#but crushie is also a good person

[themagical1sa]

ykw?

it would be incredibly funny if crushie liked me back too late

especially when i might be starting to like someone else

[belladonnafleur]

🛏️

[oceanwithouthermoon]

saiki being in a romantic relationship (or alternatively, actually trying to be in one) for the first time and having no experience or knowledge on what to do, so he falls back on behaviors hes picked up from the people around him..

but the most romance hes seen close up are his parents, aiura + teruhashi + yumehara with crushes and trying to flirt, etcetc (toritsuka does not count cuz what he does is hardly romantic, and that one time kuboyasu was ready to drop everything and marry a girl immediately doesnt count either cuz saiki expressively thought that was too much)

PLUS his own 'secret' obsession with romance stories and cliches..

so like.. crushy honeymoon romance is the only romance he KNOWS..

he would definitely find it too embarrassing to actually be as consciously lovey dovey as his parents are, and wouldnt want to try and be some 'knight in shining armor' like yumehara imagined him at first, but i think that 1) it would be a lot more subconscious and he would just not know any better than to latch onto his partner and 2) he would just choose (consciously AND subconsciously depending on the situation) to just try and do what he knows but in a subtle way..

like, he wouldnt write a love letter and pair it with a homemade chocolate heart like yumehara did, but he might write little notes (which are probably more like encouraging little phrases and paragraphs like a mom would put in her kids lunch than sweet love notes) and make baked goods for someone..

its probably mostly his mom that he models his behavior after, so he cooks for his person a lot and his most notable love language is probably acts of service

thats obviously not his only love language though, quality time was always his biggest until it came to romance and acts of service just barely weighs it out. words of affirmation is a big one for him too.. physical touch is also important for him, but not in the way that it would be for most people i think. its part of his love language more in a way that if he wants to touch a person at ALL, its an expression of love.. i think he would be big on sitting close together so his thighs and hands are just barely touching theirs, holding onto someones arm or having his arm be held, stuff like that..

[mins-fins]

≡;- ꒰ °𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐒 ꒱

chapter two; crushy wushy

"y/n can you come here for a moment?"

upon hearing his name, said boy raises up his head, finally looking away from his test, a sigh of relief escaping his lips as he saw the 100% circled atop his paper. he folds the test and places it into his backpack, looking to the teacher who just called his name.

"yes?" he sighs and fixes his hair, blinking away the hopefully not obvious tiredness present on his face.

"y/n, can you do me a favor?" the science teacher, mr. lim inquires, sorting out blank test sheets for the next class coming soon.

"uh.." he pauses for a moment, biting his inner cheek. "depends on what it is!" he quickly replies, trying his best to seem bright.

"okay" he mutters. "i need you to tutor a student for me".

y/n's face drops.

he resists the urge to sigh, keeping his expression the same as before. it's only the beginning of the year, yet y/n already has been tutoring people, people who aren't even in his own grade.

he understands that people need help, yes, and he understands that sometimes options are limited, which is usually why teachers come to him and ask that he tutor students.

he's tutored students before in lower grades, and most, if not all the students, did end up improving their grades and understanding on said subjects, so teachers love to extort him whenever they want someone to tutor their students.

the problem is, though, y/n's schedule is now packed because of all this. he's already tutoring three kids, and school began only three weeks ago.

he's already been stressed because of all of the pressure put on him to be the perfect student, but now he has three students that he has to teach, and a fourth one mr. lim wants him to?

he gives a tight-lipped smile.

"i can't" he responds rather awkwardly. "i already have three students i'm tutoring, they're all in different grades, my schedule is already packed despite school just starting and— i don't think i'll be able to manage tutoring another person".

mr. lim registers his words, and y/n somehow has a glimmer of hope that he'll say; "alright then, i'll see if another student is available to tutor".

oh how he wished he would've said that.

"y/n" he begins, and said boy clenches his teeth because he can already guess what he's going to say.

"you are an extremely smart kid, there's no doubt about that, your chance of getting a scholarship is already insanely high, but this will help boost your luck—"

y/n sighs, the former expression already having left his face. "i know, but— is there not someone else you could consider? like park gunwook? he can also be a suitable tutor! he's just as smart as well i'll tell you that".

he tries his best to negotiate, but that doesn't seem to be working, at least in his eyes it doesn't.

y/n knows that ultimately, he's gonna end up doing it, because that's just the kind of person he is, he would never deny helping another person because of his own selfish (even though they're not selfish) needs.

"gunwook is the class president, he already has responsibilities he has to take care of".

and i don't? y/n desperately wants to reply, but he bites his tongue to avoid saying something that may be wrong.

i hate myself for being selfless..

"fine, i'll do it".

though y/n would love to continue arguing with his teacher, it's just not worth it, he knows that, he just has to deal with his circumstances, make the best of them or whatever. "who am i tutoring now?"

"someone in your grade, he— he's not the best when it comes to science, but, he's not horrible at the class, you won't need to tutor him for long".

y/n blinks. "can you tell me a name?"

"kim gyuvin".

y/n narrows his eyes, feeling like he recognized the name from somewhere. his mind races as he tries to remember where he's heard that name before.

kim gyuvin. kim gyuvin. kim gyuvin—

oh. he's one of gunwook's friends, and junhyeon's friends. tall, handsome guy who screams all the time, he's actually pretty good when it comes to history class, and has decent grades, they're not all that bad, science just always trips him up.

alright y/n, shouldn't be that difficult, at least you kind of know the guy.. it'll make your life easier!

"i— yeah yeah, that's fine, i'll do it, can i go now?"

"oh, yes yes!"

y/n sighs, giving a fake smile as he repositions his backpack on his shoulder and walked out of the classroom.

maybe he muttered a few curses under his breath, but no one needed to know that.

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[astraydestiny]

Bruh I’m actually tweaking I need to do my work but I CANT. LIKE IM SO TIRED AND STUFF. IVE BEEN SLEEPING FOR SO LONG AND I NEEDA GET 2k + 1k DONE TODAY FOR MY CLASS’S CREATIVE WRITING THING. Look normally I like creative writing but I’m more of a like- idk philosophy i guess type? I use metaphors and whatnot so much more often than actual science- and rarely venture into the future? I’m more of a… Escapist Fiction person I guess. IDK. ALL I KNOW IS THAT IM NOT A SCI-FI WRITER. The story i’m writing has a lot of symbolism because it touches on how hunger can affect the minds if its beholder and stuff… BUT I HAVE TO INCLUDE RESEARCH AND VOCABULARY WORDS IN IT????? Idk man YANA TOBOSO WOULDVE DONE THIS SO EASILY. BUT IM NOT YANA TOBOSO, AND I HATE WORKING WITH RESTRICTIONS (sometimes, depends on the specificity of the requirements or whatnot). Oh well! I ALSO TALKED TO MY CRUSHY WUSHY SO MUCH TODAY SO LIKE IM ACTUALLY IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD. Alr i’ll cya later after I finish my rigmarole BYEEEE

(My face when Im abt to cook)

[trolagygirl2022]

omg okay girl- idk if the person you asked about is your lil crushie but the first two cards that popped out TOGETHER. were the the empress and the lovers- just wanted to say that!!😍🥰

the lovers, the empress, the moon, 7 of swords, knight of swords reversed

i think DH thinks of you as someone very beautiful and lowkey someone who they would treat right!! they want to take care of you and i think wants to talk- like yk situationship/talking stage👻. they see you as someone who fits their type definetly, very charmed by you. they notice your presence easily although they sometimes they might act like they don’t cause they don’t want to seem desperate- i think they also see you as quiet/mysterious lol, you got aura to them girl 😍🫶. i think they think your very cute/have cute features, specifically your cheeks/eye area lol! i think they are interested in you, and possibly might be a lil possessive ? like if they were to talk abt you to their friends they might throw in some extra stuff to make sure their friends don’t like you either- like they wanna keep you to themself type stuff ☠️🤣 girl why you living a kdrama!! i also get that they think of you as someone smarter than them/better, so they might feel insecure and embarrassed when you’re around cause they’re scared you’re judging them🤣

the question i wanted to ask was-how will my romantic relationship with nct jaehyun go!

