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just-jammin · 2 years ago

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do u fear tht the friends u make online will one day disappear without warning n u can never contact them ever again? /gen

no srsly this is a /gen question not hate asks

i mean…

i think it already happened once…

but yeh, it’s a saddening thought, especially when your last interaction with them that you remember is a bad one…

#(note: i agree with anon that this is not a hate ask it just reminded me of a sitch)#well not RLY bad #but it’s still kinda sucky #i did something at the time that i didn’t know hurt them #actually i FORGOT it was a thing they’re avoiding #and i felt bad abt it after i was informed #so yeh that was my last interaction w them #kinda felt guilty abt that hehe…#that was stupid #<= (a tag for me speaking)#idk anymore #<= (also a tag for me speaking)#inquiries of a fennec #a really nice anon

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nekojaf · 8 months ago

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Life through a box of shoes at me. Here's an art dump. Featuring mostly Partial, @galaxysugarr Cupid, and @zarigi little doodle on the bottom left of her baby.

#partial eclipse #partial #cupid #doodle dump #life has been a whole bundle of funny silly kinda sucky times 💦 my art is still recovering from it #fnaf oc #fnaf daycare attendant #sams au #hapc #beige #bonnet #talavera #harvest #human version

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sneeb-canons · 11 months ago

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Headcanon #400: Heart & Mind are usually never a neutral temperature. The area around them is like the sun & moon. Mind's being hot and Hearts being cold. They're body temperatures however contrast that with Mind always feeling cold like metal/machinery and Heart feeling warm like a literal heart.

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#chonny jash #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #depending on how negative or positive they feel makes it either a comfortable temp or an uncomfortable/unbearable temp #also feel like when they're more mutually chill with eachother [like in Light & We're Gonna Win]#they're still opposite temps but coexisting together #like perfect example is a spring & a storm [literal wise not just the songs]#spring being a nice warm breeze & maybe some very light rain. so together its a nice combo & its not too intense to make a storm #and then on the other hand #the storm being the two clashing & even making a tornado since the temperatures & winds are fight so much #the end of StAAS especially is vry musically stormy/tornado like with how the tempo gets faster & their lyrics clashing together too #[which btw chonny added in the tempo speeding up cos that's not in the og & I LOVE that detail SO much]#and then during THA it becomes an uncomfy cold and as Be Born & the beginning of StAAS its an almost unbearable cold #Heart gives up control to Mind so its like if a body *literally* lost its heart #as StAAS gets through its becoming warmer from Mind & then there's the storm feel at the end #TME starts annoyingly hot & gets worse & worse as the song progresses [also kinda like a computer is overheating]#TSE [and also just Soul in general] is neither. a very empty feeling even #since Soul is the shell/vessel [Whole without his Mind & Heart] he has no temperature at all. bro is just empty feeling #at best [or worst] Soul will be a sucky inbetween. if he feels cold & puts on a thicker coat he gets too warm.#if it's too hot. it'll just wear a t shirt but then it gets too cold [kinda like having the flu/a cold]#anyways the bidding is a harsh swapping between the two. changing between who's singing #the duet bit with M&H is similar to the storm but just circling winds that aren't as violent #by Two Wuv & VoaC its much more neutral and peaceful with Soul being able to feel the positive parts to the others temperatures #but thats enough inane ranting #i like the temperature idea can you tell?#most of this idea i got months ago from thinkin more about how the end of StAAS is like a literal storm lol #the og already had fun instruments swelling & stuff that made it have a storm vibe but CJ went ham on his #i love StAAS mayhaps a lil bit

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bootlegdvdmenu · 9 months ago

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crackship of the century.

Dulse is a tgirl and uses she/her.

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skylilac · 2 years ago

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im so glad i dont write fic on tumblr anymore genuinely its so hard to be a fic writer but esp in the kotlc fandom

#i dont know this isnt rlly inspired bu anything i just kinda remembered when i used to post fic here #i remember id used to be LUCKY if i got like 20 notes bc most ppl didnt even get that #like fr kotlc fic writers get the worst of it genuinely its so hard getting interaction even if youre popular and well known and all that #and idk maybe its bc were a pretty young fandom but like no one comments or anything anymore #wattpad?? i have like 100k views and maybe. 1k stars or whatever like yall realize how bad that is right #and ig ao3 is better but the hits to kudos/comments ratio is still soo sucky #ive written in other fandoms and rven if theyre small at least ppl comment and shit?? more than here ifl #everyone still writing fic in this fandom deserves a holiday or smth #avery rambles

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pestercide · 8 months ago

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I just realised that a lot of the reason why I was struggling to leave/become less active on Twitter (besides the fact a lot of my friends are on there) was the fact that's where a majority of the super active Spooky Month fans are. But now that I'm sorta getting back into Minecraft I feel less and less inclined to be active on Twitter so that's something

I mean I will miss seein all the active artists/fans on that platform but it's honestly for the best that I don't touch Twitter much because it's not good for my mental health

