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Sometimes, we hurt our friends. And even though we apologize many times, that doesn't erase that fact. We still hurt them either way, and it's not our place to choose whether they forgive us or not because the one who got hurt was them, and not us. We may not even know the full amount of pain that they felt in that moment, and that's real.
So just apologize, but don't expect forgiveness.
#so i hurt a friend#i was playfully raising a fist against him as a joke#i didnt know he was traumatized by that action because of his father#we dont really talk about that stuff because well he never days anything#but still#it doesnt erase the fact that i hurt him#whether i knew it or that it was unknowingly#i still did#and i am not going to invalidate that#he explained right after to me that he was uncomfortable with that action of mine#and i apologized#but i suppose it wasnt enough#he wants to distance himself now#and i respect that#we might never return to what we used to be#and i get that#but of course it doesnt mean that im not sad about it#i made a mistake#and i hurt my friend#even i cant forgive myself#i was wrong to think that just because we talk and that we send reels to each other#meant that we were now fine#that was presumptuous of me#i think#it may be best to begin distancing from this one too
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Happy New Year! My yearly Davesprite is here to usher in 2024... it's been a quite the 2023! This also marks 10 years since I started this tradition... yippee!!!
I made the piece this year listening to @toontitsgoopbrain's davesprite tracks (give them a listen they're really good!)
2023 has been on the quieter side for me, nonetheless I'm overwhelmed by the support I've had during it anyways. Thanks to everyone who stuck around!
2023 | 2022 | 2021 | 2020 | 2019 | 2018 | 2017 | 2016 | 2015 | 2014
#art#Feel free to rb the other years too btw idm!!!#davesprite#hs#homestuck#homestuck fanart#hs fanart#personal diary in tags again#AGUGUGHHH THIS PIECE GAV EME SO MUCH GRIEF#suppose its expected i was really ambitious STILLL AUUUGHHH#anws the prompt and themes were from @/parasiteking hi arctic#i wasnt given an exact just some things to think about for davesprite n the tunes rly set the stage so to speak#im not happy but im satisfied enough w the piece. i hope this bodes well for my 2024#ah wells hope yalls enjoy this
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Sometimes I see reviews about D&W where people think Worst Wolverine's backstory is super lacking. That they expected something epic like how Mysterio tricked Logan to slaughter everyone in the Old Man comic run.
But that plot, at least to me, doesn't make The Worst Wolverine. It probably makes the Most Tortured Wolverine -- the story of a man slaughtering his own family with his bare hands because he was mind controlled. Which inevitably created a power vacuum so gigantic that the world basically collapsed as supervillains take over the world.
But the title of Worst Wolverine should belong to the Logan that completely abandons his most important moral value: to be the protector.
Sure, he tends to be nomadic and at times self-isolates, but at his core he truly knows what it means to be a pack animal: to be a part of a cohesive family unit, rely on others, be a guardian for the weak.
In a literal sense, a common backstory for him was that he just fucked off from human society after he mutated to live with a pack of wolves. He turned feral, but they also taught him about the importance of community.
Even if you aren't a fan of the wolf background (which I AM because I think it's funny and dramatic as hell), there's other stories where he got taken care of by the Blackfoot Tribe and Lord Ogun before somehow winding up in the Weapon-X Program. Then, the Hudson family rescued him and helped him gain his humanity back after the adamantium experiments. He joined Department H, and sometime after, he found his place with the X-Men.
My point being that past or present, Logan has always belonged to a family. He needs it -- his human AND animal side both need it. He's not meant to be a creature of solitude. When he is, it's a form of punishment that he inflicts upon himself because he doesn't feel worthy to be around the people he loves or he's worried about hurting them. Or it's something inflicted upon him -- aka he's been captured and is being experimented on.
So what does all this tell us about Logan's moral code? He cares deeply for others because it's in his nature to be a part of a pack and he will do anything to protect them.
