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headcanoning characters as southern because i have no other culture
#like from a southern family#they mighy not be from the south but sure as hell their family is#hard to find characters to headcanon this for tho.#but heres my list so far:#aubrey from omori. her mom is southern and before she got into the state we see her#shed make depressing thanksgiving dinner with some dry turkey and buttery ass potatoes.#dipper and mabel. i think their mom is from east Tennessee or near there. she is very evangelical and it causes tension with their dad#my family's like this and i think its some great headcanon material#sucks that im into amime tho. makes it hard to headcanon this
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worst way to start my new year, thanks. i have a lot of things to say about these companies but i'm tired and just keeping it focused to the pin side of things for this one. do not ever buy pins from these companies, literally ALL of them are stolen from small artists like me. if you want to buy enamel pins, check out etsy, and artist's personal websites and shops! (though even Etsy has some bootleg pins that ship straight from china, so tread carefullyā¦)
Every pin I've designed is, thus far, EXCLUSIVE to my etsy. if you find it anywhere else, it's been ripped off! and once these stupid bootlegs pop up, it's basically a never ending game of whack-a-mole trying to get them all taken down...
#psa#art theft#pin theft#aliexpress#shein#wish#temu#deltarune#the bootleg pin is just over an inch tall. do you know how BAD this design looks at that size?? i'd know. i tested it.#they didn't even use the black nickel of the pin for the black parts of the design. and the listing says copper for some reason. what.#some people never even get their designs taken down. its really sad#so i might just have to deal with bootleg queens out there forever :( i hope nobody confuses the ripoffs for the real thing....#my pin is so much nicer! its almost two inches big and it has two posts on the back so it doesn't spin#because spinning pins are the bane of my existence#im out here working my ass off out of my bedroom in my parents place trying to make a living and here come these pricks#i watermarked all my listing photos exactly so they Couldn't steal my fucking pictures so at least there's that#my new years is just full of bad luck so far i hope this isn't a bad omen#if my registration isn't accepted by the aliexpress copyright department I'm SOL and this will just. stay up i guess#i'm sad#bootleggers kys
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kisses of affirmation (ID in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#ruporas art#oughrhhhh finally posting this here..... Very Romancey very Cutesy Very what do you call it... Indulging#for the longest time i debated on whether to post this comic at all on my socials - for some reason this was almost the limit to how far i#could push a romantic alternative that cusps ooc-ness for vw but then i ultimately decided its Fine. i couldv made it much more unbearable.#someone on twit qrt this with āvash is such a loserā which means i havent lost my way completely yet so its ok#(sidenote) script is a bit old !! bc this was meant to be a part two to an old comic..! the first kiss comic from feb#it branched off quite a bit that listing this as an actual part two would be kind of awkward now - but that was the initial intention#anyway. please enjoy!#long post
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#still yakuza lmao#I don't remember which day I started it but it was definitely no earlier than the 30th#I think I didn't start until I actually got holiday packages into the mail on the 3rd.#my partner started playing it like the day after it got released for switch#which I think was late october?#but he has like. a job. so he's just been playing an hour here a couple hours there yknow#we are both very much getting our money's worth though lol#I try to stop playing by midnight but I didn't manage that today -n-#I really wanted to find the last 2000 yen bill without looking it up but I was Struggling#(I did find it tho)#I've still got a decent amount of stuff left to do#even discounting the completion list stuff that doesn't interest me like the gambling#which I might at least try to do anyway#but we're both in chapter 9 of the main story now (although he's already a ways in)#(and I technically haven't done the last conversation of chapter 8 but I did all the actual Doin Stuff)#it sounds like there's probably 10 chapters from a thing I saw having to look up where majima was hiding the first time?#that's the only thing I've looked up so far though.#anyway I'm having fun#this is why I refused to start playing yakuza until I finished my holiday crafts.#oh wait I also looked up a clarifying explanation on one of the dragon moves you have to learn#I wanna do as much of it as I can without external guides#update from the next day I was incorrect about there being 10 chapters yay :)#more game for meeeee
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i finished reading krakoa era and comic cherik are amazing SO i wanted to ask do you have any favorite issues/series i still don't really remember how to call it where cherik are also cool?? some iconis comic moments with them maybe??
im FARRR from finishing all of krakoa (ive probably barely even made a dent in this series), though i do think following the HoX + PoX issues themselves are great if we're talkin cherik-focused issues/books. i already said one of my fave aspects of cherik is their moments working together, so having a whole Omnibus dedicated to them Working Together and trusting each other (bonus points for Protective Erik with the Something Sinister bit) is already guaranteeing a sure spot in my Faves collection
one of my fave cool moments i've read so far- which is a moment i wager a lot of people can agree is Sick As Hell Visually if i may be so daring- is ABSOLUTELY this sequence from Inferno #4
any time erik and charles get to do some bamf shit together it is IMMEDIATELY peak to me this cannot be disputed and i'd be lying if i didn't say i bought this run solely for this moment here (ignore the fact they fumble this fight horribly that dont matter they looked cool as hell for five seconds !!!!!!!!!!!)
i can't wait to read more and find even more moments i love and want to tape to my eyelids <3 !!
