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Military School Pt.1
Sorry this took so long to get out, a self-indulgent Cecilxreader fic that I started to write took over my life for a couple on months. And then school started.
But I wrote this about two years ago, and I only meant for it to be shared with people on this Cecil server I was in. But, considering its gone now, I figured why not. And Cecil is supposed to be like, 14 or 15 in this.
This is part one of a three part story. The second part should be up possibly by the end of the week. Gotta make some edits to it first.
Plot: Cecil gets into a fight that nearly gets him expelled from high school, and almost gets sent to military school.
Link to Pt.2
TW: blood, injuries, and mentions of violence and sexual harassment (very briefly on that second one)
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Sitting there in an uncomfortable chair, Cecil leaned forward. His elbows resting on his knees and a bloody rag pressed against his nose. Though, given the fact that his shirt was already covered in his own blood, the rag was pretty much useless. Craning his neck, he looked at the senior who sat across from him. The senior he’s labeled ‘Jackass’ looked like shit, his shirt stained with blood. The skin around his nose and one of his eyes starting to turn purple.
The senior pressed a bloodied rag into his face, as his lip had been busted and his nose broken. Two of the seniors’ fingers were in a makeshift splint; and while he had heard something pop, he wasn’t sure if they were broken or just dislocated.
But it didn’t matter; he was still screwed regardless. Up until this point he had gotten away with getting into fights with assholes or bullies. Middle school kids were too embarrassed that they got their ass kicked. Sure, there were times when someone would snitch, and he’d get in trouble. But most of the time he’d get a warning or detention, considering the other kids never got hurt enough to warrant suspension, or worse, expulsion. But high schoolers were different, you fight back, hurt their ego, and they’ll find a way to make your life miserable; especially if they had been on top of the food chain.
But here he was, sitting outside the principal’s office contemplating everything that went wrong, how he let his temper get the better of him.
Craning his head up, he got a better look at the ‘jackass’ sitting across from him. And he was met with a glare that could melt steel. Lowering the rag, he checked his nose; thankful that the bleeding finally stopped.
He returned the dirty look to the senior, scrunching his nose in the process. Which only sent a wave of pain through his face, and he was convinced that it was broken. It wasn't the first time it's been broken, and it certainly wouldn't be the last. But knowing his dad, a trip to the emergency room wasn’t likely, as his dad would rather just set it at home.
Looking at the floor, he stared at the ugly linoleum. He could see a few stray droplets of blood on the ugly brown linoleum, that was probably outdated when it was put down. And he wondered who had the bright idea to choose brown of all colors.
But his thoughts were interrupted when he heard a shouting match break out behind him. The door to his right muffled the voices, but he quickly straightened up when he heard his dad shouting.
The ‘Jackass’ spoke up, “Sounds like you’re in trouble you little shit.”
He looked at the senior and could see that he had a shit eating grin on his face. But he watched as the smug look turned to regret as blood started to run down his chin, and he moved the rag from his nose to his lip.
“I wouldn’t have kicked your sorry ass if you had just left my friend alone.” He spat back.
He leaned back in the chair and looked up to the stained ceiling, attempting to make sense of what was being said. All he could tell was that it didn’t sound good for him. Occasionally he could make out his dad insulting whoever else was in there.
The shouting quickly died down, and he heard a third voice talking, then footsteps.
On his right, a door quickly opened, and he turned his head to look. Standing in the doorway was short and portly man who looked both terrified and exhausted.
He sighs, “Both of you in my office, now!”
Forcing himself up from the chair, he reluctantly walked through the doorway. Quickly spotting his dad standing across from the ‘jackasses’ father.
His dad quickly looked at him, and ice filled his veins. He could see that his dad was not happy. Catching his eye for a moment, he quickly looked elsewhere as he walked into the office. While he was never scared of his father, for once he was nervous. The fact that this fight had gotten so out of hand made things look worse for him.
