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there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so it’s very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that they’re not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world it’s such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously it’s important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might not—“it’s hard! it’s scary! people will make fun of me! it’s useless because there’s too much evil!” are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesn’t get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love
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they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?
they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.
you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.
you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.
mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.
you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.
#writeblr#warm up#to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace#but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X'#and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!''#babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3#mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES#and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for#than have 1 kid NOT get help#but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here#bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness''#it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!''#& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness#but use it to defend THEIR actions#like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell?#you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse?#but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck?#your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross?#HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like#all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like.#anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol
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dakota 🤲 (and bobo)
#his personality is red (tm)#ive had dakota only for 5 episodes but if anything happens to him i will kill everyone in this room and then myself#jrwi prime defenders#dakota cole#i probably wont draw anything else for prime defenders but figured i should tag it anyway#my art#sketch
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Batman: The Bisexuality Within - The Telltale Series
#batjokes#batman x joker#bruce x john doe#bruce wayne#john doe#batman#dcu#telltale games#telltale batman#batman: the enemy within#harley quinn#alfred pennyworth#bisexual bruce wayne#my gifs#two gifs here are so frcking ugly because i didn't have the scene myself so i had to scavenge to internet#anyways they're so gay in this game#this game is so underrated#this game has the best version of joker and that's just facts#and ofc the straight bros tried to defend how straight this was and it was just a bRoMaNcE#and then telltale confirmed that john doe is bisexual lol
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HERE SHE IS ‼️ IN FULL GLORY
And oh LORD she's purple . Still debating what her actual post s2 design will be though </3
Click for quality + sketches beneath the cut vvv
Only real difference between the sketch + final is that I fixed her smile on the right ^^
Ashe Winters they could never make me hate you.
#there was a moment of debate I had with myself. “is this too purple?” obviously I decided it was not#jrwi#jrwi prime defenders#prime defenders#jrwi pd#my art :0!!#ashe winters art#jrwi ashe winters#ashe winters#ashe winters pd#jrwi pd fanart#my girl <3#Ashe Winters you are everything. to me#just roll with it pd#just roll with it prime defenders#just roll with it#just roll with it fanart
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Leigh Whannell on Recovery (1999)
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me when I fckn GET u
#leigh whannell#this is his Lewk ever. to me#had to preserve it in gif form for posterities sake#these gifs come from the bit where he's defending his star wars knowledge lmao#we had a bit of ~controversy~ last week :o#the switchboard was flooded w/calls about MEEEEEEEEE#need him carnally#also. gender#perceiving him like wow. I look exactly like this. I don't of course. but I do#also. used an absolute metric FUCKTON of noise on these jfsdhjhfdsj#but the quality is already v low. so I'm givin myself. one iota of grace 4 that#mine
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bunch of random jrwi sketches :3
reminder my commissions are open :D
#yayayay yippee i love drawing in pen its so funnn#my post#my art#jrwi riptide#just roll with it show#jrwi pd#prime defenders#jrwi ts#the suckening#gillion tidestrider#chip jrwi#lizzie lafayette#dakota cole#vex weylin#viv weylin#fanart#anyways. i/me/myself is such a gillion song. have a whole animatic in my head about it. final chorus is his final sin monologue#also i thought itd be fun if vex n viv had fancy outfits for the cullen games :3 i dont remember what they were wearing but i wanted to mak#fun designs lol
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The tragedy that is Adar mourning each of his fallen children, crying tears grief and sorrow, giving them a farewell when nobody else did, whereas he himself died without being given any of that – neither by his children, nor by other characters, nor the narrative/the show itself.
He stood by them when nobody else did, only for nobody to stand by *him* when he needed it most.
Oof.
#i have made myself cry again brb sobbing#he died alone (in terms of support) in the middle of the uruk he so trusted and defended who had just turned into enemies#i guess part of it is it just feels so terribly *unfair*#i am not over that and i think i won’t be (for some time at least)#this is hugh (star trek picard) all over again (though hugh at least had elnor by his side)#adar#adar trop#adar the rings of power#trop#spoilers#trop spoilers#the rings of power spoilers#character death#rambling#textpost#mine
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here's my entirely too disjointed tbr list for 2025, i barely know what i'm doing. not pictured here but definitely present in my heart are alecto the ninth and the second sunshine court book which are not published yet but will force me to drop whatever else I'm doing at the time to read them.
