#but i had a LOT of horrible teachers
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Note
Womp womp womp first of all im not damning snape because im a marauders fan im damning severus snape because he was nevilleās greatest fear.
Nevilleās greatest fear was Snape because he was a strict, intimidating teacherānot because Snape was out there committing war crimes. Are we pretending boggarts are objective measures of morality now? By your logic, McGonagall, who was Hermione's boggart and frequently reprimanded and also scared Neville should be equally condemned. But I guess she gets a pass because sheās ācool.ā Neville was terrified of failingāSnape symbolized that, but it wasnāt personal. Youāre projecting way too much malice here.
He wasnāt just being mean to Neville because of his incompetence. There was clear joy and glee that was expressed in the books and the movies, and even if there wasnāt, emotionally torturing a child to the point of breakdowns purely because theyāre bad at a subject is not okay??
Show me one canon passage where Snape āgleefullyā torments Neville. One. Youāre mistaking harshness for sadistic joy because it fits your narrative. Snape was strict, biased, and unfair, but delighting in suffering? Thatās a fanfiction headcanon, not canon. He bullied Neville because of his incompetence, yes, and because Snapeās survival depended on competence in a literal war against Voldemort. He couldnāt afford to coddle studentsānot that it excuses his behavior, but letās stick to facts, not exaggerated interpretations.
Also your little explanation about james potter and ātraumaā makes absolutely no damn sense. It still doesnāt excuse the fact that he was deliberately targeting harry for something that wasnāt his fault.
You missed the point entirely. No one is excusing Snapeās treatment of Harry. Itās called explaining it. Snape knows Harry isnāt at faultāthatās what makes his behavior tragic and compelling. Heās aware of how irrational it is, which deepens his character rather than reducing him to a cartoon villain. Thatās the whole point of morally gray writingāyouāre supposed to wrestle with these contradictions.
His special treatment was a result of something traumatic that happened to him as a baby and destroyed his childhood. Itās not like he got it by doing something terrible.
Snape didnāt hate Harry for being famousāhe hated him because he was James Potterās living reminder, a painful mix of Jamesā face and Lilyās eyes. Heās not ājealousā of Harryās privilege; heās bitter about Harry embodying the person he loved and the person who destroyed his life. Itās irrational, unfair, and deeply human. This isnāt a cartoon where every action needs to be justifiableāSnape is complex because he acts on emotions he knows are wrong but canāt suppress.
And I never said he fit into a āhero/villainā box and I donāt want him to! Compelling characters are interesting but that doesnāt mean I worship him!
Great, we agree! Snape isnāt meant to be worshippedāheās meant to be understood. But your original argument framed him as irredeemable because of his flaws, which is reductive. Recognizing Snapeās complexities doesnāt mean excusing his faultsāit means acknowledging that his heroism and cruelty coexist. You seem to be struggling with that nuance.
I literally acknowledged that he helped out the Order, but I also pointed out that just because he has some good in him doesnāt mean Iām legally required to love him and excuse every wrong heās ever done.
No one said you have to love him. Youāre allowed to dislike Snape. What you canāt do is pretend that your dislike makes his actions irrelevant or his arc shallow. You can hate him all you want, but dismissing his redemption because of his flaws shows a lack of literary understanding.
You can disagree with my take but it is not reductive to say I dislike a character because he bullies children.
It is reductive because Snape isnāt just āthe guy who bullies kids.ā Heās a deeply flawed, morally complex character whose entire arc revolves around guilt, redemption, and sacrifice. Reducing him to āmean teacher badā is exactly the shallow take Iām calling out.
Itās explicitly correct and canon that he bullies children and itās perfectly valid for me to not care about the reason why.
Sure, itās valid if youāre discussing personal taste. But if youāre going to argue literary merit, context always matters. Otherwise, youāre just shouting āheās bad!ā without engaging with why heās written that way. Fiction isnāt about liking charactersāitās about understanding them.
Snape defenders when somebody dislikes a fictional character for valid reasons: š¹š¹š¹
Valid reasons would require acknowledging the characterās full complexity, not reducing him to a caricature. Youāre the one ignoring context while expecting no pushbackāif you canāt handle debate, donāt start one.
Iām not even saying you CANT like him. Where did I say that other people canāt like him?
This partās fairāyou didnāt. But you also framed your argument like anyone who finds Snape compelling is a deluded fanboy/girl. If youāre going to criticize a character, be prepared for counterarguments without crying foul when people engage with your points.
