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I splurged on a new pencil/sketchbook today (late Christmas present/early bday present??) & WOW😳 I’m obsessed…💘 EXPECT A LOT MORE ART🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
#literally idk if it’s the paper or the pencil or what#but drawing is SO smooth and so buttery and…it’s all I wanted to do today😆♥️#who better to practice with than Buster Keaton & some other silent film stars♥️♥️♥️#(im obsessed with silent films…they are SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD)#anyways I think I’m also going to draw a lot of Kurosawa films as well#because he was just😫🤌#I love good movies#I saw a David lynch film yesterday & now ive seen everything he’s made🙏#my favorites are twin peaks & mullholland drive#I don’t think I need to watch eraserhead again😆 but I did still like it bc I’m weird#sorry for the movie rant bahahahahahahahahaha#buster keaton#pencil illustration#pencil sketch#sketchbook#artists on tumblr
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— WE ARE OVER —
C.S
warnings: crying, swearing, breakup, arguing, yelling, cheating
if i missed any, lmk!!
summary: everything seemed perfect, until that one night you and chris break up after 2 years due to him cheating, read to find out more
a/n: writing this from experience/what happened to me with my ex, i have gotten away from him & i have a new bf now of 1 and a half years!! have an amazing time reading, any requests are taken!!
not proofread!!
chris talking = orange
matt talking = blue
nick talking = purple
you talking = white
me and chris were lay in bed, watching tiktoks, his arm lazily draped around my shoulder, im wearing his fresh love hoodie which hadn’t been released yet.
i felt happy, my head nuzzling into his shoulder as his thumb scrolls to another video, making us laugh as it was matt as a child
suddenly.
his phone buzzes, i look up at the notification, seeing a message pop up
sophia🩷
i had so much fun last night, literally can’t walk lol!! x
my heart stopped, fell to my stomach and rotted in that moment
my ears rang, a high pitched sound, my stomach felt sick
chris instantly looks at me, throwing his phone against the mattress
“babe, let me explain-“
i refuse to make eye contact with him and stand up
chris reaches to grab my wrist to pull me back down but i pull my arm away from him
“don’t fucking touch me christopher.”
his face drops, we usually only call eachother nicknames like
“baby, babe, love, ma”
but him being called his full name made his heart drop even lower than it was
i walk out of the room, seeing nick and matt and nick sat on the couch in the living room, watching a movie
chris walks out after me, leaning against the wall
nick and matt look up at me, then chris, then back to me
“hey, you okay?”
i just stand there, skin pale, tears swelling up my eyes
“babe-“
i turn to look at him
“shut the FUCK UP!”
my voice echoed off the walls, the tears streaming down my cheeks as i look away from chris and sit on the arm of the couch, feeling physically sick
matt looks at chris
“what the fuck did you do bro”
chris stammers
“i-i- babe, please, please hear me out.”
matt repeats himself, his voice louder than before
“what the fuck did you do chris?!”
i refuse to make eye contact with chris, looking at the floor
i say with a low voice, barely above a whisper
“explain yourself.”
chris sighs
“look, it was a mistake, we were drunk, i only want you baby-“
chris tries to grab my hand but i push him away
“oh so ‘drunk’ is your excuse?! newsflash!! that’s the oldest trick in the book chris! you wanted to fuck her, just because i didn’t want to because i had been working all fucking-“
my words get cut off as more emotions hit me, tears staining my cheeks & neck
matt and nicks faces drop, realising what had happened
“dude, that’s fucked”
chris rolls his eyes
“will you shut the fuck up matt?!”
matt throws back at him
“no i won’t ’shut the fuck up’ because you know she loves you, with EVERYTHING!!”
his voice raises higher and higher
“and you go and fuck another bitch like she was nothing to you??! i’m fucking disappointed”
i look at chris
“we are fucking over chris. OVER!”
chris’ face has guilt and regret written all over it
“baby, you don’t mean tha-“
i cut him off
“oh yeah i do”
matt grabs my shoulder in a comforting way
chris holds back tears
“so you wanna fucking break up? i’m sorry you didn’t touch me when i was horny as fuck, my dick was sore!!!”
i scoff
“you could of jerked off chris?! not go fuck a whole other girl?! what the fuck is wrong with you?!”
matt chimes in
“Chris ive heard you jacking it a few times, what’s the problem with yesterday?”
i cut matt off
“also, thought you were drunk? or was you feeling like that much of a fucking whore?!”
chris stares at me
“look, it’s not like your any better?! your never here your always working at that shitty job?! what do you expect me to do! you come home, sleep, i wake up, your at work?!”
anger bubbles up inside of me, is he fucking kidding?!