#snap chats#outside of cherik tho i think my favorite run So Far is Way of X. if anyone cares vjelkjaklej#i just like how they bothered to question the rules they set up. also kurt's here :) and onslaught :) and david !!!!!!#if anyone is DOUBLY curious as to what ive read so far ... gimme a minute to look at my shelf#Krakoa Wise ive read HoX/FoX | WoX + Onslaught Revelation | Trial of Magneto | Inferno | Resurrection of Magneto#ive read through that one (1) wolverine issue but i know my ass is gonna be super lazy to read the whole run . as of now..#i'm gonna read through Legion of X later this week ....#issues i have next on my To Read list were AXE Judgment | Sins of Sinister | Hellfire Gala + some non krakoa stuff#if you guys have any recs on which issues i should check out next please let me know !!!!!!#i hope to read most- if not all- krakoa someday but if theres some stuff you think id really like id love to hear bout it :]#anyways i forgot i was going to go eat LMAO thank you for the question !!!!#i hope to revisit this question in the future with a lot more examples to pull from cause i already love what i see now#im gonna go eat now tho i got distracted answering this vjLKVJALJ
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It's just one clown take after another.
This might be the single dumbest and most hypocritical fandom I've ever wasted my time on.
#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7#final fantasy vii#final fantasy vii remake#final fantasy vii rebirth#crisis core#ever crisis#advent children#dirge of cerberus#square enix#sephiroth#tseng of the turks#rude of the turks#aerseph#sefikura#aerith x tseng#cloud x scarlet#tifa x rude#fandom hypocrisy#fandom ignorance#problematic ships#most pairings listed here are far more popular than clouffie#btw I've patiently explained this and other objective facts regarding the story to people#and they'll still go āuhh but I FEEL like it's this way so I'm gonna say that my headcanon is like ackshuelly canonā#it's downright impossible to talk to this fandom#it's like it's mentally ossified#cloud x yuffie is literally just two close friends#BOTH of whom are of legal age#it's as unproblematic a ship as they come
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rdj the (whitewashed) electric boogaloo
This is a reminder to everyone who's excited about RDJ's casting as Doctor Doom that this casting is whitewashing. Victor Von Doom is a Romani character and has been a Romani character since his introduction in the 1960s. (Fantastic Four Annual #2 [1964]) Not only that, but his Roma identity and the persecution he and his family faced due to it is integral to his character, it is what forms his identity. (Books of Doom by Ed Brubaker) Even if on the off chance this casting is meant to not be Victor but instead be some variant of Tony or whomever else becoming Doctor Doom, it is damaging to the character to rob him of that important cultural background. Doctor Doom does not exist without that history. Fans have been pushing hard to cast Doom as a Romani actor for years, especially since the MCU has whitewashed other Romani characters. (Wanda, Pietro, etc) This casting is not a celebration moment, it's fucking heartbreaking that the MCU repeatedly ignores the important and nuanced cultural backstories of characters.
I know I can't change anybody's mind on whether or not you want to be excited about RDJ's return to the MCU. But I do think at the very least you should be mad that the MCU is baiting us all and destroying nuanced and interesting characters for the sake of self-referential easter eggs and nostalgia bait. Because that's what it is. Feel how you'd like to feel about RDJ's return, but personally, this is soul-sucking. I had such a deep love for the MCU as a teenager, it was obviously something incredibly formative to me, especially Tony Stark. This isn't recreating what I fell in love with the MCU for. This is turning a well-planned and artistic storyline of adaptations into cheap cash grabs and fan service. Because, I think we're past the point of being able to call the MCU an adaptation of anything. They can use existing characters' names and powers, but to say they're being properly adapted is laughable.
This is not an adaptation of Doctor Doom. This is RDJ the Electric Boogaloo because Marvel's fear of losing the interest of dedicated MCU fans overrides their willingness to tell stories that are genuine to the characters. I don't know what there is to be excited about that. The MCU has lost its authenticity and aside from a few projects, feels heartless. Every movie is a copy of a copy. This announcement isn't something celebratory, it feels like a death knell of a cinematic universe that's so desperate to cling to relevancy it's resorting to nostalgia for a character/actor who hasn't even been dead for a decade. We're not getting anything new, we're just rinsing and repeating the same song and dance.
I get it. I love Tony Stark, his death destroyed me and I to this day, rue the ending he got in Endgame. It misunderstood his arc and it robbed him of a satisfying conclusion. But the solution to that isn't dragging the corpse out of the grave five years later to whitewash an existing character with rich and interesting nuance, just to forcibly tie his existence in the MCU to Tony. Whether he is a variant or not. Why would you want someone else's fave's legacy to be destroyed simply so your fave's legacy can go on? Hell, if we were really all so hellbent on the return of RDJ and/or Tony to the MCU, we have the multiverse for a reason. There were other ways to do it that didn't whitewash and ruin someone else. This just. Isn't something to be happy about.
