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I wanted to do something special for my Cas op - since I was imagining this would probably be my only chance to get one - and I really got it
The eye contact alone had me fighting for my life, but I was shaking a whole bunch and he squeezed my hands as I went to walk away ❤️
His eyes are so blue and his expression was so kind. And his hands are so big!!! Mine have completely disappeared lmao. Truly lovely man
#I cant explain how badly I was shaking here lmaooooo poor me. but he was so so sweet#genuinely couldn't be happier with this op I want to cry whenever I look at it. happy tears#castiel#misha collins#crossroads 8#cr8#misha photo ops#castiel photo ops#it's pie's face#cr8 adventures
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Guilt and sorrow weigh on Earl’s shoulder’s with the same weight of the Earth upon Atlas’s shoulders. Has he done so poorly to make Horo think he wants to be away from her? Does she think he resents her? He never could no matter how tired or frustrated he might be – never once has he ever resented her or having to be the one to try to raise her. Not through her tantrums when she was little or cries for parents. He only regrets he could not do more. He’s a man who knows exactly what he wants to say and how to say it; he feels hopelessly lost in this moment as he scavenges for words to erase such thoughts from Horo’s mind. It’s not her fault, she’s done nothing wrong. How could he fuck up so bad that she thinks he WANTS to leave her here?
Earl lifts is head when he hears her frantic movement, a surge of panic flaring in his own chest. If she runs away, he won’t be able to catch her other than eventually finding where in the MBCC she might go to. But she doesn’t run away. Instead he feels her weight against his back, her arms wrapping around him as best as they can. When was the last time she’d hugged him before all this? It doesn’t matter because she is, here and now.
His throat bobs as he tries to swallow the lump in his throat. Feeling her tears and hearing her sobs feels like hundreds of knives being plunged into his heart. He hates being the reason she cries. “ Horo. Horo, come here. “ His voice shakes and wavers with emotion as he moves, coaxing her from clinging to his back so he can pull her against his chest and hug her in kind. He wants to speak but the words get caught in his throat, and the unshaking pillar that is Legion’s advisor trembles as he presses his face against her hair, a few tears falling down his own cheeks. And even now in the midst of his own tears he still tries to be the good older brother, a hand soothing through her hair with gentleness seldom seen by others.
“ I don’t want to be away from you either. “ He whispers, eyes still squeezed shut. “ That’s the last thing I would ever want.” He listens though to what she has to say, the same way he always has. But he can't stifle the wounded noise in his throat as he clutches onto her just a bit tighter, his strong form trembling just slightly. " You think so? " His voice is rough, choked with emotion that even he can't suppress. " I'm sorry...Sorry Horo. " he rasps, face hidden though he doesn't elaborate what he's apologizing for as he falls quiet. "...I'm not very good as passing off things. I.... I am going to need your help, Horo. " It is a rare admission said on shaky breath. " Just not yet. But I promise... I will need it. "
the truth was, horo knows what she said isn't the truth. she knows earl wants nothing but the best for her, to protect her, to keep her bubbled as much as possible. but it's not what horo wants, and that's all she's been thinking about since finding out his big escape plan. she's not really considered what he's feeling, what he's sacrificing. because she's never really had to, he's always held himself together so well that it was rare she saw him make a mistake or mess up. that just wasn't like earl, not in recent years. but standing here, across from him now, she sees his facade easily shatter, and emotions that she never knew he felt surface onto his visage, her throat dries up.
guilt grips at her, it takes her breath away and feels as intense as a heart attack. he responds and she barely takes any of it in, far too focused on the look on his face as he breaks in front of her. at some point during his response, her eyes prickle with tears, and her lower lip begins to tremble. and the minute an apology is voiced, horo is rushing out from the table.
she moves easily around to his side within a few short seconds, small, yet strong arms wrapping around her brother from behind, engulfing him as much as she can considering their height difference and width difference. horo wasn't tall like earl, and while he wasn't particularly muscular, he was broader than her. her face buries into his neck, nose tickled by the same shade of hair she had. " i'm sorry! " it comes out as a panicked yell as her heart continues to constrict in her chest. it was painful, just as painful as seeing his face moments ago.
