#but it really boils down to. there is love there. there has always been love here. and we both have to live with this
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jjk men and their toxic traits
warnings: love bombing, obsession, silent treatment as punishment, purity culture, possessiveness, mentions of drug and alcohol addiction, self harm, suicide attempt, self loathing, stalking and younger man x older woman.
a/n: idk what to tell you besties. i did have fun writing nanami's tho, and i think sukuna's the most accurate lol tell me what y'all think :D
Toji: IndifferenceÂ
after dating Toji for years, putting him with his recklessness during his assassination assignments, watching him bleed on the bathroom floor while shiu poorly stitches him up, having to move apartments every few months because someone with a grudge or an enemy hunts him down.Â
dealing with all of that crap, youâve exploded once youâve reached your boiling point.
as much as you love toji with all of your heart, want him to see the beauty of the world and feel alive again, you simply cannot stand by while the man you love kills himself.
thatâs why you gave him an ultimatum; change careers and he fixes his life or you walk out.
youâve known from the start that tojiâs a stubborn mule but you didnât think that heâd choose his job over you.Â
though heartbroken at first, you eventually end up packing your things. maybe now that things have gotten serious and toji sees you slowly removing pieces of yourself from his life, itâd serve as a wake up call.
toji doesnât even bat an eye.
heâs lounging on the couch, mindlessly watching a baseball match from the television set heâd stolen from his family.
even when you block his view â hands on your hips and all â he just scoots aside and continues watching.
âyou knew what you were getting yourself into from the start.â comes tojiâs monotone voice after your yelling, âiâve warned you and you accepted who i am.â
silence fills the room. you stare at him, hoping that once toji sees the heartbreak, rage, frustration and that little bit of moisture glistening your pretty eyes, heâd see the error of his ways.
but no such thing happens.
instead, toji continues to sit on the couch with his mesmerizing forest green eyes, the very ones that made you fall in love with him, are glued to the screen.
when you march to your bedroom to drag out your luggage, toji doesnât even offer a goodbye. he doesnât even watch you leave. toji doesnât bother to chase after you when youâre halfway down the stairs.
Satoru: Love Bombing and Obsession
having been born as the blessed one, nothing really impresses gojo satoru.Â
he has mountains of money in his bank account, a stream of endless good luck and women kissing the ground he walks on. with a snap of his fingers, he can have whatever he desires at the palm of his hand.
yet, once you reject him, something inside satoru snaps. no one, no one has ever rejected gojo satoru. itâs always the opposite.Â
when you reject him for the fourth time in less than a week, satoru draws up a plan that will surely win you over.
it starts off small. he sends breathtaking bouquets of flowers to your work place with cute little notes praising your beauty. whenever he sees exquisite jewelry, heâs sending them to your house, asking you to wear them. when heâs feeling very d̶e̶s̶p̶e̶r̶a̶t̶e̶ determined, satoru will wire you almost 8 million yen. satoru is then showing up to your work place with the excuse of wanting to take you out for lunch. embarrassed by the glances not so subtly thrown your way and the loud whispers haunting your ears, you agree.
and, honestly, satoru isnât that bad. heâs got that boyish charm to him, he can be pretty funny and heâs intelligent. maybe you were too harsh with himâŠis what you initially thought until satoruâs true colors started to show.
he will call you throughout the day asking you what youâre wearing, what youâre eating, what will you eat, who are you with, who were you with, who did you talk to, who are you talking to, who will you talk to and you get the idea.
satoru goes as far as installing tracking devices in your car, home and work place just to stay updated. he even threatened your male co-workers, relatives and friends from talking to you as he strongly and firmly believes that heâs the only one you need.
gojo satoru is like a disease you canât escape.
Kento: Silent Treatment
nanami kentoâs biggest hatred in life aside from the corporate tyranny is adults who are quite immature.
and you know this. but sometimes your emotions get the best of you.
like the other night, you had a pretty nasty fight with kento. you had accused him of flirting with another woman at the end of the year party the company kento is working at hosted. when kento defended himself and explained that the woman was all over him, you yelled that he did nothing to get her to back off.
it was a heated argument which consisted of you yelling your head off and kento constantly defending himself.  Â
âiâve had enough of this.â kento mutters as he snatches his pillow and blanket from your bed to go sleep on the couch in the living room.Â
come the next morning, you realized your mistake. you barely slept a wink the night before, tossing and turning at your immaturity. guilt lodging itself deep into your soul as you accused kento of infidelity when that man is crazy over you. he works a job he hates just so he can provide for you and for your future family.
with a clearer head, you send him a text.
wanna grab lunch after work?
my treat đ„°Â Â
hopefully, the warm and cozy ambiance of your favorite restaurant will remind you of just how loyal kento is, which will then allow you to apologize and trust him even more.
you go about your day; showering, eating breakfast, cleaning the penthouse. all the while you keep glancing at your phone. youâve worried your lips so much that theyâre bruised and cut, metallic flavor dancing on your tongue.
when kento doesnât return home, you call him about twenty times until it goes to voicemail.
kento only returns at around nine in the evening. he doesnât greet you, doesnât even glance at you. itâs like youâre a ghost.Â
you convince yourself that kento is still angry and probably needs some time to cool off but when this behavior continues for almost two weeks, youâre at your witâs end.
âbaby,â you stand in your walk-in closet, reeking of desperation, as kento is busy tying his tie for an important ceremony at his company later that evening, âtalk to me.â you plea but heâs silent as the dead.
tears blur your vision as kento continues to ignore you while adding the finishing touches.
âplease.â you stand in front of the mirror, obstructing the view of his reflection. âdonât ignore me, kento. please. i was wrong. i shouldnât have accused you and i shouldnât have doubted your love for me. i let my insecurities get the better of me. iâm so sorry.â
for the first time in weeks, kento looks at you. actually, looks. his hands tightly grip your waist and lift you off the ground to place you away from the mirror.
dejected by his rejection, tears are crashing down your cheeks like an angry waterfall.Â
you try to sand in front of the mirror but kento stops you. just as it feels like the last piece of your heart is about to shrivel up and die, kento leans in and kisses your cheek.
youâre so surprised by the gesture, you donât notice kento leaving.
itâs only when you hear your phone buzzing on the nightstand that youâre brought to your senses.
iâll be home late. donât wait up.
tonight is the first night youâve had a well rested sleep since your fight.
Sukuna: Purity and PossessivenessÂ
purity is everything to sukuna. heâs in a relationship with you because of your innocence, how youâre blissfully unaware of the carnal desires of man. having to rely on sukuna and be taught of oneâs sexual desire is a huge power trip to sukuna. he guides you every step of the way; teaches you what he loves and shows you what you need.Â
itâs such a euphoric world to live in that itâs difficult to leave it. yet itâs something you have to do. sukunaâs licentiousness is overwhelming. his malevolent behavior frightens you and you no longer feel safe in his arms like you used to.
youâve managed to hide from him for almost three years but sukuna never stopped searching for you. when he finally finds you, itâs with a grin of victory and of mania glowing in his ruby colored eyes.
until his eyes land on your stomach, that his. instantly, he is sneering at you in disgust. sukunaâs insides curl in protest at the repulsive fact that not only are you with another man, mistakenly believing he can ever satisfy you better than he did, you let him plant his seed in you.Â
you areâwere sukunaâs possession and he doesnât like to share what rightfully belongs to him.Â
why should he take you back when youâve been spoiled, polluted, by the dirty hands of another man? sukuna doesnât go for sloppy seconds. and thereâs no way in hell heâd raise another manâs child.Â
as quickly as sukuna has reappeared in your life, heâs out of it.Â
Suguru: Self SabotageÂ
the road to recovery is a long and arduous one. but geto suguru is proud of his accomplishments. the challenges he had faced were insanely difficult but meeting you has made things much easier.Â
it has taken a while but, eventually, suguru doesnât feel his fingers twitching for his next fix. he no longer drinks himself to sleep to silence chaotic thoughts. suguru also managed to throw out all of his blades and his arms and inner thighs havenât been marred in quite some time.Â
yet all of suguruâs hard work goes to waste when the two of you had your first major fight. it was cruel. it broke both of your hearts. it forced you to leave suguruâs apartment for a few days to calm down. had you known that your fight, that you leaving suguru, would come with major consequences, you wouldnât have left.Â
you receive the call at around three in the morning. suguruâs in the emergency room after a drug overdose and slitting both his wrists. youâre in no condition to drive as you canât stop crying, wailing your loverâs name, so your best friend had to drive you to the hospital.Â
the doctors inform you that suguruâs chances are slim and you believe their words because youâve never seen suguru so pale. even when he first met him, he wasnât as ashy. his face wasnât sunk in like it is now.
itâs your fault!
you broke him!Â
you ruined him!Â
you killed him!
you donât deserve him!
you donât deserve anyone!
menacing thoughts abuse you throughout the early morning. by the sun comes out and the nurses stop by suguruâs room to check up on him, youâre dead on your seat.Â
thankfully, youâve been rescued from your torturous thoughts by none other than suguru. he stares at you with a haunted expression. his tongue darts out to moisten his chapped.
ây/n,â he croacks your name and you hurry to silence him lest he irritates his throat any further but one glance from suguru has you sitting back down, âiâm so sorry.â
suguruâs voice is so low that you have to lean in to hear him.
âplease donât leave me. i canât live without you.â
a sickening wave of terror welling up from y/nâs belly at each word suguru uttered. how could she have been so stupid? why did she fight suguru when she knows just how sensitive he is!
shame washes over y/n like tidal waves.
âiâm sorry, baby.â y/n whispers as reaches for suguruâs hand. she places a gentle kiss on the gauzed wrapped around his injured wrist. âitâs all my fault. i wonât do it again.â
y/n searches suguruâs amethyst eyes for forgiveness.
âpromise?â suguru asks, sounding so scared.
âi promise.â
Yuuta: Stalking
dating yuuta is like dating an overgrown puppy.Â
heâs so loyal to you that one might actually call it blind devotion. yuuta will jump through burning hopes to please and satisfy you. in his eyes, youâre the most beautiful woman blessed on earth.
dating yuuta can be exhausting as well. since heâs five years younger than you, heâs quite energetic. which is exactly what youâve been searching for after being married to your lazy husband who barely lifts a finger to scratch his ass.
and it was fun at first but now youâre exhausted to the bone and can barely keep up. thatâs why you decide that itâs time to hit the gym. you need to build up your stamina if you want to keep up with your good little boy.Â
âgood luck with gym today!â yuuta is standing at the apartment genkan to send you off. the tail only you can see is wagging in excitement, ready to hear a compliment for doing a good of packing your gym back.
âthank you, my little puppy.â yuuta beams at the baby voice you use and is as light as a feather when you peck his lips not twice but four times.
âbe a good little boy while mommyâs gone.â yuuta fervently nodding his head sends you into a fit of giggles at just how adorable he is.Â
yuuta waits about ten minutes before heâs sprinting into your bedroom to quickly change his clothes, yank the apartment door open where he takes the stairs by twos and hops on his bicycle, cycling as fast as his legs can allow him.Â
heâs stopping right across the street from your gym just as you drive into the basement parking lot. state of the binoculars at the ready, yuuta enters the abandoned building next to your gym and makes his way to the rooftop.
yuuta isnât stalking you. really, he isnât. he justâŠfollows you around to make sure nothing happens to you.Â
itâs just like he did before he started dating you. yuuta would follow you around town, patiently waiting for him to plant himself in your world like a may flower. he knows all of your favorite places; restaurants, cafes, stores, etc. yuuta knows where you like to go when you want to be alone and he even knows where your parents live despite the fact youâve been dating for only two months and you have yet to bring up your parents.Â
Yuutaâs grip tightens on the binoculars. he despises the fact that there arenât any male instructors at your gym. he has to watch from the side as your male teacher comes closer and corrects your posture. yuutaâs eyes zero in to make sure that the instructorâs touches donât linger.Â
after about an hour, yuuta receives a text that youâre going to grab coffee with the girls from your pilates class, girls yuuta has pulled up all and any information on them to ensure they arenât harmful, that they wonât corrupt you.
okay mommy â„ïž
yuuta will a good boy and wait for you đ
yuutaâs on his bicycle, subtly following your car to your favorite cafe by the riverside.Â
#toji x reader#gojo x reader#nanami x reader#sukuna x reader#geto x reader#yuuta x reader#jjk headcanons#toji x you#gojo x you#sukuna x you#geto x you#yuuta x you
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hiii Dee!! for your holiday drabbles, maaayybeeee accidentally standing under mistletoe with Meian? đ€
no questions asked đ meian shugo x f!reader
Spending Christmas Eve with your cheating ex-fiancé is no longer an option, so a party at Atsumu's will just have to do.
1.3k â msby manager!reader, angst and fluff
Itâs a little embarrassingâthinking about how you should be out for dinner with your fiancĂ© and his parents right now.Â
How you should be planning a wedding thatâll take place in the new year.Â
How, instead, youâre standing in the middle of Miya Atsumuâs apartment wearing the same red dress you picked out for a very different occasion, ring finger now entirely devoid of a weight you were once familiar with for the past five months.
While the Black Jackals tried not to pry into the mortifying details of your breakup when you showed up for practice uncharacteristically late one morning two weeks ago with eyes ringed red after a sleepless night, Bokuto, Hinata, and Atsumu were all wholly insistent that their team manager couldnât spend Christmas Eve alone.Â
(Theyâd let Coach Foster off easy when he politely declined the invite to tonightâs party, but you? Not so much.)
(Bokutoâs known you since your Fukurodani days, after all, since you were a year ahead of him on the girlâs volleyball team.)