#... we will not be addressing that i'm a dead blog#no one say a WORD about my inactivity for 4 years this isn't about that /lh#also if anyone tries to get smart about āromani isn't a raceā i don't care and you can shut up.#it's an ethnic and cultural identity. and it should be portrayed correctly.#ESPECIALLY for a character like *victor von doom* of all people. like it is fundamental to him.#i would've included panels of the comics mentioned but most of them use the g-slur and i don't wish to encourage that here#like listen i don't think you need to be a comics fan to be an mcu fan. they're so divorced from each other atp#nor do i think the mcu owes complete comic accuracy. but i do think you should at *least* care when characters are whitewashed.#look. i really don't want this to be a debate on if rdj's return is good or not#i've been frankly baffled at how many old mutuals are excited but. whatever if you want him back i get it.#but it shouldn't be like this. not at the expense of a different character.#this whole thing made me realize i'm *far* more jaded and turned off to the mcu than most of you guys are.#which is fair you can still be an mcu fan. if it brings you joy i'm so happy for you#but how does this like. bring joy i don't get it.#this is soulless. it's uninspired. it's done purely for shock value.#i occasionally get asks to this blog about why i left and asking me to come back#and i get it. i *want* to come back.#but i don't *care* about the mcu anymore. this is not the franchise i fell in love with.#i don't recognize what once meant everything to me.#winteriron will always hold a special place in my heart (as will tony stark)#but like. i just don't have love for it. and it sucks that this bullshit from marvel actively kills the love i had.#this sours tony stark to me. i'm sorry but it does. because was it really worth this? is this what his legacy has become?#this does cheapen his legacy btw. like without question. it turns him into a cheap cameo reference. heart of the mcu my ass.#my fandom circles have *massively* changed#i'm now entirely surrounded by comics fans bc my primary fandom is dc comics. that's what i'm up to these days#and the difference was actually baffling to me. everyone i follow now is *pissed* about this. comics twitter is so mad.#and then i see ppl on here excited and i'm just genuinely surprised this is something you want. i don't get it.#i don't say that to be rude. i just don't get it. how is *this* actually something people *want*.#do i still care about marvel? eh.#i like winter soldier comics and i could give a comprehensive rec list. and i read some other characters i deeply enjoy.
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Some SukuIta fic recs on AO3
Here are some of my favorites skit fanfics! I've put tags I found relevant but not all of them. Most of the summaries are from the stories themselves although I improvised some. I hope you can find something you'll enjoy <3
Is this Stockholm-Syndrome? by BaeBeyza
Completed
Status : 14k, 6 Chapters, Complete (M)
Tags : Alternate Universe - Yakuza; Accidental Kidnapping; Implied/Referenced Child Abuse; Non-Consensual Drug Use; Rape/Non-con Elements;
Summary : In which Yakuza Boss Sukuna gets accidentally kidnapped by some hapless idiot
Comment : Itās the ākidnapped by the yakuza bossā trope but reversed! Fun but not really lighthearted /!\
Your path into bloodlust by BaeBeyza
Status : 26k, 10 Chapters,Complete, (M)
Tags : Alternate Universe - Fantasy; God Sukuna; Weretiger Yuuji; Blood and Violence; Hurt/Comfort; Angst with a Happy Ending
Summary : Sukuna, the God of the Hunt, laid his eyes on the golden-eyed hunter
Comment : They both change the other, in a way. Yuuji really Goes Through It in this one but so does Sukuna >:)
Seven Days to Fall in Love by macabrecabra
Status : 35k, 7 chapters, Complete, (E)
Tags : Sci-Fi AU; Survival horror kind of
Summary : It was supposed to be a routine mission, but instead, Yuuji finds himself crash landed on an alien world with seven days to get to the rendezvous point in order to escape the planet. A task only made more difficult by the cursed entity he is expected to keep under control as his vessel.
Comment : Iām not that much into sci-fi but it was still a lot of fun. This story features Yuuji and Sukuna being nearly the same and complete opposites at the same time, and being forced to cooperate in spite of it which is amazing. Also, Sukuna acting like a feral animal/teenager was great!
between our teeth by goodnightfern
Status : 10k, 3 Chapters, Complete, (NR)
Tags : A/B/O; Forced Bonding; Forced Pregnancy; Gross Pregnancy shit; Cannibalism; Incest (kinda?)
Summary : Some rational part of Yuujiās mind lies dormant beneath this drugged heat. He knows this scene: the monster of an omega, snarling even in forced stasis, struggling to resist the enormous burden of cursed energy sitting heavy as the ocean in this room. As a child heād run his tiny fingers over the corded strength of his four arms, snuck a peek at the drooling wound in his stomach. He knows the heavy breath barely animating this mountain like his own heartbeat.
Comment : I adore the worldbuilding here. This one features Yuuji changing Sukuna as much as Sukuna changes him and itās so delicious. Originally a one-shot then expanded upon and itās one of my favorite take on a/b/o so far.
Love for my child series by BaeBeyza
Status: 3 parts, >100 000k, Complete, (M)
Tags : A/B/O; Rape/Non-Con; Kidnapping; Forced Pregnancy; Lima Syndrome; Eventual Escape; Hurt/Comfort; Self-harm;
Summary :Ā
Part 1 : Yuuji, a young omega, is kidnapped, raped, and forced to have a child for the āevil manā. Even in this mockery of a domestic life he doesnāt give up on escaping.
Part 2 : Five years after escaping the evil man's grasp, Yuuji finds himself navigating life with his dear son. Fate has other ideas, however...
