#but life has been so suffocating

[starsofang]

vent in tags pls ignore i have no outlet

[canisalbus]

To me, Machete kind of has the energy of a secondary villain/coldhearted side character in someone else's story that a lot of fans latch onto, moreso than the protagonist. Question is, would he be the villain in anyone's story?

Why, thank you! I'm actually glad to hear he gives off that vibe. I don't think he set out to become a villain but a lot of people certainly view him as one.

[bunnihearted]

legitimately wanna die bc i keep checking his blog and thinking obsessively about him and then i get pangs in my chest as i realize that he doesnt care abt me bc he has someone else again so he doesnt think of me and im sitting here going crazy bc i want him so bad but he doesnt want me he wants someone else 🥴

[moeblob]

sobbing at every heart event ...

[flitterywings]

I can’t believe I’ve lost two years of my twenties to health problems and disability. it’s still baffling me that I’m not anywhere close to recovering

[mediumsizedpidegon]

Imagine: you are Idril and you hate your cousin viscerally and this hate is later justified in every way possible. He is a monster and a traitor and as unlike your belovéd aunt as possible. And he dies, and he does not come to the Halls of Mandos and does not reembody. Perhaps you are horrible for thinking this: but you are glad. You are glad he is gone and unable to return. He was a nightmare who crawled into your stainless city and tore it down when it was least expected. He made your father love him, and then he betrayed him, and you will never forgive nor forget it. Now there is no way he can hurt you, your husband, your son, your people– and there is no one he can betray.

and then your aunt reembodies.

Your aunt reembodies and yes, she died for that monster, but she was blameless for she was forced to marry evil and birth evil and love evil. But now she's reborn without those cobwebs of enchantment and you are prepared for her grief and rage over having been controlled. She will not be the same. But she will be back, at long last.

Except. she comes back and none of these things happen.

She doesn't care that her son is evil and treacherous, more his father's son than hers. She doesn't care. She grieves for your city and in the next breath she wishes for her son's return. So you love your aunt and your aunt loves the creature of your nightmares– the betrayer that nearly killed your son and brought your home to ruin. So you love your aunt but she does not listen when you tell her to let her son go because she never saw–

and so your aunt leaves. and it feels like betrayal. like your cousin ruining your family further from beyond the grave.

she still visits, but no one in the family knows where she lives. She is strange– both the steely eyed aunt you remember and yet sometimes she looks like she has never seen you before. you try to break the enchantment that she must be under to keep looking for your Marred cousin, but there is nothing for you to find. all your trying does is send her into a rage the likes you have only seen once before: when she dragged your father away from following your mother in death for your sake.

you love your aunt, and most days, you are sure your aunt loves you.

but you cannot understand her, and in this you have lost her as surely as when she died.

[coldflasher]

the flash should have ended with barry quitting his job at ccpd to become a stay-at-home husband and that's on that

[heybaetae]

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[pepprs]

hi im going to leave chicago in a few hours. i don’t want to come home

[antleredoctopus]

Can we get some Kledinger angst whehhehehehe, if you don't mind?

ok buckle up buckaroos I got a few ideas in my head

1) Kled's first Progress Day in Piltover, with Heimer bubbling with excitement to share all the festivities with his partner as they stroll through the crowded streets. (Skaarl is freaked out by the fireworks going off, so she's left at home with Porofessor.) While Heimer is enthusiastically rambling, Kled feels unusually tense as they make their way through the crowded streets and keeps a tight grip on the professor's hand. At some point Heimer leaves Kled in the heart of the festival to fetch something for them, promising to return shortly. Left there, Kled's senses start to go haywire with the bangs of the inventions, the clanking of metal, the sudden screams of joy, as it starts to feel like he's somewhere different. Heart rate rises, his ears and eyes swiveling, and the tension builds in his body... Until someone accidentally bumps him from behind and everything goes very south very quickly.

2) I'm not sure of all the specifics, but Kled is going into a battle where Heimer knows that Singed's work is going to be used (having visited the destroyed Wuju village and recognized the chemicals). He begs for Kled to not go, that the weapons are different from what the cavalier has dealt with before. But Kled is stubborn, and he believes he's lived through worse odds. So Heimer is left with the dilemma: should he stand back for his partner (and others) to suffer an awful excruciating fate, or should he get involved… breaking his vow of his work being used for war, and also potentially breaking Kled's trust in him?

3) Also had this idea of Mel interacting with Kled, and she absolutely hates him for how Noxian he is and therefore reminds her too much of her mom. Kled's got no idea why she hates him so much or that she's really Noxian, but he returns the vitriol in their encounters. Anyway, at some point Kled confronts Mel about… uh, honestly haven't figured out what, but Heimer's involved. He has his axe to her, ready to fight. But Mel keeps a cool head and uses her words, asking what this would accomplish and mentioning how Heimer has already been hurting in his reputation from trying to defend Kled in his screw ups. "All you Noxians can be bothered with is taking. So tell me: How much more do you plan to take from him before it's enough?"

[thebleedingeffect]

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[orcelito]

I was so very good and finished my taxes and paid some things so I could reassure myself that I can put in my 2 weeks notice even tho I don't have a job lined up yet (I'm Working on it...)

I dont imagine it'll take me long to find Some kind of job, though it likely won't pay as much as I'm used to. But. So long as I have Something, I'll get by.

What matters most right now is getting out of this stupid fucking job bc it has been Killing Me.

[hauntingblue]

LUFFY PLEAE GEAR SECONDO AND JUMP OVER GARP PLEASE

[vaugarde]

Finished Rubyfruit Jungle like a week ago, which I was studying for class, and ngl... I tried very hard to view the book as a product of its time, where things that are considered poor taste today probably weren't viewed that way back then, but most of the time I kinda just got a "I'm not like THOSE lesbians" vibe from it

[magnoliamyrrh]

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[ozlices]

we can't get our meds until tomorrow now. literally just wanna jump out our window at this point like we have constant shit weighing on us as it is already & STILL get MORE shit constantly piled on literally what the fuck is it gonna take for us to be granted a goddamn break. we are stretched so fucking thin we have meltdowns & instant spirals over the tiniest, most insignificant thing. we are NOT okay in the slightest & the most unstable we've probably ever been & STILL keep getting pushed like. we're trying so hard not to become bitter but it's rly fucking hard not to. this year has been so fucking absurdly ruthless & merciless we have been ripped to shreds so many times this year alone we've lost count. when the fuck is this endless fucked up loop going to give & let us fucking GO.