special thanks to @ash-and-starlight for tagging me and uncovering this mess
tagging @gatoraid @thestoriesthatweweave @kazhan @luckylocus and whoever else is feeling it
#marilia for ts#murtagh sticks out in there like a sore thumb i know. but i am a child and dragon good sword good zoom zoom in the sky#all i read is fanfiction and political theory and i had to dig deep to remember that i wanted to read some of these#giovanni's room and the priory are staring at me like we've been here for so long pick us up you coward#aaaanyway I'll stop awkwardly defending myself byeeee
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i'm going to scream i got accused of being a transmisogynist by someone on twitter because of this specific part of my t4t steddie art
#ramble#the thing is 99.9% of people thought it was VERY funny#i've had 1 person genuinely have a problem with it and it was because i kept eddie transmasc#basically they were upset because i didn't make them both transfemme bc i just. didn't want to#twitter hasn't learned that not everything is for you and if you don't like something you don't have to interact with it#and just because you don't like something that doesn't mean it's Bad#and also sometimes queer things aren't made to be understood by everyone#it was specifically because they thought it made them into 'just another straight couple'#as if that isn't a MASSIVE erasure of trans people's queerness#trans people in m/f relationships doesn't make them any less queer or somehow inferior to gay relationships#it boiled down to 'but you could've made them lesbians :((' YEAH BUT I DIDN'T#idk it was just absolutely infuriating trying to defend myself without saying 'idk what the fuck you want from me at this point'#anyway transfemme stevie is very big on twt but i didn't know whether to post it here or not#but i might if people want to see it because i love it a lot#twitter would die if they saw the olden days when we called them genderbends and there wasn't any trans content at all
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Learning how to read mandarin, and oh y’all think I’m insufferable now? Lol
#i couldn’t fully defend orion’s translation before#but now that i can read that shit for myself?#those jc stans are full of shit#and are fully relying on folks ignorance of the language to spread lies#would NOT surprise me if they had been lying about knowing the language#jin ling absolutely says that jc had ‘never hit him LIKE THAT before’#and the only way you could miss the ‘like that’ part is if you were ignoring characters in the raw#but don’t worry; i got something for them
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"I just feel if you're going to do a non-conformative statement it should have meaning behind it."
God forbid I am whimsical and silly for the sake of having fun
#Actual conversation i just had#I had to defend myself against the case of “people will make fun of you behind your back”#yeah... i know.... already do... dont really care though... haters are gonna hate but theyre doing it to boost their own superficial ego so
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my kink is karma ;)
inspired by @chiyana’s post here!! in which tim gets a lovely vacation and everyone else on earth is scarred for life.
whether it’s worse for his family or his villains remains a mystery!
#fanart#cw suggestive#it’s great anatomy practice#that’s how I defend myself#dc comics#red robin#tim drake#batfam#timkon in the corner#and ofc#chappell roan#I had such a vivid vision
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I can't believe Mike friend zoned Will and then Will immediately friend zoned him back and Mike got all sad and quiet and retreated back "In the Closet (at Rink o Mania)"
(yes, that moment is the exact line the song starts playing, you can check)
vs when he realizes Will already thought so
#also why does be look like he's wearing white under eyeliner#or like thos fake drawn on bottom lashes#i can't unsee it help#byler fight#music#stranger things#byler#he looks so deflated it's so sad#like oh#i only had to defend that point...to myself#no it's cool i get it#i just thought- maybe you thought we were mor-#no sorry it's stupid#that was stupid sorry let's just go i don't wanna talk anymore#you never suspected a thing and that's good but you didn't even want to#subtext#for the tagsss
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i am cringe but i am free
#i feel an indescribable urge to defend myself but you know what. fuck it. this is the best spaghetti ive had in a while#also i just realised that im literally like alphys in that one tweet#dinner with the girlfriend! or something and its just a pic of Kissy Cutie next to a bowl of instant noodles#papyrus#itastraea
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No matter how much or little you care about the 'none of your choices (that aren't directly related to Solas) matter' bullshit...
The fact remains that they tried to keep it under wraps until release because they knew it was not going to go over well. So Epler being all 'weeelll it's Tevinter so it doesn't matter who the Divine is or who rules Orlais or what happened during the 5th Blight' is just exactly what it sounds like: a bullshit excuse. If they really stood behind this decision they would have been upfront about it and not only addressed it after it got leaked.
Honestly, BioWare's downfall is just incredibly sad to witness.
#and don't even fucking start with the 'you're not a real fan' crap#I've played BioWare games since I was 12#which is 25 years#longer than some people defending this nonsense have been alive#all that remains of the studio I believed in are the name and a handful of people who have all apparently sold their principles#and the worst part is that I'll still check the game out to see for myself#not paying for it though#Dragon Age#BioWare#DA:TV#DA4#eta: and yes I'm well aware this is most likely due to the fact that they had to scrape the game in its current state together in ~2-3 year#but that only explains so much about some of the decisions made
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