#i wonder how my life would look like as an actual shoujo manga.

[themagical1sa]

ykw?

it would be incredibly funny if crushie liked me back too late

especially when i might be starting to like someone else

[tokyorevismylife]

Ladies Man- Pt.1

a ran x reader series

trigger warnings: a little cussing, reader is female

A/N:  I’ve decided to post more often, so here is a Ran dump I had saved in my drafts, because I love him so much.

Ran Haitani was the epitome of a ladies man. The very definition of one. His appearance and his charming personality was enough to with anyone over. Tall, well built but slim, with long hair tied up into braids, a pretty face and most of all, his calculating violet eyes that managed to capture the hearts of any girl he set his sights on. And he just was so seemingly effortless and graceful in all that he did. He was suave, charismatic, the list goes on. Not to mention, being able to take charge over the Roppongi district at such a young age and being apart of multiple gangs did wonders for the bad boy persona that so many females seem to like. Long story short, these advantageous traits made him extremely attractive. That’s why Ran Haitani, has always lived the good life when it came to dating. With one luck, he can wrap a girl around his finger. Who wouldn’t use this skill to their advantage?

This is precisely the reason when his younger brother Rindou didn’t even bat an eye when yet another one of his girlfriends came over to his house to disrupt the minimal peace he had. Living with such a popular brother like Ran isn’t easy. Naturally, with talents like these, a little bit of bragging is clearly understandable, right? So, obviously, Ran showed them off at every given moment. At last, what seemed like centuries later, the girl left looking utterly pleased that she was able to spend some time with a guy that seems like he came out of some fantasy shoujo manga. 

After she left, Ran plopped on the living room couch looking bored and displeased. “What’s up with you?” Rindou inquired. “Shouldn’t your dumbass be smirking in my face telling me about how many girls you manage to pull?

 “Aw come now, I understand you’re jealous but that’s no reason to insult your phenomenal elder brother, now is it?” Ran retorted. 

Rindou merely rolled his eyes, however his exasperation quickly faded when he saw that the look on Ran’s face returned to displeasure. “Dude, what the hell is wrong with you? How can you look dissatisfied after hooking up with a girl?” Rindou asked his brother.

“I wish I could be as simple minded as you, Rindou.” The elder Haitani melodramatically sighed. “You see, when you’re as attractive as I am, you can get anyone to like you. And that’s exactly my problem. I get all these girls to like me, and majority of them are smoking too. But they’re all the same, just trying to get in my pants because they think I’m some hot bad boy gangster, which I mean, I am....but I think I just want someone to like me for me.”

Rindou blinked. “Bro... are you on crack?”, was the only thing the younger Haitani was able to spew out after hearing Ran’s rather surprising monologue. “I never thought I would see the day where Ran Haitani would be tired of hooking up and actually want to commit to a relationship.” Ran didn’t say anything but glared at his brother. Rindou, if he wanted to, could also be a complete asshole. “Well, Ran, you’ll find someone someday. But, there is no point in moping around. If you want a committed relationship with someone, get off your ass, find someone you like, and use your charms. And quit hooking up with girls who only want you for shallow reasons if it bothers you that much.”

Ran stiffened at being called out but grudgingly accepted that his brother was right. Rindou has always been the wiser one among the two. He simply tilted his head back against the couch and hoped that someone would come along soon...

“CRAP!!!” I’m gonna be late!!” You leapt out of your bed, when you realized that school would start in 20 mins. You had spent majority of the night before cramming for an extremely important test of yours, which lead to you oversleeping due to your exhaustion. Within a matter of minutes, you somehow managed to shove some sort of food in your mouth, sort your appearance out and pack your bags before bolting out the door. 

“I think I may just have set a world record for fastest time to get ready”, you said as you were jogging at a quick pace. You pulled out your phone and checked the time. “Oh god, I’m gonna have to speed things up a notch if I want a hope of making it.” You swiftly quickened your pace. Upon focusing on being able to maintain a steady pace, you weren’t paying attention too much, which caused you to full on collide with an extremely tall person, which caused them to spill their drink they were holding, on their clothes. 

You straightened yourself out before looking up at the stranger. “Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry!! I was in a rush because I didn’t want to be late for class and I wasn’t paying attention.” You looked at the guy, who had shrewd, calculating eyes and stared at you. “Um, I’ll probably be late, but I can buy you a drink to compensate?” You got a better look at the man, and despite being soiled with his drink, he was extremely handsome, with long braids accentuating his pretty face. And..silent. He was starting to freak you out. 

Meanwhile, in Ran Haitani’s mind, he didn’t know how to speak. He couldn’t gather his voice. What the hell is happening? He thought to himself. He was basically a professional flirt, so why was he struggling so much to recollect himself? He looked at the stranger before him. She was tinier than him, and stared at him apprehensively, and not to mention, she was incredibly cute. Beautiful. But not like anyone he was used to dealing with. He was used to dealing with girls with top-tier designer clothes, heavy makeup, and professionally done hair, and well... she was the opposite. She had a basic school uniform thrown on, which was disheveled, and a couple crumbs of food on her cheeks. And, she spilled a hot drink on him. So, how did Ran Haitani manage to fall so hard? 

“Hello, dude...are you good?? Yes or no to that offer? I’d really appreciate an answer fast. I need to go to school.” You asked him, nearing the end of your patience. He snapped out of his reverie that you placed him in. “Hm..I dunno...I, Ran Haitani might need something more...” And at that, he internally cringed. Where had his eloquence gone? I, Ran Haitani?? Who says that in this day and age?? So, therefore, Ran wasn’t surprised when you looked at him funny. “Well, pretty...how about a date with me, hm? I think that’s payment enough. And, I promise it’ll be fun.” That should do it, Ran thought. Most girls would swoon if they could spend one NANOSECOND with me. And, your disgusted face made his heart drop, and he felt nervous. This was the first time he was so desperate for a girl to say yes. He wondered how someone like you managed to have so much power over him. How did you make him, of all people become a simp?

“Um...no thank you. I’m not really into the arrogant pretty-boy asshole type. But look! Those girls are!” You exclaimed, pointing to a small group of screeching girls staring at Ran. You pushed past him, as he stood dumbfounded. But, you quickly turned back and pushed a wad of crumpled bills into his unsuspecting hand. 

“For the drink. Sorry for the disturbance, Ran Haitani.” And with that, you managed to make Ran Haitani come to a standstill. All he could do is stare at your distant figure, that retreated quickly.

[dialovers-translations]

DIABOLIK LOVERS Para-Selene Vol.5 Sakamaki Laito Animate Tokuten CD

Original title: DIABOLIK LOVERS Para-Selene Vol. 5 逆巻ライト アニメイト 各巻購入特典ドラ

Source: Diabolik Lovers Para-Selene Vol. 5 Animate Tokuten CD

Audio: Here

Seiyuu: Hirakawa Daisuke 

Translator’s note: Bowling master Laito kind of threw me for a loop, but it also makes sense? Like he strikes me as the type of guy who would be unexpected skilled at a bunch of random things. In general, I’ve been really enjoying these ‘date scenario’ CDs. They actually did a good job making every one of them unique and choosing fun locations for each boy. I know the chances of us getting another DL anime are really slim, but if they do decide to make one, I really hope it’s not a season 3 based on DF or LE but a bunch of OVAs instead based on the drama CDs.

“...What’s this? There’s quite a lot of people here despite it being so late at night. I guess bowling is pretty popular. I thought I’d be able to do all sorts of fun things with my Bitch-chan, such a shame! ーー Ah! Our lane is over here. Ah! Check out the monitor over there! It actually displays our names as ‘Laito’ and ‘Bitch’! I love your name. It really stands out amongst the others! I would have loved to be able to input ‘Bitch-chan’ instead, honestly. I felt pretty bummed when they told me that I could only input up to five characters. Right, Bitch-chan?”

You frown. 

“...? You’ve been quiet this whole time. What’s wrong? Did you want me to add the ‘-chan’ as well?”

You shake your head.

“Then what’s the matter?”

You complain about him wanting to come here. 

“Eeh~? Is it really that strange? Even I feel like playing a game of bowling every now and then. There’s no ulterior motive behind it!”

You squint your eyes. 

“Oh dear. You’re still suspicious of me? ...Fine. I’ll fess up the truth. ーー We actually gave here today because I wanted to do you a favor.”

You tilt your head to the side.

“Mmh. We’re usually active at night, so most places where high schoolers like to hang out are closed by that hour, no? So we’re limited in the things we can do, right? Well, you might be fine with that, but you’re still a blossoming high school girl, so I figured that you might fantasize about the kind of cute dates depicted in shoujo manga and such. ーー I thought it wouldn’t hurt to go on a typical high schoolers’ date for once, so I started looking around for places which are open 24/7, which brings us here today. How’s that? Do you understand now?”

You nod.

“Nfu~ I’m glad. With that misunderstanding lifted...Now that we’re here anyway, why don’t we get started? I’m up first, aren’t I? Let me think...Which ball should I pick? ーー Ah. This one will do.”

*Thud* 

“It has the same color as your hair. I’ll throw it as hard as I can, imagining its your head instead~”

You protest.

“Nfu~ Oh come on, you may say that, but I know you’re happy deep down! You love to get pushed around by me, don’t you? ...Ah! When it’s your turn, why don’t you pick a ball in the same color as my hair? I don’t dislike the idea of being at your mercy either~”

You refuse. 

“Geez...You’d be able to get so much more of of life if you just enjoy it as one of many fetishes. You’re so easily embarrassed. Fine. ...I’ll throw the ball, okay?”

Laito faces towards the lane.

“Let me think...I’m supposed to throw it leaning down...or from up top? 

You seem surprised he has never bowled before. 

“Eh!? Bitch-chan...Do you really think I’ve come to this sorta place before? Today’s obviously my first bowling experience!”

*Rustle*

“But don’t worry! Experience isn’t what matters...It’s all about chemistry...!”

Laito throws his ball.

*Clatter clatter*

“Huh? I knocked all of them over. Is this what you’d call a ‘strike’?”

You seem very impressed.

“...Nfu~ I got praised~ Anyway, is this really so amazing?”

You nod.

“Heeh...I wonder if I am a natural at bowling? Control is key, so it might be the perfect game some someone who is very technique-minded such as myself. In that case, I’m quite curious what you are capable of, Bitch-chan~”

You frown.

“Now, now, no need to be so modest. Show me what you’re made of. Go give it a shot! ...Nfu~ I’m very much looking forward to this.”

You walk towards the lane.

“Break a leg, Bitch-chan~! Throw it with everything you’ve got!” 

You throw the ball. 