He's very caring towards animals (ex. looking after wolves that took care of him, mercy killing a bear in The Wolverine, and saving the horses in Logan). He tried to save Silver Fox's life when Sabretooth attacked her. When his wife Itsu was murdered, he relied on the advice of Lord Ogun to get vengeance for her with the Muramasa Blade. He joined Department H and Alpha Flight because he owed the Hudsons so much after re-acclimating him to society. He stayed with the X-Men because Charles gave him a home, family, and purpose outside of being a weapon. He enabled him to be the good man that he is by not only using his powers for the good fight but also being a teacher for the students.
As a character, Logan was created to reflect the archetype of the cowboy/samurai with the morals of honor, integrity, and justice. He's also not afraid to be judge, jury, and executioner for the people he loves. He's a man of action.
So what is the antithetical? A man who dishonors himself by not taking his job seriously. A man of inaction who abandons those he loves. A man who doesn't seek justice but wallows in regret and guilt.
And what did the Worst Wolverine do?
He let his fondness for drinking harm his work. While he was drinking at a bar, a group of humans invaded the X-Mansion and killed a large part of the staff, students, and X-Men. He entered a berserker rage where he murdered the invaders AND innocent people. He tarnished the legacy of the X-Men.
The title of Worst Wolverine doesn't go to the man who got brainwashed and killed without knowing. The title goes to the Logan who killed indescriminantly and didn’t want to stop.
He chose to walk away when they called out for him. He went into a beast state that made the public completely turn against the X-Men in just one night. Instead of making up for his sins, he just went back to the bar -- the very thing that killed his family. He did everything he could to go against his morals of honor, integrity, and justice.
He was a man who failed his family.
THAT'S what makes him The Worst Wolverine.
#my post#wolverine#logan howlett#deadpool and wolverine#i went insane with this one#i just hate when people are like 'hur dur his backstory wasnt cool enough'#SHUT UP#HES NOT SUPPOSED TO BE COOL#HES SUPPOSED TO BE A PATHETIC COWARD!!!! THATS WHY EVERYONE HATES HIM!!!!!!!!!!!#HES THE VILLAIN OF HIS UNIVERSE YOU BUFFOONS!!!!!!#character essay
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What would a mother not do for her child What lengths would a mother not go There's a bond that exists between mother and child With no end to how strong it can grow It's a promise for life between mother and child It begins from the moment of birth.
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She is six years old, and standing on the porch at her Auntie Alicia’s cabin. She is six years old, and holding an old rifle in her hands, standing at the railing and pointing the nozzle at a large target a couple feet away. There’s a pair of old ear muffs covering her ears. Behind her is her daddy and her sister, and Auntie Alicia. She can’t see them.
Danielle Martha Fenton is six years old, and her momma has her arms wrapped warmly around her, keeping the gun steady for her. It’s heavy and the butt digs into her shoulder uncomfortably, and she feels nothing but determined. And nervous.
Her momma was teaching her and Jazzy how to shoot, and they’re down in Arkansas to visit Auntie Alicia for her second “Divorce-iversary” as Auntie calls it. She keeps a hunting rifle in her gun safe for the rabbits that like to nibble on her garden. She mostly grows rhubarb, which goes untouched. But her carrots and greens and other veggies like to be tempting snacks for the game.
Regardless, she is six years old and learning how to shoot. Her momma and her daddy (mostly her daddy) have been banned from every shooting range outside of Amity Park in a hundred mile radius. So Auntie is the best place to learn, or so momma says.
Danny thinks it's just an excuse to see her sister, not that she's complaining. She loves visiting Auntie.
She’s already seen Jazzy do this, her momma told her before the muffs went on to shoot when ready. No use trying to fire when you’re not; you can’t afford to miss when shooting ghosts.
Danny breathes out steady, just like momma taught her, and quells her trembling little fingers. She focuses down the barrel, and pulls the trigger.
Immediately, the recoil throws her off, the side of the gun that her cheek was resting on knocks against her skin, harsh enough to bruise if it weren’t for her momma’s steady hands holding onto her. The bang of the gun startles her more than she thought it would, and her heart leaps up and runs a jackrabbit through her chest.