no sooner than later does she feel the tears she tried to keep tamed soak his hair, but it's not something she cares about. her hold on him is strong, but not too strong - she doesn't want to hurt him. " i didn't mean that! i just- i just don't want to be away from you. especially now, after this! " after he almost died, again. it's not something she thinks her little heart could handle. her lower lip continues to tremble, and she takes a moment to sob quietly before continuing. " you're the best big brother in the world, okay? mom and dad are so proud of you, i know it! and they probably agree with you, which pisses me off a little... but you've done great! i just don't understand why you can't let me help, earl... "
#soulsballad#WAILS AND SOBS IN THE DISTANCE#its the fact this makes earl cry#so sorry if this scares / rattles you horo#i think earl's always worked extremely hard to not cry in front of horo#or anyone really#always worked so hard to be that pillar of steel for ppl#but here he is crying and shaking#AAAAAAA#᛭ — [IC] raven wings guiding the wolves [EARL]#᛭ — [QUEUE] ghosts of the past and of the future
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something something blood-soaked hands cradling your face something something
anyway here's the post btw
#what if post dp3 logan struggles to emotionally accept that wade Will Actually For Real Survive Anything#and one time they are fighting some random baddies#and they somehow get in a few shots straight to wade's cranium and he drops like a bag of slutty slutty potatoes#and logan goes full berserker trying to get to him#like he just massacres everyone in his way and wade still isnt getting up ohnoohnoohnonotagainohno#(healing factor or no a few direct shots to the brain stem/t box take a bit to recover from)#(no more than five minutes but it's an eternity to logan)#and his heart sinks to the very core of the earth as he kneels down next to wade's body#and his hands are shaking and soaked in blood and he can't seem to sheathe his claws in his dazed adrenalined state#he tries to peel back wade's mask and fear is just *pounding* through his system because in that moment#all he can see are the xmen dead in massive pools of blood#and that feeling of unreality is rushing over him like thiscantbehappeningthiscantbehappeningnotagainohgodnotagain#wade's still and unresponsive and there is so Much BLOOD (hard to tell how much is Wade's and how much is just on his hands)#and logan doesn't even realize he's crying until suddenly wade's eyes light up like a computer restarting#and he's smiling and gasping and joking immediately#“well howdy there hot stuff what did I miss?”#and then he clocks that logan is Not Okay#“... well gee willikers golly goddamn peanut 'twas only a flesh wound! no need to go all waterworks over lil ol me”#“you know it would take a helluva lot more than that to make me shuffle off this here mortal coil!”#“see all better I'm hunky dory peachy keen right as fucking rain”#“I mean cmon I can't have been out for more than five minutes so let's just go back to you being exasperated with my bullshit antics okay??#“...okay sugarboobs? snookums? babycakes?.... Logan?”#and they just sit there on the floor holding each other for a while#wade babbling and logan crying about everything he's lost and wondering distantly how he has come to care so much#about this blithering jokester in like barely a week#that the thought of losing him brought him crashing back to the worst memory of his extremely rough life#anyway that's enough tag mini fic lolol I'm having feelings about my own drawing I guess 😵#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine art
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Shitty Light Novel fanart drawn on my phone in ibis bc I had a vision but no access to my tablet
#saiki k#saiki k fanart#art tag#Do I think he’s actually crying in this scene? No. Did I draw it that way solely for the aesthetic and pose? Yes.#In my defense he was shaking like a leaf and panicking over feeling lonely the whole chapter I couldn’t not picture this#If you want to understand the context here read the light novel pls read all the ones u can find they’re great
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HOW HAVE I NEVER NOTICED THIS
LAYTON USES TU FOR FUTURE LUKE BUT SWITCHES TO VOUS THE SECOND CLIVE'S IDENTITY IS REVEALED.