*Thud thud* 

“Nfu~ Ah-ahー I guess the excitement ended up being her downfall. What a shame. ...They call this a ‘gutter’, don’t they? I can’t believe you didn’t even manage to knock over one of them. ...Ah, come on. One more try, no?”

*Thud* 

You try once more.

*THUD*

“Ahー You really suck at this, don’t you?”

You seem disappointed.

“No need to be so sad. My strike might have been just a fluke. I’ll go next, so watch me, okay?”

Laito walks up to the lane again. 

“...Hah!”

*CLATTER*

“Aah~ I guess it wasn’t just beginner’s luck! I might have a knack for bowling after all! ...In that case, Bitch-chan, why don’t you come over here with your ball?”

You pick up your ball and approach him.

“Okay! Let’s practice how to hold the ball!”

*Rustle*

“Geez, no need to be so surprised. We came here to treat you to a good time today, so I’ll teach you very gently~ Come on, hold the ball.”

*Rustle*

“Hmー That won’t do.”

*Rustle rustle*

“You need to stretch your arm a little more.”

You try to scoot away from him, asking why he is touching you.

“What are you saying? I’m fixing your posture! I think I proved earlier that my bowling skills far exceed yours, so don’t you think it’s in your best interest to take my advice?” 

You frown.

“I mean, it’d be kind of difficult to tell you what to do without clinging to you like this, is it? I’m positive that it’d be so much easier to teach you good posture through direct touch!”

*Rustle*

“Come on, lean back against me and stand straight.”

*Rustle*

“Don’t move! You want to be able to throw the ball properly don’t you?”

You tell him to move away. 

“How mean, telling me to back off! I’m only trying to show my good heart by teaching you! I mean, if you lose this duel against me, you’ll get punished, remember?”

You seem surprised by that. 

“I mean, duh? Didn’t I tell you? All games have some kind of punishment game attached to it, don’t they? You have to expect those kind of things! By the way, now that you’ve already thrown once, you’re part of the game, so there’s no backing out~”

You ask him if he would punish you right here in public.

“Fufu~ Why would you ask that? ーー I get it. You’re curious about what this punishment would entail, aren’t you~? Were you perhaps hoping that I’d suck your blood~?”

You deny it.

“Nfu~ No point in trying to deny it~ I bet you imagined my fangs sinking deeply into your fair nape, didn’t you? Aah~ I suppose I have no other choice. That wasn’t the plan, but I’ll live up to your expectations and make the punishment something deliciously painful~ Please look forward to this punishment...which will turn both your body and soul to putty~”

You try to make a run for it.

*Rustle rustle* 

“Ahaha~ Oh come on, hold up! I told you that there’s no way out, didn’t you? You better behave...or I’ll do it right here, right now.”

You immediately stop resisting. 

“Nfu~ Good girl. Besides, there’s only a 50% chance that you’ll get punished, so just remember that you could always win and try to make the best out of it!”

You sigh in defeat.

“Well then, let’s continue your lesson. Now, where’s your spine?”

*Rustle*

“Nfu~ Found it~ Mm~

*Rustle rustle* 

“What are you saying? I’m helping you straighten your back! By tracing my fingers across your spine like this...See? You pushed out your chest which improved your stance! Try to hold this proper posture, okay?”

You ask him if he knows what hte proper posture for bowling is.

“Eh? No idea! How am I supposed to know what is the ‘right posture’ for bowling when I’m still a newbie at the game myself.”

You ask him what he has been teaching you then. 

“You’re just so terrible at this, I’ve just been giving you random points and then it was up to you whether or not you’d take my words for granted. ...Anyway, ahaha~ They’re really hard to miss when you’re standing looking straight ahead like that.”

You tilt your head to side.

“Over here. These bite marks on・your・neck~”

You squeak.

“They’re the proof of the love we share with each other every night~ It’s too bad you can’t really see them unless you move this close. I promise I’ll make them stand out even more by biting you nice and hard when we get back home, so rest assured~”

You complain. 

“You’re adorable when you pretend to dislike something. However, no losing on purpose because you want to get bitten ,okay?”

You insist that you would never do that. 

“I wonder~? You’re a naughty girl who seduces other by feigning discomfort. You want me to completely overpower you, run away with the victory and inflict pain upon you as a result, don’t you? And then you’d try to play innocent by saying ‘Oh I don’t actually want this, but it can’t be helped because I lost the game~', won’t you? ...Sure. Two can play that game. I like that sort of thing as well after all. I’ll make sure to slowly drive you into a corner...and then tease the living hell out・of・you~”

Your cheeks grow hot.

“Oh? What’s wrong? ...Nfu~ You’re flustered, aren’t you? Oh come, you are so shy~ ...Anyway, let’s get this game going! Try throwing the ball following my tips from earlier.”

You nod and throw the ball. 

*CLATTER CLATTER*

“Wow~ You actually knocked them all over! I’m shocked!” 

You rejoice.

“Nfu~ Congratulations, Bitch-chan. Judging from your sheer excitement, could it be that this is the first time you’ve ever hit a strike?”

You nod.

“Mmh, mmh~ I’m happy for you! In that case, why don’t we end on a positive note and wrap up the match right here? It’s obvious you’ll lose after all.”

You protest.

“I mean, even if continue to bowl one strike after the other now, you already threw a gutter once, so you have no chance at getting ahead of me.There’s no way I’d give away the win now.”

You shake your head. 

“Ah~ We can keep going until I have a slip-up if you want, but in return, your punishment will get more and more severe, the longer the game lasts. I believe you’d be much better off admitting defeat right now and simply heading home with me. 

I’m fine with either scenario. We’re here on a date today for you after all. You can choose whether you want to call it a day right now and quickly get your punishment, or if you’d rather have me tend to you thoroughly after I’ve messed with you a little longer.”

You call him out on being unreasonable. 

“Nfu~ Exactly. I might be messed up. But you love this crazy guy, don’t you? In which case, you have no other choice but to play along with me and slowly become insane as well.”

You sigh.

“Fufu~ Since you sighed in defeat, does that mean you’ve made your choice?”

You choose to go home. 

“Nfu~ Sure. As you wish. Well then...Shall we head home, Bitch-chan~? I’ll treat you to plenty of the good stuff which you love oh-so much~”

ーー THE END ーー

[shytastemakerthing]

hello! idk if you’re still doing matchups but im wondering if I can get a matchup with a twst character?? can be platonic or romantic whichever is fine but…

im 5’9 and i have long brown straight hair with bangs, i wear glasses but i mainly use them for reading or when im looking at my devices. im a virgo and i would say that i’m a mix of introvert and extrovert lol. i enjoy meeting new people however there are times where i get a bit anxious when im around people i don’t know that well.

im really into collecting things as well. i collect stickers, manga, sonny angels, smiskis etc. and i enjoy buying skincare products along with makeup. im also really into video games and often play with my little brother or friends and listen to music in my freetime or watch anime. shoujo and shonen are my go to anime genres and as of right now im obsessed with nana, chainsaw man and jjk!

there’s more that i want to add but i feel like i already wrote wayyy too much🥲 i got a bit carried away and i didn’t even notice how much i wrote until i looked back at it lol. sorry if there’s any typos! and thank you !! <3

Hello and thank you for your request! I went ahead and made it a romantic match up for you, I hope that you enjoy!

Prompt: Romantic TWST match-up

Tw: None

I match you with........

Idia Shroud

Oh, it took time before this man actually even admitted that he had feelings for you, forget about getting into the actual relationship part... and yet...

Here you both are, in his room after a rather long day, unwinding by playing a new game he had bought and had been raving to you about since its release

You like collecting things? Congrats, you have a boyfriend with a hefty account and the urge to keep buying you new things to add to these collections of yours

This also includes shelving and storage for all of what you have and what he has gotten for you

It is very rare to see him outside of his room, so if you do, it's for a good reason, the reason being you

Hates people, doesn't do social interactions, anything like that. You might be able to convince him to go on a cat cafe date but that is as close as you'll get

Despite all of this, he always finds ways for things you both can do together that works for the both of you

In the end, you are the first and only relationship he will ever have in his life. You'll stay with him.... won't you?

Have a wonderful day/night!

[tokusaatsus]

hihi, hope you’re doing well ♡ can i req mao confessing to reader? he would be so cute imgojng jnsane

I LIKE YOU. A LOT

ft. isara mao

© tokusaatsus 2022

warnings: none

Mao’s not so foolish or idealistic to think that he could give you a picture-perfect confession, like something out of a shoujo manga–with you and him standing beneath the sakura trees. Petals cascade, a pink veil that shields you from the prying gaze of the rest of the world as he spills his feelings to you, an uncontained waterfall and his fingers twine with yours–but he hopes he can at least give you something similar to that.

So he decides to write you a letter.

It reads:

Dear Y/N,

I like you. A lot.

Ah, this is probably really strange to hear but, it’s true.

And, well, I don’t know if you like me back, but my meddling (well-meaning…I hope) friends told me to go for it anyways. Like, life’s too short, right? ‘Take some risks’, and all that. So, here I am. Shooting my shot.

I hope this doesn’t make you uncomfortable or anything…

But I like you. A lot. Oh, I already said that, didn’t I? Sorry, I’m a little nervous… You make me nervous. Wait, I don’t think I was supposed to say that… Ugh, I was supposed to be cool so I could impress you, and I’m messing this up. Sorry. Ignore that, okay?

Um, where was I…? Oh, right. I like you.

I like a lot of things about you, and if you asked me to list them all this letter would end up being 50 pages long. So I won’t list all of them. But I like your smile, and the way you laugh, and how excited you are when you see that guy you like on TV.

I think you’re wonderful. I’m glad we’re friends.

If you accept my confession, meet me behind the school after class is over. No pressure though, haha…

Love,

Mao ♡

He leaves the letter on your desk, in an envelope with your name on it.

The whole day after is spent in a haze of nervousness. He’s distracted, and though he tries not to show it, he can tell the others are picking up on it. Some are kind enough to turn a blind eye (Fushimi, Sengoku) whereas others are like a dog with a bone, immediately calling him out on this behaviour (Himemiya). He can’t help it! He just bared his heart out to you in a letter and he can’t even see your reaction… God, this is so nerve-wracking, even more so than SS.

(That’s a lie, but it sure feels that way.)

The hours pass by agonisingly slow. When the clock strikes 5, Mao leaps out of his seat, startling poor Sengoku. After murmuring hurried apologies to the rest of the council, he rushes out the door. The hallways seem to stretch, endless. Will you be there?

As he rounds the corner, his heart skips a beat to see you standing there, letter in hand. You’re hugging your arms close to your chest, looking around nervously. “Y/N!” Mao calls, panting slightly, and you look at him wide-eyed.

