#but is it tho

[videokilledtheradiohost]

Cecil: I love you, babe.

Carlos: I love you too, sweetie.

Cecil: My little tortoise.

Carlos: My honey-voiced honey.

Cecil: My little panda bear.

Carlos, panicking: My, uh...Manhattan Project.

Cecil:

Carlos: I-

Cecil, genuinely touched: oh my god that's the nicest thing that anyone's ever said to me-

[shieldofiron]

When I first joined this fandom in late 2022, I had some traction with some stories. And some people reached out to see if I wanted to join a discord server that was owned by a person who at the time had over 1000 followers and posted quite frequently. She was popular, though she presented herself as much more popular than she was. Let’s call her Z.

I did not connect with everyone there, in fact I was uncomfortable for reasons I will go into in a moment, but there were some people I really did connect with, and I stayed to be close to them. And then one day, my closest friend there was kicked out of the space with little to no explanation. He begged the mods and Z, formerly his close friends, and was blocked. I combed the server, but I couldn’t find anything that he did that in my opinion was worth kicking him out. Then he began losing followers and receiving many hurtful and upsetting anons on his tumblr. Angry, because I suspected they had something to do with it, I stopped posting in there and later left. I was disgusted that this was going on and they were acting to my face like it wasn’t, and still sucking up to me about my stories. He said he was worried about me believing him, believing that whatever he did, he didn’t understand what it was. But having witnessed Z’s behavior in her server I had no problem believing it was her and her friends.

Z used to find fanfiction or art of ships that she didn’t like, and @ everyone in the server to come look at it, despite knowing it was extremely distressing for some members. If you protested that you had no issue with these ships in fiction but that maybe you didn’t want to see that on a Tuesday at work in the general chat, Z and her closest friends would harass you (me) to say that it was bad, and evil. She often called for people to unfollow these artists, or block users who she had found and showed to us without any participation on our part. Despite this she frequently became interested in dead dove subject matter, but it was always ok when she did it. Boundaries did not exist to her, except for the boundaries of her taste and how she thought the world should be. Z would routinely make jokes about sensitive subjects like trans rights, and let's just say it felt like it wasn’t her place. But don’t worry, Z would say, I have friends who are [joke she had made] [from country she had insulted] so it’s fine. There’s only so many times you can hear a joke like that and not wonder why it’s being made over and over. If you were offended, everything was a joke, or there was something you didn’t understand.

This server was a deeply uncomfortable space. Many times I felt harassed over my politics, over my opinions in fiction, and it was often easier to just swallow this. When I met my friends there, they showed courage standing up for themselves and I am so glad that I found them. With them, my experiences of this fandom lightened enormously. Z and her friends had made me so paralyzed, paranoid and unhappy. I had been afraid to even talk about my race however tangentially. I was afraid to make posts against anti behavior, because they had so twisted the way I thought the Billy fandom would perceive them. Thankfully I do not think that the majority of the fandom agrees with her views.

Z apparently has been presenting harassing my friend as a misunderstanding. Perhaps the misunderstanding is that she thinks any of this is harmless. Misunderstandings can be overcome, discussed, apologized for. If someone is confused, you can explain, you can be civil. There was no discussion.

Z made no effort, except to further talk about him and others behind their backs. She never reached out to clear anything up at any time. Her excuses when she made them were frankly shocking. And she never explained to me why my friend was so dangerous, but hid behind fake apologies and more popular friends, lying to my face like things were all good. My friend made a post when he felt safe with her username and the username of another person who harassed him. My friends that I kept from that server are the bravest people I know who understand that reputation means nothing if you can’t look at your own actions with conviction. And Z went away for a time.

Until I earlier this year, I was invited to a very large Billy server. Immediately I was confused by a user I had seemingly never seen before who had me blocked. It was Z, with a new name. She had me blocked until she saw me interacting positively with a very popular artist. Then I somehow became unblocked. Which was very interesting. I came to find that she was very close friends with them or tried to be. She appeared to be very close with the owner of the server too.

I was obviously wary but who knows. People can change. I really believe that. Unfortunately I do not believe that she has changed yet.

All of her old behavior was back as was my paranoia and fear. And it appeared that, emboldened by her friendship with the owner of the server and others, she felt safe going even further. Here was finally what she had craved, a large platform and popularity to continue her previous behavior. I later came to find out that the owner of the server had her own issues with bullying others, twisting the truth, and other, much more serious things. They showed the same character that Z always did, sweet to my face and sour behind everyone’s back. Yet again people said that they worried they wouldn’t be believed. They were afraid of the fandom famous people who were their friends.

Perhaps it’s just me, but if I had been called out in the past for bullying a trans person online I would distance myself from any appearance of transphobia or bullying or lying. Not Z. She in fact announced that she would bully the mods and “everyone” in the server when people joined. I am not paraphrasing, she said he was a bully so often that it was almost comical. She openly said she was an anti when someone confronted her over AGAIN trying to publicly shame authors and create mass unfollowing campaigns. There were no or minimal consequences for this. She would casually bring up the same old jokes and dogwhistles that she used to, uglier with time, and to me pathetically stripped of anything that could have excuse them.