I just KNOW ur unemployed or stinky or both.
Oh, sweetie. Resorting to playground-level insults only makes it clearer that you ran out of actual arguments. Next time, try debating the points instead of throwing out tired, irrelevant jabs. Better luck next time.
Saw your post about Regulus, what are your thoughts on Snape? /gen
soooo i know this is gonna get people doxxing me and finding my ip address but i DO NOT like snape.
there is absolutely no excuse to bully children. whenever i think of poor neville i just canāt like snape. i donāt give a FUCK that he was bullied as a child. i was bullied heavily as a child and you donāt see me emotionally torturing children for fun. the fact that he explicitly targets harry because of what his DEAD DAD did MULTIPLE YEARS AGO is absolutely insane. the fact that james is dead and died before harry even knew him and yet snape resents him? thatās absolutely insane behavior.
and donāt even get me started on how he treats hermione! girlie is just trying to get good grades and he treats her like sheās some roach! i wouldnāt be surprised if it was partly because of her blood status, considering that heās called lily (one of his closest friends) a mudblood.
did he help things with the war and to an extent keep harry safe at times? yes. but do i LIKE him? hell to the no.
i feel like snape defenders just want a dark brooding āi can fix himā archetype of a character or a sad wet meow meow boy whoās meek and bullied, which i guess is whatever but it makes me so angry when people are like āyou canāt like the marauders, they were bullies!ā based on one or two flashback incidents FROM SNAPES PERSPECTIVE (could be twisted or misunderstood), when snape was a million times worse of a bully because he was a full grown adult objectively targeting eleven through sixteen year olds for his own pleasure. likeā¦numerous witnesses, no way to deny that thatās what heās doing.
#severus snape#severus snape defense#severus snape fandom#snapedom#i've never been a bully#and i've never suffered bully#but i had a LOT of horrible teachers#a LOT#far way worst tan Snape#Snape was a fcking kitty if you compare him with my teachers lol#but what i do is working with people with several live long traumas#and well maybe snaters had an empathy problem
36 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed
#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself#and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change#it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly#so there was somewhat of a gradual progression#but still#also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time#i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i#had been socially involved#anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change#and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find#the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever#and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha#(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls š)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically#it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni#ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that#but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped#and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr#i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years#and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it#and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing#kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao#i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school#and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build#--ing towards#which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now
34 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
.
#I cant sleep because I'm having horrible reflux#Everyone and their mother decided to do something special cause it was Friday today#One of the moms brought in 2doz donuts this morning#the kids got pizza for lunch (which meant teachers got pizza too)#AND our director got extremely fancy cookies for everyone from a specialty bakery (crumble cookies)#So I had a lot of gluten today#And my tummy doesn't like gluten
11 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Sometimes it seems like the anti fandoms are more toxic than the actual fandom that the anti fandom people hate on, it's actually really sad.
MLP fans will know what I'm talking about
#I saw a post saying that they wish Taylor Swift's private jet would crash since that'd be upsetting towards her fans and people were saying#it's cause mass suicides which would be a good thing since Swifties are toxic#look. you can dislike a group of people/a fandom due to their behavior but that does NOT make it okay to say they should kill themselves.#I've seen lots of nasty posts about furries too#saying that people should kill furries like you would a deer (hunting) and saying that they should all die#just because you find something ācringeā doesn't mean it's okay to wish death upon people#someone pointed out that oftentimes hate towards furries (and other groups) is partially rooted in ableism (mostly towards autism) and LGBT#LGBTQ hate#since furries are oftentimes associated with those two groups#people hate on furries due to their hate on those other groups#there's really a lot of small forms of hate which cause even worse forms of hate#you can find something ācringeā but that does NOT make it okay to wish death towards people. especially those in groups oftentimes victims#victims of oppression#autistic lesbian here and I've heard many stories about autistic people being killed by their parents or caretakers#and sometimes I'm genuinely scared for my life#I loooooove my parents they really take good care of me but I've dealt with some absolutely horrible teachers#ramble over. I just had to get this off of my chest#I've been seeing a lot of negativity lately
17 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
i think i would feel like this was a great year if it hadn't had a loss at the end. tbh.
