#but i cant so we all suffer here

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|WHUMPRIL 2023|

|Day 14 ~ False Smile|

(@whumpril)

⚠TW⚠

- Mention of Death

- Mention of Self-Harm

- Arguing (kinda?)

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I sit on the couch, a mug of tea warming my cold hands.

My hair awkwardly touches the back of my neck. It's really short, but I try to ignore that.

Zaaron walks into the room, taking a seat next to me.

"So, are you ready to talk?" He asks.

I nod.

"Well.. It's.. complicated.." I start.

"Just try to sum it up." He says reassuringly.

"Ok.. uh.. well Krystal found out that I was in contact with.. you, and she basically turned everyone against me.. except for Kaiden." I say.

"And then Kairo.. passed. And it hurt but Kaiden tries his best to get me through it.."

"But next thing I know.. he- he hates me. He won't look at me, won't talk to me.. And then he became aggressive and I got scared.. So I ran off."

I take a deep breath.

Zaaron sighs. "So now you're just hiding away in your house, not telling anyone if you're ok?"

I nod slowly.

"So are you and Kaiden still-" He asks

"We broke up." I clarify. "Well.. I left him a note that basically said I was breaking up with him. I'm not sure he.. actually thinks we are."

"Well what now?" He asks.

"Huh?"

"What do you plan to do?"

"I was going to leave this place. Move to Armoni. Start a new life." I say.

Zaaron raises his eyebrows. "That's a plan you got there."

I hum. "I would maybe come and visit you.."

He smiles. "I'm sure you would kiddo."

His smile drops. "But.. I don't think you should just leave without saying goodbye to some.. certain people."

I give him a puzzled look. "Like who? All my friends left me. Kaiden left me. Hell, I don't think my parents would even notice if I left!" I raise my voice.

Zasrons holds his hands up. "Okay.. Karyme, listen. I can't imagine how angry you are right now but it was only a suggestion."

I take a deep breath. "I-im sorry. It's all just falling apart and I'm scared and I can't stop-" I stop myself.

"Stop what?" Asks Zaaron.

The atmosphere quickly tenses.

My eyes stare into the floor.

"Karyme.. Stop what.?" Zaaron asks again.

".. Nothing." I finally say.

"You are a terrible liar." He says.

I glare at him. "You're pushing it."

Zaaron sighs again. "Fine. I'll stop."

He switches the subject back to me leaving.

"So when do you plan to leave?" He asks.

"I think August 1st. That gives me enough time to book a train ticket and pack up my stuff." I explain.

Zaaron nods along.

"Are you sure you'll last there? It snows all the time." He says in a teasing tone.

"Ha ha, good one old man." I say sarcastically. "I'll be fine."

The rest of the afternoon we chat away about my future.

My.. non-exsistant future.

At around 8 I decide to head home.

"Remember Karyme-" Zaaron reminds me.

"I know, I can come to you if I need help." I repeat his words.

He ruffles my hair. "Yeah."

As I'm about to leave, Zaaron speaks up.

"Hey.. Stay safe, alright?"

I turn around to look at him.

My lips form a smile.

"Don't worry, I'll be fine."

As I'm heading downtown to the bus stop tears begin to form in my eyes.

I hold them back.

'I'm sorry.. Zaaron.' I think.

[salsa-di-pomodoro]

Has anyone ever thought of the possibility of people in hisui getting a magazine from AFTER ingo and akari go home with either or both of them on it. Like they've already left and lo and behold in the tail end of the entire mess a magazine appears with one of them on the cover looking fresh stunning and most importantly happy. If it were Ingo i feel like he'd be all dressed up goth on the cover of like Vogue or something lmao (i don't think he wouldn't get famous if he wasn't already after coming home. Theyd want the publicity+cool extint Pokémon on the cover). If it were akari shed probably be like posing all badass like the badass teenager she is, scars in full view (she's a survivor!!!!!!). Inside is a little tidibit of their life after coming home. It would be both funny as hell to see them react to how they are in their element and like connect the dots for their strange behaviors AND bring closure to the people they left in hisui. They may never know this but the people in the past do

If anyone uses this idea tag me i may or may not read it but i want to know if you liked it enough to do something with it. I'll probably just keep daydreaming to myself about it lol

Edit: btw there's a whole section talking about everyone's battle prowess and the battle subway for the funnies. Just so you know

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

[ratatatastic]

a man forced to suffer the skittle shenanigans of this team

[ectonurites]

my hubris (thinking i could go to an outdoors concert last night without consequences) has failed me once again (woke up with allergic reaction)

[pulchrasilva]

Nobody fucking talk to me i just finished rewatching arcane and it was DEVASTATING I need to KILL

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Hungarian Grand Prix - Lewis Hamilton(ft. Martin Whitmarsh, Mark Webber & Kimi Räikönnen)

+ Seb & Fernando post-DNF

[formulahs]

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[totallyawesome123]

rediscovering I have empathy? craaaazyyyyy

[bokuwadekinaiko]

cw post / tags. sorry

i don't even know if i have the words

to express this

she's gone

and its all my fault

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

Having some feelings today.

[lokh]

i want qifrey to suffer <- actually likes him as a character

[sux2be]

taking my heart out and stomping into the ground dont you dare get another friend crush. dont fucking do it.

[todayisafridaynight]

Kiryu's trying so hard to be a good dad for all of his kids while Kazama very clearly only favored Kiryu. Do I think this was an intentional writing decision? Probably not but it's interesting

intentional or not, its a good perspective and helps explain why kiryu Is Like That. especially if we want to look at the case of nishiki who was given too much power before he was ready to handle it (and around the same age as daigo too if not a little younger), kiryu wants to make sure daigo doesnt similarly crumble under that pressure that nishiki did. we know nishiki's death haunts him for at least five games after the fact- it's no wonder he's so hyperfocused on making sure it doesn't happen again

the problem lies in that, just like kazama to nishiki, kiryu was the reason why daigo got that much power in such a short amount of time anyway. we know he acknowledges this, which is probably why he tries so hard for the tojo despite wanting to distance himself from the yakuza world. kazama did the bare minimum- if anything- for nishiki. and while we know kiryu respected kazama immensely, i want to hope over the years he's realized that leaving a young man in a powerful position unprepared isn't a good idea, esp after mine rubbed salt in the wound and called him out for abandoning the tojo- ergo daigo, so now he especially feels like he has to make it up to him.

if he couldn't help nishiki, then the next best thing he can do is help someone he considers his son- as if trying to right the wrong kazama did and be a better father, whether he can admit or not to kazama failing to take care of nishiki

but the follow up problem to THAT is he's neglecting his other kids when he does go to help. it wouldnt be a problem if RGG remembered the ryudo family and they could watch the kids while he's gone or something, but since they don't we just have to assume haruka's unfortunately been left to act as big sister to all these kids, and THAT has undoubtedly bred a great burden of feeling responsible when she's only a kid. it's really unfortunate that while kiryu apologizes to daigo repeatedly, he never apologizes to haruka for leaving her alone and in charge so many times (i actually thought kiryu's letter in Y6 was supposed to go to haruka at first). it's made her feel as though she has to take care of everyone and she has to be the strong one for the family when kiryu's away, and because of that we get problems like Y5 and Y6

in all of this, and in a terrible twist of irony, in trying to prevent one of his loved ones from enduring a similar fate as nishiki, he's now jeopardizing his relationship with his other kids- he's now unintentionally putting haruka on the back burner because he's so traumatized over what happened to his brother. he might have prevented another nishiki situation, but haruka had to be collateral as a result

[catchmewjsn]

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[opens-up-4-nobody]

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