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alllgator-blood · 3 days ago

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Okay I promise my next post will be the angst comic part 4 but FIRST. THE ONE AND ONLY THING I SHIP

LITERALLY THE SECOND PERSON WHO GUESSED THE PAIRING GOT IT CORRECT??? THAT WAS FAST. This is a situation where I have to go "okay hear me out" because it makes 0 sense to anyone but me. This is really long and very dependent on my au comic nobody but me has read, but the TL;DR is:

I feel like they'd be a good pairing because shamura loves to learn but doesn't care about material goods, and mystic seller is used to all gods talking to them only BECAUSE they offer material goods. So when somebody actually wanted to know about *them* personally and what it's like to be a weird angel thing, the two established a bond. Also they're both agender and most likely asexual AND don't seem to be socially aware despite being ancient wise beings that know seemingly everything, so they understood each other like instantly.

I have a lot of sketches of them hanging out but here's a shitpost sketch thing I made AAAAAGES ago

Okay so from an in-game standpoint, mystic seller pops up to tell you how the post-game works with purgatory and all that, and introduces the purged bosses. Really ratau could've done that as the established Tutorial Guy, or even narinder but there IS the chance that you killed both of them (lol) so mystic seller is the unkillable, all-knowing angel that shows up to say "you suck at killing people. The bishops are trapped in purgatory, you know. You should probably do something about that".

But from like a CHARACTER standpoint what do they stand to gain? They're not even from your dimension so why should they care, they're just here for your god tears? From the dialogue about the bishops we can see that they don't really give a shit about any of them, EXCEPT! SHAMURA? Mystic seller doesn't feel emotions like "our kind" does but one of the only times they do, it's to say it's a shame what happened to shamura. They also say they didn't barter with them much, because they "needed little".

SO THAT HAD ME THINKING. My au comic (which is hundreds of sketched panels and the full thing will never see the light of day unless I post it unfinished. Eugh) is about shamura going around chronicling everything they witnessed during the time they were alive, and they notice everyone is like...selfish. Trying to be the last god standing. Really obsessed with trinkets and charms, so some of the gods just go around harvesting relics from the other gods and using their powers to survive a little longer. Shamura has visions of the future of siblings they don't know they have yet, so they try to be friendly with the rest of the pantheon to form a family and it always bites them in the ass, so they have to kill them.

Eventually they end up with all these fuckin god tears and they're thinking "what do I even do with these? Nobody wants them and everyone has them", and BOOM. MYSTIC SELLER JUMPSCARE. They do the whole introduction where they say they have loot in exchange for god tears, shamura just drops off the tears and is like "I don't care about trinkets, bye" and the seller is like. What Thy Fuck. Because every other god is pretty adamant on getting something good in exchange for the tears. So they call them back and ask if there's ANYTHING at all they want. And shamura, being the self-proclaimed wisdom god, just asks the seller to talk about themself for a while, who's just like okkaaayyy?? Nobody else ever asked what it's like to be a bizarre circle headed angelic creature that collects magical bits and pieces, but shamura LOVES to learn, and the two bonded that way. Shamura would bring the mystic seller god tears, the seller would tell them a story, they'd write it down to put in their archives and the conversations eventually got more personal when the stories started to run out. They both realized they don't understand how other people work, but they knew how *each other* worked so they could kinda learn how to function as normal people with each other's observations.

When I say I ship them I mostly mean like a QPP situation because I think they'd be good partners in the most autistic asexual way possible, where they don't make out sloppy style or outright say "I love you", but they have an understanding of one another that doesn't apply to anyone else really. They don't have to rely on conventional relationship stuff to know the other one cares deeply for them in the most nonverbal, oddly specific way possible. I know shamura's the smart one but I really feel like that extends to everything except understanding how people work, hence all the stuff that happened with narinder and the rest of the family. So finding someone else outside the pantheon who is quite literally inhuman, otherworldly, genderless and uninterested in Carnal Desire would definitely make them feel the closest thing to romantic love that they can. Also, since mystic seller lets the gods name them, shamura named them "sunshine" after hearing one of their followers singing that "you are my sunshine" song to the person they loved the most. I always liked how shamura has their little moon crown and the mystic seller is depicted as the sun in some of the art? They go together well is what I'm saying and I'm kinda surprised nobody has done anything of them yet.