As soon as he was within grabbing distance, his dad pulled him close. Quietly seething at him through his teeth, “You are in so much trouble!”
What little color there was in his face left as he rarely saw his dad this angry.
The portly man walks around the room and sits down behind his desk. On top sat a little placard, ‘Principal Owens’.
With a sigh, the principal sat down. “Mr. Stedman, I’m afraid we have a serious situation on our hands here. I don’t take kindly to violence occurring on school grounds, especially when it leads to serious injury. And to be completely honest Mr. Stedman, this isn’t looking good for your son.”
He felt his chest tighten. And while he wanted to defend himself, he bit his tongue right as the ‘jackasses’ father started to yell.
“I want that little bastard expelled and arrested! Look at what he did to my son!” The man spat, gesturing to his son’s injuries.
Principal Owens cuts in with exasperation, “Mr. Lawson please, before any decision is made, I want Mr. Stedmans’ to explain himself.”
Now with everyone’s attention turned towards him, his mouth suddenly went dry, and he had no idea how to explain himself. Where to even begin, and if they would even believe him. Considering it was his word against ‘jackasses’ and his cronies. He had a few friends that could certainly vouch for him, but he didn’t want them involved in this mess.
He could feel his dad’s grip on his shoulder tighten, and in that moment, he was almost too terrified to even look towards his father. Taking a deep breath, knowing that even if he told the truth, he could still be screwed. “He’s been harassing my friend for days. And when I went to talk to him, to tell him to leave her alone, he took a swing at me. I didn’t start the fi-”
Before he could finish his sentence, Mr. Lawson lost his grip on his son for a moment as the senior attempted to lunge at him, calling him a liar. Thankfully, his dad quickly put himself in between the two teenagers, and Mr. Lawson pulled his son back.
Principal Owens stood up quickly and slammed his hands onto his desk, “That’s enough! I will not have any more fighting! Especially in my office.” Looking over to Mr. Lawson he said, “Control your son!”
He watched as the ‘jackass’ huffed in anger.
As soon as things started to calm down for a moment the principal looked at him, “Cecil, what do you mean he’s been harassing your friend?”
Breathing a sigh of relief, he began to explain things. “All of this started two weeks ago, when he started to harass my friend. He kept making all sorts of sexual comments towards her, or him and his friends kept harassing her after school. I went to go talk to him, to tell him to knock it off. But all he did was attack me. I didn’t go looking for a fight, but no one else was telling him to stop.”
As the words left his mouth, he could feel the tension growing in the room. But he noticed his dad’s grip loosen a bit.
The principal narrowed his eyes at him, as he leaned back into his chair. “And why didn’t you think to report this to the office? And why hasn’t she come forward?”
What anxiety he felt, was quickly replaced with anger, “I tried, and no one did anything! She tried, but no one would take her seriously. If you really don’t believe me, ask her. Ask the teacher that caught the ‘jackass’ messing with her yesterday.”
He still couldn’t remember his name, though at this point it wasn’t worth trying.
“Young man, I will not tolerate that language in my office or my school.” Owens said. “Which teacher are you talking about?”
He wracked his brain trying to remember who had caught the older student, but his memory was failing him. “I don’t know, I think it might’ve been the P.E. teacher. I wasn’t there, she just told me about all of this, this morning. She said it’s been happening after school for the past two weeks. She said that the teacher saw and stopped it but didn’t do anything else.”
Principal Owens sighed and rubbed his face. And for what felt like minutes, everyone was silent.
His dad cleared his throat, “Principal Owens, I’d like to know what you plan on doing? I agree that what my son did was wrong, but if what he’s saying is true, I hope ‘jacka-’, Mr. Lawson’s son is punished as well.”
Biting his tongue, he had to stop himself from laughing at his dad’s slip-up. Over the past couple of years, many of his teachers had complained about his colorful language. Resulting in a lot of parent teacher conferences, where they quickly learned where he got it from.