Which now finds you here, leaning against the doorway that separates the living room from the kitchen, fingers curled loosely around the sweaty neck of a bottle of beer.Â
âI never liked him, ya know,â Atsumuâs voice interrupts your thoughts.Â
You turn to face the setter, brows raised in mock amusement. âReally? I couldnât tell.â
You met Ren a year or so after you started working for MSBY, after youâd already grown close with the team, and he got down on one knee just over six months later.Â
And nowâ
âHe never liked showinâ his face at games, that cheatinâ bastard. He probably knew weâd see it on his stupid face and pummel his ass.â
Sighing, you nod in a disconnected way, taking a swig from your bottle before placing it down on a table nearby.Â
You hadnât gotten into the rest of the detailsâhow the marketing executive had been sleeping with his eighteen-year-old intern for the entirety of your relationship.
How he was only proposing to you to appease his father for the sake of inheriting his company.
How everything was a lieâ
Howâ
âAtsumu.â
Something prickles along the back of your neck at the sound of Meianâs voice, his tone stern as he approaches.
Atsumu perks up. âAnd I bet Meian woulda really loved to beat hisââ
âBokutoâs two seconds from puking on your bed,â Meian cuts him off brusquely, sliding into the spot where the blonde was standing as he scurries off, eyes going wide in concern.
You shake your head, offering a genuine smile to the team captain and trying to ignore the long-ignored warmth that rustles in your chest as he looks at you.
âReally?â
He shakes his head, the curve of his mouth matching your own. âNah, but I know he gets annoying when heâs drunk. And I know thatâs the last thing you want to talk about right now.â
Meian has always had a way of reading you, of knowing what you need.Â
And you know that, logically, itâs just something that comes naturally to him as a captain. He does it with his team all the time.
But it still does something odd to your fragile heart anywayâthe way he notices you.
Bokutoâs sworn this secret (which you accidentally shared after too many drinks one night) to the grave, this stupid little crush that you have on the team captain. One that sprouted long before Ren came into the picture.
One that you were quick to pluck, to try digging out at the roots before it could blossom.Â
Part of you is loath to admit that you were inclined to reciprocate Renâs advances solely in an effort to get over these feelings.Â
Feelings that came boiling right back to the surface the night after that teary-eyed practice when your phone lit up with a text from the captain.
MEIAN: Iâm not going to ask about things youâre not ready to answer. MEIAN: But if you need help, a hand, or anything, let me know, and Iâm there. MEIAN: No questions asked.
Meian stayed true to his word when you subsequently texted him an address and asked him to bring his pick up truck.Â
He didnât dig for details when you swung open the door to your shared apartment with Ren and gestured at the boxes youâd packed.Â
Truthfully, you didnât know who else to call.
You didnât know who else would let you sniffle and struggle your way through it all without prying. Without pushing. Without batting an eye when you asked if he could grab things from the closet you couldnât bear to look back into again.Â
Without asking for all of the sordid details of your fiancĂ©âs affair that still find you dry heaving in the bathroom most nights.Â
You didnât have much, the apartment and furniture was Renâs to begin with.
He helped you move across town back to your parents place with the promise that heâd help again when you found an apartment.Â
âIâm not ready to talk about it yet,â you exhale, and Meian nods in understanding as you smooth your fingertips down the skirt of your dress. âBut when I amâŠâ
He waits patiently as you trail off, eyes offering a comfort thatâs always been there, that feels like a balm now against the frayed edges of your rattled nerves.
â...Iâd like to tell you,â you finish, nervously pinching the materialâs hem.Â
Meian smiles. âIâll be here.â
And itâs then that you feel something light hit your head, and you glance around to find a plastic sprig of mistletoe rolling away on the floor.Â
âReally?â you choke out a weak laugh.
You donât immediately look up at Meian. Because while it feels almost childish, the back of your neck burns anyway with the implication behind the silly tradition.Â
It wouldnât be the first time that youâve found yourself wondering what his lips would feel like against your own. Wondering if heâd cup the back of your head or stroke your jaw. If heâd part the seam of your lips with his tongue and run his thumb against your chin as you melt into his touch.Â
Wondering what it would feel like to jump into his arms after a win, to wrap your legs around his waist, to drag your fingers through his sweaty, messy hair and laugh in a mess of tongue and teeth as someone tells you both to get a room while he presses you up against a wallâ
Youâre tugged away from that train of thought by the feeling of Meianâs large hand taking your own, and your eyes go wide as he lifts your knuckles to his lips and presses a chaste kiss to them.
âRules are rules,â he shrugs, offering you a lopsided grin that has no right being that handsome under the multi-colored glow of string lights that adorns the living room.
Overcome by a fleeting surge of confidence as your heart flutters wildly in your chest, your fingers find a home curled in the collar of Meianâs button-down shirt before you can think better of it.
âCaptain, I thought you followed rules to a T,â you tease in a voice that feels almost foreign on your lips.
But youâre too caught up in the moment to second guess yourself.
Meian leans in as you tug him closer, and you sway a little, steadied only by his hand as it comes to rest against your waist. Gently, featherlightâas if heâs still waiting for you to change your mind.
He quietly says, âYouâre the manager here, maybe I need a refresher.â
His breath is hot as it curls against your lips in the scant space left between your faces.
Your mouth brushes against his, and you can feel him smile against your lips.
âLike this?â he murmurs, fingers curling and pressing the fabric of your dress.
âYes,â you breathe out, and Meianâs other hand slides to the back of your head as he kisses you.
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I think self shippers are allowed to have complicated-ass relationships with their F/Os, like yeah we love the lovey-dovey sweet flustering stuff, but also some of us go nuts for a good case of
âwe want to and probably have practically strangled each other but also youâre my soulmate and fate has ïżŒintrinsically tied us together and I would protect you and fight for you in any given universe but also youâre an actual dumbass and I will tell you so and if we ever go down itâs going to be by the others handâ
Or other related variations, I think itâs great to go hogwild and not all F/O relationships stop at Romantic or Platonic or Familial, the dynamics are endless and can be so fun to play with and navigate
#maybe Iâm just really obsessed with the yearning/slow burn/self-fulfilling tragedy/mutual bond for better or for worse#but it really boils down to. there is love there. there has always been love here. and we both have to live with this#also the dynamics you can up with are like. playing 52 card pickup with fanfic tags#itâs FUN and works with most genres of ship situations. angst tragedy comedy romcom enemies to lovers lovers to exs to enemies#itâs also fantastic for aus but also tends to happen with fos youâve had for a while or that are on the edge of definable#ALSO fos that deal with like the multiverse/multiple timelines !!#cats chatterbox#52 tag pickup seems like a fun self ship ask game but I dunno how itâd work but if someone wants to do that go for it! could be fun ehehehe#self ship#self shipping community#self ship community#self ship stuff#is this anything. do yâall hear me
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đâïžđâïžokay okay okay so so far within the og divisions we have:
â€ïž: they strive for a world where words solve conflict. they pointedly did not use mics to express this. at the end of the track, theyâre dynamic as brothers has shifted to a more equal dynamic, where ichiro doesnât feel so compelled to raise them
đ: they strive for a world without violence and used their mics to resolve the conflict. at the end of the track, they reject their status quo and aim to find a new one to change the world without the use of violence
đ: wanted to be real with each other and used their mics to get that across. at the end of the track tho, they say that truth doesnât really matter anyway and stay true to the selves they formed their bond with
đ©¶: a battle of wills using the mics. jakuraiâs love for yotsutsuji manifested in the form of sacrificing himself and dohifu trying to stop him using their love for their bond as mtr. at the end of the track itâs that love thatâs saved jakurai, healed hifumi and elevated doppoâs status at work
and things have changed for all theyâve stayed the same so iâm genuinely curious where nagosaka fits in this lol
#vee queued to fill the void#as iâm typing this i havenât really processed the scope of mtrâs story lmao#like it may be bc iâm still a matenhoe forever and always but holy shit their love literally changed their lives#and seeing those threads come to a head like that literally made me want to projectile vomit LOL CAN NEVER FEEL NORMAL ABOUT AN MTR DT EVER#i want to draw!!!!!! the scene where sensei as calm and as at peace as heâs ever been!!!!!!!!#tell dohifu they may think him using the true hypnosis mic to save yotsutsuji is stupidity but to him!!!!!!#itâs literally the most important thing!!!!!!!! god!!!!!!!!! itâs the utter peace in his voice that literally kills me listening it!!!!!#doppo: with all due respect this boils down to your ego#sensei: my ego? well that certainly may be the case. it is i who will be saved by doing this#me: WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGHHHGG#*sniffs* god hypmic has been insane for these tracks on god pls tell me iâm not the only one who sees how insane hypmic rn#and like??????????? wtf can dh and bat deal with??????? i wish i was big brained to see where nagosaka has been going towards lol#dh has to be setting the tone tho since lowkey???? tdd are paralleling with their 1st drb match ups lol bbmtc want basically the same thing#and fpmtr reaffirmed their bonds and identities in theirs#and like âthe trioâ makes me think rosasa are finally going to punch rei in the face for ditching them lol#but it might be time for dh to enter in the plot frfr trying to get rei from doing stuff on his own#so does bat parallel that??? trying to stop kuukou from doing things on his own???? something else?????#bc hitoya is deadass the only who has interacted with the plot in any way lmao (kuukou too as a victim of the true hypnosis mic)#this is me processing things out loud gomen thanks for attending the ted tag vomit lmao
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being a crowley kinnie is harder than being a u.s. marine
#âit's a relationship that's up to interpretationâ There Better Be Mad NDAs In Place Right Now#good omens 2#anthony j crowley#frustrated dyke ranting in the tags do not eat#(dont get it twisted i do not blame any of the cast/crew playing into the 'bromance' narrative)#(bc i get theyre under contract and things are sticky rn)#(just so fucking sick of queer love and relationships being boiled down to âup to interpretationâ and erased)#not saying good omens is intentionally doing that it's more my outrage towards articles and season 2 promo that baits fans#while simultaneously belittling and gaslighting (bold word ik) said fans#and honestly? would just feel really nice to shove it in the face of everyone who insulted good omens fans for liking a ship#that's selfish and mean i know but it would be satisfying to have like an ofmd moment where i can point and say âlook! i'm not delusional!â#especially bc neil has stated multiple times that it *is* a love story. even if they're not making out on screen or whatever#and i hate that queer representation has to always be an argument like this#wow i did not mean to go off for this long in the tags i've really been holding that in for a while
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me: there is no type of person i hate more than somebody who refuses to take accountability for their actions
the universe: awesome. you're going to only deal with people like that for the rest of your life, jsyk.
me: awesome. thanks.
#i swear EVERY pivotal relationship i've had has been with someone like this#my relationships are so messy and i'm the common denominator in all of them so sometimes i delude myself into thinking i'm the problem#but nah i think the reality of the situation is that most people don't want a tough love friend. which i very much am#like when i think back on every person i've fallen out with it's never been because of anything i did#i truly cannot pinpoint a single friend or partner who has dropped me because ''you did xyz and it really hurt me''#the catalyst is always THEM doing some fuckshit and getting all horrified and defensive when i call them out#and it boils down to ''well if you have THIS much of a problem with EVERYTHING I DO i guess i just WON'T BOTHER YOU ANYMORE!!!!!''#i try to have conversations with my friends because i respect & value them too much to drop them after one mistake#but apparently that only fans the flames so maybe i WILL just start ditching people at the first sign of conflict. idk.#makes it easier for everyone involved#nothing is scarier to people than a bitch who is well aware of their own self worth i guess#order in the court#personal#vent
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24 Hours
request: a blurb where he actually gets mad at JJ when she confesses to love him but doesn't really say anything at the moment. But then when he introduces reader to the team as his girlfriend, JJ is being kinda rude to her. She tries to tell him she doesn't like her, that she's not good for him. And spencer gets mad and protectiveđ maybe he even throws a "i'm going to marry her, whether you like it or not".
a/n: my return piece !!
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader (Fluff)
Word Count: 2.2k
Spencer sees red when he walks out of the jewelry store after shooting the unsub.
JJ is the first girl he has ever asked out, someone he pined over for years after her subtle rejection at the Redskins game. He understood her reasoning. It would have been impractical for them to add relationship highs and lows to everything the BAU has been through over fourteen years, and that's if they stayed together. If they hadn't, things would have been even more complicated.
Also she just generally didn't like him that way. Or so he thought.
It didn't mean she wasn't his ideal for many years. His first love, who had so many traits he didn't have that he desperately wanted.
His confirmation he would be unlucky in love came after that with Maeve, who he once again thought could be the one for him. And then he realized that maybe the person for him had been taken away from him.
Then he met Y/n, and it all seemed worth it. All those terrible nights of crying and feeling like he would forever be alone, all the times he was the only single one on the team, knowing everyone was going home to someone they loved unconditionally and relied on for support.
She's the sun and the moon, and he fell in love so fast he couldn't stop it. Luckily, she did too.
Until JJ fucked it up.
The truth she had to tell to get them out alive dropped an atomic bomb on his newly formed life plans.
Spencer doesn't speak to her that night as they finish their recounts and reports. She leaves it out, though, he discovers, opting to write the secret about her miscarriage instead of confessing her love for her best friend and the godfather of her kids.
It messes with his head the whole way home. He can't sleep on the jet, even if he wanted to as he tried to work out what he was feeling.
All JJ does is send him pleading looks, and all he does is get angry because how dare she do this now? After she had fifteen years of them working together, all those chances to tell him how she felt.
He would have married and had a family with her, the family he always wanted. It's always stayed in the back of his head for so long, and just as he sees someone else in that role in his dreams, she drudges all of it back up.