I might occasionally drop in there to post but I don't feel a huge obligation anymore pff,, feels like a curse was lifted off my shoulders lmao

#Grim rambles #I'm still into Spooky Month btw it's just that the Minecraft rot is taking over lol #and a bit of Homestuck too since I started reading it thanks to a friend (you know who you are /silly)#Also fwiw I'm scared of any video game based fandoms on any platform that isn't Tumblr tbh #and kinda Insta but I don't rly interact with fandoms there I'm mostly there to post lol #Twitter is notorious for having sucky fandom spaces

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rosekasa · 1 year ago

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following up from My Body Is Being Concerning, today i learned that i am in fact capable of experiencing a panic attack so severe that i faint

#sorry for talking about this im just. Processing. bc wtf was that #but also when u think about it... pretty metal right #i know this sounds very sucky but like. there are other good things happening in my life so it kinda offsets This #im upset and a bit shaken that this happened as an Isolated Incident #but like. im drawing lots right now! and feeling good about that. so it's okay. but wtf #maybe will delete this later? my brain still feels fuzzy #hopefully the last post of this genre for a while i dont like the vibe it's been bringing to ladynoir brainrot blog #i think it's weird because there's like a LOT of pressure im experiencing in most parts of my life rn which clearly seem to be taking a toll #but the one thing im actually consciously spending time on (art and writing) has been going well. so i feel like. i at least have This #idk why i feel like this is necessary to post #i guess it just helps to know that y'all know that there r weird things afoot behind the url because it feels less like i have to be alone #with it #♡alizeh talks♡#vent #panic attack mention

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peppermintfreak · 6 months ago

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#oc; rubik #kinda sucky but still want a digital footprint

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girl-bateman · 9 months ago

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Shivering and head jerks have stopped ! Yay ! I did sleep through this entire day which is less yay. But still.

#i slept from 13-16 😩 and i still havent gotten out of bed #but rn everything feels kinda sucky and heavy #bet ehh it'll get sorted eventually 🙏

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your-local-uwu-artist · 2 years ago

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*puts every bitchy trait onto mayor bitchboy*

I am torn between makin this character my punchin bag and giving him a half assed somehow wholesome semi redemption arc where he's still a fucking bitchboy but his also homosexual,(and homophobic: schrondinger's homo) and he kisses the wimpy lackey sidekick character that follows him around

#like not bitchboy/pos but a I hate you/pos as in like a love to hate kinda way #Like a you are a jerk I want you to fail but please fall in love with somebody who's just as much of a coward as you #I want to crash the wedding with the eggman I have an announcement to make audio #and af the end of the story you still suck ass but your not pure evil sucky your just like fucking middleschool who jury learned cusswords #Kinda sucky so like: you don't need to go to jail or anything to extreme just please step on a lot of legislation #O MEANT LEGOS NOT LEGISLATION WTF AUTOCORRECT

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fuckingventy · 1 year ago

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gods bravest narcissist (only got a little passive aggressive at all my friends cancelling on my birthday)

#I’m really upset actually and I’m being so brave about it actually #all is an exaggeration admittedly. half.#but it’s kinda shitty to back out of plans the night before esp for someone’s birthday #their stuff is important it’s not blowing me off for frivolous things but it’s still sucky #literally had to hold myself back from ripping apart the relationship with my teeth until it’s just blood and bones and nothing repairable #and they say narcs can’t grow. gritting my teeth.#im gentle im gentle im gentle (said with blood in my mouth)#vent #actually narcissistic

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bisaster-energy · 1 year ago

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i do get making cas essentially human i understand that he can adjust to it and actually enjoy life like that. but um. i just think he can be just as fulfilled as a full blown angel

#human cas fics fuck severely they go hard #but i cant really vibe with cas like. just ''being human'' endgame #cos we already know no matter if he can fly no matter if he has grace he won't BE human that's an entirely different species ya dig #if the show was normal about non-human creatures being people as much as humans are #i probably wouldn't mind as much? but the show is very very sucky about that so #they scratch the surface on nonhumans being capable of like. fear and hopelessness and love.#and instead of really having salmondean explore this they just. forget about it and maybe the cycle restarts in another motw ep #ik it probably aligns with the overall copification of those 2 and it makes me so full of malice...#what im saying is cas is decidedly other. a creature an incredibly powerful one.#and i think it really shows that him not being human separates him from them. he's not as trusted #even after 12 years :/ it's kinda easy to oust him cos he keeps relationships with heaven.#which brings me to the whole ''oh fuck angels we hate angels oh but um not you cas!!'' thing like bro he's still an angel #you pick which monsters u find worthy of redemption but never fully accept them for what they are and discard em pretty easily #so yeah i think having cas be graceless is interesting and even makes sense but ig it just seems too easy on the winchesters #they never had to really accept cas as a full powered angel cos honestly they way they remember it #cas at full power wings in tact was just an asshole and he was barely ever back to that: comfortable in his prime after like s7 wtv #once it's all over and done with i think it'd be cool if cas could have all his wings and power in tact and just be at peace like that #he's an angel but he doesn't have to be a soldier anymore he can quite literally do anything now whole point of free will #and yeah he can choose to be graceless sure but he can never be human anyway. physically at his core he's something Else and i think #dean should have to like. live with that tbh #they never have to REALLY tackle the ''monsters are people too'' aspect and angel cas endgame would prove that regardless #he IS family. they dont NEED him to be an angel to USE him but regardless he is what he is and #they are fine with him not being human because he's family and they love him who cares what you are.#cos in cas' mind he needs his power to be useful but also he cannot truly be part of them while he is noticeably Other due to their bias #this is true for other characters obviously jack rowena crowley #sam's whole thing with benny 💀#but this is a cas post and i haven't watched the show in years so this isn't like. a cited essay lmao just ramblings #in short i just want cas to be fully angel while not feeling he HAS to be for others' sake and have the brothers be genuinely cool with it #cas my best friend cas #cas studies

