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I legitimately can't wait to hear the voice they're gonna use for Kofu in the anime.
I feel like " VAULTIN VELUZA" is gonna be a big meme for me for years to come
#Im not proud#but im not ashamed either#it is what it is#and i said what i said#vaultin veluza#pokemon#pokemanz#kofu
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I've never understood the excitement around marriage. I've never understood the 'rush' around the idea of a relationship. I've never understood the heartbreak or annoyance people feel when they're alone for valentine's day, or when their partner doesn't give them a gift for it. I've never understood why someone would like kissing with their tongues or on the lips. I've never understood why naked bodies are sexual. I've never understood why I should feel my world shatter when someone rejects me. I've never understood why I should be expected to 'just give the relationship a try' when someone confesses to me. I've never understood why friends will demean someone by implying they just 'aren't good enough' because their friend got rejected by that person, no matter how gentle or respectful the rejection was.
I've never understood why sex and romance need to be brought up and hyper focused on in every conversation imaginable.
I'll probably never understand.
#aromantic#aro#asexual#ace#aroace#acearo#there's nothing wrong with people who enjoy romance or sex by the way#this is kind of just a vent post#i guess?#im sort of just confused about romance snd sex so thats what this is about#to be clear i dont want to experience either#im not at all ashamed to be aroace
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@razzle-zazzle BOOM, BETWEEN BRANCH UPON THEE
Sorry if it looked rushed on the rest of the drawings except the main one, 'cause it is. I just wanted to finish it as soon as possible due to college assignments piling up. But anyway-
Here's the boy! If I got something wrong in his appearance, I'm really sorry, I'm just going with what's described in the middle part of the fic when he got crowned as Prince, so I adapted through that.
Can't wait to see what else you have in store for this AU! *rubs hands evily for the angst that will come >:)*
#i was stumped when coloring his pants and shirt#so i decided to colour it with the colour of his og pants and leaf vest#because its easier for me lol#also#hes not wearing his vest#is it cause hes ashamed of wearing since hes not a troll anymore#or is it cause he hates it ever since he was taken in by the bergens#and this is his way of saying im disowning you gristle is my only brother now#either way#THE BOY NEEDS THERAPY CRYING EMOJI#trolls#branch trolls#between au#trolls au#i love image quality drop :)#thank you tumblr#screaming crying throwing myself against a wall
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GRAY SHELTER (2024) I 1.04 "Because I don't wanna say goodbye."
#gray shelter#gray shelter the series#grey shelter#gray currents#kdrama#kdramaedit#asiandramanet#asiandramasource#userdramas#kdramadaily#usersugar#userrobin#userlera#tvedit#userfrodosam#dailyflicks#moonlightsdream#userharu#yoondae x soohyuk#soohyuk x yoondae#jang wooyoung#lee jaebin#bl series#if they think that i didn't notice that yoondae was holding his arm / hand throughout this whole scene..........#only in the last gif does soohyuk pull his hand back#also when soohyuk says “and you lied” it broke my heart#i bet it wasn't something that yoondae wanted to hear either bc he immediately looks away like he's ashamed#god the layers of this scene#and the tension is delicious IM EATING THIS UP#mywork
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avoidance is my fucking doom man, i know i should go to class but i fucking cant get myself to
#i have. so many absences it's ridiculous to go right now i know it will be worse if i dont go i have to go#ive been just tossing and turning for like 2 hours with some freakign heart palpitations cause im so fucking scared#i was supposed to go last week and i didnt do it then either and every time i feel worse but i cant make myself go#AAAAAAAAA Im gonna die here i know i just have to force myself but i dont want to i want to stay at home which will fix nothing and#make everything worse in the long run#im aware of thsi but i still cant get myself to go idk what to do in this situation i feel horrible augh#i have so many absences I literally went once at the start of the semester