Thank you so much hehe, I'm giggling up and down LMAOO

Your romantic relationship with Jaehyun:

4 of Pentacles, Temperance, 9 of Pentacles rev, 6 of Pentacles rev, Queen of Cups, 9 of Swords, 7 of Wands.

So your romantic relationship with Jaehyun is... interesting 🫣! At first, I see that it would either be really good.. or lokey chaotic. It will take a while for you two to reach stable ground. I see that you guys might have some issues that partain to finances? Or career? I have a feeling that it can also have to do with career, especially his career. He seems like a workaholic so that can cause a strain in the relationship. I'm seeing him getting busy? But it can also cause distrust in the connection, and you two will have to talk over things and try to understand each other. For this connection to work, you'll need to be caring with one another and listen and be considerate of what the other person wants to say. You'll need to persevere in this connection! Many misunderstandings can erupt from this connection, so work on that, y'all! The last thing I see here is that you, too, should keep things private! (and in your relationships in general). I feel like a lot of people will be preying on your downfall and will be waiting for the relationship to crumble.

[mimikoolover]

I know he said Face and Muse aren't really connected and Muse is more vague, but I have had this theory about jikook ever since Face era and the minimoni talk kinda added to it..

Jimin said LC was about "the painful feeling of losing oneself while looking for a loved one in a dream" and the most important line that portrayed the feelings he wanted to express was "I wanna stay in this dream". He said the dream is Bangtan, his only dream is to stay in this career with BTS for as long as possible.

So much was changing in his life during the time Face was written, and obviously he also said it's about how he felt during the pandemic, I think maybe somewhere during this time he started to doubt if he would be able to feel fulfilled if his bangtan dream started to look different than it used to. He always talks about wanting the emotions he's felt with the band and fans to stick around as he gets older, but maybe he realized he needs more from his personal relationships too, and he started worrying about how he could maintain a romantic relationship the way he wants, while still staying in the bts dream.

We know jimin likes romance, we know he loves kids, I could totally see him wanting to get married and have one of those love stories he's singing about in Muse. I think this is something he was thinking a lot about, what his future would look like, if he would be able to be happy, if he would feel excited over both work and personal things again as time goes on and things change. I'm sure the upcoming enlistment hovering over him like a dark cloud didn't help with the flat feeling.

Now based on everything we've seen do I think he's been in some sort of relationship/situationship with jungkook for years? Yes. And honestly them being really good together but not being able to be together like a straight couple could, or having different worries and hopes for the future, fits perfectly with the ambivalent feelings in jimin’s songs. Jimin wanted to stay in his dream, their dream, but at the same time he doubted if what they had would be enough long term or if it was just wasting time, if it would eventually end up breaking him, and he kept getting drunk to cope with it all.

This also fits with Who representing his wish to find someone he can fully love and be loved by, someone he could give the world and so much more, he just doesn't know who that person is yet or where to find her. (yes, the she/her pronouns make sense here regardless of his sexuality, since it's gonna have to be a woman if he wants to love someone freely and openly, get married, have kids, all that stuff. (If he does want that)
And it fits with the previous lovey dovey crushy Muse songs not really representing how he was feeling at that time. It seemed like he wanted to express that he has felt all those things, but in the end it's like a dream, it’s not reality long term. But he wants to find someone it can be real with. And yet, he doesn't feel excited about finding this someone, he just feels flat, but he longs for that excitement, wishes he could feel it again like he did with jungkook.

Also, I've always believed that regardless of what jikook have their friendship, bts and their careers comes first. I don't think their friendship would get any weaker even if they were dating or something reassembling that at some point but aren't anymore. They clearly are still close and always have been. With some ups and downs I'm sure. My conclusion with this theory about the albums is I don't know what I believe they are now. Maybe the albums represent jimin's vague inner thoughts and worries more so than what’s actually going down in his life. Maybe he and Jungkook are (still) together but Jimin still felt flat because they’ve left the crush phase a long time ago, reached as far as they possibly can in their relationship and things are no longer exciting in that way he craves.

Maybe if they are together it feels too much like Jungkook is his best friend that also happens to be his partner, which can be great, relationships built on a solid platonic foundation just with added attraction can be the best ones. But maybe not if you’re someone who longs for the next steps, and you know you can never have them with that person. I do think Jimin loves Jungkook and I do think their interactions even more recently suggest they’re more than friends. But that can still be true and Jimin can still long for a fairytale love tornado to sweep him away because as much as he and Jungkook are great together, all they’ll ever be to the rest of the world is best friends. I imagine with military coming up this was heightened even more for them. Knowing they might have to be apart, and even after they found out they’re going together, they’d have to act like just friends even more than they’re used to.

I’ve only talked about jimin’s side of this here because it’s his albums, but if any of this is true then I obviously don’t think Jungkook is unaware of jimin’s feelings, I’m sure it’s something they talk about a lot. Maybe he feels the same way or he’s more of the I don’t care as long as we’re together type. He does strike me as someone who doesn’t care as much about relationships being super romanticized or marriage and all that stuff as much as Jimin might. Not to say that Jimin deserves better in any way, I think Jungkook has showed time and time again that he worships the ground Jimin walks on and even just from what we’ve seen he’s good at taking care of him and doing sweet things for him. You could say some of what we’ve seen him do for Jimin is very romantic. What I’m talking about is more, maybe Jungkook would be fine with them growing older living exactly as they have been, but Jimin can’t shake the longing for more, hence the feeling flat. Or maybe they’ve both been feeling that flat feeling. Doesn’t mean they love each other any less or enjoy spending time together any less. I just think they might be a lot messier than most jikookers want to see them as. I could obviously be completely wrong though. (Sorry about how long this got lol)

I love reading everyone's thoughts but I feel like personally I don't like to think about angsty/sad stuff in relation to jikook. so some of what you said made me quite sad and I personally don't like to dwell on it. however jungkook did mention that he's keen on working on releasing songs authentic to him after the military, perhaps he will work on an album and write his own songs next. I guess when that happens and we hear what he wants to share we may possibly have a better idea of things.

[alunaloverworld]

Fictional character crushes I had while growing up Part 1

These are the lists of character crushes I had while growing up and explanation:

Shou from Pretty rhythm aurora dream and dear my future

Shou, I had a crush on him in the first pretty rhythm series before the sequel and I like him because he likes a girl who does things unexpectantly even though he has a short temper, that is his flaw. He's also a great fashion designer of Prism Stone because his design outfits for girls are unique and trendy to wear.

Syaoran Li from Cardcaptor Sakura

Syaoran Li was more of a tsunder character type but he was shy and mellowed down to be kinder which I love about him even though he was jerk to Sakura at the beginning, I did grow to love when he becomes kind to Sakura which change him every time she does something to him and cause him to blush.

Tsubasa Li and Syaoran Li from Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle

Syaoran Li reminds me from Cardcaptor Sakura only this time he's kinder, brave, and cares about other people minus the tsundere. While Tsusbasa Li is the same as Li Syaoran but the only difference is he can't protect those he cares about like his parents or his clones, but he still had Syaroan Li's personality minus the tsundere.

Tom MCcavity from Olivia series

I had a crush on Tom Mccavity because he was a jockster and is an optimist and always care for his friends which is why I like him.

Luke Triton from Professor Layton

The moment I saw Luke Triton in the Katrielle Layton anime series that he grows up into an adult, I fell in love with him because of his looks and has grown from his childhood days with Professor Layton being mature and more gentlemen like. 

