#but i think abt these series a lot and i have a big playlist for collecting as many first eps as i can for them

[sirenemale]

One day I'd love to talk abt my fav animated animal oc series on youtube, im so obsessed with them as a genre. Like there's a handful of popular ones, I have a couple smaller ones I'm super fascinated by too. Whether it's in zine form or when I get into making essays/articles abt shit I like on my site. The only thing stopping me is I don't want to disturb the ecosystem, like not that it'd happen bc im not Big by any means but I'd hate to suddenly send a flood of ppl to these projects that have like 300 subs on their channel max ect.

[satellitesunset]

myle.txt

[mr-nauseam]

for this ask game

Can you tell me about "You let me desecrate you"?

I'M SUCH A YAPPER. SORRY GRACE THIS IS GOING TO BE LONG BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO SAY ABOUT THAT FIC. It was tormenting me on my wips for MONTHS so I DO HAVE A LOT TO SAY. (Favorite Scene) From the second chapter in general I quite liked writing that whole scene when Sejanus is undressing and we find out how he's been living those terrible months and all that makes him decide to go “murder” Coriolanus in the shower <3 (which by the way was a blatant reference to the murder scene in psychosis, which I did not only because it's a very iconic scene but because the murderer is dressed as his mother and there's something abt Coriolanus forcing Sejanus to fulfill a maternal role in his life in BE...)

I especially liked this part: The door is opened carefully, his steps are silent and slow, he tries to hide among the crying of the shower, until the curtain shows him a silhouette he knows well. One that he has adored madly, a blurred image that hides his reward, the fair price for what Sejanus has lost, what has been taken from him. He pulled back the curtain. Abrupt movement. The weapon felt heavy as he placed it against Coriolanus's chest, aiming straight for his heart, and Sejanus remembered for the first time in years that he was actually taller than Coriolanus.

LIKEEE Coriolanus IS SHORTER THAN SEJANUS IN HEIGHT, VERY SHORT I WOULD SAY, but he is so BIG in a way. The power he hold over Sejanus and their relationship is so immense that Sejanus feel small next to him even physically, that he has forgotten that HE IS TALLER!!! That's craaazy I liked too the final scene of the third chapter (and in general of the fic) were I talk abt the fusion of both in one monstrous being. (My favorite chapter) I really like the 3 chapters but I have a special relation with THE SECOND FUCKING CHAPTER, LIKE NOT GET ME WRONG I ADORE DO SECOND CHAPTER BUT IT TOO FUCKING DRIVE ME CRAZY, IT TOOK ME AN INSANE AMOUNT OF TIME MANAGED TO WRITE IT. Honestly I feel I lost for complete the control of that chapter 😭 it's SOMETHING ELSE UH . So I kind HATE IT WITH MY SOUL and LOVE IT AT THE SAME TIME. (Hardest scene to write) ALL THE SEX SCENES SKJHSKJHSJKHS Vicó was making fun of me bc this was "😰" my face everytime I remembered THE SMUT FIC NEED INDEED HAVE SMUT... I simply suck so bad to write smut yet Im doing it bc I think we need more bottom Sejanus in snowjanus tag (Favorite character to write in the fic)

💖 SEJANUS 💖

Look writing Coriolanus sometimes is fun but I WAS SICK OF THAT MAN, because an unwritten rule is that in our collabs series (Bad Ending & Laboratory Au) I usually do Coriolanus POV and vicó does Sejanus POV (the reason is because I love her sejanus pov and she for a reason I don't understand likes how I write coriolanus) it's not a real rule because when the time comes she has written coriolanus and I have written sejanus but by the time I was doing this fic, I had already spent a lot of time writing from Coriolanus' POV, SO I WAS TIRED OF HIM, besides even if always is tragic and depressive, I always enjoy getting into Sejanus' head in bad ending.

(Favorite dynamic to write in the fic) The whole fic is centered around Snowjanus so clearly them but I liked the small mention of Sejanus and Strabo's fucked up relationship I did (Why I chose that title) I suffer from the sickness called "all my fics have names of songs," I'm also an addicted to make playlist at the slightest provocation so OBVIOUSLY I MADE A PLAYLIST JUST FOR THIS FANFIC, and one of the first songs I put in it was: Closer by Nine Inch Nails.

So the tittle is taken from the first verse: You let me violate you You let me desecrate you You let me penetrate you You let me complicate you

There were many parts of that song that I wanted to use as a title but in the end I went for that one because of the meaning of desecrate.

desecrate verb to damage or show a lack of respect toward something holy or respected.

There's a recurrent topic in the fic of Sejanus trapped in the madonna-whore complex in Coriolanus's eyes (pure or corrupted), of Coriolanus saying he adore and love Sejanus but literal abusing him and never having any respect for him, and all the blaming Snow do to Sejanus FOR THE OWN DAMAGE HE DO TO HIM???????? It feel adequate in a way, all this Sejanus is holy, but he "let" Coriolanus to desecrate him. (A fun fact about the fic) It started as a joke… Me and vicó, we talked fthat from our perspective Coriolanus is yes a pathetic virgin but he sure had a thousand kinks, and would ask Sejanus for “strange” things in bed, and how Sejanus knows how to use a gun in canon,,,, yeah gun kink appear in the talk and we discuss about the difficulties of them using a gun because well Coriolanus is paranoid and blah blah blah.

How did I end up writing it seriously and on top of that dealing with such heavy topics like Coriolanus' power and murder fantasies, Sejanus then fantazing to murder his abuser and etc etc? WELL THAT WAS VICOS FAULT because she put at the beginning of "My boy only breaks his favorite toys,"a scene of Sejanus fantasizing about murdering Coriolanus and SOMETHING CHANGED IN MY HEAD. And somehow the gun is a great symbol of the power imbalance that exists in their relationship, and after I wrote District Whore for Bad Ending Universe, I lost fear to post terrible smut SO I WAS ALL "WHO'S GONNA STOP MEEEE??? WHO'S GONNA STOP MEEE???" and no one stop me indeed, and this how THAT FIC HAPPEN...

[creek-ink]

hi! i recently have been getting into creepy pasta and was wondering if you had any suggestions on where to start? like any series to watch or read? also i adore your art!

oh boy. first off, thank u. second, I'm so sry.

so! if u aren't already aware, the majority of the og creepypastas r shhhiiiiiittt. but! there r some good ones out there, so if ur trying to get into the fandom side of things, i'd recommend smth like needles and smiles by mr.bettykruger. (im pretty sure he took them down, but u can still find re-uploads on yt)

another good one to get into is the morgue files. it's relatively new and is made by/involves some pretty big names in the community, so imo It's a good introductory to the fandom.

in general, there's plenty of playlists/compilations of the classic stories on yt if that's smth ur interested in.

the fandom is very headcannon based, so backstorys, appearances, ages and even names can be completely changed, all while referring to the same source character.