It's such a long flight, and he taps his foot the whole way while staring out the window, not even able to read.
He goes to Y/n's. He's not sure what he's going to say, how much of it he's going to tell her, but he needs to see her to cool off the fury boiling out of him.
"Hey, handsome." She calls out when he walks in the door as cheerful as ever.
He feels a pit of guilt sink into his stomach because he can't tell her without ruining everything they delicately have put together. Maybe it's wrong to lie by omission, but his brain keeps coming back to fault. And it's JJ's fault. She's the one who's jeopardizing everything.
"Hi, gorgeous." He replies, walking into the living room to find her laying on the couch, book in her hands and her head on the armrest. He's reminded how accurate the petname he calls her by is when he's taken off guard by her breathless beauty. "How are you liking it?" He asks.
"It's good." She answers, putting the book down. "But that's because it's very you."
She gets up, meeting him behind the couch to cup his jaw, stroking over his skin and staring into his eyes for a moment before kissing him properly.
He relaxes into it, the tension in his shoulders easing and his brain slowing down for a moment. It's heavenly, as always, and it's what being loved is meant to feel like.
"How was your case?" She asks when she pulls back, still not daring to move too far away from him.
He tenses instantly at that, totally readable behavior, but he's got to perfect excuse to play it off. "It was rough." He holds out his bandaged hand that he's been avoiding showing her. "I got hurt."
"Shit." She straightens up, noticing how big it looked. "What happened?"
"Cut it on glass." He answers, not going as far as to say where he was when it occurred. "I'm fine, though. Promise."
She nods, reassured. "We've got to be up in, like, six hours, you know?" She reminds him of the time.
With the amount of coffee and adrenaline in his system, he barely registered it was already past 2 in the morning. Usually, they would have stayed in LA for the night, but being home in time for Rossi's wedding trumped a good night of sleep for everyone.
"Can I sleep here?" He wonders, awkwardly looking down at his feet.
"Duh. I'm not going to kick you out and make you come pick me up so we can go tomorrow morning." She jokes. "Picked up your suit, too. You're going to look very handsome."
Spencer grins because she seriously can't get more perfect. She still feels so unattainable, but he'd do anything to make sure he doesn't lose her.
He really should tell her, but he can't. Not right now.
Y/n snaps him out of it. "Bedtime now?"
"Please." He agrees gratefully, keeping his arms wrapped around her while they walk to her bedroom.
He keeps her close while they go through the motions of getting ready for bed. Spencer quickly sheds his suit and both of them brush their teeth.
His head is on the pillow for only a few seconds before he's asleep, and she follows soon after.
The alarm going off isn't as much of a problem when Spencer is lying in bed next to her, arm wrapped around her waist. It's one of the things she misses a lot when he's away.
"Hi, beautiful," Spencer whispers, a husky voice as always. He's glad he fell asleep quickly, not having wanted to sit up thinking about the stupid things JJ has said. He just couldn't understand why it was coming up now. Sleep provided absolutely no clarity.
She grins at him. "Hi."
"Are you ready for today?" He asks softly.
"A little nervous," Y/n admits. The BAU is his family after all. His mom is there but the BAU has been where he's spent most of his life for the last 15 years.
"They'll love you." Because I love you. Spencer assures her.
She smiles softly, feeling a little better. "Let's get up then."
Spencer agrees, not before planting a few kisses on her lips and hugging her tightly.
They get ready side by side, feeling a great sense of domesticity. She's never gotten close to someone as quickly as she has with Spencer. Somehow, it's not scary that it's happened this way.
"Wow, you're very gorgeous," Spencer tells her as she touches up the final strand of her hair, adding enough hairspray that it won't fall out. He stands in the doorway of the bathroom, admiring her. "Wow."
"Thank you." Y/n spins around to look at him in his deep maroon suit. It matches her dress color which she agrees looks very nice on her. "And you're very handsome."
"Ready? The car is coming soon." He says.
She nods, fixing her bracelet. "Let's do it."
There are still some nerves as the car takes them to the venue. Spencer does a good job of assuring her it'll be okay, his hand like a magnet to her thigh. He seems slightly off like there's something out of place, but she shrugs it off. She hopes he's being cute and afraid his friends still say something embarrassing.
The venue and interior are exquisite as they make their way in. She takes a deep breath before they come across the man of the day, welcoming everyone at the entrance. She has no doubt that the value of the artwork in this room totals her apartment and everything in it.
"Spencer." Rossi, supposably, greets him in a tight hug.
"This is my girlfriend, Y/n." Spencer introduces them.
As she expects, and as she was warned about by Spencer, Rossi pulls her in for a hug, immediately calming her nerves with his warm greeting. "It's so nice to meet you. This one won't stop talking about you." Rossi jokes, nodding at an increasingly reddening Spencer.
"It's nice to meet you too." She smiles. "Thank you for inviting me."
Rossi nods. "Of course, it's a pleasure."
And then the rest of the introductions begin. Everyone's so kind, like she expected. She's seen photos and heard stories but everyone seems to have more personality than he conveyed. She's quickly fast friends with Penelope and Tara who do their absolute best to make sure Y/n's feeling comfortable.
It's how she ends up being dragged onto the dance floor after the ceremony. Once the alcohol starts flowing, there's no more anxiousness left and some extroverted spirit has been brought out.
Spencer's not one to dance, but he's one to admire. Only Y/n, though. She looks angelic, despite the old-style dance moves.
He's so wrapped up in watching her that he doesn't register JJ's heels on the ground as she approaches him. It's only when she sits next to him that his head turns around to face her.
He waits for her to speak first. Hopefully, provide some explanation.
"Spencer." She says his name softly, almost like how he used to imagine she'd say it if they were together. Much to his surprise, she doesn't go into any detail about the bomb she'd dropped less than 24 hours ago. "I'm worried about you."
He doesn't hide his scoff. "Worried about me?" He repeats.
She goes for another tactic, trying not to get him mad. "You don't think you're rushing into this?"
"Rushing into what, Jennifer?" He spits back, snapping to anger. Using her first name drives the point home, almost unnecessarily when he sounds so angered.
"You know what I mean." She continues. "You've only been talking about her for a few weeks and now she's here."
He can't fathom that she'd suggest he's rushing into a relationship. He's been careful and deliberate, but Y/n's safe, and she's proved it time and time again.
"She's been part of my life for 6 months." Spencer fact-checks her. "And you said I seemed happier since I met her."
JJ stalls, regrouping before trying another angle. "She's just not what I expected. Is she really the type you should be with?"
"What does that mean?" Spencer states, more furious than ever. There's a chance he will fully snap at her and he wouldn't be sorry.
"I feel like you should be with someone extroverted." She suggests. "You know, someone to get you out of your shell."
Spencer needs a deep breath. "You're not being a good friend right now." He tells her much more calmly. There's not one thing he doesn't love about Y/n, whether she's more on the extroverted or introverted side."I'm going to marry her, whether you like it or not." It's not even what he expected to come out of his mouth.
"Spence-" JJ tries again to reason with him.
"No, don't you dare," Spencer says firmly. "You flew back and forth from New Orleans so many times to see Will, without telling us once and we were all accepting of your relationship. If you don't like my relationship, I don't care. But it's not too soon for me to know. We can talk about what you told me later, but for now, I'm going to dance with my girlfriend." Without another word, he gets up and walks off, leaving her a little gobsmacked.
Y/n frowns at him as he approaches the dance floor. "Are you okay?" She checks.
"More than okay," Spencer tells her with a soft smile.
"Dance with me then." She says, mirroring her smile and holding out her hand.
"I'd love to." He takes her hand just as a slow song comes on for them to sway together.
JJ gets ignored by him for the rest of the night, something unnoticed by Y/n but purposeful by Spencer. But it's fun. So much fun. And he's sure he wouldn't be having as much fun had Y/n not been there. She truly makes his day.
They're in the car later that night, parked near her apartment, ice cream eaten on the trip home. "I'm in love with you," Spencer admits when her laughter falls off after he tells a joke.
It's not a word they've said before.
Her expression is of pure shock, but joy quickly creeps in. "I'm in love with you too." She tells him, grinning.
And it's an entirely better confession than the one he heard 24 hours ago.
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Leaving Behind Gold
âPairing: Emperor Geta / Wife! Reader
âSynopsis: Fed up with Geta's priorities, you attempt to leave his side. Only, Geta isn't ready to let you go, and is ready to get vulnerable to get you to stay.
âWarnings: Slight angst, Geta getting nervous and breaking down.
A/N: Iâm only posting geta content are yâall sick of it yet? im sorry in advanced there will be more
The moment you step through the palace halls with your packed satchel, it feels like the air around you is a trapâheavy, stifling, suffused with the weight of the decision you've made. Leaving Geta is the hardest thing youâve ever done, but his obsession with Rome has left no room for you. Your heart clenches as you pass the door to his chambers, but you keep walking, steadying your breath.
He finds you almost immediately.
You hear his voice before you see him, a frantic bark cutting through the quiet corridors. âWhere is she?â Servants scatter at the sound of his tone, their whispers falling to silence as his heavy steps echo closer.
Your pulse quickens, and instinct takes over. You veer left, ducking into the library, your sanctuary within the palaceâa place where he seldom disturbs you. Slamming the door shut, you throw the latch into place, your chest heaving. The silence presses in around you, broken only by your ragged breaths.
Then comes the pounding.
âOpen this door!â
His voice is a snarl, wild and guttural. The sound of his fists against the heavy wood is thunderous, shaking the frame.
âWife, youre being foolish. Do we really want to cause a scene, hm?â
You press yourself against the far wall, heart racing as you clutch the satchel to your chest. âGo away Geta! You canât stop me from leaving!â
The words only seem to inflame him further. His pounding grows erratic, each strike like a storm battering the door. âYou donât get to decide such a thing!â he roars. âYouâre my wife. Youâre mine!â
âYours?â you spit back, your voice trembling. âI was yours once, but youâve given every piece of yourself to Rome. Thereâs nothing left for me!â
Thereâs a pause, a sharp intake of breath on the other side of the door, and then his voice dropsâa low, desperate rasp. âDonât say that. Donât you dare say that.â
You hear him press his forehead against the door, his voice cracking. And then it all comes out. Â
âI love you, do you hear me? I love you more than anything. More than Rome, more than the gods themselves. Youâre the only thing keeping me sane, and if you leave... if you leave...â
The silence stretches, filled only by the sound of his labored breathing. Then his voice returns, hoarse and broken. âI canât survive without you.â
Your resolve falters, your hand trembling as it rests on the satchel. âThen why do you make me feel like Iâm second to everything else?â
He pounds the door again, his desperation boiling over. âBecause Iâm a fool! A stupid, blind fool who thought Rome would give me purposeâbut itâs you. Itâs always been you!â
His voice cracks, and you hear him sink to his knees outside the door, his fists slapping weakly against the wood. âPlease,â he begs, his tone raw and unrecognizable. âPlease donât leave me. Iâll tear the empire apart if it means keeping you by my side. Justâjust open the door. Let me see you.â
Your hand hovers over the latch, your mind warring with your heart. You hear him slump against the door, defeated. âYou said you were mine,â he murmurs, barely audible now. âBut youâre wrong. Iâm yours. Iâve always been yours.â
Tears streak your face as you press your forehead against the cool wood. âThen prove it, Geta. Prove that I matter more than Rome.â
For a moment, thereâs silence. Then his voice, soft but resolute: âI will.â
Your fingers tremble as they slide the latch back. The door creaks, revealing him.
Geta is on his knees, slumped forward, his shoulders shaking. His face is flushed, streaked with tears, his hair disheveled as though heâs been clawing at it in anguish. When his bloodshot eyes find yours, a sound escapes himâa choked, desperate sob that makes your chest tighten. His lips part as though to speak, but they wobble, and no words come.
Heâs utterly wrecked.
And it breaks you.
Your satchel falls to the ground, forgotten, as you step toward him. His hands lift weakly, reaching for you, but itâs you who sinks down, wrapping your arms around his trembling form. He freezes for a moment, as though he doesnât believe itâs real, but then his arms encircle you with crushing strength, pulling you into his chest.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers hoarsely, over and over, his breath hot against your hair. âIâm so sorry. Iâve been such a fool.â
His words dissolve into quiet sobs as you clutch him tighter, burying your face in his neck. âI thought Iâd lost you.â he murmurs, his voice still unsteady. âI canâtâI⊠Youâre my everything. You and my child, dear wife, I swear it to you, here and now. Nothing will ever come before my family again. Not Rome, not anything. Just... donât leave me.â
You pull back just enough to cup his face, your thumbs brushing over his tear-streaked cheeks. His eyes meet yours, wide and shimmering with a vulnerability youâve never seen before. âI donât want promises, Geta,â you say softly. âI want you. Not Romeâs Geta. Not the emperor. Just... you.â
âYou have me,â he says, his voice breaking as he presses his forehead against yours. âYouâve always had me.â
And in that moment, you believe him.
Thereâs a pause, before Getaâs voice breaks through the air.
âDo you⊠think I'll be a good father?â The emperor's gaze lingers on the back wall, not moving or lingering on your now watchful figure.
âI think,â with a soft kiss to his temple the man leans in, intently listening. âYouâll be the father you always wanted to be.âÂ
Geta hummed, his ringed fingers carrasses your side. âI want to be kind. Nothing like my father. A drunken excuse of a man.â He spat.Â
Catching his face in the palms of your hands, you sighed and began to litter his face in little kisses. One on the cheek, two on each brow.Â
âThen you shall be, my husband.âÂ
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Please Come Home
Pairing: Jason Todd x Reader
Summary: You never realized how many places there were to hide in your apartment, but youâre pretty sure someone else is in here with you. Whatever they want isnât good.