“to put food on the fucking table chris?! without me working you’d be on your ass!”
chris grabs his shoes, phone and car keys
“just don’t talk to me.”
that was the last straw
“oh so your the one leaving now? proving you don’t give a fuck!!”
chris slips his shoe on and sighs
“your the only person i truly care about y/n”
his voice was low and shaky
i didn’t even realise he’d said that because of how quiet he’d said it
“if your gonna walk out of my life, i’d rather you do it, right fucking now, and go fuck sophia whilst your at it”
chris’ emotions pour over him, tears streaming down his face
“have an amazing life y/n, i hope you find the right guy for you one day, clearly, i’m not him”
he walks out of the door, slamming it behind him
no more late night tiktoks
no more fresh love hoodies
no more sweet kisses
no more bubble baths with him
no more chris
a/n: this was litreally made in 10 mins i’m so sorry it’s so bad but i hate reliving that day 😭 but sophia if ur seeing this n you know who tf u are, his dick wasn’t enough pleasure anyway, my bf now has an amazing cock, anyways , enough trauma dumping, hope you guys enjoyed!!
with lots of love & fat boobs — mia!!❄️
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#sturniolo#sturniolo triplets#chris sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#chris smut#matt sturniolo#sturniolo fanfic#sturniolo smut#sturniolo x reader#sturnsvelocity#breakup#chris#sad thoughts#sad poetry#sad shit
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Yesterday I wrote this post espousing that all of Ralsei's more "suspicious" or "mysterious" moments can be explained by the fact that he's being dragged around by Deltarune's narrative like a chew toy, in a similar way to how Kris is being dragged around by us players. I used this to explain how he could have gotten to the Cyber World, or why he revealed information about the Roaring at the exact moment he did.
But I didn't have a convincing way to use this to explain why he acts the way he does in the post-Spamton NEO fight. Until now.
For those who need a refresher - after you beat Spamton NEO, Susie stops the party and tried to draw attention to how weird the entire ordeal was. Kris is very clearly shaken and distraught, and we have an option to let them voice that distress. In response, Ralsei tells them not to worry about it, it meant nothing, and to think about nice things instead until they feel better. Which, while this seems like a sweet thing to do on the surface, many people have interpreted this as Ralsei trying to keep everything running smoothly, to downplay all the implications of what Spamton said and was trying to achieve for himself, and in doing so disregarding Kris's mental state and trying to fob them off with hollow platitudes.
Where people have made the mistake, I feel, is that Ralsei is doing this because he's trying to keep this information hidden from Kris, or because he doesn't actually care about their feelings and is only interested in serving the prophecy or the narrative. But actually, I think he probably didn't have much of a choice except to respond in the way he does.
Consider Ralsei's position for a moment. He has waited all by himself in the dark for his entire life, in service of a prophecy and the heroes it speaks of, chained figuratively - and perhaps even literally - to the game's narrative structure. Restore the balance of light and dark, save the world, don't ask questions. He has known no other structure, no other way of being. Perhaps he has privately lamented this fate, perhaps he feels that he is trapped and has no real influence... it makes no difference. He cannot break free of the narrative's yoke.
We can infer that Ralsei knows about the player, because he has conversations with Kris while we're distracted with Susie's antics. He knows that Kris is in a very similar situation to him. I'm willing to bet he also knows that making statements like "I understand what you're going through" or "We'll find a way to fix this" right in front of us, at that exact moment in time, would absolutely NOT help the situation, no matter how comforting Kris might find it.
Because not only does Ralsei not currently have the means to help liberate Kris from their strings - he cannot even liberate HIMSELF right now - and not only would it be even more of a meaningless gesture than a simple offer of cake or hugs as a result - but to draw attention to those strings in the first place would be an extremely dangerous thing to do, because then the players would KNOW that he's working to free them from our influence. And the Narrative would know, too. He cannot afford to draw too much attention to himself or the extent of what he knows at this moment in time. Not yet.
Indeed, perhaps he is banking on players seeing him as suspicious and callous, to draw attention away from the fact that he is actually very much on Kris's side and wants to help them. Remember, he has had at least one opportunity at this point to explain himself to Kris without prying eyes. There's a good chance that they know more than they're letting on, as well.