Jimmy/Kenta from Pokémon Legend of Thunder

Jimmy or Kenta I had a crush on him because he was a Pokemon trainer who wanted to help his hometown but he also helped a legendary Pokemon called Raikou which I like about him. He had a personality that is good because he wanted to help people and Pokemon, a bit like Ash but not a chosen one way.

Ash Ketchum/Satoshi from Pokémon

I had a crush on Ash Ketchum during the advanced generation because he is brave, kind, selfless, determined, optimistic, and naïve but when it came to the black and white series he was a laughing stock and more like he forgot things he went through all his journey. Satoshi from XYZ what made me like him more and he was great. But as I grew up I loathe him and admire him now. I loathe him because he could not win a single Pokémon league and I admire him because he was kind to his friends and Pokémon as well as determined to win.  But after finding out he won a Pokemon league, I admired him, and my crush for him hadn't grown much except it was gone when I grew older.

Peeta Mellark from Hunger Games

I had a crush on Peeta Mellark because of Katniss telling the readers she was in love with him making me fall in love with him as well but in a crushy way. Peeta is kind, likeable, charming, generous, selfless because of love, peaceful, gentle, good sense of humour, emotional as he can cry and has a temper. Peeta is sadly taken and married and wish I had a date with him and marry him off as well but he is meant to be with Katniss.

Sekai Kamiki from Gundam Build Fighter Try

I had a crush on Sekai Kamiki because of his fiery temper to compete in the gundam competition and the fact that he is in a love triangle between two characters from the show that has feelings towards him. Yeah he is new to gundam, but he learns how to build one and make one of his own making him interesting.

Dillon from Power Ranger RPM

I had a crush on Dillon because he was a mysterious guy who has a past that he couldn't remember and the fact that he is a cool brooding ranger making him an interesting power ranger. Also, the fact that he helps his fellow rangers even if he doesn't know his past, he will still help which is why I like him. Dillon is sadly taken by Summer the yellow ranger.

Phill Diffy from Phill of the future

I had a crush on Phill because of his interest in past technology as well as how past of the modern world works but he's such a dork that I love him, though I admit he is taken as well.

Danny Fenton from Danny Phantom

Danny he is a typical teenager who is a hero who saves the world by stopping ghosts coming from other world and transferring them back to the ghost world, yes he's a stoner who wants to become an astronaut but I like the fact that he takes cares of his friends and family. I had a crush on him on how he treats family and friends and he's good with them.

Kashino Makoto from Yumeiro Patissiere

I don't know why I end up having crushes on Tsunderes but damn Kashino was a fine guy even when he was a tsundere towards Ichigo which is why I had a crush on him because he is willing to help people who want to learn how to make cakes and have the same dream as him which is to become a patisseiere. Plus I like the fact that he was a blushing mess towards Ichigo which is why I had a crush on him. Kashino is taken and is married towards Ichigo so my dream of having him is zero.

Eugeo from Sword Art Online Alicization

Eugeo, oh I had a crush on him because of his kind personality and the fact that he was the best boy who is calm and collective and not ahead of himself which is why I love him.

Kirito/Kazuto Kirigaya from Sword Art Online

Kirito from SAO I had a crush on him because of how he is kind, yet a crybaby but still thinks of loved ones even when they're in danger, he would help them and try to get them to safely as possible. Kirito is taken as well because he's with Asuna who can cook.

Watase Aoba from Buddy Complex

Aoba, he was stupid sometimes but heroic nonetheless and always seem to be positive even when something happened to him that seems dangerous he would always head on be courageous which I is why I had a crush on him. Okay besides his good looks his personality wise was the best though he is with Hinata at the end of the show which I wish I could have him but he's taken.

Brandon Robert from Dork Diaries

I had a crush on Brandon because he was kind, didn't care about the popularity and always like photography taking pictures for the journalism and even musically talent.

Kakeru Kogure from Onegai my melody

Okay Kakeru I can explain, he is cocky and teases but he learns his mistake and tries to be friendly towards girls and nice to them and treat them gifts even though he was a bully. I had a crush on him because he was kinder and learn from his mistakes.

Luke Smith from The Sarah Jane Adventures

Luke, i had a crush on him not only based on his looks but his personality where he is intelligent, smart, helpful, supportive towards his friends and family and never fears his fears which is why I like him. But then I found out on an article he is gay, so that's over and done with.

Terry McGinnis from Batman Beyond

I got a crush on Terry because he was a loner and he's always stopping the bad guys in gothan city and I was attracted him because he was mysterious and a bad boy I guess. I even like when he wore the bat suit, but damn he was good looking.

Cayenne from Lady Jewelpet

Cayenne I had a crush on him because of how kind and caring he is towards Momona and the fact that he gets teased and blushed about by his friends of his feelings towards Momona which is why I had a crush on him.

Tim Goodman from Detective Pikachu

When Tim Goodman showed up in Detective Pikachu Returns he looked like he had a glow up which made him handsome from the first game of Detective Pikachu and I liked his hair style and his iconic hoodie but he's still sarcastic which I like and he is willing to help Pokemon in need while on the case even when trying to find his father.

Kokouda Koji from Yes Precure 5

I had a crush on Kokouda Koji because he is handsome, and kind, always helping people to learn and become better of themselves which is why I like him. It's not only his good looks but damn he can always be savior towards a precure like Nozomi.

Aladdin from Aladdin

I got a crush on Aladdin when I was a child because I thought of him as someone who can fall in love with a relationship even despite himself being a thieve. He has charm which I like about him and is confident in himself.

Robert Philip from Enchanted

Okay don't get me started Robert Philip, yes I know he is a grumpy old man that talks about reality instead of fairytales but I admit he does help Giselle out from eating the apple and remembering details from fairytales despite being a damsel in distress kind of guy which is why I had a crush on him besides his good looks. He does show he cares which I like about.

Prince Philip from Sleeping Beauty

Prince Philip has a good singing voice which is why I had a crush on him also his good looks. Personality-wise wise he is heroic and courageous which by the way is the trait I always like when it comes to characters.

Albedo from Genshin Impact

Albedo because of his ability to use a harp as a musical talent and talk things that I cant seem to understand about the world in genshin impact and doing research and able to use magic that is light I think and him being good looking.

Aiden from Barbie magic pegasus

Aiden is a sassy guy who would savagely burn your comment if you say something that burns which I like about him even though he has a rough past not able to give money back to his dad, he still cares barbie who was in magic pegasus the blond one. He's even courageous and I would say he is the best barbie crush I had of him.

[yiplee]

My take on popular South Park ships both canon and fanon ✌️

(I don’t know all the ship names so I’m just writing their names for some)

Creek- I mostly ship it cause it’s canon. I like both the characters and think they go good together. I’m not super protective over it like some creek fans. They’re definitely more than friends, but they are just kids and it can’t be that deep.

Stendy- Old Stendy was really cute and healthy but new Stendy feels bad for both of them. Used to love them, but I don’t like this ship that much anymore.

Clybe- I like the fanon side of Clybe but if you look at the actual show their relationship doesn’t seem that good. I still enjoy the fanon side of their ship but they don’t seem like a good couple in canon

Style- I really like this ship. They’re very close, care about eachother very much, and have a really good dynamic. I will say fans seem to forget that it’s not canon. I also wanna say, I wouldn’t put them as an open lovey couple. More like kids who have crushy feelings but just stay friends.

Bunny- I really like this ship! The fanon stuff is adorable and they seem really close in canon. They’ve had some great episodes too, but again I see them like how I see style. Remember that all of these are just kids. Very cute together though!

Wendy+Bebe- I can see why people would ship them. They’re good together and all, but I personally just see them as friends.

