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[Image Description: Two unfinished digital paintings / sketches of the hatchling and Hal from outer wilds. they are standing with their arms around each other and the hatchling has their head leaning on hal's shoulder as hal watches the supernova in the distance through the doorway of the museum. the first image is the scene viewed from behind with everything lit in bright blue with dark shadows. the second image shows hal's face looking in fear towards the light and is only partially colored, the rest sketched over a gray background. End Image Description.]
something you'll run back in for when the house burns down
#im going to post something on halloween but also want to post like sketch compilations and unfinished stuff#bc I draw alllll the tiiimeee and theres so much and its just going to get buried in my hard drive if I dont do anything with it#I'm so shy to post this but im in a good mood today so ok you can have the hal post#::) hal.#I wanted to finish these sooo badly and I still want to - it might take me completely reworking it again though :P#im scared this will become one of those pieces where i improve at anatomy more then look back at this one and be like. Gah what was I doing#honestly thats already happened. these are from several months ago#I kept their expression kind of neutral.. both because I dont think I could accurately capture the sheer dumfounded horror.#also because my heart will shatter into many pieces if I draw hal too sad#anyway the caption is a lyric from alone by tresspassers william#the album that song is from is called different stars and its one of my favorite albums ever ever <3 its very somber but I love it#this song doesnt even remind me of these two thaaat much#but theres other songs on the album that do more.. like vapour trail... and anchor oh my god. anchor...#and if you cant steer then it would be safer to drop the anchor 🤔🤔#ok I'm done talking now bye hal fans#outer wilds#outer wilds spoilers#very early spoilers. lol sub 23 minute spoilers#hal outer wilds#hatchling outer wilds#the hatchling#timber hearth#. I guess?
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Hywel is inspired by a mix of my issues with stories with nonhuman protagonist/about nonhumans becoming human AND vet posts ive seen warning people about the dangers of anthropomorphisizing animals. Its fine to joke about your pets doing things out of spite or other human emotions, it does put you at risk of not being able to read their body language correctly. Cats dont cry out of sadness, a cat crying, with actual tears streaming down its face, is a sign of a medical issue. A dog smiling isn't doing it bc its happy, it means its nervous. Not being able to spot these is bad, and sometimes even dangerous, for you and the animal.
If you never get past Hywel's human appearance and treat him like one its like getting a reactive dog, doing zero research or training, and then taking it to a dog park. If Hywel mauls someone in town then its on you.
#hywel struggles a lot with good vs bad things specifically#he makes decisions based on what makes him feel good or bad (like most people) but#if you explain something being bad to him using emotional reasons (it makes you a bad person‚ its an awful thing to do‚ its gross)#he genuinely will not get it#he'll try to stop! just bc he was told to stop! but he doesn't know how to apply it to other situations#murder for example#he's immortal death doesnt have the same meaning to him#and he doesn't particularly care about people outside of arisen#they're entertaining he finds them fun. they're critters to him#but he's not bothered by them dying#arisen dying is bad bc it means he failed his charge. he cant die. regular people dying? eh whatever#so he doesn't really get why murder is bad#if ur in vernsworth and tell him no then he'll be like i dont understand but ok!!#its only bad in vernsworth bc thats where you said no at!! everywhere else is fine !#he's not trying to find loopholes!!! he genuinely doesn't get it and is doing his best to work with what he's given!!!#his way of thinking is p straightforward and logical though#so you have to explain stuff by how it effects him and how the cons of doing it outweigh the benefits#hywel u cant murder people you dont like bc if we allowed that people would kill merchants and then you couldn't buy stuff#anyway bonus scifi au stuff while im here#hywel would remember the time loops and would do whatever it takes to keep the crew safe#but the thing is. cosmic horror hywel doesn't really understand time or how the loops are fucking people up#he knows the false dawn losing its crew was bad. he doesn't understand WHY its bad‚ but he knows it is#and he loves this crew! theyre funny and some of them are fun to chew on. enrichment.#he's gonna do whateve it takes to keep this crew safe and together. on the ship. y'know‚‚‚ bc the other ship losing its crew was bad#restarting a loop means nothing to him. yeah he's gotta start over with his friendships but thats fun! enrichment!#hes a creature time means nothing to him#beginning of the loop all his friends are here :^) he's completely unaware of how its negatively effecting people#anyway i cannot stress enough he isn't doing this to be malicious he's just doing his best#someone would absolutely realize he was doing this early on and if you tell him to stop he will#but yeah better hope you can explain why he cant do that well enough or hywels gonna unintentionally find every loophole
