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noel-levine-fan · 5 months ago

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this line has always baffled me genuinely what is she talking about. what book

edit: anon helped me with this one, apparently this an idiom...! oops lol. see, i have heard things like "you could write a book on x, you know so much about it...!" but never "you wrote a book on x," like, in the past tense, like you actually wrote it. perhaps this is common and i just don't know about it, but either way, i'm happy my question is finally answered...

i'm afraid i do look a little silly now... but that's alright

NOOOOO GUYS STOP LIKING THIS POST ITS EMBARASSSINGGGGG (not genuine go ahead I find it funny)

#witch's heart spoilers #sirius gibson #lime witch's heart #usually i wouldn't liveblog on tumblr but this lives rent free in my head what #this is especially strange considering sirius actually doesnt run away that much? he says he always has done that but its not true #yes he is a coward but when his parents died he didnt run away he was frozen in fear #when dorothy was being killed he didnt run away #he actually chose to stay in the mansion stubbornly #i guess hes been hesitant to fight monsters but i wouldnt say run away from them #main instance he runs away is in this route when he runs away from claire because hes paranoid about everyone #otherwise i have trouble thinking of when he does #not saying its ooc of him to want to run away it isnt #he IS the type to run away a lot he just hasn't really been presented with many situations where he WOULD #but the fact that he hasn't makes this “writing a book on running away” feel strange #like what would that kind of book even be?? a step by step guide?? you cant fill a book with that #some fiction where someone runs away from stuff? genuinely what was there some cut dialogue or something #also why would lime know about this does she go around observing what books hes writing #idk if he did she just doesnt seem like shed care enough to notice if he was writing a book

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jrueships · 7 months ago

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Paul George on Stephen A. Smith’s Kawhi Leonard jab: “I didn’t like that moment… Kawhi wants to play… We exhausted a lot out of Kawhi this season. So at some point your body breaks you down… I didn’t appreciate that moment. I know I laughed because the situation was lighthearted, but deep down it was like you gotta let that go, Stephen A.”

Paul George, knight in shining armor

#HE DOES . u know. defend his girlbosses #as a good malewife husband soes #but like... he'll defend them.. five days after the fact #like hes just zoned out during the actual time of necessary defense #thinking about what new gaming chair to buy for himself whilst squinting harshly #i think tauruses and caps get shoehorned into being hashtag Daddies hashtag when it comes to personalities #like yes theyre grounded but that also means they like to duck into their little safety hovels sometimes #if a taurus is in an uncomfortable place/position.. they will often just smile& think abt how much they miss their regular place of comfort #until the moment passes #'oh but theyre so stubborn and loyal! theyll stand up for anyone! all the time!' stubbornness can ironically flucuate #theyre still showing stubbornness! just to the fact that they wanna go home. and they need this moment to pass #and if they bring something up rn.. it will not pass rn #this kind of thinking does not always bode well with fire signs #as much as i love to bully paul .. seeing others do it just isnt the same.. it does not come from a place of love in the end !!#'hes always been a coward-- too afraid to step up and be the bad guy. do the dirty work' no girl hes just a bit stupid #hes literally excitedly told reporters that hes soooo hyped up to try and be the rebound passer guy today #and then one game later hes like 'yea i kinda did too much.. that was.. not good 😔'#like he is doing the best in his mind! his doing bad is not out of bad intent! it's good intent and he is just failing miserably at it #LEAVE MY CRINGEFAIL MALEWIFE ALONE ‼️‼️‼️#MY CANCELLED GIRLFAILURE !!#he just wants to be a trophy husband to a terrifying strange and unusual mystery of a man like isnt that why we wrote dracula #is this not why creepypasta self insert y/n imagines exist on wattpad ?#paul george is just a y/n living in a spiteful world #LMFAOOO #hes so stupid i want to kill him but no one else can kill him but me ok #pg13 years old

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a-gay-bloodmage · 7 days ago

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Care to Join Us For Some Tea?

(Emmrich Volkarin & Sascha Ingellvar)

Rook is a very strange creature, always keeping to the shadows of the Lighthouse like a timid ghost. It isn't until Emmrich recalls a strange encounter, three decades past and in the depths of the Grand Necropolis, that he begins to understand what made Sascha Ingellvar into the man he is today.