“Mao, you…you actually came.”

“So did you,” He retorts, without thinking. “I mean… Y-yeah, haha, I did.”

“I, um, I got your letter.” You smile hesitantly. “So…you like me?”

He nods, mutely. Do you accept his feelings? Or have you just called him here to be rejected? You seem to read the unspoken question in his eyes, because you take a quick breath.

“Your letter…it was really sweet. So, um, thank you for writing it. To me. I, um.” You huff. “I’m sorry, I’m just nervous. Anyways. I read it all, and… I guess what I’m trying to say is… I like you. A lot. Also?” You wince at the awkwardness of your words. But Mao? Mao is overjoyed.

It might not be a picture-perfect manga confession, but it’s a confession nonetheless. And you accepted it too, which makes it a hundred times better than anything he’s ever read.

notes!

WC: 654 words

reze txt HI XAIXAI <3 i hope u enjoyed this!! idk how good my mao characterisation was but like. praying it wasn’t too ooc. ugh my mao banner is ugly asf so we Do Not See ok?? ok <3 ANYWAYS all the kisses to u <3 mwah <33

[trashexplorer]

BLCD Review: Cosmetic Playlover

Title: Cosmetic Playlover (コスメティック・プレイラバー)

Author/Artist: Narashima Sachi

Release Date: 2022/11/26

Cast:

Itou Kento x Kobayashi Chiaki

Takatsuka Tomohito

Oono Tomohiro

Synopsis: Trash

“No or stop, you unexpectedly say cute things.”

The beautiful assistant, Natsume, is forced to do pair sales with his junior Sahashi. Sahashi, who doesn’t take Natsume or his work seriously, overtook him in sales and annoys Natsume as he’s trying to act as a good superior… Once his act gets discovered, he’s threatened into becoming his sex friend?! Plus, he carelessly flipped Sahashi’s switch on!

“Is it all right if I get serious?”

This is a story set behind the cosmetic shop counter, with feelings of love appearing as Natsume finds his heart beating fast, although it irritates him.

Review Proper

When I was a wee young lass of years six, my grandmother called us out from our seaside exile to come live with her in the main house after my father’s death. I was a child of the sea, so adjusting to life in the city was difficult. The main house was just rows upon rows of hallways and rooms, and it was always deathly cold—concrete. Even at that tender age, I knew that the house was shrouded in mystery, but it probably was just a reflection of our equally mysterious family. Every morning on my way to school, I would pass a small, oddly framed family picture along the hallway which showed my grandparents sitting on a red velvet couch while my father, uncle, and my aunt stood behind them. By the time I became a freshman in highschool, everyone in that picture had already passed...except for my aunt who had her face scratched out of it. She had been missing even before anyone from our generation was born, so no one knew where she was or how she’s doing. She was our family’s biggest mystery and, quite possibly, the answer to every other mystery. She was the only one who knows our family’s history, after all. More years pass, and we’ve lost the house along the way, completely eradicating any chance our questions had of ever being answered. Now, we have all learned as a family to leave our curiosities to rest and focus on the present.

But who would’ve thought that at age twenty-five, another big mystery would find itself in my hands? 

The mystery of how Cosmetic Playlover ever got green-lit for a BLCD adaptation and multiple manga sequels, that is.

I mean, I knew it was gonna be bad from the Sakura Riko-looking art alone, but I didn’t know that it was gonna be that bad. I’m not even comfortable branding it as something that came out in the 2000′s ‘cause that would be an insult to some of them. Oh, I know. This is FUCKING SHOUJO SMUT PLOT BUT WITH TWO DICKS.

Specifically:

THIS FUCKING THING. NO WONDER I WAS SO PISSED OFF.

“Omg, Chesk. You’re overreacting.” No, I am not. Cause they have sex like 15 pages into the first chapter and right after Sahashi unzips Natsume-san’s pants, he gives it a squish squelch with a finger then puts his dick in it??? HOW WAS HIS ASSHOLE ALREADY WET??? EITHER HE HAD A PUSSY OR HE HAD DIARRHEA. See, I could forgive things being rushed in the manga ‘cause pages, ya know? But I expected the BLCD to give them more time, BUT NOOOOOO. THEY WANTED TO MOMOSE AN THE SHIT.

Anyway, I won’t talk too much about the plot here. It’s really just your run-of-the-mill shoujo smut with a rapist, black-mailing, edgelord top and a simp for a bottom. 👍 Their climax wasn’t even worth noting. Natsume-san was getting wrongly accused by stealing this one guy’s customers, so he keeps harassing him and Sahashi finds Natsume-san’s notebook with all his customers’ info on them and says the notebook was persuasive evidence that he wasn’t stealing the customers. EXCUSE ME??? WHERE ARE YOU TAKING THIS CASE??? AUDIT???

Moving on to the technicalities of things, I actually listened to this mainly because this would be Chiaki’s debut (Sugar Drug’s was actually released the same day, but I’m not too keen on Takuma being on top). Oddly enough, I think I have almost all of the CDs he’s been cast as a supporting role, so I was looking forward to him leading this time. How did he do, you ask?

Wow.

That was

Bad.

Ngl, this was even worse than Horie Shun’s debut. I’m not sure what happened here ‘cause he acts pretty decently in his other CDs, but he even struggled with stuff outside the bedroom. He never got his surprises right, for one thing. Both the timing and the sounds he made were so unnatural. But the most unnatural bit of it all were his moans in bed. He goes to deep but also uses vowels too big at every given chancee, it just—HE REALLY JUST “AHHAHUHUH” THE WHOLE TIME IT WAS SO FUNNY I KEPT LAUGHING THROUGHOUT THE BEDDINGS I’M SO SORRY. I can see that he’s trying to emulate the Tachi of maybe 2013, but he really doesn’t know how to do it properly. I would’ve preferred it if he just went the quieter route, if that’s how it was just gonna end up as. 😬 His moaning drowned Itou Kento out a bit that sometimes I just forgot that he was there lmao. Hopefully, he did better in Sugar Drug ‘cause Taku’s not that uhh great as a top, so if they both underperformed, that CD’s doomed lmaooo

Itou Kento did well here even though I kinda didn’t like how he started. This is a higher tone than what he usually uses, and I could just visualize what kind of shape his mouth was making that it just bothered me. Thankfully, grew on me after a while. His topping style here was a little reminiscent of Nakajiki’s usual, and I found that endearing. My man learned topping from his top. *wipes tear

The rest of the supporting cast did great too. I found it so funny that Takatomo was acting as a man much older than the two leads when he’s literally the same age as their actors lmao. Our other Tomo’s also showing potential. I’ve seen his name pop up quite a lot recently, and it’s just a matter of time before he gets a lead role. Hope he learns from this.

 Yea, so this was bad overall. If you’re a fan of this series, why? I wouldn’t recommend it because of the acting. It unfortunately sticks out like a sore thumb. I’m not sure if Mari—MARINE?! NO FUCKING WONDER! Yea, this’ll probably have sequels since the manga has 7 volumes and is still ongoing, and Marine loves that weird shit, so... Do I have any other recommendations? I don’t think I’ve ever listened to another BLCD that revolved around cosmetics. That was actually a good concept, ngl. But did this expound on the cosmetics? No lmao. 

[atopearth]

Amnesia: Later Part 1 - Girl's Party and Waka's World Routes

Girl's Party

Super exciting to play Later!! I bought the Japanese version hoping to play it one day fully expecting it to never be localised but here we are hahaha, I'm not even mad that I "wasted" my money because I'm so happy haha! Ooh so Later follows if the heroine didn't pick any guy and doesn't have a boyfriend and is just living a normal life? Toma and Shin arguing about which yukata to pick for the heroine is so cute lol. I love seeing everyone in yukata! Personally, Mine, Rika, Shin and Ikki look the best to me, but especially the former two because they're so cute and pretty! But the black on Shin and blue on Ikki is just so perfect too! I've always wanted the heroine to interact more with the girls so I'm very happy we have Girls Party routes! Sawa is always such a good and silly friend, it's hilarious how bad her grades were😂 I'm also very surprised that Rika is from a family of farmers! Very different from her image haha! Kent is 190cm??? Omg lol, he's like 35cm taller than me, a whole ruler😂 Toma saying his favourite animal is humans definitely matches with that cage in his apartment😂

I can see why people wouldn't like Mine especially when I think about those routes when she was an ass to the heroine initially because of her jealousy, but at the same time, I can't really hate her because she's quite nice and very cute lol. It was sweet to see how she was happy that the heroine considers her a friend and it was honestly adorable how she said she misses the girls when she doesn't see them haha, I didn't expect her to be that honest! Lmao at Orion calling her a tsundere. Shin buying a book and then going to Toma's house to read it is so cute lmao, I know he's a soft guy on the inside but it's so funny when I try to imagine it haha.

I love Rika's fated meeting with the random substitute teacher, Orion is right, it's just like a shoujo manga haha! I think the funniest part is that I can't imagine Rika running to school with bread in her mouth🤣 Anyway, I really enjoyed the Girls Party route if we can really call it a route lol. I really wish it was longer though! I think having the heroine just getting to chat with Mine, Sawa and Rika is so much fun, I really want more haha.

Waka's World

The Ruthless Sergeant's World

Okay, I never knew I needed a Waka route until he said maybe he even has a chance with the heroine. Like, yes please!! And the best thing about this? We get all the different Wakas from the different worlds! Since it seems to be set before the heroine's amnesia, it's actually really cool to see the heroine's personality and actually have her talking to and responding to people lol. The heroine praising and admiring Mine for never being late to work was so cute, I can see why Mine can't win against her. As for Waka ruthless sergeant version, I can totally see why all the newly hired employees run away haha!

I was really touched by Waka when he said that he's the manager, so everything that happens is his responsibility, and that it's his job to protect his staff. I mean, Waka can be over the top but when he says stuff like that, how can I not want to cry? How many managers truly care about your well-being as much as him?😭 HAHAHA, I was wondering what Waka was going to do, but self-defence classes at night?🤣🤣 I agree with the heroine, Waka's hobby being making miniature gardens is adorable hahaha! It's so funny how soft he gets whenever he talks about them😂😂 Honestly though, despite how funny it is, I love how much effort he puts into them that they each have a story behind them. Awww, I would have loved to see Waka show the heroine his garden and everything, it would have been so cute! Why are these endings so short?!😭

The Quiet Man's World

Waka is always saving the heroine in every world haha! Anyway, I was just surprised he let her go find by herself at night, but I guess we knows he's not going to allow that anymore. It was nice to know that he called Shin and Toma to pick Mine and Sawa up just in case. This Waka is very dedicated to his magic trick to have all 52 cards spread around the cafe and to have remembered their locations so that whatever card the person chooses, he can always do his trick. He's so dedicated lmao.