Kyman- This ship is extremely toxic. They very clearly hate each other. It’s not some hero-villain dynamic where they “complete” eachother, they simply hate each other. Not all enemies have to become lovers. Eric is honestly too toxic of a character to be a good ship with anyone. BUT! I will say, the idea of one-sided Kyman with Cartman’s extreme obsession with Kyle is okay as long as you’re not genuinely shipping them. They would never work as an actual couple

Thank you for listening. If you disagree with these, that’s fine. (Unless you ship Kyman as a couple, in which case, block me.) But these are merely my opinions. I think people just take these ships too seriously.

Let me know if you wanna see more of these because I have more thoughts to share if people wanna hear them!

[a-crimson-dawn]

Merilliam May - Day 2 - Crushy Behaviour

[o] William's definitely more the type to get all flustered and nervous. Rather than straight-up saying he likes Mereoleona, he'll be all blushes and acting like he's not staring at her - even though often he totally is. [o] There are excuses he can - and does - use endlessly, like asking for the Crimson Lion Kings and Golden Dawn to train together, or asking if while she's training Leopold, Yuno can tag along. (And sometimes he'll come along to er… "observe the progress". And sure, there's some of that, but there's also a lot of enjoying being around Mereoleona. [o] Mind you, Yuno realises this and is annoyed whenever he's used as an excuse. Enough so that he's tempted to snitch to Mereoleona just to avoid another training session with the terrifying woman. [o] If social media were a thing, William would definitely turn into something of a mild stalker. No weird messages or anything - mostly because he'd lose his guts the moment he'd try to write something to her - but definitely a lot of scrolling through a timeline mostly consisting of dangerous trips to wacky and weird places and work-out routines, because I mean, it is Mereoleona's page. (There is the occasional animal picture too, though - mostly of lions and other cats.) [o] He's way too eager to help out for it to not be sus to anyone on his squad - but Mereoleona is totally dense to it. [o] Mereoleona on the other hand is more up-front about it, or in the very least, she doesn't lack the confidence to talk to him. [o] She mostly initiates any conversations and tries to lead them in a direction where she can get a feel for his feelings - not that it's easy figuring out someone who alternates between hot and cold constantly. One minute it looks like he's interest in her, looking at her, blushing, the next he's avoiding her. [o] The avoidance comes from a fear of judgement and rejection… and also guilt over past events.

[o] But he's unable to completely stay away because something keeps pulling him back to her - that being attraction, among other things~. [o] He especially tends to go silent or avoid her gaze and whatnot when she starts talking relationships. From her point of view, she's using it to guage whether he's even available or not -- he's so reserved, who knows, maybe he has a super-secret relationship going on or isn't into women at all - but from where he stands, it's just a horrible reminder and he's worried the next thing she'll say is that she's already in a relationship. (He knows he ought to be happy for her, it'd be the right thing to do, and she deserves to be happy, but at the same time… he can't help but be a tiny bit jealous deep down at the idea.) [o] If it's her who is talking and it's not about relationship, he'll listen to her every word -- though it's not like he doesn't have his own opinions or things to say. He feels comfortable enough voicing his opinion around her if he doesn't quite agree, which is rare. Normally he feels the need to please people at the expense of his own comfort. And to some extent, he does this around her too, but not as much. [o] He'll do his best to keep up with Mereoleona whenever they do happen to spar - which is rare, but does happen - even though his attribute is not as good for one on one battles. [o] He compliments her a lot. Mostly in his mind - it usually never makes past his lips because he tends to get nervous in her proximity -, but despite them occasionally disagreeing and being so different, he has a lot to admire about her. From her personality and behaviour, to her appearance and how it feels to be around her… not that she hears most of these thoughts. [o] If someone starts disrespecting her in conversations, he'll normally bring up her strengths, whether or not she's around. Nobody insults his crush. [o] While he doesn't show it often, he does remember a lot about the people he cares for.

[o] Sometimes he'll be sure if he's invited to the Vermillions to bring a bottle of her favourite drink (which has come to raise Fuegoleon's suspicion… though Mereoleona's remained completely oblivious to it so far…), or sneakily add places where her favourite foods are served or her favourite activities are held into the conversation so that she knows. [o] Generally, he can't help but smile around Mereoleona… well, he smiles around most people, but around her it's more genuine than around most. The only other things that get him smiling as much is watching his squad grow and cute animals. [o] Seeing him smile brings all sorts of fuzzy and strange sensations to Mereoleona, which confuse her. She's had crushes a couple times before on both men and women, but she's the oblivious type that barely even recognises when she has a crush, let alone when someone crushes on her. She's observant most of the time, but when it comes to feelings to her, or her own feelings, she's as dense as any anime protagonist. It's weird realising she's crushing on someone. [o] (In fact, Mereoleona is so oblivious that when William straight up described her as being the woman he's got a crush on - he just didn't say her name -, she responded with, "she must be good in a fight then- I think I'd like to spar with her some day"… fully believing he was speaking of another red haired, blue eyed, tall, fierce and resilient woman that is somehow just as strong as she is and had unbelievable power where close combat was concerned. Yeaaaah, I'm sure there are plenty women like that in Clover, Mereo.) [o] William thinks she's cute. And I can guarantee he's the only one in Clover currently alive that thinks that. (When she was little though, Acier would pat her head and claim that she was adorable, which got the cutest pout from li'l Mereo. And her former girlfriend would tease her about how soft she was deep down despite her hard edges.)

[themagical1sa]

Story? Sounds interesting!

(if you're ok with sharing!)

🫂

Alright, here's the story:

It's Tuesday, and I usually have Drawing 1 on Tuesdays for this semester; we basically draw a photo together in this class to hone our skills in traditional drawing.

Unfortunately, due to the pandemic, my college does this thing where only a batch of 15-20 students can attend the session face-to-face (abbreviated f2f onwards) while everyone else attends online. My entire block/class of 40-50 students had been divided for that policy, but we can swap out slots as long as we inform our professor.

Now, today isn't just one of my regular Tuesdays — my class had a scheduled meetup in a barangay hall later that afternoon for a dance practice as part of our Physical Education class final. Four of my classmates and I had to squeeze into my family's car as we went for the venue.

I'm fairly well-acquainted with my blockmates and even good friends with one of them, so casually there came a conversation about yesterday.

One of them asked something like, "Hey, so sino pala yung crush mo? (Who is your crush?) Is it [crushie]?"

Remember: we're all squeezed together in my family's car with my mom driving and my dad in shotgun.

It's kind of funny to think about.

I laughed ("Ha? HAHAHAHAHHA hatdog!") before going, "Si Mark! Sina Markiplier at Jacksepticeye! (Mark! Markiplier and Jacksepticeye!)"

"Oh, nah, it's [crushie]," goes another blockmate.

"Paano mo nasabi? (How can you say that?)" I jokingly asked.

Oh, oh my poor poor self.

One would think that I'd only get this kind of situation only in fanfics when supporting characters are telling the main character about their love interest.

Why do I say this?

A blockmate responded to paano mo nasabi? with, and I quote:

"Halata kasi eh. Obvious."

Halata is an adjective, meaning obvious or easily noticeable. Kasi is the Tagalog equivalent for because.

I tried to brush it off with another paano mo nasabi and the same blockmate replied like, "Isa, halata since we were groupmates during first term."

Ah.

Hatdog na lang po ang masasabi ko. /j - [in Tagalog] Hatdog is all I can say now.

BONUS:

We were at the venue already and I was getting changed with the blockmate I was good friends with.

I actually personally admitted to her who crushie is while changing, and she went, "Oh, I knew it" and laughing light-heartedly.

She also said that I exuded Wattpad fanfic energy. It has not left my brain since.

[stimmy-stegosaurus]

Okay so as someone who is greyromantic and has experienced a bit of both, the feelings are remarkably similar, but still different in a way that’s really tough for me to describe.