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#dragon age #dragon age the veilguard #original content #emmrich volkarin #da rook #sascha ingellvar #ao3 #this was a fun (painful) one to write #I've mentioned it before but I work in a school and that involves working with all kinds of kids AND adults #And the process of “child has tendency to run- one adult talks to other adult- one tries to deal with the child- one documents behavior”#is one that I know pretty well at this point #by the time of datv Sascha is 36 years old and has Developed past where he was at 6 but he's still... the child they found in the tombs #He's always going to be strange and echoy and socially awkward and unsure who it's Safe to be around #he just really really really needs a place to Belong and I feel like he'll be able to find that in the Lighthouse amongst the Veilguard #sorry if I bring up anyone's worst memories of being in Special Ed and not treated well by the overworked staff in there #And I'm really happy with how I ended up writing Emmrich and his POV #According to QoAM I did really well #I feel like people know Emmrich very well as he is in-game so I wanted to explore him in his younger days before he's as Established #not just as a Mourn Watch but as someone who is more willing to stand up for what's right and- especially- someone who loves children #I think of all the people I knew in their teens who Hated kids who have softened more and more as they got older and more mature #I certainly don't think Emmrich ever hated children (he's always been Soft) but I feel like it's more of a “how patient am I?”#Like I look at Manfred and how he also Echoes and Mimics and I'm like. Yeah. That's like my little special ed kids.#Emmrich you would be PERFECT in the life skills room I wanna go run Coffee Cart with you that would be great #anyway happy birthday Sascha!! So sorry that your childhood was so fucking awful and you spent your sixth birthday like This #Tumblr not linking to ao3 makes me want to kill this site #Birthday Fic

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wr-n · 10 months ago

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GOD i love dustard,,,,, GOD,,,,, yeah,,, yeag,,,,

they're just,,, SO GOOD i cant even,,,,

#i think that the way they look at each other post genocide route is so complicated and exciting #because classic had always been the one to soften fell from how tense his world had made him #gave him a reason to hope for a brighter future #and to suddenly find your lover CHANGED in such a deep way is very jarring #id imagine its the same kind of shock value as finding out that Killer in Underverse is an alternate timeline Classic #but also now that Dust is far more unstable than fell is fell is left to pick up the pieces and finds himself in a strange position #now HE has to function as a buffer for Dust #i said this already in a distant similar post but GOD i LOVE fell trying to draw out his Classic from inside Dust #and maybe it works to slowly guide Dust into safer waters #wraith notes #dust sans #fell sans

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sysig · 7 months ago

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Wake up somewhere better, maybe (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #Harvey Dent #ZEX #Blood #Ask to tag #Stepping back even further - I'm sure you can understand needing a little extra time on this #For multiple reasons haha #It took such a while to finish the first one and not just on an editing front! Honestly that didn't take very long at all haha #There's a frame somewhere that's bothering me - I ''animated'' that movement frame-by-frame myself so if it's a bit strange it's my eye #At least it's mostly like what I wanted! Mostly like what I saw in my head! The three overlapping and then drawing back to show the depth #It really was such a strong mental image for me - it's amazing how simultaneous things can be despite being described separately #The dog - Harvey - ZEX - all moving at their own pace! A split second can be so expanded like a slow-mo shot ah #It's honestly a very beautiful medium #Hhhh ZEX's death was very affecting to me ;; I so very much wanted him to go out the way he wanted to #Befitting his Admiral status - strong and confident and surrounded by his crew #But by that point he was so tired and ready to rest - it would have been sadder to watch him continue to barely scrape by #Not even killed by his Beauty! Just one good chomp from one big sick dog :'0 #The others trying to protect him - they didn't know him just out of whatever empathy they had for their fellow!#Zero was a hero so that kind of character is easy enough haha but even Harvey! Even after ZEX made him uncomfortable with his long looks lol #He was still willing to help in whatever way he was able ;; And it still ended the same #His last word being just ''pain'' hhhwehhh ;;#It is always the saddest-saddest to me to have such an articulate and eloquent witty verbose and silly character reduced to singulars #Something so simple and still so expressive hh </3 ZEX dearest hweh #But loving also means letting go! Death was a release he needed even if it's sad #I'm a real sucker for Meet Me In The Afterlife kind of stories so I may or may not have batted that around as an idea down the line #He has plenty of loved ones that have seen the other side - even from the Institute specifically!!#It's not exactly a happy ending but it's something <3

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orcelito · 3 months ago

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Considering the. Ahem. Ways this year has gone, I've not been thinking about it all that much, but. I did start this year with the motto of Year Of Unfucking My Life. With a few goals involved in that.

