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i'm so sad. germany deserved to win. if spain wins the euros I will riot.
#my heart hurts so much#but i'm proud of them they were so good#prsnl#und dieser dreckige Kommentator der sich fĆ¼r Spanien freut. i hope you'll choke
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"But beyond all my pain, there was you"
Narilamb designs: @runningwithscizzorz
here's an alt version of Narinder without the veil!! :D
#I added that detail last minute and my poor government laptop was about to explode from the amount of layers that I was usingā#it wasn't even that much! just uhh 95 I think?? I normally use like. 150+. But this poor laptop is not built for that#The tools were starting to lag and the program froze for a couple of seconds before starting to work again and it was a whole mess so#I couldn't put a lot of detail into it#but I'm still pretty happy with the result!!#I love Lisey's design so much specially Narinder's#I really wanted to make fanart for them and I finally got to finish it!! there was a lot of trusting the process in this fjhsd but it was#definitely worth it. I think I exceeded myself. Very proud of this one.#even though I couldn't put the amount of detail I would have wanted to because of the laptop's limitations.. I did the best I could with#what I had and I think it looks good! so. yeah. hehe.#I hope Likey likes it if they see it heh (ā *ā Ā“ā Ļā ļ½ā *ā )#cotl#cult of the lamb#cotl Narinder#cotl Lamb#cotl the one who waits#cotl narilamb#cotl fanart#narinder x lamb#gpart
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PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS YOUR OWN OC OR PAIRING.
Nathan and Ruben share a bond more powerful than most; mutual understanding through past experiences no one should ever have to go through, and through past actions so horrible they cannot be spoken of. Their grief and the blood on their hands binds them to the STEM technology they created, which has alienated them from the rest of the worldā but they give each other the comfort they have both longed for so desperately for years, and that is all they need. They are each other's counterpart; you cannot imagine one without the other, like two sides of the same coin. Through their pain, their grief, their desire, and their regret, they have become one.
anna akhmatova, the guest // bones; equinox // 'i won't become' by kim jakobsson // agustĆn gĆ³mez-arcos, the carnivorous lamb // by oxy // achilles come down; gang of youths // czeslaw milosz, from 'new and collected poems: 1931-2001' // 'extended ambience portrait from a resonant biostructure' and 'migraine tenfold times ten' by daniel vega // a little death; the neighbourhood // marina tsvetaeva, from 'poem of the end' // by drummnist // katie maria, winter // 'nocturne in black and gold the falling rocket' by james abbott mcneill whistler // micah nemerever, these violent delights // body language; we are fury // 'the penitent' by emil melmoth // chelsea dingman, from 'of those who can't afford to be gentle'
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@shellibisshe, @florbelles, @ncytiri, @hibernationsuit, @stars-of-the-heart;
@lestatlioncunt, @katsigian, @radioactiveshitstorm, @estevnys, @adelaidedrubman;
@celticwoman, @rindemption, @carlosoliveiraa, @noirapocalypto, @dickytwister;
@killerspinal, @euryalex, @ri-a-rose, @velocitic, @thedeadthree
#tew#edit:nathan#nuclearocs#nuclearedits#so much shame in my body but still used my taglist but um let me know if you want to be excluded from oc/ship web weaves#just really wanted to share this one because i'm very proud of it and i want it on my blog. so. :]#recognition of the self through the other + wanting so desperately for the other to be deserving of a second chance#because if there is hope for them than there is hope for you etc etc and so on. that's the core of their dynamic i think#they understand each other on such a fundamental level that no one else comes close to because they are in so many ways the same#like how in in the first game leslie could sync up with ru/vik and all that? nathan would be a VERY good candidate for that as well#and it makes me insane!! and then the added layer of nathan being lead developer of mobius' new and improved STEM system#which makes him the same as ru/vik AGAIN but in like. the way that they're both men of [computer] science#and there's the fact they both have a dead sister. they both killed their parents. they were both mobius playthings for YEARS#and they've happily killed and tortured during all of it. they're angry they're out for revenge they're completely disconnected from#the normal human experience and they're working with what they have. and then after all of that is over then what is left?#their story focuses on them picking up all the pieces. everything that's still salvageable at least. and try to start over in a way#they cannot be forgiven for what they've done but they can move on from the past and do different in the future#there's still things left undone and left unsaid... in my canon at least. i know there's not gonna be any more games. it's fine#anyway they end up going to therapy and then they get better they're not a doomed couple they just like being dramatic#if you read all of this we can get married tomorrow if you'd like
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finally got my fluffyrice keychain tests in! these guys turned out much bigger than I anticipated (and after noticing a very specific error on one of these š