The Flamboyant's World

I can't get used to this Waka LOL, especially the 'hehe' lollll, kill me😂 He's so whatever about everything and says what he wants, it's so not him hahahaha. Loved their little coffee break though. He does whatever he wants too hahaha! I have to admit though, he's very refreshing to see considering how strict his other personalities are when it comes to work at the cafe. I love their little date that comprised of shopping and dining at a cafe, and dangg the confession! I totally didn't expect that ahaha, the Waka that made the most progress!

The Assassin's World

It's interesting to see Waka analyse everyone's personalities and split them between those who gravitate towards darkness and those who remain pure no matter the adversity. I guess Ikki, Toma and Mine being the former reflect their personalities in their routes and Mine's when she's being an ass when it comes to love and jealousy lol. A gentle Waka is pretty nice too. I liked their walk home, and lol at Shin and Toma protecting her by watching over her as she walks home at night hahaha.

Overall, Waka's routes/endings were fun! I wish there were actual CGs though, so disappointing in that aspect and I'm also kinda sad that all the routes were basically teasing the possible relationship but nothing happens! I want moreeee, they can't stop right when it gets good! Now I'm just sad even though they were short and fun😭

[krewekreep]

Introduction of Sorts + Interests

This page will really be for me to get back into writing, develop my writing and indulge myself. I’m open to requests though but ask people to definitely contextualize your Bias (person you’re requesting for—yes I’m gonna use K-pop lingo oh well) and/or the scenario cause otherwise I’d simply write for myself. Which is why I also am making this page because I’ve been on tumblr for 10 years (my main account turned ten this year) and I’m worn out of the smut fest no prose or story fics. Definitely has its place in the community but the older I get the more I need actual full blown delusion. I need scene, setting, set up, climax, denouement…and so I’ll fulfill the order myself. 🫡

My interests:

(Im a 2010s coded Tumblr user so uh, I mean I suppose Dr Who and Supernatural aren’t 😂😂😂😂lmao ew anyway (I was into supernatural I’m ewwing at you and myself) .

Too I usually am not following everything that’s mainstream (I know im so cool) so also if something isn’t listed I most likely know of it—but went no further. I also like older anime and media so if you have something super specific that feels out of place no worries. Im gonna end up writing Greek smut about Dionysus so…🤷🏾‍♀️

Anime: (I’ve seen actually too much anime to name so here’s the ones I have a bias or have an affinity for the characters)

JJK,

Chainsaw Man

Bleach

Naruto

Demon Slayer

Attack on Titan

Fate Series

Etc

Manga:

JJK

Chainsaw Man

Bleach

Attack on Titan

Spy x Family

DanDanDan

Berserk

Etc

Fave genres are horror/seinen, shoujo, and slice of life.

KPOP: (1st-mid 3rd Gen main but still aware of 4th gen pretty deeply)

I dont really want to do requests for idols but I don’t mind overall, explained further below

My fave boy groups (somewhat in order): Big Bang, Shinee, BAP, BTS (ex-army, long story**, don’t come to my page with that bullshit 💕) B1A4, IKON, EXO, 2PM, GOT7…I could go on. (I’m not gonna list them in an order but my heart can’t not include MBLAQ, Teen Top, U-Kiss, etc ugh those were the days😭)

Girl Groups (in definitive order): 2NE1, Brown Eyed Girls, F(x), Girls Generation, TWICE, 4Minute/Hyuna, Wonder Girls, Secret, After School, Global Icon (short lived), Tiny G ( VERY short lived), EXID, Ladies Code, etc.

Now 4th Gen…is cute…they got CUTE people that’s for sure. This list will be co-ed simply because I’m not feral for boy groups like I was younger. Really the boy groups don’t do it for me (4th gen overall criticism tbh) cause it’s really looks and kinda arrogant personalities I find obnoxious given y’all can’t even publicly date or be seen smoking…tone down the elitist vibe lol. But shade aside I do jam some things and have a playlist for my fave 4th gen songs so for sure no hate just a BOMBASTIC side eye sometimes. Anyway…

Stray Kids

Aespa

Lessaraffim (I’m gonna leave it like my mind spells it, enjoy)

NCT 127 (specifically them ((in reference to the units)) cause I enjoy R&B coded K-pop, they do too much Niggaboo shit (looking at Mark and Taeyong DIRECTLY in the eyes 👁️👄👁️)((BUT it’s a Soo Man thing cause him, YG, and JYP competing over who wish they were a born a Black man the most…Soo Man and JYP ✨fist fighting✨over the top spot IYKYK)

New jeans (they’re minors and if they all aren’t their def much younger than me so no requests for minors please this is for taste assessment only)

BIBI and other female soloists (Hyuna, Sunmi, Ga-in, Lee Hyori, etc)

IVE (they really got some bops tbh, this is another TWICE case of let these young women talk and sing how they naturally would…music and live performances will thank them for it)

Nobody really else I guess honorable mentions are Ateez, Fifty-fifty,

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*im gonna add that for Anime/Manga the double dipping means some combination of me knowing the material in both forms of media. Like Jujutsu Kaizen is an amazing example currently as of course the anime is ongoing but the manga is far ahead by a large portion of plot. So if your anime only, manga only, or something be sure to let me know so I’m not spoiling by accident. Don’t want the smut to spoil a character death or something….right? 😅

**the long story short and overall caveat of why I’ve fallen out of love for groups and K-pop are the fact that yeah as a Black person I genuinely started getting pissed off with colorism, n-word usage, appropriation, and mockery. The shit gets old and as a poor old super fan I’m happy I didn’t spend the money people do for folks who would literally refuse my hand…🫤 be fr. Likewise, the deaths of idols who were literally my biases really (of course) bothered me and took a toll on my enjoyment of the genre too. The more you love it the more you learn and that’s usually where the fun ends and now it’s numbers charts and placements. Lame 😭. I let the time I was fan be that but otherwise ? Eh I’m good I’ll bop from time to time and catch the tea but my bread in my pocket (besides my B1A4 What’s Happening and Twice Scientist albums😂)((and the other old albums I’ll get before they disappear forever or get destroyed🫠))

But yeah that’s that on that. I’ll be posting whatever ends up decent enough to be read by others. Otherwise wherever this ends up hope you drop a message🥸!

[anime-book-club]

“From Far Away” vol. 1 by Kyoko Hikawa

TLDR: 9/10

My first impression thoughts on a manga I had never heard of and was recommended to me as the “original” villainess shoujo manga:

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Firstly, I tried looking into picking up this series physically. I prefer physical media almost always.

However, physicals of “From Far Away” are ungodly expensive. I’ve been seeing complete sets going from $1000 - $2000. Ouch, but it can be indicative of a quality title.

On Amazon the books are about $6-$7 a piece for Kindle. So. No contest there on which version was bought.

“From Far Away” is about a girl that slips into a unfamiliar magical world that is in chaos over a prophesied person, The Awakening, that is supposed to appear. (“Spoiler” alert: it’s her)

Izark who is a traveling warrior had travelled to find The Awakening and ends up escorting her away from mercenaries that wish to take her for notorious purposes.

Overall I can see this as a series I can seriously fall in love with. The art, story, and characters seem wonderful.

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Detailed spoilers ahead:

By the way this is her right here! This is Noriko (The main character):

I don’t have strong feelings about her yet. As for the first book she has to be chaperoned by other characters. Which is not her fault, and you can tell she makes an effort in her own way. But I feel it will take a bit of time to see if she grows into a character that helps Izark over just being someone who is dead weight.

Her design, and by extension everyone else’s, looks as if it were a mix of Sailor Moon and Inuyasha. Which is very pretty in my opinion. In the art you can see the artist has taken care to make sure not everyone had same face syndrome too (artists like Arina Tanemura tend to have this problem despite how much I love her work). Characters are designed to be identifiably different.

The beginning feels very rushed for both the good and the bad. Good because we get right into the meat of the story we’re here for. Do we truly care about Noriko’s friends that we’ll likely never really see again? Not really. It would be better to call them set dressing over actually being fully fledged characters. Which is fine. Some characters are meant to just be set dressing.

But at the same time this also distances us from her connection from those people. The short time dedicated on friends and school over the family itself was also a bit of a strange decision. As to most people our familial connections make or break us. One might even infer her life with the MOST normal. Not quirky in any regard other than her strange dreams.

Speaking of which: It goes from her talking about having strange dreams to 💥 BOOM! Explosion and she was gone faster than a toupee in a hurricane! Thanos snapped away so to speak. She leaves in a literal explosion and there’s not even a body is left behind for police to pick up as her friends try to explain what happened. The manga implies this is purposeful.

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Eventually we meet this man who rescues Noriko when she is initially exploded into the new world:

This is Izark (the deuteragonist), a travelling warrior who came to find The Awakening (For reasons unknown the the reader at this time). Izark is very classically 90s shoujo handsome. (And totally my type at tough, calm, cool, distant, but still empathetic to the plight of others.)

He’s also logical and tends to use that logic in a flat dead pan cheeky way. It’s a nice juxtaposition.

Despite Noriko being painted as a literal catastrophe he is kind to her and very considerate of her position and feelings. (And this is reciprocated by Noriko. It feels genuine on both sides.)

The way the long dark hair is drawn is ✨ perfection ✨. Chef’s kiss 💋 .

The first thing the manga truly tackles socially between Noriko and Izark is the language barrier. They don’t have it hand-waved away with magic or happenstance. These two characters truly cannot effectively communicate and it’s being set up that this will be a real barrier for Noriko.

I think a lot of material either don’t know how or straight up don’t want to tackle the difficulty of having two characters (romantic ones at that) unable to communicate. Which I’m going to argue is fair, but it can be a missed opportunity for interesting character/story development. I wish more manga attempted to cover this. As it makes our character Noriko feel so much more alien and alone in this new world she finds herself in.

There’s also something incredibly humbling about having to learn a new language and culture as well. Izark repeating he can’t understand her and her continuing to gab away anyway is also very funny. The language barrier was also used narratively to cover up that she IS The Awakening. As she cannot blab her life story to those who can’t understand her. Genius cover. I love it.

Noriko and Izark seem to immediately have some pretty good chemistry. Though Izark is obviously not only aware but wary of Noriko’s status in his world. He comes off incredulous that The Awakening is as little and meek as she is.

