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Also ive been fucking around with the settings on my phone and

1. Fuck google to hell obviously

2. I am truly too dumb for this

3. Apparently all the stuff in my calendar (classes+tasks+events+etc) was saved in google. And not in my phone. And it disappeared and nothing ive done has fixed it.

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Task-grazing my way through cleaning my room and i found all my yarn. Dumbass to the last degree.

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hi really sorry to bother you but i just want to let you know that you reblogged a post from another tumblr user

I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me

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My pride joy at the farm (only had one bag i could carry things with). 5 varieties. This is my ideal state year round : full of pumpkin

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"I have a pen and paper, i can draw" i'm pondering the most efficient way to finagle some sort of light table. Like every year.

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I appear to have lost 4 balls of white yarn i bought 4 years ago

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The last few pages are truly the hqrdest to read. Elinor ostrom in 3 pages i will vanquish you

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Finally starting my new fic! Here is the first chapter of

Devil on my Shoulder

Rating: Explicit (mostly for violence and angst reasons right now, although it might become a tiny bit smutty in the future)

Pairing: Payneland!

POV: Multi

Most important tags: angst, hurt/comfort, evil doppelgangers in their Bonnie and Clyde era, falling in love

Triggers: canon trauma, violence, depiction of a toxic relationship (not the main romance!)

Length: who the fuck knows, but this one is gonna be long!

First sentence:

The jaws of Hell are armed with iron teeth.

Summary:

Despite himself, Charles was mesmerized by this strange version of Edwin Payne that had something of Hellfire to him. And he was so very close … “His eyes are decidedly less honest than yours. Intriguing... Never pegged Charles Rowland for a liar.”

“Careful, luv.” The voice was a sing-song drawl, accompanied by the same scraping sound drawing ever closer. “You know I get jealous.” There, lit faintly by moonlight, was Charles Rowland – face pale, grin wide and eyes cast in shadows, twirling a cricket bat that had been studded with nails glinting wickedly like iron stars. “What you think, Win? I say there can only be one.”

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A string of mysterious grave robbings leads the Dead Boy Detectives to stumble into a ritual, summoning strange versions of themselves, who have experienced a very different afterlife. Not only is there a pack of hellhounds hot on their heels, they also won’t stop at chaos nor bloodshed to carve out their place in the world – and remove their superfluous doppelgangers in the process.

As Crystal desperately tries to master her powers and keep the fragile fabric of reality from unraveling, the boys need to stop their nefarious doubles.

But to make matters infinitely more confusing, the two delinquents are obsessively, madly in love...

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i actually really get evan's reaction in episode 4, after learning that k is the one that killed him while trying to fix his arm like yeah man. i decide what my problems are. you don't have any sort of say actually. and when k keeps talking back about how he doesn't take care of himself enough it's like no this is not about my issues rn!! motherfucker you killed me!!! this is not a back and forth! you KILLED ME!! I'M telling you stuff rn and you have to accept it or leave me the fuck alone

and of course i get where k is coming from because it is true that if i had a friend like evan it would be frustrating and i think erika saying that k has had all of their social skills taught by The Internet tm is super interesting and a great character trait BUT i have been evan so many times that it's really getting me. like hey man you're not hearing me right now. my issue is not that i don't care of myself enough, my issue is that you killed me.

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The Weugan scared my fuckin' pig. Sam's fuckin' pissed.

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"I missed you so much. Everyone did the right thing. If I had your family, I'd be there too. And I think that going back to Chicago and playing basketball can see you serving everybody, and I get that, and I'm just trying to find somebody to serve. And it's really hard because sometimes I feel really stupid because... I think about 'family on six' a lot. And I wish that I had known to take that as it was meant, which was as a profound kindness, and not something that was literally gonna be true... (sighs) It doesn't make sense to have a treehouse with a sports room and a demon room. That's not part of the same... there's no category that has those, that has 'demons' and 'sports' as the two instances in the category. So maybe we were never going to have a life -- or maybe I just missed my shot. Maybe, you know -- I thought for a second, I was like, maybe Jammer's family's going to adopt me... for three months until I'm 18. Maybe you can squeeze a whole childhood into three months, and this family that has no idea who I am... (sighs) I--I just had a lot of dreams that didn't make sense. And I--I was talking to Sam about it, but it's just that life, and the shape of life is so fucking strong, and if there's not a space for you -- if there's not a little taped off place for you to go, then it doesn't matter how anyone feels 'cause you need a place, not just... kindness."

