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uh-oh Who gave Hyde a scythe?!
Do not fear, the sickles aren't gone! I just wanted to draw him with a big ass Scythe. Orignally I did not intend to do a background but things happen and I think it actually looks pretty good ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I haven't drawn a proper illustration in a while so I'm sorry, but I promise I have something to do with the au coming very soon! In the meantime, take this while you wait
I noticed there's a lot of new people in the fandom (Hallo!) so if you don't know what this is refer to my orignal post here
#the glass scientists#tgs#tgs hyde#tgs edward hyde#tgs fanart#tgs medieval au#echo's au's#He's a dramatic guy what can I say?#ik its been very hyde heavy content lately but he's so fun to draw#Lemme draw the bastard#the swoopy-slashy thing looks a bit funky please excuse it - i was trying something out ok?#tgs au#the glass scientists au
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fellow guild wars 2 enjoyers that arent popular and part of the cool kids and have ocs that everyone knows/loves and create banger fanart and post really good fics and all that
fellow guild wars 2 enjoyers that are just kinda there and kinda average
lets band together. and maybe kiss.
#dios wisdom#i was uh thinking about how hard its been to make “meaningful” connections in fandoms lately#because the fandoms im in are very oc/creation heavy and its kind of like you have to perform a certain way#or make something valuable before really being able to properly find your place in the community#idk its a silly thought and ive been a bit mentally ill lately so thats that#but. if you are one of the besties that doesnt really belong to the cool kids tm#come into my arms. we will scream loudly.
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#happy pride month. as a medic main i kiss every heavy who gives their medics sandviches. i love you all#this week was very not good for me but when i played the game today i got a really nice heavy on our team#nice as in good player and nice as in he gave me sandviches. i hope hes doing well cuz he made my day ngl#also can u tell i gave up on the last panel kjlkj sorry its so late at night and i need to work tomorrow(that is already today lmao)#i used barnblitz screenshots for backgrounds cuz thats the map we played in when we met#team fortress two#tf2#team fortress 2#team fortress fanart#tf2 fanart#tf2 medic#medic tf2#tf2 heavy#heavy tf2#heavymedic#painting sky blu art
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Can I possibly ask who your most recent OC is, if you are still open to talking about your OCs?
of course!!! honestly i dont think ive made any new ones in particular since last year? with the amount i have atp i kinda go back and forth between new and old ones kjsdgkjsdhgs but i guess rafi and naomi would be the most recent that i actually do somewhat draw on occasion because otherwise a good chunk of them are just. kind of concepts i bounce around in my head jksdgjkhsdgsh
i do have this from some time ago though that never really went anywhere
#asks#anonymous#duck scribbles#duck ocs#naomi#rafi#i have chronic character making disease though so i come up w story ideas here and there but dont do much other than write em down#OH another notable one of from late is this closet nerd + popular girl in class whos a very heavy rarepair supporter of closet nerd's fav.#they didnt particularly interact before but girl 1 happens to come across her art acc with an entire 8 total follower count and becomes a#fan!! not long after she finds her lost sketchbook and recognises her art and shenanigans ensue#but other than that!! ive been mostly really thinking abt naorafi and also this other duo of mine#which is reformed villain subleader and the magical girls' mentor of whom he has a devastatingly onesided crush on and tries to court#constantly. its a bit funny to me#obnoxious guy constantly bringing bouquets to his lab + guy who does not fecking care
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ONEUS - BLACK MIRROR
#oneus#foroneus#useroro#kflops#melontrack#tw flashing#eyestrain#mouseoho-gifs#a lot more dance heavy than I usually do for mvs but it WAS a glorified dance perf soooo#I had fun with this! sorry for showing up like 3 years late to the binary code party LOL#not very satisfied with how I coloured the skin but its better than it was before so ?
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Infinite list of favourite lyrics: 225/?
Billy Joel - Big Shot (1978)
"Well, you went uptown riding in your limousine,
With your fine Park Avenue clothes;
You had the Dom Pérignon in your hand
And the spoon up your nose.
Ooh, and when you wake up in the morning
With your head on fire
And your eyes too bloody to see,
Go on and cry in your coffee
But don't come bitchin' to me."