and it's been what. 2 and a half months almost 3#i didnt do much for the class and i didnt go to class idk what to do.. theres literally no other way than to force myself to go#i KNOW I'll instantly feel better if i just stay home. i knowww i knowwww but its not going to help anything#i feel like shit and so ashamed and i just really dont want to go through this#FUUCK#im just#completely in panic mode rn. idk if i wont just try to go tomorrow idk if this is a bad decision im still just putting it off#im just totally by myself and cant even talk to anyone to calm down uauauhcgchdhd#im feeling pretty pathetic rn i should be able to do thisss i should be able to do this by myself#this is like self inflicted psychological horror and it's like every other day for me for many years now ouughh
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yeah you say “cringe is dead” but do you still apologize about reblogging stuff related to your “cringy” interests? kill the mindset that you are somehow not included in that statement or we’re never actually going to change anything
#i have never been in a fandom that apologizes for liking the source media as much as the homestuck fandom does#like jesus christ STOP it’s not cute actually#we’re on tumblr. we’re literally on tumblr and you still feel the need to be like ‘omg so so sorry for reblogging this hs post teehee’#if people unfollow you for it who cares. who. cares.#also not only is it 1) perpetuating a toxic culture of shame and 2) annoying#it’s highly disrespectful to the creator of the media#someone poured their heart and soul into the anime or book or album that you’re so ashamed of liking#by APOLOGIZING for liking something just because other people like to mock it you’re agreeing that this thing that you supposedly love#is defective. less than. worthy of mockery#i mean not only is that spineless as hell it’s like. imagine being a creator and knowing that not even your fans respect your work#so yeah. stop apologizing for liking the things you like. either express that affinity freely or shut the fuck up entirely#hm. im madder about this than i thought i was. lol.#op
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erin theory time
this one is filling in background holes oooooooo The synopsis of my theory is that I believe his dad somehow forced him into being the elemental magus. His body was built for it, his channels were a bit open either naturally or due to his weak nature it just didn't have a preference (I'm not one hundred percent certain on the ladder though; I'm just basing an assumption- I think its more likely the former.) [AFTERTHOUGHT SUNSET HERE: he could naturally have his channels open and got major elemental corruption which explains being bedridden and also how he's no longer that fragil with the seals and everything now. still not one hundred percent confident but its better than previous.] we know he wasn't always like this due to tess's reaction on falst's comment on 1.15.6
he wasn't always the "great elemental magus" he was a kid before that, and since he had potential. I think someone wanted to push that a bit. ...Only problem is that he is fragile. bedridden fragile. so what do you do when your child is weak but still has potential? guilt them into continuing to push themself anyway because if they cant prove they're worthy they're a burden. they're full of potential. they can be someone incredible; they can help people but if they do not then what are they even fucking doing with their life am I right chat? i think his father pushed him into being the magus but didn't exactly tell him we was worthless...rather that he has potential. that he can be all these great things. and has the opportunity to be someone incredible; someone who's actually skilled and can help people if you just keep pushing. fueling his ego while also implying that if he doesn't do this then he is essentially worthless. its just. that last part is quiet and not really said out loud. ..but he knew. hes just a sick kid unless he pulls his act together and starts doing the magic then you're just a useless fucking bedridden boy. and now that Erin IS the elemental magus hes finally achieved what his goal was. he did it. he is the greatest according to his expectations. he is powerful, he can help people, he's fully capable and useful, he can do e v e r y t h i n g.
..that's what he was told. thats what he was expected to become. so he has too. because If he can't... ...