I got an official adhd diagnosis, as well as a diagnosis for PCOS. Other diagnoses in progress. Gotten adhd meds and birth control to regulate periods. I've gone back to school and I'm keeping up with it better than ever before. I've even been working on practicing driving, something I've been largely neglecting since I first got my driving permit, um... 11 years ago...

I just need to actually Get my license. And I need to get it before the end of the year. If I can accomplish that, then I'll say the Year Of Unfucking My Life was successful.

#speculation nation #i had some pretty major negative And positive influences for this goal of mine.#primary negative influence of course being my dad abruptly dying.#but that also led to the primary positive influence of the life insurance payout that's letting me just focus on school for my final year.#it's like a monkey's paw curl kind of moment. i got a genuinely astounding amount of money #more than enough to live off for a year+ and pay off the rest of my schooling.#with this i have finally exited the purgatory of part time school full time work to pay my way through school #a setup that led to endless stress (both physically and mentally) and suffering grades.#failing some classes and taking longer bc part time Anyways. locking me into years and years of this perpetual fucking Hell.#ive escaped it. school is so so so much more manageable when i dont have to work a job. im actually keeping up with my assignments.#for once theres no uncertainty about passing any of my classes. i Will pass them all. and i expect As in most if not all of them.#it's been fucking Amazing. everything i couldve wanted. and it came with the low low cost of losing my father when i was only 26.#... 'low' being sarcastic here of course. he was the 2nd worst person i couldve lost in my life. second only to my sister.#the 2nd worst grief i will Ever experience. bc he was my Good parent. hes the very reason i have a future at All.#and losing him fucked me up Severely. im still working on recovering. i kind of figure i always Will be.#thank god id already been taking spring semester off bc that would've been Horrible to go thru while in school.#i honestly probably would've just withdrawn from the semester. theres no Way id have kept up with it #given how damned BUSY those first few weeks after were. between funeral prep and inventorying and packing up his house.#so fucking much involved in settling an estate. and im the lucky one in that my sister's been handling all the legal shit.#so i simultaneously was dealt one of the most severe blows i ever Will be dealt #while also being given probably the biggest boost i'll ever get in my life.#if everything goes well with graduating and getting an IT job then i'll never want for money again.#considering there was a time early last year when i got as low as literally $7 in my bank account. this is a pretty big deal.#it's just... strange. the ways things go in life. this has been a very strange year for me.#just doing my best to use this boost to the best of my ability. even if it feels like im taking advantage of his death.#it's what he wouldve wanted me to do.

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quinn-pop · 1 year ago

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happy cringe day wednesday guys here’s another thing i have no idea where to put <3

…i was trying to figure out their dynamic lol

#kirbyposting #swearing #i have been so sleepy ever since the time change it’s making it impossible to get anything done ugh #i just want to see kirby snap at him #just once #but im not a big Marx guy (yet?) so my bias is probably showing #kirby can say fuck just this once it’s the only way marx would listen #probably because he’d be so shocked and then go ‘LMAO what did you just say huh???’#and then idk kirby could say something dramatic and Marx would realize he actually does need to shut the fuck up #but it would be very short lived because *sighs* it always is #marx is such a strange character to me i want to understand him so bad but i guess probably no one can???#it just hurts my head #not that I hate or even dislike him im just having a hard time actually liking him lol #but whatever #happy cringe day wednesday #my art or something #kirby #marx kirby #kind of a weird cringe day Wednesday post but i think it fits

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gottagobackintime · 2 years ago

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I’ll be honest with you, it rubbed me the wrong way that Ted’s mum came all the way to England to tell Ted that Henry misses him. As if it was Ted that decided that what he wanted most in the world was to go to another country to coach a team, in a sport he knows nothing about. When he did that because of the suggestion of his now ex-wife and their therapist, his ex-wife’s now boyfriend. And yes, he decided to stay, because he wants to finish what he started which is an admirable quality but it wasn’t really what he wanted in the beginning was it?