Tu and vous both mean you but Tu implies closeness : in the entirety of Unwound Future, Layton only ever uses Tu with Flora, the Lukes and Claire
#I'm shaking crying throwing up#WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME.#He immediately uses tu for Future Luke which is A LOT#In real life we often stumble trying to know which one to use because vous is distance but also respect like for a boss or teacher#(Everyone except Claire uses vous for Layton because he's a highly educated adult and a gentleman)#Layton must really appreciate and trust Luke. He immediately went 'Oh that's a Luke of course he's a close one'#And it makes sense that he would discard the tu when he finds out that nope this is a total stranger manipulating us all#But also normal people would go from tu (affectionate) to tu (derogatory). Of course Layton doesn't as a gentleman but. Ouch#And he never goes back to tu not even after finding out Clive is the orphan he saved#I'm crying why are you doing that to me. It's so subtle I had NEVER noticed but it's there#Maybe the vous will go back to respect or pleasant distance one day but Clive isn't deserving of a tu. He's not Luke. He's a stranger#I HAVE to do a complete pronoun analysis one day. I've talked about it here and there but I need to do a big analysis#Professeur layton et le destin perdu#Professeur layton#hershel layton#clive dove#Been posting a lot of angst lately oops#Professor layton and the unwound Future#Professor layton and the lost future#Unwound Future spoilers#Lost Future spoilers
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A longer clip of him eating spicy sauce 😭
Oh our poor boy 😭😭😭
Here’s the whole video for y’all btw!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VKaE5V-DqCc&t=2s
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#joost#joost klein#joost edit#joostice#justice for joost#apson#europapa#stuntje#esc 2024#esc24#Joost video#Joost YouTube#Youtube#joost post queue#ugh he’s so HOT HERE WTF#towards the end he says he wants to go lay down in bed and cry 😭😭😭😭#poor joost 😭😭😭#someone get him more milk and some bread please!!#oh man if he didn’t have food in his stomach before that he was probably in so much pain later too 😭😭😭#his hands are like shaking a bit oh babes 😭😭😭😭😭
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Kudos to Danny for having the same reaction faces as me, made me feel seen and burst a laugh
Best Friend Danny never disappointing 👍
#interview with the vampire#the head shaking#please#the :|#im crying#my beautiful boy#WHEN DEVILS MINION#WE'RE GETTING DRAMATICALLY SIDE TRACKED HERE#WHEN IS HE GON FUCK THAT OLD MAN#daniel molloy#armand and daniel#armand#amadeo
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or alternatively dweeb meets other dweeb more news at 11
LIGHT. LIGHT IN HIS EYES. LOOK AT EM BIG OLE EYES. LOOK AT HIM TOUCH HIS JERSEY.
GLORY BE TO THE MIKKSY SIGNED JERSEY RAAAAAAAAA
CanesWear Signing | 7.1.24
#niko mikkola#florida panthers#the mortifying ordeal of being known#you can tell how bad i was shaking from how much the jersey moves in my hands oh it was so serious for me its not even funny#“youre my favourite player thats why” “thank you” girl i would eat concrete for you without any hesitation#“new jersey?” me sweating profusely because i have to admit i had this jersey for a while now in front of his face oh god oh FUCK#“where do you want it? here or here?” “anywhere choose where anywhere” “ill do this way”#behold decision paralysis plus the constitution of a doormat with an awful aim to please vs the assuredness of a bull romping through field#“i mean its your jersey at the end of the day”#he says without thinking because he lacks a brain to mouth filter and immediately wants to slam his head into the nearest hardest object#but its okay it got a little smile out of mikksy so maybe my motor mouth can be used for good#my voice is so hoarse because i stood under for 7 hours and also loudly cheered like never before all throughout those 7 hours yesterday#also a lot of people had tickets for both mikksy and lundy or just lundy so thats why the line was moving slowly#so at one point they went OKAY WHO HAS TICKETS FOR JUST NIKO and i raised my hand like oo oo mee ☝️ and got rushed to the front#also a lot of the stuff he was signing was nonspecific posters and hats or other players jerseys (that already had other signatures on em)#which is why the attendant was like oh sweet jersey! and mikksy was like new jersey? because there werent many people at all#comparatively his signing was priced the lowest at 39 out of all cats players. the highest currently is benny at 60#does it suck his line was shorter. there was surprise when someone toddles in with a mikksy jersey. and that his signing was priced low?#yes ofc but also i didnt have to stand in the heat for long got ushered in faster and my wallet didnt cry so lets not kid ourselves here#there are silver lining to everything but anyways first hockey jersey and first signature on it acquire call that a man on a mission 😎👉👉#long tags i love mikksy i lot you understand right <3#also im never wearing this jersey again so i might as well buy a frame and ANOTHER mikksy jersey#to bad it also has my 30th ani cats patch on it too </3