#sunset speaks#comic aurora#Aurora comic#erin ruunaser#MY COLD TURNED INTO ALLERGIES#IM NOT FUCKING HAPPY#EVERY TIME I TALK OF THIS MAN I AM CURSED#FUCK#still doing it though <3#watch I'm going to change my mind last minute and realize something I got wrong and then be ashamed later just you watch.#and either i'll edit ITIN last minute or reblogan update.#I always remember something the second I post it.#auaguh
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What if🤡
https://x.com/luviltae/status/1859842505963188518
INSIDE OF ME THERE ARE TWO WOLVES: ONE OF THEM IS NOW FULLY CONVINCED THAT WE’RE GONNA GET JIMMYSEA AS INTHU AND THAPFAH FOR THE FORTUNE TELLER NOVEL ADAPTATION DIRECTED BY P’AOF AND JIMMYSEA + FORCEBOOK FOR A MORE ‘GEN’ (?) SERIES DIRECTED BY P’DOME AND IS NOW PROCEEDING TO RECREATE THE ISABELLE ADJANI'S TUNNEL SCENE FROM POSSESSION. THE OTHER IS JESSICA LANGE IN AMERICAN HORROR STORY GOING ‘THERE’S NOT GONNA BE A NEW JIMMYSEA SERIES LET ALONE TWO YOU STUPID CLOWN’
BOTH OF THEM ARE SHAKING LIKE A CHIHUAHUA IN A SNOWSTORM JUST SHITTING YELLING CRYING THROWING UP BLOOD BITING BARKING LEVITATING SPINNING COUNTERCLOCKWISE ON THE CEILING KICKING SCREECHING AT THIS RATE IM REALLY GONNA BE FOLLOWING GMMTV 2025 FROM THE PSYCH WARD BECAUSE. WHAT IF INDEED 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡
#IT'S FORCEBOOK FOR SURE AND IT MAKES SENSE SINCE THEY WORKED WITH P'DOME IN PEACEFUL PROPERTY#BUT THE OTHER PAIR.............#I HATE THAT THEY'RE NOT THE EXACT SHADES FOR EITHER PAIR BUT IT'S GONNA BE JIMMYSEA OR SKYNANI#ALSO WOULD P'DOME DIRECT A BL BECAUSE I WOULD BE SEATED#GOD NONE OF THIS IS GOOD FOR MY HEART OR FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH#I NEED IT TO BE THE 26 ALREADY#ANYWAY. thank you for letting me know anon!!!!!!#hope you're having a wonderful day!!!!! 💜#m: ask#at this point i don't even know how to tag stuff#derangement?#im kinda ashamed to put this in the main tag but#gmmtv 2025#;;;;;;;;;;
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still breakin up? nah i only know still breakin down cause that’s where my ass is at
#i’m not funny#brody grant#im going to kms#I HATE ALBINISM‼️‼️ NOTHING GOOD COMES OF IT IM JUST BLIND AND PIGMENTLESS#ocular migraines blow ass fuck you albinism#it’s not that bad i’m just being a baby lol the blue light probably ain’t helping either#i’m very unfunny sorry#but we’re jamming#that song is gonna end up in my top 100 huh#i’m ashamed#not funny didn't laugh#im gonna end it all#in all seriousness i’m fine it’s just smth a little advil can fix#but i’m just lowkey mad at this dumbass drawing and it’s burnt me out so so so much but it’ll be worth it in the end#🫶
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filler doodles about how i comedically whitewashed myself as a child (despite also being the darkest i had and still have ever been in my entire life) because i cannot wrap my head around it
#filler art#my art#i was also short haired at the time so its odd i drew myself as having very long hair but is it any more weird than me whitwashing myself no#i remember i also imagined myself to grow up as a white girl like#HUH??? like i was so convinced i was going to look like all the white main character girls on television ... i had to look like one#all of this was probably because of the lack of representation in tv i could find at the time tbh#BECAUSE THIS WASNT AN ISSUE OF MY DAY TO DAY LIFE NOOOOOO#in here being... moreno?!?! . brown?!?!! EVEN IF LIGHT IS MILES MORE COMMON THAN BEING WHITE#AND ITS SO MUCH MROE SILLIER BECAUSE I WAS MCUH MORE DARK THAN I CURRENTLY AM BACK THEN#as of now im more so lightskinned . nowhere near white but im not very dark either because i dont see rhe sun often ww so im pale#BACK THEN I GOT BURNT ON THE SUN AS A HOBBY im serious i sat on the hot rock floor with burning sun climate bevause it was nice#NOT EVEN THE CURLS COULD BE SAVED I HAD TO PORTRAY MYSELF AS STRAIGHT HAIRED FOR WHATEVER REASON#like on my defense i did straighten my hair out a lot as a young child but THAT LASTED LIKE 2 DAYS EVERY TIME#so 90% i was curls so its funny#ALSO WHY DID WE CALL THE CREAM COLOR “THE SKIN COLOR” WHAT#like. it wasnt just me . whole elementary school knew if you asked for rhe skin color you talkin about thay#any tone of brown simply did not work I DONT KNOW WHY WE WERE ALL LIKE THIS???#thankfully at the age of 10 i realized i infact had melanin but .. i coudlnt accept i had black hair still💀💀#so my skin and hqir color were always the same in portrayals ITS SO FUNNY IM SORRY#I FIDN THIS INSANELY FUNNY IM SO SORRY#dont feel too concerned i wasnt ashamed of my skin color or anything but i had the warped idea i would look white soon#not if you keep cooking youself in the sun you wont /j#i dont know what to say about how i draw myself now a days i dont draw myself as myself but i know i aint white now its okay 🩷 (/hj)
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Omg Simeon Saint slaps so hard,,,,,, but what the fuck is Fifi Leguarde or whatever. Like I'm sure everyone gets the guard part but what is Fifi
#ace attorney#simeon saint#im gonna be honest! this is probably the one character tag that i will change!#like im sure we all have some issues with winner and fender (at least. i personally have issues with winner and fender)#(like if they spelled it wynner that would solve like 90% of my issues with winner tbh!!)#but also i am ashamed to admit it but i dont super like gavelle either.... like the Verity part is good but just i dont like gavelle#like ngl simeon saint is the first official name that didn't disappoint me a little.... such an all around great name........#but again. i cannot stress this enough. what the hell does the fifi add to the name
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listening to screamo does not help w silencing the thoughts anymore whoopsie!