#favourite lyrics#billy joel#big shot#1978#52nd street#the opener to Joel's 1978 album (and getting a single release the following year) this catty little number marked a significant moment in#the singer singwriter's career. 52nd Street would be Joel's first album to top the Billboard 200‚ won a handful a grammys and was one of#the first albums ever released on CD a couple of years later. Joel had wanted a slightly new sound to differentiate the album from his#previous studio efforts‚ and hired a slew of talented jazz musicians to help him craft something different. this isn't perhaps the track#that shows the clearest growth in his sound‚ but its swaggering‚ sneering‚ heavy in your face delivery and spiky guitar are a hell of a way#to open an album. Joel has variously claimed to have been inspired by a meeting with Bianca Jagger or that there's no truth in that rumour‚#depending i suspect on his mood when asked; he's also admitted to a certain amount of autobiography to the lyrics‚ and i buy that#personally (it's very easy to read a kind of self hating monologue to the mirror kind of vibe into the song imo). a sly take down of social#poseurs and the nouveau riche of late 70s New York (later lyrics name drop Elaine's and Halston)‚ i particularly like the quick switch in#tone in these opening lines: chauffeured limousines and designer clothes quickly giving way to the seedy detail of the coke spoon in the#nose. there's little sympathy from Joel who strikes a provocative vocal style‚ particularly for the chorus which is enunciated so clearly#it could almost be being spat out. Big Shot was the second single from 52nd Street and was‚ like the album‚ a commercial success#peaking at number 14 (his third highest charting single at this point). afaik it didn’t have a uk release tho‚ alas
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What? Nothing, no formula? Kids just straight tiddy drinkin'? Ya dont have to hide it behind other languages, just spit it out.
-🦖
(Idk why this phrase made me giggle and I hope it makes y'all giggle too)
Ludwig suddenly turns very red, he hides his face in Mikhail's neck, & lets out a very loud, wheezing laugh.
"Why did you say it like that!" He cackles, & Mikhail has a hard time trying not to laugh too.
#Lutz and Misha#tf2#tf2 ask blog#tf2 medic#tf2 heavy#🦖 anon#the moment i read that i had to be very careful not to laugh#cause its late & i wpuldve let out such a loud cackle at that
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the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.
he never was.
#ramblings#incoherent beyond belief its 4 am#and im trying to avoid manga spoilers#might add a reblog with more coherent thoughts when i wake up but im off my meds so i cant promise anything#actually correction im being vague w the manga spoilers#manga readers know whats up#idk if there are any anime only ppl who havent been spoiled on The Plottwist Ever yet#but i figured there will be new fans and though im not tagging this it might still get seen so#cant WAIT to see our boy absolutely miserable in animation form should they recreate that arc LMAOOO#which ofc is after the germany arc so thats still a long time away#but STILL. itd be fun i need to see this young teenager lose his mind in color with sound#him relying on sebastian to do all his fag duties (sorry. dredge) so he can work his way up the social ladder#trying to gain power while simultaneously proving that he cant do anything but rely on others#hes always needed help in basically every way and he hasnt CHANGED he just got a demon to do it for him#he learns to lie and charm and cheat and all the while hes a fucking CHILD WHO STILL STRUGGLES WITH NORMAL THINGS#ciel is my little baby and i love him deeply no matter how much of a little bitch he can be#his helplessness isnt just 'oh he was raised in british high society' its also that he never got the chance to learn anything#which to elaborate on that id also have to go into manga territory. iykyk#like absolutely at this point he just refuses to learn how to do things he has a pet demon to do it for him#but.#hi the phantomhives backstory is killing me again its so late#both atlantic and the school arc are just setup for the Big Arc but theyre very good in their own right i SWEAR#also when i rewatched the circus arc a while back and i realised how some scenes were shot#the heavy foreshadowing that i didnt realise. yk. 7 years ago or however long its been since i first watched it#CRAZY#if you are new. to kuroshitsuji. and you havent read the manga. dear god. read the manga#ALSO GRELLE IN THAT ARC IS SO BEAUTIFUL & OTHELLO IS TRANSMASCULINE. OKAY GOODBYE
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turns out how not to be deficient in fat in your diet is to stop eating only low fat versions of foods
#i was scared of being hungry unfortunately and didnt want to change my diet to more calorie dense stuff out of fear of like hunger related#mood swings which i get badly now which i didnt used to which is awesome i totally love feeling like a half starved half mad dog if my lunc#is like half an hour late#i will not eat like regular ice cream but y'know. cheeses. yogurt thats abt it i eat the same 9 ingredients in rotation#apples cauliflower cottage cheese cabbage sardines carrots broccoli tomatoes uhhhh monster energy drinks#i mean other stuff too sometimes but those r the staples#if i could go raw vegan without dying i probably would just bcs its easier#that list is kind of pathetic and depressing but idk man what's a guy to do#i do worry about it not being varied enough and missing micronutrients and stuff but like yknow ive always been a very unadventurous eater#eating the same things day in day out years on end and ive always been like fine lol it's just a less heavy carb selection these days which#like im pretty sure all that you need xyz amount of grains a day is a total psyop by the corn and wheat us subsidies i don't think you need#that shit just like how you dont need milk.