I WILL SAY I have angst planned for them once I do the introductory comics, it has to do with how narinder's imprisonment happened literally right in front of where mystic seller sets up shop, so canonically it's safe to assume they watched shamura get lobotomized in real time :')

But for now...I must go back to kallamar angst cause I've been putting off posting this part. It gets very mentally ill very quickly so I needed to balance it out with fluff......

#river rambles #shamura #mystic seller

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lurkingshan · 1 day ago

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For the character ask game…

Fave character from the hwang da seul cinematic universe

Ohhhhhh my god I am having a crisis moment. I love several of her characters a whole lot. But I think I am going to succumb to recency bias and go with...

How I feel about this character

Dohoe is so complicated and so messed up and so deserving of love and I just want to hug him to death and then force him to go to therapy.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

There is only Juyoung.

And it's not because I think that he needs to stay in love with the first boy he liked for ~romance~ reasons, but because Juyoung understands him in a way others do not, has the patience and the generosity to give him the support and care he needs, and is the only person Dohoe truly wants.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

I actually really ended up loving his friendship with Hyeonho.

I think now that Hyeonho knows they will never be together the way he hoped and has accepted Juyoung's place in Dohoe's life, they can be there for each other in other ways. And lord knows all of these lonely boys could use another friend.

My unpopular opinion about this character

Judging by some of the Disk Horse, it was an unpopular opinion to believe that Dohoe's bad behavior was an understandable response to his abuse and that he deserved to be forgiven and loved. And I'll tell you what, y'all can just talk to the wall about that terrible take.

One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon

Oooh I actually feel like I got everything I wanted for him by the end of the show. I'll just give him my wishes that he gets his degree as he planned and finds a career he can feel proud of and always remembers that he is enough as he is. UGH I LOVE HIM.

Give me a character ask game

#let free the curse of taekwondo #korean bl #ask game #shan answers

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yujeong · 3 months ago

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Okk. I don't want to compare or anything but I don't get the people who's getting mad on Korn Tonkla scenes saying they had more screen time? Or shit. I mean tbh, I am understanding the plot of the series better because of the two of them because they are somehow related to all of the events. And Tonkla's situation is...... he somehow senses the other timeline which I think is an important role. And also, Korn! Like what you've said he knows Dome is dead, and at the same time he's with his brother who ’saved’ Dome. Both of the characters are pivotal in the series.

Also, I think that they are more talked about because a Bas and Fuaiz couple was not expected in the series, and at the same time their plot line is really good as well as the build up of their characters. And I've seen more & more people are falling in love with Fuaiz & Bas (as an actor) in this series.

But somehow, I get them because the main couple is GreatTyme but why does it feel like they are becoming more of a side couple. Also saw people saying that their ’plot line’ or how they were introduced to eo /wasn't it./

Thank you for giving me the incentive to speak about this issue, anon. I'm going to do it now because the new episode will come out in a few hours and hopefully I won't have to do this ever again - which I honestly doubt but anyway. Since I haven't seen this type of discourse pop up on Tumblr (thank GOD), I'd like to inform everyone that over on Twitter, there have been massive complaints about Tonkla, aka Fuaiz, getting more screentime than the main characters, aka JesBible, to the point of people tagging BOC in posts and demanding they give them more scenes with TymeGreat - as if BOC can just pull footage they haven't filmed out of their ass or something. It got so bad that Sammon herself saw them and AGREED with these people, further explaining how it was important for some plot elements to be explored now, in order for the rest of the series to make sense. Now, with all due respect to her position as a screenwriter: she's factually wrong here. Someone on Twitter actually sat down and counted the minutes each character is on screen and came out with these results:

It's not in English, but I believe the results are clear: Tonkla doesn't even come close to Great's screentime. He's a little closer to Tyme's, but the main character is Great, so he's the one we should be looking at. Also, in case it hasn't been fucking obvious, Tonkla is an essential character in 4 Minutes, which is why we're getting many scenes with him. The reason I mentioned the actors is pretty self-explanatory - people are mad their favourite actors are shown a specific amount of time, giving space to other plot lines and characters, instead of being there for the whole episode, as if the point of 4 Minutes is the romance between Tyme and Great and nothing else. Meanwhile, Bible himself was laughing and clapping and enjoying the flashback scene between Korn and Tonkla when they had their first time, because Bible wanted to be part of a good production, which he is and he recognizes it. But no, God forbid we get more context over KornTonkla, which is one of the most important relationships in the show, which guides Tonkla's actions, which moves the fucking PLOT of the SHOW. I could give the benefit of the doubt to people being upset Tonkla was shown for not even half of episode 4, but I won't, and the reason for that is because I'm sick and fucking tired of people getting their panties in a twist because a character who loves getting fucked is actually getting fucked in almost every episode. Good for him honestly, even if it's making him worse. (I've already ranted about this whole thing here, I'm not going to repeat myself) I don't know how your social media feeds are like anon, but mine are flooded with BibleJes + GreatTyme content and I rarely see anything about KornTonkla or Bas and Fuaiz or anything of the sort, so I can't agree with you that they're more talked about than the main actors/characters. (That's not the case on Tumblr though: I have a very varied feed + my lovely anon asks which give me the chance to talk about my boys and I'm thankful for that.) And I'm sorry, anon, but I'm going to have to disagree with you in the end: Great and Tyme do NOT feel like the side couple at all. They are and they feel very much like the main couple and they've had multiple scenes together in every single episode so far (at the hospital, in Great's garage, at the park, at the university, at the arcade, inside Great's car, at the rooftop of the hospital, at the warehouse, inside the tent etc). We've gotten plenty of fucking content for them AND also BOC has made sure to give Bible and Jes the chance to do a million interviews together + magazine photoshoots, with only half of the show being done, so fans have zero fucking reason to complain about anything. That's all. Rant over.

#istg it feels like I've been blocking more people on the daily than when the scandal was happening #people are fucking horrible #and they don't realize at all that THE ACTORS CAN SEE THIS #Fuaiz can SEE people being unhinged about him having more than 2 minute cameos every episode #he has worked his ASS off for this role and it fucking shows #I get having favourites I do #but for the love of God if you only care about the shipping then go make edits and watch your faves' scenes over and over and stfu already #Bible has no problem with other actors getting the spotlight besides him #NOBODY IS STEALING HIS MAIN ROLE FROM HIM #EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN THE SHOW IS BECAUSE OF GREAT #Be NORMAL for ONCE holy SHIT #I said rant over but I couldn't resist ranting in the tags as well #I'm TIRED people #I'm fucking TIRED #see Tonkla having a scene or two this episode and people losing their minds again even though I'm sure we'll get a lot of TymeGreat scenes #Was this what it was like for VP fans while KPTS was airing because I'm not having fun like this I'm really not #thank fuck for my friends and my lovely anon asks because I wouldn't be surviving otherwise #4 minutes #bible wichapas #jes jespipat #fuaiz thanawat #fandom

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some-pers0n · 5 months ago

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Every once in a while I think about the ship I've been obsessed over for close to two years now and feel like I'm ascending to another plane of reality. Like sometimes you just encounter a ship that hits every single mark and is perfect in every regard and you're left stunned how something like that can even exist

