💖💖💖

Yes, I try to keep the anti Jensen remarks to a bare minimum. That's why when I saw this reply, I block that blog. They have been putting nasty Jensen comments on my posts for a while, but that reply was the last straw.

You want to rant on the prequel, I'm your girl, but Jensen is off limits.

[jensenknowsdeanbetterthanyou]

Cockles hugs are nice ‘n all, but what’s even nicer is just letting Jensen be the friend he is with Misha without harassing him about it. 

He never should be put in that position in the first place. Jensen should never have to prove to anyone how much he likes Misha....period! 

It would also be nice for Jensen to not be the one who always has to do all the emotional labour when it comes to these friendships. No one asks Misha or Jared to prove how much they care about the others, but Jensen? He is asked or challenged by fans all the time! 

[friendly-neighbourhood-librarian]

Fairy Tale Retellings Masterlist

If you spend a lot of time on my blog, you might notice that I really enjoy reading fairy tale retellings! And because I also love organization, here are all the fairy tale books I have read and reviewed, grouped by fairy tale and listed alphabetically. Series name is in brackets — if there’s no number it means the series does not need to be read in a specific order. Under the cut because it’s long...

Update: apparently there is a limit to how many links Tumblr will let me add to one post, so the larger sections will now link out to separate posts.

Aladdin

The Forbidden Wish - Jessica Khoury

The Stolen Kingdom - Bethany Atazadeh (Stolen Kingdom series #1)

A Whole New World - Liz Braswell (Twisted Tales series)

Alice in Wonderland

Heartless - Marissa Meyer

Beauty and the Beast

As Old as Time - Liz Braswell (Twisted Tales series)

Beast: A Tale of Love and Revenge - Lisa Jensen

Beastly - Alex Flinn

The Beast’s Heart - Leife Shallcross

The Beautiful Pretender - Melanie Dickerson (Medieval Fairy Tale series) (+Princess and the Pea)

Bellamy and the Brute - Alicia Michaels

Belle - Cameron Dokey (Once Upon a Time series)

Belle - Sarah Price (Amish Fairytales series)

A Curse So Dark and Lonely - Brigid Kemmerer (Cursebreakers series #1)

Heart's Blood - Juliet Marillier

Human Again - E. L. Tenenbaum (End of Ever After series)

Hunted - Meagan Spooner

Lost in a Book - Jennifer Donnelly

The Merchant’s Daughter - Melanie Dickerson (Hagenheim series)

Of Beast and Beauty - Stacey Jay

Rose Daughter - Robin McKinley

Ogre Enchanted - Gail Carson Levine

The Princess and the Hound - Mette Ivie Harrison

Roses - Rose Mannering

Silken Scales - Alex Hayes (Chameleon Effect series #1)

Uprooted - Naomi Novik

Cinderella

All the Ever Afters - Danielle Teller

The Blood Spell - C. J. Redwine (Ravenspire series)

Cinder - Marissa Meyer (Lunar Chronicles #1)

Ella - Sarah Price (Amish Fairytales series)

Ella Enchanted - Gail Carson Levine

End of Ever After - E. L. Tenenbaum (End of Ever After series)

Geekerella - Ashley Poston (Once Upon a Con series #1)

Godmother - Carolyn Turgeon

Just Ella - Margaret Peterson Haddix

Stepsister - Jennifer Donnelly

Goose Girl

The Goose Girl - Shannon Hale (Books of Bayern series #1)

Thorn - Intisar Khanani (Dauntless Path series #1)

King Arthur

The Camelot Rising series - Kiersten White [1][2][3]

Little Mermaid

Beautiful To Me - E. L. Tenenbaum (End of Ever After series)

The Jinni Key - Bethany Atazadeh (Stolen Kingdom series #2)

Mermaid - Carolyn Turgeon

Part of Your World - Liz Braswell (Twisted Tales series)

Sea Witch - Sarah Henning (Sea Witch series #1)

Sea Witch Rising - Sarah Henning (Sea Witch series #2)

