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captaincobalt-27 · 2 years ago

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I know this list already has soo much, but don't forget to add that playing loud video in public spaces makes those already stressful and overstimulating spaces worse for neurodivergent folks!

my unpopular opinion is that i hate tiktok because now people just publicly watch loud ass videos in public spaces with no regard for anyone else. 100% it was not this bad with youtube, it’s such a different thing with tiktok. put on headphones. you are grown.

#i can wear hearing protection #but maybe i don't want to broadcast to the world that im mentally ill #you may as well be running around with airhorns at this point #this shit makes taking the bus 11× more stressful #but im too poor for a car #my fault i guess

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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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one of the things about having an unstable parent is that it can so easily ruin your future. you want to get out, but getting out takes having agency. it takes the resume and the grades and the stellar community service history.

but you have to choose your battles. you know if you sign up for an after-school activity, it'll be okay for a while, so long as the activity is parent-approved and god-fearing. over time, like all things, it will become an argument (i can't keep carting your ass to these things) or a weapon (talk to me like that again, see if you get to go to practice). sometimes, if you love the thing, it's worth it. but you also know better than to love something: that's how they get you. if you ever actually want something, it will always be the center of their attention. they will never stop threatening you with it. telling you of course i'm a good parent, i came to all of those stupid events.

you learn to balance yourself perfectly. you can either have a social life or you can have hobbies. both of these things will be under constant scrutiny. you spend too much time with her, you should be at home with family is equally paired with you're acting like this because you're addicted to what's on that goddamn screen. you cannot ever actually win, so everything falls within a barter system that you calculate before entering: do you want to learn how to drive? if so, you'll need to give up asking for a new laptop, even though yours died. maybe you can work on a computer at the library. of course, that would mean you'd be allowed to go to the library, which would mean something else has to bleed. nothing ever actually comes free.

and that bitter, horrible irony: you could be literally following their orders and it still isn't pretty. they tell you to get a job; they hate that your job keeps you late and gives you access to actual money. they tell you to do better in school; they say no child of mine needs a tutor. they want you to stop being so morose, don't you know there are people who are really suffering - but they revile the idea you might actually need therapy.

you didn't survive that fall the way other people would. you've seen other people scramble and get their way out, however they could. maybe you were made too-soft: the answer didn't come to you easily. it wasn't quick. it was brutal and nasty. some people even asked you why didn't you just work hard and escape during school? and you felt your head spinning. why didn't you? (they control your financial aid. they control your loan status. they love having that kind of thing). maybe in another life you got diagnosed sooner and got the meds you needed to actually focus and got attention from the right teachers who helped you clear hurdles to get up out of here - but for now? here?

the effort of trying. the effort of not-dying. that kind of effort was absolutely agonizing.

#writeblr #btw i got out #even though i felt this way #i was undiagnosed and was in a particularly fucked up situation #(it's complicated lol)#i had no money and no way out #no car no license . i still had a curfew at 22 years old #and still. i got out.#you can get out too.#i wasn't allowed to literally do anything after school we were pretty much only allowed 1 hobby #and STILL i got out.#it wasn't bc i was particularly smart or capable or clever. it's that 1. i got lucky & 2.#i knew there had to be The Rest of The World #and I wanted to at least VAGUELY get to the Rest of the World before i gave up trying #sometimes it's the spite that gets u thru it. that sense - fuck u #FUCK YOU ACTUALLY.#im gonna make my own life u stupid bitch. since u seem so convinced i could never REALLY do it.#whenever ppl are like <3 just cut out ur parents <3 im like <3 have u never been poor lol <3 #<3 i needed them to sign my loans <3 #<3 bestie not every person who is struggling is going to be able to make the grades and hero status to get a free ride.#and guess what baby!! we still deserve to get out and have a good life.

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apollos-olives · 2 months ago

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just filled out fafsa!!! 🥰🥰 (<- 100% receiving absolutely no financial aid)

#TOO POOR TO PAY FOR COLLEGE BUT TOO RICH TO RECEIVE FINANCIAL AID IM GOING TO KILL M #fafsa is another middle class torture method #anyway guys my computer is literally broken and i CANNOT afford a new one #chat im so fucking broke #i need a car. computer. headphones. and so many other things #what if i just pass away

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cloned-sheep97 · 6 months ago

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EL NIÑO DE GUATEMALA

ignore how i cant fucking animate water because im... I dont know, insert your adjective here

#el cuarteto de nos #cuarteto de nos #el niño de guatemala #gif #animation #otra navidad en las trincheras #ONELT #shitpost #shitposting #heres a list of all cdn children that died OR had life beat the shit out of them while still being under 18:#Aurolito Corbolán (his mother made him chop his entire tralala and died by bleeding #Cuna de colores (Starvation... poor live conditions... Obviously the baby is dying)#mabel (im going to asume she died because...damn #el niño de guatemala (died because of the heat...or cold.we dont know yet)#barranca abajo is safe and el tren bala too even though jaimito got groomed really hard by his teacher #que los cumplas feliz: the girl from the quinceañera died in her birthday because the guests “ACCIDENTALLY” dropped her and broke her neck #like yeah okay sure...#ok no im jk #anyways #la pequeña leti...infamous #and i think that's it #oh no wait #the car from invierno del 92 ran over a kid how did i forget

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3416 · 5 months ago

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Oh my god no way, no way is he dead no

it's such a devastating loss... genuinely feel so heartbroken today

#easks #like im just. their poor family...#they were getitng together to do something so wonderful and celebrate love #adn this. constant frantic car centric nonsense results in this shit #i know everyone is making it abt drunk driving and thats horrific too dont ge tme wrong but it just feels like #everyone is experiencing road rage every day abt every thing whether ur drunk or not..#everything is getting more chaotic. everyones in a rush.#this world feels untenable and hostile to human life in so many ways #upsetting

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flameshardsgoo · 6 months ago

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bag tour!