#i'm mostly glad i got to rest and be at home this year#i've been at home this year a lot#god imagine this had happened when i was in school#the teacher from my area had said this horrible thing#that he'd allow absences from family members dying but not animals because#''you can just go buy another one'' and i thought of that a lot the first days#omfg what an insufferable dick he was. anyway
3 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
i think brain wizard just likes to hear him talk. it's not like hes gonna be talking much after they do what they want to do to him :) half spaders teachers want to turn him into a god i think hes gonna pick up on it cuz i dont think they can act normal around him
#yes i went and checked they have transfiguration fourth period#idk what the fuck he has written on the blackboard#give me the stupid little school drama we deserve. (i realize spader was in school for One Day before kicking the bucket)#bw was in that episode for like 0.5 minutes and died also but i think hes funny and horrible so i think about him a lot#didnt look at a reference for him btu i did look up what period they had his class. priorities#he doesnt show up during their class sequence so idk. i wouldnt have seen him.#probably just sitting in the back going ah. <3 two spaders.#ANYWAYS#adventure time#distant lands#digital#spader#blaine#brain wizard#and a bunhc of other students. larrys there. roots guy.#peps even there#not cadebra because she Skips Class. maybe spader should skip with her.#different teachers show it in different ways. bufo doesnt show it Atall but he does write Love; Spader in the fake runaway note#like. 'i totatlllyyyy know my student. he uh. uh. well he totally likes me and my class a lot. so.'#i have got to stop talking.#'i dont think they can act normal around him' i saw him and potable wizard talking. EYYY SPADER MY BEST FRIEND SPADERRRR cmon.
13 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Thereās something rlly rlly special about being a teacher with adhd and rlly understanding the struggles of your students with adhd and being able to work with them instead of against them and accommodate their needs without a ton of strife. And then having conferences with their parents where you brag on their child and hype them up for all the amazing things they do? When theyāve never gotten that before? The best.
These kids arenāt problems. Theyāre literally precious babies. I too was distracted and talkative and look at me now. Iām distracted and talkative at schools every day except they pay me for it.
#idk Iām passionate about it#I just have a lot of feelings#one of my kiddos had a horrible year in kindergarten last year#and heās loving first grade#bc like. no. I donāt expect you to sit down and hush and not move#I know you. ik that aināt happening.#and one of my other kiddos told her momma she wants to be a teacher šššš#idk#just a DAY#just my ramblings#teacher sadie
3 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Calling out that renaming the already iconic app you bought to something that sounds like an already existing porn site as another example of why the name "X" is very stupid from a business standpoint (cuz it would be more likely to put off advertisers) in a classroom full of other teenagers was probably not my brightest idea this week.
#momento rambles#ugghhh that laugh that followed tho š what have i done#like why did you think i was talking something else when the topic was specifically elon musk and his horrible naming skills???#like was that not common knowledge or did everyone just forget that that was a glaring issue a lot of people had with that name#i'm pretty sure most of them were just laughing cuz it sounded random (or at least i hope so) but that was still embarrassing as fuck#not my teacher saying now he'll only think of musk when looking at me now like please no anyone but that man š#i mean he understood what i meant but still please don't
3 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
like a teacher liferally claimed lampstie. you know them. at age 9. like 4th grade. shoved the teacher to the ground in the busline and stomped on their head repeatedly while laughing. 1. no witnesses. in the bus line at pickup time. 2. the teacher was uninjured 3. they were 9 years old ? and not s super villain?
#what had actually happened iirc bc this was a while ago was the teacher who Treated lamp horribly all the time#<- yelling at them grabbing them judt being awful#was yelling and grabbing them in the busline and lamp had a meltdown bc theyre autistic Like evrybody else in this house MY MOM GOT DXED.#ITS JUST ME AND MY DAD NOW UNDXRD BC NEITHER HAS BEEN TEXTED ITS SO BAD FOR ME. anyways#but lamp had meltdown and at best pushed the teacher and rhe teacher mighrve slipped idrc#but they didnt jump up and down on their head while laughing and fucking sneering bc they were A child. GOD it pisses me awf#the worst part id i feel guilty bc so much of my childhood i viewrd lamp as like#Difficult and The bad sibling and i was The good one and shit bc rhats what i was told but now km older looking back like#lamp was literally just a kid snd everybody was openly talking abt how they were the bad one#idk. ive discussed it with lamp but i still feel so guilty abt it#we were close but def not as close as we are now and we had lots of bumps. idk it judt makes me sad i was so mean as a kid#like rhey tell me stories and ider them bc i. the memory loss girl. and i feel so guilty even when like..yk gesture. it wasnte#me. but it like. idk. i just feel guilty and awful abt it#bc were So insanely similar i just like#idk. i just mask more and lamp doesnt but its crazy bc like#lamp was so normal as a kid. like Autistic but they were judt a kid and i like#think abt things that happened and it makes me want to scream#like them being dxed with odd b4 even being considered for autism makes me so fucking mad esp bc like. ik lamps Not at all the only kid to#get that dumbfuck dx. and lamps an outlier even bc ik black kids r so much more likely to receive it. it just makes me so upset#idk ik this is like Wow connor great point but god theyre all just kids. yk. and obv theres a ton more stuff going on for black kids who r#dxed with odd . it just makes me so mad
2 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
the poll on hated subjects in school made me remember the single most unhinged class i ever had, which was my last politics lesson in 10th grade. everyone (first and foremost our teacher) was screaming and insulting each other. people were crying and some just deadass left out of protest in the middle of it. it was absolutely surreal.