#Anyways I'mma put the actual inane ramblings in the tags #Medic and Engie make me so ill every time I think about them for a while I feel like tearing into things and biting people and throwing up #How something like that can exist completely defies me #I don't know how something that perfect can exist #I'm typically a multi-shipper and while I still kinda am I honest to god don't really care to write other ships #Not cause they ain't good (they are pretty damn good) but because Engiemedic is just on another level #Like dammnnn!! that's why I've spent so long writing a fic about them!#I can't fathom it honestly how characters like that can exist #They're like a slightly warped reflection of themselves #They're both intelligent mentally ill lunatics with no morals whatsoever #The only thing is that Engie is marginally better at hiding it #If you go into headcanon territory than WHOO!! OHH DAMNNN #Like what gets me the most about Engiemedic is how they're so similar #They think and exist on the same wavelength #In tune with each other. Their neurons braided like wires #If I start talking about how the machine and the flesh are not opposites but rather one in the same we gonna be here all day #I just can't...believe the ship exists #Like man how does this happen #You want humour? Goofy wacky experiments and silliness of them violating several conventions #You want angst? Hell yeah they've got plenty of it #Fluff? Buddy I start wailing and sobbing if they accidentally brush hands while working on stuff #I could write about them for ages and not get bored they can fit in every circumstance #They make me SICK they make me CRAZY I love them so so much #They would do anything for each other #I look at what they have and I can feel like I understand what love is #I need to write more oneshots and minifics about them they're so flexiable and fun #Can't wait to do parallels with them in these upcoming chapters #Either way GODDDDD I love these two so much I could go on for hours about them #especially if I'm allowed to talk about headcanons #sp-rambles

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vaguely-concerned · 1 month ago

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just going about my day idly contemplating how some of the ways hawke can interact with a romanced anders are not at all unlike how they interact with leandra (and a bit of carver too, especially with a purple hawke), and then thought about my hawke in the timeline where he romances anders and was hit straight in the face with 'was he ever actually in love, or was he just desperately trying to renegotiate with his mother's ghost in any way he could' and now i need to lie down. this is the power of dragon age 2

#'you don't know my mother' haunting me through the years #dragon age #dragon age 2 #hawke #On second thought let's not go to Kirkwall; it is a silly place #there are of course as many ways to do/read that relationship as there are players to interact with it haha and all valid!#but my personal version of handers is sooo fucked up and bad times for everyone involved and I love it haha.#this is a relationship neither of them should have been in and that made everything worse and everyone unhappy in the end #locked tomb levels of the horrors of love. i ship it but in the way that I want to make it sadder and more gutwrenching each time #to be clear this is a very mutual two-way kind of fucked up but I think varric in his loyalty and love would downplay hawke's side of it #for huge swathes of their relationship anders is not in a mental place to be a good partner and the emotional blackmail is Not Okay #(but it's just like how mother used to make it! hawke's soul cries sadly as it reaches for it hungrily)#which is in some ways fair enough no one could accuse him of not warning you ahead of time fjskda #but hawke is messy about it in a way only available to a covert people pleaser who has never had a millisecond of therapy #with some added stuff that my hawke is always acespec in some form and when he gets together with anders...#is the sex something he doesn't particularly care to have or not have but it 'makes anders happy'/he longs to feel wanted *and* needed #and also a way he gets out of ever being *actually* vulnerable (which I think he'd had to be with varric for example if he Went There )#'you want the hawke who's in your head so badly and I kind of wish I were that hawke too. so let's be collaborateurs with that fantasy'#(and then maybe if I do it right every time you'll finally be happy hawke says in his heart looking at this leandra-anders phantom form)#(and echoing stuff in varric's relationship to hawke but I think the important distinction there is that varric -- is a craftsman haha #he KNOWS when he's lying/making up a story he KNOWS the difference between what is and what he wishes the world was #(I think there's some deep longing there to not know; for it to blend together or have the power to change things. but he always knows)#which ironically leaves him in a better position to actually see and understand hawke the person #even as he is creating hawke the literary figure. almost to protect him in some ways? god da2 is so full of STUFF!!! I adore it)#and of course anders gets so disillusioned with hawke's inertia and lack of action (you all but married this man anders!#you should know this about him he's already carrying the whole family and city on his shoulders if you add a gram more he'll collapse!)#and hawke feels so desperately hurt that the promise anders seemed to make that he'd be enough -- that he could fix things for him --#('I'm the one bright light in kirkwall and that apparently doesn't count for shit so I'm just slowly turning to ash for you')#turned out to be untrue. anyway. sad now. imagine them meeting like twenty years on what the fuck could you even say to each other then #(I can't imagine Hawke ever physically hurting anyone he loves so he just tells Anders to leave at the end of DA2. they COULD meet again

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toytulini · 3 months ago

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name some canonically nonbinary characters why dont you