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#kagarambles#trainer riley#stat trainer riley#champion lance#lance pokemon#its not specifically rice but. it goes in my tag anyway bfhdvfh#fluffyriceshipping#ššš#pmex ex colors and shiny colors are on the back while the front has the base colors and an epoxy coating to give it a rounder feel#honestly wasn't expecting this to turn out as good as it did. so i'm kinda proud of them#to the keenest eyes you probably will notice an error and honestly yeah. i didn't notice until they were already shipped out :[#that and size too these guys are like. a good 3 inches (big;;;) so I'm probably sticking to 1.5-2 inches for next time#but if there's any interest for these guys to make and sell on my kofi shop definitely let me know!#might throw a google form up in a reblog if people actually want some of these guys + more characters ya'll wanna recommend#I'm like. fluffyrice brained so of course i had to make the single thing keeping my brain afloat into merch catering to Me
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Mouthwashing fanart i spent SO much time on lmaoo
I really wanted to practice my painting & coloring and i have to say it worked out really nicely! My sister @shuggyjiggy is my biggest critic but she helped me SOOOOOO MUCHHHHHH during the detailed Anya portrait. I will forever be gratefull, even though we yelled a lot at eachother (jokingly) <3
I am working on a mouthwashing comic but at the moment i'm in a huge art dip so... We'll see when that'll happen. Thank you for looking at my art!
#mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#digital art#so much pain into this art (i mean the portrait#the other two more simple ones were quite quick and fun actually#i'm very proud of them they look good#fanart
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congrats to seventeen for winning album of the year and artist of the year awards :)
#idk! me! <3#seventeen#svt#oh im so proud#me and my friends were watching it live and were praying and manifesting for this#and i'm ngl#bawled#like fr like a baby cried#twice#oh woozi#i mean all of them really but#woozi :(#obviously he's my bias so seeing him cry just#punch in the gut#like#oh my goodness#woozi and cheol really have been doing this half their lives#and then yesterday was woozis bday and he wins these awards with his brothers#oh how i wish hannie and jun were there :(#but god#i'm so#augeh
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Honestly, getting real tired carrying and supporting other folks around here when most of them aren't returning the favor...
#i'm two seconds away from nuking everything in my queue and drafts out of spite#but i don't feel good about that bc there's innocent collateral#this is tumblrā the place you're supposed to fucking share the stuff that your friend's and other people are making#and i get itā it's not possible to like and reblog everything hereā i understand that and i'm not expecting that#it just sucks constantly feeling like no one gives a shit about the stuff you're proud of and put effort intoā y'know?#there's an entire subsection of this fandom that basically ignores any vper that isn't running modded on pc#which is like half the fucking fandom and i definitely pissed some of those people off just for choosing who i associate with#i've been writing in this fandom for three years now and i still don't feel like i have any fucking writing friends#or a good place to get technical support#the writing associates i do have either don't read anything i write or when they do won't comment for some inexplicable reason#(if you're an author on ao3 you knowā first handā damn well how much comments mean to authorsā so what's the deal?)#(if you actually don't like itā it's fineā don't even touch the kudos buttonā no one has to know you were there)#i'm traumatized from my previous discord experiences and am very reluctant to let people into my circle without vetting them first#even tumblr communities is a struggle for me because it still feels a like a popularity/social influence contest#and i know i'm fucking slow#sue me for having a life outside of the internet and wanting to be mindful and thoughtfully engaged with other people's artwork#i talk to people in the tags#i've been leaving comments on every fic i read now#i'm not expecting people to bend over backwards for me#but fostering community and friendships requires mutual exchange#and it's shitty feeling like you're generosity is constantly being fucking wasted#i'm trying to keep it fun around here but a lot aren't helping with that and this isn't a job for one person#sorry not sorry for the rant but i've been feeling very salty about this as of late#i know the holidays can be stressful and the fandom in general has been slowly shrinking which has probably exacerbated these issues#a lot of folks have moved on#but these issues have always been here and they aren't magically going to go away unless people work on them#i'm not expecting anything i make to break the bank at this point but when your friends won't even put your crappy art on the fridge anymor#like why are we here?#i also don't understand the people who are following me but never interact with anything i make???#rambling into the void