Speechless - Madeline Freeman (Unfortunate Souls series #1)

Stars Above - Marissa Meyer (Lunar Chronicles #4.5)

To Kill a Kingdom - Alexandra Christo

Mulan

Reflection - Elizabeth Lim (Twisted Tales series)

Peter Pan

All Darling Children - Katrina Monroe

Lost Boy - Christina Henry

Tales of the Wendy series - Erin Michelle Sky & Steven Brown

Pied Piper

The Piper’s Pursuit - Melanie Dickerson (Hagenheim series)

Rapunzel

Bitter Greens - Kate Forsyth

Cress - Marissa Meyer (Lunar Chronicles #3)

The Golden Braid - Melanie Dickerson (Hagenheim series)

The Journey series - JacQueline Vaughn Roe (+Other fairy tales)

Red Riding Hood

Scarlet - Marissa Meyer (Lunar Chronicles #2)

Red Shoes

Dark and Deepest Red - Anna-Marie McLemore

Robin Hood

Curse Painter - Jordan Rivet

The Huntress of Thornbeck Forest - Melanie Dickerson (Medieval Fairy Tale series) (+Swan Lake)

Sherwood - Meagan Spooner

Rumpelstiltskin

A Curse Dark as Gold - Elizabeth C. Bunce

Lies of Golden Straw - E. L. Tenenbaum (End of Ever After series)

The Rumpelstiltskin Problem - Vivian Vande Velde

Spinning Silver - Naomi Novik

The Wish Granter - C. J. Redwine (Ravenspire series)

Sleeping Beauty

Briar Rose - Jane Yolen

Once Upon a Dream - Liz Braswell (Twisted Tales series)

Spindle Fire - Lexa Hillyer (Spindle Fire series #1)

Spindle’s End - Robin McKinley

Snow Child

The Snow Child - Eowyn Ivey

Snow Queen

Breadcrumbs - Anne Ursu

Conceal, Don't Feel - Jen Calonita (Twisted Tales series)

Snow White

Boy, Snow, Bird - Helen Oyeyemi

Fairest - Gail Carson Levine

Fairest - Marissa Meyer (Lunar Chronicles #3.5)

Girls Made of Snow and Glass - Melissa Bashardoust

Heart of a Hunter - E. L. Tenenbaum (End of Ever After series)

Poisoned - Jennifer Donnelly

Sadie - Sarah Price (Amish Fairytales series)

The Shadow Queen - C. J. Redwine (Ravenspire series)

Stitching Snow - R. C. Lewis

Winter - Marissa Meyer (Lunar Chronicles #4)

Snow White and Rose Red

Snow & Rose - Emily Winfield Martin

Twelve Dancing Princesses

Entwined - Heather Dixon

The Door in the Hedge - Robin McKinley (+Princess and the Frog)

House of Salt and Sorrows - Erin A. Craig

Wildwood Dancing - Juliet Marillier (+Princess and the Frog)

Other

The Bear and the Nightingale - Katherine Arden (inspired by Russian folklore/fairy tales)

Book of a Thousand Days - Shannon Hale (Maid Maleen - Grimm)

Eurona Duology - Wendy Higgins (The Singing Bone - Grimm)

Girl, Serpent, Thorn - Melissa Bashardoust (inspired by Persian mythology)

Keturah and Lord Death - Martine Leavitt (original fairy tale reminiscent of the Hades and Persephone myth)

The Language of Thorns - Leigh Bardugo (original fairy tales set in the Grishaverse)(Hansel and Gretel; Little Mermaid)

The Two Princesses of Bamarre - Gail Carson Levine (original middle grade fairy tale)

Nonfiction

Once Upon a Time: A Short History of Fairy Tale - Marina Warner

[orionsangel86]

Hey Everyone,

As you have probably noticed, I have neglected this blog for a long time now. I haven’t been on any fandom related social media at all actually. But I figured since I am currently in a good mindset, I want to write a post just outlining some things which basically boils down to a goodbye letter to Supernatural fandom.