So I have my boyfriend, and the crushy feeling I had with him was very different from anything else I’d experienced. And if it hadn’t been reciprocated I could’ve dealt with being friends, I guess, but there probably would’ve been some jealousy because I knew what I wanted even if it took me a little bit to decode the feelings.

But I also really didn’t like having a crush.

It’s nothing against him! At all! It’s just that relationships are hard and our circumstances were messy and I was scared and the feelings were strong and I just didn’t like it. But I’m glad things worked out and we’ve been together for as long as we have.

On the other hand, I have a friend crush in the way the original post describes on this person I met at my school.

The day I first talked to this dude (via email first for a student org related thing), I thought he was cool as fuck, but I expected that vibe to chill once I actually got on campus and all. The day I actually met him irl, I knew I wanted to be really good friends with him. There were a handful of people I met around the same time and felt like “I need these people as besties, and I need it soon,” but the vibe was always strongest with him.

We talked at this student org’s meetings almost weekly but it was a group thing and he’s cool with everyone so I was just kinda there. Very sure I wouldn’t get far with this idea.

Over winter break, I’d sent a message or two, not really expecting a reply; I try not to assume that I mean anything to anyone.

Imagine my surprise when a few days before the semester starts, he tells me he had a really rough break, which is why he hadn’t replied, and he actually wanted to know if we could hang out outside of meetings at least once (which happened! It was really cool actually!)

He graduated at the end of that semester, but we’ve kept in touch as much as we could, and I actually saw him irl last week.

(Sorry for the infodump, he’s just also kind of a hyperfixation rn which is awkward and sucky imo)

Anyway long story short (and using this example instead of an example with a friend I talk to daily ONLY BECAUSE my friend crush on him was about a decade ago and the one I talked about above is recent), the biggest difference for me is what label I wanted out of the connections.

See, I love strongly either way. I want my life to be intertwined with my boyfriend’s life, with my best friend’s life, with this friend crush’s life, all of it.

I just really love my boyfriend as my romantic partner, and if we changed our minds and decided to “just” be besties, that’s fine; I’ve always preferred having more than one bestie anyway. But want I want wouldn’t change, it’s more the label itself that varies.

With my best friend, whether we’d swap to a romantic relationship is questionable. I don’t know how I’d feel about that. But I like where we’re at right now.

With my friend crush, I want to know him the way I know my close friends. And I’m okay with him knowing me the way my close friends would.

Deep down I want what I used to read about: the relationships where there are adventures and late-night deep conversations and silly immature things.

I may also want to buy out an apartment complex and have all my loved ones all live near me but like that’s an entirely different fantasy.

As an aroace person, friend crushes are INSANE. And I don’t mean this like “oh I want my friend romantically” I mean like “I need to be this person’s friend so bad they are so cool!!!!” Like there’s this mutual I have on tiktok who I have been sending cat stickers to back and forth all day. The day we have an actual conversation about something will be the day I’ve won. Like is this how allos feel when they have romantic crushes on people???

[mkstrigidae]

hihihi just you know, casually rereading APWH for like the nth million time, and my dumbass just realized that robin has a lil crushy crush on aegon🥺💕

WHICH to me is funny because the first few times i read the fic, i had the thought that when (yes when) everyone else meets Mya there would be a funny moment of "Sansa’s girl friend? or... Sansa’s girlfriend?" because of how close they are and arya would be like you know what good question and jon would be jealous kitten but ALSO he would be angsty about it because he doesn’t wanna be even more of an asshole than he thinks he’s already being by thinking she cute 😂😂

N E WAYZ- the lack of realization of robin's crush might be attributed to the fact that every time i’ve read apwh it was in like a completely unhinged but still zoned in mode where i read everything in one sitting so i was like yes my lil man robin was absolutely just looking at those delicious breakfast sausages and nothing else 💀😂 and instead this time i reread everything in the span of a week LIKE A NORMAL PERSON so i was able to pick up on things i clearly didn’t every other time i’ve read😅😅

OKAY HUGS AND KISSEES, HAPPY SUNDAY BYEEEEE ٩(♡ヮ♡)۶

Hi friend!!! I am SO sorry i’m answering this so late- it has been an interesting couple of months.

I completely relate to the unhinged reading method because that is EXACTLY what I do with most things haha. But yes! lil bb Robin has a crush!! It’s adorable, and writing Robin is one of the more fun aspects of this story, just because he’s getting plopped down into this new environment and just starting to flourish because he’s getting the kind of attention and social interaction that he needs for once! It’s an interesting contrast to Sansa, who is starting to unravel a bit (more on that in the next few chapters as I get my shit together and get them finished and cleaned up).

Your observations about Mya are actually SPOT ON, and you’ve somewhat hilariously picked up on one of my primary sources of APWH writer’s block, which is that I have accidentally and inadvertently set Sansa and Mya up in a place where it almost feels more natural for THAT to be the fic’s main pairing, rather than jonsa. Which i feel somewhat guilty about, because so many lovely people who have been following the story are following for the Jonsa relationship. Which is still where i’m planning on taking it! It’s just a mess lmao. The characters do not want to cooperate with me. There will be a lot of Mya in a few chapters, as she’s coming to visit!

(Also, Jon’s jealousy IS going to get expressed a bit at some point in the near future, but it isn’t over Mya 😅😅😅).

Thanks so much for your kind words- I love getting asks from you guys! (Even though I am occasionally terrible at responding in a timely fashion).

[anulithots]

DKJFKSLDJF YESS OKAY THE FIRST THING

THAT"S QUEER PLATONIC!!

I SHIP THEM AS QUEER PLATONIC SOOO MUCHHH THEY ARE SO QUEER PLATONIC LITERALLY IT FEELS CANNON TO ME.

(although some people's romantic interpretations are nice and that's all good but like.. QUEER PLATONIC KSDJFKLSDFLKSJD)

(also them being queer platonic made my own queer platonic longing worse in the best way possible I love them so much. ALSO ALSO YOUR DESCRIPTION OF YOUR SEXUALITY alkjdfakds. You're likeee meee kinddaaaa. I'm someeewheeerree on the aspec spectrum.

I know a qpr is what I'm most comfortable with/gives me the most happy feelings, but in terms of sexuality I'm like... 'okay so sometimes I have crushy type things but it's more so really liking a person and I don't want to actually do anything about those feelings. Which makes me think 'lithromantic?'. But at the same time it could be asthetic crushes? IDK. Before I thought I was demiromantic and honestly I might cycle back to that. Or aroflux, that also feels right sometimes. Perhaps I'm actually just the aspec spectrum /hj)

OHMIGOSH EPSIDOE NINE.

EPSIDOE NINE.

IT"S SO HEARTBREAKING FOR CXS AND WITH LU GUANG IT'S ALL 'must protect him from his rampant anxieties and emotions and keep him safe from himself and WTF WHY DID YOU DO THAT YOU IDOT!'

(and from a narrative standpoint it really showcases their character dynamic and how it's changed a bit since episode three. Before CXS would trust Lu Guang wholeheartedly, even more so than himself and his own suspicions. Nice but also noooott the healthiest + CXS looks down on himself and needs to trust himself more. Here CXS's emotions get so bad that he does the whole dive on his own, but comes to the conclusion with the Emma incident that no matter how hard he tries to be kind and save others - for reasons that I have some marinating theories on - that it will end awfully without Lu Guang there to rely on. ALSO I got the sense that CXS thought that Lu Guang viewed him as a nescience with his feelings and impulsivity... which was soooo saddd. this SHOWWW. There's so many layers and my analyzing brain is having so much fun.)

Also QIao LIng:

the best.

YES HOLY HERBS YES about the 'cheng xiaoshi and lu guang are partners' thing. It feels so cannon and that everyone ships it and they LITERRALY CALL THEMSELVES PARTNERS WHAT COULD BE MORE QUEER PLATONIC/GAY THAN THAT?