Comment : The characterizations in this story drives me insane, and part 2 is just banger lines after banger lines (Iām very biased towards this story I rotated it in my mind for months <3). The main storyline is complete while part 3 includes extra-stories and is still ongoing!
Ongoing
I was sent to spy on the demon lord but it turns out he's hot and I'm now his captive?! by rhapshie
Status : 42k, 8 Chapters (1 left), Ongoing, (M)
Tags : Demon Lord Sukuna; Adventurer Yuuji; High Fantasy
Summary : Itadori Yuuji. Gold-rank adventurer.
He picked up a quest to survey the area around the demon lord's castle, but he was caught and held captive. The only way he can escape is by killing the infuriatingly hot Lord Ryomen. And thus, he hatches scheme after scheme to do just that.
Little does he know that in demon culture, assassination attempts mean courting... So, Yuuji unknowingly begins to court the demon lord.
...Oops?
Comment : OH THIS ONE IS SO MUCH FUN! Iām almost tempted to put the crack treated seriously tag because of how silly it is. I really like how the relationship between the main pair develops, and the interactions between Yuuji and the rest of the cast are fun as well!
Aconitum by AttackRabbit
Status : 30k, 10 Chapters, Ongoing, (E)
Tags : A/B/O; Set In Ancient Japan; Implied/Referenced Abortion; Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault; Former Soldier Yuuji; Mentions of War
Summary : Apothecary ex-solder Yuuji while out foraging for vegetables finds a severely wounded alpha. After deciding to save him, Yuuji's life of chosen solitude is threatened.
Comment : This story has managed to surprise me in several ways and every chapter is a treat! I love the care put into showing Yuujiās competences as an apothecary but thereās so much more to talk about in this story. The author went out of their way to create a fictional language for it as well and it makes it so much more immersive, I hope you can at least check it out!
The Greatest Curse of All by CB_Magique
Status : 106k, 32 chapters, Ongoing, (E)
Tags : A/B/O; Graphic Depictions Of Violence; Rape/Non-Con; Enemies to Lovers; Slow Burn; Lots Of Hurts; Physical Abuse; Miscarriage; More pairings not mentioned in the tags
Summary : [...] Unfortunately, during a Special Grade curse attack, he ends up tricking the King of Curses into a binding vow, completely by accident. Forced into servitude, the safety of all humanity now depends on Yuji being able to sate Sukunaās desires.
Sukuna does not like being tricked and will not take that disrespect lying down. He is determined to break Yuji. However, Yuji may end up breaking him down first.
Comment : so fucking peakā¦ The tags arenāt lying that burn is SLOW. Weāre barely crawling here damn but at least weāre past the lowest point of their relationship! yippee! I love the attention put into describing Yuujiās day to day life in Sukunaās mansion (heās basically forced to live like people from Sukuās time). The interactions between the 2 are often very intense and I love them. Also! There are a lot of creative uses of cursed energy/techniques!
One shots
AITA for being mad at my family for the cruel methods they used to get me to live with them? by BaeBeyza
Status : 1.8k, One-Shot, (M)
Tags : Crack Treated Seriously; Written like a reddit post
Summary : Hello!I was told this is the place to come for advice and I really need it for my current conflicted situation! The title isnāt as bad as it sounds, I just recently found out a bit about my husband and step-kids which led to a lot of anger on my end and I just want an unbiased opinion.
Comment : This one is short and fun, and people are roleplaying in the comments! Poor Yuuji :ā)
What color is my blood...Red, black or white? by izugirl
Status : 10k, One-Shot, (E)
Tags : Top Yuuji; Bottom Sukuna; I guess itās kind of Pw/oP but thereās a lot going on still
Summary : āIf I make you feel pleasure,ā Yuuji says with the most serious face possible. "You'll leave him alive and it'll just be you and me. Does this sound fun enough for you?"
Or in the midst of battle in the cursed land of Shinjuku, Yuuji asks the King of Curses an unusual question and finds out that the myths about him left out much more than his cursed technique.
Comment : Iām quite literally blowing kisses towards the open tab for this fic. Itās so fucking good. Hello. It goes so hard. One of my favorites of all times for sure. Features : Yuuji and Sukuna being obsessed with each other in an unhealthy way (and being in denial about it), these 2 being the otherās downfall and justā¦ I canāt put it into words but the vibe is, when I try to give a mental image to this story the first this that comes to me is juicy raw meat. Red, bloody and appetizing.
like a lollipop by satorusyuji
Status : 1.3k, One-Shot, (T)
Tags : Crack; Unreliable Narrator; Out of Character
Summary : Yuujiās terror slowly morphs into confusion while heās pinned under Sukuna.
Comment : This one is an easy way to put me in a good mood. Itās silly. Doesnāt take much more than that to make me like something XD
Telluric by SmolAfro
Status : 7k, One-Shot, (E)
Tags : Alternate Universe - Trojan War Setting; Alternate Universe - Mythology; Odysseus!Yuuji; Poseidon!Sukuna; Porn With Plot
Summary : Yuuji keeps forgetting to include Sukuna in his prayers. Sukuna in turn makes his life miserable, until Yuuji makes amends.