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#just heard how a dog got hit by a car#i went too look what happened because that sound really was horrifying#the dog was still breathing and a man was sitting beside him#the car owners also stopped luckily#i really hope he survives#the car owners took the dog with them#i walked home full crying#still shaking a little bit#i'm sorry to post this here#but i really needed to vent#because seeing that dog lying there really was so heartbreaking#and in that moment i really wished i could help him#and i just started crying again
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me: *almost finishing rewatching all of the s5 trailer* okayy the animations is like not the best thing in the world but we're gtting a lot of nezah stuff and maybe sandy centric episode so-
trailer: *red son and mei moment*
me:
#guys#gius#guys i dropped tot he floor#im almost crying over here#spent 2 minutes rowling in my bed of excitement#adn a lot of jumping and hand shaking happened#my chest is still bustling with excitement#the picture i put cant fully explain how happy i am holy-#im so happy#okay fuck wahtever theyre saying about the animation im so happy#guys reds actually fully back#guysss#guysssssssss#i never noticed how weird the word guy looks#huh#ANYWAY#lmk s5#lego monkie kid#lmk#lmk season 5#lmk season 5 spoilers
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"You'll come back," Manon said.
It sounded like more of a threat than anything
Dorian smirked. "Would you miss me if I didn't?"
Manon didn't reply. He didn't know why he expected her to.
He'd taken all of a step, when Asterin clasped his shoulder. "In and out, quick as you can," she warned him. "Take care of Narene." Worry indeed shone in the Second's gold-flecked black eyes. Dorian bowed his head. "With my life," he promised as he approached her mount and grasped the dangling reins. He didn't fail to miss the gratitude that softened Asterin's features. Or that Manon had already turned away from him.
A fool to start down this path with her. He should have known better.
The hours that passed were some of the longest of Manon's existence.
From anticipation, she told herself. Of what she had to do.
Abraxos, unsurprisingly, found them within an hour, his reins sliced from the struggle he'd no doubt waged and won with Sorrel. He waited, however, beside Manon in silence, wholly focused upon the gate where Dorian and Narene had vanished.
Time dripped by. The king's sword was constant weight at her side. She cursed herself for needing to prove-to him, to herself-that she refused to let him go into Morath for practical, ordinary reasons. Erawan wasn't at the Ferian Gap. It'd be safer. Somewhat. But if the Matrons were there … That was why he'd gone. To learn if they were. To see if Petrah truly commanded the host there, and how many Ironteeth were present. He had not been trained as a spy, but he'd grown up in a court where people wielded smiles and clothes like weapons. He knew how to blend in, how to listen. How to make people see what they wished to see. She'd sent Elide into the dungeons of Morath, Darkness damn her. Sending the King of Adarlan into the Ferian Gap was no different.
It didn't stop her breath from escaping when Abraxos stiffened, scanning the sky. As if he heard something they couldn't.
And it was the joy that sparked in her mount's eyes that told her.
Moments later, Narene sailed toward them, making a lazy path over the mountains, a dark-haired, pale-skinned rider atop her. He'd truly been able to change parts of himself. Had made his face nearly unrecognizable. And kept it that way.
Asterin rushed toward the mare, and even Manon blinked as her Second threw her arms around Narene's neck. Holding her tight. The mare only leaned her head against Asterin's back and huffed.
Manon hadn't dwelled long on what she'd say.
And as the three hundred Ironteeth witches filed into the hall, some coming off their patrols, Manon half wondered if she should have. They watched her, watched the Thirteen, with a wary disdain.