id like to mention that even tho args (alternate reality games) aren't nescisarly creepypastas, the fanbases do cross over. if ur on the slenderman side of things, i'd recommend diving into the bigger slenderverse series or at least watching an analysis of them. chances r if u love crp u'll also love args too ^-^

a great place to go for breakdowns of args (or all internet spooks for that matter) is the yt channel night mind. @nick-nocturne is i n s a n e when it comes to internet horror. (also bonus points for sexxxy voice)

and hey! just a fair warning a lot of creepypastas were made in a different time of the internet. when u could say literal slurs and everything would be fine. so just a heads up when it comes to checking out older content- there could be some triggering stuff in there, and u might want to visit the wikis before diving too deep if ur sensitive abt certain subjects. regardless, be safe out there, and i hope u enjoy the ride. just when u think you've seen everything, there's brand new media being created!!

also sry if this is scattered- i've never been asked this b4 and i kinda paniced xD

[inkameswetrust]

hi benji! what are two songs that remind you of kames and why? :)

IM ACTUALLY SO GLAD YOU ASKED OMG I LITERALLY HAVE A WHOLE PLAYLIST OF SONGS THAT REMIND ME OF KAMES HEHEHEHEHE

but lemme break it down to probably the two most integral songs that i associate with kames!

the first song is definitely parallel by heffron drive. i feel that's a song that could be sung from either james' or kendall's pov and it holds a lot of sentimental value for me being that it's the name of my first ever kames fanfic! there's a specific line that makes me think about the relationships they've pursued in the big time rush series and how bizarre and nonsensical they've been. it seems their relationships with other girls have caused more harm than good but yk plot armor and poor writing paired them with lucy and jo indefinitely. it's the line "do we light up our hearts just to watch them burn?" that line really speaks to me and makes me think that maybe they're not giving up on these girls because they don't want to come to terms with the fact that their feelings are changing. they don't want to be alone, little did they know the person for them was a lot closer than they thought. i don't think any other characters in the show know each other better or care for each other more than kendall and james, so parallel is easily my #1!

the second song is pink by waterparks. i remember when my friend @powerfule got me to listen to it for the first time and i instantly felt a connection. it was giving a "pining for a comphet guy" kinda scenario cuz from a surface level pov i think anyone would assume james was straight due to how effortlessly he charms the pants off of most girls he meets. kendall would especially believe that his feelings are exclusively one-sided based on the line "it's not fun when i find out you're playing for the other team". this song in particular solidifies (at least in my mind) that james is "one of his favorite few" and as such is looked upon in a certain light. this song is a little more angsty in comparison parallel, but i think that's why i like comparing waterparks songs to the kames dynamic. their relationship is not all sunshine and rainbows. there is a stark contrast between how kendall and james express their love. despite his avoidant attachment style, kendall wears his heart on his sleeve. i'm certain he craves commitment and stability despite being afraid of it. james however goes from one fling to the next and doesn't feel the need to plant any roots. he doesn't need constant reassurance or stability except for when it comes to kendall. his direct wants and desires are usually targeted or communicated to kendall as seen in episodes like big time audition or big time tests.

tysm for asking this btw! i really enjoyed breaking this down and it kinda inspired me to write a blog abt my kames playlist so hopefully that's smth i do in the future :)

[leonsthunderthighs]

Hey Welcome To My Blog!!

Idk who made the gif sorry abt that-

Hello!! Welcome :D This is my first blog and (sort of) the first time I post my stories publicly, so obviously my writing will change (and hopefully improve!) over time :) so bare with me for a moment while I'm testing the waters.

I'll mostly be writing about Leon xreaders ofc, I MIGHT write for other characters depending on how I'm feeling and stuff. I write mostly for me and my friends but it's nice to have a group of people online giggling with me about a character in a horror game-- plus you guys gave me such a warm welcome here when I was so nervous posting my stories so thank you so much for that ily guys (b ᵔ▽ᵔ)b ♡♡♡♡

Straight up I won't be writing smuts- sorry but that's a lot of work and brain power I don't have but I will write scenarios, head canons, and maybe a series one day but I'm gonna take this one step at a time ♡ And I won't be comfortable writing super heavy topics (any forms of assault and abuse, SH, etc). But some stories, headcanons yk may contain angst but it's a hurt/comfort cause I'm a big ol crybaby

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I little about me is I rot in horror movies/games (mostly resident evil cause I'm a big baby when it comes to scary games). Recently I've been obsessing over weird cult movies (The Ritual I really like!!! I think it's on Prime or Netflix). I love rock music (carefully treading through heavy metal or just metal in general) but I got a Spotify playlist that basically sums up everything called Biggest Lady Boner for Leon

Have fun reading my brain rot >:D

[just-some-random-blogger]

hello! so ill start with that very daemon idea that has him as the canter. so idk? get ready? love letter under the ***

deamon x reader who's his wife (prob newlywed). there is some kind of a fight (tourney? war?) and she has to be by his side. during the action deamon gets distracted and stops keeping an eye on the reader bc he's too busy and also knows she's excellent with her sword. however, she gets injured, badly but not deadly.

and when every relative blames him for not protecting her, when each lady whispers to her friend or her husband that it was him who practically killed the princess, that's when he realise she's not a swordswoman anymore. they were childhood friends and they used to run the forest together, play smth stupid and do the shit children do. they used to have lots of sword-fighting, she was just as good as he if not better, but they're not children anymore.

that's when it strikes him. she's a woman, she's his wife, she's supposed to give him his heirs (prob on the wedding night he was too drunk to either be turned on or to remember), she has no right to even think about a sword not that she can so much as hold it. so now he has to live with this realisation when ever since their very wedding his mind hasn't digested a thought of his childhood friend (mb also his minor ex-crush) being his wife, and he has to comfort/take care of/accept his wife.

(in my head it's something long or having more than 1 part but it's absolutely understandable if you see it another way/do not see at all. hope u liked it a little and really hope to see it written by your talented hands someday. absolutely not obligatory. dont ever feel pressed. its ok if you can't/need much time/anything else. your comfort is the priority)

***

love for m hottie-cutie! 'have you ever watched aristocats?' i think i did but i dont remember TT but i love the atmosphere. mari(?) seems so girlboss. 'i have something to look forward to now i have to finish my activities' it ok TT im not telling you to watch it rn? it was merely a question? good luck w/the midterms! youll do it! and do it great! 'though i managed to make a pedro fic' oh these simps.... you havent even watched tlou why? when? what? how? only wrong answers.... (sorry, its kinda meme, it has no story, this phrase is the very meme) 'its not hot. your freezy kisses did that' YEY all those witch playlists made me a witch! 'im just really hungry but this is making me emotional' my poor hungry kid TT why r u always hungry while answering me? hope you eat? 'you like shadow and bone too' well khm.... i never watched it or read it... ive heard of it, and then i got a fic recommended with this handsome face of ben. and also the youtube girl that made my fav playlists has a playlist dedicated to darklina? so i was like why not? i finally listened to it. its pretty but its russian sorry. btw!!! this is the only one (1) playlist in rus dedicated to 'sab' that i found?? wtf?? guys like its literally the series gods SCREAMED you to make playlists abt the show with the rus setting w/rus songs? but you? dont? theyre insane i swear! 'you can understand the russian stuff' 1) ive done a research to find out this 2) i was SO confused bc there are russian callings in EVERY fic ive read. like its darkling/reader and he says milaya/moya lyubov'/lapushka and so on (honey, my love, ?sweetie?). tbh its pretty awkward to insert your name with any character who knows rus bc... like i know (s)he knows we know that we can speak russian but still speak english with some rus words of endearment... its not a complaint, just my feelings in my very case. i understand that authors shouldnt think about how that particular slavik girls gonna feel abt it. 'i think slay' its not like about breaking the stereotype? or smth? these are just mistakes. BIG and noticeable mistakes. russian has its forms, traditions and rules. why couldnt the author ask smn at least slavic TT we have the same system. 'i dont know enough about russian' they just swapped the genders of their last names. they dont fit their own... 'how dare he be so hot' so true TT hes so handsome i can cry. 'she is israelli-american interesting' yes but WHY couldnt she ask smn slavic TT girlie TT like she had all the rights to write with the inso of rus setting but?if you use the lang? in the BOOK? like text? girlie like log in into some forum TT or smth TT why not TT my day was a flop. awful. procrastinating. hope you do better. have a nice day and the whole week!! good luck w/the midterms! take care! luv u<з