#⧉#biking/walking/busing everywhere lately bc my poor car is in hospice #so im caring abt whats in my bag a lot more lately too

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jwooyoung · 25 days ago

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saw a husky wandering around alone when I took koda for a walk earlier, went back out with the roomie to see if we could catch it, ended up having to leave to go to work so I texted my sister (who has two huskies) and IMMEDIATELY her bf was on the phone like. where is it. how far. send the address. so he's been there for like three hours trying to trap the dog so it's not out all night in the woods 😭

#it seems like someone might have dumped the dog cause its like right next to a dead end street and every time a car came up #it would run closer to see who it was #then run away once you get out of the car #i put some food and a big bowl of water and hes gonna leave it there so if he cant get it tonight at least itll have that #and thankfully its not too cold tonight #im gonna go back in the morning and see if i can at least get it to warm up to me a bit and maybe ill be able to get it #to get into my car cause it really seems interested in doing that but then it gets scared :(#if we do catch it and get it checked for a microchip and the owners did dump it.... 🤼‍♂️🤼‍♂️🤼‍♂️🤼‍♂️🤼‍♂️🤼‍♂️ killing them with my mind #its so pretty too poor baby :((((#j.txt

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nexus-nebulae · 4 months ago

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love watching weather science videos but like. why am i 1000x more interested in tornadoes over hurricanes. they're both spinning air

#we wanted to be a stormchaser when we were younger #nowadays we have to worry about our health too much to have such a risky high-stress high reaction time job #been watching nothing but tornado history videos for days it's one of our intermittent special interests #stemming from the weather science workbook we OBSESSED over as a kid #would read that thing cover to cover multiple times a week. i was the kind of autistic who would read the Encyclopedia for fun #i actually had a fave encyclopedia entry as a kid and now i cannot fucking remember it 😭#i also learned what sex was through the encyclopedia 😭😭😭😭 was legit my first exposure to the concept #but like even though we watch A TON of weather videos including tons of stuff about thunderstorms and blizzards #(thunderstorms my fucking beloved. favourite weather pattern ever. cumulonimbus my bestest friend <3)#most of the videos we watch are mostly tornado videos. and hurricane videos feel boring to us #even though hurricanes are wayyy more powerful #tornadoes are still fucking powerful it's just more. concentrated #tornadoes to me feel Targeted like. that's weather that says Fuck YOU in particular actually #especially multivortex tornadoes where you can literally have two houses both in the middle of the storm at once #and still only one of them gets destroyed #or like pictures you can see of demolished houses with their mailbox in the yard simply untouched #i like to watch tornado videos bc they help me. prepare. just in case #our state gets hit with tornadoes pretty frequently though not as much as tornado alley #and i like to know all the information for sheltering and what to do in the event of a collapsed building and such #i have a little survival kit in the bathroom just in case with like basic first aid and a radio and bottled water #bc thats probably the safest room for me to be in since it's not near any external walls and also hiding in the tub is usually good #also in the event you're caught on the road during a tornado #DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE shelter under a bridge or overpass #those work basically like straws where as the air gets pushed through it goes MUCH faster and gets dangerous way easier #as far as im aware the best place to be is in a ditch or hole if you absolutely cannot find a shelter in time #if you do not have a car with roll protection then being in your car will probably be worse #NOT AN EXPERT THO pls verify this information on your own if you think it is relevant or necessary i have poor memory and can be stupid #i just know that overpasses are dangerous as hell

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0rchidm4ntis · 5 months ago

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:')) just got a text from a stranger about a kitty who was stuck under a car finally being rescued, my night has been made <3 if you needed to see some good news today/tonight here it is o/

#mica rambles #to cut a long story short im staying over at my sisters new place and apparently this kitten was stuck inside a cars hood since last night #we spent the better half of our afternoon knocking on doors and stopping random people to ask them if they knew whose car it was #bc we needed to open the hood to try and coax him out. that didnt work out very well UNTIL my sister miraculously found the owner as she wa #parking her car. apparently the one the kitty was in was her companys car so she wasnt allowed to dismantle it or anything #which made trying to get him out a nightmare. we spent 1h30 with her neighbours elbows deep inside her car to try and grab him blindly #but that wasnt working out too well. eventually my sister and i had to go home but i exchanged numbers with the girl we were looking around #with and she just got back to me :) im so so relieved i really was about to cry over this poor kitty potentially being stuck forever #forgive me in advance if this doesnt read well its nearly 1am and im overcome with emotion so im not the most articulate atm jfkfk

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snailss · 10 months ago

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s7 ep14. that is all.