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WEC, I will be there
period wasnt verstappen.com aiming to have 2 cars running in gt3 by 2025 how much u wanna bet that as we speak bro is thinking about saying fuck it and being inside 1 of them
#ask#no by all means keep playing#whtvr happened in rbr has effectively created 2 camps#and im not sure if max and horner in the same one#if adrian does leave its not due to some woke moral opposition to horners alleged behavior#I truly wish it was but Im far too cynical and Ive read grandpas book too like hes at least a lil racist#now the pride thing comes across much more credible#truth is they been hyping up waché for a while even for most of 2023#u kinda started to get the sense rb19 and rb20 were very much adrians groundforce babies but communally raised and fed#operationally speaking. rbr does show a type of superiority over its peers that cant be explained by a single bald head#plus. theres verstappens heavy ass thumb on the scale#other side of the garage got beaten by norris in a mclaren he seemed to have ZERO understanding of lmfao#adrian obvi one of motorsports most valuable assets and if rbr has decided he isnt hes within his rights to fuck off#hes a contractor too so gardening leave is alot shorter in theory he cud just buy it (?)#my gut is telling me AM wid honda and nando#but vasseur been on a roll lately assembling the avengers to take on verstappen so who knows#bro whtvr happens max will be thoroughly unimpressed and prolly equal parts annoyed and bored#idk if adrians part of his circle#they never seemed that tight to me#but if he walks helmut walks for sure and if helmut walks#honey .. either brackley about to become the most evil place in the world. which ok my bitch narrative hubris nasty#or WEC we WILL be there#much to think about
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I am kissing u all on the forehead
#i have an internal desire 2 chat but unfortunately my internal desire 2 not put effort into anything is winning#no chats no vibes i am lying here staring into space#watching something is 2 much work socializing makes me exhausted this has been a rough week#its very easy for me 2 make little jokey jokes but multiple days in a row of missing breaks or taking them late#and being overworked bc my department depends on me has been#its been difficult#and mentally i am just. im so exhausted#also w rooster teeth closing even tho i havent been big in the fandom for a while its just kinda heavy#i also. i am feeling. i dont know if tumblr rp is all that it used to be for me#i adore the muses i adore the writing i adore my partners#theres just. theres something somewhere being a road block i just dont know what#i dont know if its just life being a lot so im struggling to keep up or if it's just like. im outgrowing it or its outgrowing me#i fell in love w rping bc of the community but i fear these days its. it doesnt Feel like a community anymore#some people do and are trying and it means the world but there is an overwhelming loneliness on this site these days#idk if thats just me or what#and i understand the harsh circle of not being here means no attention means not being here#but just. idk. idk what i am trying to say idk what the vibes r this post like my life is a mess w no coherent outcomes
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(click image for better quality!!) golly i love thinking about clover's hair... i imagine she has really voluminous wavy strawberry blonde hair that she dyes green and wears in many cute hairstyles!! :D
#dandy's doodles#inanimate insanity#ii#ii clover#ii human#ii humie#ii humanization#ii humanized#kin#i think after the dye in her hair wears out clover would leave it natural for a few months before redying it#she loves it green but she also loves its natural color!!#and yeah her hair is very full and soft and wavy...#so pretty!!!#she usually wears it in the upper left style but she changes it up every so often#and when she goes to sleep she has it all the way down...#i've been making clover in picrew a lot lately so i've gotten to explore hairstyles! what fun!! :D#(given the oddly specific detail here you can probably tell that i've taken heavy inspiration from my own hair haha!)