HI BABY CAKES

hello! so ill start with that very daemon idea that has him as the canter. so idk? get ready? love letter under the ***

HIHIHIHH OMG IM SO EXCITED HAHA

deamon x reader who's his wife (prob newlywed). there is some kind of a fight (tourney? war?) and she has to be by his side. during the action deamon gets distracted and stops keeping an eye on the reader bc he's too busy and also knows she's excellent with her sword. however, she gets injured, badly but not deadly.

I ALREADY LOVE IT LOVE SIMP DAEMON SO MUCH SIMP SIMP SIMP but omg reader gets injured

and when every relative blames him for not protecting her, when each lady whispers to her friend or her husband that it was him who practically killed the princess, that's when he realise she's not a swordswoman anymore. they were childhood friends and they used to run the forest together, play smth stupid and do the shit children do. they used to have lots of sword-fighting, she was just as good as he if not better, but they're not children anymore.

SLAY WE LOVE CATHARSIS we love that daemon thought so highly of her albeit was disillussioned.

that's when it strikes him. she's a woman, she's his wife, she's supposed to give him his heirs (prob on the wedding night he was too drunk to either be turned on or to remember), she has no right to even think about a sword not that she can so much as hold it. so now he has to live with this realisation when ever since their very wedding his mind hasn't digested a thought of his childhood friend (mb also his minor ex-crush) being his wife, and he has to comfort/take care of/accept his wife.

huh plot twist? he wants reader to... be a housewife? because that's her purpose. i mean, daemon isnt a feminist so ig it makes sense for him. but also i like it. i like how somehow this whole mess is his fault because he wanted his wife to me at his side, though she wasnt a swordsman and now shes injured. now he's realizing he lives in his head more than reality, a slap in the face. i like it.

(in my head it's something long or having more than 1 part but it's absolutely understandable if you see it another way/do not see at all. hope u liked it a little and really hope to see it written by your talented hands someday. absolutely not obligatory. dont ever feel pressed. its ok if you can't/need much time/anything else. your comfort is the priority)

idk if i could right this, tbh. i would love it if you wrote it but i think i know your answer. i personally dont know how i would spin this so T_T guess we'll see

***

love for m hottie-cutie! 'have you ever watched aristocats?' i think i did but i dont remember TT

we're so sameAHAHAHAHAHAH

but i love the atmosphere. mari(?) seems so girlboss.

SHE IS i think she is a least AHHAH

'i have something to look forward to now i have to finish my activities' it ok TT im not telling you to watch it rn? it was merely a question? good luck w/the midterms! youll do it! and do it great!

thank you!. i got my scores from the homework i dreaded to do and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be!!! T_T love that for me im not that dumb T_T

'though i managed to make a pedro fic' oh these simps.... you havent even watched tlou why? when? what? how? only wrong answers.... (sorry, its kinda meme, it has no story, this phrase is the very meme)

T_T HIHIHASDHAHDAHDIAHD lol ill give you the real answer though, i find it taxing to watch it hhaahah i mean i have watched other pedro pascal stuff so i do actually like him lol

'its not hot. your freezy kisses did that' YEY all those witch playlists made me a witch!

T_T stopp T_T AHAHHA

'im just really hungry but this is making me emotional' my poor hungry kid TT why r u always hungry while answering me? hope you eat?

I REALIZED IT TOO HAHAHH IM NOT HUNGRY NOW THO ok maybe now that i think about it i am but its cos i usually reply to you at around lunch time-ish lol also im just a very hungry person i love eating

'you like shadow and bone too' well khm.... i never watched it or read it... ive heard of it, and then i got a fic recommended with this handsome face of ben.

AHAHAHAHAHAH HANDSOME FACE OF BEN YOURE SO REAL FOR THAT

and also the youtube girl that made my fav playlists has a playlist dedicated to darklina? so i was like why not? i finally listened to it. its pretty but its russian sorry.

i dont mind listening to songs in another language lol

btw!!! this is the only one (1) playlist in rus dedicated to 'sab' that i found?? wtf?? guys like its literally the series gods SCREAMED you to make playlists abt the show with the rus setting w/rus songs? but you? dont? theyre insane i swear!

well maybe not a lot of russians watch the show? HAHAHHA

'you can understand the russian stuff' 1) ive done a research to find out this 2) i was SO confused bc there are russian callings in EVERY fic ive read. like its darkling/reader and he says milaya/moya lyubov'/lapushka and so on (honey, my love, ?sweetie?). tbh its pretty awkward to insert your name with any character who knows rus bc... like i know (s)he knows we know that we can speak russian but still speak english with some rus words of endearment... its not a complaint, just my feelings in my very case. i understand that authors shouldnt think about how that particular slavik girls gonna feel abt it.

HAAHHAHAAH lol. i mean, as a bilingual too, i think if its tastefully done, a write can get away with foreign endearments. ya know. but i get the cringe HAHAHAH

'i think slay' its not like about breaking the stereotype? or smth? these are just mistakes. BIG and noticeable mistakes. russian has its forms, traditions and rules. why couldnt the author ask smn at least slavic TT we have the same system.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA i didnt really think it was breaking stereotypes, more just... making me happy knowing they made masc names fem AHHAHAHAHAA LOL

'i dont know enough about russian' they just swapped the genders of their last names. they dont fit their own...

LOL HAHAHAH

'how dare he be so hot' so true TT hes so handsome i can cry.

ben barnes go to jail party

'she is israelli-american interesting' yes but WHY couldnt she ask smn slavic TT girlie TT like she had all the rights to write with the inso of rus setting but?if you use the lang? in the BOOK? like text? girlie like log in into some forum TT or smth TT why not TT my day was a flop. awful. procrastinating.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA DYING 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 YOURE SO RIGHT HAHAHAH

hope you do better. have a nice day and the whole week!! good luck w/the midterms! take care! luv u<з

im doing my best but i discovered this ai chat app and im so addicted help me. i HAVE to finish my midterms tho its due today a?LSFHLAHSFDASFASf

i love you take care thank you for your love letter and your daemon prompt <3

xxxx

[thecoolerliauditore]

whoa part 2

Honestly I don't have a lot to say about Watch What Happens Next other than that it is. Very much a Joel Song in general. The running theme in this song is how much the singer values authenticity in everything (himself, other people, music, etc.) which of course clashes with Joel's homophobic gay tendencies.