Long rambling post below the cut...

This year (and the last) has just taken it out of me in terms of general negativity online both in fandom and in the real world. At first I got tired of fandom (mostly because Twitter is a cesspool of policing and bullying) and then I got tired of everything else (the world sucks right now, and my mental health basically stopped me from being able to participate in any form of online activism – just because I’m not blogging about something, doesn’t mean I don’t support the cause ya know?). Earlier this year, right around the time of the UK lockdowns, I had surgery and a recovery period in which I spent a lot of time with family, and just reacquainted myself with the real world. I think perhaps the coronavirus pandemic made me realise that long before lockdown began I had already been isolating myself from my real life and diving further and further into an online black hole.

It was years in the making. Supernatural fandom preoccupied my thoughts for such a long period of time it got to the point where every moment of my non working time seemed to be spent either online scrolling my tumblr dash or twitter feed, or reading fanfic or doing something fandom related. I invested so much of myself into this show and fandom that I think I forgot who I was before I was a Supernatural fan completely.

After my wake up call in late 2019, which lead me to break free from an extremely nasty clique, I have tried to re-enter fandom on my own terms, as well as attempt to enjoy the source material and the fandom creations to ignite some new spark of love and interest in the show. Yet as much as I have tried, I have failed to do so.

I was thinking recently about someone I used to follow years ago before I ever created a blog. When I was still just lurking in the tumblr shadows and followed the likes of Mittens, Lizbob, and other meta writers of the period, there was a blogger whose name I can’t remember but she was the funniest blogger I had come across. But when the show killed off Charlie Bradbury, she quit. I had never even interacted with her, as I was barely getting my blog started at the time, but I’ll never forget a post she wrote about her feelings on the show. She had recently started watching something else (I think it was Sense8 but can’t recall entirely), and that this new show had given her everything she had never thought she could have from her fave before. She wrote about how her relationship with Supernatural had become abusive. That for years the writers of Supernatural continued to throw punches at fans like her – women, LGBTQ+ people, people of colour, and yet she continued to give it all her time and attention, brushing off the punches because she was so damn devoted to the characters. Then this new show had come along, and it was like she had seen the light. The killing of Charlie Bradbury was the last straw, and she dumped Supernatural’s ass and fled into the arms of her new love.

I hope she is doing fantastically today.

What she wrote has resonated with me for years. I was a fairly new Supernatural fan at the time, and therefore didn’t really understand what she meant. A TV show can’t be abusive. Can it?

Of course, we are speaking in metaphor here, and in no way are these metaphors meant to reduce or limit the truly serious situation of actual abusive relationships, but every now and then, when a new episode of Supernatural has left me feeling upset, disappointed, frustrated and grossly let down, in some cases affecting my mood for days at a time, and therefore my mental health. I have thought back to those words she wrote and quietly agreed with them in my head. Yes. This is a metaphorically abusive relationship.

When I discovered earlier this year that Castiel was most likely going to be killed off in some sort of bullshit self sacrifice before the end of the show, I was extremely distressed. When I found out that my favourite person of all time Misha Collins, supported this ending for Castiel, and may have even been the one who pushed for it, I was more than distressed, I felt betrayed by the person I cared about most. I’ll admit to you all now that in my weakest moments I have fantasized about standing in front of Misha and screaming at him exactly just what kind of affect his “ideal ending” for Castiel will have on his fanbase, on their mental health, and potentially their own safety. This fantasy has me guilt tripping him and doing everything in my power to make him feel utterly shit about the decision. I know what you are thinking – don’t blame Misha, the guy has his own problems and we all know he projects his own self esteem issues onto Cas – and yes, I know this, like I said its only a fantasy to get me through my darkest moments. I don’t hate Misha at all. But perhaps I do love him a little less nowadays than I did back at the height of my fandom life. That’s at least still a little bit more than my feelings for Jensen and Jared which now I can only describe as complete indifference.