But before Principal Owens could respond Mr. Lawson interjected, “Are you kidding me? My son is the victim here, I want the little menace arrested.”
He felt his heart stop for a moment and his dad’s grip tighten again.
“Now hold on.” Principal Owens says. “Before the police get involved, I want to make sure that everyone is telling the truth.”
Mr. Lawson’s face was turning red, “I know for a fact that this isn’t the first time that little bastard has done something like this. Everyone knows he’s done this before.”
“Sir please calm down; I know all too well about Cecil’s previous incidents. I’ve seen his records, but his past incidents have never been like this. And I don’t think the police need to be involved yet.”
He internally breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that the cops wouldn’t be involved just yet.
Lawson opens his mouth to start again, but Owens stops him, “I think the best course of action, for now, would be suspension for both. I want to see if what Cecil say’s is true. If it ends up being a lie then your son can return to school immediately, if not, then he’ll have to serve out his suspension. And he will be put on academic probation when he returns.”
‘Jackass’ begins to whine, “What?! You can’t do that? I’m needed on the team. I need this to get into college.”
The older Stedman cuts in, “Kid, if you have to rely on to being a football player to get yourself into college, you probably shouldn’t be going. Besides if my son is lying then you have nothing to worry about.”
Both Lawson’s looked at his father, moving their anger from Principal Owens to the older Stedman.
Before either Lawson could say anything, Owens speaks. “Now Mr. Stedman, I cannot let Cecil off with just a warning, he did injure another student. If he’s telling the truth, he’ll have to serve out his suspension, and a few weeks of detention when he comes back. But if your son is lying, I will be forced to expel him.”
His father, now much more levelheaded, spoke. “I understand.”
“Now please, go home. I have an incident report to fill out.”
As he and his dad walked out of the principal’s office, his father spoke to him quietly, “We’ll talk about this when we get home.”
He nodded his head, “Yes sir.”
#cecil stedman#invincible show#invincible#tw: injury#tw: blood#tw: harrasment#also i'm not joking about that self indulgent fic#i literally started it back in july and it's still not done#it won't be until the end of the show probably#considering i'm writing it as the show continues#and i haven't even reached the events of season 1#but it's like 14 chapters as of rn#almost 15#and its 190 pages#the lack of xreader fics for cecil drove me to do it#its shamelessly self-indulgent#also part two focuses a lot on cecils relationship with his dad#his dads name is lyle btw#i've got tons of headcannons for cecils family#as well as for cecil himself
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I will say that the benefit of my tsukasa card hoard is that my bonus for his chapter will be like… 540% minimum. Which sounds like a lot but tsukasa fans are fucking insane and I still think I’ll have to grind for anything under 1000th place. Maybe I *should* mr2 his new year lim.
#this is assuming I get all 4 cards + MR2 all of them#thank god none of them are happy trait bc I can just use ohe meiko#mine#I am probably going to go ham on nene’s chapters though#540 bonus + less competitive = saving me on the total leaderboard#out of the 14? tsk cards on eng rn im missing 4 (white day/scramble Fes/dazzling lights/Kamiyama Fes)#& two of those are lims. this makes me seem like an insane tsk fan I promise I am not#curtain call/wonder halloween/island panic/PIMH came home against my will. I didn’t even know who he was.#& then I’m missing 2 lim/3 perm for nene#4 lim/4 perm for emu#4 lim/4 perm for rui#dazzling lights/on this holy night/mermaid nene & island panic/art event/gleaming stars/sports Fes emu & mermaid/wonder halloween/ohe/canary#rui + Kamiyama fes/torpe tsk. all of u will come home in the ensekai anni free pulls. or you’ll be in big trouble.
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nmau 70k real???????