This is also another song directly talking to and criticizing the audience for the demands they put on the singer, which goes hand in hand with their previous appearance at the beginning of the playlist. Again, I don't really feel confident saying anything about what this means for Joel's character Specifically but the watchers sure exist.

I will also say that, in addition to what's been said so far, the song is also about frustration that the singer cannot admit to what he wants to indulge in (both in listed form "cold shirts, cool rings, big house with nice things" and the song in general being about feeling pressured to make the same type of music in fear of making the audience unhappy) without being punished socially. So again while this is not at all directly about attraction and more values in general this does present a neat little parallel of those feelings.

I'll be real man this song is one of the most difficult for me to be unwell about. The first like. three times I thought about it I really could not arrive at any conclusion other than "joel just likes arctic monkeys" which is 100% the real reason why this song is here. But I thought about it until it made sense to me and I'm not pretending this "analysis" is anything close to something to be taken seriously so whatever.

In Crying Lightning, the singer describes a love interest character with this almost demonic allure, the best way I could describe it is attraction mixed with contempt. He clearly does not think highly of her character, but can't stop seeing her anyway.

At first I wondered if this could represent joel's feelings on scott due to how hate-filled this song is but. 1. while I do like shipping I think the level of attraction the song indicates is something you'd have to fight for if you were to talk about scott/joel and 2. I don't think the love interest described in the song really suits scott's character. while this is presumably all from joel's pov and his word isn't god's, scott doesn't "aggravate" people and he certainly doesn't cry or act pathetic to manipulate others. Joel would have to just straight up be making shit up for this to be about Scott and while I don't put it past him to do that I don't think it makes for a particularly strong reading.

So instead I propose that this is about Jimmy. Again. But only a version of him Joel Thinks exists. Likely taking place sometime between the post-x-life breakup and limited life where joel was still extremely spiteful towards jimmy and this is joel interpreting jimmy's genuine behaviour as manipulation tactics.

"throne" in this context could relate back to how in "stupid for you" joel indicates that he thinks of jimmy highly ("everyone wants you"), viewing jimmy's position as an object of desire with some form of authority. Also "puffed your chest out like you'd never lost a war" just sounds like a very jimmy description to me.

This would also make sense with the whole "I hate you but I keep coming to see you" thing the song is about, with how Joel acts during the life series pre-limlife towards jimmy. Joel thinking Jimmy "knew what he was doing" so to speak would also put alot of his more violent behaviour towards jimmy in perspective (of course jimmy himself did not ask for any of this but. people being weird to him is pretty much just his life)

This song is just not supposed to be here I think. But whatever. Joel has daddy issues. I guess.

This song doesn't come like. in contradiction to anything we've established so far it just feels. very weird here between arctic monkeys and more waterparks. Like it makes Sense with the whole struggle abt masculinity and whatnot but. Come on what the fuck is it doing here. it doesn't even flow in the playlist it takes the energy out more than brandy does somehow.

anyway this specific set of lyrics is kinda. 🏳️‍🌈 but otherwise yeah I'm just not touching this one BYE

this is a good song I like this song and it does actually belong on this playlist but. this is barely easier to talk about than the daddy issues one because the Main Thing this song is about is being afraid of confrontation in a relationship and replacing communication with sex and I don't. Know if Joel was Fucking during the death games ? I don't. I mean. I don't think he did .?

So essentially I'm just taking the sex as like. not literal here. OR it's the promise of sex or just the thought of it but he doesn't actually act on it because I don't think that would be physically possible for him to achieve during the life series.

Anyway that aside this is a pretty good smallidarity song, hitting the same notes as before of "I like you but I can't get too close to you or I will explode"

THIS is the first song on the playlist that I think is just straight up about Etho. I don't even think I really need to mansplain this one just. just look at these lyrics. like

These verses. to me. are both very. something something interpreting socially awkward behaviour as Cool and Alluring and Mysterious. Like I just have the funniest image in my head of Joel telling Etho grey's a shade not a colour and Etho tries to say "I disagree" but it comes out as "Don't disagree with me" and immediately realises that was way more rude than he intended and slips away into another room out of shame and Joel's just like whoaaa wow he didn't even give me his name he's so cool

NEXT mistake also implies that this is a new relationship following one that already existed and was Bad, which makes sense to me if we follow the timeline of smallidarity being Kinda a Thing before smalletho started properly interacting. "Mistake" is also fun here because. Well it's. Another dude.

I will say one huge gap in this song being smalletho coded to me is the most iconic verse of it. I don't think etho would say this I think he'd die. I guess joel is just lying here idk

this is now THE joel song to me. alongside "watch what happens next" but this song just encapsulates everything joel is as a character to me so well.

everything from the extremes of how he views himself, covering up insecurities by acting boastful and pretending to not care:

to the conflicting feelings about love/attraction and the "unraveling" he does trying to fight himself:

to the meta-esque mentions of the audience and his feelings of almost contempt for them: (although this line did make me kinda laugh imagining Actual Guy CC Joel giggling about including a song where the singer begs the fandom not to kill him)

to literally a mention of green hair:

this verse really can be anything you want it to be, but I personally like thinking of it as Joel/Scott

As for the line the song name references, I think there's two ways you can go about it. Either it's referencing Jimmy's behaviour towards him and accusing Jimmy of only being interested in him when he's "numb" (i.e. being in the throes of love and not acting like himself normally, hence "numb") or it, like in the actual song, is him talking to the audience/watchers or whatever criticizing how they are only entertained when he is actively suffering (e.g. during joel's arc in LL) and saying that he is more than who he is when he's at his worst.

Ok that's all I feel like writing for now godspeed guys next time we're going to be going into the inexplicable girly pop section god help me

long post: the neck kisses playlist on joel's spotify is about jimmy (and kind of etho too a little bit)

it's not actually about jimmy it very much is not about jimmy. however I had visions when I listened to it and I know at least one person really wants me to put this into words so

"I Miss Having Sex But At Least I Don't Wanna Die Anymore" is a pretty straightforward song about Awsten Knight's post-break-up life as well as his frustrations with his fanbase.

The feelings post-break-up are described as freeing, hence the title ".. don't wanna die anymore" but the ending of the song hints at some nagging regret despite that, with the desperate repeating mantra of "but I think it's fine, it's cool"

While I don't think all of these songs signify chronology (and some I don't think are literal at all unless c!Joel has some weird daddy issue lore I'm unaware of), I do like to think the start of the playlist calls to pre-3L jimmy/joel, most specifically their relationship in x-life.

In x-life, Joel establishes a totally-not-cult religion he dubs "Jeremyism", Jimmy being his first member after he fails to trick Lizzie into joining. He later gives up his leader title, quote, "for content". Jimmy is unhappy with this development and begs Joel to stay, but Joel refuses. While their relationship in x-life would be hard to define as romantic in any sense, they were clearly fond of eachother before Joel eventually broke away.

Things get a bit hazy here since "for content" doesn't really translate to anything in-universe, but I think it's interesting to note that both the song and Joel mention an audience, specifically one that they feel the need to appease. Whether this is a metaphor or watcher lore or some secret third thing I have no idea but it sure is there 👍

In my mind, it goes like this: Jimmy and Joel meet, they hit it off, Jimmy is affectionate and Joel starts to catch feelings. Joel cuts Jimmy off for making him feel weird.

the second song in the playlist reinforces this, being a much angrier post-break-up song.