#toy txt post #those 'name 10 female characters' posts got me rolling my eyes again. just ultimate performative bullshit huh #its giving i think picking a favorite blorbo os activism. by shipping an appropriate amount of femslash in a way that is genuine #but not overbearing or that might be fetishizing! and im not forgetting the characters for the ships not like those nasty m/m shippers!#and by doing this i will reinstate abortion rights. with my Feminist Tastes. im putting words in ppls mouths and being petty but good god #like everyday this shits on my dash. can you all just start blocking the annyoing misogynist m/m shippers you dislike then?#'dont name a male character you just call babygirl' are you normal about trans headcanons? im sure im SURE you are getting the most #annoying fuckers in the world in your notes just calling male characters babygirl without it being a trans headcanon but i have seen so #many posts of this flavor now. are you consuming media correctly? are you consuming the correct media correctly? are you doing it right?#are you meeting your ship quota? are you caring about the characters outside of their ships enough? are you shipping the characters of #color the right amount the right ways to the right characters but not too much cos that might be fetishy? are you headcanoning them aspec?#are YOU aspec? we'll give you a begrudging pass for headcanoning marginalized characters as Aspec MAYBE but dont get too annoyed about #seeing ships and you have to be so polite about everyone equating aspec headcanons with infantilization with no thought to the irony that #in doing so theyre infantilizing aspecs. its honestly 50/50 if you get a pass to headcanon a character as aspec. but we will talk about #doing so as a one to one example of writing the character out of the way of your ship. you and i are not the same. name ten female #characters. name 5 of their albums and recite all the lyrics from memory. produce 5 pieces of heartfelt fic or fanart to prove your genuine #love of the character. are you going to be normal about it if someone names a cano ically male character they headcanon as a trans fem?#or will you start on some shit about how that doesnt count cos shes not a real girl? or do you know better than to say that bc that would #be genuinely shitty. are you doing it right? are you doing it right? are you doing it right? prove your fandom activism to me. write a #feminist retelling of the narrative. what if i name 10 female characters that im headcanoning as transmasc or nonbinary and calling them #babygirl? are you doing it right? am i doing it right yet? am i performing fan engagement correctly?#am i correctly engaging with fan content? is this going to please your algorithm? but not too much. just a little spicy. a little punk. but #not so much i get banned from the platform. for fandom. am i doing it right? are you shipping Pure and Wholesome Ships?#are you Cool and Edgy? do you only ship characters that hate each other that kill each other that are siblings that are problematic? have #you gone so far the other way you think youre cool to scoff at those silly tiktok puritans who only ship pure ships? you wont even think #about a show if its Politically correct you want it to call you a slur. cos youre tough and cool not like those mentally weak uncritical #tiktok puriteens. are you winning son? are you winning? are you having fun yet? are you doing it right? pass my gauntlet #are you a fake nerd girl? name five obscure comics characters to prove youre a real fan. do you hate women? are you winning?#are you winning at correctly engaging with media content? do you get a sticker? is there a sticker for naming 10 female characters? what #about 20. do you completly write off media with Less Women? put your money where your mouth is then. ship the girls in fast and furious

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manic-pixie-dream-dude · 11 months ago

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I've been watching/reading Death Note every once in a while for the last couple of months and this is the funniest most unserious serious anime ever.

#mani.txt #death note #i'm gonna take a chip... and EAT IT !!!!#it's so funny. i hate this show. < is obsessed #i dont often watch anime so i forget how campy it can get but oh my god #i'm still recovering after ep 16 & 17. that spun me. shook me to my core. i went a bit insane. like how. why. HOW.#how did all the charas go back to normal after that. this is not plot armor this is trauma armor.#how is misa okay.#How is light's rship w his dad unaffected.#how was there only ONE fist fight over this. and a WHILE after the fact. what. am I just weird for thinking this. i feel crayzoi.#i genuinely can't explain how much i want to throttle each and every one of these characters.#save for ryuk n rem n sayu n naomi. they're amazing wonderful fantastic #and light. but i need to throttle him too.#when i tell you naomi should've lived......... when i tell you she should've been L's friend......... [takes damage takes damage takes da ]#also. i love how neither L nor Light know how to be normal. ever. insane4insane. (doesnt even ship them)#+ after reading thru the manga i'm a 'the only person Light truly cares for is Sayu' truther. this will never change.#in conclusion: this show says so little about criminal justice and so much about the adverse effect of being the son of a cop.#it's a product of it's time. whatever. (death gripping my chair)

