#but i fuuucked it up

[ego-meliorem-esse]

I feel like Francis and Arthur would do that thing with baby Matthew that people do where they put the dog in the middle and both call for it to see who it loves more haha. Except neither of them really care who Matthew loves, they just want to spite the other. Arthur wants to show off Matthews obedience to him and Francis wants to very smugly undermine that. Matthew gets a brief moment of thinking they both desperately want him. The illusion shatters very quickly.

wow mate you're almost more brutal in your interpretation of their relationship than me. Don't get me wrong, what I'm trying to interpret here is that as Matt for all intents and purposes was lonely and frankly miserable with his bio father, the frog. However I do not think François outright didn't care or love Matt. He, did but in his own distant and Empire-y way. What 'm trying to portray is that Matt didn't get love. He didn't feel it. He felt nothing coming from his papa. Whether or not François felt love for his firstborn and only son is irrelevant when it comes to Matt and his experiences. His experience is that where love should be, has always been a tabula rasa. I am a bit of a softie (unimaginable lol) and I am keen on making François feel love in a sense of "Yeah you're my son. I love you but you are a bit boring, and I have court stuff to do". And what I've mentioned is a few asks is that François is only realising his assholery when it's too late, and the boy has found a father to replace his biological one. In the modern era they may even reconnect slightly, they may even meet to get coffee, during a meeting break they might smoke outside the building together in silence, Matt even might stay over at his pops place during a summit week in Paris.

the ignition of remorse may even begin in the vast and smooth void of François' mind.

As for Arthur, he expects the boy to be useful. In 1763 and maybe a few years after that, he feels as if he has a mini François in the house. Until ofcourse he realises that he is angry at this boy sitting opposite of him despite the child having never even uttered a single word, not even made a disagreeable face at that. He softenes up to the boy eventualy. A decade later he starts to not see his enemys face every time he looks at this scared child. Canada indeed is expensive, and England is an Empire. Therefore, the colony WILL be useful. Has to be. Otherwise. That's his mindset, at least for a while. Granted that while lasts a long time but by the modern era Matt his his closest confidante, a friend, and a son. And by god, blood, sweat and tears have been shed for those titles by Matthew. He was needed when he entered those trenches clean, shaved and anxious, he was loved when he left the trenches covered in blood, a broken spirit, with half of his previous eyesight intact.

Not because he risked everything, but because he was willing to.

[aropride]

[xxplastic-cubexx]

it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OOH YEAH BABY ITS THE SURGERY EPISODE BABY!!! ME AND THE HOMIES NEED SOME NEW FACES FOR OUR NEW PLAN, AND WHO BETTER TO GET THE JOB DONE THAN THE TWO MOST EVIL PEOPLE WE'VE EVER HAD THE MISFORTUNE OF HAVING OUR LIVES VIOLATED BY? I MEAN IT WOULD BE FUNNY. IT WOULD BE FUNNY.

[libr-0-cubicularist]

hey, hey. you. mhm. you. This is your sign to go read Stories We Share, Secrets We Keep by @bittirsweeteer

[fisksaturday]

oh boy 4:30 am! time to post baby rex

[heartorbit]

a wahoo girl in a wahoo world

[bonerfan3000]

Epic stuff I made!!!!!

[neodiekido]

it is 2018. i am sitting on my bed, imagining danganronpa v3 amvs to various vocaloid songs. i am 12 years old.

it is 2024. i am sitting on my bed, imagining danganronpa v3 amvs to various vocaloid songs. i am 18 years old.