He remarks that he will have to kill her. Which leads me to suspect he planned on taking her off to kill her somewhere? But that can’t be entirely it, because he proves he’s a powerful warrior and the logic doesn’t add up. He would’ve just killed her right then if that had been the goal? There were many opportunities for her to get killed off.

Unless he felt bad about it, I guess. But that seems like a misread on who he is too. (Though undoubtedly he seems to like her.) There simply is not information at this time.

Izark suddenly collapses at the end of book one leaving a nice enticing cliff hanger.

And then there’s this guy, Keimos:

He gives off big Sephiroth vibes. And maybe it’s the black and white coloring, the long hair, the thin eyes, the haughty sounding attitude, and how other characters talk about him, but yeah. It’s hard to think of him as anything else.

He seems like he’s going to be a main first antagonist, but not the final antagonist. We’ll see.

Both side and main characters are fun to interact with. Villainous characters are fun too, no one holds back in the fighting. For a shoujo this has excellent action sequences and they’re done by a talented artist.

I appreciate that the monsters aren’t generic. The artist tried to make something interesting. I liked the toothy worm things that immediately attack Noriko on arrival.

I can’t wait to pick this series apart more. I have high hopes for this one. I like near everything about it so far. It’s interesting and I want to unravel the mystery as to why Noriko is this great Awakening to wreck the world.

Next: “From Far Away” vol. 2.

(Next review not available yet)

[mizutori-heiko]

Mizutori’s bakudeku fanfiction master list [complete works]

Really really good writing by these incredible authors. In no particular order! These are all Top!Bakugou and Bottom!Deku. If A/B/O dynamics then it’s Alpha!Bakugou and Omega!Deku. Yes, I have preferences.

Canon World – until 15k

What The Fuck Did You Just Call Me? by reading_raindrop | 8,303 | Izuku starts calling him Bakugou and it pisses the explosive teen off a lot more than he thought it would.

Oh right, you were a little sh*t by SaysiWrites | 5,653 | When Midoriya Izuku gets hit by an age-reversion Quirk, the last thing anyone expected to find out is that Toddler-Izuku is a little shit. Except for one Bakugou Katsuki, who has seen this phase one too many times already. (Bonus+ the entire Little Sh*t (Kidfic) series)

Do Not Disturb by surveycorpsjean | 10,010 | Apply enough force, and something is bound to break.

And Atlas fell by supercrunch | 15,185 | They move in together, after a while. Katsuki joins Best Jeanist and Izuku trains under Gran Torino. They still take comfort in each other every day, curl up in bed and kiss and talk about how life is going. Their live are tumultuous, after all, what with villains and training and rescuing people every week. It’s nice to have something certain. At the end of a day filled with violence and adrenaline, Izuku knows he can come home to someone concrete. It’s perfect. Being a hero is scary and grueling and uncertain, but this part is just right. And then, one day, a child dies in Izuku’s arms.

be loved by bonnia | 5,403 | The kidnapping incident leaves bakugou traumatised about being touched on the back of his neck, and midoriya decides to take matters into his own hands.

Big Protein by Mysecretfanmoments | 13,683 | Bakugou Katsuki has a thriving hero career, an agent to manage his famous attitude, and absolutely zero romantic interest in anyone. With the exception of his favourite health food joint refusing to expand to his city, his life is pretty damn perfect—so why does a viral video revealing Deku's stash of dirty mags involving him and Deku together turn everything upside-down?

Chocolate cake and resin preserved flowers by Anoksun | 11,396 | Izuku loses his memories. Katsuki struggles not to lose Izuku too.

Twin Stars by theperksofbeinglarissa | 8,435 | When Deku saves a woman's life, her quirk is accidentally activated. Her quirk? She reveals a person's soulmate. A star-shaped mark appears on Midoriya's left arm... and on Bakugou's as well. Kirishima is the only one who knows that Bakugou is Midoriya's soulmate, and Bakugou isn't taking the news very well. Can the twin stars of class 1-A work out their differences and find their happy ending?

Unhealthy Fixations by Thesis | 12,522 | Izuku is an adult who knows better than to crush on his childhood bully. AND YET.

Like the Moon by osakakitty | 14,781 | Katsuki Bakugo is having constant, erotic dreams about Izuku Midoriya. He isn’t sure why, but they won’t go away. In order to make them stop, he needs to figure out what Izuku Midoriya means to him.

Worth a Second Shot by cinnabee | 13,080 | Katsuki and Izuku celebrate registering as a Hero Duo together with a big party. What could go wrong?

Like Something Out of A Shoujo Manga by Merrywetherweather | 2,971 | Deku ends up in a rather interesting quirk accident, one that triggers flag events as if he were the protagonist of an otome game.

Canon World – 15k++

Blood Moon by lalazee | 94,860 | The Thank-Fuck-We-Aren’t-Dead Sex had started then, and had never really stopped. Then came the feelings and the fights. The ego, the pride, the jealousy. And then there was Us.

The Way You Used To Do by edema_ruh | 669,463 | During a battle, Midoriya gets hit by a villain whose quirk detaches his soul from his body. Stuck in a ghost-like state, the boy enters a race against time in order to save himself from permanently dying. Much to his luck - or lack of it -, the only person who can see and talk to him in this state is no one other than Kacchan.

Just Like Breathing by MD_Daydreamer | 35,423 | Izuku got engaged. He didn't mind. If that made Uraraka happy, he could do it. He thought his life wouldn't change much.But then, Kacchan went to live in the USA.

briar roses (and hundred years of sleep) by vannral | 15,951 | In which Izuku is hit by a ‘Sleeping Beauty’ Quirk, Class 3-A tries to find his True Love and get them to kiss him, and Katsuki’s very angry about it all.

"what's your type?" by sapphicflower | 20,192 | In order to increase their popularity rankings as up and coming pro heroes, Izuku and Katsuki participate in the most popular late night talk show for hero duos - ‘Heroes Rising!’. They’re killing it, obviously, because they know each other from inside and out. Until one question stumps the two of them: “What is your hero partner’s type?”

and it was Just Right by cinnabee | 23,759 | Katsuki spends two years post-graduation in a furious one-sided competition with his childhood friend and rival's promotional photos - until they finally run into each other, and, well. You shouldn't believe everything you see in magazines. A love story about size differences.

Notice Me, Nerd by useless_donut | 40,000 | Bakugou is in love with Midoriya. He doesn’t hide it, in fact it’s so painfully obvious that the entire class of 3-A has him figured out in a matter of months (days, in some cases). Too bad Midoriya is the most oblivious motherfucker out there, and Bakugou is too damn stubborn to actually ask him out. A love story as witnessed by the class of 3-A.

in your dreams, nerd! by sapphicflower | 37,639 | In a strange and unexpected set of circumstances, Izuku and Katsuki find themselves sharing their dreams together whenever they happen to fall asleep at the same time. Being hopelessly in love with each other, they don’t mind it all that much. What better way to spend time with your crush than in a stupidly vivid dream?

Hear Me by my_name_is_Levi | 22,419 | It wasn’t as if nightmares were uncommon for the freshman class of Yuuei. They’d seen plenty of things, heard and felt and witnessed enough travesty in their lives to last them a lifetime. But Midoriya Izuku was screaming, and no one, not even Bakugo Katsuki could ignore it.

Bridges by supercrunch | 18,018 | Bakugou is signed up for a Calvin Klein modeling gig. The thing is, they really do need the money. And Katsuki's technically the leader of this bunch of morons, so he finds himself taking the job even though his pride will never recover. And even though nobody thought to tell him that he'd be working with his ex-boyfriend. You know, the cute freckled guy from high school who went and broke his heart. So, yeah. This whole situation kind of sucks.

objective truth by mamalade | 15,390 | Izuku gets hit with a truth quirk, as one does. He seems to be handling it well—until Katsuki shows up.

catharsis by dollcewrites | 15,071 | It's been six years since Izuku graduated.It's been six years since he confessed to his childhood friend; his classmate and his inspiration. It's been six years since he deleted Bakugou's number, asked his friends not to mention the name, spent every last effort of his heart turning off the TV and averting his eyes from the newspapers. It's been six, long, long years since he gave up on Katsuki Bakugou ever loving him back.

Here here, my friends and me (You are my familia) by Jeka | 128,832 | Bakugou Katsuki has made a great job of ignoring the fact that he is tragically in love with Deku, someone who could never love him like that and let's face it, he doesn't deserve. Now that he can't ignore it anymore, he has to find a way to keep his childhood friend and move on for his own sake. Or so he had thought, maybe he can have Deku, after all. Izuku has everything he always wanted in life. But suddenly he has to navigate the most important relationship in his life through different eyes.

Canon World – Jealous! 

Hands Off by SaysiWrites | 7,140 | When a new girl at school starts flirting with Bakugou, his friends quickly become invested in the idea of their friend experiencing love - even if he doesn't seem at all interested in her. What they don't see is Midoriya fuming in the background. But how can he get rid of her when they've spent so long keeping their relationship a secret?

Surfaces by surveycorpsjean | 25,225 | Katsuki has a new girlfriend, but something isn't right. As impossible as it is, Izuku can't help but wonder what it'd be like to be called Katsuki's girl.

Green-Eyed Beast by SecretKiwi | 4,721 | Everyone wants a piece of Katsuki Bakugou, but they should beware of the Green-eyed beast always lurking close behind him.

Green with Envy by Sol_Morales707 | 2,611 | Izuku Midoriya is not as innocent and pure as everyone thinks he is. The truth was he was very jealous and willing to do anything for a certain blonde.

Happy Camper by Arysa | 7,074 | Wanting a break from the stress of dealing with the rookie Pro Hero grind, a handful of students from Class A decide to go on a camping trip. Izuku's excited to relax and catch up with everyone, especially Kacchan. But, well, Kacchan's... Kacchan. And dating Kirishima.

How to stop time: kiss by Teddingtons | 31,693 | Deku finally asks Uraraka out. Everyone's supportive except Bakugou who can't even look him in the eye. Deku seeks him out after and is hit with truth.

What I Deserve by s_the_queen | 16,671 | When Izuku starts dating a student in General Studies, everyone is happy for him. She's super sweet and really caring. But something doesn't sit right with Katsuki.

Deku's Already Fucking Taken by asdfjkl129 | 20,704 | 5 times people don't realize that Deku is already in a very happy relationship and try their hand at asking him out, and then in Bakugou's unique and special style, get very firmly corrected, +1 time where no correction is needed.

His by sister_elric | 6,206 | Izuku would like to consider himself a pretty level headed individual. Sure, he had the occasional tunnel vision, especially when it came to training. And hero work. And Kacchan. But, overall, Midoriya felt as though he typically kept his cool. Well, maybe that was a stretch. But, at the very least he could understand his own emotions. So, it surprised even him when an unfamiliar emotion coursed through him as a first year approached his boyfriend, Katsuki.