#this is nowhere near the longest thing i've written but#it's the longest thing i've written that's like heavily edited and cohesive and like???#good???#and worth sharing with others? LOL#im :')#idk i'm really proud of myself as a writer rn#and the story isn't over yet!!!#also that 4.7k is chapter 14 which is finally moving! :D#writing stuff#nmau
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ergrg rh h. rejuv….
#game good game great#favorite game of all time for me i think#anyways take these scribbles i dont really feel like finishing rn#im at chapter 14 now and man. man…#what did she mean by that. what is happening.#i mean i know whats happening but. what is happening#talking about what happened in angies whatever btw im still not over that#this game is so..#the sprite updates are everything to me btw. there is so much personality on those itty bitty faces#the chapter titles too.. why would they do that. chapter 12.. ow#so many things added.. love all the changes a lot#the new art pieces too… so so good#i wanna replay it so bad already and im not even done with this one yet#sorry this game got to me again and it got to me bad#pokemon rejuvenation#also ignore the seviper i wasnt looking at a reference for that guy and i dont really feel like fixing it
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live laugh love my local library
#☆— yapping#went there bc i was bored#got three volumes of kn8#would've gotten more but they didn't have them unfortunately#and four volumes of smth i've never heard before#called dai dark#only picked it up bc it looks interesting#guess no one else knows it either bc the volumes are so stiff#like library books are usually kinda beat up and the spines broken in yk#but this is like. fresh#feels newer than ones in a bookstore#which i mean makes sense yk#the difference between the kn8 and dai dark volumes are so funny to me#staring at the way they're all stacked up rn#and no i didnt get any “real” books#the last time i tried to read a novel i got so confused by the setting#the whole story made no sense#but i made it chapter 4 or 5#also it was earlier this week i tried#actually was about to gag bc of the way a female character was described#it made me want to cry bc what was that#read better fanfics that were written by 14 y/os#and this guy got wtvr that was PUBLISHED and SOLD#and that's why i only borrow library books#ANYWYAS i've been wanting to read the kn8 manga for a bit now#but idk where to read it online and am too lazy to figure it out#but also if i have the choice between online or physical i have to say#i prefer physical books all the way#even if i cant read all of the chapters rn idrc#ill read the online version eventually but this'll just get me into it for now
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Be careful with these treats, or we'll have you pre-releasing the entire chapter bit by bit 😉
Speaking of, that last bit is suuuuuper cute! I think my favorite picture is Jason and Dani being chased. I can just imagine those two being chaos gremlins together 😆
I saw a thing that said the real joy of puns is not laughter but the pain of others, and I really couldn't deny the truth of it.
I've seen one or two Dick/Jazz on AO3, but I think that's about it. One I liked a lot was them meeting in the parenting section of a library (bookstore?) and then having coffee to talk about parenting their younger brothers (Dick had guardianship of Damien because Bruce was missing).
Just to add my name to the list, I've also re-read THAHRK an amount of times that I don't care to own up to. It's wonderful 💜
Hahaha alright I'll keep the rest under wraps. There's still a ton that's been hidden so plenty of surprises (also a lot more Dead On Main)
I was so happy writing the picture part. It made me feel so soft! Jason and Dani have a cute relationship, very much a sibling vibe (and Jason utterly adores being a big brother) I like throwing in hints of it here and there. They cause so much chaos together (and property damage)
That is so true. I love making people groan. One of the few things I miss about my old job is we had a chat and I managed to get my entire team into a pun battle. It was glorious. (We also did riddles. I got banned cause I kept answering them too fast)
I'm about to scour AO3 for those fics right now. The library one sounds so amazing! (Maybe when Red Knight is done, I'll write a little one shot of Dick and Jazz doing cute couple things) I love rare pairs. And also Batfam x Phanteam ships.
