#but it was too long

[honeyflower-bellybower]

You know the line in atyd that's like "they'd never really understood each other" or something? Well that's always fucking crushed me cause it's true on so many levels but also because you're sort of tricked into believing it's not for so long before that? Like, with the whole sharing scars thing (literally and figuratively) and all that you think they fall in love with each other exactly because they do understand each other. Right? But it's wrong.

Cause what they've always understood was the bad parts of each other. They understood the painful, butchered bits of one another, the abandonment, the hatred, the loneliness, the anger. Remus was able to forgive Sirius for The Prank because he understood his anger. Sirius could stand Remus' snapping for the same reason. But never the fragile, kind parts.

Remus never really understood that Sirius still loved his brother, not just the idea of him, or the memory of him, but the real, present, Death Eater Regulus. He never understood that Sirius felt guilty about leaving him.

Why? Because when Remus found his own Voldemort-associated 'family' with not-so-evil members his reaction was to fight. With them and for them. To free them, even those who weren't aware they needed help, even those who hated him for it, like Livia. He put himself in the way of harm and in danger of being thought traitorous by the light-side. He did everything Sirius blamed himself for not doing.

And he did it because he was put in that position after living and learning. Older. He didn't grow up in that position. He wasn't raised by that abusive parent. He was never a child trying to take care of his siblings and being punished for it. He was never convinced that was the normal way of life, or love. He didn't exactly have the nicest childhood, but he was able to recognize Greyback for what he was right away. When standing against him he never had to remind himself he was doing the right thing. He never wished that person loved him. He never had to struggle with contrasting feelings. He could take his "siblings"' side without being afraid of losing himself in the process. He never had to make sure he wasn't turning evil.

And Sirius could never understand why Remus would even consider standing with the werewolves, because they were exactly like his family, and he could not think of standing with his family. He loved his brother, yes, but he hadn't been able to save him, and trying any harder would've meant losing himself too. He didn't even really know whether Reg was salvageable or not. He knew how much he'd struggled to get away from the position Remus was willingly putting himself into.

They never understood each other, because they were confronted with the same question in different times, and gave different answers.

[ulyuxe]

Books read in 2024: PÜHA JA ÕUDNE LÕHN (SACRED AND TERRIBLE AIR) by Robert Kurvitz, Group Ibex (translation)

This is where nihilism leads. It is no longer what could be, or what could not be. It is. The entire world is a zone of imminent entroponetic catastrophe.

[duckies27]

Guess who's biting the bullet and adding Once Upon a Witchlight to my DND podcast list

Which makes 4

[gorillaxyz]

i made a new twitter its going to focus on self shipping >_> my other one is just gonna be rando reposts from now on i think. bc im embarrassed abt self shipping in front of my comedy collector mutual. even though hes completely fine with it LMFAO

[anthro-cat]

me when i write a lot for a post and then decide that nobody cares

[carrogath]

Chapters: 3/3 Fandom: 明日方舟 | Arknights (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Fiammetta/Mostima (Arknights) Characters: Fiammetta (Arknights), Mostima (Arknights) Additional Tags: Sexual Content, Established Relationship Series: Part 4 of Salvatrix Summary:

Sometimes an ending is just the start of something new.

[lakanakana]

war never changes

[thankstothe]

folk hero really

[tawnysoup]

Found my fav Slay the Princess route recently. Dragon my beloved. Your horrifying beak mouth was an impossible-to-refuse lip syncing challenge 💖

Shoutouts to @blacktabbygames for making such a cool game!

[yumenikkii]

just another average day in gravity falls

[kedreeva]

Following the author of The Last Unicorn on Facebook is the only thing that makes being on that site worthwhile.

(source)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Expertise can't help you here.

[monstermonger]

I love when i look in a window and find a cat there

[brainrotcharacters]

When irl pisses me off, I rewatch the Honda Odyssey scene to relax

[stealingpotatoes]

tried to tell my faithful eunuch Tucker that he was basically tumblr famous, but he was too focused on defending the homestead to care