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my mystery illness hurting me -_-
#.pdf#rd#sorry im about to start rambling and whining about my sickliness in the tags feel free to not read them if you dont wanna see that#feels bad. lately every time i do a little too much of anything (which isnt much) i feel miserable and weak and bad at breathing for daaaays#suspecting me/cfs or i thought maybe post viral fatigue after i got covid a month ago but 1) ive had the fatigue the better part of a year-#-its just that its gotten worse since recovering from covid and 2) from what ive read post viral fatigue is mechanically like identical to-#-me/cfs (when it presents like my bullshit) and also can persist and “become” me/cfs so i dont see much of a point in differentiating them#either way it soudns like i only have a shot at getting better if i avoid doing anything that triggers it to get worse (which is a lot) so.#cant exactly put my whole life on hold to lie around in bed for months on end. so whatever#also heartrate spikes while standing in a way thats very consistent with pots. another thing that causes Issues but does not explain all of-#-my symptoms. so i dont thknk its just that. whayever iguess im trying to get in touch witb my doctor cos last night it got concerningly bad#likee. did a little cleaning last night cos my mother forced me to and afterwards i got a horrible cough and was wheezing and shit#ik ik cleaning = dust = cough but in the past when cleaning has aggravated my lungs its felt so different and gone away almpst immediately#but like. i have since slept and still feel a horrible heaviness in my chest and shit idunno. dont like it
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please accept my humble offering it’s all i have at the moment (i am struggling through exam season)
#i swear ive been drawing so much lately#but its all on post its#and i keep losing said post its so i have nothing to post#i would bring a sketchbook with me but my bag is. very heavy to say the least#and my doodle ideas keep coming to me during random times of the day#so i have to draw it out before my other thoughts drown it out yknow#hence the post its#not art#but#art#related#lmao#art meme#i guess#how do i tag this lmao#artists on tumblr#idk
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currently sick i forgot to add this to the last ask but your art, to me, is indicative of the beauty you seenin the world and i think it sso fucking amazing how much you see and appreciate. your brain is gigantic and wrinkled like a pug. u are amazing
advbsghf like a pug 😭 thank u this is so nice. i dont always respond to nice asks bc Im not sure what to say so i just keep them like letters lol but i get very romantic about a lot of stuff (especially when my mental health is being normal) and I'm rly glad that comes across in my art
#i do read and appreciate all the asks i get i love them a lot#the stuff ppl send me is genuienly very meaningful to me i just don't know how to respond to it#im not great at forming thoughts and feelings into words lol I'm like this irl too#and i dont want to reply to a very heartfelt ask with just 'thank you' or something like that#ive been doing better with new meds i got and its rly relieving to be able to be romantic about stuff#when i get depressed its hard to do that bc everything is warped and i get this idea that the world and everyone is evil#ive found myself drawing a lot of the more cutesy positive art when i had depressive periods#for the last few years. bc before i would often do the spookier kind of art when feeling that way#as a sort of venting of those emotions#(not that i only make that art when depressed btw. it just obv draws from negative emotions)#but more lately its kind of flipped. where id draw this romantic art while depressed as a sort of escapism#and would only draw the spookier more negative art when in a good mental place where I could engage w those emotions in a fun way#if that makes sense#kinda like how sometimes you need to listen to sad music when you're sad but sometimes you need distraction#and how you might only want to watch a really heavy movie if youre in a good headspace
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venting so much i ran out of tags lmao
#i think im hallucinating ?????#i have my headphones on (listening to boyfeel on repeat n choppin up some paper)#and keep feeling / seeing shadows in my peripheral vision#im probably just dehydrated and having bad floaters but i dont like it :)#today has also been bad dramatically awful#life isn't serious there's no reason to feel this heavy#oop very emo thoughts incoming#life can't be meaningful or ill miss my parents too much but can't be meaningless or im living without them for nothing#im just. struggling very hard this year. idk#i had so much health bullshit going on for months that i put off going to a psych n now im so busy that it feels bad taking time off for it#and im also scared of getting on meds bc the idea of being dependent on something that i might not have access to is.. auuughhh#idk dude my adhd has been debilitating lately and i feel so stuck and sometimes i think i have ocd bc my compulsions are so fucking bad and#all my mental bullshit with my breathing has slowly been driving me wild and peaks my anxiety#and sometimes i worry abt being bipolar bc my mom's mom is and my mom's best friend told me she thought my mom might have been#bc the way my moods are so low or so high is exhausting it feels like i haven't had a “normal” day in so long#but also atp when im happy i feel manic bc idk how to healthily experience happiness anymore#idfk y'all !!!! im also very nonverbal these days#ugh and still going back n forth on telling my therapist ive been suicidal again bc i dont want him to have to report me or anything idk#a few months ago i made a joke about offing myself and he got rly serious n said he'd have to take action if im serious so im leaning no#like. i wouldnt actually kill myself. i just don't want to exist sometimes in this life#its just been very very very very very very very very very very very very very very hard lately without my parents or grandma#and even after all these years it's still heartwrenching to think about continuing to live this life without them#like. i just want to make them laugh. i just want to feel their arms around me in a warm hug. i just want to dance to their favorite songs.#i don't want to think of them and see their dead bodies anymore. i want to remember them healthy and smiling.#i would take care of them again in every lifetime but fuck dude. i just want to remember their good days instead of the end. can i please#please fucking invision them at their best. i want to remember the dad that played baseball and video games and whose laugh filled the room#i want to remember my grandma who was so sassy but kind. whose button nose crinkled when she smiled. who taught me to happily be dramatic#i don't want to remember them being frail. i want to forget the frustration i saw in their eyes. i want to forget seeing them struggle#(insert sadness about not remembering my mom at all)#just. fuck dude. my life is simple and i am safe so i shouldn't complain. but things feel so fucking hard sometimes. i feel so heartbroken
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