#lily talks#it's been a while but iirc the whole thing happened bc of a discussion about israel#which in light of recent events feels incredibly ironic#i do not say this lightly but the woman teaching the class had ISSUES#certainly on a personal level#but also it was actually harrowing to witness this person using her postion (teaching politics and ethics) for no other reason than to forc#her own political believes onto as many kids as possible#and if anyone dared to disagree (which of course little me did first thing when she took over the class in 8th grade) she not only gave us#bad grades for the entire 3 years we had her class (of coruse with no good reasoning even just to pretend)#but also dubbed all of them nazis or sexist or any other wildly problematic thing you could imagine#even if and in most cases especially when it had absolutely nothing to do with the topic at hand#naturally everyone present quickly developed a rather sarcastic and grim sense of humor when dealing with this person#like 'what crime will i be accused of this week? find out after the break'#my personal highlight still was the time i was supposed to describe a very low-res black and white picture with a woman and#a lot of boxes full of fresh produce#which i phrased as such but then made the mistake of adding that i (due to the quality) could not make out where this was taken#which was my teachers cue to spend the next 5 minutes reprimanding me bc apparently 'THIS WOMAN HAS HER OWN STORE!' (good for her)#and by not mentioning that i was being misogynistic#so there. now you know it. i am a horrible person who uses the medium of overhead transparencies to spread misogyny.#anyway-#the truly entertaining thing was the guy who had to do the same with the next picture which was some dude selling kebab#for some reason the teacher liked him even though he constantly made fun of her#i don't know if she just didn't get it?#so he came up with the fanciest most over the top proper officialese for saying 'kebab guy'#naturally she sang the highest praises#moral of the story: when in doubt call the kebab vendor of your trust 'Fachkraft fĆ¼r Rollfleisch-Management'
3 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
the male drews are so tiktok thirst trap icky stop this madnessā¦.
not the girls tho yāall stay safe out there āš„°
#roommates with benefits#choices#also i cannot believe the audacity of this book title LMAO what happened to being classy šš#i know they had some questionable romance book but this title is straight out of wattpad ššš#iāve only read the first two chapters and well š itās something thatās for sure#but f!drew is hot! so who am i to complain ā#and thereās a new mc sprite as well thatās actually drop dead gorgeous#but sheās missing that goofy choices mc look a little#pretty but at the cost of losing that quirky choices mc spirit š#which is a good thing but also a bad thing bc you knowww every mc is quirky-coded in choices but in rwb she doesnāt quite fit anymore#and maybe i miss it but also not rlly bc sheās so pretty iām falling in love with my own mc like#hope this makes sense#she just does not have that goofy open heart mc shocked face or the funny bloodbound mc grin š#not complaining tho i love her š„°#in terms of the book tho itās like bad but in a i-am-12-again-reading-terrible-books-on-wattpad-that-i-cannot-stop-reading#peak of fiction personally so bad so horrible so cringey that i just eat right up!#this is a lot of thoughts in the tags but i have so many thoughts i keep going#okay last thing i hope they donāt make mc get so influenced that sheās flunking classes and stuff šš#ik itās the goody teachers pet x rebellious sex god trope but please šš have SOME class#playchoices
5 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Replying to tags but then I ran out of room and I think i was if not cooking then at least microwaving
#dude when I was in 6th grade I read #the veldt #and at the time it disgusted and genuinely scared me because I was #just so surprised that people - children! - could be raised to be so heartless #idk if I read it for the first time as a 23 year old it would scare me so much #but goddamn
#I think we're both people who are *at least* good at literacy but we're both a little too STEMmy #to look at it the way some English teachers want us to? #like they want people to go from 'damn that's fucked up ā what themes are the authors trying to explore here ā what about the world #made them think of that and perhaps what are they trying to get us to consider and think about and perhaps change' #obviously not all writing is a fable with a moral at the end #but a lot of good writing has some sort of central belief that it wants the reader to consider
#(I struggle in creating that with my fiction ugh and I think a lot of booktok books do too and it bugs me that we have that connection)