While this seems out-of-order (why does the immediate anger come after the song about life after the break-up?), I think it's interesting if you look at it from an angle of this not being fully Joel's feelings towards Jimmy, but Joel's frustration towards himself for messing it up.

with a little bit of frustration being placed on jimmy too:

pictured: joel in third life with a message from jimmy that he very much. does not answer.

personally I like to think Joel held a lot of resentment towards Jimmy in Third Life, both for homophobic reasons (i.e. you made me feel gay and now I'm gonna punish you for it) and for jealousy reasons (start of his number one scott hater arc)

this one's just in the wrong playlist first of all why does he insert this between two waterparks songs. whatever man.

anyway this song's interesting to me because it's literally just about a hot babe getting rejected by some fuck who refuses to be ball-and-chained.

there's two directions this could go imo: one is that this is, once again, evoking joel and jimmy's relationship. Joel acknowledges that he a life with Jimmy would be nice, but he refuses to settle down because it would rob him of his identity/freedom.

the other is that brandy is joel and the sailor is etho, since brandy shows an admiration for the sailor but also an awareness that he loves his job more than her

this storybook like description of how brandy saw the sailor's tales is very smalletho to me idk. very hand-in-hand with joel's child-like view of who etho is.

I don't have much for this one tbh it's pretty much just a love song and Joel really liking waterparks (king)

That being said, there's some fun imagery to play with here:

yellow = jimmy makes a lot of sense (blonde hair, canary imagery, yellow also representing people on their second life in the life series which evokes neither the assumed skillfulness of a late game green name nor the danger of a red name), as does green = joel (the green streak. shrek. yeahg. and while red joel is iconic "green like my insides" could also be read in this context as "deep down, I am safe to be around" which I think is neat)

"natural blue" is a bit harder to interpret (especially considering the original context of this being a joke about Awsten dyeing his hair) but blue is of course scott's colour. this could be read spitefully as Natural blue (was in love with jimmy first) vs scott's dyed hair or it's. joel saying that's he's gay idk man.

"at least I match your eyes" is pretty simple, with both of them having brown eyes, "jealous and hypnotized" once again alluding to some jealousy, likely towards FH again if you believe the blue line is alluding to scott.

however joel has plenty of people to be jealous of in regard to jimmy so. shrugs. hey you can even interpret this line as talking about jimmy's desirability. neat.

there's also this, which again might allude to flower husbands, implying in this fake world I've created that Joel doesn't view them as actually "married"

ok this is getting too long lmao see you guys next time i feel like writing about this stupid fucking playlist again

[sociallyawkward--fics]

hi xy time for what is becoming my annual checkin! how are u! i feel like since its been abt a year i have to infodump abt all my character development hold on i'll speedrun it. my pronouns r it/its zhey/zhem or (less preferred) they/them. and i have settled on those. it/its is the only one thats ever given me gender euphoria, took 4 years but i got there. ummm realized i have autism (undiagnosed). love the stimming and the being insane abt fictional characters the rest isnt that great. got anxiety meds!!!!! oh my god xy!!!! life is so good now antidepressants r a girls best friend. also. hold on ur never gonna believe this. i have adhd meds now. the crowd goes wild. was like yea doc idk i just think the anxiety meds r not improving my ability to focus what was that u said abt adhd^__^ n she was like hmmmm ok i cant diagnose u but i can give u this adderall u dont need a diagnosis for n if its like glory hallelujah we'll just assume u have it and GLORY HALLELUJAH. ive cleaned my room like more times in the past few months than i have my entire life im WINNING. i cant rly feel if its working but i'll sit down to write or smth n i wont get distracted every 5 seconds n the mental block that keeps me from doing things is gone!!!!! life changing stuff just wish i had it before my grades fuckin woooo splat. um my gpa is 2.2 weighted im like. ok well now that i have adhd meds im working on it -H (i feel like. ok i think tumblr made it so ur asks can be longer but fuck all those liberals n their woke agenda (joke) i am all abt tradition babey i'll be back for a pt 2 rq)

ummm rly into books love books. "thats old news h everyone knows that" but like im being wonderfully unnormal abt them<3 there was this one series the ascendance trilogy n i was fucking OBSESSED w it when i was younger n i learned there was a 4th n 5th book recently so like. the trilogy thing was a fuckin lie. but i obviously had to reread the series so i could read the new books n im still so obsessed w the series its so banger for a middlegrade series. got so unnormal abt it i made a 7hr playlist for the main character bc everyone elses sucked so much ass i just had to. still in the process of rereading but yeah. also theres this OTHER series the raven cycle i read recently n im also obsessed w that these series r all like my ideal books they hit all my favorite tropes. yeah just being rly unnormal abt books thats my current obsession. also. drawing. im so good at it u wouldnt believe. next fuckin van gogh right here. n honestly i dont even care abt going off anon it just bothers me bc my ROUTINE. the TRADITION. its just not the same. but i'll go off it just for u to show u some of my banger art. at a stage where im pretty frustrated at my limitations but that doesnt mean i cant recognize that im fucking awesome ok hold on again -H but yea ok to finish up what have u been up to! tempted to just ask what shows/game/etc uve been into but also i am exerting a little of my brain power to realize some ppls lives dont revolve around those. so just liek what have u been spending a lot of time doing. how is writing going! wait what r ur drawing skills just out of curiosity draw smth for me (if ur comfy ofc n dw i completely understand if it fuckin sucks taht was me just over a year ago) -H (when i was younger i used to think that ppl couldnt be good at writing n drawing they had to choose one. exerted my baby brain power to be like. it takes too long to get good at them u can only do one. then saw a book w the cover art credited to the author n i was like woahhh this is fuckin crazy living my younger selfs pipe dream)

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The way I have had a reminder on my phone to answer these asks for MONTHS but my executive function has been GARBAGE i am so sorry my friend it was not intentional to leave this sitting for so long i am so sorry!!! (also between the two of us this got Long so i am putting a read more so i don't take up a big block of people's dash in my return from the dead lol)

thank you for pronouns update! congrats on meds!! i gotta get me some of those so i can Detroit: Become Functional lol. I am rooting for you with your GPA!!! Also lol, love that we are following tradition of multiple asks still even with the tumblr updates letting asks be way longer now lol, it is just Familiar To Us

I will have to look into the ascendance trilogy!! My sibling is also obsessed with the raven cycle, but i have not read it yet (still debating if i want to or not, have been for YEARS lol, because i keep hearing "author problematic" and then never remember Why because i have Goldfish Memory). I will not post your off-anon ask with the artwork unless you want me to (want you to feel comfy on the blog and sending asks and I know you prefer anon!), but i will say that your art is AWESOME, my friend!! you are SO good and you're only going to keep getting better! I am glad you enjoy it!