The gun is carefully slipped out of her hands, and Danny lets it go easily, her cheek smarting in pain and her eyes wide and following up to momma. Momma turns the safety on, and with a gentle hand, pushes against her chest. Danny takes a few steps back, and slips the ear muffs off her head.
Mommy is smiling big at her, something that Danny can’t help but replicate on her own face as her heart swells. “Did I get it, momma?” She asks, watching as she passes the gun off to Auntie Alicia, who steps over to take it.
“I’m going to go see, sweetie, but I think you did.” Momma coos, before planting both her hands on the porch railing and, in a single leap, vaults over the side and onto the grass. She’s dressed all comfortable for the summer heat, with her hair all tied back and in shorts and a tank top and nice boots. Danny’s ribs swell hopefully, and she stands on her tiptoes to watch her walk over.
“I’ll be hard-pressed to believe if you didn’t, Martha Mae,” Auntie tells her, grinning like a cat, “that was a damn good shot.”
‘Martha Mae Knight’ was Danny’s granny’s name. Auntie Alicia calls her that because of her middle name — and because, by her words, she has her momma’s weird-shaped eyebrows and piercing blue eyes. The kind that could scare a hawk into singing like a robin. It was Danny’s favorite nickname ever.
Daddy laughs brightly, the sound painful on her ears but twice as nice, and despite the distance, Momma whirls her head around to shoot Auntie a glare; “Language, Alicia. Not around my girls.” She warns. Her accent always comes through when they’re around Auntie. It’s Danny’s favorite thing to listen to.
“Do you think so, auntie?” Danny says, bright-eyed and ever-optimistic. Auntie Alicia nods fiercely as Momma finally reaches the target and searches for the bullet hole. Daddy then comes up behind her, still laughing, and claps a hand onto her shoulder so hard that it makes her knees hurt.
“Of course she did!” Dad boasts, as bright as the sun and twice as warm. He shakes Danny affectionately, wobbling her on her feet and pulling her straight into his side. She goes so willingly with a burble of giggles. “She’s got the eyes of a Fenton! And our family are darn good shots.”
Auntie eyes him up and down, her smile immediately fading off into a pressed line. “I’m sure you mean she’s got the eyes of a Knight. You couldn’t hit the broad side of a barn at twenty paces, Jack Fenton.”
Jazzy holds back giggles from where she’s standing by the door, her ear muffs in hand, and Danny watches her Daddy’s dark eyes immediately narrow. Just like Auntie’s, his smile tapers off into a frown.
Before he can say anything, there’s a cheer from the yard, and they all turn to Momma clapping her hands in delight.
Danny immediately pricks her ears up, and would’ve darn near rushed over to the railing if it weren’t for her Daddy’s hand on her shoulder. She yells instead, excitement thrumming like a hummingbird against her ribs, “Did I hit it, momma?!”
Momma beams at her with all the pride in the world, “You sure did, Danny!” And she turns to press her finger against the target, right on the inside red ring of the battered old bag. “Right here, sweet girl!”
There are cheers from all around, and Danny’s heart bursts inside her lungs with shiny, sunshine glee. She puffs her chest out big, and smiles so wide it hurts the cheek where the gun smacked her. Her Daddy shakes again, squeezing her tight against his side in a hug that Danny happily reciprocates.
“What’d I tell you, Martha Mae?” Auntie tells with a big wink and a wide grin, the gun still gripped tight in her hands as Momma makes her way back over. “You got a Knight’s eye.”
When Momma makes it back over the railing, she hugs Danny tight and praises her shot. Danny looks her in the eyes and chases the feeling, and asks to shoot again.