[verdantcreek]

thinking about the reboot mw games collectively and it’s so sadly unfortunate because like. when put up against the other two, mwiii fails so visibly.

first of all you’ve got their thesis/emotional core, right. for mw19, it’s all about the personal motivation of being a solider, the cost of war on an individual. what it means to fight and discovering the importance of what you’re fighting for. for mwii, it’s about trust. the importance of knowing that your team has each others backs, the weight that it has between individuals. what happens when that trust is broken and how it’s found again through vulnerability, because that’s how you truly know you’re there for each other.

and then there’s mwiii..? you should let your sergeant kill a prisoner illegally so said prisoner, when he breaks out of maximum security prison, doesn’t kill your sergeant 4 years later? you should illegally kill people who piss you off (shepherd)? sure there’s the whole “never bury your enemies alive”, but where does that come in to play outside of the soap/makarov interaction? it’s definitely not a valid reason for price to kill an american general in his own office. they could’ve used it for graves if they wanted to take it a step further, but no— graves doesn’t betray the team again, for whatever reason. we’re expected to consider him just a much a member of the team as anyone else, and the narrative treats him as such outside of a few bristly reactions to his involvement.

secondly i take a huge issue with how characters were handled in mwiii. literally everyone is here, and there is no reason for several of them to be. alex felt like a cameo— you see him actually on screen for maybe 30 seconds. farah’s missions feel forced for the sake of her involvement. not that farah shouldn’t be in this game, but makarov’s flimsy reasoning for targeting the ulf is so clearly an excuse to involve her. it feels very random and transparent as a decision to reuse her character because she’s familiar. again with graves— why is he here? i still genuinely do not understand why they decided to retcon his death. it was a perfect arc for mwii to kill him, and him being alive adds absolutely nothing to the story. he has nothing to do in mwiii and there is zero reason for his involvement other than “people liked him in mwii and he has a cool accent.”

within the 141, it’s mostly rehashing of the growth/personality that each of them showed in previous games. none of them have an arc, except maybe price if you’re willing to call the *post credit scene* where he commits cold blooded murder a completion of an arc. gaz, soap, and ghost are static versions of themselves that simply are just … there for most of the plot. they’re not out of character or ruined, but none of them individually have anything going on that can’t be tied back to price.

i think a lot of it comes down to the way they tried to shoehorn mwiii into the original trilogy’s storyline. people loved those games, and nostalgia sells. i don’t think it’s a coincidence that makarov was a big marketing factor for this game— and that’s not to say that mw19 or mwii didn’t abuse that either, but in execution you can feel the difference. price, gaz, soap and ghost are all their own characters miles away from their original trilogy counterparts. makarov… isn’t. he’s a poorly written villain riding on the success of the original trilogy— he’s scary because he’s *makarov*, not because he’s a real threat. it’s cheap. the knockoff “no russian” mission felt insulting. it’s a callback with no real impact in the story, just simply “look! remember when we did this in 2009 and everyone loved it?”

and all of it culminates into a shit ending with shock factor that it tries to make you feel emotional. i��m not sad over this character death. i’m mad, because it’s unearned and lazy. i realize it’s a lot to ask a multi-billion dollar corporation to actually put effort into their stories, but… it’s such a let down when the previous games actually had at least an ounce of passion. i’m just still so disappointed with this game ruining what could’ve been a really interesting and unique story.

[crabussy]

turned in my psychology essay with the adrenaline levels of a recently retired racing greyhound who just accidentally ingested a bathtub of black coffee but its okay I survived. thank god I don't have unmedicated adhd or anything like that which would cause me to have this experience every single time I have to complete work. wouldn't that be funny. it would be funny. it would. be so funny if that was the case I'm so relieved that its not the case

[tradingjack]

yuppeeee just having fun!!!! ig!!!!! consistency Who (i dont know her :)) (thank you for tagging me @creepycoffins i used this opportunity to simply vibe i hope that's ok 😭)

[heckblade]

murph stumbling blindly into “you gotta honor the cock” just feels so right

[allastoredeer]

WELL, YA GURL FUCKED UP

My ipad is trash, icloud is now on my shit-list, and I think I'm gonna cry.

I just lost all of my files on Procreate. All of my artwork, brushes, WIPS, and the next four parts to my Undercover Angel AU.

Fuck my life

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.