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#i don't think the fic is bad or anything but it fought me more than any story has this year. mostly bc of how i've been feeling?#and i think i could've made it a lot better if i'd shelved it for like two or three months tbh#until i was in the right mindset to try to say what i was trying to say? which is one of the main reasons why i shouldn't do big bangs tbh.#but! it's done. and that's the important thing lmao. and i did say my priority this year is finishing things not making them good#i do feel like. there's? some pressure? well-meaning and incredibly kind to be clear! but i do.#but i feel like i have. expectations? on me? and i'm not sure this is going to live up to them?#which is. like i think the story turned out fine but i feel like ppl expect more than fine? from me?#which!!! sounds conceited!!! i am aware!!! but i don't mean it in conceited i mean it like. i'm /stressed/ lmao.#like i think i'd be more okay with failing to meet my own expectations if ppl were okay w/ expecting less from me?#this is a mess.#i just wish i could be proud that i got it finished and instead didn't feel like i was going to let ppl down who expected more?#anyway. i've been working on my internal expectations this year. and i think next year has GOTTA be about external expectations lmao.#like it's absolutely no one's fault it's my own bad brain and you're absolutely not responsible for my feelings!! it's just.#anyway. i'm going to focus on being proud of myself for finishing it because it was very very very hard for me to do that#so it's done! and that's exciting!#and that's gotta be the most important thing for me rn lmao#stretching that writing muscle tag
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thinking about the person i could have been if i tried a little harder to find my own way
#probably the thing i am resenting my parents for right now is how good they were at convincing me#not to pursue any career paths other than the ones they laid out#every time i was like hey this seems interesting should i check it out? they would be so quick with the#do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it? to do it for your whole working life?#and obviously 8 yo 12 yo 14 yo 17 yo 18 yo me would get terrified and go no sorry and just not look into anything further#supposedly this is the safe option but everything i do feels meaningless#all of the jobs in this field seem meaningless#the job market in this field right now is dog shit and I'm fighting like hell for positions that just make me sad to think about#but every time i think hey what if i tried another thing#now my brain shuts me down with the do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it#your whole life on it#and the answer is no and it's gonna be no for a long time i bet#don't know if I'll ever find my way out of it#told my roommate's boyfriend about my general dispassion for pretty much everything in life#he asked me if I'm even a person#which feels very true#i feel like this path I've followed if i keep following it#I'm not going to be a person i can be proud of#i know it's really early in my life to say but#idk if it's nature or nurture or my own damn fault but all the ambition has been weaned out of me and I've been getting just surviving#i just wish i got told more you can be whatever you want to be :)#instead of whatever you'll do you'll be good at so do what makes money and push your hobbies to the side you can do them after you retire#your mom likes this and you're good at it so you'll like it too it'll make you money this is the best thing#the other thing is harder and doesn't make as much money don't do that you won't like it that much i bet#when i was younger#maybe I'd be struggling more but I'd be really happy and fulfilled#or maybe this is genuinely the best timeline and eggs who tried to pursue art hates it now#maybe I'd be really stupid at all the other things i gave a passing glance at#eggsistential speaks#tag rant
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Harold was on cloud nine today
#i cant remember if i'm mentioned in my tags yet lol#but i had a tonsillectomy a week ago#and it has been ROUGH#and my poor dogs have literally been neglected#and left to entertain themselves#i've been shovelling bones and kongs and chicken feet at them#trying to offer them SOME sort of enrichment#anyway on day 5 i finally mustered up the strength to take them to the beach#which was an awful idea??? because how the fuck do i recall them?? with a burning throat?#but anyway they were all crazy#but also all angels#they were very good and despite there being many people on the beach#they kept to themselves and didnt attempt to run off to greet anyone#which is really really hard for sprig#so i was very proud of them#also i think it's because i took cubed cheese as rewards HA#harold#dogs#sprig
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michĆØle mouton on the tv show after dark
#this interview was crazy.#like the questions were so bizarre and then you have like an entire football team there listening to her?????#poor michĆØle she handled it so well.#also i'm actually SO proud of this gif set!!!!#all of them turned out so well and look so good i'm just !!!!#michĆØle mouton#wrc#1980s#motorsports
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My best bravest girl. We had a friend and her 11 year old kid over tonight, first visitors besides a few family members & maintenance people since we've had Emma.