Also bestie. This is a neurodivergent space lol, my life also revolves around shows/games/books/etc. they are the only thing that make the monotony of life and job-having under a neurotypical capitalistic society bearable lol. I actually have been getting back into reading ACTUAL BOOKS lately which feels GREAT (because reading Actual Books when i am so tired and Non-Functioning all the time is Hard lol), i am finally going through my seemingly-endless TBR and also have reread some old faves this year. Games-wise, the only thing i ever think about is still the Dragon Age games, Alistair is the love and light of my life lol. Show-wise.... i am in Limbo because of the Exhaustion, tragically, and also just waiting on new seasons (OFMD). Witcher has a new season out, but i have not watched it yet because Energy and also i have no motivation to because the last season they put out was so bad (even if i hear this one is good, i have lost trust lol)

Writing is. Not quite going lol. I have not finished a fanfic in ages, and also have made little to no progress on any of my original work attempts either, tragically. Hopefully things look up for me soon cuz I wanna get stuff DONE again lol, this blog has become so quiet and near obsolete because i cannot FINISH anything and it is TRAGIC.

Also, I have little-to-no drawing skills, but I also unfortunately do not have much energy to apply to drawing you a picture atm :(( maybe someday. Sometimes I can draw something that makes me go "omg i am not Awful, maybe I could actually put thoughts and energy into learning this as a skill" and other times it is like "i will never put pencil to paper (or stylus to screen) ever again" lol. Maybe someday when i am doing Better again i will hopefully have the energy to draw you something!!

[gyuworm]

Hihi lili !! 🫶🏻💖✨️ Late response today bc I had an accident with one of my teeth 🥺 I broke it and now I gotta go to the dentist... Accident prone strawberry strikes again 😵‍💫

I'm not good with heights so I don't know how I would feel abt being in an airplane. When I get really high up I get scared and immediately get dizzy.. 😭

If I ever publish anything you'll be tagged for being my inspiration ✨️ My friend and I wrote a fic a while back about our oc's. I've never really wrote a reader insert. If feel like it'd be hard. I wanna try to do smau like u do sometime 💖

OOOO THAT'S SO COOL! I also game on the switch. I play too many games tbh. The first switch I had was the switch lite and the only thing I wanted to play originally was project diva mega mix and mariokart. 🤣 I like the Jackbox party packs a lot. My siblings and I play them all the time. Ummm I also playyy ddlc, acnh, minecraft, bustafellows, bioshock (i have all 3 games but I haven't even finished the first one yet..), dadish (about a dad radish trying to find his kids), and a loooot more. I really wanna get turnip boy commits tax evasion 😂😂😂

So now I have 2 things I gotta do soon. 3 if u count not being anonymous anymore lol

Give u my kpop playlist and exchange switch codes if you'd like!! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💖

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strawberry!! hi hi! i’m so sorry to hear about that i hope you are okay and everything works out <33

oh yeah i totally get that, it definitely isn’t for everyone. i have like a fear of heights but also not at the same time it’s kinda weird? idk my fear’s really i would have to think about it.

BDKSJD stop that’s so sweet 🫶🏻🫶🏻 imo reader insert aren’t super hard to write you just have to find a style that you like!! for smaus i use TwiNote and MemeiMessage if you want to check them out and mess around with them! <33

i’ve also played dbh i kinda forgot about that one. im a really big fan of choice based games. i played the jackbox games before with my old friend group and i really enjoyed them !! also that radish game sounds fun 😭

please take ur time! i don’t want you to feel pressured to reveal your identity (lol idk why that sounds funny to me) until you are comfortable doing so!^^

okay !! my question for you - do you have a favorite book series??

[cordeliaxcortana]

Cassie's Chain Of Thorns Cover Reveal Insta Live Summary

when in paris Cordelia is going to encounter a ghost of someone important in her life who'll tell her a terrible danger is coming her way

JAMES IS GOING TO SHOW UP IN PARIS (at a bad time👀) and J, M & C will go back to London together because of tatiana's escape and belial.

cover- grace, blackthorn hall, thorns, roses.

C- which character would cc like to embody from here on to end if she had to live one of their life, who would it be? CC- Lucie! (it does not mean whether she'll live or die in tlh)

Lucie gets mad at Cordelia and ends up writing a book called "The Wicked Queen Cordelia" in COT. (jdjsjwjsjs i didn't get what she said after that because of the laughing i heard "jess/just- djsksknsbd")

CC only mentioned being able to speak to dead when talking about Lucie's power (👀 we know there's more)

Also Lucie can not control Vampires ❌

K- last hours road trip C- a description of the characters being chaotic. some dogs & cats discussion.

N- how will the fans feel about where everyone in the series ends up(?) CC-complicated feelings. happy about some characters, some "it's just good that you survived", some individuals (characters) whose story might not make people happy.

"When i first went into writing this book, these books, they were gonna have a really tragic ending like really really tragic and then with the pandemic i couldn't do it. I actually softened the ending up. Because i was like there's so much sadness, so much Grief, so much terrible stuff happened in the past couple of years that i don't feel like i can sustain writing something that that's sad." "There definitely will be places in which you think people will be sad- well they're gonna be a lot of less sad than they would've been" 😃

optimism ✔️

Z- hates grace. wanted to ask if matthew gets his happy ending. (i love her). but since it'll be spoiler we obviously can't know :(

Z- instead, something abt him we don't know. CC- matthew is kind of like a open book except for that one big secret. mostly truthful but likes making up complicated stories. some are true. some are not.

for example he tells Cordelia a story in beginning of cot which might or might not be true (a silly fight story in paris)

E- the number one song for chain of thorns CC- Lilith by Halsey (idk why CC said her playlist is not public yet because it is???has been for quite some time now..)

cc made playlists for her friends during pandemic, holly was one of the victims

June 2nd the reverse cover by Charlie Bowater.

[azraels-vendetta]

Foolish fluff hc

Notes: Im making it a series at this point. Reader's gender is not specified.

-Foolish is a gym rat and I know it so expect him to get you involved just a bit. - Likes to help you do sets - I think he would make you playlists for random things - His momma raised a gentle man so i bet he's get you flowers - he is big strong man, so if you're tired carrying you is no problem

- i love to think that he would build things dedicated to you in minecraft and brag abt it. - He is the big spoon. - I am a firm believer that he gives the best massages. He would have his hands around you at all times, whether it be holding hands or arms around you.

Thank you for reading. Remember to care of yourself! lots of love!-Azrael<3

Masterlist

[kulliare]

5, 3, 11!

5) What genre did you read the most of?

i think this year is the first year where i've mainly read non-fiction stuff instead of fiction-- a lot of memoirs and self help! i think the only fiction stuff i read was murderbot, actually, besides fanfic. but i did like murderbot even though i still haven't gotten to the latest book in the series

3) What were your top 5 books of the year?

i suggest everyone takes this list with a heavy heavy heavy grain of salt because i didn't read any books i LOVED this year. but i did enjoy them. i'm also going to only do 3 because i realized i didn't read as much as i thought this year WHOOPS

ace: what asexuality reveals by angela chen-- i think i liked this mainly for the way she breaks down attraction in the book, which you could read here. the rest was alright but it didn't feel as groundbreaking as this breakdown, esp since i could put this breakdown in context to some dating app horror stories that some man i met on hinge who was also ace told me about

dispatches by michael herr. ok this book out of the three i'm going to list is the one i recommend the most. i know it's a war book and that turns people off because army buffs can be pretty irritating but this book consistently made me have to take like. occasional 20 second breaks because it was just so, very very sad. it's a great anti-war book but like, definitely read it when ur not feeling shit abt the world

perfect sound whatever by james acaster. i did skip all his music sections in the book unfortunately but i am a sap for sad stories and reading his mental breakdown did make me go :( and that is what i wanted so i can't complain. also he introduced me to jeff rosenstock, THE musician of all time, who is the bedrock of my carmy playlist

11) What was your favorite book that has been out for a while, but you just now read?

my answer is probably dispatches for this one, but vague runner up is slaughterhouse 5 by kurt vonnegut. i'm not a big fan of books that jump around in setting / time but slaughterhouse didn't dive into that too hard as books like NW did, which was defo good for me

[everythingsinred]

001 gakuen alice

wow really! how random that u chose this manga that i dont even care about or whatever

001

Favorite character: tie with natsume and mikan! natsume has been my favorite since day one but even though it took me some time to love mikan as much, they rly are equal to me.