#but anyway #I think you and I'd first reactions are like #āthat's horrible ā how can we prevent that specific problem from occurring again' #like take the lottery. my (and maybe your?) first reaction is like 'that's horrible ā they should ban the lottery' #but the English teacher is going to want us to think 'oh gee okay so this is a commentary on traditions. why would this tradition be started #/necessary? does the lottery reflect the overall morals and sensibilities of the overall society (aka fond of the death penalty etc). #what sort of tradition might this mirror today? connecting to historical events and the fact that the person stoned and the author were #women. aka the gender commonly stoned for witchcraft in New England #do you think that's related?' etc etc etc wrapped in metaphors and shit. and tbh that's how I learned a lot of my religious and political #philosophy as well as history. I really like Thomas swift's 'a modest proposal' (satire) for that reason.
but that was NOT my initial #thought process for English class. I had to be heavily trained into thinking that way and often my first instinct is to not engage with the #metaphor an just go straight to the logic/sensible answer. blah blah blah. I really respect lit and history teachers as a profession but boy #do I not want to teach it because I would be so slack on writing the kinds of questions that would get the kids to engage with the meta. #once I got a piece I got it but it was a struggle every damn time. because I had to get over my feelings of well why didn't they just not #do that'
the biggest one I can think of is 'song of Solomon' by Toni Morrison. I think my senior AP English teacher wanted us to really #consider authors and characters of color (he was white but it was 2018-2019 aka Trump era) so he taught us othello and TM. othello is a #little easier to understand because iago is just being a little bitch about a Black foreigner getting a promotion and a hot wife and no longer being able to convince himself that he was better than Othello
But TMās main character Milkman? Unlikeable, spoiled little shit who doesnāt give a damn that heās the 1 percent of his marginalized community and heās frittering his privileges away so hard that it literally induces suicidal and murderous tendencies into the people around him. Among other things.
It took me foreverrrrrr to engage with the text beyond GOD I HATE THIS GUY but once I was able to examine his psychology and the mean flip side of āif you want to fly, you have to get rid of earthly attachmentsā, which he does at the end of the story.
Was it a chore? Absolutely. But have I ever forgotten the story or the literary tools it gave me? No.
Maybe Iām just speaking for myself in this longass response - you and I usually talk animals and men not books š
- but yeah every English class is full of these annoying stories that are meant to rattle oneās brain and I REALLY avoid rattling lmao. Tbqh again I respect lot classes but Iām glad theyāre over lmao
But anyways I listened to Levar Burtonās podcast āLevar Burton Readsā from start to finish, and he once read (as a three parter) Toni Morrisonās Recitatif. Itās the story of two girls, one Black one white, who grew up around and with and against each other during the mid 1900s.
I didnāt know what the story was getting at, aside from the surface ideas of the American Civil Rights Movement and privilege and stuff. But LB usually asked questions or briefly mentioned the authorās main idea at the end. And when he did? HOLY FUCK.
If you ever decide to listen to it (Iāve never gotten my hands to a print copy so idk if they usually have some sort of authorās note at the end to ask the reader this question)(I love LBās voice heās a pleasure to listen to if you listen to Recitatif) please @ me and tell me if it also blew your mind and made you consider how you viewed the POV character of the story.
Because it blew my mind and made me really consider why I assumed things about the pov character. Im not going to say anything further because I feel like Iām spoiling the point but yeah.
Anyways again this could be just me but Iāve always had trouble moving on from the straight solution mindset. When I was 12 I was in a model UN and I was told to write a report about Togo and its healthcare issues. I took this to mean that I had to research the common issues there (such as unclean water and mosquito bite diseases) and then come up with solutions.
It was incredibly embarrassing to do all that and then hear every other group explain their countries healthcare issues and WHY (historically, monetarily, etc) their countries struggled with such things. And my ass went up there and talked about affordable mosquito deterrent changes to water sources and cheap water cleaning services.