The audacity of his mother to show up unannounced and tell him that his son misses him. While being kind of a shitty parent herself. The whole showing up without saying anything, not going to see him coach his team on a game day, the whole “your son misses you”, clearly not picking up on how uncomfortable Ted is with her just showing up.

I don’t know I just hated it. But I am glad that he got to tell her off for how she has behaved in the past and present. But yeah… something about that whole thing just annoyed the crap out of me.

#ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso #nicole watches stuff #I always have been a champion for him to stay in England #which I know wouldn’t happen but I think that would be best for him #because I feel like the whole thing with Henry could be worked out #also the whole embarrassing him by telling everyone stories about him #and not all of the stories being true like stop #I know that there’s this ‘’oh parents embarrass you and it’s kind of their job’’#but I don’t know I think it’s strange that she decides to tell these stories and they’re not even true #also the fact that Ted makes a reference to the Daily Mail in relation to his mum… yikes #yes he says that Rebecca should work for the Daily Mail but it’s because she’s kind of siding with his mum #in that ‘’the truth can get away of a good story’’#so you know… that’s great #and also like I don’t hate Ted’s mum or anything it just the way she acted annoyed me and I don’t feel that we got a satisfying enough #conclusion to their ‘’fight’’#I’ll get over it #*in the way of

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kneworder · 1 year ago

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angry at the oscars barbie nominations but in an annoyinger way (i think nominating ryan reynolds makes sense but the best picture and best supporting actress noms are ridiculous)

#sorry but the more i think about it the more i really dislike the movie #ken was funny! he was silly and campy! i really did not care for the rest of the movie!#i just think the more you examine its take on feminism the more it falls apart!#it's inherently about a product! it's inherently personifying a product and making you feel sympathy for and relate to a product!#they are generating hype and engendering sympathy for something they are trying to sell you!#regurgitating second wave feminism without nuance doesn't make it groundbreaking it makes it like. fine i guess?#verilybitchie has a great video that put a lot of my feelings about it into words #idk it did not resonate with me at all and also made me kind of annoyed with how it contributed to the ongoing trend #of gendering things that aren't gendered and focusing on a segregation of gendered perspectives #tired of i'm just a girl! tired of girl dinner! tired of men are always thinking about the roman empire!#sure there are experiences more common to and relevant to women but i get so uncomfy with those kinds of generalizations #even when they're just jokes because after they get repeated enough they stop sounding like ones #just like. when you try to examine it in terms of any kind of intersectionality it falls apart #and i know it's not that serious but like come on. they literally do not once touch on any kind of intersectionality.#you can't be like 'it's a groundbreaking feminist movie!' because they said 'women struggle with misogyny' in 2023 #like i know it's barbie but i don't understand why there's this impulse to say that that's something that's never been said before #just because the president is black doesn't mean you've acknowledged like. racism at all.#just because you have two fat barbies with like four lines doesn't mean you've said anything meaningful about body image #and when you take an openly lesbian actress and give her short hair and make her strange and then have all the other characters #essentially socially exile her and still think she's weird after the resolution!!!#i would say that's like!! implicitly a pretty weird way to write gay people!#i don't want to rain on anyone's parade! it's silly! it's not that serious! i just also think it's not that good!#it's fine! it's fun! but i DO think ken is the best part of the barbie movie and for that i apologize

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 2 months ago

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finally watching channel zero and i immediately have so many thoughts in the first ten minutes