She shook a little at first, then quickly calmed when I handed out some treats to distract everyone and calm them down. Spring was an excellent example as always & was cuddling them in no time after his initial alarm phase.
After that, she initiated sniffing both of them on her own a couple times, played with me briefly in excitement when I came back out from animal room, and!! Took treats directly from my friend while we were sitting in the kitchen - she went to living room to eat, then came BACK on her own 4 times!!!
Picture is from the last hour of the night, with the kiddo on my other side playing a game and everyone else chatting, laughing, etc. Fully snuggled and relaxed. š©µ
#dogblr#fearful dog#fbw rambles#my pets#Emma pup#she did snap at phoebe a couple times with redirected guarding#but to be fair to her#Phoebe also nearly landed on her from a jump the second time#so i can't really blame her for that one#she did SO GOOD YOU GUYS#it took like 7 months for her to take a treat from Joel's gf who was the one regular visitor allowed#I'm so proud of her#and we were comfortable with these two coming over bc we knew they would follow directions#the kiddo is a big animal lover and well taught on interaction with them#even at one point when Emma jumped almost onto the kid she just froze completely and didn't reach for her or anything#love them a lot
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Might ink and color him later, but for now, here's a drawing of Soniclizard. :D
#added a few extra tubes and wires because this boy is not well#goodness the legs were a struggle#i'm not used to drawing them like that but oh well XD#I did it so i'm proud!#Sky Queen#Sonic the Hedgehog#ask multiverse#Sonic AU#Bio Soniclizard AU#Sonic#Soniclizard#art#my art#traditional art
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Yesterday I've been doing some proper physical exercise for the first time since last year and I'm just imagining how proud my f/os would be of meš„¹
#it was just a 20 minute beginners home workout and I can feel every muscle in my body now but I think they'd be so happy I pushed through!#I've had particularly Heinz and Maximilian on my mind I think they would be sooo happy that I'm trying to take better care of myselfš#Heinz because he's always there anyway of course but I kind of imagine Max is probably overall the fittest out of my f/os#he seems like the kind of guy who'd want to be an example for his soldiers and always hold himself to the same standards as them#he'd be so supportive and cheer me on and be proud of me every time I get myself to do somethingššš#I've never particularly enjoyed doing sports (aside horse riding but in the past year I didn't have time anymore for that bc of unišš)#so I didn't really do anything anymore after I finished school#I started doing simple home workouts last year but in winter my mental health went a littleš and then I had no motivation to keep going#dunno how long I'll go through with it this time but better than nothing I guess#again with the home workouts lmao bc driving to the nearest gym ain't worth the time for me and I'd need some basic fitness first anyway#I'm doing it mainly for health reasons but this time I'm also motivated to actually get a bit stronger#I don't mind looking like a stick figure and I'm overall content with my body (maybe it could help me to look a bit more masc tho?šš)#but I know especially for my posture and such it would be good if my muscles were just a tad bit more developed#my mum was proud of me too when I told her about it hehe :) she works in healthcare she's always a little concerned#she's just a little worried about me getting health issues when I'm older that could be avoided by taking proper care of my body now#I get where she's coming from but it's not easy but at least I'm motivated to try again now :)#selnia talks
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Hi!! Iāve never had a pet snake so this might be a dumb question but is it harder for snakes to see when theyāre in blue?