I am admitting all of this now knowing full well it will ignite shock and anger among the more die hard fans of J2M, to explain why I need to just leave this fandom completely, or more accurately, why I have already left fandom.

Over the past 10 months of 2020, I have watched a lot of TV (there isn’t much else to do during a lockdown when you are on crutches with your foot in a cast!) and the one thought that occurred to me over and over again was “this show is so much better than Supernatural”.

I kept comparing everything I watched, from the quality of the scripts, the actors, the special effects, to the inclusiveness of the shows. Just so many beautiful and interesting stories that seem to understand their audience, and understand how to entertain and impress without resorting to cringe humour, outdated jokes, and prejudice, not to mention misogyny and queerbaiting – yup, I said it.

The thing is, I think these thoughts have been creeping over me slowly for longer than just this year, but I have been desperately batting them away the way Dean Winchester bats away his own gay thoughts. Unlike Dean though, eventually I couldn’t ignore them anymore. I cannot continue to carve out space in my own soul for this show, which incessantly beats me down regardless of my devotion. The creators, the network, the writers, and sometimes even the cast, have all shown that they don’t care about me as a fan. I’m not some gun toting dudebro living in middle America, so why should they give a damn about me? I’m clearly not their target audience, nor have I ever been.

I know many of you will vehemently deny my personal opinion of Supernatural now. That is absolutely fine. I am sorry to be admitting it, but I had to. I feel like once I finally write out these words, I have got it off my chest and can close and lock the door on Supernatural for good.

Without Supernatural, I am able to focus on my real life, I am able to find pleasure in other things, new things, interesting things, that bring me joy and joy alone – not disappointment and frustration. I found a new job this year, which has been a huge accomplishment as I was stagnating in my old one, and several new hobbies under my belt. I moved to a new flat, I have a lovely flatmate who has been a godsend throughout lockdown, and I have rekindled friendships that I was neglecting due to my Supernatural obsession.

All in all, I am finding post-Supernatural life far more rewarding and content than my life in fandom. It has taken me a while, but I am over the show. And whilst I will always hold a special place in my heart for Castiel, it will be as I know him in my own mind; as the wonderful, strong, powerful and determined angel with a soul, who loves so strongly, and who is worth so much more than his own creators give him credit for. He is up there with Aziraphale and Crowley, with The Doctor, and Buffy, as one of the greatest characters of all time.  

So the Supernatural writers and creators can take whatever ending they have decided upon, and shove it up their asses. I am sorry to say that Sam and Dean Winchester are also lost to me. Any love I had for them was destroyed by their later season depictions. Castiel alone is the only character worthy of that space in my heart now. If in time he longs for a companion, I will find one for him, but it won’t be the Dean Winchester of the canon show. Canon Dean hasn’t been deserving of Cas for a long time now.

Perhaps I am still a little bitter about the ending. Perhaps the finale won’t be the disaster I expect it to be, perhaps Dabb will somehow turn it all around last minute following whatever travesty Bucklemming have given us in 15x19. Either way, I won’t be watching.

So this is me saying goodbye to this blog, at least until I have decided what else to do with it. It certainly won’t be a Supernatural fandom blog anymore. It wasn’t all wasted though. I did get a wonderful friendship group out of this fandom, and I have certainly expanded my knowledge of film and television analysis, as well as having enjoyed a great many memes.

I guess in the end, my internal war with my inner bitter Cas girl finished with her winning, and writing this post. Once it is posted however, I will put her to sleep with thoughts of a happy Castiel, who has swapped his wings for a beating human heart, and is living on a beach somewhere beautiful, refurbishing an old Victorian house, and greeting his kindly elderly neighbours. There’s a gay bar on the main strip, and the bartender is quite a dish. Green eyes and light brown hair with a killer smile. Castiel thinks he looks familiar, like a memory from a past life, but they’ve definitely never met, because this man is kind.