Ahsudhag WHY ARE YOU ALL CONSPIRING TODAY TO MAKE ME CRY?? I love all of you who read Red Knight you're so sweet. I still will never understand why people like my writing so much, but as long as it makes at least one person smile, I'm happy :)
#xy answers#tkahrk au#tkahrk#the king and his red knight au#the king and his red knight#danny phantom au#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc#dc x dp#danny phantom#dp x dc#in this you can see a writer getting as flustered as a schoolgirl learning her crush likes her back#it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside when i find out people like my writing#i love fandom especially the very niche dpxdc fandom because everyone is so so nice#youre all beautiful wonderful people and i do not deserve any of you but youre all mine now i love you#im literally stimming in my seat rn because im so happy and getting interaction#im hoping I can wrap up part 14 soon to give to all of you cause theres so much I havent shared that makes it a really fun chapter#also an emotional one#hah it has funnies and ouchies
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#stel talks#aka do i keep the hdm reference or move to the ff14 reference#i'm so so torn bc theintentioncraft feels like My Brand now but seat of sacrifice is my favourite trial and i'm def in 14 brainrot rn#but also intention craft IS the superior masriel chapter so... help me pick!
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I'm gonna die one day oh my god holy shit fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck there's no afterlife oh holy shit fuck help oh my god no no no no no
#tw death#sorry I'm having bad thoughts at night again#BUT HOLY FUCK I'M GONNA DIE ONE DAY I'M SO FUCKING SCARED BECAUSE THERE'LL BE NOTHING#IT'S FUCKING INEVITABLE FUCK#ahh im having a panic attack again god damnit#tw caps#if i had a different personality i would probably be seeking religion as a way to stop these damn panic attacks#but i don't have any faith in me at all#my brain is too science/logical focussed to believe in a god/gods#so I'll just have to deal with it ig#until it actually happens#or go to therapy at some point#if i can afford it#but god do i need it#this is my punishment for writing another chapter of a&tsp instead of sleeping#it's 00:43 rn#my cat's on me#I've got family guy the video game speedrun on tv#but i am mortal#I've been dealing with this for 3 years now ntw#since i was 14#i remember i had a panic attack when watching squid game because#watching them drop like flies like that really got to me fsr#ig the msot comforting thing about it is that it'll literally happen to everyone ever#so no matter what happens I'm not alone in any way shape or form#sorry if it sounds morbid and maybe selfish that I'm comforting myself using the knowledge of the inevitable deaths of other people#but we are all equal in death ig#like that one quote#who said that
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finally getting a chance to work on chapter 15 today :-)
#shout out AS ALWAYS to people leaving comments!!!! you are keeping me motivated you are keeping the dream alive#for some behind the scenes: in the last few weeks i've been barely sleeping and it makes it very hard to write or even be in a good mood#i usually need 11+ hours to function and so like. 2-3 hours a night is putting me in a bad place both mentally and physically#and yes i realize 11 or more hours is like a silly amount of sleep but idk. it's just how i am. i go to bed early AND sleep in ahaha.#i've been falling behind in all my classes due to the sleep thing so writing for fun has totally been off the table lol#ANYWAYS#typing typing typing (this chapter will be a lighthearted one)#we all need some fluff and levity i think (and i need to give time for Riku to care for Sora even more and be like. wow. i love you)#I was struggling earlier bc i wanted to write both about how Sora has been hiding darkness from loved ones and needs to let them in#but also with the idea of sora feeling that he needs friends to have strength or value. and i kind of realized i needed to pick one#like maybe a better writer than me could have both of those things be addressed at once but for me i was like... I want Riku to comfort him#which goes against him learning that he's fine on his own. we can address that in a different fic. rn he is just sad and needs to know#that he can share that with the people around him. and that he's still loveable despite it all#also shout out to my gf for teaching me “love isn't something you deserve that's not what love is” like. i did not know that b4 her#so I asked her lots of questions for chapter 14 actually cause I was like. i want Riku to support Sora in the way you'd support me#cuz IDK SHIT ABOUT THAT i have always felt unworthy of love and like i had to beg people to stay with me until i got into this relationship#so i was like. judy. what is your wisdom. how do you care for me when i feel like my pain makes me unloveable. what would you say#So yeah shout out to her! I am off on a tangent now hehe sorry. thanks for reading if you read this at all!! have a good day :)#jtsys fic#updates