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little man is so cute hes been coming to me for help sounding out words and i taught him a 'trick' so he doesnt forget them on his way back. the trick is just 'repeat the letters while youre walking back so you dont forget' but hes treating me like im the smartest person on the planet for coming up with this
#and it also means i can hear him chanting P O T I O N the entire way back to his room#its sweet im glad he comes 2 me for spelling help... hes honestly rly good its just some tricky ones that get him where its like. the ones#you just have to memorize how theyre spelled bc sounding out doesnt help#like heavy or potion. bc heavy just has an eh sound so he didnt know abt the a and potion has a sh sound so the t was unexpected#but hes rly good at sounding it out and like. it just makes me a bit sad bc my dad gets so snappy when weeman asks for help w spelling#like. he does the sound it out but my dad just has this like. Tone. and he cant just be like. calm#hell be like No thats not right and its like ok this isnt helping#its so easy to just be like Oh i see why you thought that but its actually a bit of a trick one...#like. its not that hard to just sympathize with it and little man responds so well to it like. just saying like Oh yeah i mess up on that#one too. makes him way more likely to keep asking for help and it doesnt make him feel like hes being insulted or anything. IDK#my dads better w that aspect w weeman than he was with tag but im still like. Can we please just treat the kids like ppl worthy of respect#Please itis not that fucking hard .
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not sure how i manage to be bad at making a self insert lmao, i always end up developing them into an entire OC in the end
#ramble tag#smth smth all art is self insert to a degree bc u cant help but leave pieces of urself in it#and also i have no proper self image. idk if thats bc of the identity related dissociation or what#unrelated but ive been trying to get more comfortable w the whole. roomies in the brain thing#which is hard bc reading related resources and support makes us shut down a bit so we never get more than a few sentences in lmao#thats like so dumb. i already know guys. we can read about it i promise it wont hurt!#forever thinking about the time a therapist said DID and immediately walked it back bc it was way too soon to call that lol#i still dont call it that bc its hashtag complicated#me looking at that one section of our notes app: have i met literally any of you people#i explained it to my coworkers at my first job like#''ok u know they 'there r 2 wolves inside u' thing? imagine that but many wolves. here let me draw a chart real quick-''#we took turns more back then for some reason#i miss vie. p sure theyre fine i just havent seen them in a bit.
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i finished fo2 (although i did cheat a bit. but only because i wouldve blocked myself in pretty much otherwise. also because i suck and dont care) and im soo back at it. it did made me wanna re-establish a timeline for my couriers family that actually fits in with the lore
#fallout timeline in one window calculator in the other cause i cant keep track of things otherwise#anyway i figured. its hinted at that the courier descends from the chosen one right? or at least the tribe/vault 13 people#and while i forgot most of what i established as my personal canon back then i do remember saying Carmina is from a vault#but idk about her being from that one specifically. might change my mind.#but i think it would be p neat if shes from like. vault city maybe or 15#and his birth mother is the one with the 13 connection.#so hes technically related to the fo1/fo2 guys but not really?#(for reference hes adopted as a toddler and considers his 2 adoptive moms his parents)#also i think that mae (the ghoul one) would maybe live in one of the ghoul settlements before ncr passes more protections#cause while irving hates their guts hes also a bit like yyyeaa ok ill help you up to a point. and that would make for an interesting reason#man idk. all i actually have for now is birth years.#irvings born in 2242 making him 39 when fnv starts. his birth mothers born 2226.#carmina would be born around 2221 or a bit earlier maybe? and then obviously mae is pre war so lmao#thats some problematic age difference right there. someone call me out on it#txt