Now that she is asleep, there is nothing left for me here. Goodbye everyone. Whether you manage to enjoy the finale or not, I truly hope you too, find your peace.

[postmodernmulticoloredcloak]

Even when I don't always agree with it, I always love your meta, and as one of those Dean girls who hated the Dabb era as it was airing, I am LOVING your more recent posts. Thank you so much for always sharing your thoughts with us.

Thank you ^-^

The finale was obviously a big snap out of the approach I had with the show, and I guess now I have the detachment to see things with more clarity. While I hope I never was “positivity police” (not that I agree with the anti-meta waves that occurred a few times over the last few years obviously) I generally... wanted to like the show. I loved the show so I wanted to keep liking it, especially considering that it was going to end and I didn’t want to dislike the show at his conclusive arcs. I wanted to have fun and be positive throughtout all of it!

So I always gave it the benefit of the doubt. Yes it looks bad but it’s actually just kind of written wonkily, and the concept is actually good because if you consider this and that, then this means this and this means that, so it’s good! But then I realized that the “good” was... well, not in my mind, but possibly in the writing of some of the writers, possibly in things the show established in previous seasons, or simply in Jensen’s acting.

That doesn’t mean I deluded myself into looking at things through rose-tinted lenses, at least I wouldn’t call it that, I’d just naturally focus on the positive.

I always followed some “bitter Dean girls” blogs even if a lot of times I didn’t really agree with their posts (maybe yours?). It wasn’t really disagreement, but more like... “yeeah, you’re not reeally wrong, but you’re kinda looking at it from the perspective of focusing on the negative, if you considered this and that then it’s not so bad”. But I still liked having those perspectives on my dash, for some reason.

Actually the main reason I kept those blogs was that occasionally (like once a year or so lol) we’d have the Dean Is Being An Ass phase where everyone would jump on him except for the Dean fans, and it was reassuring to see I wasn’t the only one who didn’t think Dean was being an ass and deserved All The Chastisement. If you look back at my blog (I mean, if you hypothetically were to do it, there’s just almost 80k posts on my blog so don’t do it lmao) you’ll find almost no reblogs from the hardcore Dean fans until there was a Dean Is Being An Ass phase and then I’d reblog a bunch of posts from them XD

So... yeah. Dean Girl Solidarity 💚

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The state of fandom, J2 things & me being done with shitty people!

So, I’m late to the party however 2021 is finally here. To date not an improvement on 2020 but the year is still young and there are always positives to be found for those who care to see them. Even though Supernatural is over now *muffled sobs* some out there still can't get over their issues with the show or the finalé enough to stop constantly bitching about it. Everyone has their opinion, I'm not 100% happy with it myself but we got so much good stuff that the ending was fitting and mostly positive. I firmly believe that Dean did deserve better, though I was as prepared for his death as much as I could be because it was what I anticipated would happen, though hoped it wouldn’t actually happen. It doesn't make it any less heartbreaking or mean that I don't wish he'd got more time with Sam and Miracle, it just means that I've accepted what we got which ultimately was Sam and Dean together forever, and that's what I wanted above anything else. Almost two months after the show has ended I'm seeing the same things time and time again, some from seasons ago...like six or seven seasons ago! SMH.  I've never actually had my say on it publicly because I chose to step away to process it all. Now I'm bored of the same things being said ad nauseam so I'm laying out my thoughts on the situation as a whole and then getting on with my fandom life.