I didnāt realize it then but like. It perfectly exemplified my lack of instinct to subtextually interact with instructions and prompts.
And the thing is. May the universe bless and boost the fucking lit teachers out there because my poor students are entering math class with lit skills 6 grades under where they should be and are genuinely unable to interact with straightforward STEM instructions. My college had every ed major take a āteaching literacyā class and sure I passed but the thing is. Iām not really the person thatās supposed to catch these kids on that subject. Iām supposed to be a secondary math teacher. So a lot of the advice in that class simply wasnāt applicable and I wish it was!!! Iād be happy to help in that subject but also I WAS TRAINED TO BE A MATH TEACHER. AND MOST LITERACY AND LANGUAGE DIFFICULTY COURSES ARE NOT DESIGNED WITH STEM IN MIND. (Which is why I want to learn enough Spanish that I can teach kids learning English math as well because thatās an area that doesnāt get a lot of crossover and a lot of kids fall through).
Well this turned into a ramble goodnight lmao. Iād say this was a decently microwaved thought track lol
#dude when I was in 6th grade I read#the veldt#and at the time it disgusted and genuinely scared me because I was#just so surprised that people - children! - could be raised to be so heartless#idk if I read it for the first time as a 23 year old it would scare me so much#but goddamn#I think weāre both people who are *at least* good at literacy but weāre both a little too STEMmy#to look at it the way some English teachers want us to?#like they want people to go from ādamn thatās fucked up -> what themes are the authors trying to explore here -> what about the world#made them think of that and perhaps what are they trying to get us to consider and think about and perhaps changeā#obviously not all writing is a fable with a moral at the end#but a lot of good writing has some sort of central belief that it wants the reader to consider#*I struggle in creating that with my fiction ugh and I think a lot of booktok books do too and it bugs me that we have that connection*#but anyway#I think you and Iād first reactions are like#āthatās horrible -> how can we prevent that specific problem from occurring againā#like take the lottery. my (and maybe your?) first reaction is like āthatās horrible -> they should ban the lotteryā#but the English teacher is going to want us to think āoh gee okay so this is a commentary on traditions. why would this tradition be starte#/necessary? does the lottery reflect the overall morals and sensibilities of the overall society (aka fond of the death penalty etc).#what sort of tradition might this mirror today? connecting to historical events and the fact that the person stoned and the author were#women. aka the gender commonly stoned for witchcraft in New England#do you think thatās related?ā etc etc etc wrapped in metaphors and shit. and tbh thatās how I learned a lot of my religious and political#philosophy as well as history. I really like Thomas swiftās āa modest proposalā (satire) for that reason. but that was NOT my initial#thought process for English class. I had to be heavily trained into thinking that way and often my first instinct is to not engage with the#metaphor an just go straight to the logic/sensible answer. blah blah blah. I really respect lit and history teachers as a profession but bo#do I not want to teach it because I would be so slack on writing tbe kinds of questions that would get the kids to engage with the meta.#once I got a piece I got it but it was a struggle every damn time. because I had to get over my feelings of āwell why didnāt they just not#do thatā. the biggest one I can think of is āsong of Solomonā by Toni Morrison. I think my senior AP English teacher wanted us to really#consider authors and characters of color (he was white but it was 2018-2019 aka Trump era) so he taught us othello and TM. othello is a#little easier to understand because iago is just being a little bitch about a Black foreigner getting a promotion and a hot wife and no
77K notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
a lot of you were never forced by your older sisters to watch movies where neurodivergent coded kids act up and being told how they make everything worse so you could āsee yourself in themā as a form of punishment for being a normal child that was probably undiagnosed with a LOT of stuff in a family with a bunch of inherited mental issues and it shows
#rambling shiz#ranting#undiagnosed neurodivergent#not sure what to really tag this as?#like..#childhood stories#childhood experiences#did it count as a form of abuse???#gaslighting???#manipulation???#because my family always wanted me to be normal and perfect with no problems whatsoever#the first movie I was ever forced to watch was Ramona and Beezus#I was 6#the ābad behaviorā that my family always pointed out were my meltdowns and hyperactivity as a kid#I still managed to convince myself that I was never and will never be perfect enough for my family though#it was so isolating especially when all my teachers and peers thought the same thing#š I hope a lot of my teachers have had terrible lives since then#call me selfish or horrible but.. damn
1 note
Ā·
View note
Text
it's actually really weird to me that a lot of adults don't seem to remember the worst bits of being a child. were you not horribly aware of when adults were talking down to you as a child? don't you remember how little autonomy you were allowed, even when it came to things that seemed pretty harmless? don't you remember the times when adults would seemingly be assholes to you for no reason? even if you had nice and reasonable parents, didn't you ever have teachers or other adults in power who treated you disrespectfully? didn't it sting no matter how people justified it?