Down the Red Line by MinervaHope | 7,804 | Izuku has been able to see the red strings of fate since birth. It's no surprise that his is connected to Katsuki.

Canon World – Fake Relationship Goes Wrong

how he should’ve known (and how it turned out) by vannral | 43,918 | In which Katsuki and Izuku pretend to be a couple to avoid journalists, the plan backfires magnificently because of course it does, and the act goes on. Includes feelings, pining, domestic fluff and jealousy.

Vicious by feelslikefire | 105,173 | Midoriya and Bakugou wind up in the very last position either of them thought they'd be in: Hero Partners. It's not fun, but they learn to cope. Their first big assignment together takes them undercover to infiltrate a cult, but the situation turns out far more sinister than they first thought.

What I can never tell you by Mikacrispy | 27,067 | After living in the US for 5 years, Izuku returns to take care of a concussed Bakugou who believes they're engaged. Now, Izuku has to pretend he's in a relationship with the man he's loved for most of his life, knowing that it's just a matter of time until Katsuki gets better and realizes it's all a lie.

Not-Dating by MiraChaDoodles | 14,290 | Katsuki takes Deku on a not-date to save his career, only to find himself wishing it were real.

we'll do the things that lovers do by ethereals | 29,544 | Izuku gets an invitation to Shouto's wedding and Katsuki is PISSED that he asks Kirishima to be his date (also he wasn't even fucking invited

Canon World – Friends With Benefits (?) 

Four Times Bakugou Katsuki Doesn't Intend to Sleep With Midoriya Izuku (And the One Time that He Does) by fallingraine85 | 17,601 | He hadn’t planned for any of this. He isn’t about to go delving into the ball of yarn that is Midoriya Izuku’s heart; he isn’t equipped to try and untangle and make sense of it all. He isn’t about to try to analyze how he’s feeling about all of this, either.... How many times can you repeat the same mistake?

We Wear Chains on the Weekend by surveycorpsjean | 35,086 | Well, in a day of revelations, it turns out that Izuku isn't as vanilla as Katsuki previously thought. Unfortunately, that fascinating discovery is overshadowed by Izuku's dumbassery, because he has zero concept of aftercare."Don't go to anyone else," Katsuki says, because screw it. He can do a better job anyways. Or; Katsuki finds Izuku on a bad drop.

Just for Now by Shiro_Kabocha | 48,135 | Katsuki's parents are out of town over a school break and to keep him from getting up to any shenanigans, they ask Izuku to house sit with him. What are two teenaged boys to do when left alone to their own devices? (Bonus+ the entire Just for Love series)

safe in the darkness by yoonskisses | 20,855 | Izuku and Katsuki had been meeting up secretly for months, with absolutely no feelings involved. Or so Katsuki thought at least. The dorm gossip about Ochaco and Izuku's new relationship seemed to set a spanner in the works for their arrangement.

Alternative Universe – No Quirks

Bluebird by EtherealBeing | 53,108 | Dialing a wrong number was no unusual occurrence. Everyone did it once in a while, and Katsuki was well aware of that fact. However, possessing this knowledge made it no less aggravating for him to discover — a full two minutes into his rant about his day — that he’d been venting his frustrations to a complete stranger. As if that wasn't enough, said stranger was also inexplicably determined to hear his story to its end.

Someone Borrowed by mynameis152 | 138,996 | It felt like hours that he stared at Izuku, coming to terms with the fact that a man, his childhood best friend, whom he hadn’t seen since their senior year of high school, was there in front of his very eyes. Then his brows furrowed and his jaw clenched before he uttered through gritted teeth the very name Izuku had longed to hear for years. “Deku.”

Dark Side of the Sun by Synnie | 51,598 | Staying up too late playing video games, Kirishima wasn't expecting to get an urgent call begging for help. Next thing he knew, he was letting his classmate Izuku Midoriya take refuge in his apartment - without consulting his always angry roommate.

Manage Me by Justaperson1718 | 10,756 | Izuku becomes Katsuki’s model agent.

Don't Set Your Drink Down by Crandberrycrush | 88,424 | With sudden clarity Izuku realized he had broken the first rule of going out. Never leave your drink unattended.

Livewire by pretty_rekless | 18,160 | Per Ochako's request, Izuku downloads a gay dating app in hopes to finally find a partner. Except every single one of his leads keep ghosting him or standing him up... That is until one hot, fiery blond enters the chat. Grindr/Tinder AU fic.

Drinking Watermelon by warschach | 8,906 | Katsuki works as a camp counselor, and Izuku is a boy made of summer heat and sunlight.

Precious Pet by Mikacrispy | 6,379 | When broke college student Midoriya Izuku found a job that offered lodging, food, and good pay for four hours of work each day, he thought it was too good to be true. But he called anyway. Turns out all he has to do is to be the spoiled little puppy of a rich businessman.

Our Eleven Summers by Dark_Mage_Ayumu | 34,472 | The first time Katsuki met Izuku was when he was eight. For the next eleven years, Izuku changed his life, and no one even knew. Their relationship was something they shared in secret.

sticky note crushes by ladyofsnails | 3,239 | Katsuki hates his roommate. The green-haired, freckled, artsy son of a bitch with his dumb pun t-shirts and paint-stained hands he can’t fucking keep to himself. Katsuki can’t leave a single assignment or paper out in his room because that idiot will just grab anything to draw on it. He’s like a shark that can’t stop swimming else it’ll die – he can’t stop drawing. Ever.

Don't Play Pretend by SweetSide | 10,103 | Actor AU: Deku and Bakugou get the leading roles for an upcoming TV Drama. They weren’t aware that they would be working with each other for who knows how long. It would’ve been completely fine if they weren’t exes.

97.6 FM by jamjars | 32,249 | Izuku can’t stop listening to the radio host with the deep voice who sounds like he’s stuck in 2010. It’s a harmless crush. That is until he starts calling into the show under the pseudonym Deku.

Read {between} Your Lines by greatcloudninja | 52,252 | Midoriya Izuku, up-and-coming actor, has finally hit his big break (...), Bakugou Katsuki, who has been acting for over twenty years.However, Bakugou seems to have it out for Izuku, leading to tension both on and off set. When some incriminating photos surface, the studio suggests (...): having Bakugou and Midoriya fake a relationship to get ahead of the rumors. 

I’m not looking for somebody with some superhuman gifts by PassingShadow | 5,522 | Izuku is a professional cuddler and Katsuki is his new client that’s just a little rough around the edges, and needs a natural healing touch.

Alternative Universe – Quirkless Deku

A Good Old-Fashioned Tattoo AU by lalazee | 14,437 | After their paths had split, Bakugou & Deku meet again as adults. While Bakugou begins to repent for the kid he used to be, he also starts to prove himself as he the man he is now.

Call Me a Safe Bet (I'm Betting I'm Not) by WTTTD | 10,803 | He wished he had some sort of heads up before seeing Deku again for the first time after nearly two years, looking like the essence of a lazy Sunday, smiling and surrounded with brand new, adoring friends. It was a little fitting that Katsuki burned for him so badly. (Support Department Deku)

In Which Kacchan Has a Ruff Time by OneshotPrincess | 14,511 | Bakugou Katsuki gets quirked into a dog, gets adopted by an unknowing Izuku and generally has a very rough few days full of realizations

While You Were Sleeping by Belkacaramelka (annabelleg) | 71,197 | The one where quirkless fanboy Midoriya Izuku rescues Pro Hero Todoroki Shouto, gets mistaken as his fiancé while he is in a coma, and gets caught up in the most unlikely fake engagement... until his childhood enemy and Todoroki's classmate Bakugou Katsuki tries to catch him out, and they both end up discovering a lot more about each other than they'd expected.

Let Me Assist You Personally by Seeress | 32,806 | Izuku is long-suffering Personal Assistant to #1 Pro Hero Dynamight.Dynamight can't keep a PA to save his career. They all quit crying after a few days weeks. Enter, Izuku—with enough money problems to brave the jaws of the cranky beast. Childhood friend turned glorified paid slave. Somehow it all works out. ‘Kill them with kindness’, his mom had told him once. If that were true, Bakugou Katsuki would be stone-cold dead by now.

Smile For The Camera by kurokonekokilled | 19,179 | Midnight has a cam site, home to millions of users, but one catches Katsuki's eye when he goes scrolled through it in search for something to help him release a little stress. A live stream and the best orgasm of his life later, his wallet is lighter, and he might be almost as obsessed with this Deku guy as the cam boy is with him.

Just Like The Comics by brichibi | 24,935 | Where Izuku works at a comic book shop because that’s as close to a hero as he’s gonna get, and Katsuki plays the part of heroic ex-boyfriend who is good at everything except winning Izuku back... maybe

Alternative Universe – Quirks

Get on my Level by Mikacrispy | 92,273 | Bakugou Katsuki is a Pro Hero whose boss demands him to take an intern. Midoriya Izuku is a UA student who needs an internship. When the two of them are put together, they learn about what it truly means to be a Hero and what it means to be in love.

A/B/O – Secret! Baby

Home by Emerald2402 | 87,214 | Midoriya Izuku left Japan in a rush, moving to America without a word to anyone else. But then almost 11 years later he arrives back Home and Bakugou Katsuki's Alpha is furious. Fuck that, Bakugou is furious, because Midoriya Izuku, an omega he tasted one time, has been keeping a very big, very blonde haired, green eyed secret.

Those Under the Same Stars by PerpetuallyPerturbed | 325,553 | When Katsuki Bakugo left Izuku Midoriya five years ago, he thought it was for forever. He put aside dreams and wishes of the omega to focus on his career. He was going to be the best hero, after all. He couldn't have an omega getting in his way. So when he's stopped on the streets one day by a pup begging for help for his mom, he isn't prepared to face what he gave up, and what the consequences of his actions were. (Quirkless Deku)

A/B/O – Quirks

Mark Me. Make Me Yours. by decadentbynature | 10,062 | Midoriya is the only Omega at UA and he's been hiding it well but there's one issue that threatens to expose him: his attraction to an Alpha, Bakugo. After being told to give some paperwork to Bakugo, Midoriya lets him into his dorm room and is immediately overwhelmed by his scent. Unable to help himself, he gives in to his urges, only to be discovered by Bakugo but instead of becoming enraged, Bakugo decides to give Midoriya exactly what he wants

Claim Me by ScientificallySinful (VampireGaaraCheesepuffs) | 114,449 | Being an Alpha has nothing to do with Katsuki's success as a Pro-Hero, the same way Deku's Omega status hasn't kept him from becoming Number Two. Secondary gender doesn't mean anything nowadays and “mating” is an antiquated practice. So when Izuku, his rival, asks Katsuki to Claim him in the middle of the night, there is only one logical thing to say. “What the fuck?”