I have always been - and will always be - a Jensen/Dean girl, however I also adore Jared/Sam and have no interest in seeing any BS about either of them. Why people feel the need to put one down to make 'their' J look 'better', I will never know. Why people question J2's friendship and say it's not going to be solid after the show is also beyond me. It'll certainly be different because they won't be physically spending the time together like they did, but the core relationship is still there, that doesn't just go away because they're not on set together. They're both moving on to other things which is hard to see, but also great as well because they will have new audiences and new showcases for their talents. New doors will be opened and they can explore their passion projects with what lessons they learned on SPN. They gave us so much for fifteen years, the least the fandom can do is let them move on to those new things in peace, right? Let the drama and infighting stay in the past. None of us will ever forget SPN, least of all J2, so anyone who actually cares about the actors and not just characters, IMO, should to continue to support them...but if people don't want to do that? That's fine, nobody is forcing us to watch everything they do from now on. Liking Sam and Dean is enough, not everyone is interested in what J2 or other cast members do from here on out but for the love of everything you hold dear, STFU and move on with your bitching. I'm not saying I'll watch everything they're involved in but I'll support J2 with everything I have regardless of whether I watch whatever it is, because I do care. That also goes for my other favourites from the cast. Support comes in many forms - a simple reblog, retweet or liking an IG post is all support and the minimum those of us who spend a lot of time on social media can do, it's a few taps on the screen or clicks of a mouse. We should also never forget that J2's biggest supporters are J2 themselves, no matter what. They are under no obligation to like each other's posts or publicly support everything the other does - yes, it's nice to see that, however, there is more to life than social media. None of us know how much J2 and the other cast communicate with each other privately. They let us into their lives for a decade and a half, they openly talked about their friendship, their families, and their own children. I know more about J2's kids than I do about any of my colleagues’ kids and grandkids, not because I want to (it's none of my business) but because they've put it out there so it's impossible to avoid. They’re actors, they didn’t have to do that but they chose to because they’re wonderful humans and know that the majority of the SPN Family are good people.

Everywhere I turn ATM there are more and more Jared articles and pictures because of Walker and Mantra Labs, and you know what? Even though I'm a Jensen girl I'm genuinely happy for Jared, and am looking forward to Walker and everything that will bring him. Am I bitter that there's been so little Jensen content? No. Disappointed? Yeah, a little, but that's because I always want Jensen content, why wouldn't I? He's amazing, and his time in the spotlight will come but for now its Jared's turn and I'm proud of how well he's doing, all the attention for Walker and other things going on in his life, like the Men's Health article. He looks so happy and excited to work on new things.

From a Jensen PoV I'm thrilled we've had the - too short but still lovely - snow covered snippets, and we've got all of the filming and BTS stuff to come from The Boys S3, then all the build up to it airing as well as when we finally get to see it. It's going to be a very long wait (and JFC does it already feel like a long wait!), but it will be worth it.

I said last year that 2021 would see changes here in terms of who I follow, what content I post etc and you'll start to see that. I will unfollow anyone who repeatedly posts negative and/or derogatory comments about either J, or any cast member I care about. I don't like seeing shit about those I have no interest in, either, but I make use of filters so I don't see very much anyway. Twitter continues to be a cesspool of hate and toxicity, it's never going to change but the mute/block functions are there to be used. It's never possible to only see positive things in life, but I certainly intend to do my part to make my online fandom experience as positive as possible. I know lots of you here do the same thing, so that's already a bonus! Other fandoms will be on my blog as well as SPN and I always tag so feel free to filter those out, or if you're only interested in my SPN posts and/or fics, hit that unfollow button here if that's what you feel you want to do, and subscribe on AO3 instead if you only want fic. It's all good, do whatever you need to do to tailor your experience to your specifications. Fandom spaces should be somewhere we enjoy being otherwise there's just no point.

OK, I think I'm done! 😆 Happy new year and I hope everyone is keeping themselves and other people safe and healthy.

[touchstarvedsam]

As I read through your blog, I wonder is it possible to love both Sam/Jared and Dean/Jensen pretty equally? I wouldn’t call myself a “Stan” of either, but of both, however, I’m not a tin hat, I enjoy reading Wincest and J2 fics (that’s a recent development but it has to be way, way WAY au) and cheer for them and their families when they share something with us. I would never pour hate on one or the other because I love them both and can’t conceive of being that way to someone they each love. I don’t understand people who do. I’ve watched SPN since the first episode and I love the finale even as much as it hurt.

I’m going to love the hell out of Walker and of Soldier Boy, I’m glad they’re moving on, but I’m also looking forward to the day when Sam and Dean come back to us.