#random thoughts #candle cove #okay so first: the fly #obviously represents mike in some way #it was drowning in a glass which was given to him complimentary. something about struggling to feel like he belongs in his life?#like it was something given to him that he does not deserve and does not make him happy #his relationship with his wife is obviously strained. his son is mentioned so far only in relation to his career #though his mother says he's always welcome the framing in the kitchen is claustrophobic #either only one of their faces is in camera very close or they're clustered together in one half of the kitchen #his mother is a foster parent or a teacher of some kind. possibly trying to fill the void made empty #by what she views is the disappearance of both her sons #though mike said his father was out of the picture he seems shocked his mother doesn't have pictures of him around #probably not dead but has left and mike blames her somehow and views his father as blameless #when his brother disappeared mike also lost a mother. and his mother lost both her sons #their dialogue is very. distant and impersonal. no questions about each others' lives. no questions about his wife and son.#and mike seems to struggle with children despite being a child psychologist. in both times we've seen him he's been overly friendly #and strained. in the dream sequence we see him snap at the child to turn the tv off #which is more evidence to the idea mike feels he doesn't belong in his career #he may also be experiencing some kind of depersonalization of others (the mannequins behind the cameras)#possibly believing his actions to ultimately not matter because those there to witness them are not truly people #hope to see what kind of relationships he DOES form or if his sense of relationships has been completely tarnished by his brother's death #subconsciously he fears his childhood home. he possibly knows something about the disappearance of his brother #who he also talks about more as an extension of himself rather than as a seperate entity #so far no puppets. sad!#back to the framing in the kitchen. i think mike views his relationship to his mother as one which is forced #it lacks closeness but they are forced to be part of each others' lives due to the genetic bond between them #his mother fears mike is back to prod at the old wound which is the murders #it seems she's trying to cope by distancing herself and keeping her mind busy with raising children #it's notable the girl calls her miss rather than mom. more distance despite objective closeness #mike may also become jealous of the girl. he seems like he has a strange relationship with the children in his life

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ilovefredjones · 1 year ago

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[ID: 1. jet from hsmtmts. he says to kourtney, who’s off camera, ‘And I don't know if I'm to stay here without my sister.’

2. screenshot of lyrics on the blue background that read ‘Both: I can't lose you, try to see / Anna: Why can't you turn to me? / Elsa: I'm trying to tell you that’

3. jet says, ‘She's my best friend, which I don't tell many people.’

4. lyrics that read, ‘Both: I can't lose you, like before / Elsa: As much as I wish, I can't open that door / Anna: Why can't you open that door?’

5. looking down at the floor, jet says, ‘I mean, including her.’

6. lyrics that read, ‘Both: If you loved yourself the way I do / Then you'd see why I can't lose you!’ END ID]

elsa: what do you want, anna?

anna: this! just you and i talking and chatting, and taking up space…

tim fedelre, high school musical: the musical: the series / kristen anderson-lopez and robert lopez, frozen: the broadway musical

#hsmtmts #jet hsmtmts #in my head we have a scene where maddox tells jet she’s going to new zealand and they have a fight about it #because jets just got her back and hes so hurt she’s leaving again #but ofc he can’t ever say that to her #so they argue about how he’ll be alone with their parents #and maddox is like ‘didn’t you always want me to leave you alone???’#but she is so scared of being without him again #on the other side of the world #and then at dennys when the wildcats split into smaller groups jet hangs around maddox and is kind of clingy #and it’s strange and uncomfortable for the both of them but also it’s LOVE #i think it could’ve been so interesting if they’d reversed the anna/elsa parallels from last season #with maddox now being elsa - going somewhere far away and out of reach and leaving anna behind lost and confused #but noooooo that would mean developing jet and maddox beyond them being love interests and seeing their home life #and we can’t ever have that #anyway. jet and maddox elsa and anna parallel is ongoing #them barely being in s4 cant stop me being bonkers about them #hsmtmts spoilers

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colgatebluemintygel · 2 years ago

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toothpaste my friend my pal............. how would you sum up the next oao chapter in one (1) word that can't be pining........... also. do you have any sort of eta on when it will be up? 👀👀 anxiously & patiently waiting here :))))

anon, mon amour. e hoa <3 hmmmm.. one word (two words).... self-sabotage :-)))

aw yes i was aiming for mid-week but alas. tragedy struck (my family's cat died :-((((((((( ziggy my beloved </333) there is an end in sight tho i PROMMy we are in the home stretch now xxxxx