Comment : OOOOOH. OH THIS ONE. I donāt know what the fuck the author put into that one but just thinking about it puts me back in the state I was after reading in for the first time (read: unwell). I donāt even have the words itās just- itās peak. It's just- it's so good I love it so much please read it
the one who will teach you about love is... by The_Rose_That_Blooms
Status : 5.8k, One-Shot, (M)
Tags : Alternate Universe - Heian Period; Courting Rituals; Crack; Minor Violence; Mainly yorozu's POV
Summary : Countless yappings from her attendant, lessons she forced her teachers to teach and herself to be taught, having to get used to the sensation of fabric (sometimes the itchiness was unbearable) wrapping around her skin because it was considered ādecentā, and most of all, making sure sheād get picked to present herself, among 20 other ladies and men, to Ryoumen Sukuna-sama and become his bride.
Comment : Yorozuās POV is really funny (and very unhinged). I greatly enjoyed her torment :3
#sukuita#how do i tag this#my post#like I said there are some works I ended up cutting off#but feel free to ask if you're looking for something in particular I might have seen or read it#i didn't go as far back as I could when making this list so there's definitely some recency bias#they're 1-2 more fics I wanted to include here but it's platonic this time and it felt weird to add them there#if they are any issues with the links please let me know
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Potential November Reads
In This House of Brede by Rumer Godden
The Everlasting Man by G.K. Chesterton
Something by Charles Dickens
A nonfiction book
A piece of classic Russian literature
#monthly reading list#books#i've decided to make both lists because i'm in a 'obsess over all the options' mood#and this gets it out of my head#i've already mentioned brede#i plan to stick with it#i'm a couple chapters in and liking it so far#i've ordered 'everlasting man' from the library so i won't have to read my copy with horrendously small print#(after reading h.g. wells and seeing how nonsensical his view of human nature is from a christian perspective)#(i decided i needed to read chesterton's rebuttal to wells)#i've got dickens on here because despite spending october reading almost exclusively victorians#i came out of the month wanting to read some dickens#november has *strong* associations with 'great expectations' so i've got to see if some other dickens will satisfy the craving#if nothing else i got a volume of his christmas novellas out from the library and i may just have to give one a go#i need to read some nonfiction again (essays/apologetics don't count)#a top contender right now is 'the guns of august' because i found a used copy a couple months ago#and wwi is the perfect november nonfiction (oh that reminds me i should finish 'a hilltop on the marne')#and after reading victorians all month i need to read some classic literature from another country#and winter is a very russian-lit time of year#(the victober wrap up is coming btw)#(it's just that concisely summarizing these reading experiences takes a lot of time)
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About five years ago I wrote a series of mini-essays on common romantic mistakes among nerds. Today a couple of folks mentioned that they were helpful to them so I think I'll link them here for new followers. They're fruitily written but I think the content holds up.
PITFALLS OF NERD FLIRTING 1: THE RECOMMENDING OF THE MEDIA
PITFALLS OF NERD FLIRTING 2: THE APPEAL TO NARRATIVE
PITFALLS OF NERD FLIRTING 3: BEST AVAILABLE FRIEND
#I list my credentials here as 'I have made all of these mistakes' and that is broadly true but I did eventually get married#and that's working out so far#so clearly I'm doing something right
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Woe! Cringe be upon ye
Watch me slowly get the hang of motion tracking lmao
#there is a list on my phone of SO many more of these but it was getting too long so.#might post a part 2 eventually who knows#as far as i'm concerned ''lemme see what you have'' is canon#so is ''what the fuck richard'' and ''is scott here''#the vampire dies in no time#kyuuketsuki sugu shinu#I SHOULD'VE PUT JOHN INTO THE MISS KEISHA VINE BUT I JUST CANCELED THE SUBSCRIPTION ON MY EDITING SOFTWARE LOL#anyway i've been editing these so long i can't tell if they're funny anymore lol please let me know
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You know what, I am unbothered by disputes in TXF fandom because I have been here since almost time immemorial, longer than a goodly number of you have been alive, and I will be here at the end of time when the universe cools, listening to āWalking After Youā as everything goes stiff and cold.Ā I have forgotten more thoughts about Mulder and Scully and the rest of the crew than most people have even had, and I have written and written and written until these blorbos are engraved in my bones.Ā Look for me in the deep places; find me at the wellspring writing with water on slates.Ā Listen for me on the wind, whispering āfuuuuuuuck chris carterrrrrrrrr.ā
#i didn't know about drama until yesterday but also#like the coelacanth i will be here even when you think i'm extinct#i will be lurking in the deep waters#sipping at the delicate brew of scullysflannel's headcanons#it helps that as a queer white middleclass femme person i am not facing a lot of opposition to my general being#that would definitely make staying in fandom more difficult#fandom#i am not even involved in this drama as far as i know#also i am no longer relevant#the glory days of leiascully are gone#probably because i've only written a few ficlets in the past few years#in my defense they've been exhausting years#i would like to write more#once upon a time i was on rec lists because i was writing so much no one could escape me#those were halcyon days
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#my stuff#my writing#mein fucking goat i cannot keep having dreams about my ex and yet it is happening still#this is one of the less remarkable ones even. iāve had two in the past month where i try desperately to give them a flatscreen tv#and one of those big ones too. like 40 inches across. i donāt own a flatscreen tv#iāll admit it being in singapore is hitting me like a brick to the balls and i am grievously unwell#itās like i come back and all the work i put in to deal with my anxiety and depression gets high in the woods and dies#but thatās not the point. the point is devoid of friends (in fucking america) and a hyperfixation (havenāt found anything thatās stuck)#i am full of nothing but yearning. good ol classic yearning. and i am so moved on from my ex but i keep trying to give them this fucking tv#!!!! ?????? huh????????????? mayne gotā¦ā¦ā¦#a girlfriend or a cat would fix me. or leaving this country take your pick#working on it#iāve made a to do list to combat my i have lost the will to do things problem#and on it is APPLY TO JOBS (note; outside singapore (note: outside america too))#i have a plan and itās to get as far away as possible and live#weāre getting there#in the meantime hereās a funny poem#i was so. in the dream i actually wanted to see them which is crazy. top 10 bad fan characterizations#but it was a dream with a good color palette. all cool whites and grays and a deep deep blue for the night#cold cold white snow. etc. so of course i had to write about it#which i have done. and now i am going to sleep#good bye
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sending out the call, people, give me movies or shows to watch that you'd recommend. currently isolating from family to avoid getting sick with the plague (you know which one) and this means i do not have access to my big boy computer that has all my video games and stuff on it. i just have my laptop. which is not nearly as beefy. and so i ask the people, things to watch?