especially when I was a teenager, it seemed obvious to me & to most of my peers when an adult wasn't treating us with respect. you could almost smell it, in certain classrooms. there would be this palpable, shifting undercurrent of teenage dissatisfaction whenever some teachers started talking. and it made a lot of the kids act out! which of course made the teachers try to exert their power, which never worked because nobody respected them, which made them get more draconian, etc.
as a teen, I didn't really get why my peers and I seemingly had a superhuman sense for when an adult was on a power trip. but now I think I get it. kids are systematically denied autonomy, respect, and consistently have the validity of their experiences denied. like, flat-out. they're a vulnerable class of people made even more vulnerable by their lack of societal rights. being disrespected as a kid is so frequent that I would say it's a defining experience for most children. is it any wonder they tend to pick up on when an adult doesn't see them as worth listening to?
so yeah, of course a ton of kids want to be treated "like an adult." to them, that's synonymous with being treated like a human being worth listening to. it's up to you, as an adult, to understand that wish for what it is, and behave accordingly. you don't gotta be a child psychologist. you don't gotta be perfect at it. all you have to do is remember how painful adult disrespect could be when you were a kid & do your best to act with some compassion.
#tbh. as a kid i was mystified by how adults seemed to forget how much they probably hated being treated certain ways at that age#now that im an adult im fairly certain that a lot of them do remember and just wanna punch down!
25K notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
SV fic where Luo Bingge discovers that Shen Jiu had a long-lost half-brother or something, and subsequently decides that he's going to infiltrate the minor sect which this "Shen Yuan" belongs to in order to get close to him and then indulge in revenge fantasy 2.0 when it inevitably turns out that Shen Yuan is like Shen Jiu (i.e. a horrible abusive scum teacher).
So Bingge uses some magical object or technique or other, makes himself look like a scrawny 12-14 year old, then puts himself in Shen Yuan's path in hopes of convincing the man to take him on as a disciple. The idea being that after Shen Yuan abuses him, Bingge will be justified in reenacting his Shen Qingqiu Revenge Arc again and maybe finally feeling some closure about the whole thing.
Yes, this is a very deranged plan. No, no one is going to tell the emperor of the three realms that. Bingge also wants it to be clear that this has nothing whatsoever to do with his recent escapade in an alternate universe, except that he was inspired to find Shen Jiu's relative as a consequence of that. But he's absolutely sure that this guy is going to turn out just as rotten as his brother, given the opportunity. That is definitely the only reason he is doing this!
Flash forward about four years. Bingge's retainers are begging on their knees for him to actually come back and do some administrative work. The harem is running itself at this point and they're all very terrified of the situation with Liu Mingyan and Sha Hualing (i.e. ruling with lesbian iron fists) and whatever the heck Ning Yingying is up to (no one is certain but it's something). The outer provinces are rebelling. Mobei Jun's somehow found another weird human surnamed Shang to cavort with, except this one is basically running admin for the entire northern kingdom now and no one's even sure if they're fucking or if it's some kind of mind control situation or what.
Bingge is annoyed. He doesn't have a good explanation for why a bunch of demon lords would be showing up on the doorstep of Tiny Cultivation Sect to beg him for anything. They're going to spoil his cover! And they're interrupting his schedule! It's already four o'clock and he hasn't started on Shizun's dinner yet! Shoo! Get lost!
Anyway, eventually some of his demon followers get desperate and dramatically kidnap him. Shen Yuan is horrified and grieved when it seems that his precious disciple, so like white lotus Luo Binghe from the novel, has been captured by demons. He tries to track the assailants down, but they've covered their tracks too well. In the end, there's only one path left to him to pursue: taking this matter to the protagonist!
Yes, the protagonist! Because the thing is, Shen Yuan noticed the similarities between his disciple and the book character he so admired. Not only that, but he did manage to glimpse Bingge one time from afar. It wasn't anywhere near to a real interaction, but it was enough for him to notice the strong resemblance between the protagonist and the mistreated little lamb who showed up at his doorstep. A resemblance for which there can only be one explanation:
Shen Yuan's disciple is one of Binghe's kids!