#oao #pigeon post #ziggy.......... ZIGGY.................. the white worm.......#i miss him so bad man :-((((( he had a truly iconic run #he was a stray living in the field beside my parents' house which he shared w a flock of sheep #and he was eating from our garbage bin so we lured him into the house with meat pies #he appeared like. a week after david bowie died #he had heterochromia. dad was calling him david until ziggy randomly stuck #my dad was convinced bowie's soul has been reincarnated into this strange lil white cat's body #he was v deaf and had the honkiest meow ever every time i talked 2 dad on the phone i could always hear zig poppin off in the background #he always smelled kind of weird bc he drank from various dubious water sources XD #just ziggy things #but the poor lil guy had v aggressive skin cancer :-(((( he had to get his ears trimmed n he looked like a lil polar bear #i catsat him last weekend n we had sooo many snuggles. he covered all my (black) clothes in white fur #in fact i put on my sweater vest this morn 2 discover that it was still covered in white fur n cried :-(((#but yes. i groomed him w his fav brush while he was being put to sleep so. V SAD.... but beloved right til the end <3

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fragmentedblade · 1 year ago

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Fu Xuan calls March "young girl", which is understandable. But she also calls Chengjie "young man from the Artisanship Commission" and like... ma'am how old are you

#I know she is way older than she looks and given the lore she definitely isn't very young even for Xianzhou standards #Chengjie has been in the Artisanship Commission for two hundred years before we met him so he must be considerably older than that #This post really has no point other than to point this out because it's kind of funny #And it's clear that Fu Xuan is an adult woman but it makes her look ancient xD #Which tbh also makes sense. She definitely gives that air. She gives that air even to Qingque to some extent #Fu Xuan refers to Chengjie the same way Master Gongshu did‚ basically #You see her there and she talks to Chengjie as if he were a very young man. He is well over two hundred years #It's so funny and so... strange also compared to the other long-life species in the Xianzhou #Yukong is a mature woman. If it weren't for her lifespan‚ Fu Xuan would consider her a 'young girl'#I wonder if this strains the relationships between species somewhat #It seems it does. We see glimpses of that several times I think‚ like in the Poetic Genius Ingenium quest #The vidyadhara's love is always fresh and passionate and new and really can go on forever even if under different faces #But the Xianzhou native gets tired and drained and old #I don't know. I find this very interesting tbh. I understand them not being able to dwell on it for longer in the game #(longer than they already did) but it's so interesting to think about and how it could shape society in all its forms #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 11 months ago

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Just found out my two siblings are in my mom's will, but not me. Also my grandpa has told the entire family about his engagement. Except for me. Also my dad told my siblings that he and my mom bought a plot of land. Can you guess who they haven't told?

#these tags are about to be a massive trauma dump tbh so avoid if you want #when i was fifteen i came out as trans. and my mom was terrible about it. and my dad was up for a promotion so we were considering moving #and i found a list of my moms pros and cons for moving. on the pros was 'people there dont know about (deadname)'#so that was ideal for a suicidal fifteen year old to find. and tonight i just learned that im not in her will #both of my siblings are. but im not. and its just always been like this #im treated like im not part of the family anymore. and it's been that way since i was fifteen #i heard from my brother that my grandpa is engaged. and he told both my siblings about it directly. he never told me #i reach out to my parents. i never hear back. my aprents text my sibling to check on me (sib and i live together)#everything is kind of shit rn. one of my rats is dying. my family doesnt love me. im broke. my best friend and i arent really talking #because he fucked my ex gf and now things arent really the same anymore. strangely enough. he doesnt reach out anymore #so i have no one to talk to about any of this shit #last night i was crying about my rat and i guess my roommate heard it cuz this morning they said #'are you okay? if you ever need someone to talk to who will never bring it up again you can talk to me'#and thats the most loving thing ive heard from someone in months. from a woman ive known since august #im. just. at a loss. since i found out tonight. that im not in my mom's will #its not about money. or assets. its about the fact that im her fucking child and both of her other children are in it but im not #after she dies shes willing to help them out but i can get fucked ig #i wonder if im gonna be invited to my grandpas wedding. i wonder if any of them would want me at their funeral #i wonder if any of them would come to mine