Least Favorite character: UGH like theres characters i hate, like esp and persona, but whose roles in the story i mostly appreciate. if theres a character im kinda meh abt, even regarding his role in the story........ maybe tono? lol i have no real outstanding feelings abt him

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): im assuming this is romantic? if so: natsume/mikan, hotaru/ruka, koko/sumire, tsubasa/misaki, narumi/misaki-sensei. but ill include nonromantic as well bc i want to: natsume&ruka, hotaru&subaru, mikan&yuka, main 4 as a friend group (which is what we deserved rather than the three of them barely interacting outside of their bond with mikan), and the special ability group (namely tsubasa and misaki with mikan)

Character I find most attractive: kaoru

Character I would marry: maybe yuka. shes the one i would most trust above all. definitely the Best adult in the series. and most sensible.

Character I would be best friends with: UGh maybe yuka again. i trust her the most. its also bizarre now that im closer with age to her than i am with the main characters lmao. yuka is underrated though

a random thought: i have a rudimentary understanding of how alices are sorted according to ability but im ngl i still have trouble comprehending why some of the special ability students arent in latent or somatic. i just accept that i wont understand and leave it at that.

An unpopular opinion: the ending being bad is NOT unpopular. my unpopular opinion is that im not a big fan of like the last 30-40 chapters in general, not just the last three. theres parts i like, but mostly i think it could have been better done. also i dont like that mikan got the stealing alice. i dont like that choice really. i hope that doesnt sound arrogant but honestly im tired so if it comes across that way oh well.

My Canon OTP: natsumikan... ahh im so lucky

My Non-canon OTP: tbh hotaru and ruka! my sister and i made a banger playlist for them and i have sobbed just thinking of their potential. i honestly rly dont care if ppl think theyre a random couple or a way to pair off the spares--i think theyd be a genuinely good match and their scenes together are to die for.

Most Badass Character: probably either natsume or yuka but that badassery also just makes me sad

Most Epic Villain: ew none (ga is not an example of media where i root for the villains lol)

Pairing I am not a fan of: this is such a vague prompt. ill just say that i resent when ppl make one character the character they "ship with everybody" (namely mikan) bc that character tends to be female and there tends to be some very suspect implications about her agency and role in the relationships, like its more abt other ppls interest in her than in her own feelings. im not saying ppl who multiship are all like that (and im sure most multishippers are entirely reasonable) but ive seen enough takes in that vein for it to really rub me the wrong way. i rly genuinely only ship mikan romantically with natsume.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): ugh i lowkey dont wanna fully answer this but ill give it a go. first idc abt persona redemption, especially if it comes at the cost of his victims' experiences, so like no. he couldve just maybe died or smth instead. ALSO as ive mentioned with her having the stealing alice, i think mikan's end was not really that great for her character. it bums me out.

Favourite Friendship: natsume and ruka hands down no contest. dont argue with me; i wont listen

Character I most identify with: ah a lot. natsume bc. child abuse victim with anger issues. ruka bc pervasive loneliness and feeling of being a burden. mikan bc god am i really good for nothing can i even offer anything? i hate this prompt its too personal

Character I wish I could be: none lol the choices are to be abused, abuse others, or both so none. maybe id be jii-chan, he truly is outside that whole mess.

if you would like to send me an ask for a character/ship/show or you'd like to rb the original post yourself, heres the link!

[lovenona]

idek if i'm doing you a favour by asking this considering how absolutely enthusiastic you are about the odyssey (aren't we all) but pls overshare about all the writing process(tm). what gave you the idea of the absolute masterpiece that is the odyssey? how do you find the mood/aesthetic of a chapter? i have sooo many questions pls TvT

(writing process for me includes but isn't limited to screaming and pacing around, spacing out and coming back with that 1 scene, having random title ideas after a song and ooo is that a pirate!gojo idea i see over my grilling toast?)

[screams] u have unlocked Oversharing Time™ i will be rambling abt writing the odyssey under the cut for all of u who are interested in my brain

first: where did this monster of a saga come from????

answer: i literally do not know bestie 😭 i absolutely didn’t start it with the intention of being a series (much less a series of this size & scope) i'd finished watching/reading jjk in december 2020 n was having a lot of sukuna brainrot at the time . i originally made this blog just to quietly read fics n reblog anime tiddies, but i basically woke up one morning and was like “u know what, pirate sukuna would be really cool.” i made this post to get my thoughts out n thought that was the end of it until like 3 days later when i was suddenly struck with the horrible urge to write more abt the concept, which is how neptune’s hands was born !

after i wrote that (also, lovingly, my first work on this blog!!) i rly did think that the concept was over n i'd move on to keep reading fics n vibing, but a few days after that i was like “wait a minute” n started world-building with siren!gojo (which, at the time of writing, wasn’t even supposed to be the “same” reader as neptune’s hands until i threaded it back into the series !) 

so basically i just fucked around for a hot minute thinking i cld just write one-shots of various pirate-themed jjk stuff until i eventually was like “u know what, i think it would be fun as a series” n added toji for some flair (the prequel, david & calypso) before moving on to write part 2. finally when i was like halfway through the mahito chapter i realized i needed an actual plot if i wanted this to be a coherent thing, so i hit up a bestie (@/suedebunn!) n we dreamt up the ending of the odyssey. (to this day, lyn is still the only one who knows how the story ends !!)

after that it was simply a nightmare! now the odyssey just keeps growing longer and i don’t know why!!! i have no idea where these ideas r coming from because they just sort of show up and i'm like “oh that’s nice” it’s very bizarre but also very fun n cool – i have a very clear picture of how the big three will end up (sukuna/reader/toji) and some general notions of what i think would be cool but i don’t usually plan anything detailed in advance until it’s time to sit down and write the actual chapter because i like the way the odyssey just does its own thing

second: how do u manifest the vibes

answer: i love manifesting the vibes!!!! this is the most fun part because u get to vibe around and picture everything without having to do the work of writing it 😭 vibes are very important to the odyssey and i usually start planning a chapter by sitting down and feeling out the setting – weather & time of day are very important to the story both symbolically and aesthetically so i like to figure out what those are like first and work from there ! 