Their disgraced Wing Leader; their fallen Heir.
When all were gathered, Petrah, still standing in the doorway where she'd appeared, merely said, "My life debt for an audience, Blackbeak."
Manon swallowed, her tongue as dry as paper. Seated atop Abraxos, she could see every shifting movement in the crowd, the wide eyes or hands gripping swords.
"I will not tell you the particulars of who I am," Manon said at last. "For I think you have already heard them."
"Crochan bitch," someone spat.
Manon set her eyes on the Blackbeaks, stone-faced where the others bristled with hatred. It was for them she spoke, for them she had come here.
jacket, then hoisting up her white shirt. Rising in the stirrups to bare her scarred, brutalized abdomen. "She does not lie."
UNCLEAN
There, the word remained stamped. Would always be stamped.
"How many of you," Asterin called out, "have been similarly branded? By your Matron, by your coven leader? How many of you have had your stillborn witchlings burned before you might hold them?"
The silence that fell now was different from before. Shaking shuddering.
Manon glanced at the Thirteen to find tears in Ghislaine's eyes as she took in the brand on Asterin's womb. Tears in the eyes of all of them, who had not known. And it was for those tears, which Manon had never seen, that she faced the host again.
"You will be killed in this war, or after it. And you will never see our homeland again."
"What is it that you want, Blackbeak?" Petrah asked from the archway.
"Ride with us," Manon breathed. "Fly with us.
Against Morath. Against the people who would keep you from your homeland, your future." Murmuring broke out again. Manon pushed ahead, "An Ironteeth-Crochan alliance. Perhaps one to break our curse at last."
Again, that shuddering silence. Like a storm about to break Asterin sat back in the saddle, but kept her shirt open.
"The choice of how our people's future shall be shaped is yours," Manon told each of the witches assembled, all the Blackbeaks who might fly to war and never return. "But I will tell you this." Her hands shook, and she fisted them on her thighs. "There is a better world out there. And I have seen it."
Even the Thirteen looked toward her now.
"I have seen witch and human and Fae dwell together in peace. And it is not weakness to do so, but a strength. I have met kings and queens whose love for their kingdoms, their peoples, is so great that the self is secondary. Whose love for their people is so strong that even in the face of unthinkable odds, they do the impossible."
Manon lifted her chin. "You are my people. Whether my grandmother decrees it so or not, you are my people, and always will be. But I will fly against you, if need be, to ensure that there is a future for those who cannot fight for it themselves. Too long have we preyed on the weak, relished doing so. It is time that we became better than our foremothers." The words she had given the Thirteen months ago. "There is a better world out there," she said again. "And I will fight for it." She turned Abraxos away, toward the plunge behind them. "Will you?"
Manon nodded to Petrah. Eyes bright, the Heir only nodded back. They would be permitted to leave as they had arrived: unharmed.
So Manon nudged Abraxos, and he leaped into the sky, the Thirteen following suit.
Not a child of war. But of peace.
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any time i remember time lord victorious arc i start shaking like a sick fucking dog
#having an extraordinarily hard time watching waters of mars rn literally episode of all fucking time#they dont make them like this anyMOOOOOOOOOORE OHHMY GODDDD#icould talk abt it for hours istg it's so. grips you shakes you shakes you shakes you shakes you sh#the WAYYDYDYDHDHDJDJDJDUJDJDHDJDUDJD THHHEEEE THE THE THE . HTHHEHEH#the way u can see glimpses of what's to come in all 4 seasons but especially in voyage of the#damned and then s4 onwards but u dont realise JUST how much he went insane until now#like there's echoes of this in votd but you might not even pick up on it if you dont Know#n here he's just fully gone it's sooo. IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOO. CHARACTER OF ALL TIME#man so profoundly tragic his entire story is abt speedrunning losing everything and#going insane and dying. and yet he still spends like 20 entire minutes crying and begging not to die. okay#i cant rank drs they're my best friends so idk who my fave dr is but 10's is easily my favourite story it's so. it's SOOO.#anyway sorry. stops shaking you and pats your arms down awkwardly. carry on#doctor who#dw lb#10th doctor#the waters of mars#time lord victorious#i was today years old when i learned there's apparently a whole audio series about it that#came out in the past few years. well i aint listenin to that. everything i need is on my screen already#also. the way most ppl havent even seen these specials coz they're impossible to find online..#even tho waters of mars is like. not just extremely important but also yknow. extremely good
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Happy birthday! I drew a little something for you! Hope you like it! ^^
AA FUCK I DIDNT SEE THIS YESTERDAY IM A LIL LATE NOW BUT THANJ YOU THANK YOU HE LOOKS SO GOOD IN YOUR STYLE AAA :333 THANKYOU AGAIN!!!!