I’m weird. Maybe it’s my age. Nice blog 😁 I quite enjoy scrolling through.

It is absolutely possible to love both! I think they’re called bibros/bronlies, but supposedly the bibros/bronlies don’t ship wincest, they just love the platonic relationship between the brothers, which is the core of the show. I consider myself a Sam/Jared girl, but I also love Dean/Jensen. I’ve been known to be critical of Dean sometimes because I do wish he’d own up to some of the bullshit he does, but I don’t love him any less. I love the character, I love his actor, and I have never had any problems with Jensen whatsoever. The man is actually an angel. He’s just good at playing the characters he plays.

It should honestly be impossible to love one and not like the other because of how important to each other Jared and Jensen are. They are literally best friends, their wives are (or were, I don’t know at this point) best friends, their kids are all friends/protective of each other. Jensen’s kids say Uncle Jared and Aunt Gen (JJ used to call Gen “Aunt Mommy” not sure about now? T_T) and Jared’s kids do the same for Jensen and Danneel. There was one con where Thomas wouldn’t stop crying until Uncle Jensen picked him up. :/ So the Padaleckis and Ackles are so ingrained within each other that they’re going to be a part of each other for the rest of their lives, despite what bitter fans think. :)

I totally feel you on that. I love reading J2 fics, but I can’t comfortably read non-AU fics, especially if they’re involving cons and real life instances. Because I’m not a t*nhat, I don’t feel comfortable reading those. I love my monster AUs, my high school/college AUs, A/B/O, tentacle monster!Jensen, werecat/werewolf/werefox!AU. God, I just love AUs.

I also love their families. I’ve had a major crush on Genevieve for such a long time. Her and Jared are literally just so freaking cute together, I want to cry sometimes. Jared and Gen are two of the sweetest people, and they’re so good for each other. They love each other so much. I can’t stand seeing people hating on Gen (or Danneel!) just because they don’t think they’re good enough. This fandom is disturbingly misogynistic and toxic and sometimes I wish I could just leave, but it’s not that easy. I’ve been in this fandom for too long now to just pack up and go.

I’m super excited for Walker, and I’m super proud of Jensen and I wish I could watch The Boys, but that show really isn’t my kind of show. I love Jensen but I can’t make myself watch something I know won’t really interest me, or might make me uncomfortable. Maybe sometime I’ll give it a shot, but. T_T

Sam and Dean will always own my heart. <3

I’m so glad you like my blog though! I say/post a lot of dumb shit, but I try to be inviting and nice? I rant a little too much when I’m set off by three specific sets of fans and lose followers for that sometimes, but I won’t stand for hate on Jared, Jensen, or their wives, so those followers are a loss I’m willing to accept if they have a problem with it.

[waywardnerd67]

TFWB - Chap 13 Unexpected Visitor

Summary: (Y/N) shows up at Misha’s studio after hours needing some help. Characters: Misha Collins, Reader Pairing: No Pairing Warnings: Fluff Word Count: 1025 Squared Filled: Healer A/N #1: This is for @spnfluffbingo card

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Sorry (Y/N), I’m on a date with Jared tonight. I will check in with you tomorrow.

I wish I could pretty girl but I’m out of town in a dreadfully boring meeting.

I’ll be at the library all night studying :(

(Y/N) had sent out a message to hang out to everyone, but everyone was busy with something. The last few months, she had been slipping further and further down a dark path within her mind. Everyone’s lives seemed to be taking off while hers was stagnant. Tonight, the darkness consumed her.

She was halfway through a bottle of whiskey when decided to call a cab and head to Misha’s studio. He was the only one to not respond to her text. When they pulled up in front of his place it was dark and she could feel tears threatening to fall. She paid the cabbie and waited until he was out of sight before she sat down in front of the door. It was nearly an hour later when Misha found her clutching an empty bottle.

“(Y/N)? What happened?” His blue eyes were filled with concern as he helped her stand up.