And this doesn't even take into account that Ralsei may very well be physically unable to say anything else, due to the possibility that the narrative heavily restricts what he can say or do.
Perhaps I am giving the fluffy boy too much credit here, I don't know. But it's fascinating to consider, nonetheless.
#rambling#deltarune#ralsei#kris dreemurr#spamton neo#deltarune chapter 2#narrative#doomed by the narrative#your choices don't matter#theory#analysis#thoughts and speculation
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Guys,,,, guys the gen chem is finally starting to click.
#I’m over here doing the worlds easiest thermodymics questions#don’t let me fool you#I’m talking free energy type stuffs#but it’s better than I was literally yesterday#RICE tables had me chewing on the bars of my enclosure /neg
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brush test slash rendering practice with ayem
#morrowind#almalexia#the elder scrolls#tes#tes fanart#art#id in alt#ok that's all the tags this needs ANYWAY#i started this 1. for experimenting with coloring from dark to light#2. because i wanted to draw someone kind of back turned to the camera#3. rendering practice for hair particularly#4. to go from sketch to rendering rather than doing lines to see if that doesn't smooth out my workflow a bit#5. because i've never actually used this brush past flat coloring#and out of those 1. i don't think i had enough of an idea of the palette or process to jump into dark to light painting so i did scrap that#and go with my usual “flat color with one of the mid shadow tones add shadows add light”#i do think that painting from shadows out is a thing people do digitally i just think this wasn't the drawing to test it on for me#i think i'd need to look at some other peoples processes and start with a more fleshed out idea of where to go#2 and 3 i think worked out. i'm gradually figuring hair out which i think is sick#4 i also think worked out for me which is also sick because i do get caught on lines a lot. they're fun sometimes but i think some drawings#benefit better from not having them and that it might be a bit faster#and of course everything i do is so that i can draw slightly faster and better for next artfight#as for 5. i have mixed feelings on this brush but that might be because i hate change. and also because i started this drawing on the 15th#of november and finished it yesterday. so im kind of just sick of working on and looking at it#it was a valuable learning experience and i think it came out well! i am also going to drop to my knees and rejoice when i can finally#close this file out and free medibang paint from under it so i can work on Literally Anything Else#thank you almalexia for being my test subject i should've used a reference for your armor when i did the sketch but i didn't#maybe the crown looks weird because of it maybe it doesn't. not my problem anymore i can draw other elves again#my art#iiii think i forgot a my art tag last time
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pretty & cute witch men
#witch hat tag#orufrey#i'm not drawing as much or as well as i'd like to be doing. i'm trying to get through a comic i've been really wanting to do#but i'm just finding it so hard. disheartening. btw the 2nd one relates to some official art of qif wearing a dress like the girls#and the 4th one relates to how i've been drawing EXTREMELY SMALL for years. idk how to explain it but i always clicked 'fit to screen'#and so all my art EVER has looked bad when you zoom in bc it's already like size 1 zoomed in to the MAX pfhgguguhfpfhGHAHHHHH#i was so confused allll this time why brushes always look different for me than what they're supposed to#'wow this brush is so jaggedy..really rather jaggedy...calling it the Jagged Cai Special..bringing it out for those jaggedy moments..#really quite jaggedy i must say...' and it's literally not jaggedy#but now i have to get used to how all those brushes that i'd gotten used to indeed look how they're supposed to finally. Alarming#I have simply been working out absolutely everything by myself for years and that's why my technical progress is slow#ppl say my progress is fast and i certainly have improved much since i began doing all this but#like..it took me a year and half to start using a program where i could Colour In The Lines aka the..whatever it's called. whatever..#just on my lonely confused solemn journey to express gay love better than yesterday.. -_- *picks up my pack n continues through the snow*#btw thank you sm for people's kind words enjoying my narumitsu art & fic over the christmas & new year period <3
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Hello, can i have a modern sylvain pls??? PS: i love how you draw scrimblos
Finally another Wheel Spin and thankfully modern equals I get to draw someone with fish somewhere on their outfit. (Overlay layer my friend how I missed you)
#fe three houses#sylvain jose gautier#also shout out to literally everyone yesterday who backed me up and supported me on making sure i wasnt in pain#regardless of how others told me to take pain meds cause hoo boy#i do feel better today without the pressure of being a disappointment by taking care of pain as need be#esp since im making sure to not overuse it - like im still obeying the times in between the doses and not doing more than allowed#and so yeehaw managed to speed run sylvain aka it took 25 minutes and i know this bc i set a timer for 30mins#just to make sure i didnt overdo it from aiming to please too hard while still recovering#truly wheel rng and desktop timers my beloved#they really help me lmao................. i .... need the motivation to start too so setting a timer makes me have to start#instead of putting it off and off by scrolling here or staring at a blank canvas pondering nothing
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Catching up on all of your art and, holy shit, you are genuinely beocming one of my inspirations for my own art. Like, up there with professionals in the industry.
