#but feelings nonetheless

[camelotsbi]

I wouldn't normally post about this but I have so many conflicting feelings about Liam Payne's passing,,,,

I was a hardcore directioner from 2013 to 2016 (back when we were waiting for the 18 month hiatus to end). I was there, I saw all the hype, watched all the videos and listened to all the albums. I fangirled with my friends. I read a lot of fanfiction,,, I remember crying when the news about Zayn's leaving dropped, and how all of the girls at my school were absolutely devastated the next day.

And today I'm here, still holding a lot of 1D's songs close to my heart, reading about Liam's death, and I feel...nothing. Which is a lie, because then I wouldn't be here writing this. And, at the same time I find no other way to describe it.

I pretty much stopped following the guys when the first solo album dropped and it became clear that the hiatus was going to be a lot longer than 18 months. I listened to Harry's album but wasn't impressed. I listened to This Town and fell in love with it, so I bought Flicker when it came out. I didn't listen to Louis'. I didn't listen to Zayn's. I didn't listen to Liam's. But I read the criticisms and the (bad) reviews. It kinda became clear to me that, out of the five, he was struggling the most to find a path outside of the band.

I also remember the interview Liam did for a podcast and how he sounded so full of himself. How he said he was the "honorary member of One Direction" and that the whole thing was built around him because of a promise someone had made to him. I remember feeling angry and being in disbelief. I think he lost my sympathy in that moment. But I also just felt bad for him... I remember him talking about how his album was written by other people and not thought through enough so it didn't feel like a cohesive piece of art. He clearly didn't know who he was outside the band and I think he probably didn't know what he really wanted either. Idk.

This past week I was talking to a friend about why I slowly grew to dislike him, and how I kind of had already grieved One Direction, because the boys I fell in love with back in 2012 feel soooo different form the men we see today.

So, when I saw the news, I didn't cry. It took me by surprise. It shook me. But it didn't make me feel sad. If anything, I feel sad about his family, his friends and the other 1D members. I feel sad for the fans who lost a piece of their heart today. And I feel kind of relieved that whenever he is, he is no longer in pain.

I don't think I'm gonna miss him. I've been grieving the whole band for a long time.

[mienar]

the wandering painter, part one

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[ahyuggg]

amidst the hourglass sand ⏳

[clouvu]

Cooking up an older Clervie outfit design so I don't have to keep drawing her looking like her child self but Long

[animatedtext]

requested by chimera-the-golden

[timethehobo]

Scribbly. Less than a week to see him. 🥺 #DragonAge #EmmrichVolkarin

[fandomtrash264]

I'm not going to lie to yall,

As sad as it makes me, my first impression of When You Finish Saving the World? I don't like it.

I'd like to think that I'll look back on it and change my opinion but idk.

I also may read the book and then make my opinion becayse ad a movie adaptation, it could be that they did an amazing job and I just don't like the story. But yes. I was not a fan of the story.

I can elaborate on why, I just don't want to spew a negative review when I haven't read the og story. I just really wanted to talk about it.

[formulanni]

Birthday flowers for the birthday boy! (Bday version of this below the cut 💀)

Tag list: @st-leclerc @rubywingsracing @saviour-of-lord @three-days-time @the-wall-is-my-goal @albonoooo @ch3rubd0lls

[nonbinoclard]

a conversation on the coast (original fanfic + inspiration)

[klaasje]

de devblog - kim's portrait

“There is an interesting detail we noticed in some of the art for Kim Kitsuragi. It appears that he has an abstract touch of blue on his forehead both in his in-game portrait and in the painting made for the game's cover art. This is not because Kim should have a blue forehead per se, or that he is somehow meant to be painted this way. It seems that the internal logic of how Rostov processes colors ends up needing to add that bit of something cold just about on the forehead area to freshen things up. Kim is all dressed in warm colors so it makes sense for you to need something cold for balance. This also results in a wonderful touch of characterization: Kim with the cold calculating mind. Kim, the cool and refreshing counterpoint to Harry's sweat and fever.” (x)

[bacchuschucklefuck]

space sweepers but they're delivery people and are at no point on screen through the entire movie

[obsessedwithstarwars]

Bruce: How was your class trip Damian?

Damian: It was quiet and productive Father.

Bruce: I’m glad to hear it. What was your favorite part?

Damian: I learned how to escape an Iron Maiden.

Bruce: …

Damian: …

Bruce: Explain please.

Damian: A boy Drake’s age taught me how to escape an Iron Maiden.

Bruce: How did he have that knowledge?

Damian: He claims his family has a dungeon full of medieval torture devices. I believe he may require further investigation.

[mienar]

stillness in these waking hours

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[sunsquiggles]

Dressing them up like sweet, newborn puppies

[yardsards]

laios when his party needed more members:

[perhaps-only-a-mirage]

some simple (but plentiful!!!) sprites for you all today. just some outfit swaps! the alpha kids did not get nearly enough cool outfits, so i decided to see what they'd look like with some modified beta kid outfits. some look decent, but others look very nice! i also did it the other way around too, because whynot.

(sorry i think i'll stop with the colored text thing in default text, it was So Cool but it was also really time consuming @_@)

JANE

ROXY

DIRK

JAKE

JOHN

JADE

ROSE

DAVE