#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#cw gun#cw gun mention#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#martha knight au#female danny fenton#fem danny fenton#danny is martha wayne au#got a little something something written for this au. the dichotomy of the happy memory and the fact that she's being taught this to shoot#ghosts. the innocence of a child and the reality of the situation :]. as well as danny's steadily disillusion from her parents as she grows#fun fact! this memory is based off one of my own when my dad was teaching us how to shoot so we could (eventually) go hunting with him.#i was around danny's age i think. a little bit younger maybe. so a lot of this stuff -- like Maddie helping her hold it up and them#wearing earmuffs and Danny immediately getting the gun taken away after she shoots and danny herself backing up are all based off#what i could remember. albeit the only difference here is Alicia holding the gun and Jack and Jazz standing behind Danny. in my own memorie#iirc we were all supposed to stand inside when it wasnt our turn. but we also didnt have enough earmuffs for everyone to stand outside.#slaps danny's head like the roof of a car: you can fit SO much trauma in this kid. enjoy her joy while it lasts :]#smth smth the idea that the fenton parents weren't bad at first but instead became a steady decline once they got into building the portal#smth about how danny knows somewhere that they could improve because they were good before. but they aren't and she wonders#who they love more: their daughters. or ghosts? (the answer is their daughters but danny finds this out in a way she doesnt expect)#that beginning song lyric is from “after all” by christine ebersole btw. its danny's theme song for the au.#i thank god every day for being a daycare teacher because the word 'daddy' has been CLEANSED for mEEEEEEEEEEE
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Calling The Distortion "Michael" in the same way people give names to their appliances. Michael The Distortion = Basil The Microwave. That's not really its name and if you call it that it doesn't really fit
#someone comes into my house and i point at the yellow door and say 'this is michael'#it sounds weird and out of place doesnt it !#the way it says ''i am michael'' and never ''my name is michael'' or something. is. mwah idk it does something to me#''michael'' isnt something it even likes to be called having a name is confusing and it wasnt supposed to be michael !!#it does not WANT! to BE! MICHAEL#being! michael! stole the only purpose! it has ever known !!#quiet archivist the coffin sings loud but not loud enough to drown out screaming etc etc#i love this quote im sorry#tma#rant#michael distortion
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hi
#star trek#star trek tng#star trek the next generation#qcard#scribbles#whenever i draw characters/pairs together a lot i make a playlist for them so i have music to listen to while drawing#so now i have a qcard playlist. bc i suppose my star trek playlist wasnt enough#the playlist's a little (very) cheesy tho cus all the love songs i listen to lay it on super thick lol
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'why does show joffrey look like that he's supposed to be handsome' no sorry there's so many ugly/not conventionally attractive characteracters being prettywashed I think the rare cases of deyassification are based as hell. I like his weird little face ❤
#.txt#someone said his show version makes people less charitable to sansa and like. genuinely whats so different except that he looks a bit weird#like ok it does take him a bit longer to be nice to her again post trident but like she wasnt deterred when he tried to kill her sister so#people would blame sansa for trusting him even if he had mind control powers let's be honest#'I would have simply been unaffected due to my superior gigabrain. skill issue'#I do think people would be slightly more understanding if he looked like his book ver but that's a them problem#also like she's gonna be conditioned to think he's attractive no matter what bc he's the prince lol#its like when dream face revealed and all his stans were like omg he's so hotttttt 😍 I dont mean he looks like dream im just saying#people can gaslight themselves into finding any random guy attractive. especially children#and it's not like he's hideous or anything come on#imagine if sansa was like hmmm the rich young prince im supposed to marry isnt looksmaxxed enough. pass
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going ham with these crayolas recently
#mgs#kazuhira miller#venom snake#revolver ocelot#the first one is a mix of alcohol markers tho. and also just an outfit that i own#ft my mom's jacket from the 80s. thanks mom#id in alt text#i've also been drawing a bunch of stuff i can't post here bc i'm not trying to get my blog nuked but it's a bunch of fun highly recommend#also some concepts for that vkaz/ocelhira thing i posted the other day bc i like them but not enough for a full thing#that wasnt even supposed to be a full thing it just got away from me. cannot for the life of me think of a composition i like for the ideas#i have. ANYWAYS. enjoy these sketches bye