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Everytime I listen to 'Biggering' I mourn for what we could have had in The Lorax </3
Im not afraid to admit that I listen to it unironically. Its such a banger, especially the last part. Gonna forever hold a grudge that the song wasnt included in the movie </333
Gonna throw the song below VVV
#You know it gets bad when you're waffling on about The Lorax at 5am#'How Bad Can I be“ is aight and would probably draw the kids in more#which kids are their target audience but I do not care. I will stay mad#THE LYRICS AND BEAT AT THE END MAKE ME ASCEND TO HEAVEN#AND IM AN ATHEIST#Sorry Im getting sidetracked here#but yeah. banger. and no one can convince me otherwise#I have a very peculiar music taste ok?!!?!?! >:p#The silly song about corporations did NOT have to go so hard#For a kids movie too is insane /pos#Suppose I cant write this post without including the tag#The Lorax#This is my life now. Yapping about a kids movie's cut song at half five in the morning#Spotify#Lowkey think its college thats driving me insane enough to do these things#yeah thats gonna be what Im blaming now
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my only crime in finding jingu hot is that his voice is fuckin grating i may be deranged but im not delusional
#snap chats#PLEASE give him a different voice i cant yumi i know you coulda done better#oh yeah im playing rggo and i pulled him hi#i also pulled baby kiryu and im crying he sounds so cute 😭😭#like i listen to him and i go Damn That Do Be Kiryu As A Teenager#LIKE JUST IMAGINE KURODA TALKING IN A HIGH VOICE AND THATS WHAT YOU GET#its so cute im obsessed#i also got inoue and saigo :]] makes me laugh cause saigo's leadership ability increases inoue's attack and Brother Needs It 💀#i have kiryu as my leader tho since his ability increases everyones attack by 15% but still thats so funny#inoue has terrible attack all things considered but i like his heat ability so#jingu's heat is actually great it's only like. 4-5 bars but not only does it does damage to one target it also heals the party#inoue boosts the highest attacking unit (which is safigo for my party) and heals everyone and saigo just heals#I DONT MEAN TO PUT SO MUCH HEALING but jingu was a crazy nice deal when everyone else's heats are like level 7#saigo will prob just be a straight attacker but it sucks that his heat isn't an attacking ability. BIG waste smh#rggo keeps giving me ryujis btw. i have so many ryujis i can make a team of ryuji at this point#like two were free im p sure but i just keep geting more 💀#rgg loves ryuji and it shows#ok im going back to playing bye#fuckin tricked you into reading a post about RGGO instead of just my insane bullshit about finding jingu hot#literally the lamest antagonist ever but if his voice was better he could get it
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I am so incredibly amazing at falling asleep whenever it's bed time
#anyways time for me to ramble in the tags#because. okay :p#posts.nae#so. first random thought. i miss doing pixel art#but i realised. im HORRIBLE at managing my time#cant even call it managed#like ong. just go for that adhd diagnosis call already girl#i started playing Minecraft tho. and like. cherry blossom dome and a house and everything!!! then i wandered off and got lost#i got lost. looking for sheep. the sheepies. because i wanted to shear them#i was on peaceful mode ok there'd be no point killing them#so i got lost for at least an hour or more#prettu sure i got 30+ wool and i even found a village#i actually got sad thinking i wouldnt get to finish buildinf my home#but jts all good now!#my home jts not yhe best but it exists. good enough. pink#the cherry blossom area was so small too like wth??? so rude 😔#mannn. cherry blossoms#what was i gonna talk about?#oh i feel like this is the sort of stuff i should put in my journal#i want to write in my journal its been so long#but idk.. i feel so weird#idk. its not like i talked in the server anyways ..#sometimes i feel like a weird (pos) little admirer and just. idk#like yeah. u ppl are so cool. but uhhh#idk. ill be weird (pos) in my own corner i gusss#IDKKK how do you people form connections#life sucks i want to bite college#how do you peoplr keep connections thats the real question#this is why i like social games. i can play the game and talk about the game. its a gane. help#hey tumblr wth let me have mote tags on my post >:[
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Ludwig Needs To Stop bEFORE I FLING LUDWIG OUT WINDOWS
{ALSO} {This one}
{ALSO I THINK THIS OTHER ONE MIGHT BE HESSE?????}
(It's the same type of long strand, but other side{??}...)