thats literally a pic of me listening to screamo ong
#I NEED THESE THOUGHTS TO DISAPPEAR#its 3 am and i really cant control my thoughts and I feel ashamed#anyways im listening to a 61 track album in full rn#ily usurp synapse#I FUCKING LOVE USURP SYNAPSE HOLY SHIIIT#i cant sleep either so likee...#AUGHHHHH
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i feel so bad about how i just cant seem to do well in university. i was doing okay until like the past month but its like something broke and i just cant think anymore. and like i know i have the capacity to do well somewhere but i just cannot access it no matter what i try
#i have my first exam tomorrow (its an online exam. but still blow me up with a bazooka if you see me online tmrw)#and ive been trying so hard to study but i just cant. focus. i cant even think. i cant even work on non university stuff either#everything i draw turns out bad or i dont have the motivation or time to get it to a presentable state. i cant get myself to write anything#i havent even had any new ideas for my oc stuff.#and i also have a meeting with one of my professors for this class i massively fucked up the essay worth most of the grade in#and idk what im going to say to her. i dont even think she can help me but i just feel like i cant just leave it without discussion at all#i feel so ashamed of myself
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so question.
if aziraphale fell / wasn't an angel anymore ( by choice or force . ) would crowley still call him angel? even just as a slip up
gimme opinions
#i know neil said that he calls him that because he is an angel and not a form of endearment or anything#but i do not belive a word of it /hj#i think he would and then aziraphale would be either very confused#ashamed or bit shocked that it took him that long to realise “ oh its not because im an angel is it ”#lemme go w the hc of crowley using it as a little flattery / thing he picked up from humans#but aziraphale just never realised why he actually was calling him that#maybe crowley would accidentally call azi angel a couple of times if this happened#good omens#good omens 2#crowley#aziraphel#honestly i cant even remember crowley calling aziraphale his name. like. at all ?? maybe im just having a brain blank.#michael sheen#david tennant#good omens season 2
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complaining about radical feminism bc even though it has a lot of good points, a lot are also very bad part idk what!!!
what the fuck is up with radfems literally seething when they learn that a member of their ideology has a GASPPPPP boyfriend!!! even worse A HUSBAND???? and oh my god can you imagine!!! A CHILD!!!! like what the fuck?? and yes i knowwww its bc blah blah blah inspirations taken from the 4B thing that came out of china and south korea, where the fundamental principles of their feminism is not having any sort of relations with a man nor having any children with one because marriage is a patriarchal institution (when it's a hetero marriage), and giving birth will systematically subjugate a women as mothers ar every handicapped societally and aren't treated fairly.
see im not denying that straight marriage has some dicey elements and that moms get a LOTTTT of shit from society. but why is it that women are shamed for their heterosexuality when it's not something they can control?? like i'm sorry but if a lady wants to marry a dude and have children with him it's literally her choice and if she doesnt thats fine too?? like they start calling her "male-centered" and justify the criticism she's facing which is nuts bc what the fuck do you mean she's male-centered do you hear the words that come out of your mouth?? what the fuck do you mean straight women need to be critical of their attraction to men!!! my brother why are you creating comphet 2.0 but for straight women!!!! this idea that women will be defiled with patriarchy germs if they come into any sort of romantic/sexual contact with a man genuinely feels like the flipside of purity culture but for "feminist" reasons and also it's like the cousin of political lesbianism which is the antithesis of "sexual orientation is uncontrollable".