“I texted, but you no answer. Decided to just wait.” She giggled as her words mushed together.

Misha chuckled as he helped her into his studio. She stumbled over to the large LoveSac flopping down onto it. It felt as squishy as her words were sounding and that made her giggle more. Then the bitter aroma of coffee filled her nose. She rolled over to see Misha standing above her holding a mug in his hands.

“Gimme.” She wiggled her fingers out towards him.

“Not until you sit up so I know you won’t spill this all over yourself.”

(Y/N) slid off the cushion onto the hard floor with a little bounce, “Ta-Da!”

Misha sat cross legged across from her and handed her the mug. The dark liquid warmed her chest and body as she sipped it. The bitterness bringing back all the unwanted feelings the whiskey had washed away. Her giggles soon died away and she stared into the dark abyss in the cup.

“You wanna talk about it?”

She looked up tears blurring her vision of Misha as he patiently waited for her to speak.

“It’s this time of year. Cold weather setting in, holidays coming up. There is just this deep seeded darkness that always swells up within me. Normally, when it gets bad I send a text to everyone to hang out and usually there’s at least someone to be with. Tonight…”

“Everyone had their own thing going on.” Misha stated, scooting closer to her.

She nodded, “I just let the darkness consume me which led to the whiskey and then to your doorstep. I-I’m sorry Mish.”

He slid his arm around her shoulders and pulled her into his side, “You never have to apologize for feeling your feelings around me. I only wish I would have checked my phone earlier. Come on, I think I have just what you need to get it all out.”

He helped her off the ground and over to an easel, “Mish, you know I don’t paint.”

“Bull. Everyone can paint. Art is not about being right or wrong. Art is about expressing whatever is in your soul or on your mind. It’s to release the feelings that are caged in. Now, here some colors for you to start with and a blank canvas.”

Misha placed a large canvas in front of her and a variety of colors on a board. He handed her a brush and then set himself up right next to her.

“We will break this down into three sections. To the right will be happy. To the left will be sad. Then the bottom we’ll leave blank for now. Now, throw some paint onto the sad side.”

She watched as Misha took a dark purple and painted a streak on the left side of his canvas. Then he took some blue and made wavy lines with it. There was no rhythm or reason to his method. (Y/N) looked to her own canvas and took some of the dark blue streaking across it. Then she decided to take some red to blend it with her blue making a royal purple color. The more she dabbed, streaked, twirled colors on the canvas the more free she felt.

“Amazing! Now, close your eyes. Let all those feelings go. Take a deep breath in.” She did exactly as he said, “Then let it out. Now think of what makes you happy. Maybe it’s a color or an object or even a person.”

Immediately Jensen flashed before her eyes and a small smile spread across her face. She picked up her brush and let the happiness she felt out on the canvas. Shades of olive, streaks of forest green and spots of emerald covered every inch of the right side of her canvas. Biting her lip (Y/N) looked nervously over to Misha whose canvas was filled with rich browns and warm yellows. He too looked slightly nervous over to her.

“Well, I think we are both holding on to secrets that make us happy.” He chuckled then he took a pencil sketching the back of a female’s hair, “Now I will show you how to paint your hair so you can look back on this moment to remember to let go of your sadness and remember your happiness.”

Once their pictures were done, (Y/N) stood beside Misha resting her head against his shoulder, “Thank you Mish. You’re truly an amazing person.”

“You’re welcome, but next time just come over and leave the whiskey behind.” He laughed.

***

(Y/N) looked up from the snapshot Misha had taken of them that night with their pictures to the painting hanging in her office. All the paintings she had done since with Misha this one was still her favorite one. Any time she was upset, she would come into her office and stare at it remembering what he told her that night.

Let go of your sadness and remember your happiness.

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THIS ☝ I AGREE #sorrynotsorry 😞

remember when jensen said he’d love to film a scene where dean gets to confront john for stealing his childhood and now they finally brought john back and it didn’t happen