{But then again this is Canon A.U. ShenanigansTM where We Already Have Varied Looks S O.....}
#hws ludwig#hws hesse#ludwig and hesse#49 x 39#chai cap#chai hws#chai reacts#chai hws reacts#(IM LAUGHIN)#(LUDWIG GET THE EFF O U T)#({FLINGS LUDWIG OUT THE WINDOW S T A T})#(LUDWIG IS CANON A R O S P E C CHANGE MY m I N D)#({YOU CANT----})#('I NEED TO SEE WHAT THE TEXT ACTUALLY SAYS BEFORE I MAKE FURTHER JUDGMENT BUT' - M E)#(oK BUT UM WOW IF THATS ACTUALLY HESSE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT IN THE YEAR 2.K.2.4?!??!)#('OK GOOD NOW ACTUALLY GIVE US A FULL DESIGN FOR B A V A R I A IF YOURE GONNA KEEP DOIN THIS----' M E)#(No rbs for now MIGHT make rbable Later but Depends because I Am Waiting For Full Text apparently it got posted to Twit)#(like 2 hrs ago I JUST NOW saw it cross feed)#({It goes up on site a bit earlier usually but} I WAS A S L E E P)
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even though you were possibly the one to hurt my feelings the most in my entire life in every single dream you appear in i forgive you
#and it literally ruins my entire day. even thinking about you makes me feel like shit.#anyway the pain will pass and it will be like nothing ever happened im sure#also ive been dreaming about my first girlfriend and it makes me wonder if she dreams about me too#idk last time i saw her she looked so sick. im worried about her but its the weirdest feeling because... theres nothing i can do#we barely know eachother anymore but i still care about her so much#i know thats just the way it is but i sincerely just want her to be happy#i just know that i cant have anything to do with that anymore i guess#or i could because we could still ne friends but shes back in brazil so its a no go#p#this looks like a justgirlythings post oh well. send it#honestly its ridiculous how aforementioned first girlfriend broke up with me on my birthday while i was frankly depressed and alone#in a whole other continent lol#what this person did to me hurt harder. frfr. this whole situation makes me sick to my stomach#and i think they dont even like. think about it. or regret anything. or know i feel this way. and my stupid ass is here#avoiding the though of them at all costs. i just want this to pass and the hurt to be over it like i just have to forget all of it.#anyway its stupid shit. like the situation is not even that deep my feelings were just deeply hurt whatever so dw👍#ok the person who hurt me the most besides my mom but thats just like. what parents do#they hurt you irreparably without even noticing sometimes and then you just get over it. so im not counting that
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tbh relationship-focused stories that revolve abt (at the very least essentially) the concepts of idk kidnapping or slavery get so much nothing out of me. if you wanna phrase it less judgementally i find them boring.
#txt#like when i say i prefer ppl beating each other it's mostly referring to a certain mutality. of course on actual terms#it cant always be equal but even if a little involvement on even the beaten's side regardless of actual emotion tbh#thats at least a bit better than a character that perpetually wants for nothing. cant do nothing.#as a beginning? a middle? an ending? thats ok. it's a character flaw? ok. is it p much a horror/drama? fine. but if youre trying to make#them both romanceable in any measure you have to give it like the littlest splinter of a backbone ie a Will of any kind to ask that much#from me.#i pay to see ppl punch their teeth out not to see an adult kick a baby to death bc it's quite limited what i get from the latter.
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IN A WORLD FULL OF BOYS, HE’S A GENTLEMAN ! | TOM BLYTH
PAIRING. tom blyth x fem!actress!reader
SUMMARY. despite being in a world filled of childish boys, your boyfriend was definitely a gentleman, always putting you before him
AUTHORS NOTE. the third installment because we love tom blyth and yn avocot. I recommend reading part 1 and 2 for more context!
tomblyth “babe, do you think we’re together in every universe?” is that even a question?
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ynuser stoppp i didn’t know youd actually take the question seriously
user1 get you a man like tom blyth bc oh my god
user2 idk what yn did to manifest him but i need her ways
user3 ugh idk what he’s doing with her lol he could do so much better
➥ user4 well someone had to say it..