"participating in male culture" and it's having a boyfriend BE FOR REAL!!! this is such a western concept to me as well bc in many eastern cultures young women have like little to no say when they're faced with the prospect of arranged marriage, and so the fact that you degenerates are complaining about VOLUNTARY marriage in modern societies whereas young girls in other countries don't have that kind of choice is!!! insane!!!! i have so much more to say about this but that's enough for today ig :333
#berry.rambles <3#“male culture” has to be the most insane term to come out of this echo chamber#what the fuck do you mean i participate in male culture and uphold the patriarchy by having GUY FRIENDS!!!#I JUST LIKE MY FRIENDS WHY SHOULD I BE CRITICAL OF THAT YOU WEIRDO!!!#im not male centered im not guy focused im not participating in patriarchal thinking im literally rawdogging life#speaking of purity culture it doesnt help that many girls grow up with 0 relationship freedom bc of religious families#and feel guilty for experiencing attraction to anybody really (usually guys)#and feel ashamed of it and think its filthy to genuinely be attracted to someone instead of simply seeing them as future marriage material#and so to have feminist thinkers say that yes you should be kind of ashamed of your heterosexuality is????#the amount of shit a woman has to do to conform and be fit for the “feminist” role is actually??? so???? annoying.#they (radfems) hear a lesbian used to think that she was into guys and has slept with them then all hell breaks loose.#its either “omg you're free yay” which is a nice reaction ig or its “wow cant believe you were male centered” please define “male centered”#freakazoid#weirdo#!!!!!#anti radical feminism#anti liberal feminism#anti western feminism#yes believe it or not im anti and pro feminism#funny how that works LOL
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not sorry. i extend very little sympathy and patience towards tras who are underage, and the only ones who do get said sympathy are TIFs. but again. it's MICROSCOPIC levels of sympathy.
#i was also a tra as a minor (~10yo to 14yo)#and yet i never said even half the shit a lot of these kids are spewing with their whole chests.#i never hated on terfs; made rape jokes; made death threats.#I barely ever even argued with terfs bc i AGREED WITH THEM even as a tra. the only thing i disagreed on was how they went about it#(i felt like they were 'too mean'. now that i am a radfem i see we arent mean enough.)#i never in my life shared countless anti terf memes. never had a DNI.#never spammed terf tags and spaces.#never sent hate anons.#so yeah#i do genuinely judge kids who do this because i WAS ALSO A CHILD and i NEVER did this shit even at the height of the trans ideology#worming its way into the government and law.#people need to understand that children can and SHOULD have morals. just like adults.#you shouldnt need to be told 'hey this is bad' to know thats bad. if you have morals then you simply just know.#i tried to go vegan my entire life. would refuse to eat animals even when i was 4 years old. went officially vegan at 11 when i realized i#wouldnt die without animal protein (and even if i did i was sick of funding animal murder)#no one NEEDED to tell me to do that.#my morals simply did not agree with killing and eating other living beings.#so kids who are willing to do all this shit? yeah. thats ust a reflection of their innate morals. not even joking here either.#i work with kids.#i know how downright cruel they can be and not just in a 'im socially inept and have no filter yet'#but intentionally cruel.#intentionally heinous. and tiktok exposure only makes it so much worse.#so yeah if you are a minor and i go on your account and i see dozens of terf-hate posts?#i AM judging you and i feel zero sympathy for anything coming your way#and i do genuinely hope they wither away in shame and regret when they get older#I didnt even do any of this shit and yet i still feel ashamed and remorseful for the stupid tra shit i spewed (mostly about how#sex and gender arent the same. that was the HEIGHT of my trans rights activism. that's barely 1% of what these kids are saying.)#like i understand where theyre coming from and i get why theyd buy into the trans cult; but that does NOT excuse their behavior.#rudefem
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