Keep up the good work, Spectre! You're going places!
The fact that I see this when I'm at an all-time low of feeling talentless with my art;;;; tysm omg ueeuueueueueueueueuweue,,,,,,,,
#thank you so much for the ask;;;#I.... I feel so honored#I actually felt really low today like it feels like I'm just churning out shit-tier art#and to be compared to professionals;;; when that's my literal life goal.....#it just rocks me heart and feels#I worked so hard to get where I am today#constantly trying to evolve my drawing style since day one and become better than I was yesterday#so that I could be a professional indie artist someday#thank you. thank you so much#I feel a bit more reassured about my art now#ziku's insane rambles
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before & after :-)
#b and a#i dug like 5 lil jingle ball toys out from under the furniture yesterday#& my cat has already lost all but 1 of them#i had a realization while making my coffee this morning also.#i think i’ve mentioned this somewhere on this blog before but#the og kel & co story was this like. sci-fi fantasy type story wherein the kids come across a portal#&. despite their better judgment. jump through it#& well. see. recently i’ve been building what is essentially a kel & co multiverse#i have talked about this too i think#& i REALIZED that the kids jumping through the portal in the og story totally connects everything bc#it’s like they opened the multiverse basically.#i sound like a madman. i’m not making sense. basically. it’s all connected. & it all. ties back to the original story somehow#i am literally going to make a whole ass detective board about this. red yarn & all.#the kel & co universe is significantly weirder than i initially thought.
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the URGE to post about my w2h x toh fusion au except im kinda shit at art and explaining concepts (please ask questions if you have them it may move my dumb brain to think it’s worth sharing)
#w2h#w2h au#welcome to hell#toh#toh au#the owl house#I’m literally better at drawing TITANS than humans that seems slightly not logical#no the meph animal question I asked yesterday is not at all related to this in any way what are you talking about#fusion au
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ughhh i have such a bad headache i cant draw 👇 vaguely successful studies from like a week or two ago
#ive barely drawn both yesterday and today this sucks but i literally couldn't sit at my desk this afternoon#anyways on the portraits. they only took 20 and 30 minutes respectively which im counting as a win considering they look 10 times better#than the one from like a month ago that took two hours and looked baaaad. to me idek why it got notes#i might regret posting this tmrw morning but im going to sleep now i feel saur bad
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btw guys can we all just finally agree to stop making jokes about zato one being blind please im at my fucking limit can we just stop with trying to be funny about it. can we maybe think for like 3 fucking seconds before we make a joke about a characters blindness when the series itself loves to just conveniently forget about it and hand wave it away and make it a joke. please. im literally begging. like lets maybe think about why joking about him not actually being blind or haha isnt it so funny hes using a computer or whatever arent actually funny. i dont even like zato one dont make me be the guy to put my foot down and say this shit is annoying.
#every day i see something about zato that makes me so mad i feel like a teenage boy on xbox live but the jokes on his blindness r the worst#like. LOL. you arent funny. this sucks.#txt#sorry still fuming about something from earlier. and from yesterday. and from a few days before that.#<- ALL DIFFERENT THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARENT FUNNY!#literally arent any better than the 20 year old comic compilation jokes.#what if i fucking microwaved you with my brain.
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If ive caught covid im gonna be so pissed
#all my tests are expired so i need to go buy more but if i catch the girl who came to class less than a week after getting covid#without a mask. im gonna throttle her#i did not spend 4 years being careful and masking for a stupid ass to ruin it#AND it would also be massively awful bc i forgot my mask yesterday and therefore wouldve potentially infected all my classmates#which i would never forgive myself about#ent talks#on GOD i better be fine#this is ìn reaction to me being short of breath and coughing today which are the first non-common cold symptoms#literally i'd rather it be some breathing infection or virus than covid#also my flatmate is coughing like that so if it's not covid i caught it from her#im just so pissed and anxious
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trying to get a diagnosis for ur GI issues is like...oh, you're having GI problems? let's give u some medicines that will make them worse while we try to figure it out.