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#one final left 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫#i am procrastinating studying#my motivation to study is nonexistent atp lmfao#which is bad that this class is last#bc idk anything in this class#😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀#and the slides aren't great and there's not a great straightforward way to study in my brain rn#i need to write down some stuff i can do#i i have like a lil les than 14 hours 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀#why was this class so bad for me it wasn't even like that bad like the prof wasn't horrible#just not for me ig 💀💀💀 i just could not pay attention to him everything he said went right in and out thru my ears no comprehension#hm so how do i reread all the chapters or something in like < 10 hours or smth lmfao#also what do i even mean reread as if i read them all the first time slkjnfgdfigbpiurghpqireughdjfhsglfgjhaldkjfh#my last two finals were ok like ........ on par for what i expect lmfao and i think i did as well as i was gonna do on them#but this one#it's fucking unfortunate timing that it's last and day after another final bc i would rly appreciate a lot more time to study for this one#and i cant manage time so i haven't rly started studying for it lmfao why would i study before the day before 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩#anyway whatever#my chinese song playlist hitting hard rn it's so good and so nice to listen to while studying bc i dont get too distracted lol#and the songs are so GOOD i've been bonding more w my roommate over it XD#i think it's kinda funny how my music this week is gonna be so different than normal lol on airbuds since it does weekly music stats#out of nowhere just only lindsey stirIing and chinese songs lol#and then mxmt/oon in btwn there bc she also chiller music#jeanne talks
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hey guys
#man i am such a sleepy fella rn#i sure hope i’m not a clone and the real me doesn’t come into my room and kill me tonight!#/j#genuinely thank u all for ur reactions. like u all are excited to read new chapters and IM excited to read ur reactions#its always my favorite part#makes me so happy to see people enjoying my characters and story it’s literally a dream come true like wow#i’m so happy people like chapter 14 and thanks for all the amazing comments and stuff it makes me sooo happy#i’m too eepy but yeah that’s what i wanted to say :)#wyrms says stuff#i’ve also had anton brainrot specifically him as a Little Guy so i might finally finish that borrower basil au thing when they first meet#cuz it’s super wholesome and i think u all need that LOLLL#also. only like 7 of you will know what i’m talking about but anton as a kid is literally just louie in a different font like wow they are#soooo similar#not present day anton tho. just him as a little guy#literally him and louie would’ve been best friends AUGHH MY HEART#i’m gonna draw them interacting because that would literally heal me that would change my life#none of you understand how important this is to me like. holy shit#anyway reminder that things might be rough for dew right now haha but he gets a happy ending don’t stress abt it!!#the next 4 chapters specially might be a bit darker than usual#but then mystery character!!!!!!!! FUCK YESSS!!!!!!#excited :)
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okay, why is everyone being a bitch to percy in titan's curse. it's low-key pissing me off
#i vaguely remember this book#but i definitely did not remember certain characters#annoying me THIS much LAKSALKS#okay let me just say it#the hunters aren't as cool as i remembered them#they just come off annoying to me rn#with their 'high and mighty' bullshit#and i guess since most of them are like#12-14??#they haven't overgrown the 'boy cooties' phase#and they're immortal#so they're like been that age since forever#so i can give that a pass i guess#but still#it's annoying me so much rn slkalksakls#also thalia is being so mean WITH NO VALID REASON#**that i know of i'm still on chapter 7#like why is she blaming percy for EVERYTHING?#how about take SOME accountability????#t's book babble#t read: the titan's curse#percy jackson and the olympians