Change of Plans by Mikacrispy | 185,965 | Alpha Pro Hero Bakugou Katsuki never planned to get married to some random omega but what he wants isn't an option anymore. One for All wielder Midoriya Izuku has suffered injustice too many times and doesn't plan in allowing his secondary gender to dictate how he must live his life. Falling in love was never in the plans.

Going Feral For You by ANGIE_fic | 17,977 | Bakugou has an aggression problem that might have to do with his Alpha. His job is on the line because of it. So what do you do with a pent up Alpha? Yes.Rut. (Quirkless Izuku)

i live for you, i long for you by jeonjeonggukkkkkie | 19,165 | The five times Izuku hinted he wants Katsuki to spend his next heat with him, and the one time Katsuki took the hint.

Baby's First Bloom by ContraryBee | 44,945 | Izuku blooms for Katsuki one warm day in their third year of middle school. What follows is both boys learning about themselves, their bond, and the society they live in.

As Fate Would Have It by ScientificallySinful (VampireGaaraCheesepuffs) | 88,737 | Katsuki Bakugo had plenty of reasons why he wasn't mated yet, not that he was going to explain why to just anyone. But now, Ground Zero was running out of time. If he didn't find someone soon, he'd lose his position as a Pro-Hero and he'd never get to be #1. So, when he finds out there's a male Omega recently arrested for prostitution that's headed to prison if he too doesn't get a mate…well it must be fate. (Quirkless Izuku)

A/B/O – No Quirks

Gravity by warschach | 71,477 | Izuku is back in his hometown and plenty hasn't changed much from the 8 years he was gone. Except, Katsuki Bakugou, the alpha king of their small town. He's hotter- because that's fair, right, God? -, stronger, a now-famous pro fighter, and noticeably nicer this round.Not that he cares, pfft. (Fine, he cares.)

Nine Months by greatcloudninja | 23,303 | Omega Midoriya Izuku connects with Alpha Bakugou Katsuki through an online singles ad. Izuku pays Katsuki to help him with his heat, ending up pregnant in the process. What follows is a pregnancy filled with ups and downs, but whatever hurdles come their way, they can make it through together.

The long dark by Ominous-Anonymous (Ominonymous) | 13,289 | He could have been really dangerous. He could be a fucking murderer for all he knew. But Izuku Midoriya, ever the reckless daredevil, was not thinking of that when he got into a car with a complete stranger. Completely ignoring the part where his mother always taught him to never gets into cars with alphas he didn't know...

[glassesandswords]

Hey!!

I also love your writing!

Now, idk if someone already asked you, but how you fell in love with Levi, Hange, and Levihan?

And breath exercises and munching ice cubes might help a bit with anxiety. I hope everything ends up alright!!

Thank you! And omg I'm such a HUGE fan of your metas!

Let's start with Levi.

His reputation definitely preceded him for me, even before I first got into SNK. I saw his name plastered everywhere, in every anime popularity list or the seasonal 'best boys' results- which totally spoiled the Ackerman reveal for me lol. So much that I thought he was the lead of the series for a long time😂 The first time I watched episode 9 of season 1, I thought he was going to be like your typical bad-boy archetype- sort of like those shoujo anime brooding guys. I assumed he would be the unreachable, pessimistic-but-hot-playboy-side-character considering his hype.

Boy, I was so wrong.

I actually started to like Levi the moment he sat next to Eren after the courtroom scene and inquired whether Eren hates him for what he had done. After what looked like a brutal display of power in the courtroom, the aftermath scene showed that he genuinely did not want to hurt Eren and cared about him enough to know if the two of them were still cool- even if Eren did come to know that the entire thing was staged to prevent him from falling into the MP's hands. From then onwards, he just kept on going up, up and up for me. Now, I truly believe that Levi is a character who deserves all the hype he gets. He's a well-crafted, unproblematic, and a kind-hearted fave who is as genuine as a character can be in a series full of betrayals and strife.

As for Hange, I'll be honest, she kind of did annoy me at first🙈

Looking back at it, Season 1 Hange is so different from Hange in the rest of the seasons. Season 1 Hange was the over-excited mad-scientist archetype who ran sort-of ethically questionable experiments and seemed completely unhinged. Personally, I'm not a fan of characters who yell a lot and since I watched the anime first, I had no idea that manga Hange was a lot more subdued. Season 1 Hange reminded me of this character called Kaji from Bungou Stray Dogs (another one of my favourite animes) and I wasn't really into it.

But the moment Season 2 Hange grabbed Pastor Nick by his collar and threatened to throw him off the wall if he did not cough up the answers she needed-

My third eye was opened. I tasted the nectar of immortality. Angels sang from the sky. The world turned brighter and I could see everything in full clarity. Aka, that was the moment I first fell irrecoverably in love with her.

And now, to Levihan. The drug that has ruined my life.

I liked Levi and Hange as separate characters at first, but I never really thought about shipping them for two seasons (lmao that was a time when I was more invested in the 104th cadets). Main reason being- they just did not have a lot of time together in the first two seasons, and whatever interactions they had were overshadowed by reveals after shocking reveals.

But when I watched this scene for the first time:

Yeah. That soft look by the glow of the campfire that can melt hearts. That's when I thought 'Hey wait- these two actually go well together...'

But it wasn't until when I re-watched the whole show a year later that I noticed all the subtle hints and started hardcore shipping them. I saw season 4 as it aired as an anime-only and screamed at the telepathy scene. And then I read the manga and SCREAMED at the sheer amount of fanfic-like LH content yet to be adapted. And a few chapters later, I cried buckets of tears.

Levihan is extremely precious to me and I'm so thankful for these amazingly selfless, mature, and wonderful duo. The fact that the love I have for this ship has brought me into this wholesome community has just reinforced it even more. Once I started shipping them, I never looked back.

No regrets.

[yuutsunaoi-writes]

𝙎𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙩𝙝 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝘽𝙪𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 (𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙘𝙧𝙞𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙘𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧)

prompt: friends to lovers + oblivious and not-so-smooth dynamic + pining idiots

a/n: might actually turn this into a long fic one day but who knows- *-* (and yeah the title is a lyric from a BTS song what u gonna do abt it-)

or the real reason Chifuyu followed Baji and Baji stayed with Chifuyu.

Okay.

19 year old Chifuyu’s pretty sure he didn’t have to justify why he really liked a certain tall, strong, friendly, trustworthy, amazing and good-looking ravenette by the name Baji Keisuke.

Just by describing the older male, Chifuyu’s pretty sure he didn’t really have to add any other points.

“You got a little something over here.”

Chifuyu snapped out of his thoughts as he heard Baji murmured that, eyes glimmering as he was immediately reminded of that one scene in shoujo manga-

The blonde struggled to hold back his smile as he ‘discreetly’ watched Baji use a napkin to wipe off some sauce on the corner of his ex-classmate’s lips, the girl flushing furiously at the gesture as she turned away.

The best thing about the whole thing was that the three of them were in a cafe shop and this troupe was kinda soft and Chifuyu had a soft spot for this troupe and-

Okay, fine.

Mayyybeee another reason Chifuyu stayed was simply because he just liked how everyone just gravitated to Baji Keisuke.

And that opened up a lot of opportunities for Chifuyu to just think of his own romantic scenarios of his favourite characters and ships.

Which was a very important role in his life, mind you.

The best thing about the whole thing with Baji was that the guy was smooth.

Like, super smooth.

Chifuyu kinda wished he could be Baji’s person of interest sometimes.

“Why were you guys hanging out so early at a coffee shop anyway?” The girl asked once she had regained her composure, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.

Damn…

This girl’s good too-

“What’s wrong about hanging out with my best friend at a coffee shop from 7 in the morning until 9?” Baji asked, propping his elbow on the table and resting his chin on his hand, sparing a wink at Chifuyu before turning his attention back to the girl.

Yikes.

Chifuyu’s heart skipped a little there for a second, not gonna lie.

“Oh- well- not really, I’m just wondering what you guys would do by yourselves at the coffee shop for two hours.” The girl reasoned, finally sparing a glance at Chifuyu’s way ever since she crashed their hangout.

Not that Chifuyu minded.

Sort of.

“Just talk. There’s a lot to talk about with Fuyu even though I’ve known him for years now.” Baji shrugged, still staring at the girl.

Honestly, if Chifuyu had looked closely, he would’ve noticed Baji looked annoyed.

The girl seemed uncomfortable as seconds passed by, averting her gaze to the floor as she played with her fingers.

…

Huh.

Where did that ‘romantic’ mood go?

Perhaps his presence there was hindering the ‘progress’ of the story?

Thinking he was right, Chifuyu tried to stand up but was stopped when there’s a grip on his wrist, forcing him back to sit down.

“I- I’ll leave.”

There’s a look of realisation on the girl’s face when she said that; eyes looking back and forth from Baji and Chifuyu before she started packing her things in hurry.

“Wa- you sure you don’t wanna stay and talk to Baji-san some more? I mean, I can actually leave, right now.” Chifuyu offered, trying to stand up but was stopped once again by Baji’s hold on him.

“Baji-san? It’s okay, I can leave you with her for a few moments. I can go hang out at Kazutora’s place later since he did ask me to come over to chill and all-”

For some reason, Baji’s hold on him only tightened after that.

“You’re staying.” Baji deadpanned, a frown on his lips.

Before Chifuyu could convince Baji again, the girl was already standing up, bowing at both of them and murmuring a ‘sorry to interrupt’ before rushing out.

???

Whattt?

“Baji-san?? Why are you so mean to her?” Chifuyu accused -despite knowing Baji didn’t really do anything mean, really.

“I was not being mean, Fuyu.” Baji grumbled, eyes staring into Chifuyu’s.

Chifuyu nibbled on his lips, feeling himself warming up under the ravenette’s stare.

“Well, okay, yeah, you’re not being mean but- you- usually don’t- mind if people- I-”

God Chifuyu’s stammering too horribly-

“What’s that about Tora anyway?” Baji asked, cutting Chifuyu’s stammers.

The blonde’s kinda glad the ravenette changed the topic-

“Actuallyyy, I lied about that one- Kazutora-kun said I could use that excuse whenever cuz he’s always free.” Chifuyu explained, scratching the back of his head.

…

Chifuyu’s pretty sure he heard the older mumbling something like ‘thought I’m gonna have another competition for a second there’, but couldn’t ask what that meant as a waitress came by.