Yes, he had it figured out since fairly early on. Not only was there a resemblance, and not only were their dispositions quite similar, but also the boy showed a lot of signs of some demonic heritage. Shen Yuan was just working up to broaching the subject, partly because he had been trying to avoid any direct or even indirect interactions with the emperor, and partly because he... became somewhat reluctant to part ways with his student. Sue him! He got attached! And anyway, he knew how missing child plots usually went. There was probably someone in the harem who was out for his disciple's blood, and it wouldn't be safe to send him back into that mess until he was strong enough to look after himself.
But as is inevitable, the plot seems to have reclaimed Shen Yuan's student all on its own.
He just... needs to make sure that it isn't a tragic outcome. It seems it falls on him to make the emperor aware of his son's survival, and subsequent peril, and help launch a rescue!
Which also means approaching Luo Binghe in person, which he knows is very risky indeed, due to his connection to the infamous Shen Qingqiu! He'd been avoiding the protagonist at all costs for that exact reason.
But if it's his only hope of rescuing his disciple, he will simply have to take the risk, and hope that enough time has passed that Luo Binghe doesn't read too much into a shared surname and a passing resemblance. Or that restoring the emperor's long-lost son to him will be worth seem lenience for the crime of being connected to Shen Qingqiu. Maybe if he's lucky, he will even be allowed to continue visiting his disciple! (Ha, yeah right! More likely, Luo Binghe's going to take his head for hiding his own kid from him for so long!)
Anyway, cue Luo Bingge running around swapping between his Emperor and Disciple forms, dramatically trying to orchestrate a situation where he can fake the emperor's death and go back to the sect with Shizun as his disciple, or something, only for it all to blow up in his face because Shen Yuan keeps flinging himself between Bingge and potentially fatal threats that could plausibly kill him???
#bingqiu#svsss#scum villain's self saving system#bingyuan#scum villain#long post#shen yuan: no way can binghe die like this I'm getting to the bottom of this mystery#luo binghe just trying to fake his death so he can go live his best housewife life: no he's dead it's fine let's just go please c'mon#it all probably turns out#like shen yuan's going to figure it out and then pretty much immediately forgive him once he recovers
2K notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
I said I don't have great spelling, so I thought I'd share what one of the paragraphs in that last post looked like before I fixed it. Normally I fix word by word (sometimes I can even catch what I did wrong and fix it myself), but this time I just kind of kept going
So here's what I mean about me being bad at spelling (maybe I'll put a star next to the misspelled words so you don't have to hunt for them):
"I'm just not sure if those are statistical outliers and shouldn't be counted or not... then again maybe the same is true on twitter, but unlike twitter the algorithem* doesn't shove them down my thoat* (it just might places the in a recommened* blog thing that I 99% of the time am so used to ignoring I almost pysically* don't see, but leave around for the occational* nice art)"
#I think I just kind of... in some ways I want to highlight my dyslexia cause it's one of those things you'll almost never see#but that does effect things for me and that... before I was an adult and before spellcheck was as easy; did have a lot of little effects#it makes life a bit of a pain; but other people make it a real pain by... not just letting it go or...#I mean the most well meaning teacher; even if they like... conceptually get that you have dyslexia...#fuck if they don't fixate on spelling so damn much#so it's just... I suppose I want people able to see that my dyslexia is still very much here; I just accommodate it#and I want people to kind of see how my brain works#and like... throat I obviously just missed the r and didn't notice#but the rest... yeah... that's more or less how I'd probably spell them again; physically I notice the lack of the h#but I straight up can't tell you how to fix the other 3; not without way too much thought#but... I hope you can see how I'd end up spelling it that way... for all the sound it out advice...#you tell me my spellings don't sound out fine#al gor rith em... sounds like how I pronouce* well... we'll leave that as another example; but sounds like how I say it#not really even about me; I don't care anymore#other than some residual frustration#it's more about... don't see how anyone who effects dyslexic kids lives would read this...#but it's about maybe kind of giving insight into how it is for me#so if there's some dyslexic kid who's similar; maybe they have a better time#wasn't even like I had a horrible time... just had so many damn frustrating times#anyway... I'll tag this one just for posterity's sake#mm tag so i can find things later
0 notes