(never once do they say business partners, they say just partners every time.)

THANK You for the pirating recommendation... but.. my computer's blocking it because of parental restrictions they put on it. I cri. Same thing happened to the hianime website I used to use. WHich was great, it was so good and my computer started blocking it even though the restrictions were teh same the entire way through! I'm just hoping I can find somethign that works before season three comes out (sometime soon according to people?)

THE INTROOOS SKAJFKD

I love them. Watched them a million times. ALso now listening to the baishaJAWS band that made the link click ost and now every song has link click vibes akdlfjaskldfjasdk I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

(Also I reccomend watching the chibi shorts... after season one and before season two is when they were published, but I watched them after season two.. and the cliffhanger makes it that the 'season two then chibi shorts' might be the best way to go? That or whenever the angst is too much /hj. BECAUSE THEY JUST KEEP GETTING MORE QUEER IN THE CHIBI SHORTS THEY GET A CAT.)

NOORIE. I JUST WATCHED EP 3-5 OF LINK CLICK AND I BAWLED MY EYES OUT. I WASN'T EXPECTING THIS MUCH EMOTIONAL DAMAGE WHYYYYY

off topic but like scattered thoughts:

i don't know if you know this but what they're chanting during the game (龙阳之好 — meaning longyang's interest) is basically a phrase that refers to gay relationships. this has to be intentional. right. right. right. anyways if you'd like you can learn more about lord longyang in this brief wikipedia page

cheng xiaoshi's basketball flashback thing with lu guang is peak queer cinema. casually called him his partner and made a profound metaphor on trust on the spot. no one is doing it like him. icon

the captain's (i think his name was hong bin??) accent changes drastically when he's around his family — i don't live in china so i can't pinpoint which region it's from, but just think of it as the chinese equivalent of a country accent. skfjd just thought that was a cute detail

embarrassing but for like the tiniest moment but with the dramatic sunlight and the gentle music i fr thought that implied that hong bin was chen xiao's first love... my stupidity knows no bounds

when cheng xiaoshi is 'in the body' of another person in the past, how much of his emotions are his, and how much of them are the other person's? ...this calls for a character psychoanalysis

okay thank you for listening to my rant. sfjdskfjkfjsj going to scream into my pillow now

KDFJKLDSJF KSDJF

EPSIDOE THREEE THROUGH FIVE ARE SO EMOTIONALLY DEVESTATING, IF NTO THE MOST EMOTIONALLY DEVESTATING EPSIDOES IN ALL OF CINEMA (I'm weak for parents singing lullabies and providing comfort that ends tragically. I never stood a chance.) /pos

OKAY RESPONDING TO YOUR THOUGHTS! (sorry if this seems disjointed I'm going through an 'execuative dysfuntino floaty-float cloud rn... yes feeligns I know how to describe those.)

OHMIGOSH THE GAY CHANT. YES IT HAS TO BE INTENTIONAL. THey just get more queer the more you watch. Their shop literally has their ship name.

The manhua exists.

If this isn't the most queer platonic/gay thing I've ever seen... I don't know what is.

OOOH and I have to tag @celestialsun123 and @mylee-sketches in this just for that point GAY BASKETBALL CHANT WOWOWOO

This ep was also just like... very queer. SO queer. the most queer coded thing I've ever watched in my life (they wanted to convince us we were safe, that this would be a fun little gay time travel show.)

Holy herbs. You know what? The censorship just made them more creative and this is more queer than if it were cannon (just shiguang in general actually... it gets even better as you go on)

ANd the shorts as wellll... also Qiao Ling literally asks Lu Guang 'so what do you like about Cheng XIaoshi?' Like she's honestly the biggest shiguang shipper of us all.

The accent thing IS such a cute detail yess. The way that entire town was written with so much life and little things, each character having depth and intrigue from the get go... only for... episode five.. . and ... *ugly sobbing*

(Especially Chen Xiao's mom. I've honestly rarely seen parents written as well as they are in link click.)

PFT YES YES I ALSO THOUGHT HONG BIN AND CHENG XIAO were supposed to be queer coded in that scene. It's very vibes.

OHMIGOSH THE CHENG XIAOHSHI POSESSION THING CONSUMES SO MUCH OF MY THOUGHTS IT"S SO INTERESTING AS BOTH A NARRATIVE DEVICE AND PART OF HIS CHARACTER. I have a post here:

Theorizing on how Cheng Xiaoshi's emotions work when he's possessing people

with some theories behind it, and lots of notes and anlysis that are... in the works (I'm on my second rewatch of season one but I'm silly and keep rewatching the same scene six times before I watch the next... rinse repeat I've been rewatching for a half a month now.)

LIke the layers and layers and layers in this show are insanneeeee.

Also boba tea:

and... screenshot collection (It's so hard to screenshot shows holy herbs. I wish the manhua adapatation of the first season - where it's all the same as the show - was available online)

(not goign to include any spoilers)

....and I reached my image limit.

THANK YOU FOR TALKING WITH ME ABOUT LINK CLICK AKLDFSJKLDSJFKLDSJFDKLSFJDSLKFJDS.

[harryconcepts]

part 38

it's been a minute but slay

he overhears a conversation you're having with one of your girl friends at a little gathering you're all at and you're talking about sex as girls are prone to do 😌 maybe she's talking about how her new bf made her squirt the other night, and you're like omg my fingers could never and then you're laughing and changing the subject, but harry is just over there biding his time 😌 when things start winding down and everyone else heads home Harry stays to help you clean up, acting all innocent and pretending he just wants to be helpful but as soon as the last person is out the door he's all "so i hear you talking earlier... you know i could help you out with that 😌" and you're mortified blushing so hard it hurts but he just steps closer and says "don't be embarrassed, I'm your friend and as your friend i want to show you how you deserve to be treated 😌"

i know harry is literally so good at communicating in a relationship and that makes me so 🥹 when he's having a bad day he makes sure not to take it out on you, he says "I need you to know that I'm not mad at you or upset with you at all, I just had a really shitty day, so I'm going to go for a walk, okay? just try to clear my head" and he ofc kisses your forehead before he goes 🥹

harry rubbing your back 😔 maybe you're not feeling well, you've had a little cold and you're just miserable and can't sleep and he just wants to help you feel better however he can 😔 he has you lay down on your tummy, and he sits on your legs so he can reach everywhere 😔 he uses some lavender lotion to help you calm down and sleep better, and he talks to you in a low voice to help you relax 😔 soon you stop responding with little hums and nods, and he leans closer to see you've fallen asleep 😔 he kisses the back of your neck before he pulls the blankets up over you, and then climbs in to cuddle up to you 😔

thinking about a bodyguard harry au 😋him being hired bc your family does some dangerous shit and has a ridiculous amount of money so they hire him to keep you safe 😋and ofc spending all that time together in such close proximity who can blame you for developing a little crushy crush 😋 then one day you decided to go for a swim in the pool and you're wearing the tiniest little suit 😋and well no one's going to be home until the next morning so what's the harm in doing a little kissing 😋really there's no safer place than in Harry's bed bc he can protect you so much better when you're that close 😋

and bodyguard harry teaching you some self defense 😋 thats such a yummy concept wow... he wraps his arms around you and says "try to get away, I'll give you some pointers" and you're like "well why would i want to get away from my man 😌" and he's so over your antics bc he's trying to be a little bit serious, but ultimately you're too cute to stay mad at 😋 he says "just try it, go on" so you do, and he immediately tightens his arms saying "that's the best you can do?" and other stuff to piss you off a little bit, and finally you huff and throw your arm back to elbow him 😋 he gasps bc he didn't see that coming and then in the big wall mirror you see him grin and he says "good girl, that's a good move" and then he shows you a few more 😋 and ofc you both get turned on from being so close, and also seeing him be so strong and skilled makes you a little 🥵 and him seeing you being his sexy little gf who now knows how to defend herself makes him 🥵 too so you end up fucking against the wall 😋 and he probably tells you to watch in the mirror bc he's a freak like that 😋