Nobody told me these things. I saw it with my own eyes. But still, somehow, she was the hero, the popular beloved person in every story. I was afraid because she had very powerful friends. Or at least she pretended she did. Because she was friends with a server owner who hurt people I cared about. I am still afraid now. But I’d rather do it afraid for my friends than watch this happen.

I would give up every stupid note on every stupid meme if it meant trans people, and all vulnerable people, felt safe in fandom spaces. I am tired of dishonest communication and trying to play some stupid game I never fucking cared about. If some popular person wants to crush me like a grape for believing my friends, they can go ahead and do it already.

Everybody wants to be liked, everybody wants to be believed. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be liked. But I’m done waiting for people to believe me or like me. I’m done waiting for people to wake up and take a look in the mirror. To explain and to deign themselves to listen. I believe in my friends. I believe my eyes, and I believe in my own convictions. That’s enough for me.

I believe people can change. I hope they do. But I hope they do away from vulnerable people who they can hurt carelessly.

I’m not blocking you. Clean up your own mess.

[lokischocolatefountain]

Teaser for Fraternize— a Javier Peña politician AU

Summary: It was an open secret in Washington D.C. that Javier Peña, Congressman from Texas found her absolutely infuriating. Everyone had, at least once in their time in Congress, witnessed them bickering in the hallways, the staircase, committee rooms, outside the restroom over policy. It would be such a scandal if they found out what the two members of congress did behind closed doors to find common ground.

Side note: Guess who’s up late looking up US congressional districts, some crap called the Hastert rule, congressional committees and whether minority members can be members. I’m not even American bro. I hate knowing that Laredo used to be in the 23rd District until 2003 when they redrew the lines and put it in the 28th. Don’t let anyone tell you it’s easy being a whore.

She trailed the pointy end of the heel down his neck, just barely touching his skin, driving him mad with want for more. The hairs on his body stood to attention and his cock twitched in his pants. She hooked the heel under his tie and pulled. When it budged only a little, he tugged on it himself, taking the thing off completely and stuffing it into his pocket.

Before she could retreat, he caught her leg. Hand wrapped around her ankle he placed a kiss above the strap of her shoes. He looked up at her, relishing in watching her confidence chip away bit by bit as he left a trail of kisses up her leg. A silent gasp left her lips as he stopped at the edge of her desk and put her leg over his shoulder.

“You free tonight? To discuss,” he said, tilting her head up with a finger to her chin.

A soft smile played on her lips as she said, “We’ll see…”

“Yeah? What exactly do I have to do to get you in my office tonight, Congresswoman?”

“Convince me. Give me something I’d want.”

“Everything’s a quid pro quo to you, isn’t it?”

“Such is politics, Peña.”

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Hoping to upload the whole thing this weekend, so keep an eye out 👀

Edit: It’s here!

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[queelsolsalga]

If the fic doesn’t determine whether sixty tricked Hank as a “machine Connor” or “deviant Connor” I just pretend he didn’t make it out of Cyberlife tower and skip all those parts.

[lestappenwdc]

I'm gonna say something what we're all thinking.

Charles just announced an indefinite deal with THE Ferrari. Everyone is talking about it. Everyone is impressed by him being able to do something that has never been done before. Having an indefinite deal turned out to be impressive after Charles did it.

Not even a day later, we get the exact same announcement. With the exact same video. Exact same wording. And guess what it's an indefinite deal. It's so obvious it's funny they he thought it was normal.

The reason for this? Lando just wanting to be the center of attention? To get the attention off the very good deal Charles just got? I wish I could verbalize better the thoughts in my head rn but I mean..... do I have to? We all know lando at this point. We all know what he's like when his integrity is questioned.

[the-uncanny-dag]

[riversfire]

Will never forgive the studios for keeping brettphil from going canon in September

[unashamedly-enthusiastic]

Got my haircut so that it looked he/him without styling and they/them with styling (unintentional) (actual in life peer reviews)

And I gotta say the jarring "gurl that is not me" i got every time I passed a shiny surface or saw a photo was as wild as y'all describe it

Got it cut even shorter but in a lesbian kind of way and it has been hours and hours of 'oh this is much better'

So while I'm ready for my cis+ membership, absolute shout out to everyone living with gender dysphoria for weeks and months and years, that shit is not fun

[cis-chan]

thinking abt the fact that i would be a fucking alcoholic if i hadnt found weed. I drank like, daily during the pandemic and then found weed and was like oh this seems a little healthier

[loyaltylanced]

all i can think of is

"michael she is two minutes old"

"she can have a sword"

[dvouhr]

@cagcd

[zephahhhh]

crystal stone egg decoration... yeah...right....👀

[your-local-mom-whore]

….I wrote a cute Milo comfort thing….

Like kinda it’s a blurb kinda it’s a one shot I don’t even know how to categorize it😂

What say you people in the phone?

[lestradesmalewife]

greg lestrade likes pride parades 

[bloodlessdeity]

made another in honor of season 2. everyone sucks. i love them.