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I was explaining shuake third semester to my sister and she goes "Oh so it's like Inception except instead of the dead wife convincing Leo di Caprio to stay in the dream world, it's this dead anime guy convincing Joker to leave the dream world" and i felt like i got hit by a truck. She has never played persona and does not know these characters. And yet here she is comparing them to a canon husband and wife :') shuake so real
#ok persona 5's premise isnt exactly like inception but close enough i guess?#idk its been years since ive seen that movie. the only thing i remember is the 'dream within a dream' thing#this is so funny when you consider that akechi is also supposed to be a parallel to Rumi#he's so dead wife coded im cryingggg#also obligatory “if atlus wasnt homophobic/ if akechi were a girl this trope would be more explicit” but we already know that#shuake#persona 5#my post#persona 5 royal#p5r#inception#goro akechi#akira kurusu#p5r akechi#p5r akira
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i love that anomalocaris is popular now. i liked it before it was cool not to brag. in 2014 i made one in my sculpture class and no one knew what it was except some people recognized it as looking like anorith the pokemon. i left it with my art teacher and told her id be sending my younger sister to pick it up since id be graduated and removed from the premises before she finished grading it but i wanted it back. my sister went to get it and apparently the teacher forgot and gave it to a biology teacher who was giving extra credit to anyone who knew what it was. my sister started giving all her friends with that teacher extra credit as revenge while she worked on getting it back. eventually she did get it back but it really did become a whole sidequest
everyone loved him
#he was supposed to be paper macheed over but there wasnt enough time before graduation#so she dug through her closet to find something easier and gave me the mesh#i got so cut up but i like it
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#honkai impact#herrscher of sentience#fu hua#sentihua#technically supposed to be bday art but i wasnt feeling good enough to finish it earlier XD
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aaaa nonsexual nudity how scary....look at him now.
#theres not enough trans medic content dont worry ill do it#someone asked why i drew him like a greek statue and at first i was going to say that wasnt intentional but. maybe it was.#neway. enjoy#doodles#tf2#medic tf2#trans#not going to tag this as science party because engie is just there to censor him but it is implied i suppose x]#trans body positivity
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This was a hit with the roomie so:
Me when I started playing FE3H:
(Tap to banish the blur, etc)
#fe3h#fe3h seteth#seteth#be3h byleth#byleth#fire emblem#k i think those are the basics#anyway i wasnt WRONG#i saw him and went 'hmmmm' (images of tiki crossfading in my brain)#then flayn showed up and i immediately went 'i know what you are'#sorry the last byleth isnt ALSO the model but i couldnt find a clear/close enough position shot#so i had to resort to his art rip#but i did my best to match the blue filter and the 3h dialogue text font so it evens out its fine#thats why seteth is smiling btw its some shot i found from hopes i think#edit: mistyped byleths tag whoops. thats supposed to be#fe3h byleth#no idea how that one happened
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(idk if anyone wants to keep hearing my opinions on totk book stuff but-)
apparently it says that rauru DID have kids, multiple even, which yeah... is kinda necessary for zelda to even be connected to them so much so that sonia can SENSE a blood connection (which, even with all the excuses with magic, is just a little too far for me to suspend my disbelief bc its over, OVER, ten thousand years worth of generations that seperate her from them that one lil touch of the hand can sense that (feels more like an attempt to make you care about them or .. see them as zeldas "better" parents just bc they exchange a few nice words, i never got the feeling they were 'better' parents and its also kinda disrespectful to her actual parents, like sure rhoam wasnt the best but i wouldnt call rauru better just bc he was polite)- i could see maybe the light power of hylia or sth but since its the coolest dude that ever lived rauru now that had it which still doesnt make sense and makes me unreasonably annoyed and she can sense BOTH of their powers in her? nah) the fact theres NOTHING about them in the game itself is just so ... no way they planned any of this
i dont think theres anything they can do or say that wont make be believe they either
are making it up alla 'fix it in post' mentality trying to hastily explain stuff the game never bothers to do to try and appease fans or let it appear as if they thought about it at all
something went really REALLY wrong during development, which kinda seems likely given how the game turned out (im sorry i cannot let go, its not just the writing, the game design too and how little was changed in the map while being so damn expensive, i dont know how people dont feel scammed q_q)
given that they (allegedly) spent the last entire year of development on polish (where??? where????? huh??? like it would make it more understandable (EXCEPT for the price) if there was alot of trouble, which was also bc it got delayed and ... turned out like this, but they dont want to say it, especially given their reputation, with that quote i have heard way too many times 'a delayed game blah blah') i just??