Word count: 3.3k
TW: home invasion, violence, curses as insults
Your spare key is missing.
Fuck. You always keep it in this drawer. Where the fuck is it?
When you told Jason he could just grab your keys to take your car instead of his bike to the store, youâd been relying on using your spare to lock up the apartment when you left for work. You never, ever moved it, but it was gone all the same. Did he take it instead of your keychain? Nope, thatâs missing from its hook next to the front door.
When was the last time you used it? Not too long ago. Had you been careless about putting it back?
You text Jason, Did you grab my spare key?
Shit. You had to leave for work, like, five minutes ago, and you have no key to lock the front door.
At least you have a fire escape. You bolt the door from the inside, then slip out the window. You canât latch it from the outside, but itâs a little harder to break in through the window than the front door.
Youâre only two minutes late to your waitressing shift. Your manager swipes you in, lets you know that a server called out so youâll be handling two sections today, and the host runs up to tell you that youâve already been sat.
In the middle of the shift, when you have a minute to catch your breath, you check your phone. Jason had texted, No, I took your keychain. Is your spare missing?
I think I lost it.
Iâll look for it when I come home before patrol. Will I see you before heading out?
Not looking like it. Things havenât slowed down at all.
Iâll see you when I get home, then. Donât wait up.
Iâll have dinner in the fridge when you get back. Gotta get back to work. Love you
I love you, too.
A couple hours later, Jason texts that he has no luck locating your spare. Since heâs paranoid, heâs going out for a new lock tomorrow, but thereâs important business with a drug ring that he canât miss tonight.
Thatâs okay. Itâll be a pain to climb up the fire escape, but you donât really mind that much. Youâve been meaning to get more exercise, anyway.
You finish work at six and the walk back to your apartment building is pretty peaceful. Unusual for Gotham.
It lulls you into a false sense of security.
Youâre not really in the mood for leftovers, and not really in the mood to cook. You stare between your phone and the pantry. Takeout is easy. So is pasta.
With a sigh, you decide to spare your bank account. Delivery fees are getting ridiculous nowadays.
You text Jason just to see how his night is going. Youâre not sure heâll respond; sometimes, like during stakeouts, he turns his phone off completely so the sound or vibrate doesnât reveal his presence. He doesnât respond after a minute, which means heâs busy. You sigh and set down your phone, then change into comfier clothes. As soon as youâre out of your room, you grab a pot and box of pasta. You canât sit down, or youâll put off dinner for at least another hour.
The water is set to boil when you turn around to look at your phone, vaguely hoping Jason has responded by now.
Your phone isnât on the counter.
You frown. Youâre pretty sure you left it there.
Maybe itâs in the pantry when you grabbed the pasta?
Itâs not.
You must have left it in your room when you changed. You check, and itâs sitting right on your bedside table. âJeez,â you mutter, picking it up and slipping it into your pocket. After a long day, itâs okay to be scatterbrained, but this is a bit much.
Still no response from Jason.
You walk out of the bedroom to see that the stove turned itself off and the pasta water is barely warm. âGotham appliances are such pieces of shit,â you mutter. You know what, fine. A shower and feeling clean will make you feel better to try again. The saying is that a watched pot never boils, but hopefully a watched Gotham stove never turns itself on and off randomly while you cook.
The apartmentâs a bit chilly, so you take your pajamas with you into the bathroom and sit under the water spray until all the grime of the day washes away. Itâs a bad habit, but you bring your phone with you in the shower to scroll through social media until your skin starts to get pruny. You step out, wrapping the towel around yourself in a vain attempt to stop shivering, and⊠your pajamas are gone.
The pajamas that youâre sure you took with you. You distinctly remember putting them on the sink counter.
And now theyâre gone.
Something clenches in your stomach. You text Jason, Hey are you home yet?
He doesnât respond right away.
Jay, this isnât funny.
Still nothing.
Is it possible you forgot to bring the clothes with you? No, you distinctly remember the thought process.
Someone moved them, and you canât think of s single reason anyone you know would do that. That kind of prank isnât funny.
You text Jason, I think there is someone in the house with me. Then you try calling him.
You go straight to voicemail.
You bite your lip, trying hard not to panic. Jason never sends you to voicemail. Heâs answered your calls in the middle of shootouts, voice strained, âHey, kinda busy right now, is it an emergency?â
His phone is turned off, so who knows when heâll see your texts. He might not turn it on again for hours.
You text your best friend, I think someone broke into my house. Donât call me. Please help.
You chew on your thumbnail.
Either she calls the cops, or she shows up with a baseball bat and her scary-ass motorcycle dude boyfriend. Heâs secretly a softie, but his appearance doesnât match his personality.
Heâs a lot like Jason, actually. Who would have thought you two had the same type?
You call Jason again.
Voicemail.
Again.
Voicemail.
Your best friend texts, Omw. Thatâs it, but itâs the best text youâve ever seen in your life.
Okay. Either cower in the bathroom until someone shows up, or play along with the same game the possibly-real-intruder is playing, that everything is normal.
No matter what happens next, you want to be dressed for it. You peek under the door, but you donât see anyoneâs feet.
Maybe this is all in your head, but you have a terrible gut feeling that it isnât.
Your heart pounds, but you maintain a leisurely stroll into your room through the kitchen, palming a knife as you go, and locking the door behind you. The intruder may be in your closet, so you hold the knife out as you swing the door open.
Empty.
You throw on the first clothes you see and debate hiding in your room until your friend arrives. But adrenaline is pumping and you think you might shake out of your skin. You sit on the edge of the bed and take deep breaths.
Thereâs a window in your room, but it only opens three inches and itâs not connected to the fire escape, so thatâs not an option. The window that leads to the fire escape is in the main room, so youâd have to walk through the kitchen to get to it, and the intruder may be hiding in the pantry.
You could try the front door, but the storage closet is right next to it: another likely place for someone to hide and jump out at you.
Your room is only as safe as the strength of the door. And the wood is pretty thin.
All of a sudden, your phone buzzes, and you drop it. You snatch it up to see an incoming call lighting up the screen with your boyfriendâs handsome contact photo.
You accept the call immediately. âJay?â
âIâm on my way,â he rushes out. You hear the roar of his motorcycle in the background. âAre you okay?â
âIâm okay.â You whisper, âI think someone is here.â
âI know.â His voice is strained. âItâs going to be okay. Youâre going to be fine. Iâm five minutes away. Can you get out?â
âI donât know. Iâm in my bedroom, I locked my door. I think heâs hiding somewhere in the apartââ
A hand shoots out from under the bed and grabs your ankle.
You scream.
Your phone flies away when he yanks you off the bed. You go down swinging with the knife and make contact, accidentally swiping your own ankle in the process. The man grunts with pain and lets go, and you scramble to the door. You donât even feel the pain in your ankle, although youâre actually bleeding a lot.
Heâs wriggling out from under your bed when you get to your feet and twist the doorknob. âGet the fuck out of my house, you fucking pervert!â you scream. You yank the door open and runâŠ
Right into a strangerâs chest.
There are two of them?
An iron grip clamps over your shoulder. His other hand fists in your hair. âWell, hello, pretty. Youâre not the Red Hood.â
You stab him in the stomach.
Unfortunately, that only makes him mad.
âYou bitch,â he groans. The slap is so powerful it nearly breaks your neck. You canât breathe for a second, and then the first man catches up to you. His hand is bleeding. Like, a lot. They transfer you over so the stabbed man can groan about being stabbed. Itâs only in his gut, so he should be fine. âWalk it off,â you goad. Itâs the Gotham in you.
The first man digs his bloody knuckles into your cheek. âFucking whore cut me,â he says. âWhereâs the Red Hood?â
âHeâll kill you both,â you spit. âHeâs on his way to shoot you in the head.â The threat should have scared them, but they were dumb enough to break into the Red Hoodâs apartment and beat his partner. They had not been blessed with many braincells.
âGood,â he says. âHeâll get here just in time to see his pretty pet die.â
Someone pounds on the door and everyone freezes. Fear flashes over their face, but Jason wouldnât have knocked. He would have kicked the door down or gone through the window.
Your best friend calls your name through the door. Sheâs trying to sound casual, but things are so far past casual.
The man holding you sees you draw in a breath to scream. âDonât you dare,â he warns. âDo it and Iâll kill them, too.â The barrel of a gun presses to the side of your head.
Where is Jason?
You donât think heâll get here in time. He doesnât deserve to carry the weight of that failure, but he will. Your Jay thinks heâs responsible for every bad thing in the world.
The manâs ugly face explodes.
You register the concussive sound of gunfire half a second later. Your ears ring. You lose your balance.
More gunfire. Itâs so loud all you can do is cover your ears. Whoâs shooting who?
It stops as suddenly as it started, but you donât look up. You canât hear anything. You donât want to see their ugly faces anymore.
Then hands grab you again, and you shriek. Your kitchen knife is still buried in the second manâs gut, so you have no defense. A man with a gun is going to kill you in your apartment.
Despite all your attempts at fighting, heâs too strong. Iron hands pry your hands away from your head, but you still canât hear anything. Your ears are still ringing too loud. Your eardrums might have burst.
Then gloved hands cup your cheeks.
You know those gloves.
Jason is kneeling on the ground in front of you, absolutely frantic. His mouth moves, but you donât hear anything. You donât even hear your sob, but you definitely feel it right before you throw yourself at him.
Strong arms wrap around your back. Jason cradles you, hugs you so tight you canât breathe, tries to hide you from anyone that might hear you. You still canât make out his words, but youâre beginning to hear a muffled voice.
Youâre sitting completely in his lap, his legs behind you to support your back. You cling to him, trying not to shake. Youâre a pretty unflappable Gothamite, but a home invasion is enough to rattle anyone. Youâre supposed to be safe here.
Jason pulls away just enough to kiss your forehead. His green eyes squeeze tight like heâs in pain, and a single tear slips from the corner of one.
You wipe it away.
Jason wipes the blood on your cheek away.
You read his lips when he asks if youâre okay. You nod. Youâre alive, and thatâs what matters.
Jason holds you still when you try to look around. He says something that you canât read. He must know that you donât understand, because he just uses one huge hand on the back of your head to pull you forward. His mouth presses against your forehead, not quite a kiss, just relishing the connection.
You hear the banging first. Then you hear the shouting.
Oh, God. Your best friend.
You scramble out of Jasonâs hold so fast he canât stop you. You stumble past two dead bodies, both with three bullets in their heads. The floor is ruined beyond belief.
Jason helps support you. He needs to touch you somewhere to reassure himself that youâre okay, that youâre alive. You unlock the door, and barely open it a crack before your friend pushes it all the way open.
She gasps at the sight of you. âOh, my God!â Her arms wrap tight around your neck, and you squeeze her. Jasonâs hand remains pressed against your back. Her boyfriend stands behind her in the hallway, and he eyes Jason somewhat suspiciously. The two have never met before.
Your best friend pulls away, and Jason folds you against his side. His hand runs up and down your arm.
âAre you okay? Thereâs blood all over you.â Her eyes drift past your face and land on the bodies on your floor. Her mouth tightens, but she doesn't scream or call the cops immediately.
âItâs not mine,â you say faintly. âWellâŠâ You look at your ankle. âMost of it.â
âJesus,â says Jason. âThey did that to you?â
"I did it to myself," you admit. "But I stabbed that one." You point.
He kisses the top of your head. "I'm going to teach you how to defend yourself. I never should have left you alone." Jason fixes your friend with a look so stern that she actually gulps. "Can you watch them for a little bit?"
"Yeah," she says. "I'll take care of them."
"Good." Jason takes your face in his hands. His eyes blaze. "I'll be back as soon as I can. You hear me? You're not gonna be alone ever again."
You nod numbly.
Jason carries you to the couch, then coaches your friend through applying pressure to your ankle. He gently places an icepack in your hand, then moves you until it's pressed to your numb cheek. Then he kisses you. Pulls back. Kisses you again. It's not sweetâhe tastes like blood, or maybe you doâbut it's firm, and it's real, and it's a promise.
He stands up and asks your friend's boyfriend, "You wanna help me with these?"
As far as you know, the other man's never hidden a dead body in his life. But to his credit, he hardly hesitates before nodding.
Jason's already calling someone when he walks out. One of his criminal contacts, you're sure. You don't know and you don't want to know.
They're gone for twenty minutes. You're still in shock when they get back. You know you're in shock, but you can't snap out of it. You don't think you want to.
He gently nudges your friend's hands away to peek under the gauze. "You want stitches for this, honey?"
You shake your head. The cut's too close to bone, and you don't want a needle going anywhere near your bones.
"Okay." He changes the gauze, then tapes it in place, then puts a sticky wrap over that. "I'll change this in the morning. You're gonna be okay."
"I'm glad you're all right," your friend's boyfriend offers. You don't know each other all that well, but he just helped hide two bodies that you and Jason killed, so he must be an all right dude. You nod, give him a shaky smile, try to wave.
Your best friend bends over to hug you. "I'm going to text you in the morning," she says. "You'll be okay with Jason. I'm so proud of you. I'm so glad you're okay."
You hug her back until she puts the icepack back in the freezer.
When they leave, Jason stands up from the couch. You make a pleading, confused noise in the back of your throat, and he smooths your hair away from your face. "I'll be right back, honey," he promises. "I'm gonna lock the door. No one's ever getting to you again, you hear me?"
As soon as he pulls away, you shiver. The only thing keeping you warm was his body.
True to his word, he locks the front door, then heads right back to you.