#oh wait yeah iont talk about my ocs on here#his name is melancholy he means a lot to me 💔#I LOVE THIS :(((/POS#CRYING SHAKING THROWING U/POS
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i need them to put eddie in a coma so he can have his own little coma dream realization
#like can you imagine#maybe he didnt reenlist#maybe hes got that perfect little romantic life he keeps thinking he had with shannon#maybe they stayed in el paso#or the three of them moved to la together when shannons mom got sick#and maybe eddie isnt a firefighter maybe he went into contracting or landscaping because he likes to work with his hands#or maybe he went into nursing because he likes helping people#but hes living a perfect little life with a son and wife and their white picket fence but he cant shake the feeling that something is wrong#he pulls aside for a firetruck on his way to work and something about it makes him feel funny like he misses something#and so he asks shannon when he gets home#hey did i ever apply to the fire academy#and she says no why would you have done that?? as she places a warmed frozen lasagna down on the diner table#he watches chris pick at his plate and swears that chris loved lasagna#and maybe hes out on his lunch break at the park and he hears a woman cry and run to find a man collapsed on the ground and shes panicking#so he tells her to call 911 and he starts compressions#the fire department shows up and hen and chim take his place and he fills them in before stepping back#youre good under pressure buck says from beside him#and eddie just kinda looks at him for a second because#he feels right#this feels right#being right here beside this man with a crooked grin on his face feels right#but eddie just shrugs and says well i was in the army kinda came with the territory#and then bobbys voice crackles through the radio buck i told you to stop flirting on calls get in the truck now#and buck returns an ay ay captain and winks at eddie before hopping in the firetruck#he watches engine 118 drive away and thinks he should be right next to buck in that truck#okay i got carried away but i need it#like there are so many possibilities for eddie coma dream and like#tim listen to me i need you to do think i need eddie to be put into a coma so he can realize that his life now is everything hes needed
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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW
#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does#like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful#while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child#like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child#only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you#his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you#agree deep down#and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept#but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide#and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke#and you discarded it and got a new one#and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow#and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it#until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly#and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different#and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child#and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da#and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand#but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee#his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing#and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love#or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do#with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like
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riddle, rollo, and… ace?
This kind of fits in with my other posts speculating on Masquerade part II. The previous posts were about Rollo meeting Ortho and Lilia, respectively.
***Spoilers below the cut!!***
I’ve often seen parallels being drawn between Rollo and Riddle’s backstories, which makes sense 🤔 They are both stubborn in their worldviews and try to force their idea of what is “proper and just” upon others. When their views are challenged, they spiral into rages and insist that they are correct, and that everyone else is “wrong” or “the villain”. (And, of course, on a superficial note, they lean towards fire-based magic.)
But with that in mind, now consider… Wouldn’t it be a throwback to see how Rollo interacts with Ace? All the way back in episode 1 of the main story, Ace called out Riddle for acting like a tyrant. He has continued being the voice of reason for other characters acting unreasonable across various events and vignettes, such as Ghost Marriage (to Eliza) and Endless Halloween Night (to Malleus, in Ace’s Halloween vignettes). I can 100% see Ace also putting Rollo on blast for his actions (in a Fairy Gala: If-like scenario, so same plot just played by different characters) 😂
Ace comes from a particular background which can add to the tension and drama. He is also a younger brother, has a view of magic that is very positive (he wants to be like his mage older brother), and uses his magic carelessly (ie remember when he set the Queen of Hearts on fire) or for things Rollo would deem frivolous and unnecessary (like pulling pranks on others, as he did with Deuce’s birthday present). These are all traits that make Ace very similar to Rollo’s own little brother—a brother that, may I remind you, has already passed.