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You didn’t understand how some people on the internet can be so . . . mean. Although there have been countless of fans cheering you and Tom on, it didn’t make it any less hurtful that there were still a ton who weren’t scared to be open about how much your boyfriend could do better.
It’s ironic; you think. They’re claiming they’re looking out for Tom, yet totally disregarding him and his girlfriend as human beings? Those weren’t real fans.
The reason for them hating you so much? Just for simply being with Tom. Everybody wanted him, that was your crime.
Everytime you got lost in your thoughts about this topic, Tom knew. Boyfriend instincts, he called them, but really, he was just a caring and observant person.
You tried not to break down over it, you really did, but a girl could only go on for so long before it all bursts out. Luckily, Tom pulls you right in, telling you to let it all out.
Although the world was filled with childish and hurtful beings, Tom Blyth was still who he was, a gentleman, attending to your every needs.
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tomblyth really dgaf if you like my girlfriend or not cause i do and that’s all that matters
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user5 im cryinf the polaroid he has of her
user6 YES REAL MEN STAND UP FOR THEIR GFS
user7 ALL THE PICS HE HAS OF HER 🥹🥹
tomblythswife oh to be yn avocot and be loved by tom blyth
rachelzegler tell ‘em 🙊
user8 she doesn’t even comment on the posts he makes abt her, so self centered lol
➥ ynuser I’m right next to him rn?? cant say the same thing about you “lol”
➥ user9 OH SHE ATE YOU UP @/user8
tomblyth_daily here are some clips of tom talking about his relationship in his new interview! GET YOU A MAN THATS LIKE TOM BLYTH 🗣️🗣️🗣️
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user10 the way he’s so passionate when talking about her and being a good boyfriend, God I hate being single
user11 “they’re not even that cute” STFU AND GO WATCH THIS INTERVIEW CAUSE ??
user12 tom blyth said put aside your nonchalant attitudes, im looking at YOU MEN 🫵🫵
ilovetomblyth he’s so boyfriend it actually hurts
user13 yn must’ve saved a continent in her past life to be dating tom blyth omg
ynuser girls, before you have a meltdown over a boy: think of what balleona laurent would do. kiss and manipulate coriolanus!
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tomblyth you kiss and manipulate me too
➥ ynuser you’re gonna get me CANCELLED
user14 literal unbothered icon i love her
user15 if i were her id post a tiktok with that audio “he chose me he don’t want you”
iloveyn SHES SO FUNNY
lionsgate us when behind the scenes photo of balleona 😻
➥ user16 lmao stop who’s the admin of lionsgate
user17 balleona is such a bad person but oh is she hot
tomblyth she was like a shot of espresso
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ynuser i love u more than words can describe blyth
user18 ok who’s cutting onions
user19 GIRLS, GUYS, THEY THEMS, STOP SETTLING FOR BARE MINIMUM WHEN TOM BLYTH LITERALLY CALLED HIS GF A SHOT OF ESPRESSO, GIVES HER FLOWERS EVERYDAY, AND TALKS ABT HER ALL THE TIME IN HIS INTERVIEWS
➥ user20 YELL IT HARDER SISTER 👐👐👐
user21 this is so dark academica im inlove with u guys
user22 parentssss
rachelzegler my favorites
ynuser SNOW LANDS ON TOP LOSERS
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tomblyth yn, i love you but
➥ user23 LMFAOO when he doesn’t finish his sentence
user24 the second pic thank u yn
joshandresrivera on top of u maybe
➥ user25 IM DYING OML
user26 thank you to lionsgate for casting the most hottest villain couple ever
#coriolanus snow x reader#coriolanus snow imagine#coriolanus snow fanfiction#coriolanus snow fluff#coriolanus snow#coriolanus snow smut#coriolanus snow angst#coriolanus snow fic#tom blyth x reader#tom blyth#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#tbosas#the hunger games x reader#the hunger games
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im actually fine w missing him
