#bc i did go through sth fucked up. bc i am chronically ill. bc i have conditions and shit not in my control.
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#delete later#im fine im fine it's fine i just. need a moment#sometimes life is so fine and everything is so normal that i forget i can be still triggered by things#and that's fine and everything is ok. i just need a moment#having such a fun time that i almost forgot i have trauma haha and it just has to pop up every now and then#I don't want to have to explain anything but i fear i won't be able to set my boundaries unless i. casually mention that im an sa victim.#but I don't want to explain anything#and I don't want to be triggered by small things#and i want to be normal so badly#so maybe I'll just. pretend to be fine and normal and let it roll over.#tw sa#i just. im fine. im fine#it's just a feeling of your gut dropping a little#idk what's worse#the dread of having to do the little disclaimer or guilt of not telling someone#ik nobody technically has the right to know but it feels sucky sometimes to feel like im hiding it#bc it's kinda like why would you hide it what are you scared of#and unfortunately i am scared of people treating me differently once they know#and ik it's fucked up ik it makes my life harder ik that im allowed to have certain things be made easier for me#bc i did go through sth fucked up. bc i am chronically ill. bc i have conditions and shit not in my control.#but idk it's just that im fragile ok and I can't take the pity it makes me rather want to kill myself it makes me really hate myself#bc most of the time the response is with the undertone of im so glad that's not me and i can't stand it#Idk im tired#i cant believe i have to go through this over and over for the rest of my life#that ill have to give a fucking slideshow or sth of disclosures everytime i get into a more serious relationship#be it platonic or romantic. oh god. even more if it's romantic
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