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starlooove · 5 months ago

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Oh also In my mind WFA and vivs shit exist in the same sphere as people thinking it’s groundbreaking work bc it’s fanfic tropes someplace “official” but it’s these same people who hem and haw for DECADES on why fandoms conveniently ignore queer women and BIPOC and think reading fanfic is the same as reading books

#the fanfic books one is more complicated in my mind but like the gist of it is #you think it’s groundbreaking bc ur the one doing it #or enjoying it #and It’s like no u Can love shit sometimes it’s ok #and like no something Im never gonna shut up about is how fandoms are preached to be so inclusive or progressive #but god forbid you tell people to stop mischaracterizing a black character and to care about women #suddenly it’s think pieces on think pieces that boil down to ‘canon only matters when it excused my bigotry’ and ‘i don’t wanna’#on that first point #It’s hilarious when ppl go it’s harder to care about female characters bc they’re not given attention by writers #like girl you ship goku and vegeta. u ship Naruto and sasuke. u ship Harry Potter and Draco malfoy #you know damn well it’s not the author stopping you #and thats old shit to remind you how prevalent it’s always been #u made up a shrimp allergy for tim Drake #AND THIS IS RHE THING #when it comes to the way female and bipoc are treated that excuse is so funny #especially in dc #Bc ur depictions of shit you made up manages to stay consistent amongst fandom as a whole #all of you can agree on shit that never happened and debate the reasons and results of shit you made up #ie tim doing the Bruce quest #‘alone’ or being threatened to get sent to Arkham or carrying the batfam and being abandoned or ignored or being treated badly by Bruce bc #of Jason etc.#y’all can make METAS on all that shit but the second I say it’s weird that Duke is always the normal one or chaotic gremlin with nothing to #who he is yall get mad

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hotsugarbyglassanimals · 5 months ago

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I’ve reached my limit with white boy fans to say the least

#absolutely CANNOT be normal about either laois OR kabru #especially kabru #the only dungeon meshi yaoi people I respect are those who draw senshi and chilchuck together #cause they make it really sweet AND they understand the characters theyre pairing together #the type of person to fixate on a fat hairy guy seems to… most of the time know how to be normal #STOP calling laois a twink. STOP turning kabru into a waifish fawn #you dont know how to be normal about poc and by god do i wish the author didnt give kabru blue eyes and make him look so young #sorry im having a huge hater moment im one of the rare people that care more about the content of dungeon meshi than the ships /j #i love farcille. i am far more compelled by the protagonists friendships with each other because its SO endearing #for the record i dont even go thru the tags i am addicted to my for you page against my better judgement …#(correction: I like farcille. i realized love is an overstatement cause there are other sapphic couples i absolutely adore far more)#(I am just not nearly as invested in farcille…)

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loveinsomesacredplace · 10 months ago

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the disregard for Belly’s happiness is something I expect from the other side, but is so disappointing when it’s your own fandom

the fear/expectation that Jere’s character is going to be dismantled and denying that because you know the show has a narrative to push but not saying a word about the potential destruction of Belly’s character to further said narrative and expecting of it of her because she broke Jere’s heart in season 1 - and not considering, oh this is fucking bad writing too

The DISCONNECT

Show Belly, I’ll always love you, and that C endgame is not it for you

#every fucking time!!!#love it when girl characters get judged harsher and reduced into being just a love interest and not a character with her own purpose #LOVE IT #“I don’t trust her because she hurt my precious darling boo boo”#Let’s just stitch a scarlet A on her and call it a day #WHY DO YOU SHIP IF YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT ONE HALF OF THE SHIP THEN #I am tired #say you actually do want to punish her and go #am i over reacting and too emotional invested in a silly summer show?#1000%#I gotta breathe and respect people’s opinions #but oof it is so — i’m an adult i’m an adult i have my own head and heart canon and that is enough #Thank god for fanfic

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running-in-the-dark · 9 months ago

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I know I've been particularly incoherent for the past few days (again), and it's so dramatic and ridiculous but it seriously feels like something is punishing me. I just want to like things a normal amount. I just want to like people and characters a normal amount.