#i get thoughtful when people r not part of my life#its like getting used to a new routine all over again . leaving an special routine elaborated by the both of you just so you can be a part#of the day . then having to get used to not have this anymore. like you spent years doing the same antiques#planning together. the suddenly you dont have that anymore#and you cant have it back#idk#this already happened to me so many times but a romantic relationship is very different. its kinda my first time if u will#its my first official breakup w him actually.. i already did this thing of having to get used to not have him. i know i can get thru it#im actually fine w it. im letting it hurt so it wont anymore :) eventually gradual process#i think i need to do some thinking about all the hurt i went thru there cause i think when i was w him it was pretty easy to not process#things#and its ok. im going to be ok#it doesnt get any easier but it does get better and im ok with this thought#im p depressed cause i was on my depressive episode since the start of the year#actually relapsing since then. but its kinda a motivation to do stuff for myself cause i will feel like a loser if i dont#if i start rotting in bed doing nothing cause of it i will feel wooooorse but if it happens its ok cause thats how it is sometimes:)#being gentle w myself#but idk i get the feeling that he will try n contact after like a week and idk say some things to me idk what#but idk if its accurate cause i think its based in the past experiences i had w him.. but dats ok#i feel like i couldve avoided waiting this long to part. feel kinda dumb for giving so many chances and being so nice#oh well thats how it is . i rly needed this time for my own things :) itll get better
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i need jealous possessive subby gyu😭���� like omg need him so toxic, needy, and clingy🙂↕️
warnings: a bit toxic, clingy and needy sub but whats new :P
irrationally jealous!beomgyu that cant even stand you going out with friends without blowing up your phone, trying to put a balm on his growing anxiety by asking whos there with you. then when you respond and he recognizes male names, he gets even more antsy. give it time before he texts you again, his fingers flying across the screen as he types out a message.
ohhh ok. are you having fun? :)
then again.
still really wish you were here with me insteadddd its so boring without you
he chews on his bottom lip, the seconds ticking by with agonizing slowness. god, just respond, he thinks, fingers twitching as he waits. then he succumbs to sending another text.
come home soon okay? miss you :3
then another, and another…and another.
after sending a few more texts, minutes go by with no response, and so he flops down onto his bed, his thoughts spiraling as he stares at the ceiling, trying to convince himself that he’s just overreacting. but the more he thinks about it, the worse it gets. why aren’t you replying?
beomgyu isn't possessive, he isn't, really...right? so why can't he seem to get rid of the reckless idea that just popped up in his head?
instead, like a magnet he reaches for his phone again, this time switching to the camera. when he sets it to video mode, all thats on his mind is getting your attention. thats it, nothing more. just your attention.
you're out with your friends at a bar, it was meant to be a girls night but you guys bumped into old college friends so it turned into something way bigger than intended. you've been trying to enjoy yourself, not seem too absorbed in your phone but when you can feel the vibrations of your phone buzzing every three minutes in your back pocket, its practically impossible to ignore. you know who it is.
any other person would've shut their phone down or at the least put it on dnd, but here you were, locking yourself in a bathroom stall after excusing yourself, pulling out your phone only to be met with the most obvious strings of messages from one singular contact name: beomgyu.
the first one after you passively replied was innocent enough, but then you see skim past the next ones:
how long are you gonna be out?
is it loud there? can you even see this? I miss you, baby
the last one really sticks out:
are you ignoring me?
you frown, but before you could finish typing out a text, a video pops up from him. you pause. you hesitate for just a second before tapping play, and instantly, you realize exactly why the thumbnail was so blurry.
the video’s a little shaky at first but eventually it steadies enough for you to realize hes on your shared bed—his hair's all messed up, sticking out in random directions, and his lips are parted as he breathes heavily. you can barely make out the details because of how grainy the video is, but you can still hear him. your brows furrow deeper…this can’t be…what you think it is, right?
and like hes heard your thoughts, he lets out this quiet moan, the camera dipping a bit, like he almost forgot he was holding it, revealing exactly what you conjured up in your head; a clear view of his hand buried under the waistband of his shorts, half-hard— leaving absolutely no room for imagination.
