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kirishwima · 2 years ago

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im. not doing well 🤡

#if ur grossed out by blood and periods dont read further #but having pcos fucking sucks #ive had my period for TWO WEEKS #today is my breaking point in combo w the exhaustion of work #im dizzy nauseous and my blood pressure is rly low #and i got shortness of breath which is probs bc of anxiety but like 🤡#and i had a family emergency to deal with which had me running frantically from work back home #i feel like death #im gonna drop by the hospital later for an ultrasound #and i took some iron supplements but i think. i might need IV ones again #dont rly feel like waiting to get labs done tho #might just go to my dads private practice and see if i can get it done there #and im trying to reschedhule my night shift tomorrow bc im Not Well Enough to go #i need a day to stay in bed bc im so far over burnout right now its a whole new level #burrito talks #not fandom related #delete later

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phosphenemoth · 3 months ago

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I am going to manually rip my uterus and ovaries out.

#so much pain #pcos #i hate having pcos #mine #periods fucking suck

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lionblaze03-2 · 6 months ago

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sometimes I think about writing and singing music not because I’m an incredible singer but because no one has my fucking voice, especially in popular music, and its disheartening to be born a girl, told you’ll only get girl roles or try to voice match other girls, or ‘sing with the girls’ and then only be able to match male voices because you’re a fuckin tenor and not anything higher. I can’t think of any girl Broadway roles I can hit all the notes on. Most songs I love I have to pitch down for myself or use falsetto for singing along to. It bothers me a lot less now because I’m an adult who’s more secure in myself but as a teen in kids musical theatre it FUCKED with me, BAD style. And I know for a fact that even now when I hear people with a voice like mine singing I get excited and immediately invested in their work because they’re like ME, finally, for once. A brother in this world of being afab and having the voice of a recently pubescent boy forever. Maybe I should be that brother too.

#Using randomly gendered words because that’s me now but hey #Regardless of if you were born afab and are a girl 100% or if you were born afab and are someone else #It STILL sucks to always be grouped along with ‘girls’ just because of your voice and realize #You CANT hit that. You can’t hit the mark for ‘girl’. You’ll never achieve that without like. Hrt #Just say THE VOCAL CLASS. Like. Sopranos sing with this. Tenors with this. Bass with this. Etc #Then it doesn’t hurt! But nooo instead they’re looking or ‘sing with the other girls’ and you fucking can’t #And it gives you a crisis at age 14 #Anyway all I know is when other people who were assigned female at birth and aren’t on something they changes ones voice #and just happen to have born with the same deep ass voice as me. It makes me proud to hear them use it #Because not enough people do. It’s like we’re all collectively embarrassed or something #I see so many sad posts from teenagers posting their dream roles and the reason they won’t get it is ‘girl’#and it’s like. I remember being that kid. Never able to get a female lead because of my voice. Never able to get a male lead because of gir #Even though my voice and appearance could easily swing male. Nope! You’re GIRL. So you’re doomed to background forever :)#I got 1 lead role and it was when I was at my most feminine and was also for a villain that was a fat hag #I LOOOOVED playing her im aunt sponge forever. BUT. Never getting one again after that… showed me. Something #More gender blind casting and more songs just written for tenors please #doing just ONE of those things would probably solve the issue #But both please because I’m greedy and I want what I couldn’t have for every kid today #(And also me in the future in adult community theatre. Haven’t had time/too intimidated so far but I WILL go back)#And before anyone questions the language on this post. I STRUGGLED with how to word it #TERFs begone. I love trans people. I am nonbinary and some form of intersex (pcos).#I just word it this way because of like. Where we all start #Whether we stay GIRL girls or realize we’re somewhere in between. It crushes us either way to have the ‘wrong’ voice to do anything #Because it did me at first. And I’m otherwise GLAD to be confusing #I’ve come to love my deep voice it baffles others and they never know what to call me it really helps the whole ‘what am I’ presentation #But. In terms of certain things. Like being in theatre in the deep south #It certainly does not help and can be disheartening #Especially back when I was younger and more self conscious #lion’s lair

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i-love-the-smell-of-your-blood · 8 months ago

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PCOS sucks because sometimes I will just start sweating and it won't stop because PCOS can cause menopause like symptoms and I was unlucky enough to get those.