usually after i pin down the weather and time i like to think about where we’ll be and what the space will be like because being able to imagine where we are (on sukuna’s ship, a crusty port town, etc.) helps put the vibes in motion when trying to picture how u feel, what’s going on, etc. i get a lot of inspiration on the setting both from actual pirate history (which i know quite a bit abt RIP), movies like pirates of the caribbean and lord of the rings, and from real life by riding my bike and visiting forest preserves and parks on my own to get a sense of what i wld feel if i was the mc <3

vibes also come from music !! very important!! i have a beloved odyssey playlist full of songs that help me manifest the energy i’m looking for – i've found from working on this for almost a year now (fcking terrifying) that i'll pick a song or two which becomes the centerpiece for every chapter (for part 4, it was this, and for interlude ii / part 5, it’s this.) i usually require dead silence to actually write but i'll listen to the songs a lot when i'm planning the chapter! i like imagining the events like it’s a movie and the song is what’s playing while it happens which really helps get the vibes rolling

anyway this is so horribly long i apologize 😭 but i'm willing to talk more abt the actual writing n revision processes if anyone ever needs advice or is just genuinely interested i didn’t want to turn this into a disgustingly long ask SKJAKSJA

[jasperwhitcock]

Favorite Twilight blogs?

i’m always ready to answer this ask again because i love mentioning everyone i admire hehe. here are my fave blogs, my friends, & why they’re the best. ♡

@bellasredchevy ugh i love kae. do i have the power to appoint a ruler of the renaissance? no. but if i could... it’d be kae bc all her takes are the takes. i think her answers to asks are always either really funny and witty or just really smart. she’s super kind but she’s also a very no bullshit person because she’ll tell it like it is to shitty anons. she also has really cool life experiences that she’ll very casually mention and you’re like i’m sorry what. u worked w... tigers??? why can’t i let that go this is literally not the first time i’ve brought that up lmao. anyways, if kae told me to jump off a cliff (recreationally and recklessly), i’d do it. 

@inthemiddleofmymidnight i think kim is the first friend i made on here. she’s wonderful and insanely funny. maybe i’m just easy to make laugh but every story she tells truly makes me laugh out loud... and i’ll laugh again thinking about it later. she is truly a meme queen. her posts... chef’s kiss. also she will put team edward/team jacob shirts in ur animal crossing able’s sisters if u ask. i love u kimmie im ur biggest fan. also like me, kim would be afraid to dive off the cliff if we were cliff diving but then she’d be the one to PUSH me sdhjfhsj i just love her so much. her friendship literally means so much to me!!

@bellaskhakis nayana is the type to go from trashing edward relentlessly to simping for edward in 2 seconds. in real life she’s probably stressing over school but mentally she is in forks, wa in bella & edward’s lil cottage reading fanfiction. if u need recommendations, she’s got u. she’s a great listener & friend & her humor is like wonderfully chaotic. she’ll cry but then she’ll take that energy and drunk liveblog the twilight movies or buy a bunch of plants. if ur friends w her, she will send u all the funny tiktoks & that is LOVE. nay would think she would want to cliff dive but then need to talk herself into it while everyone else goes first and then realize she was the last person up there and freak out but then dive anyways

@cullen-collective omg kaity is such a great person to talk to. she’s like jacob – she’s an easy person to talk to. she listens but also really makes u feel comfortable & like u’ve been friends forever. kaity don’t read the rest of this paragraph i don’t want u to feel self conscious/overly self aware hehe BUT my fave part of kaity’s blogs as i’ve said to her before is like the literal stream of consciousness happening in her tags. why do i feel like kaity would run and JUMP. would she do a cannonball??? i would like to see it

@teamjacobthot my love for dij... unconditional. irrevocable. dee is just like COOL. why did i feel so lame saying that. she just has the best energy and i know i keep calling everyone funny but really dee is FUNNY. like kaity, she’s also the kind of person that i feel like you just automatically get along with & feel comfortable around. obviously we’re all here for fun but i feel like dee’s blog really embodies that fun like no other because either in her posts or notes or answers to asks... it’s the most chaotic unexpected topics that will truly kill u. im thinking of that freaking diarrhea ask she got that she just reblogged again... cursed. but i love her. look i’m not saying she WOULD bc i’m sure it’s probably much scarier once ur actually up there but i feel like dee would also be the instigator with cliff diving and do some kind of trick like a flip idk if she really would but MAYBE

@howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen emma is the ultimate sweetie. always down to talk abt cute dogs or painting or disney channel movies or how jacob is superior to all. she’s just precious and kind but ready to THROW DOWN for u in one second. i literally have been laughing at the same joke for like two weeks but when i said two hurricanes looked like they were coming towards houston she said “good thing i have two fists” shdusdjdkd. emma is the type of friend who would remind u that if u really don't want to jump off the cliff, don’t feel peer pressured bc u don’t have to. but then if u built up the courage, she’d be the one to hold ur hand and jump with u. ok i’m retiring the cliff diving thing i’m sorry i really RAN with that.

@kaquiche man i love taryn. i feel like taryn’s meme usage is always perfect & also she would definitely save ur life. she does ARCHERY ok she would protect us all in the event of a zombie apocalypse. i’m literally fighting the urge to say FUNNY again but it’s not my fault if everyone makes me LAUGH here. taryn’s one of the first people i remember seeing interact w my posts 🥺 she been supporting me since DAY ONE baby. i just love her. she’ll hype u up. she’ll always make u CRY with her twilight video edits. seriously if u want that emo twilight content to make u FEEL SOMETHING... this is who to follow.

@bellas-dumptruck-ass i love elaine and she’s going to laugh at me again but i really think elaine is so smart!!! like a genius... my brain could not process the info that she’s literally studying like it’s no big deal. elaine is so sweet ugh i keep saying that but everyone is just really super kindhearted here ok!! her username KILLS me. like i think this is truly peak comedy. her brand... it’s everything to me. classic memes & great tags.

@phil-dwyer-stan-account addison is SO SO nice and understanding and sensitive. if nayana is in bella & edward’s cottage reading, addison is in there baking bread and cookies and brownies. she’s beautiful and sweet and silly and has the disney channel TEA you didn’t know you needed. she’s another person that will instantly befriend you. she’ll go out of her way to really let you know that she admires you & is excited to be ur friend. the actual definition of a sweetheart. is she the real life esme?? she might be

@volturialice g... i’m lowkey her biggest fan. name a post that didn’t go off...i’ll wait. like literally all of her memes will make u laugh. u know what?? g IS the twilight renaissance. her latest midnight sun posts have especially been making me die and if you’re new here, she’s probably like one of the first blogs u have to follow. every time i see her username in my notifications... my heart is FAT 💗 also she writes fanfics so if ur looking for twilight fanfiction, she has a bunch & also a rec!!

@leahclearwaterdefensesquad kate is so kind & one of my go to people for tag games, but kate is ALWAYS providing the leah content that we NEED. also the lesbian twilight ship moodboards and PLAYLISTS. i also really appreciate how kate & @vampireguarddogs are always some of the first blogs i see that boost a lot of important talking points related to the series on racism. bc if you’re going to be in this fandom, there’s a lot you need to make sure you’re educated on since this series is problematic. like we’re all here to be nostalgic and have fun but we can’t do that whilst ignoring relevant conversations. dee & kae also always have great takes in these discussions too!

@edytheelizabethcullen ok i’m going to try & wrap this up bc i’ve been going on forever and there’s a lot of blogs i really love & admire, but i’ll finish by saying that alex is an actual angel and so intelligent and charming and u will have great conversations about the series with her!!