“i've been thinking about you all night, baby. couldn't help it... had to touch myself, thinking about you..." he trails off. you can see his fingers moving under the fabric, slow and lazy, dragging it out like he’s savoring every fucking second.
when his hand clearly starts to move a little faster, his eyes fluttering shut as he loses himself in the feeling. "wish you were here, wish it was your hand instead. fuck, it's not enough..."
his lips part again, and you can hear the faintest whimper escape him, the sound making you bite the inside of your cheeks. and it’s so quiet, so breathy, that you bring the phone closer to your ear without thinking, embarrassingly desperate to hear more. it’s enough to make you press your thighs together, trying to ease the ache building there.
but you can't seem to tear your eyes away for long as he shifts slightly, his hips arching up a little more, his movements becoming more erratic. and when you hear him whisper your name—over and over, like he's pleading, like he's praying-your throat goes dry, and your hands start to tremble.
“look at me, baby, look how fucking hard you make me. this is all your fault,” you hear his panting get louder in the background, matching the pace hes palming at his cock.
then he lets out this cute, frustrated whine, almost a little whimper, when the camera slips again.
he messes with his phone a bit, like he's trying to figure out if you can see everything all while he keeps working himself, the slick sounds of him jerking off growing more erratic by the second.. then, you catch the way his shirt rides up and thats what does it for you.
if this is what he wanted to achieve then he did it because you really, really want to get home to him as fast as you can just to pull that shirt up the rest of the way and trace the lines of his stomach with your fingers, to feel that little pink gem that pierces his belly button against your palm.
you wet your lips nervously, shaking your leg, hunched over your phone— he was so effortlessly pretty. his muscles are just barely visible and the subtle lines of his abs tense then relaxing with each shaky breath he takes in.
"you just had to go out tonight, didn’t you?" his voice is suddenly low and husky, a sulky edge to it that makes you narrow your eyes. is that what this is about?
“left me here all alone, like i don’t even matter, like you don’t care how bad i need you.” he huffs, a frustrated little sound that’s almost drowned out by the rustling of the sheets as he squirms on the bed, trying—and failing—to keep the camera from shaking. “wish you were here, going fucking crazy without you—ngh-”
you hear a swallow, and its like hes trying to keep his moans in check—you chew harder on your bottom lip. a part of you is worried that he genuinely believes that he doesnt matter to you, but the other part of you, the hornier one, is completely consumed in the shitty, low quality video to even care.
“please, just come home to me, please… i need you so bad—m’yours, all y-yours..” you notice his words are starting to become slurred, and your thighs rub together almost unconsciously in realization, trying to relieve some of the pressure building up inside you. you know hes playing on you weakness, and hes got you where he wants you.
god, i’m so fucked, you think, but you can’t stop.
firstly, it wasn’t fair, what he was asking of you—you’ve been using up all your time with him and the second you do something for you, he acts up? and you’re also a little frustrated at the fact that hes not letting you see his pretty dick in full—hes very clearly pushing you to the edge, holding back, waiting for something—for you. you think as if hes imagining your voice telling him what to do, instructing him to keep it at hold.
because how else is he not cumming already?
you know you should stop, should put the phone down, but you just can’t. you’re too hooked, too caught up in how fucking pretty he looked, how desperately he was begging for you. he knew exactly how to get to you.
“please, baby, please,” he whined, his voice getting high-pitched, his hips thrusting up into his fist. “need to cum so bad… fuck, i-"
in a panic, you click your phone shut, the screen going dark in an instant when you recognize the sound of the bathroom door creak open.
“hey, you okay in there?” the voice is familiar, and relief washes over you when you realize it’s one of your friends. at least it’s not a stranger.
“yeah!” you blurt out, probably a little too loud. you cringe at the sound of your own voice, trying to sound more casual. “i’m fine! just… just need a minute!”
you try to keep your breathing steady, praying she doesn’t push any further.
“okay, just checking!” she finally responds. you let out a breath you didn’t even realize you were holding.
you listen carefully as her footsteps retreat, the door creaking open and closing behind her as she leaves. you quickly open your phone back up, your fingers still shaking as you pulled up your messages. you tell yourself you won’t watch the rest—you need to have some control, especially when your underwear is already embarrassingly wet.
what are you doing?