"Do you want to go to the bedroom?" Jason asks softly.
You shake your head. There was a man hiding beneath your bed tonight. It was worse than any monster you used to be scared of as a child.
"Okay," he says softly. Jason eases onto the couch, but he has so much bulk that it's impossible to lay side-by-side on your backs. Jason twists onto his side, and after a moment, you do too, using one of his massive biceps as a pillow. He smells like gunpowder. You smell like blood. You fit together like two terrible, violent puzzle pieces.
He kisses your forehead again. Pulls a blanket over the two of you, makes sure it's snug around your feet. You enjoy the fussing.
When he has nothing left to fiddle with, Jason sucks in a ragged inhale, then says, voice cracking, "When I saw those texts, I was terrified."
"I'm glad you checked your phone," you say. "For a while, I thought you wouldn't."
"I could feel that something was wrong."
Your throat hurts. "Did you mess up your mission tonight because of me?"
"Honey, I would do anything for you," he says. "I'd abandon a thousand missions to keep you safe. I'd burn this city to the ground."
Another night, you would remind him that he's a hero. That he fights for the greater good. That he is good.
Tonight, you take comfort in the vow.
"I'm so proud of you," he whispers. "You were so brave. You did so well."
Your fingers twist in his shirt. Your nose nestles into the hollow at the base of his throat perfectly, so you hear every breath he takes, every rumble in his throat when he talks. You press a kiss to his chest just above the neckline of his shirt, and his throat jumps.
Jason makes a strangled noise, then wraps his arms even tighter around you. He throws one leg over your hip, completely covering you, pressing you into the couch. You would feel suffocated if it was anyone else.
You fall asleep faster than you ever have before, secure that Jason won't let anything happen to you during the night. The last thing you register before unconsciousness is his dry lips pressed to your forehead again. Making sure you're alive. Reassuring you that he's here and always will be.
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can we get butchfemme sevika/reader hcs please :3
GAWD yes. Lord, I've been waiting for this day lessgo
ButchFemme Sevika/Reader Headcanons
âą In typical butch fashion, her love language is acts of service
âą Loves to be fawned over ! Like âOmfg babe youâre sooo strong helping me put together furnitureâ and trust she is melting even though her face is expressionless and immoveable
âą She likes when you graze your long nails over her skin for back scratches and its all nice and light and tingly
âą Sheâs not much of a prettyboy (prettybutchâŠ?) so she doesnât really have a skincare routine but you have an extensive regimen so she memorizes all ur million little bougie products and gets you an extra to keep at ur place so you donât have to eff up your skincare routine in favor of spontaneous sleepovers
âą Yeah sheâs not too particular about her grooming in general. She lets you cut her hair even if youâre not super experienced with clippers. She still hypes you up even if you nick her ear when doing up her side shave/undercut.
âOops! Sorry babe I think I got your earâŠâ
âDidnât even feel it. Youâre doing great baby keep going.â
âą On that note, pet names: For Sevika, its baby alll dayyyyyy ! She calls you baby, my girl, my pretty girl, my woman, etc. And as for what you call her, she always loves a âomg babeâ moment. And âsettle down there, cowboyâ but in like a jesting sorta way. Also: âmy butch.â
âą Stone top/pillow princess anybody?
âą Also: sheâs ur cash cow. She loves buying you expensive shit and showing you off and showing off the expensive shit. You breathed in the direction of a particularly nice perfume? Surprise! Itâs in your bathroom the following day. Like. Itâs a theme. Especially in ur pre-relationship courting era. âBaby anything you want I get for you. Say the word Iâll buy for you the moon, the stars, et cetera, no one can provide for you like I canâ blah blah blah
âą But you canât be interrupting her card games tho. Sheâs like a teenage boy on the xbox with those things. Probs something to be worried about tbh.
âą And Iâve written this into a fanfic already, but that bitch wears boyshorts. I was thinking boxers for a while but I think that would be too much bulk over them skinny little plants she wears. I am a Sevika boyshorts TRUTHER
âą And she works out. Matter of fact, forget the prettybutch comment because Sevika WORKS OUTTT and I think she has resistance bands. Like she goes to an actual gym but around the house youâll find her repping with those damn resistance bands to relieve stress or just cause she sees them and remembers.
âą And she works out to like. Classical music. Cause sheâs a classy mothafuckaaa just absolutely getting ripped and her face is in a scary ass sneer but there's like ode to joy in the background
âą You pack her lunch. She gets flamed at work cause her paper bag is covered in lil hearts and stickers and kissy lipstick marks and its filled with sugary baked goods like pink sparkly cupcakes and fruity pastries cause u canât cook. But by gawd u can bake.
âą That being said, sheâs the cook in the relationship. Especially when it comes to meat. Itâs problematic. Sevikaâs version of âgirl dinnerâ is straight up protein. Her typical meal is like. A rotisserie chicken + hard boiled eggs. It made you gasp the first time you saw her pull out one of her meal prep tins and it was just that.
âą Oh yeah and she meal preps
âą Claims she âdoesnât get sickâ because her âimmune system is just built different.â
âą When she does get sick, she refuses to chill out and let herself be sick and she tries to speedrun her way to health by taking too much vitamin C and then working out and cranking the heat to âsweat it out quicker.â
âą She knits to relieve stress
âą Sleeps topless and in undies. And a wife pleaser tank if its chilly.
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Neighbour!Simon Riley x Reader
Girl Next Door (Two)
CW: Mutual masturbation again, Simon has incredibly perverted thoughts about you, a stranger jumps into your backyard!!! :)
Previous Chapter, Next Chapter
The Summer air was sticky, spits of sweat clinging to the back of your neck as intricates of hair moulded to your skin. You felt damp, your clothes acting like an uncomfortable Band-Aid that strained against your flesh causing an itching sensation that wouldnât subside no matter how hard you rubbed or scratched.
It was upsetting, you dearly loved your garden. You took great pride in how pretty it was, the adornment of tulips and dahlias, entwined between rows of carnations and peonies. There was a stark difference between your house and your neighbour, even between the differing shades of grass, his a deeper juniper and yours a dewy pine.
Steady hands gripped the blue watering can, droplets beading at the top before feeding the parched plants. Gloved hands patted down the wet dirt, your eyes squinting under the boiling sun as you hurried under some shade. Thirsty lips found the straw, the sickly sweetness of pink lemonade sliding down your throat as you let out a dramatic sigh.
Your eyes trailed over the fence, the wood structure was tall, yet not tall enough to fully conceal your neighbourâs house, his kitchen on display as you froze, a staggering figure watching out the window at you. You waved awkwardly, holding up your glass of lemonade as Simon turned around, walking away from the glass pane.
Your belly felt hot. Was he watching you that whole time? You glanced down at your sundress, a bright red puffed out with a drastic shade of yellow flowers splattered around the fabric. Did he think you looked weird? Or pretty? What if he thought you were creepy and staring at him first?
You shook your head, chucking your gardening gloves to the side as you strolled inside. The soft strum of music played, your fans working overtime to cool down your house. You had never made much of an effort to speak to your neighbour, yet realised he never made much of an effort to speak to anyone. You had never seen him converse with anyone in the neighbourhood, and there was only a handful of times when another car was pulled into his driveway.
Maybe he was lonely. You despised the way your brain worked, always conjuring up someoneâs life story without even a hint of the person. Nevertheless, you found yourself in the kitchen, sifting flour into a sugary mix, moulding chocolate chips into the dough balls before placing them in the oven.
Your kitchen broiled with the smell of chocolate chip cookies, your fingers padding into the tops of them before letting them sit and harden. You would admit, you partook in several hobbies, baking and gardening being two of them. Though you didnât need to be doing this, a part of you was aching to understand the man who has been living next door to you for over 2 years now.
Shaky hands guided you out the door as you contemplated knocking, pacing back and forth across the porch several times before you anxiously padded against the wood, straightening out your sundress with a plate of cookies in your other. Simon stayed seated for a moment, creeping towards the door almost silently before beady eyes looked through the peephole. The Lieutenant stilled, taking in your pretty figure and the baking in your other hand, the subtle display of your cleavage almost enticing him as he watched you bounce on your feet nervously, awaiting him.
He opened the door, a neutral expression on his face. âHello!â You squeaked, âI was baking, and I just wanted to bring you some. We havenât really met before, and I guess I wanted to be a friendly neighbour seeing as youâve just gotten home from being away.â You rambled on a bit before shutting yourself up, holding the plate out.
Simon held his breath as you spoke, taking in the way your lashes fluttered every time you looked around in a fiddly manner. âThanks.â His voice was gruff, his accent piercing through the deepness as he showed no sign of emotion in his expression.
âWell... I guess thatâs it, enjoy the cookies,â you sighed, handing off the plate as you turned on your heels. Simon let out a deep breath before calling out to you.
âDo you want to come in and I donât know, watch something? I was just watching the TV, and you went to the trouble of making these. The polite thing to do.â
You nodded, slowly, but let a big smile crack through your face as you quickly huddled inside his home. His house was a lot darker than yours, with neutral colours staining the furniture with minimalistic pieces of clutter. There was a stark difference between the two of you in general. You appeared full of colour and life whereas he was more reserved and mysterious.
You plonked yourself on his couch, grey leather rubbing against the back of your thighs as you adjusted the skirt of your dress. He placed the cookies on the coffee table in front of you both, the cushions sinking as he sat down, his large thighs spread as he turned on the television, his arm automatically slinging across the top of the sofa.
It was awkward. Neither of you spoke as he fiddled with the channels, landing on some old sitcom you had only seen when nothing else was on. Your nimble fingers reached for a cookie as you held your hand over you to make a makeshift plate. Simonâs dark eyes flickered towards you, watching the way your mouth moved, lips curling over the cookie before you sucked any crumbs up.
As time passed, you grew more comfortable, your legs plush against the seat as you rested against the armrest, laying your face on the palm of your hand as you occasionally laughed. Simon felt like a creep, focusing more on you than the TV show he chose. He noted all the small details in your face, every visible crease and line in your features, the way your cheeks puffed up slightly as you laughed and how your irisâ would dart across the screen when a new person appeared.
Greedy carob orbs sucked in the sight of your supple cleavage, the delicate bounce of your breasts as you adjusted yourself occasionally. His cock chubbed at the display of your skin, the hem of your dress riding up over the plushness of your thighs, as his tongue darted out to lick his dry lips.
He rubbed his hand over his mouth as he looked away from you, eyebrows furrowed at the perverted thoughts racking around his skull. He adjusted his pants subtly, letting out a near-silent groan at the thought of you bent over the couch, wanton holes on display as you wept into the leather, his hands cracking down on the fat of your ass as he left a stain of his large hand.
He imagined you on your knees in front of him, doe-eyes staring up at him with unshed tears as you spluttered around his girthy cock, taking him down your tight throat as you dribbled onto your bare breasts. But oh dear, his length practically aches as he imagined the sight of you bouncing on his lap, tight cunt filled with him as he forced you to focus on the dumb show, narrating what was happening as he kissed your sloppy cervix, staining your gummy walls with hot spurts of his cum.
He was almost sad when the show ended, your knees knocking together as you thanked him for inviting you in. He gave you a small smile, eyes creasing slightly as he nodded.
âThank you for the cookies. If you need anything, let me know.â
You almost giggled in excitement as you rushed inside your own house. It became a routine now; one you didnât even know he knew about. Desperate fingers clung to the lace of your panties, peeling them down your legs as you ground your sloppy pussy against your pillow, vibrator nestled into your hardened clit as you moaned out into the palm of your hands.
Your hands found your neglected chest, pulling the straps of your nightgown down as you tweaked at the puffy buds, swirling your digits around them as your eyes rolled back in sheer pleasure. Simonâs hand rutted to the frequency of your moans, slick balls aching for release as he waited for the higher-pitched squeal you let out while you orgasmed, yet it never came.
Instead, he was greeted with the sound of a more frightened squeal and frantic rustling. Your eyes were dead shut as you approached your high, opening to take in your blissful figure before they twitched towards the window, the sight of a man climbing over your fence sending chills through every nerve you had as you squealed, rolling onto the floor as you adjusted your nightgown, your panties quickly slipped up your thighs once more.
Distressed hands reached for your phone, calling emergency services about an intruder before you did the most sensible thing you believed to be possible while you waited.
You frantically banged against Simonâs door.
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soft sukuna !!! <3 nsfw; abstaining from sex until he realises his baby has a little praise kink!!
"sukuna.. i can't.."
you tell him with a small pout on your lips.
after last time you thought he might be more careful, maybe showing you a little mercy. but no.
your boyfriend wants to fuck, and it seems that he won't be giving up on that idea anytime soon.
"why not?" he grunts his reply, nipping at your earlobe with his body pressed against yours.
your cheeks burn with the feeling of his voice in your ear.
but you squeeze his leg and push on him, creating a small gap between your bodies.
"told you.. already.."
your eyes focus everywhere but his, while his explore your entire body as you squirm beneath him.
"mmh" he vocalises that he doesn't care about what you just said, bringing his hand under your chin to tilt your face up.
"tell me again"
your eyes dart around, then are forced into contact with his.
he gives you a deep, hard stare. maroon irises never leaving yours.
his thumb starts to tug at your bottom lip with impatience.
however much you know he's doing this to humiliate you, or for his own gratification, you don't want him to lose his patience.
"too.." your eyes dip away from his one more time. he gives your chin an encouraging squeeze, a hint of a smirk showing on his lips.