#wick lore#mentioned that my laptop is wimpy bc (a) my pc is a gaming pc and built like a beast and (b) laptop wimpy = cant just download games#i dont trust this thing to run steam#also i do have a list in my back pocket of things to watch so if you're reading this far here are things already on my list#the dragon prince. amphibia. i saw the tv glow. nimona.#and things to finish or that i could start over#like in theory i do have enough thingses already but i feel obligated to inquire
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Ok @moosemonstrous here we fuckin go.
OK SO. I apologize if it comes off more Evangellion than Pacific Rim but I thought that making The Charger more slender would help to differentiate it and allow for a focus on agility (also helps it to look more skeletal and unsettling).
The Charger is built in layers. An outer layer that constitutes the armor, a thinner covering, metal scaffolding, secondary thin covering, and then finally the essential wiring that makes the 'nervous system' of the Jaeger. Most of the damage (corruption scars, nicks, paint chipping) is just cosmetic, and the structural nature of the Jaeger is intact.
HOWEVER. The same can not be said of the reactor core. At some point (maybe during Eli's death?) corruption made its way behind the main fans of the outer engine and into the main reactor that powers the Jaeger. In theory this should lead to a catastrophic failure, but in this instance Im thinking there was a chemical reaction that essentially stabilized the corrosive nature of the Corruption (were gonna circle back to that).
For the most part my version of Robbies suit is fairly standard. I added an orange tint to his helmet screen for flavor because hey. Why not.
The spine of the suit is probably newly integrated to allow for an updated interface, I imagine theres at least a little development in the technology between the time Eli dies and Robbie comes into play. That would make the suit a weird mishmash of past and new technology which could be VERY fun.
Also I LOVED the white accents @cicada-candy added for their design but I didn't want to steal ideas so I just added it in my own places. Your art fucks severely bro I just wanted to make sure and let you know that <3
TIME FOR MY FAVORITE PART: SPECULATION ABOUT THE CORRUPTION AND ITS THEORETICAL GENETIC EFFECTS IN DOSES ON A SUBJECT!!!!!! (AKA self indulgence part 2 electric boogaloo)
I believe you mentioned the Corruption being a Neurotoxin which would be Very fun and VERY cool but I also have a suggestion. Mainly because you also referenced an increase in Robbies strength, as well as another person who got fuckin deaded shortly after.
A rapid growth in muscle density to allow for this strength would be very interesting, but why would the Corruption cause that? Simple answer; it isn't. At least not intentionally. Whats actually happening is a kind of nerve damage that changes the brains regulation of muscular exertion. Our brains really only let us use a certain percentage of our real strength, because if we just let loose and used it all we would cause significant physical damage to ourselves. Like. ripping your own tendons free from their anchors. you could break your own bones. you would die SO fast bro.
Now it is POSSIBLE to access this strength in situations of extreme stress and thats how you get people lifting cars off of loved ones, but this does still cause damage. It also gets more complicated when you consider Fast Twitch muscle reactions but for the sake of simplicity: You Would Die.
So a release of cortisol and other stress hormones, combined with a lessened ability to control strength. This means they would be USING that strength A LOT against ANYONE AND EVERYONE. But maintaining this sort of metabolism is not reasonable. Someone suffering from Corruption would likely also suffer from Hypoglycemia fatally. So extremely strong, extremely scared, and extremely short lived is the kind of deal we would be talking about here.
SO. Having said ALL OF THAT. WHAT IS ROBBIES DEAL. Well heres my proposal: The Corruption is a virus that causes neurodegenerative disease.
If Robbie was exposed to very small amounts of it as a child, it's possible it was inactive or defective, which would have allowed for an immunization point. Its also highly possible that this is a virus that can not survive (well i say survive very lightly. theres significant debate as to wether viruses are actually alive at all but I digress) outside its usual area AKA Inside a demon. He could have been exposed through contaminated water, direct contact, maybe even breathing burned version through the air. Either way, he came into contact with a weakened version of the virus and it helps him later on.