…is all you could muster up as a text.
you barely have to wait. the three little dots appear almost immediately.
miss you so much... just wanted your attention : (
before you can even think of a response, another message pops up— one that has your brain go blank again.
did it make you miss me?
note: dont know if this was exactly what you were looking for but ive been meaning to write a scene like this for soo long and i feel like toxic needy gyu works just perfect for this haha anywayyy send some more sub txt stuff i live for it
#txt smut#beomgyu smut#txt hard hours#txt hard thoughts#sub!idol#✶ ━━ rana ; answered#🌷. rana thoughts#sub!beomgyu
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Bonus panel + info dumping
i was gonna render this today but then i remembered i have finales tomorrow but i really wanted to post this today and then it hit me that i am bound by no rules and i can post whatever i want, finished or not JHJKHDSF (i will probably come back later tomorrow to finish this though)
OK SO ANYWAYS this is my first time posting anything story related about my hanahaki + amnesia au so lemme introduce it to you :P
So in this au lamb chose to give up the crown for narinders freedom, however he isnt happy about this, he knows he should but all he feels is guilt and the 2 got into a conflict of "This isnt right, i dont want you to sacrifice your life for me." and "My life is not worth your freedom."
long story short they both came to an agreement (to the cats dismay) and narinder guided the lamb to the afterlife, EXCEPT this isnt really the afterlife, but its sort of like purgatory, lamb cant rest yet cause they still have unresolved feelings for narinder so they had the option to either accept it, leaving them to the actual after life or deny it, leaving them to reincarnate. lamb ofc chose the latter
They wake up centuries later in an unknown place with their memories wiped out not too long after they stubled upon a graveyard of some sorts and found a cat holding a bouquet while standing next to a grave labelled "lambert"
lamb asked where they are and after a bit of shellshock from narinder he finally responded the 2 quickly became acquainted (though he doesnt tell lamb abt his true identity) w/ each other, narinder offers lamb a place to stay
JSHDKFD thats all i could tell u in this post for now, im not used to info dumping myself so im sorry if tis sounds confusing HDSF
#cotl#cult of the lamb#cotl lamb#cult of the lamb fanart#cotl fanart#cotl narinder#narilamb#cult of the lamb narinder#true devotion#cotl au#cotl narilamb#cotl comic#hananesia au
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Ur gonna hafta rip drawing my ocs in fashionable designs from my cold hands, even if theyre cishet
#and you will NOt imprint queerness on the cishet ones#bc its not exactly breaking the binary of you to assume a male cishet character wearing more fashionable clothing is someone#who doesnt actually want to be a cishet male#damn im sorry i like FASHION. and DRAWING COOL AND FUN CLOTHING.#god forbid ig#damn im sorry i dont wanna resign my characters to life of boring clothes just bc i dont like them or just bc theyre cishet#IM CAPABLE OF ADMITTING WHEN MY ENEMY HAS SWAG OK#yall are gonna poop ur pants when u see my other villains bc they also look p spiffy#yall are gonna poop ur pants also when u see the main characters walkin around w different styles on#bc this aint no 'main character wears the same clothes all the time' shit!#srsly if you see how i dress in real life. you cant act srurpsied that my ocs also walk around with a lil flair.#im walkin around wearing all kinds of bright colors and these flowy chiffon cardigan things ok#im walking around wearing cowboy boot heals and a seethrough green snake skin shirt ok#tell me i cant make my villains dress spiffy.#got my rings got my chains better move out the way#snake (self insert) LITERALLY has been a drag queen before ok. i have the drawings of him.#dont tell me that anyone out matches my queerness in my comic *flips hair*#anyways. writing this bc someone liked an old post of mine where i was ranting about how amab ppl wearing fem clothes doesnt make them#an egg. which devolved into me ranting about how i anticipate ppl thinking zero is queer coded bc i dress him up all stylish-like#but truly what makes me angry. is if i was amab. yall would call me an egg. and thats my issue. i feel like yall think i dont actually#want to be a man sometimes. like id totally go around as a drag queen and wearing more flamboyant clothes if i was amab#and i dont like how yall would assert that im an egg or something. and if i dont agree then im bad ig. bc yall act like non binary amab ppl#are predatory for some reason. yall REALLY gotta get it out of your head that fem ppl are somehow less likely to be predatory.#please dont mame the same mistake i did lmao#id 100% identify as a gnc nb man. and nothing else c: and yall would have to accept it or die dhsjskks#but fr. if not calling myself a woman bars me from support then yall are bad people.
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