#I've had a stressful day other than my ct so that probably wasn't helping#my whatever-it-is flares up when I'm stressed a lot of the time#but the colonoscopy was literally inducing the same kind of suffering I've been going through BUT WORSE#and my digestive system is still not back to normal from it#idk if the weird mixture they made me drink for my ct made it worse again or not#but I would've sworn yesterday I was feeling a little better#while today I'm having an absolutely horrible time#gi issues#gi health#health issues#diagnosis journey
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IVE NEVER GOT THIS HOWE DIALOGUE. THROWING UPPPPPPPPPPPP
#GOD. THIS GAME. RENDON HOWE DIE HORRIBLY CHALLENGE (EASY)#tay plays dao#A FOOL HUSK OF A DAUGHTER LIKELY TO END HER DAYS UNDER A ROCK IN THE DEEP ROADS????????#'bryce couslands little spitfire all dressed up and still playing the man' has always been one of my favorite lines Ever. AND NOW THIS ???#BRO.......................................................................................#oc: elspeth#for her this is taking place like. a bit less than 2 months after the deep roads supertrauma i was talking abt yesterday lol#her being at her weakest psychologically and. dsfkjhjfsdfd#hearing THAT?????????? and being like ok. some points have been made#but also after the deep roads shes simultaneously stuck in this ''nothing is real and nothing matters'' mindse so it doesnt hurt as much#since shes already been telling herself all that for months anyway.#like yeah ok and what of it. i might be nothing but im abt to cut YOU into nothing and that will make me feel better <3#GJKGFJKFG#i also think its so funny going from the deep roads to howe's estate quest. like going frm the closest thing in lore to hell itself#to the mansion of some fucking scrawny prissy loser who hasnt picked up a sword in 20 years w guards who dont know shit abt shit#the whole party just. cutting thru them like a wave sjdksjk#ANYWAY NOT TO TIE EVERYTHING BACK TO THE DEEP ROADS BUT IT IS LITERALLY ALL ABT THE DEEP ROADS BTW <3 ALL OF IT <3
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Lol I keep on doing this, saying I'd come back to tumblr to only disappear again 😂😭
#and i hate it bc i miss being on here#but also i don't have to force myself or feel guilty for it#bc if i'm fr being on social media is just so time consuming and also not what is good for my mental health often#and that includes tumblr#it's not even that it's a toxic place (at least not the content i'm consuming) but sometimes i just rather spend my time with people irl#meeting someone than on social media and like focus on my life#the last month or so was just really difficult for me and i haven't been feeling so bad mentally in forever#i mean it always is like that that time of the year but i feel like i was worse this year#whenever autumn comes around with the darkness and cold i seem to hit a low mentally#when i tell you how much better my mood is in summer spring how much better i feel everyday regardless of everything else#i get people like autumn but for me its literally the worst and winter too altough at some point it gets better#maybe i adapt and maybe because i spend more time outside around christmas when i go home that's usually a turning point#and ig also the lights of december make it a bit better#but mid october to november is awful#this year the weather was much worse beginning of october was much worse#i feel like i lowkey have this seasonal mood disorder idk#but i barely managed to go to classes and i had no motivation#usually i always make myself study and do the things i have to atleast altough i often terribly procrastinate#but now i was barely able to do this and i had things to do but i couldn't make myself i missed a deadline closely#luckily my professors are the best but i felt so horrible for it how i was unable to get it done#sunlight is just so good for my mood and ik how doctors say how you should avoid it because you can get skincancer#but like i'd rather than my mental health being this bad (not that i want either)#i already miss summer so much and being happier#but tbh i haven't felt this good as I do today in weeks and even this whole week was better#i exercised more than usual altough i tried to in the last weeks i couldn't as often as i normally do so maybe this actually helps a lot#and i studied yesterday today and i will tomorrow i finally feel motivation again#besides i also tried to break up with my bf so that was also tough but i couldn't lol#i tried talking to him and tell him in the nicest way but he didn't get what i was trying to do and i couldn't say more bc i felt horrible#but maybe that's for the better altough i had these thoughts for a while that he just isn't the one for me and that we're too different...#i do really like him as a person the way he treats me and i'm still into him but i just felt like it wouldn't work
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