god harry would not be able to keep his hands off you when you're pregnant.... maybe you're 6 ish months along, at the point where you can definitely tell that you're pregnant, he would never leave you alone 😋 and your hormones have been all over the place and you want him more than ever so he is more than happy to give you anything you want 😋one day you've just been laying around naked all day bc there's no point in getting dressed when you're just going to be taking the clothes off soon anyways 😋 an hour or so after your second round that day you reach for him again, but he grabs your wrist with a little laugh and says "I can't go again, give a man a chance to recover" and you roll your eyes, but he says "but that doesn't mean we can't do other stuff..... come sit on my face" and you're definitely not going to say no to that 😋 he would also be so obsessed with your boobs, how they've gotten so big and they're so much more sensitive now 😋 he thumbs over your nipples saying "need to make sure my wife feels good, don't i? carrying my baby for me, you deserve to get whatever you want" 😋 such a horny boy allllll day 😋

harry thinks you look so pretty when you're ready for bed 🥹 you took off all your makeup and you have your hair tied up away from your face and your glasses on, you're wearing one of his shirts and some little shorts and he can't stop staring at you 🥹 youre like "what?" and he goes "nothing, you're just so pretty" and you roll your eyes climbing in bed saying "don't lie" and he pouts saying "I'm not lying, I think you're the prettiest girl I've ever seen" and scoots closer to kiss you 🥹 you say "really?" and he nods, hugging you close and kissing your neck sweetly 🥹 he says "I think you're always pretty, and especially now, because you're wearing my clothes and only i get to see you like this" just being such a sweet boy 🥹

i have this lymph node problem that makes my stomach hurt really bad (like literally as painful as appendicitis but it's not dangerous and there's no treatment) and it's rlly bugging me lately and I need harry 😔I know he would be so sweet and gentle and try to help any way he can 😔 bringing you medicine and a heating pad, staying in bed with you all day bc he knows you're hurting and just want to lay around 😔 he would put his hand gently over the spot that's hurting so the heat will help it feel better 😔 he'd run you a warm bath and sit with you 😔ugh where is he 😔

ok so I'm thinking about being in a movie w our fav actor in the world: harry 🤩 and for the purposes of this concept ofc there's going to be some spicy scenes involved 😌 and maybe you're a bit newer to the acting scene and and you know this stuff is going to come up, but it's just a bit nerve wracking bc it's harry and he looks like that and you've always had a little crush on him 😌one day you're eating lunch together in a common area on set and he asks how you're feeling about things so far, and you say everything is really great but there's maybe a few things you're nervous about and he would immediately lift his head and say "please let me know if i ever do anything you're not okay with, it's really important to me that you're comfortable and feel safe with what we do" and you nod, really glad that's something he takes so seriously 😔then he asks what scenes you're nervous about even though he already has a pretty good idea, and you say "you know... the ones where we're kissing and- doing other stuff" and he's trying so hard not to smile bc he can tell you're actually a little freaked out, but it's so cute the way you blush and won't quite meet his eyes 😌 but first he's ofc gonna try and make you feel better so he says "it's really nothing to stress about, the intimacy coordinators are amazing and they make sure you're okay with everything we do" and you nod, still looking down at your food, and say "but i still feel like I'm just going to embarrass myself, you know? it's easy to run lines by yourself, but you can't really practice this kind of thing" and he nods, wanting to make sure you feel heard, and bc he really does understand 😔

he remembers how stressed he was about this kind of thing when he started acting, and he wishes he would have had someone to talk to like this 😔 then he gets a little idea 😌 he says "i have a bit of an idea, and it's completely okay if you don't want to do something like this, but if you're worried about how the pacing or whatever will go, we could definitely practice it a few times before we actually shoot the scene? that way there's no surprises, and we'll be a little more prepared" and you're shocked that he cares enough to suggest something like this, but also very into the idea 😌 you agree, and then he drops the subject so you don't get too freaked out bc he's nice like that 😔 that day you both get to go home early bc they're working on other scenes, and harry ofc walks you to your car 😌 he says "so about our talk earlier..." and you're blushing immediately, trying to hide how flustered he makes you so you say "yeah?" and he goes "I mean, I've got nothing going on for the rest of the evening, so if you're up for it we could do some practicing 😌" and you are also very down for that so you agree 😌 you end up going back to his place, and you're feeling a little awkward but he does everything he can to make you comfortable in his space, offering you water and anything you need :( you end up in his living room looking through the script, you run a few scenes where it's just taking to get warmed up, and then you flip to the first kissing scene 😌

it's pretty passionate, your characters are supposed to be confessing their love for each other so ofc it's a big deal 😌 you look up at each other, not exactly sure how to say "anyways let's kiss" but then he takes over and says "why don't we just go for it? let's just run the whole scene, and it's ok if it's a little awkward, I think it's best to get a full run through to see what we're working with" and you think that's a pretty good idea, so you start the scene 😌you get into it pretty quickly, and before you know it you're supposed to be kissing 😌 you stop and look at him, and say "and now we're supposed to-" and he says "I know, we don't have to if you're not feeling it though" and you shake your head saying "no, we can do it" and then it's a few seconds of looking at each other before he just goes for it 😌 he 100% takes your face in his hand to tilt your head however he wants it, and he puts his other hand on your waist 😌 and he is a good kisser, like so good you almost forget what you're supposed to be doing for a second, but then you snap out of it and do what your character is supposed to do 😌 so you both get really into it, and then you pull away a little flushed and say "it's says- I'm supposed to be on your lap for the next part, but if you don't want to do that here we can just-" and he says "I'm fine with whatever you want to do" and you think for a second before swinging your leg over his and getting settled in his lap 😌 he has his hands on your hips to keep you steady, and in this position you're up close to his face so you're noting how pretty his eyes are 😌 he sees you smile a bit and he says "what?" and you say "you just have really pretty eyes" and that makes him blush 😌 then you say "you know, if 16-year-old me knew she would someday be making out with harry styles, I think she would lose it" and he laughs saying "oh so you had a little crush on me?" and you nod, and he's soooo cheeky about that 😌 then he says "well if it makes you feel better, i had a crush on you too" and you're very surprised and don't really believe him, but he says "I'm serious, when i found out you were in this movie I freaked out, and I think I was probably more nervous for the kissing scenes than you were" and you're just staring at him like 😶 and then say "and now that you know me?" and he says "if I'm being honest, i like even more" 😌 you say "that's good, because i still have a massive crush on you" and then you're both just so smiley 😌 he says "think we should run it again?" and you nod, even though the script is the last thing either of you are thinking about😌 he takes initiative again and and puts his hands on your face, you have your fingers in his hair at the back of his head 😌