I don't want to become so fully obsessed that literally nothing else exists and thinking about anything else feels like my brain is being stabbed with a thousand tiny knives. I don't want to need to find every piece of information I possibly can on whoever it is this time. I don't want to feel like I'm (literally) losing my mind when I see them. I don't want any of this!

I can not believe that I exist as a human being on this stupid planet just to get obsessed with people over and over and over again forever.

#like it's not. fun. it's not 'oh haha I just like this guy a lot :3' no it feels like. dying.#like I said I know it's fucking dramatic I know. but it feels SO BAD #and sometimes SO GOOD because nothing else gives my brain that feeling but god damn it most of the time it's just painful #maybe I should try drugs #probably.#maybe I should start drinking again #that made it bearable #but no that's. stupid #but my god how am I supposed to go through this again and again and again so many times in a row #I don't know how to explain how fucking devastating it is to attach yourself to. some stupid idiot (I'm sorry I don't mean that.). only to #not really care anymore after a couple months #what do you MEAN. I literally love this person with every stupid fibre of my stupid being and now he's just. some guy again??#I don't know. how. not to do this. it's not a choice! it's not something I DO. it HAPPENS to me.#and it only doesn't happen when I'm so depressed that I want to actively die.#anyway yeah it's about John Larroquette and Dan Fielding and Jenkins and yeah I'm the fucking stupidest fucking dumbass on earth #someone hit me in the head to fix my brain please #and seriously this is not normal. it can not be normal. this is not how normal people feel about stuff. it can't be #I think this is why I don't get fandom culture. and shipping specifically. like. no I'm not. I'm not enjoying these characters. I'm not #watching this show and thinking aww these two should kiss :)#I'm. not there anymore. I don't fucking exist. all I do. is think about this person. I can't stop it.#I am not a person when I don't feel like this. I'm not even real. I'm just whoever I'm obsessed with. I say that so much but that's how it #feels! I'm not real.#so anyway when I say 'haha I'm fine' what I mean is no I'm not someone make my brain work right please #I just. see him and start crying. because it's so overwhelming.#maybe I should find a therapist and hope they speak English and show them this post :)#haha no that's ridiculous I could never mention this to a normal person #guess I'll just keep driving myself to insanity with this crap.#personal

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mintchochipkookie · 10 months ago

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#i fucking hate going into the tags of literally any media on this site #the only thing i see anymore is to do with ships that they think are great and how things could be gayer and i literally #don't fucking care about the romantic aspect 99% of the time!!!!!!#who!!!! fucking!!!! cares!!!!!!#please for the love of god can someone talk about characters and plots and (non romantic) relationships with me????#like this has happened in so many fandoms recently and idk why I'm surprised every time #it didn't used to be like this? like yeah this site has always skewed heavily towards shipping culture bs #but like. you could always find other stuff?????#but now it overtakes 99.99999% of the tags and it's just impossible to engage with anything anymore over here #was trying to see *anything* about the your throne webtoon chatter here and it's just useless #to delete later

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mazojo · 2 years ago

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Guys I finished the supernatural aliens not aliens demogorgons dnd something something show !

