#but feelings are complicated

[lurafita]

AU. Malec, lots of backstory and "it's complicated" good! Camille.

Okay, basically Buffy the vampire slayer, but with lots of differences, and set after the theoretical series. (You will hopefully understand what I mean)(almost all characters are adults! The teenage vampire slaying is part of the origin story.) Camille is the vampire slayer. She meets Alec, Izzy, and Jace when she saves them from being sacrificed by a satanist cult in New York. Unable to close their eyes to the hidden world that has opened to them, the three want to help her. Camille is reluctant to accept their help and companionship at first, but they wear her down. For 2 years, they form a pretty good team. But then a prophecy is revealed, or a great calamity hinted at, or someone gets a vision or something, which demands the slayer turn back to (insert fantasy town here), - let's call it Dawnsbury for now. The town where she finished her highschool, did most of her slayer duty, and was a kinda really mean entitled bitch of a teenager. She had had a team then as well. Fellow classmates and others, eager to help and support her. One of them most of all. Raphael, the souled vampire with his crytpic advice and fighting prowess. Simon, the nerdy computer geek with his research skills and misplaced hero worship. Sweet Magnus. Whose life she saved when they met. Who fell in love with her. Who did everything for her. Who learned magic for her. And who she used and abused and betrayed and abandoned. A past full of regrets, that she had done her best to outgrow, (and run from). But of course she had to go back. Of course her new team accompanies her. Of course her old team is still there. Of course they, especially Magnus, want nothing to do with her. Of course Alec falls in love with Magnus basically from the get go.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

License to Kitty.

[bruhstation]

you’re just like the rest of them

[satanicdollx]

they should invent friends that do not live so fucking far

[aueua]

people with siblings: how do you feel about them?

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

[feralforbeanix]

He loved her immediately I'm gonna cry

[shirecorn]

Monsters

Bittersweet Dreams || Perspective || Evil || Fighter

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael and Vanny had wild teen years in FNAF

[notbecauseofvictories]

I'm re-reading the Discworld series for reasons, and honestly the most relatable part of reading these as an adult is how many of the protagonists start out being tired, used to their little routine and vaguely disgruntled by the interruption of the Plot. Sam Vimes wants to lie drunk in a gutter and absolutely doesn't want to be arresting dragons. Rincewind is yanked into every situation he's ever encountered, though he'd much rather be lying in a gutter too. (Minus the alcohol. Plus regretting everything he's ever done said witnessed or even heard about fourth-hand in his whole life.) Granny Weatherwax is deeply suspicious of foreign parts and that includes the next town over; Nanny has leaned into the armor of "nothing ever happens to jolly grannies who terrorize their daughters-in-law and make Saucy Jokes"

Only the young people don't seem to have picked up on this---and that's fortunate, because someone has to run around making things happen, if only so Vimes and Granny and Rincewind have a reason to get up (complaining bitterly the whole time) and put it all to rights. Without Carrot, Margrat, Eric, etc. these characters don't have that reason; they're likely to stay in the metaphorical gutter and keep wondering where it all went wrong or why anything has to change.

............well, that's not quite true. You get the sense that Vetinari knows how much certain people hate the Plot. And as the person sitting behind the metaphorical lighting board of Ankh-Morpork, he takes no small pleasure in forcing the Plot-haters specifically to stand up, and say some lines.

[glacier-shrimp]

Some flowers for you ❤️

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Why self-diagnosed autistics are valid

medical diagnosis can be expensive

humans are the experts on their own minds

family may prevent assessment

diagnosis criteria is a poor checklist of stereotypes

diagnosis criteria ignores gender, race, sexuality, culture & more

medical diagnosis confirms autism, but doesn't create it

discrimination within the medical profession may prevent diagnosis.

Assessment waiting lists often long

medical trauma may make assessment unfeasible

Neurodiverse Journeys

[artkaninchenbau]

People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again

[sunfoxfic]

We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore. We were so close. Then they flavored it mango and now it's taboo to criticize it anymore. People don't ask if they're allowed to vape indoors, they aren't considerate of people who may have health problems that are triggered by the chemicals or if it just bothers them, people don't care that they're supporting an industry built on corruption and greed, they can't see it draining their pockets and much less their health. We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore.

[eeternalferret]

I hate when people get on your back about a ship because it's 'toxic' like bro i said they are in love not that they should be.

[oleandro-drag]

saint sebastian tended by saint irene but they're both drag artists

felt like this might be something this site would enjoy

on stage: oleandro & delfi oraakel, photographer: peroksiid (on ig as oleandro_drag, delfi_oraakel and peroksiid)