are they just gonna go and do it like they did with kashiwa (kass)? "they uuuh where flying around the whole time ony cool sonau tech maschines, you just dont see or hear from them ooooorrr they were uuuuh out of the country at the time" (sending invitations to other continents to join their glorious kingdom ;) )
(bet they are also gonna say they did all the stuff like ... moving the shrines around (lol?) and lifting the islands up into the sky- which is still weird bc ... didnt they also say they were living in the sky before coming to the surface?? so where?? did they park all their islands on the surface and the mystery kids had the keys so they had to repark them back into the sky after they returned off camera?? xD also why are the islands so different as an environment if they where from the surface? like even the STONE up there is different- and if they were first in the sky then on the surface and the nback in the sky .. why is there not a single yellow tree or grass in the past- you cant really argue that it changed bc they were up there so long bc .. nothing else changed, the suddendly and totally always there sonau buildings are largely in prime condition, only some slightly moldy, and what we see of the glorious past looks barely any different from the present, aside from like ... some standard trees shuffled, no castle yet and that glowy uwu filter DESPITE that stupidly long time frame between it)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#idk if others feel like that too but i cant shake the feeling there was something that either went horribly wrong during development-#-or the entire thing was neglected the whole time which is why its so .. i hesitate to even call it bare bones#...which is WILD given that its the supposed sequel to their best seeling zela game#like wtf where you doing#i get that the pressure can be immense but imo it wasnt that hard to make a sequel to thats better than totk#like i think it was harder to make totk like it is NOW bc it scraps and throws away so many things you could have easily used-#-as sequel material#its all so weird to me#my tin foil hat theory is still that they saw the success of the mario movie and immediately shifted everything to make more movies#bc it made so much money#and a movie is easier to make than a good game#so totk or botw2 at the time got the short end of the stick#which is why everything feels like .. so ... bare bones .. untested .. unfinished .. non sensical...#like an alpha build that got enough visual polish to look like a full game when its still an alpha build at its core#some main ideas like the abilities implemented and the basic map layers#mechanics functioning but untested on how it feels to play#like the sage controls and arrow fusing and ... contradictory game mechanics that dont work together#like the bulding WORKS but its clunky and underused- everything can be cheated so easily you dont even feel good cheating-#-bc it feels like the teacher just allowed you to mark your test with a green circle and you still got an A (or however USA grades work)#despite not even reading the questions- why attempt to solve a puzzle if you can just skip it#and how they tell you to be creative with it yet creativity gets punished and only efficiency is rewarded#which completely undermines the entire thing#...theres so much more you know i have ranted about it all before#ALSO rauru and sonia seemed like a rather newly wed couple to me- not one that had multiple kids that never appear-#since it only mentions rauru ..... if its only his then ... that doesnt explain anything bc zelda needs both sonia and rauru dna#................do sonau leave eggs to incubate somewhere heavenly or sth#watch out the springs where built to hatch rauru eggs bc they need the gods holy blessing bc they are oh so holy to hatch
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i had to draw eddies mustache while we still have it
#911 abc#buddie#eddie diaz#evan buckley#LMAO i had to say enoughhhh i just couldnt get buck to look like himself enough for me to be happy with it#he wasnt initially supposed to be there but since i used this refrence frame it felt needed to include him#this is the second time ive used the oil brush and i definitely want to keep using it and become better with it#bc even tho its a bit tricky its fun to use#i def want to practice depicting texture with it#anywayyyyy eddie diaz my beautiful princess ily
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please tell me things stop sucking so much when you're no longer a teenager
#Finally worked up the courage to tell my friends their running joke of treating me like shit for the lolz wasnt funny to me actually#And got treated like i was ruining their fun. Youre supposed to be my fucking friends hello!!!! How can you care about me this little#I dont have enough self hatred in me to excuse this anymore. I dont deserve to be treated like this and it fucking sucks#I hate teenagers#Ruby illness
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