So sometimes I show up to class no matter what the weather is looking like a sweaty mess and it's so frustrating

#ty talks #also fuck PCOS for giving me IBS and making me not able to eat wheat anymore #because it fucking sucks being at college and having like nothing to eat because i already can't have dairy #so now all my dining hall options are small and we only have the dining hall to eat at during the week

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supercantaloupe · 1 year ago

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truly detest how pcos tags/forums/etc are absolutely crawling with terfs

#(okay to rb but stay in your lane)#maybe i just want to look and see if anyone else has experienced what i went through today without seeing someone going like #'you'll never be a REAL woman because you DON'T HAVE OVARIES #and will NEVER understand the TRUE WOMANLY EXPERIENCE of having A VERY DISRUPTIVE AND COMPLEX ENDOCRINE AND METABOLIC DISORDER'#like i think there are more important (read: actual) targets to direct our frustration at here than #[checks notes] getting mad at a trans woman for saying she relates to some of the problems caused/faced by having pcos #like. idk. the fucking medical system and lack of research/treatment options #(also. christ. reducing every person w pcos into the 'woman' category automatically bc 'ovary'.#even though it's literally an intersex condition. yikes.)#also i don't know about y'all but i don't wish this on anyone? regardless of gender??#i actually don't want trans women to have to experience this in order to be considered a True Woman #because i don't want ANYBODY to have to experience this. it sucks! it's not fucking fun!#i just wanted to try and see if other people have gone through the same thing i have. not expand my blocklist by half a mile tonight.#i wanna talk about me #even though i didn't exactly find what i was looking for (😔) and i had to play fucking whack-a-terf while searching #if there's any bright side to be found it's the number of posts/people affirming pcos as an intersex condition/identity #i saw someone say 'if you don't want the [intersex] umbrella for yourself you don't have to take it #but it's nice to have in the closet for a rainy day'#and. man. yeah.

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vamptastic · 1 year ago

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its like so fucked to me that PCOS is almost always diagnosed in middle aged women bc of fertility issues unless the person in question has a very obvious and severe case or lobbies their doctor at length about it. this would not be so upsetting to me if PCOS didn't massively increase your risk of developing type 2 diabetes in a way that is largely preventable! or if PCOS didn't make it damn near impossible to lose weight, meaning many people have their symptoms dismissed be it for other health problems or PCOS symptoms themselves over something they have next to no control over.

#like its not just infertility insulin resistance fucking sucks #and it can definitely make periods hellishly painful in addition to being irregular #in severe cases (including mine) you can also develop menopausal symptoms or those of early pregnancy #like morning sickness hot flashes constant hunger #dont even get me started on PCOS in trans patients #ive found one. ONE case study on a trans man's PCOS treatment #and instead of answering any of the questions i had the seminar talked abt whether he was put on T too early the entire time #literally did not address the PCOS part a single time #studies are also almost always done on middle aged women bc they're the ones with a diagnosis #meaning if you're a teenager like me the results may not apply to you the same #that's if a study exists at all most of the drugs used for PCOS are for diabetics or menopausal women #and maybe one study of like 40 people exists on how it works for PCOS patients #usually geared towards ensuring regular periods and not what i care about (improved blood panels)#god its just. it fucking sucks having what is treated as like Ugly Fat Woman Disease with the way the medical field is!!#ESPECIALLY as a trans man

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 6 months ago

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Shout out to the folks at work the other day that enabled/encouraged me to go on a lil infodump about being transgender and who had genuine questions and listened to my answers. Obviously it's not something queer folks should be expected to do but I love being a point of information for people! I love talking about my experiences and my understandings of philosophies that intersect with that and I think alot of cishet people are maybe uncomfortable asking blunt questions? But so long as they're posed in good faith and with willingness to think about the response, I enjoy answering those weirdly specific things. How else to we dispel the willful ignorance that places of power want to foster towards us? I refuse to he a scapegoat and am deeply grateful to the people that are receptive to experiences outside their own