As he comes into DIRECT contact with Corruption via plugging into The Charger this is when we would start to see some more interesting effects. This Corruption would still be different though because of the aforementioned stabilizing chemical reaction in the reactor. Also, because I think Eli's DNA would be integrated into it. This provides Robbie with genetic compatibility for the virus to jump off of. Remember, viruses don't want to kill a host, they just want to reproduce as much as possible (which does end up killing a host but still). And a fun fact about viruses is that we never actually get rid of them, we just get rid of the symptoms. Once you have it its in you forever.
SO. 1. Immune response from Robbies body begins to cause the nervous damage that would allow for his rapid increase in strength. 2.Immune system recognizes the genetic material is familiar (Eli doing something good even inadvertently I guess). 3. Immune system neutralizes the virus and incorporates it into Robbies genetic coding. All good right? Happy ending? WRONG.
BECAUSE WHEN THERE ARE COPYING ERRORS IN YOUR DNA (SOMETIMES FROM VIRUSES) WHAT DO WE CALL IT?? DING DING DING 10 POINTS TO THE MUTUAL THAT SAID āØMUTATIONāØ
This virus still carries genetic material from demons, this would also be getting integrated into Robbies DNA. Places like his spine which would have the most regular contact with the Corruption would probably take the brunt of these changes. It's possible that the nerve damage never truly goes away and he continuously tears and then rebuilds those muscles, resulting in overall increased strength thats technically?? stabilized?? Also I could totally see his body going 'oh shit were finally growing with decent access to fuel? BET' and just. Reactivates the growth plates in his bones ('Look! I've fixed his runt of the litter insecurity!' 'YOU FUCKED UP A PERFECTLY GOOD PILOT IS WHAT YOU DID. LOOK AT HIM. HES GOT ANXIETY ABOUT THE STATE OF HIS HUMANITY').
Oh yeah its also worth noting that this would be like. Pretty painful. We're talking constant soreness, cramps, deep aches that just won't go away. General suffering <3
Of course tapetum lucidum OF COURSE TEEF obviously as if I could go without it. You can get funky with mutations because hey. fucky wucky demon genome integration whoop whoop. Also could be interesting to see damaged areas on the Charger manifest on Robbie as damaged tissue. His skin says 'AH. Damage' and copies itself as scar tissue instead of the usual.
Oh god Ive been writing for a solid hour and a half I was supposed to be asleep a while ago ok. Moose I love this au and its making me unwell thank you for sharing with the class I hope you will consider my virus proposal for body horror purposes.
#love the idea of him just getting up one morning and going '??? Was the floor?? that far away before??'#im a sucker for it dude#also I am like. not a biologist . just enthusiastic about biology without the education. so take everything here with a grain of salt lmfao#i gotta go to sleep now. how am I gonna do that. much excitement. i make responsible choices like an adult.#ughhhh#robbie reyes#ghost rider#im prolly gonna look at this in the morning and edit the hell out of it because in my joyus haze of bullshit I didnt connect paragraphs#but fuck it we ball#pacific rim ghost rider au#my art#digital art#sketch#oh its also worth noting that the āØmutationsāØ im talking about generally result in like. cancer. very cancer#eli morrow#<- naughty. goes at the bottom of the list
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Fuck it, posts my SmallEtho playlist.
Part-Time Soulmate, Full-Time Problem: A SmallEtho/Boat Boys Playlist
(Best listened to on shuffle.)
This is a kinda long playlist (28 tracks), so if you only have time for a few songs, check out: āPyrokenesisā; āI Am Fred Astaireā; & āBuilt To Burn.ā
Full track list & selected lyrics under cut.