"too big.."
you admit it. again.
that you're abstaining from sex because he hurt you so bad last time that you're scared to do it.
you've been resisting for a whole week!
and damn, it's getting difficult to deny his advances now it's been that long. with him in close proximity, every day, teasing you.
he knows you want it.
but he also knows that it will hurt you.
so he's been working on wearing you down until you start to enjoy the stinging sensation of a cock that's just too big for your tight little hole.
he's going to get you there eventually.
he knows you already enjoy mild pain...
spanking, love bites, grabbing, choking.
but he never knew it would end up like this.
"i'll go easy on you.." he promises, lips moving closer to yours.
you try to back up but your head is still caught in his grasp.
"uh uh. not today sweetheart"
he's let you get away from him a few times this week; slipping through his fingers with a lie in the form of an excuse.
"you don't need to make excuses with me"
his eyes can pick apart your lies in any case. you know there's no point.
"i want to make you feel good"
your lip is between your teeth, eyes wide, your brain scrambling to consider what you're being offered right now.
he's bending over backwards to ensure you get a good fuck.
can you trust him?
~
"nnghh- su-sukuna-"
you lie back on the bed with his cock nudging at your sweet entrance.
that's where he wants to be.
he's got tunnel vision now.
after he gave you one orgasm with his fingers, to loosen you up, he couldn't wait any longer.
the way your pussy gripped over his fingers made him seethe with anger that his cock wasn't deep inside you, coated with your slick.
"ughh-" he sighs out, black ink hooking over his heaving chest.
he's getting so impatient now and you really need him to calm down or he's going to hurt you again.
this is how it always happens.
a kind of aggression takes over his body when he gets like this.
angry that your pussy won't let him in.
angry that he can give you pleasure with his fingers.
with his mouth.
but oh no, that's not what he wants.
he wants you cumming on his cock.
and that's what he's going to get.
regaining his composure, his eyes focus on your body again.
crimson meets pretty pink, the shade of your flushed pussy lips.
and he stares intently, smoothing his hands over your tummy.
"calm down, sweetheart"
he hums, sounding almost caring.
"i need you to relax for me, ok?"
you nod and place a hand around one of his wrists.
"please.. can i hold your hand?" you ask, batting your lashes.
ugh. this lovey dovey shit makes his blood boil.
but for you?
"sure, princess"
his fingers lace with yours, palms together, pressed to the pillow.
he takes a few deep breaths, encouraging you to do the same, as your body eases up and starts to relax, just like he asked.
"good girl" he coos, squeezing your hand gently.
he feels your pussy flutter gently against his tip, that's pressed hard and leaking on your wet body.
without realising what he's doing, only understanding that you like this- the way he's talking to you right now- he suddenly learns that you need him to reassure you.
you want him to be soft and gentle with you.
so that's what he's going to give you.
"that's it, baby," his voice is so calm and soothing, you listen to every word with your eyes glistening.
"you're doing so well, i just need you to open up for me, okay?"
the sinister, curling rasp is almost lost from his voice, being replaced by a tone so unfamiliar you question that this is really your man above you right now.
"s- sukuna?"
"uh huh?" he looks up from your pussy, where your bodies are connecting with strings of your wetness, to your pretty face.
oh god, your gorgeous face.
and for once, you don't look scared of him.
you're smiling at him; you look excited.
fuck that's got him going more than he'd like to admit.
"thank you.." your eyes sparkle with that pretty smile and he swears he can't help that feeling deep in his chest.
he supresses an eye roll and nudges his forehead against yours.
you know you better watch it with the romantic stuff or he might change his mind.
but for now, he's got you. and you've got him.
he presses on your thigh, opening your legs wider, and he starts moving his hips.
the smooth, thick tip of his cock glides into you.
"fuck-" he sighs over your lips, feeling as shocked as you.
that shouldn't have been so easy.
but it was.
"well done, baby.." he coos, rewarding you with a tender kiss.
"think you can take a little more for me?"
a little? sure.
"uh huh," you nod, eager to please this kind, sweet side of your man.
"good.." the tone of his voice makes you melt into the cushions that he placed under you, for your comfort.
your body feels so open to him right now, he pushes a little further.
hips sliding smoothly closer.
"nghh- ah-" the noises come out of your throat without thinking, your free hand landing on the back of his head where the dark hair of his undercut meets his neck.
"good?" he pushes you to answer, his smirk growing wider.
and you can't lie to him, it feels amazing.
"y-yes.."
he can feel your hand squeezing on his and he knows you're ready for more.
a few more inches.
"thaat's it, baby" he eases it in, your legs opening wider and hooking around his back.
god he thought he understood what you liked so well?
hot, passionate, rough sex.
yeah, it's great. it's fun.
but every now and then even the kinkiest girls need a break.
"nearly all the way, sweetheart" his voice finds your ears again when you're feeling so close to bliss already.
he peers down between your bodies, getting hot and messy, his abs rubbing against your soft, plushy stomach, and he realises how close you are to taking him whole.
the sight of that makes his cock swell and throb, sending another wave of pure ecstasy through you.
"easy, easy baby--"
he draws in a sharp breath and you can see him struggling, teeth sinking into his lower lip.
"can feel you squeezing me... tight.." he moans.
"gonna.. go all the way in now, ok?"
you nod and he leans down over you, pressing his lips to your neck with his arms caging you in. your hands find his shoulders, his back, his hair, anything to grab onto.
"uhh- baby.."
he chokes out, feeling the warmth of your pussy over his whole cock.
"took all of me.. fuck.."
his hips start moving slowly, in tandem with the strings of disbelieving sighs that flow out of his mouth.
"you're not hurting, huh?"
he checks, pulling himself all the way out before sinking right back in again when you shake your head.
he sees your eyes roll back, your hand clasping over your mouth to suppress a loud whimper.
"d-doesn't hurt- at all--" you manage to get out between your heavy, pleasured breaths as he eases himself in and out of you.
"good," he looks down at your expression- seeing his girl like this makes his heart swell. he needs to tell you.
"good girl"
that will have to do for now.
feeling your whole body reaction to his praise is good enough.
next time maybe he'll surprise you with a few more words...
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Danielle - All Over Again (M)
Casual sex. Something that has become commonplace for many, maybe a little too common. You have people having body counts well into 100s. But for some, sex is more dear, a sacred act that one does with another that they truly love. A difference in opinion is most certain to happen. For Danielle, she holds the connection made through making love close to her heart, almost to a fault. Even though sheâs only been with one person, that person holds their place in her heart and soul. She stares at the wall of the dressing room, her mind filled with replays of them and her.Â
âPlease Daddy~â She pleads and moans as their hands grip her tiny waist as they take her from behind. The way she fills so full with them inside. Her moans fill the room, one hand grips their forearm, the other the sheet. A position she is all too familiar with, under him. Her black lace panties were pulled to the side, she wore his favorite. Black, lace and see through. She knows the effect she has on him no matter what she wears but that set always did the most,âFuck,â her throat hurts from moaning, they been at it for hours. Condoms ran dry, a new experience for her, taking him raw.Â
âFuck Dani,â His voice low as he grunts, she feels him throb inside of her. She knew he wouldnât pull out, he held her down pushing himself as deep as he could without hurting her, âWould you have my babies Dani?â his whisper drives her crazy, all she could do is nod.Â
âDanielle?â Hanni taps her shoulder, getting her out of her day dream, âAre you okay?âÂ
Dani looks around realizing she has been rubbing her thighs together, âIâm fine, I just need to go to the bathroom,â Hanni doesnât seem convinced but nods as Dani rushes to the bathroom, taking a deep breath, locking the bathroom door. Her safety shorts are pulled down, her panties soon follow, âShit,â She runs her fingers through her folds, drenched within seconds, dripping with her fluids. She only gets this way with him. The replays go through her mind again, her slender fingers slide inside of her, she covers her mouth to hide her whimpers. Opening her phone, she pulls up a video of her and him. He filmed it as he took her hard, her fingers frantically chasing her orgasm. Trying to keep quiet, as a puddle forms on the floor, her legs quiver as she cums collapsing over the sink. She quickly gets herself together and cleans up. Â
âDani, are you really okay?â Hanni asks again when Danielle gets back to the room, âYou were in there for quite awhile.â
âIâm fine, something just didnât agree with my stomach,â Dani says, slightly smiling as she sits down.Â
âIf you say so,â Hanni shakes her head and the rest of the day goes on without incident. Even months go on without her thinking about him. Even started talking to a new guy, he just wasnât him. She tried and tried yet she kept comparing them. She dropped him when he wanted to go further, they barely talked for a few months and yet he wanted that. Luckily for her, the day they were leaving for a few overseas schedules came quick. Unluckily for her, she took a quick glance while they were boarding the plane, and she swears she saw him. The man that plagues her mind,body, and soul. She ignores the nagging feeling, she occupied herself with her members. That lasted just enough to get off the plane.Â
âIâll catch up to you guys, I need to rush to the bathroom,â Dani says, taking off in his direction.Â
âBut Dani, the bathroom is the other room,â Minji screams out, watching her run off before sighing, âThis girl.âÂ
Danielleâs eyes frantically search through the sea of people, typically she could find him because he is taller than anyone else but the people here are his height so sheâs having a harder time. She spots him, rushing over as quickly as she can.Â
âY/n!â She yells out, making him look over at her, as she stands there, anger boiling in her blood.Â
âElle~â He smiles looking down at her, he can tell sheâs angry.Â
âDonât call me that,â She stares at him, anger slowly fading as her deep rooted feelings start to take over. His perfect face in her eyes, his fit body that hides under those clothes of his, âWhy did you leave?âÂ
âI didnât want to get in the way of your dreams,â He stares back, âMy my my, just as beautiful as I remember.âÂ
âShut up Y/n,â She looks away trying to hide her face, âYou know that you wouldnât have gotten in the way of them.âÂ
âI would have, I know myself Dani, even if I didnât mean to, I would have.âÂ
Danielle feels like heâs lying to her, she always had a good feeling for when he wasnât being truthful. She canât handle it, itâs not good for her right now. Shaking her head, she turns to leave, running into Minji. Minjiâs eyes are filled with hate and disdain as she stares at Y/n.Â
âWhy are you here?â her voice filled with anger, shaky yet firm. Sheâs holding herself back, âI warned you not to bother her again.âÂ
âIâm not here to bother her Minji, Iâm here because I live here, duh.â His smile never leaves his face, sadistic almost.Â
âWhat do you mean you told him to not bother me?â Dani asks, curious by what Minji means. Snapping Minji out of her anger, quickly looking over at Dani then back at him, smirking as he backs away.Â
âNot like that⊠wait, you donât know the real reason why he left?â Minji inquires, stopping herself from defending her words. Dani shakes her head, making Minji sigh, âThis will be harder to explain then.âÂ
âGirls?â Their manager finds them, âWe need to hurry, our rides are waiting and we have a time limit.âÂ
âManager-nim, tell her the reason,â Minji pushes the explanation off to another.Â
âThe reason for what?âÂ
âY/n.âÂ
âOh fuck no,â The manager starts pushing them to the van, âWe arenât going to talk about him right now.âÂ
Danielle is lost right now, what do they know? Her mind thinks and thinks never coming close to a possible outcome. She stares into space even after they arrive at the hotel, the night overtaking the sky, the moon swallowing the sunâs light. She sneaks out of the hotel, the rest of the members are asleep, surprising her. Being back in Australia shouldâve been more exciting for at least Hanni. She knows heâs in the city. Itâs Friday, at midnight. She knows exactly where he will be. Finding a taxi was luck on her side, at first the driver was reluctant to drive where she wanted but after a hefty payment upfront he was more than happy to after they settled with a drop off a block away. The smell of burning rubber filled her senses along with the sound of music and engines. Taking a deep breath relishing in the smell she grew accustomed with over the years.Â
âWell well well, look at what the cat dragged in,â A voice comes over the music with a megaphone, The person jumps down from their seat, âThe little princess is back. First the king, now you.âÂ
âShut up Nath, where is Y/n?â She asks, looking around, new faces, new cars, nothing really of note.Â
âYou hurt me so Danielle, you know where he is, you always do,â He chuckles going back to watching the drifting, the eyes she felt on her was she walked through the crowd was nothing new to her, she looks at some of the cars, enjoying the vibe of the car scene. She finally finds him once again, at the pool table, surrounded by the cars. One of them being his, it looks like just how she remembers it, the pristine white wheels going perfect with the black paint.Â
âI see you still have the GTR Y/n,â She says, getting the people's attention. A few she recognizes.Â
âIf I didnât know any better, I would say you were just here to enjoy the cars, Elle,â He turns to look at her, her hoop earrings, her crop top, tight jeans, âBrings back memories,â he says, checking her out.