#so many thots so many head empty i am quite literally dealing !!!#as you can see characters are ranked in a scale of whether they are Will Byers or not and as most of the cast is not will Byers they can't #be as cool important relevant funny and interesting as S tier rip #ALL JOKES ASIDE I AM CRYING SCREAMING AND THROWING UP ALL AT ONCE S4 FINALE HELLO???#(also no one get offended okay this is me being funny dont take me seriously)#but yes objectively Joyce is the best character in the show but Will makes me emo because he needs a hug and therapy and aha pls someone #help him and by someone I mean Mike Wheeler helLO STOP BEING DUMB REACT DO SOMETHING #every time mike says does or literally appears on my screen is constant go girl give us nothing it irks my blood #I still love them all but goD did they decide to make Mike annoying !#plot wise s1 is the best imo but emotionally devastating wise s4 because none of them made me cry except the last one in the lumax scene #loved s3 aesthetic tho and s2 Noah's acting is amazing #ship wise only canon ships I care about is Joyce and hopper & Lucas and max #(hopefully robin next season please ??? girlfriend???)#non canon obviously Will x mike soulmates and it hurts haha but also love me my max x el and steddie was also nice #I thought I would care about Eddie more and while I dont hate him or anything he was just kinda there and I wish he had more moments to shin #because that final scene with dustin was devastating #anyways sorry I needed to rant I have feelings #stranger things

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ishedadordaddy · 2 years ago

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Sometimes healing from religious trauma is looking back and going “HOLY FUCK! YOU SAID WHAT? JESUSSSSS CHRIST! I WAS A CHILD YOU SAID THAT TO, THATS JUST BLATANT HATE! MY GOD” and then hating yourself for ever believing it because you weren’t taught any different and had to on your own time realize that the adults in your life were just casually spouting hate speech with the excuse of religious texts.

And by the way. Feel free to vent in the tags or comments. Just PLEASE, don’t come onto here and try and argue why any points anyone tries to make about things they’ve been through aren’t that bad or should be ignored. Right now this is a safe space for people who have been through religious trauma. Not for people who are happy in their religion and want to convert others.

You have your own spaces. Use them.

#looking at you lds/Mormons #you know. I don’t care about the whole “oh we don’t want to be called mormons that’s disrespectful” thing #cause like. you know what’s more hateful?#ANTISEMITISM #Not even like “well it’s not our fault you interpreted it wrong type either. just blatant antisemitsm and being like and they had it coming #like no????? also like your religion is the fannon/fanfic of all Christian religons #no one treats you seriously you fucking crack ship of a religion and leave #the things that I was just casually taught that when you look back on it with like even the slightest bit of rose colored glasses removed #is just blatant hate speech man.#like no. don’t go around saying the native Americans are Jews who were forsaken by god #that’s racist #and also FULL of antisemitism #the amount of “and remember god is a white man who only loves us and only loves white men” speeches I’ve had is far too many #like I’ve been told to become a mom because god made me that way and it’s disrespectful to want a job cause god made us nurturing unlike men #and like all the anti-gay rhetoric and anti-trans #like if you’re not an old cishet white man from the 50s you are FUCKED in the eyes of their god #and people wonder why I think that the idea that god died years ago is preferable to a god existing #cause like. an all loving god wouldn’t allow for THIS SHIT especially not in the one true religion as some churches believe #tw vent #tw religion #tw homophobia #tw antisemitism #tw transphobia #tw racism #tw lds church and lds church beliefs #tw xenophobia #kinda? but I’m just gonna say yes to be safe #the amount of trigger warnings when I’m not even going IN DEPTH about any of the shit I’ve heard is honestly concerning and talks for itself #tw sexism #religious trauma

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looking-cool-joker · 2 years ago

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i can’t get into discourse that i’m not mentally prepared for i can’t get into discourse that i’m not mentally prepared for i can’t get into discourse that i’m

#just rambling #just seeing a braindead post about zim and dib #i looked at it yesterday and seethed #and i did the same today #i cannot explain how wrong they got the characters #i think i’m going to burst into flames actually #ITS A BABY SHOW HOW DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT DIB DOESN’T CRAVE LOVE #HE JUST WANTS VALIDATION #YES ZIM AND HIM WOULD BE TOXIC EVERYONE UNDERSTANDS IT #‘zadr is toxic but no ones ready to admit it’#shut up shut up shut up everyone knows but no one cares because its f i c t i o n #yes it wouldn’t work in canon but thats why fanfiction exists oh my god #not only that but they ship keef and zim together as if that could never work out in canon #AND ITS ABUSIVE AND TOXIC #IT IS LITERALLY WORSE THAN ZADR IN TERMS OF BEING ABUSIVE AND MANIPULATIVE

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hauntingblue · 2 months ago

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