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salsflore · 2 years ago

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going to sleep soon ～ let me get some things off my chest here.... my eyes are super itchy again (fell into the trap of snuggling my cat even when i swore i wouldn't do it again)

#cw vent #this is bc i have a math exam tmrw I’M SORRYYY i feel some kind of way about that #this is the first exam where i am near confident i will fail. and its just kinda sucky #my mental maths is really poor and due to the fact i skipped grades (unable to afford Education) i don’t know a lot of things my peers know #my results as they are right now? theyre genuinely ok. not bad. but theres still gaps made by the years of missing out on school #this is one of them #its so embarrassing having my classmate look at me weirdly when i ask her about something that should totally be obvious or #something silly like that. i don’t know. its especially hard for me to be interested in maths because my old maths teacher has #literally fucked me up i’m so intimidated by every math teacher ever and i just hate the feeling of being stupid or whatever #i don’t enjoy being comforted by A+ students bc theyre like cmonn its totally fine!! i relate i got a 39/40 :(#or my friends who make jokes about how stupid i am and its just aghhh #its already been almost a year since ive enrolled in school again but i still feel so out of place #so miserable i could just die #so miserable i think i SHOULD die #and i'm just nervous about getting an absolute 0. failing my first test made me want to literally kill myself #sorry for being dramatic but when you have a sister whos awards and certificates fill your house shelf its kind of like........#aghhhh!!!! maybe i should just accept that i'm good for nothing at all!!!!!!#not that great with numbers or formulas. probably not that great at writing either. nor am i as eloquent as i'd like to be ～#not artistically inclined. science is a bore. not ~ naturally ~ adept with neither languages nor history! psychology! economics! sports!#forgive me for not being able to do anything good at all ... zzz

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the-sill-of-all-sills · 2 years ago

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Todays a pain day :(

#sill talks about stuff #chronic pain #scoliosis #I mean it's kinda nice in a weird way #because its been a long time since I had an actual flare up #so its nice that I seem to be doing better overall #still a bit sucky right now tho wah

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portokali · 2 years ago

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#i think theyre gonna fire me from my job.. yahoo #like ik im not the best they have n still make mistakes n the owner has it out for me #but im learninggg im improvinggg i get along w everyone n im soo good at teamwork i pull so much weight #idk if they have the patience for me tho cause theyre interviewing new ppl n i feel if someones abt to go thats me 🤢🤢🤢#but idk maybe them not firing me will be worse in a way 🧍#its a kinda sucky environment like i love my coworkers n they love me too but the owner n the manager succcc

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ame-to-ame · 2 days ago

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Oh this sucks

#delete later #im fine im fine it's fine i just. need a moment #sometimes life is so fine and everything is so normal that i forget i can be still triggered by things #and that's fine and everything is ok. i just need a moment #having such a fun time that i almost forgot i have trauma haha and it just has to pop up every now and then #I don't want to have to explain anything but i fear i won't be able to set my boundaries unless i. casually mention that im an sa victim.#but I don't want to explain anything #and I don't want to be triggered by small things #and i want to be normal so badly #so maybe I'll just. pretend to be fine and normal and let it roll over.#tw sa #i just. im fine. im fine #it's just a feeling of your gut dropping a little #idk what's worse #the dread of having to do the little disclaimer or guilt of not telling someone #ik nobody technically has the right to know but it feels sucky sometimes to feel like im hiding it #bc it's kinda like why would you hide it what are you scared of #and unfortunately i am scared of people treating me differently once they know #and ik it's fucked up ik it makes my life harder ik that im allowed to have certain things be made easier for me #bc i did go through sth fucked up. bc i am chronically ill. bc i have conditions and shit not in my control.#but idk it's just that im fragile ok and I can't take the pity it makes me rather want to kill myself it makes me really hate myself #bc most of the time the response is with the undertone of im so glad that's not me and i can't stand it #Idk im tired #i cant believe i have to go through this over and over for the rest of my life #that ill have to give a fucking slideshow or sth of disclosures everytime i get into a more serious relationship #be it platonic or romantic. oh god. even more if it's romantic

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