âEyes up here dipshit,â She snaps her fingers, âWe need to talk Y/n. A serious talk.âÂ
He turns back to the pool table, taking his shot ,ïżœïżœïżœWhat is there to talk about?âÂ
She steps in front of him and the table, looking up at him, ignoring the flashes of what happens when she typically does this, âEverything.âÂ
He sighs, handing his pool cue to someone, âGet in,â he says as sheâs already at the passenger door. The two get in, she feels the start of the RB26 course through her body.Â
âI see the seat hasnât moved,â She quips, smirking to herself.Â
âNo one was allowed in my car other than you and still is that way,â he drives slowly through the crowd of people moving to the side, making way for the GTR. Getting to the street, he steps on it, throwing their heads back. Heading to the highway, he slows down, taking in the lights illuminating the night skies. The ride remains silent, the sound of RB echoes through the night. Her hand instinctively falls to the shift, holding his. The two say nothing as they relish the silence, none of them want to ruin the atmosphere. The scenery changes as they head to a spot, a spot they frequently went to. Overlooking the city, they are brightened by the headlights.Â
âWhy did you leave Y/n?â Dani asks again, âNot the bullshit reason, or the reason you think will hurt me last, the real reason.âÂ
âYour company forced me to,â He stared at the city, the concrete jungle, âThey said I was too distracting and they knew for some reason that we were sexually active. Couldnât take the risk.âÂ
âWhy didnât you tell me Y/n? I wouldâve stopped them,â She makes him look at her.Â
âI didnât want you to lose everything you worked so hard for,â he smiles slightly, grabbing her hand, squeezing it.Â
âI wouldâve given up my dream if it might I would lose you,â Tears fell from her eyes, he wiped her tears, as he always did, âWhy did Minji say that to you at the airport?âÂ
âNo clue, my guess is that the company came up with something different,â he keeps holding her hand.Â
It seems like she got her answers, but now she has more questions. She holds his hand, the familiar touch that she longed for. Staring out at the city, they stayed out there catching up, falling in love again, till the sun started raising.Â
âI should probably take you back to the hotel,â He says, getting his keys out of his pocket, sitting up from the grass.Â
She grabs his arm tightly, âI donât want to go back,â She pulls him back to the grass, âI want to spend more time with you.âÂ
âBut Dani, you have a concert today. One of which I have tickets to, I can pick you up after the concert if you want me to.âÂ
 She sits up quickly, getting on top of him, âYou promise?â her eyes shining brightly with a smile as bright as the rising sun.
âPromise,â he offers her his pinky, which she takes quickly, giggling. They finally manage to get to their feet. Heading to the car, Danielleâs phone rings. She lets out a sigh as she gets into the car with him.Â
âHello,â She says, already knowing what they are going to say.Â
âWhere are you?â Itâs her manager, a good manager though a bit too much at times.Â
âIâm out, Iâm on my way back right now though,â She smiles looking over at him driving.
âYou better not be with who I think you are with,â The tone of her managerâs voice noticeably changes, always when Y/n is the topic. Â
âSo what? Iâll be meeting you guys at the arena instead, It will be faster,â Dani hangs up, not wanting to hear more.Â
âSo to the arena?â he takes a glance over at her leaning back in the seat. The frustrated look on her face tells him everything he needs to know. Â
âPlease baby,â he hasnât heard her call him that in what feels like decades, eons even. He switches lanes, speeding up. Her hand falls back into place with his as they weave through traffic. The ride once again was silent,everything has been said. Merely enjoying the time that they had together is whatâs left.Â
New Jeans arrive at the arena, waiting outside their entrance for Dani. The rest are waiting patiently while Minji paces. Worry evident on her face, their company never liked Y/n and after what she heard from them, she didnât either. Judging by Danielleâs reaction to everything that transpired, even though it was rather quickly. She didnât get 100% truths, her pacing didnât stop when a loud car came screeching to a stop in front of them.Â
âUh oh, I know that car,â Hanni says, taking a look, âThis isnât going to be good,â She quickly takes the other two inside. Dani hops out of the passenger side, a bright smile and all.Â
âWhere the fuck were you,â Minji storms over, anger trumping her worry, examining her outfit causes her to get more angry, âAnd what the fuck are you wearing?âÂ
âI was with Y/n, learning the truth,â Dani states simply walking past, ignoring the rest of Minjiâs questions. Avoiding the manager and focusing on the concert was her only priority. The concert simply couldnât start fast enough, luckily her accomplice Hanni helped her find a hiding spot. She spent her time talking to Y/n, selfies and all. He made her feel something, like he always did. Her day went faster and faster, till it was time for the concert. She performed her absolute best, the best she ever has. The encore felt great for her as well. The stage was on fire for her, she loved every second of it.Â
Walking back to the dressing room, âWhere did that come from Dani?â Hanni asks, hooking their arms together.Â
Dani giggles and whispers into her ear, âY/n is here,â Hanni looks at her with a knowing face, the two giggle to one another. Minji stares at the back of the two girls, she continues as she watches Danielle gather her things quickly, thanking the staff on her way out. Â
âDani, you have to stay here,â Minji finally says, stopping her in the halls. The surrounding staff stops and looks at the two girls.Â
âI donât need to stay anywhere, I did what I needed to do and now Iâm leaving,â Dani keeps walking, ignoring the many looks.Â
âYouâre going to get in trouble with the company, I donât want that,â Minji follows her, through the sea of busy workers.Â
âThe company meddled in something they shouldnât have, making me feel like absolute shit. So Honestly I donât care about the company right now,â Dani reaches outside, there he is waiting. If it wasnât for the lights she couldn't be able to tell, she starts to jog slightly reaching the car, getting in with ease. Minji can just stand there looking on in disbelief as the car drives away. Daniâs smile is bright, as her hand is holding his hand tightly, âDid you enjoy the Concert Y/n?âÂ
He nods, taking a slight glance over at the gorgeous girl in his passenger seat, âI did, you were perfect tonight,â He kisses her hand, smiling as he gets on the highway.Â
âIâm so happy,â She giggles, and thinks for a little bit, âShould we do something stupid?â
âWhat do you have in mind?â he asks as she starts laughing to herself pulling out her phone, getting on the New jeans instagram. Â
âJust drive,â She says finally, as turns on the cabin lights, starts to take a video showing everything as she leans on his arm. She puts my hype boy as a little text, posting it on their story. She giggles, turning off her phone, âSo your place?âÂ
âAs forward as always Dani,â He chuckles, her lips grazing against his arm, her free hand rubbing his leg, moving to his noticeable bulge.Â
âI know you canât resist me,â She nibbles on his earlobe. He drives on double time, rushing to his place. Trying his best to ignore her teasing, pulling into his driveway both of them hurry out. He couldnât unlock the door fast enough, as Dani locks his lips into a kiss. The feeling of her soft supple lips is enough to send him into a frenzy. The door finally opens, he tosses his keys somewhere and kicks the door close. His hands roam her body, his all familiar touch down her spine, sends shivers throughout her body. He moved away from her lips, her neck was his target. Finding her weak spot was no effort, her hands latch onto his hair, âFuck Daddy,â she moans out as she feels his teeth sink ever so slightly into her neck. Danielle pulls away from her neck as she sinks to her knees, getting eye level with what sheâs been yearning for. She kisses the outline through his slacks, her eyes flutter feeling the girth between her lips once again. She works on pulling them down, freeing his cock, letting it rest on her face. Peppering kisses up the shaft, her eyes look up at him not leaving him. He always loved it when she would look at him while she sucked his cock. She finally takes him in her mouth, his taste is even better than she remembers. One hand on his balls, the other stroking his shaft as she sucks on the tip.Â
âFuck babygirl,â One of her favorite nicknames from him, she pushes him deeper in to her mouth. Danielle feels his hand latch onto her ponytail, using that as leverage to push himself deeper into her throat. She gags but doesnât pull away when he does it for her. She coughs, spitting on his already spit covered cock.
âI havenât done this since you Daddy, sorry for the gagging,â She smiles innocently as she licks around his cock, leaving the occasional kiss. Her kisses get more sloppy, spit dripping from her lips leaving a mess on the floor, âWhat do you want me to daddy?â she says, guiding her lips up and down his shaft, âCall me what you did, I know you want to.âÂ
He pulls Dani up by her hair, âBend over slut,â She giggles bending over the couch, wiggling his ass at him as she slowly pulls her jeans down. Leaving the lace panties, âYou wanted this, didn't you?âÂ
âMore than you think Daddy,â She pulls her panties, as her pussy drips with anticipation of whatâs to come. He slaps her ass, âAgain please daddy,â he complies, slapping her ass more till itâs red. She reaches behind spreading her ass, âPlease fuck me daddy, Please I need your cock so badly,â She pleads and pleads until she feels your tip enter her followed by the rest of your cock, âOh fuck! Thatâs what I needed, I feel stretched out and so full.âÂ
He starts thrusting, the sound of skin on skin echoes throughout the house, followed by her moans and screams, âFuck I missed this pussy,â Y/n says between his grunts, squeezing her ass. Taking her the only way he knew, Hard and rough and she wouldnât have it at all. He quickened his pace before suddenly pulling out, making her squirt all over the floor, her legs shaking threatening to give out. He holds Danielle up by her hips.
âKeep fucking me please daddy! Fuck me till I canât walk tomorrow,â She pleads again, he shoves his cock back in, sheâs still just as tight, âYes daddy! Give me that cock,â Her hands grip on the couch tightly as he fucks her with reckless abandon. Pulling on her ponytail, smirking as he sees her eyes rolled back. Y/n keeps his pace, getting deeper and deeper inside of her. Her legs have been shaking for a few minutes now, He pushes as deep as he could before cumming. Filling her to the brim, her eyes come back around and widen, as he slowly pulls out as she falls to the floor trying to catch her breath. She looks up at him, his cock still standing proud, glistening her juices. She crawls over taking him into her mouth, cleaning his cock. Y/n chuckles looking at the eager girl. Pulling out of her mouth, he walks to the bedroom, Dani follows him crawling. He pulls her from her ponytail on the bed, spreading her legs, âGive me more daddy~â She giggles pulling him closer to her and she whispers, âLet me have your kids daddy,â His mind goes blank as he scrambles to get back inside of her. Slamming his cock in and out of her as they fight for dominance in their kiss. She longed for this feeling again, his body on top of hers, him using her in any way he wanted. She cums over and over again on his cock, she doesnât stop him. She wants this, she needs this. She feels him throb inside of her, âGive me your cum daddy, I want to feel it fill me up again~âÂ
âFuck dani,â he moans out bottoming out in her pussy filling her up again, pulling out and collapsing next to her as she giggles rubbing where her womb would be. She cuddles up to him, kissing his chest. As sleep takes them over, his seed drips out of her, dirtying the sheets even more.Â
Breaking News: New Jeans Danielle is pregnant?!
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hi i see that you have much smart dog experience. i may have accidentally purchased such a dog. she's only 10 weeks, and ive had her 1, and she's already outmatched every puzzle feeder i got or have made. to the point that she is morosely disappointed when her food comes in an actual food bowl. do you know where i can find like. "heres 100 enrichment toys you can make out of free trash so your dog stops eating fucking rocks for enrichment" lists. i only have so many paper towel tubes XD
Herschel now just disassembles puzzle feeders, so I've been focusing on "Toys that, even if he already knows how to operate them, will still take TIME for him to collect the treat from" to give him something to fuss with.
Herschel eats all his meals out of a Kong Wobbler, because he will otherwise eat so fast he will literally inhale and choke on his kibble and I do not need him developing pneumonia from aspiration. Even though it's a "Simple" toy it slows him down and he does have to think a bit to tip it in the most efficient manner possible. Kong's "Flipz", "Gyro" and "Rewards Wally" are also really good "dog needs to think/carefully manipulate the toy for food" toys that act as both mental stimulation and exercise and "give human a break for up to twelve minutes" toys.
I highly reccomend KONG as a brand- they're local to Denver and have an impeccable saftey record and all of the toys I have gotten from them have held up extremely well vs. the ravages of three entirely too smart and strong-jawed dogs at once.
Some more thoughts:
If she's not prone to shredding rubber, the kind of treat toys she has to chew are also good stimulation.
If you don't want to give her That Many treats, my vet said that dogs can have as many green beans as they want. Just make sure that the beans haven't had salt added to them- canned usually does, but frozen green beans usually don't, but always check the label.
You can make nearly any toy last longer, or make a cheap long-puzzle by freezing the treats so they take longer to eat AND provides hydration. Herschel's most favorite treat of all time is literally a wad of sliced green beans in a dixie cup, filled with water and frozen. Just peel off the cup and hand him the chunk of ice and he's good for up to half an hour and more chill afterwards.
You can also freeze lick mats
If your girl is like Charlie and doesn't like greenbeans, you can also try freezing paper cups of: Canned pumpkin, apple slices in water, putting some ice cubes in the bottom of the cup, a gob of peanut butter in the middle and then fill it with water to make a peanutbutter filled ice cube.
If your girl is REALLY like charlie who has figured out how to use labor negotiation and strike tactics for better treats: boiled chicken chunks frozen in some of the water you boiled them in.
Walkies are as much mental stimulation as they are physical exercise. Take her out and let her sniff to her heart's content.
Also Puppies in particular need like, SO MUCH exercise.
Let her participate in activities with you. Herschel and charlie sit in the kitchen and I narrate cooking dinner to them, which seems to interest them, even if I don't have spare veggie ends to give them. I also frequently bring them along in the car if I'm running errands when it's cold enough to do that, so they have something new to look at, and get to participate. I also am more likely to stop at a new park and give myself some exercise and mental stimulation.
Training her to do tasks is GREAT Smart Dog enrichment- esp if she's a herding or heeler, they LOVE being helpful. I taught the dogs they get a small treat if they come in from the yard without me having to go chase them down, which saved me a lot of hassle, and now I'm working on teaching herschel to pick things up off the floor for me if I drop them and alert for chickpeas, which my housemate is allergic to.
A lot of dogs like cat-type toys. Tie a stick or some fleece to some paracord and drag or flycast it around for her to chase/play tug with when she catches it. Toys that bounce unexpectedly were also a huge hit. or just wave the string around the cat and the corgi both like that.
If you live in farm country or know other people with pets, you can grab something with the scent of another animal on it and bring it home for her to smell. Charlie and Herschel spent the better part of three days investigating the wad of horse undercoat I brought home and put in the spare wobbler for them to smell.
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How the boys convince, coerce and/or deceive reader into slowly (or not so slowly) allowing anal sex--
Uh I mean??? What???? Who said that?????