It's not dumb, snake eyesight is different from our own so we can't assume they see exactly how or what we do. For the longest time people believed they couldn't see red, and used red lights to light their enclosures at night- that's bad for them. Please do not light your snake like a rotisserie chicken, they can see it. Ā Red light can be detrimental to reptiles because it can make it difficult for them to perceive depth, which can lead to mental distress.Ā Red light bulbs can mess with your pet's ability to tell if it is day or night, since a light is always on, and that can cause stress and health and long term sight issues too.
But back to your original question, yes, snakes have difficulty seeing when they are in blue. Many will stay buried and hidden, not even eating until they've completely shed. That is the norm, and if a snake wants to be left alone, they should be. Sakura will hide most of the time, but I'll sometimes see the tip of her nose near a burrow hole, and I'll dangle something tasty in front of it and she'll eat it- but I won't dig her up if she's having alone time. Scoria will hide unless I'm around- they both know my voice and scent, and Scoria has complete trust in me so much that even when blind she knows I'll keep her safe.
She allowed me to take her out and feed her today, and then asked for pets. This behavior is unique to her, and if she were not specifically asking to be pet I would not do it after feeding (any other snake might throw up). I'd stop petting her and she'd ask again and again like, "Nope! Need more, come back and pet me." I really don't mind, she's found a way to tell me she enjoys being pet, and that's amazing- and also makes me happy. After many many pets (I guess we had a few days to make up for, I've been leaving her alone for the most part, only saw she was in blue, and then it was food day and saw her looking at me from her mossy hide) she buried herself underground in her bioactive area.
Perhaps some day Sakura will trust me to touch her while she's in blue too- but if not that's just fine. Sometimes we all need a few days to ourselves.
Oh, and don't feel bad asking snake blogs questions. It makes us happy when we get nonbot or spam asks! I imagine most of us love sharing about our snakes! And if sharing what I've learned helps lead a snake and their caretaker to a better life or bond then they would have had before, that's such a win for everyone!
#Snakes#shedding#in blue#hognoses#reptiles#Scoria is the most loving trusting baby#She rarely hisses and usually does it to say no#The other day I wasn't sure if she was thirsty and while holding her lowered my hand into her pool so she had an opportunity to drink#She gave a little hiss āno!ā#So I took her out. Communication successful. We cuddled a bit before she asked to go back in her enclosure#Sakura wants very much to be social#she is overcoming crippling fear of people#And my goodness she has been so good and so brave#She learns by watching her sister#She saw me hold my hand protectively over Scoria (like a cave) and Scoria nuzzle it#Scoria will often curl into a cinnamon roll under my hand and nuzzle me while we both relax together#our happiest moments are with each other#Sakura saw this and tried to understand#So she asked to come out and actually went into my hand (usually she likes the door open so she can dangle and look around)#And then she went under my hand for about five seconds to try to see what we were doing#She is so shy and skittish so I'm proud she found the bravery to do it at all#She immediately got scared and asked to go back to her enclosure#I did it immediately as knowing they can go back any time helps them feel safer and will want to come out more#Rather than have a scary memory of being trapped and unable to get back home#She asked to come out later and I had her out about five minutes and when I TRIED to put her back she wrapped around my hand!#She wanted to spend more time with me!!!!#She WANTED more time with me#As someone who has been struggling to reach this frightened shy girl#There are no words for what I felt in that moment#I must never break her trust she's worked so hard to get
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here are the plushies i made for my brothers - bot and the announcer!! now that they have been gifted i all happy to share them with you all :)
#dandy's doodles#<- sure!#inanimate insanity#ii#ii bot#bfdi#battle for dream island#bfdi announcer#plushie#they were both so annoying to make but very rewarding#they turned out great and i got to put a smile on my brothers' faces! happy day!!#but oh my golly you know how when you make plushies you have to sew them outside in?#bot's side pieces had to be stuffed and folded inside really awkwardly before i could turn them inside out#it was so fiddly!!#and goodness making a rectangular prism is so annoying...#each piece has to be attached to a different piece at a different angle. truly a test of patience and spatial awareness haha#he's a bit wonky but i'm proud anyway :)#i hope you like them! my brothers certainly did!! <3
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