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Y'all are gonna get Sons of The Stars (Abby's version)(from the vault) like this week at this rate aksksks
#I just redrew the wardobe and I ended up changing so of the looks a little bit so I was going in to change the appropriate-#-outfit descriptions accordingly to be accurate with the new and tbh fr final designs and now I'm just adding a whole bunch of shit aksksk#like I'm completely overhauling chazz and alexis's relationship rn like the whole last 10 chapters of their interactions have to be changed#because of something I added in during chapter 14#I wasn't planning on doing any if this extra stuff but well here we are akskskksksks#hey sustained by hate (abby's version)(from the vault) really elevated that one so you can imagine what's happening here hehehe#I love this one so much already too I can only love it more#I'm on chapter 20 and when I finish I'm probably gonna back up to the first half a little bit before I publish these updates but MAN#there's some good shit in here#abby's fanfic writer power hour#yugioh gx fanfiction
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Brain is rotating between depressing but bittersweet post-trimax one-shot, current wip chapter of itnl, playful horny Sentido sequel one-shot, and violent bloody itnl times to be had sooner than you think
Like the barrel of a gun. Click click click click spinning round and round. Which one am I gonna land on? Only time will tell.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#i did start writing chapter 14 today. finally.#like barely but it's a start.#but ive also been thinking about the post-trimax oneshot i wrote the intro for a month ago & havent written any since#but ALSO im thinking about smut. which i plan to write itnl side stories when that shit comes up#but it's gonna Be A While & i could theoretically do the sentido sequel oneshot WHENEVER i want#ive been waiting for ww to officially be in itnl so hes alive again. b4 i go back to sentido.#but i still have a while and i wanna write smut NOW!!!!!!!!#these 2 make me wanna start Chewing i swear#i also started thinking about blood. specifically vash covered in it.#which yeaaa yeaaa we have seen that already. kind of. but thats not the blood i want to see on him.#there's a difference between his blood and someone else's blood. his blood on him is natural. common. expected.#he's fine with it bc he's so fucking used to it.#now someone Else's blood? that's not as common. he avoids it at all cost. not bc of the blood itself#but rather its existence signifies his failure. to keep someone safe. to keep someone alive.#for him to be covered in someone else's blood he has to fail quite badly. and Boy do i have some immanent plans for that >:3c#all in all i am feeling Profoundly unhinged tonight. but in a creative sort of way.#unfortunately i dont have a brain for writing rn so none of it is being done. but i will do Something... later.#hopefully tomorrow. we'll see!
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Heart full of fanfiction emotion.
Papers full of outlines and chapters that need work.
Head full of literally nothing. Absolutely empty.
#agere fic inspo#i hope you understand#I have 7 weeks of chapters ready for upload rn (14!!)#but i cannot work on any of the next ones even though 6/7 are like... halfway done
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it's like I get really enamored with the idea of this fic but then when I sit down and try to work on it in any way I realize how much work I'd actually have to put into it to see it to completion and I completely freak out and shut down
#i write sometimes#but not really cause I don't ever write anymore#idk it's weird like I've written kinda long fics before#well.... long to me. like 17k word 10 chapter fics. for *me* that's long#and I fucking FLEW through those. like I just went for it. like a woman possessed#now I'm like god that sounds like WORK idk maybe just. don't. do it.#but then I can't stop thinking abt it. I mean I've been contemplating these blorbos and writing for them for MONTHS now#like literally 5+ months#if I would have just stayed the course and written I'd be done by now#then there's also like. The Factors. the show it would be for. the characters.#also that the show ~technically~ ended like literally 14 years ago#and I've been Unwell abt them for so long and this is so STUPID#and it's stupid that I'm reluctant to write or share fic for a show or for blorbos cause I'm nervous abt being judged for it#but then I can't even work on it even if I'm like oh well just don't share it! cause I'm like omg the WORK#anyway I'm having a totally normal one rn my Time is not at all making me devolve into lunacy like it always does lmao#erin explains it all
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