There also remains the unaddressed and unresolved conflict of episode 5 in which Ace expresses disbelief that Deuce unlocked his unique magic before he did (the duo spent episode 6 mostly knocked out). Ace must be harboring some frustrations that he was not able to keep up with his rival and friend in spite of being so sure that he would be the one to surpass Deuce. These are circumstances which make Ace uniquely like Rollo—feeling upset that he does not have his magic sooner, and some unspoken disappointment and guilt wrapped up in that.
So imagine Ace being one of the people to confront Rollo 🤡 and when he’s chewing him out, all Rollo sees is an older version of his dead brother talking back and disapproving of his actions. As the SSR trio of the current Masquerade event point out, would Rollo’s brother really have been happy knowing that he’s going to such extremes, and using his brother’s death and the claim that he is “saving” others to justify it? And now here comes Ace, telling Rollo all of that right to his face while also emulating a similar energy as his brother once did. It’s like Rollo’s brother has come back from beyond to grave specifically to tell Rollo he’s disappointed in him, to tell him what he’s doing is wrong-and that would still set Rollo off, sending him into a fresh fit of rage for similar reasons as Riddle. (Yes, we are coming full circle and bringing it back to Rollo and Riddle parallels.)
Because if what they’ve been doing all along was actually wrong instead of right like they’ve been viewing it... What did Riddle do all that studying in isolation for? Why did he have to conform to these rules all his life, only to now discover that he was wrong? Why was Rollo saddled with this burden of magic, and a unique magic which will always remind him of his younger brother’s ashen end? Why did he have to stew with all of these complicated emotions while everyone else openly indulged in the sin of magic?
“Then what was the point of it all…?” What was the point of all of their suffering?! Was it all meaningless? Were their efforts worth nothing? Are their feelings and personal experiences up until this point just... pointless? Neither Riddle nor Rollo would automatically take responsibility for their own actions, nor accept fault for their harsh worldviews, so they both lashed out in anger instead.
And not only that, but there’s also a bit of Rollo in Ace--that upset associated with not being inadequate or not being able to measure up to expectations, something that Rollo never acknowledged about himself. We get brief glimpses of Rollo doubting himself, implying that his magic is a burden or a curse, or claiming that he was not able to save his brother. Yet Rollo only continued to blame others for this and tried to overcompensate/overcorrect for what was ultimately a dissatisfaction he had with himself, rather than with the world. Ace could help really drive that home as he’s escorting Rollo down the bell tower (as he’s not very tactful with his words), with just a dash of understanding his situation--because Ace is likely confused in his own way, still trying to discover what makes himself “unique”, just as Rollo is left confused about where to go from here on out.
sahdbaodbsada I just think there’s something potentially interesting to be explored between Ace and Rollo! I also just love it when Ace does a good call out 😂
#Rollo Flamme#Ace Trappola#twst#Rollo Flamm#Riddle Rosehearts#twisted wonderland#Cater is a younger sibling too but#the relationship with his sisters is not a big focus#and then you have responsible big bros like Trey and Jack shaking their heads at Rollo#Leona had strong magic at a young age like Rollo’s lil bro#but also grew up cynical because he knew his magical strength was a source of ridicule#so he started off like Rollo’s lil bro but in essence grew up to be closer to Rollo#Kalim is over here crying for Rollo’s brother 😭#he has so many younger siblings himself#he can’t imagine the pain of losing one#okay but Oasis Maker vs Dark Fire who would win???#notes from the writing raven#disney twisted wonderland#spoilers#can you tell I just really want the main story to address Ace's lack of UM#and how he feels about Deuce getting his own#right before him#even though Ace has been bullying Deuce all along about it
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