1. Son of a Gun - Motion City Soundtrack
Have you had enough? Are you tough? Are you broken?/Hit me where it hurts, donāt just curtsey & sulk/I know I deserve every elegant word that youāre hurling at me
2. Pyrokenesis - 7chariot
When you say the things you say, they start a little spark/Ignite this small but also highly flammable heart
Youāre setting me on fire, I donāt wanna fight it/You donāt need a lighter, youāre a flame/Drowning myself in water only makes it harder/Hard for me to keep myself away
3. Just One Yesterday - Fall Out Boy
I want to teach you a lesson in the worst kind of way/Still Iād trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday
4. Violently Alive - I Hate Kate
I hate that youāre there/And Iām here/In the same room/Miles from me to you/Weāre so distant/But close enough to touch
5. Tiger Teeth - Walk The Moon
Give in, give in, I want you back/One heart, one too many to stomach/Love bites so deep and we got tiger teeth
6. Itās Not A Fashion Statement, Itās A Deathwish - My Chemical Romance
Hip-hip-hooray for me, you talk to me/But would you kill me in my sleep?/Lay still like the dead/From the razor to the rosary, we could lose ourselves/And paint these walls in pitchfork red
7. True Romance - Motion City Soundtrack
Iām a screwup of epic proportions/A walking hand grenade/Hyper-manic, a dime store dramatic/A conduit for pain
She said āDonāt speak, donāt think,/Just take it off, take it offā/I said āDonāt speak, donāt think,/Just mess me up, mess me upā
8. Violence - blink-182
Like violence, you have me, forever and after/Like violence, you kill me, forever and after
9. I Am Fred Astaire - Taking Back Sunday
Iām under the assumption that Iām gonna be the one thatās leaving you/Tonight, oh, tonight/Well I flipped every switch that I could find on my way out/Just to upset you more/Just to keep you busy/Just to make you angry/Just because you were right
Iām stuttering through it, but I hear it/Well I-I I hear itās good t-t-to stick to what you know
10. The Wolf - The Crane Wives
I am not a tempest/I light torches in my sleep/I have gasoline in my veins/I am always burning, burning burning
11. Crave - Waterparks
Iām cravinā a getaway from the/Smooth talk thatās keeping me grounded/To the carpet in my room/My quiet blue tomb of you
I wish I could forget you
12. Hold Me Like A Grudge - Fall Out Boy
Hold me, hold me like a grudge/The world is always spinning and I canāt keep up/Faster and faster, canāt do it on my own/Part-time soulmate, full-time problem yeah/Hold me like a grudge
13. Formidable - Twenty One Pilots
You are formidable to me/āCause you seem to know it, where you wanna go/Yeah yeah yeah Iāll follow you/But you should know/I might be cynical towards you/But I just canāt believe that Iām for you/Yeah yeah yeah I can die with you/Just let me know
14. Play With Fire - Sam Tinnesz feat Yacht Money
I ride the edge/My speed goes in the red/Hot blood, these veins/My pleasure is their pain/I love to watch the castles burn/These golden ashes turn to dirt/Iāve always liked to play with fire
15. Bulletproof Heart - My Chemical Romance
Iāve got a bulletproof heart/Youāve got a hollow point smile/Me and your runaway scars/Got photographed dream on the getaway mile/Letās blow a hole in this town/And do our talking with a laser beam/Gunninā out of this place in a bulletās embrace/Then weāll do it again
16. The Truth Is, You Should Lie With Me - Say Anything
Youāre a pretty face, you should like me/I want to get used by you/āCause Iām full of hate, just excite me/I want to get bruised by you
17. Red - Pale Waves
Oh no baby, are we gonna make it this time?/I always take hearts that shouldnāt be mine, be mine/Slow down baby, are we gonna make it alive?/Youāve got a face that I always recognize/Always recognize
18. Kill V. Maim - Grimes
I did something bad, maybe I was wrong/Sometimes people says that Iām a big time bomb/But Iām only a man/And I do what I can
19. FUNERAL GREY - Waterparks
I said that you can call me, beep me/If you want my skin/She rolled her eyes and then she said/āI know your dying wish is to be baptized in my spitā
20. Shiver - Motion City Soundtrack
Shiver away, I thought the action was real/Somewhere I know thatās just the way you are/itās hard to believe that youāre a part of me/And I canāt believe when you carry on and on
21. Kiss With A Fist - Florence + The Machine
My black eye casts no shadow/Your red eye sees nothing/Your slaps donāt stick, your kicks donāt hit/So we remain the same/Love sticks, sweat drips/Break the lock if it donāt fit/A kick to the teeth is good for some/A kiss with a fist is better than none
22. Mr. Brightside- The Killers
It started out with a kiss/How did it end up like this/It was only a kiss/It was only a kiss
23. Tear You Apart - She Wants Revenge
Escape was just a nod and a casual wave/Obsess about it heavy for the next two days/Itās only just a crush, itāll go away/Itās just like all the others, itāll go away/Or maybe this is danger and he just donāt know/You pray it all away, but it continues to grow
24. Can You Feel My Heart (Remix) - Bring Me The Horizon, Jeris Johnson
Iām scared to get close/And I hate being alone/I long for that feeling to not feel at all
Holding on, bring me close, feel my heart/Can you feel my heart?
25. Built To Burn - Shaffer James
Weāll build a world/And burn it down/Everything is pretty/When we burn it to the ground
26. Hatefāk - The Bravery
There will be no tenderness, no tenderness/I will show no mercy for you/You had no mercy for me/The only thing that I ask/Love me mercilessly
27. Stupid For You - Waterparks
Youāre playing ring around my head/Iāll wear you like a halo/Youāre a symphony/Iām just a sour note/Iāll take what I can get/The best is hard to grip when everybody wants you/And everybody wants you
28. My Obsession - Pale Waves
Iām stood still, I can barely breathe/Youāre such a mess but youāre always beautiful to me/Run your fingers across my mouth/Iām not prepared to stay here without you
#so I know I said I was gonna do a series of art based on songs from that list#& I probably still will do a couple more!#but right now I am tired of waiting for myself to make a new cover image#or do any of the other paintings#so here it is with cover art being the only song based piece Iāve finished so far#also please tell me your thoughts on these songs if you have any!#I really really really want to discuss these songs with other SmallEtho fansā¦#okay now maybe my brain will let me focus on something else.#we can only hope.#joel smallishbeans#etho#smallishbeans#ethoslab#smalletho#boat boys#hermitshipping#trafficshipping#part time soulmate full time problem#Spotify
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