#young 20 something mum and middle aged mother of 3 #both just. asking *questions*#what do hormones do? when/how did you know? why is it so important to you?#these ate genuine questions seeking to understand!! and it means so much to me that i can BE that point of understanding!#adfhsjsj they were talking about periods and the younger woman was like. sorry if this is uncomfortable Jason #and im like. lol dont even worry i still get then too and they suck #older woman was like??? i thought hormones stop them??? im not on hormones yet i just naturally have hormonal imbalance thanks to PCOS #its just...if someone genuinely doesnt understand but is willing to learn? its a conversation worth having.#and i cant know that i always have a positive effect but i ways come back to the vaguely right leaning centrist dude i worked with at mcds #who told me i had changed his view of masculinity and gender as a whole #just by talking and explaining ny experiences #even if he ends up being the only other person I affect..its all worth it.because without me or someone like me he would never have changed #sorry i just get emotional sometimes thinking abkut how...probably the majority of cishets who arent plugged into tumblr #do not experience queer people. hell #im sure there are alot of queer people who havent been exposed to queer theory either #and it means the world to me that i can present and explain that understanding. that willingness to understand.#fuck man if you had told me id be doing this in my early teens id never have thought it possible

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kenobihater · 6 months ago

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just found out i'm pre-diabetic at 23. awesome 👍🏻

#also pcos. at least i have some answers i guess but jesus fucking christ #this doesn't explain the chronic pain tho which sucks shit #sorry for my medposting i just need to vent #i'm already having numbess too. fucking hell. so much for being a vegetarian for 7 years i guess #len speaks

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summer-fire · 8 months ago

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Goddamn mother fucking chin hair

#I plucked that shit and my chin feels great. would be cool if it would stay like that for at least 24 hours #if it wasn’t painful and coarse I wouldn’t mind it but this shit keeps causing acne type problems.#oooh your hormone levels are normal ooooh you don’t have pcos ooooh #ok then what is it because this shit sucks. why do I have hair and fucking puss in my face still. im done with puberty

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stinkrascal · 1 year ago

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ive always wanted to try raw honeycomb bc all the asmr eating videos made it look so good anyways i tried it and it was the worst thing ive ever tried 0/10 just watch the asmr eating videos and make up a flavor in your head bc itll taste a thousand million zillion garillion times better than the actual thing

#im probably getting my period soon bc im in bed crying about how awful honeycomb is #i havent gotten my cycle back since i stopped taking the pill (i have pcos so this is normal for me). this next cycle will be brutal ik it 😀#im just upset in general. today fucking sucks!!! i want to kill and die!!!#i was so excited for horses too but now im inconsolable ha. jaiden moment 🧘

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a-chilleus · 10 months ago

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email from my gp today saying btw these test results from october suggest you could have pcos. no need to do anything good luck do you have any questions

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what the fuck, what do i do, how the fuck do i handle this

#i have some of the symptoms but they're stuff like acne and weight gain and whatever #i literally had an ultrasound last week and the results for that were normal #but apparently my hormones are weird? and i have super irregular periods #and my gp was like well you could go on contraceptives if you're worried about the irregular periods #thanks but no? i don't need to make my periods more regular #i'm actually fine with not having as many periods they suck #so long as i have enough to not get cancer but that's just 3+ in a year and you're fine #like i'm not worried about acne and irregular periods and being a bit hairy #i'm worried about am i gonna get type 2 diabetes and does this mean i'm never going to be able to lose weight and what the fuck do i do #with this random new information!!!#she didn't even suggest any further tests to actually confirm it #so like #i may or may not have pcos #fucking hell #esme.txt #health anxiety tw #weight mention tw #uhhh #menstruation tw #oh yeah all the info is like “women with pcos experience this” so funnnn dysphoria times

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natjennie · 1 year ago

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I HATE THISSSs its so fucking hot being in my body is hell it's like living in a swamp and I cant think and my skin is peeling off for no reason and my hands achheee so i cant do ANYTHING i cant play games i cant edit i cant draw this is a NIGHTMARE

#summer is sensory hell im not kidding #its sensory and joint pain hell i hate it here #i wish i could reverse hibernate until like september #tmi maybe but i have pcos which is a hormone disorder and it makes me SO FUCKING SWEATY ALWAYS #i wear deodorant like im not gross. but i melt at the drop of a hat #if it gets hotter than literally 70f im a puddle.#it sucks #i cant breathe

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mizugucci · 1 year ago

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soooo i may have an autoimmune disease ?