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lisbonsteresa · 2 years ago

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oh it's horrible; i love it

#tm #this is SO #because from lisbon's point of view this is....let's say strange i guess #nothing's really changed for her? yes she has (they have but he's not thinking like that right now) this dangerous risky job #but she always has; there's always been 'a new train every day' and they've dealt with them all; they'll deal with this one too #so yes of course she wants to try and reassure him but it's not as major to her as it is to him #*and also she's been very patient and understanding and hasn't put any expectations or pressure on their future #(i'm sure she HAS thoughts on it obviously but she's been the one reminding him to take things as they come #'right here it's good. it's very very good.')#meanwhile jane is.....for so long jane wasn't sure if he'd HAVE a future; he wasn't sure if he'd deserve one #and then blue bird and everything that came after it and it's been wonderful and he's been trying to take it one day at a time #but it's like once he let himself imagine a future for them; for himself he was immediately hit by the full reality of how tenuous it is #he's always known they have dangerous jobs but knowing that in a pre and post blue bird world are two very different things #now he has this; he has them; and he also knows that every time they get a phone call from abbott #there's a chance he might lose the most important person in the world to him just after learning he's the most important person to her #just after they finally started something together and then what he does later this ep it's just #once you get what you wanted most what would you do to protect it (because what kind of future would he have without her)#(and then failing that (in a few episodes) what would you do to grant yourself some semblance of peace of mind?)#but this kills me because he delivers the line in a kind of teasing way? he does not let on how nervous he really is #(or what he might be starting to plan) 'i made the decision not to tell you because i was worried that it would come between us' LIKE #he tried broaching the subject before (albeit not in a way that she could very easily understand) and it went nowhere #'are we really gonna work for the fbi for the rest of our lives?' 'it's who i am jane' 'i know'#he's terrified of what might happen but he's also terrified to bring it up because what if that drives a wedge in their relationship #what if he ruins it himself without any outside issue being to blame is that a self fulfilling prophecy back to the fear that kept him from #telling her how he felt during s6 #so instead he holds back just how much he's spiraling until....and then he just CAN'T anymore and he has to get away #(and then lisbon's almost blindsided because yes she knew he was worried but THIS worried? to the point he won't even hear her arguments?)#GOD it's so so good it's the wooooorst i'm eating it up

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m00ngbin · 10 months ago

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Sometimes I think of Chicken Little from the movie Chicken Little and cry bc he's just a kid and he's all alone and his dad is ashamed of him and he lost his mother and he gets bullied and harassed bc he's small and kind of strange and he's the only person in the world that knows that the sky is falling and when he tries to tell people they don't believe him

#I WOULD HAVE BELIEVED HIM #ALL THAT PRESSURE ON THAT POOR LITTLE KID #AND THEN HE HAS TO SAVE THE WHOLE TOWN FROM THE ALIENS #THE ENTIRE TOWN THAT OSTRACIZED AND BULLIED HIM BTW #EVEN THE FUCKING MAYOR #LIKE ARE YOU SHITTING ME??#i wouldnt have done it #i would have just left them to get vaporized into the void #idk just after all that hes still so kind and he cares about everybody in that stupid town #AND THE SCENE WHERE HES LIKE BEGGING AND PLEADING WITH HIS FATHER TO JUST BELIEVE HIM #BC IF NOBODY ELSE HAS HIS BACK AT LEAST HIS DAD SHOULD #and he DIDNT #OH AND HIS DAD PURPOSELY SEPARATED HIMSELF FROM CHICKEN LITTLE BECAUSE HE WAS SO EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED #IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY #idk chicken little makes me really sad #I KNOW THE DAD IS HAVING A HARD TIME I KNOW HES STILL GRIEVING HIS WIFE BUT OH MY GOD #YOUR SON NEEDS YOU. HE HAS NEEDED YOU AND YOU ARE JUST NOT THERE FOR HIM #i could have been a better parent #i could have done it i would have loved him the way he deserved #OH AND HE ONLY HAS LIKE THREE PEOPLE IN HIS LIFE THAT REALLY LOVE HIM COMPLETELY AND UNCONDITIONALLY #AND THEYRE ALL STRANGE AND OSTRACIZED JUST LIKE HE IS #the troupe of people that are othered finding each other. seeing their faults. and loving each other the way that they should be loved #will always EAT ME ALIVE #what was he. like 12?#if i had been in that movie i would have LOST IT if a kid that little had to go through and deal with all of the things that he had to #pretty much alone for most of the movie #i meam he had his three friends for half of it but theres a lot he had to do alone #i just watched it can you tell

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