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Dimension 20: Misfits and Magic Season 2, Episode 7: The Heart of Weugan ↳ bonus erika when jammer calls evan essential:

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Neverafter

“Because you were lied to does not mean that everything was a lie. Do not take the crimes of those who have manipulated us and put them at the feet of the world." -Cinderella

“The real friends, the ones that make miracles happen, the ones greater than any treasure you could find on any adventure, they see the wolf in you and love it too.” -Grandma 

“Purpose, true purpose is always down the scarier path through the darker part of the forest.”-Grandma 

"You are seeing something you absolutely should not see, the face of a divinity you do not worship, the smile of a devil you never believed in." -DM Brennan

“The face moves as though no expression of contempt can satisfy it.” -Brennan

“Real? I don’t give a shit. I don’t come from a nice story. I believe in you, and I believe in me, and I think we’re just real enough.” -Scheherazade 

“The thing that’s approaching you, It’s not as vast as what you perceived in the ink, but it’s closer to that than it is to you. And the problem with this thing is that unlike the things in the ink, it’s getting bigger, and it’s getting angrier. And it knows you.” -Brennan

“As the Gander and Goose have their powers within the realms of the Neverafter, times of shadow, times of plenty, the wolf is death which is endings. Which in a land of stories endings are perhaps the most important thing.” -The Fairy with the Turquoise Hair

“I met death, and death wants me to live! I don’t want to go back to my other story where I listen to my fucking elders!” -Ylfa 

“Gerard has already lived his story, and what happens after happily ever after is that more things happen, or I’m just going to be a two dimensional piece of paper.” -Gerard 

“Do you think that you found true love, or do you think you just found the first person that could turn you back into a prince?”-Rosamund

“Don’t learn lessons from my torment.” -The Gander

“Sometimes when you feel like your whole point is to be a helper, you just have to help at any cost, and that’s pretty unhelpful. Sometimes I didn’t have a good answer, and I should have just said that, and I’ll do better to just tell you when I don’t know.” -Cricket

 “You don’t get beginnings without endings, okay?” -Ylfa

“Some things simply are, and in time, all things will end. But if you fear that you have made a pact with something that cannot live within your heart, then what comfort i can offer is this. In no corner of the long ages of all the worlds that i have walked, have I ever for one moment felt the desire to devour everything.” -Big Bad Wolf

“Sometimes things are too late to be rewritten or undone, but there are more blank pages ahead of us, Little Red.” -Big Bad Wolf

“There is no story you can begin without making the promise of its ending, and only strange and very dangerous things try to make a story that never ends.” -Big Bad Wolf

“It is a deep and unsettling dread when you realize that you can, by taking charge, cause harm. It is an even deeper dread when you realize that in taking charge, you will cause harm. You will not make every perfect choice, and the fear that you will make some choice that does some wrong within the world is exactly what your enemies are hoping will stop you. So, we do as best as we can to do as good as we can, but not to let the Neverafter fall into the fate that the faeries intend for it.” -Snow White

“I think the story that’s happening now, I’ve come to learn, will maybe lead to something better. Because you’re right stories don’t just end.” -Gerard

“I don’t think you get love just by deserving it.” -Rosamund

“Everyone you ever knew who told you they would keep you safe as long as you behaved was already hurting you.” -La Bete

“All the finery in the world, is just a mask…” -La Bete

“Live your life without apology, little girl. It is never wrong to tell the truth about what you are.” -La Bete

“It’s never too late to decide who you want to be.” -Tom Thumb

“How convenient that in the moment of learning the lesson, you no longer need to have learned it.” -Brennan

“Because either all the bad things that happened to you were random, just chaos, hundreds and millions of choices of other people that just have nothing to do with you and your own story, or all the bad things that happened to you were destined to happen.” -Cinderella

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BRENNAN LEE MULLIGAN YOU FUCKING MONOLOGUE MONSTER /POS

[Misfits and Magic season 2, episode 8]

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Evan Kelmp is a paladin who just made his oath to Tad in this essay i will