he clearly likes that a lot, letting out a few little whimpers against your lips when you play with it 😌 he licks against your bottom lip, making you shiver and open up for him 😌he's gripping your hips so tight, trying to pull you closer and closer, and finally you grind down on him a little and he groans 😌 when it starts to get a little heated he pulls away and he's a little out of breath when he says "we should probably stop, or something really embarrassing is going to happen" and you giggle, running your hands up and down his chest when you say "I don't think it would be embarrassing" and he's all "well not for you!" and then he sees how needy you still look, so he says "but we could do something for you... I bet you're soaking through your panties right now" and he grins when he feels you squeeze your thighs together 😌 he says "want me to take care of that for you?" and you've barely nodded before he's flipping you over and crawling up over you 😌 he kisses you again, this time fully pressing his hips down into yours, and you can't help the little gasp you let out 😌 he kisses down your neck, trying his best to find any sweet spots, and then you feel his fingers sliding down your tummy 😌 soon he's at your waistband, and he hums softly asking if he can touch and you nod so fast, so he slips his fingers in and brushes them against you 😌 he murmurs "just like i thought, you're soaking for me" and he circles his fingers around your clit 😌 you're squirming around and trying to kiss him again, but he keeps moving his face away to be a pest 😌 you groan and say "will you just kiss me?" and he says "since you asked so nicely 😌" and then he gives you a few minutes with his lips on yours and his fingers working you up before he says "how would you feel about me kissing somewhere else?" and you have to close your eyes bc it's just too much 😌 so he moves down, kissing along your skin as he goes, and finally he pulls your clothes off 😌 he kisses around your thighs, getting you all worked up and sensitive before he gives you what you want 😌 he holds your hips down to keep you in place so he can do his thing 😌 and he really is just making out with you, making such a mess of things 😌spitting on your clit to hear you whine, and using his fingers to spread you open so he can really get in there and suck on you 😌 he senses you're kind of trying to be quiet, so he lifts his and says "make some noise for me, or I'll have to stop" and you gasp out that you don't want him to stop, and try to let out some nice noises for him 😌 every time you moan he moans right back, and you can feel the vibrations which only makes it feel better 😌 soon you're gripping his hair and trying to push him closer, and he gives a particularly hard suck on your clit that makes you gasp 😌 running his tongue over anywhere he sees is sensitive, using his grip on your hips to pull you closer to his face 😌 he sees your muscles starting to tense up and he knows you're close, so he doubles down and does everything he can to make you cum 😌 you grasp his hair tighter and your legs tense up in his hold, but he's strong enough to keep you open for him 😌 he works you through it too, and soon you're trying to push his head away because it's too much, so he turns his head to kiss your thigh before he comes back up to give you a kiss on the lips😌 you're breathing so hard and your heart is pounding, and he barely gives you any time to process what just happened before he says "so yeah, anytime you want to practice just let me know" and you playfully shove him for being such a pest 😌 but you can't be too mad at him bc he's a pest who knows how to use his tongue 😌

watched the episode of keeping up w the Kardashians where Kourtney and Scott go to the pregnancy sex class and the scene where they suggested she could sit on his face and he was all "this is what we're doing? after a long day I'm supposed to come home and have you sit on my face? yeah okay" and I was literally in shock bc that is such an unharry thing to do 😭 I know that man would literally beg you to sit on his face, even if you're a little nervous at first he's just grabbing your hips and pulling you down 😋

harry putting your panties in his pocket during a show 😌 in his dressing room he sits you up on the vanity and he's standing between your legs to kiss on you, his hands are sliding up and down your thighs and then he hooks his fingers in the fabric and says "why don't you let me hold onto these for now" and your jaw drops at how filthy that is and also bc he finds a sweet spot on your neck at the same time 😌 but you lift your hips and help him pull them off, and he definitely raises them to his face to smell them before he slips them into his pocket 😌 you're watching with wide eyes but he just smiles, kissing your cheek before says "I'd better be going, but I'll see you after" and walks out all smug 😌

harry being a little stern 😋 gripping your chin to make you look in his eyes, saying "look at me when I'm talking to you pretty girl" and making you hold eye contact bc he knows it makes you 🦋🦋🦋 😋 when he's going down on you he tells you to hold still, and when you try to move your hips he lifts his head and says "do you want me to stop?" and when you whine out a no he says "then you better do what i tell you, or you won't like what happens" 😋

thinking about all the intricacies of harry being between your thighs yummmmm he uses his thumbs to spread you open so he can look, and you squirm a little bit being embarrassed to have him staring like this but he just gives you a gentle little slap on your thigh, just enough to make you gasp, and he says "told you to stay still, so be a good girl and do that for me" and you nod, just wanting him to get into it already, but he still wants to keep looking 😌 he runs one finger through the wetness and says "you're soaking, baby, just from a few words?" and he would tease you so much about that 😌 he leans closer and spits right on your clit, then watches as it drips down 😌 at this point you're moving so much and begging him to just touch you already so he does, leaning in to lick a long stripe 😌 he would be so messy with it too, shaking his head to get in deeper and basically making out with you down there 😌 he wants you to be soaking wet and as needy as he can get you before he even tries to slip his fingers inside 😌 you'd be able to hear how wet you are every time he licks and you're both getting off on the sound 😌 he would suck on your clit so hard that you lift your hips up, then he would push you back down and hold you in place so he can keep working 😌 i just think he would be disgusting and depraved and you would both love every second 😌

harry would be so sweet whenever you're not feeling well 😔 he comes home to see you in bed, sleeping way earlier than you normally would and he thinks you were just tired so he smiles and brushes some hair out of your face, but when he's doing that he feels how warm you are and he gets worried that maybe you're sick 😔 he wakes you up gently, saying "need you to wake up baby, are you not feeling well?" and you groan, still half asleep, but you open your eyes to look at him and he knows you have a fever from how glassy they are 😔 he gets a pouty look on his face and says "I'm gonna get you some medicine, ok? I'll be right back" and he runs to grab you something for the fever and also some water, then he comes back and helps you sit up to take the pills 😔 he has you drink some water then lays down with you and cuddles you close to him bc he knows you feel chilled from the fever 😔 he plays with your hair and rubs your back until you fall asleep😔

[whysojiminimnida]

Hey is Kevin is real guy. I mean are you providing scenario examples or is it a legit guy, who've seen Jikook ?

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS OKAY OKAY OKAY LET'S JUST GET THIS CLEAR. I had no idea that by bringing up Kevin from Itaewon he would turn into a Source For ARMY Information. He is NOT THAT. Okay? He is great for cultural issues, occasional translations, and What Goes On In Gay World but he is not privy to their inner circle, their lives or their feelings. And I don't like bugging him too much because I fangirled out a couple of times and it made him tell me to stop it. He hurt my feelings for a minute, I'm sensitive. Kev is my friend but even friends have their limits. And Kevin, as a Korean man who is also gay, is a very private dude. When I said in a post that he did not come out of the closet with ME for TEN YEARS I was not joking. This is standard behavior for Korean gay men (he says, IDK, I don't live there). In the interest of friendship I really try to keep my interrogations questions to a minimum. KEVIN DOES NOT HANG OUT WITH THE JEON-PARKS OKAY. Or if he does he is sure as hell not telling me. He has seen them, together and individually. In spaces where they were both attending things or doing things (not sexy things good god gross). I don't know if he's ever met them or talked to them. Seoul is a very dense city with many overlapping areas, and the area where Kevin lives and works is very near to several BTS residences - not all of them lived in (or public for that matter). It's not a large geographic area. And much like that WeHo to Beverly Hills section of LA where everyone is famous so nobody gets mobbed too much? So goes that neighborhood. People are not fond of stalkers and paparazzi there. Harassment of idols is literally illegal. Even so, BTS no longer goes out much without a fair amount of security. He used to see them out and about sometimes, but not so much anymore. That part of Seoul is delivery culture and probably their tteokbokki guy knows more than Kevin does.

EVEN IF Kevin knew the boys personally and had insider info he could not give it to me. There are legal contracts - NDAs (non-disclosure agreements) - at play. Anyone whose third cousin knows somebody who hangs with them and has details is lying to you. NDAs are extremely expensive to violate. So even if he or his boyfriend or his uncle's dog trainer knew stuff, they couldn't speak on it - but the thing is, ain't nobody knows anything. Because they don't talk about that. The most he will tell me is that he thinks they are a couple, they are closeted, and nobody talks about it but nobody questions it either. Oh and that yes Park Jimin is in fact a smol bean. Kev delighted in telling me that he didn't figure Jimin was over 5'5" without shoes. Kev just has the crushies for Jimin I think. But if he does he'll never tell me.