MUST HAVE BEEN THE WIND đ
Warning I went a little crazy on Königâs in terms of depth but itâs actually a lot more on the tame side lol @machveil come pick up your man from the sleepover he frew up
cw: lotta dubcon, abuse of dynamic kinda stuff, manipulation
Gaz is catching flies with honey here. He likes to spread you open, take a good look, just tell you about everything he appreciates. Doesnât matter if itâs the first time or the hundredth time. And eventually, itâs not just about your pussy. Itâs about your little starfish. How it looks so cuteâ he can see it clench a little when he plays with your pussy. You laugh about how much he talks about it, but heâs all âno, Iâm serious, love! Itâs really pretty, yâknow? And it looks so tightââ. Heâs killing you with kindness about it.
You and Soap send each other porn clips all the time. Sometimes because theyâre funny, or theyâre gross, or because they turn you on. Itâs like baiting a fishing rod sometimes. See what youâll lure from each other. And he starts sending more and more video with anal⊠All quite gentle. Makes sure itâs amateur stuff so it doesnât seem completely fake and full of pornstar moans. So it looks like a real woman is enjoying herself from it. And itâs always followed by him being like âfuck, would love to open you up like this, bonnieâ (he doesnât text in his accent ok).
Ghost is literally praying for the day when youâre too fucked stupid or anxious to stop him. Occasionally, like a shark biting a surfer, he tests you. Sees how far youâll let him take it before you tell him to stop. Heâll press his tip to your ass, see how long it takes for you to say no, Simon. He might even act like it was a mistake. As if he couldnât find his way to your cunt from miles away in the dark with no map. Heâs just waiting for you to be either too out of your mind in pleasure to speak out, or too afraid of ruining his fun.
Price is doing the classic frog in boiling water (yes I know thatâs a myth). He starts by just pressing his thumb there while heâs fucking you from behind⊠working you up to taking a finger. Keeps doing it until eventually, you ask him to. It feels wrong when he isnât doing it. And so then he starts to ease you into two, and so it goes until you barely notice when heâs pulled out his cock and has it positioned right where he wants it.
König is pretty painfully fucking awkward about the affair. Saying he wants to fuck your ass is probably something thatâs slipped out once or twice in the throes of passion, but he doesnât speak of it afterward. One day when heâs deployed, he leaves some gifts in places he knows youâll find them while heâs gone. He usually does this after heâs been on leave for a whileâ it softens the heartache of the separation for you, when he leaves these little gestures. And usually thereâs small thingsâ a very nice chocolate assortment in your bedside table, a few origami figures in the medicine cabinet, a decorated hair pin with fine engravings clipped onto a kitchen towel. And this time, thereâs a box with a range of plugs in the bottom drawer where you keep the bedsheets, which you only change every two weeks. Itâs planned so youâll get the other gifts first, and thereâs one more expensive than usual thrown in among them to butter you up. There lube, too. A perfect training set in silver. Itâs up to you to choose to use them, but he knows how curious and bored you can get on your own for all that time.
Nikolai is going to convince you that itâs what you need. When youâre right on the precipice of a complete collapseâ when he knows heâs fucked and coddled you into subspace. Into being suggestible. Itâs when youâre on the verge of crashing from it, of dropping, breathing heavy and tears stinging your eyes that he tells you âI know what would make you calm down, malĂœshka.â When youâre so sensitive and vulnerable and wanting to drop back into that place where heâs everything and youâre nothing but his clay. So of course you nodâ youâd have agreed to anything not to have to face your panic outside of his comforting embrace. If Nikolai says it will help, it will help. You have to believe that.
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Ok ok Johnny but he canât accept the fact that people love him?
First girlfriend. Went south real fast and realised he was gay.
First boyfriend. Was bi-curious. First heartbreak too.
Second boyfriend. Only wanted him for his body. Self explanatory.
Third boyfriend. Way too emotionally unavailable, felt like they werenât even dating at a point. Turns out he already has a partner.
You get the gist.
At a very young age, Johnny was aware of his unfortunate personality. School fights, family scoldings, bedroom sobbing, itâs all just a blur to him now. Itâs not like he had the worst life out there, no. But he canât shake the fact that he canât really remember anything about his childhood. The trauma stuck though, unfortunately.
He could never really seem to shake off that âunloveableâ blanket on his shoulders.
Itâs not that bad, in retrospect. His friends like him, sure. They tolerate him. He knows heâs loud, he knows heâs brash, heâs a lot to deal with! He understands. So every once in a while, heâll justâŠback off. Leave everyone alone and just spend some time alone. The horrors do get to him when heâs alone in his room, clutching the fabric of his shirt and trying to get ahold of his breathing, but itâs basically nothing to what everyone else has to endure! Heâs selfish, he knows it already, always needy, always wanting. This is the least he can do to make sure that his loved ones arenât tipped over the boiling point and actually leave him for good.
He doesnât know what to do with himself at times.
Then he meets ghost.
Powerful, strong, admirable Ghost. He blew his fucking lid. Heâs even bigger than the rumours suggest. Heâs professional, clean. Heâs everything that Soap wishes to be.
Heâs jealous right off the bat. How could he not be?
Honestly, he feels a bit bad for the guy at the start. Soapâs laying it on thick with the touching and the questions. Heâs obviously fucking with him a bit, bit to be fair heâs not really doing much to stop him either. As time goes on, it becomes a weird sort of admiration/jealousy thing. He still is jealous of Ghost, but not to an extreme extent that he could be.
Ghost is another very peculiar case, one that Soap doesnât seem to mind prodding. After a few missions together, he could see why he was so infamous. But still, Ghost wasnât pushing back. Has anyone done this to him before? Why was he just letting this happen? Ghost might find him weird, sure, but heâs the most curious disturbing motherfucker soapâs ever met.
The army isnât exactly a place to find someone to get their dick wet, homophobes around the corner at every turn. Soapâs just accepted it as part of life now, not really wanting to think much on it but having that fact lurk at the back of his mind. Itâs a bit depressing, sure, to not have anyone get to know his actual self, but then again he was sure that anyone who truly got to know him wouldnât talk to him ever again. If itâs not the gay thing, itâs the army thing. If its not the army thing, it the personality thing. Whatever. Johnâs gotten used to it.
However, though some unexplainable force (the SAS and Price), Soap and Ghost had become some sort of dynamic duo now. Theyâd fought together, lost together, gone through some of the most horrific weathers known to man, and theyâd both survived under some miracle. Well, soap survived. He never doubted ghost would.
He got very close though. Way too close for Soapâs liking. They were in some fuck-ass country upside down the earth, down to his last mag and ghost clipped in the shoulder. They were hauling ass just- away. They didnât know when exfil would get there, or where. Their main objective was just to survive. Ghost was making a very vulnerable wheezing sound from his throat and Soapâs gun was overheating, burning though his gloves.
âSoap- Sargent.â Ghost whispered, somehow always remaining calm in the most chaotic situation Soapâs been in so far. Either that, or heâs just really fuckin tired.
âNoâ now, L.T, tryna get us to safety.â
âSoap, leave me behind.â
âWhat? Listen, Iâve got no time for your stupid heroism crap, okay? Just- shut up.â
âMacTavish, im serious. I have nothing waiting for me. Iâll be okay. Just go. Stay safe.â
âWhot the hell did i just say?â He snapped, turning towards him. âIâve goâ no time for this. Youâre coming wit me whether you like it or not.â Soap jabs a finger into his chest, leaning in close until heâs sure Ghost can see the faintest scar on his right eyebrow from screwing around with a razor with his friends, trying to give himself a eyebrow slit.
âYouâve got me, havenât ya? Youâve got Price, and the people on your team are counting on you. Iâm counting on you. So you can die somewhere else, in the bumfuck aâ nowhere, but youâre not allowed to die today, now. Ya hear me?â
Like this, gunpowder and dust making his nose itchy, looking intensely at Ghost to make sure his point is drive home, thereâs a look in his eyes that soap thinks heâs never seen before. He- he kinda looks like-
How Soap looks at Ghost.
With admiration.
Oh.
So, yeah. They ran out of there on the air of their asses, Soap laughing as the final hits of adrenaline pulses his heart, Ghost leaning against him with the same look in his eye, and theyâve never exactly been the same after that.
Soap chalked it off as it being in the heat of the moment kinda thing, but heâs been consistently catching Ghostâs eye staring at him from a distance away, just staring, with that strange look in his eye. Not always with the same emotion, Soap guesses, but still. Itâs close enough. He doesnt know whatâs happening, or what he did, but something changed. And itâs driving him insane. Itâs not that Ghost wasnât already friendly in his own weird ghost way, but now heâs being friendly in a normal way.
Itâs so weird.
Heâll be waiting at the gun range for Soap like he knows heâd appear there, toss him an apple when he feels peckish, slap his hand away when he needs to change bandages muttering something about him not doing it properly. Itâs weird, and itâs nice, and itâs making soap feel all itchy and hot. he canât even scratch himself anymore as a soothing tick, Ghost will just slap his hand away and grumble a âstop that.â
Itâs weird, and soap canât help but enjoy it.
He feels a bit selfish, feeling like heâs somehow taking advantage of ghostâs kindness, but for what? Heâs feeling guilty but what exactly is he being selfish about? Maybe a mental checkup is in order, heâs losing his mind a bit. Theyâre friends, thatâs all. Itâs notâŠthat unheard of that ghost would have friends, isnât it? He should feel honoured to be hisâŠfist? Again, Soap doesnât know a lot about him.
Time passes. He dips his toes in guerrilla warfare for the first time, canât say heâs a fan. Been backstabbed, shot, and survived. Hes earned his nickname, and sticks by it. (Hah) Though thick and thin, Ghostâs been there throughout it all. An angel guiding him to the churches, a leader who he would follow to the pits of hell, a friend when he needed one. After all that, the questions just never seemed to slow down. About his family, himself, his hobbies⊠to keep him awake, to pass the time, just whenever. Mostly Soap would get grumbles and short answers, proper sentences if heâs in the mood (which is all the time) or drunk enough. Heâs flustered under all the attention and he knows it, itching beneath the helmet and the layers of armour. Soap is brash, and loud, and a little bit of a pyromaniac. He knows it. Heâs fine with it. All jagged edges, no slowing down in sight. He doesnt know what to do with the change coming. He does the only thing he knows to do. He runs. After all of it is said and done, with makarov in the streets now, not much is to be done other than waiting for further instruction.
Applies leave for a few days, rented a airbnb online, have some alone time. Reset. Easy. Simple. Hes done this all his life. But when he was just about to slip out, Ghost suddenly appeared right in front of him.
âGah- Jesus, fuck, ghost. Whatâs wrong?â
âYouâre leaving.â
âYeah, I am. You signed off on the papers.â
âWhy?â
âJustâŠsome time. To myself.â
âIs that it?â
ââŠyeah?â What else does he want me to say?
Ghost looks like he.. squirms a bit, which is weird. Ghost doesnât squirm.
âJust⊠the countryside. And stuff.â This is the worst casual conversation heâs ever had with Ghost.
âUm⊠i got you something.â Then heâs holding something out.
âHuh? Really- this is a rock.â What the fuck.
âItâs a rock from Las Almas.â
âYou⊠kept a rock. From Las Almas. What, you couldnât have stopped by an actual gift shop just around the corner? I think i saw one right around where i found your knife lodged into-â
â-You done yet?â He snaps.
âApparently not, sir. You wanna explain the rock?â Soapâs being a bitch.
âJust that⊠youâre going to be alone⊠and. Makarov.â
âItâs a legitimate place, ghost. you wont find anyone there.â
âNot just that, itâs like-â He groans slightly and scratches the back of his head. âYouâre going to be alone, and the last time you were alone..â
Oh.
âItâs just a reminder that like, I wasnât going to give it to you this soon but, i was there. With you. You werenât truly alone, johnny. And.. youâre going to be alone now. Actually alone. And i justâŠ.its. Iâm here. At Redhill. Iâm going to be here. You know where to find me.â
Youâve got me, havenât ya?
Oh shit.
Soap doesnât know what to say. He can feel the tip of his ears burning, pricking down his cheeks and flush down his neck. He doesnt know how to stand properly, what to say, how to think. Because everything he;s thinking right now should not be applied to his lieutenant.
This doesnât mean anything, right? It doesnât change anything. Itâs still the same. Soap knows that Ghost cares about him. Heâs his Sargent. Heâs his Sargent. But not in that way. Theyâre friends. The rock from Las Almas. Heâs fine. Theyâre fine. Itâs just like the rock is a physical manifestation and real evidence that Ghost may or may not like him. Jesus, he shouldnât think like that. Heâs too quiet. He should say something. His lips twitch.
âThank you.â THATâS IT?? SAY MORE.
âIâll know where to look, then.â Soap gives the most half flustered, half assed smile heâs ever given to anyone. He cant even begin to imagine how he looks right now. His heart pulls. Ghost looks away. He feels like heâs going to be swept off his feet in a bad (good) way.
âRight then.â He clears his throat, disappearing down the corner of the hallway. Soap gapes as he stares after him. What was that? What was him? What? He looks down at the heavier-than-it should-look rock in his sweaty palms, and swallows.
This doesnât change anything. Theyâre still working together. Theyâre the lieutenant and Sargent of the 141 Taskforce. Heâs fine. Theyâre fine.
Everything is okay.
#PLS READ UNTIL THE END I SWEAR ITS WORTH IT#did yall catch that tv girl reference#me winging this entire thing and pulling the plot straight from my ass#can you tell Iâve been studying other peopleâs writing styles#anyways this draft was from⊠(blows dust) Jesus July??#wow#sure glad thatâs gone huh#pointedly ignores the 12 other drafts#robs ramblings#call of duty#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#ghoap#ghostsoap
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