Again, Chifuyu stopped himself from screeching as Baji gave her a warm smile of gratitude, the waitress flushing and stammering in return.

Adorable.

This troupe’s adorable too-

“Let’s just get going.” Baji sighed, standing up and walking ahead, the younger instantly following after him.

It was when Chifuyu stepped out of the cafe when he remembered it was snowing, shivering as he stuffed his hands inside of his old hoodie.

Huh…

Cold.

“It’s getting colder, huh?” Baji mumbled, glancing at the shorter who was trying to act like he’s not affected by the weather.

Wordlessly, the ravenette took off his coat and placed it over Chifuyu’s head, the younger instantly turning red at the act.

Whoops.

Baji’s doing that ‘thing’.

Crap.

Uhhh-

“Let’s just crash at your place. I wanna talk to your Mom.” Baji grinned, leading the way and leaving a flustered Chifuyu behind.

Well, almost.

“Stop spacing out, idiot.” Baji had said after he went back to Chifuyu, grabbing the blonde’s hand and dragging the shorter.

By the time they reached Chifuyu’s apartment, they were still holding hands, entering the Matsunos’ apartment and were instantly greeted by Chifuyu’s mother.

As soon as Chifuyu’s mother’s eyes landed on their hands, she asked,

“Together yet?”

“No.”

“Better luck next time.”

Perhaps Baji’s not as smooth as Chifuyu thought after all.

[goldazu]

US, I envy you! May I ask an additional question? I would like to know how you came to know DL (or him). You may reply to me at any time.

Oh wow, if anything, the feeling is mutual, haha. I've always wondered what it would be like to live in Japan. I've visited Japan once, and everyone there was very friendly and clean. I was shocked by the lack of trash on the ground... You can't say the same for the United States, unfortunately. Some people just leave their trash wherever they want. 💀💀💀 And I was also surprised by the amount of people walking by themselves around midnight!! It seemed very safe, but I'm getting off topic now. 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

Also, I don't mind answering your questions quickly. I find it interesting so the answers come to me very easily!

I found DL because to be honest with you, I was looking for an anime with attractive characters in it. I have already seen a lot of slice of life, drama, and school-focused ones, and while I love the stories and characters, I can't help but notice a lot of the protagonists seem bland in terms of appearance. I understand it's so that the viewers can relate to them, but even so, I was looking for something different.

It's one reason why I really adored the anime Ookami Shoujo to Kuro Ouji ( オオカミ少女と黒王子 ), for the unusual male lead and his Do-S personality. I know a lot of people don't like that anime, but I thoroughly enjoyed both the original manga and the adaptation!!

So, ever since that one, I looked for more anime with Do-S characters, and I stumbled across DL that way. However, back then I only knew about the Sakamaki family, so I didn't even know More, Blood existed until I finished the first season.

When the Mukamis were introduced, I was so shocked... I couldn't believe my ears, it was really Sakurai Takahiro voicing Ruki!! Not to mention he is even x10000 more attractive than Kyouya! (I like dark-haired characters the most, lol). I was instantly hooked. Even though my original favorite was Ayato, I was quickly converting into a Ruki fan.

I ended up reading Ayato's Haunted Dark Bridal route, and then his More, Blood route, but I was somewhat disappointed with how it ended. If anything, it just made me more curious about Ruki because he appeared in Ayato's route as a love rival. Even the translator I read noted in the comments that "this version of Ruki doesn't actually exist." Which made me even more curious, because I wanted to know Ruki's true character under the façade.

He was definitely a lot more Do-S in his own story, which I really adored. Some people might consider him too strict or controlling, but I found it very attractive, hahaha. Maybe I am just a big Do-M.

I'm really happy I found Ruki in the end. Everything about him is just worthy of obsessing over for me, lol.

[bnhabadass]

Pairing: Hawks x Reader Warnings: N/A Genre: Fluff Word Count: 4.5k Synopsis: You're surprised when your best friend tells you she's dating pro hero Hawks. As you get to know him throughout his frequent visits to the tea shop you work at, your uncertain despisal of him may just turn into romance. 

When your best friend told you that she was dating the number two hero you laughed in her face. “It’s true!” she pleaded. Her eyes gleamed against the hanging lights in your kitchen. She looked as if she were a lovestruck middle schooler doodling hearts and writing her initials in the margins of her notepad. But you knew her like the back of your hand and you were well aware of her habit of compulsive lying.

You spent the following week teasing her relentlessly for making up such an outlandish lie. Yui Nakamura, your best friend in the world. She was an up-and-coming actress who claimed that she was slowly taking Japan by storm.

“I guess I just caught the number two hero’s heart from my last film,” she told you. It was all she could talk about for a solid week, leaving you rolling your eyes and sticking your tongue out in a fake gagging motion every time his name was brought up.

It wasn’t until she brought him into your place of work that you finally realized she was telling the truth. The small jingle bells tied to the doorknob of the shop rang as you were crouched behind the counter, sorting loose tea leaves into their respective jars.

“This is my favorite place to get an iced tea in this hot weather,” her sickeningly sweet voice cooed.

Your ears perked up. Grabbing one of the jars of tea leaves, you stood up with a big smile on your face, ready to greet your friend. That smile, however, didn’t last long. Instead it was replaced with a punch in your gut and a ringing in your ears as you saw the person standing in front of you holding hands with your best friend was the number two hero in Japan.

You should have known something was off when the few people sitting in the leather chairs and at the counter looking out into the street had gone silent. Everyone’s jaws were slack in amazement at the hero before their eyes. A few people whispered about how much more handsome he looked up close or how they didn’t realize how vibrant his wings actually were.

The only person who didn’t look shocked or happy that he was there was the number two hero himself.

“(Y/n)!” Yui exclaimed. “How’ve you been?”

“Um, good,” you managed to choke out. Your eyes never left the winged hero.

“I see you’ve noticed my boyfriend,” she giggled. Her happy-go-lucky smile never left her face. It seemed as though her biggest wish had come true. It’s no secret that she had been pining after the hero for years, playing back footage of his rescues and showing them to you over and over again. She would always cover her eyes when watching his fights because she “couldn’t bare to see his beautiful face get hurt” and you would have to tell her when the scary parts were over.

“Hawks,” you spat out.

His golden eyes dug daggers into you. “Yes?” His tone was uninterested and very clearly bored. It left a sour taste in your mouth.

“I, um, well I, ya know, I didn’t–”

Yui cut off your stumbling with a fluttering laugh, the kind of laugh they romanticize in a shoujo manga. “(Y/n)-chan didn’t believe me when I told her you were my boyfriend,” she said in a sing-song voice. “Now come on, Hawky, what do you want?”

Hawks visibly cringed at the nickname she had given him. Hawky, like the sport but spelled like the bird. Even you could admit that it was pretty bad.

“I think I’ll have the iced hibiscus tea,” she said. Her hands fumbled for her wallet.

“I’ll take a small sencha.” You never expected the winged hero to drink tea. It seemed so unlike him. He seemed much more of a coffee kind of person, needing the extra energy to fulfill his hectic life.

“All right, your total is 540¥,” you said. As you brewed their tea, you couldn’t help but keep an eye on Hawks and the little things about him. Sure he was attractive, but was that really enough to satisfy your friend? He didn’t seem very interested in her as she tugged on his sleeve like a little kid clinging to their parents.

As you called their names with their orders in hand, you were surprised when neither of them went to grab their drinks. Instead, Hawks sent two of his feathers to grab them out of your hands. They were so delicate yet so strong.

Yui smiled as the feather fluttered around her before presenting her drink in front of her.

“Let’s go,” Hawks said, still with a look of boredom plastered to his face, but maybe there was more to him than you thought.

You got to know Hawks a little more during the next few months. It’s true that when you first met him he was not your cup of tea. He and Yui would come into the shop and as Yui chatted your ear off about all the sweet nothings he would tell her, Hawks always seemed to zone out or lose interest in the conversation relatively fast. From the outside it looked like he didn’t care about her and that made your blood boil. But there had to be more to it, right? You’re sure that Yui wouldn’t bother with someone who didn’t seem to care about her.

It was at the end of summer when Yui told you the exciting news. She was cast as a major role in a new film and would be flown to Yakushima Island for the shoot. As she told you the good news, her smile never faltered. It was as if all her dreams were coming true and the different pieces of her life were being put together like a puzzle.

“I’m really happy for you,” you said while pouring hot water over a tea bag with oolong in it. “I can’t wait to see the film when it’s released.”

“I can’t wait for you to see it too! It’s going to be rough being away from Hawky for so long but I think we’ll both manage.”

You turned around before she could see you rolling your eyes at the ludacris nickname. You’re not sure how it managed to stick throughout the months, and every time you hear the words pass her lips it triggers a shudder to run through you. “When do you leave?”

“Next week. You have no idea how excited I am, (Y/n).”

You were happy for her, you really were. Yet part of you felt like you were being left behind, stuck in the mud. While she had her handsome top pro hero of a boyfriend, you spent your nights alone and as she went off to chase her dreams of being one of the most famous actresses in Japan, you were still pouring hot water over tea leaves as you have been for the past two years. It didn’t seem fair, but you would never let her know that.

The next week went by quicker than you had hoped and Yui was off to the airport. She, of course, stopped by for one last cup of tea before she left.

Once she was gone the leaves began to change. Red, orange and yellow leaves fluttered through the air onto the ground and gusts of wind would push them across town, occasionally dropping them off in front of the tea shop’s door.

This time of year was always your favorite. The smell of cinnamon and spice floating through every tea, pastry and coffee shop always made you smile in delight. A new shipment of pumpkin tea had just arrived and you couldn’t resist ducking down to stick your nose in the box and smell the leaves through their packaging under the counter.

The homey smell ravished your senses. Your mind was instantly filled with wonderful fall memories. Jumping in piles of leaves as a kid, drinking hot tea by the window and watching the rain outside trickle down the gutter of your childhood home. Carving pumpkins and dressing up in inappropriate halloween costumes back in your college days. It all came back.

“Do I even want to know what you’re doing?”

The all too familiar voice of Hawks startled you, and as you leapt up out of shock, you hit your head on the counter top. “Ow,” you croaked. Reaching for the fridge next to one of the display cases of teas, you grabbed an ice pack from the freezer and placed it on your head. “Hi.”

“Hello to you too.” There was a cocky grin on his face, unlike what you’ve seen of him before.

“Yui’s out of town.” Why was he here? There was no reason for him to be if his girlfriend was gone. Since he started showing up with Yui, the shop had gotten much more traction. More people had shown up asking when the pro hero was coming next or which seat he sat in. You were sick of it all.

“I know. Doesn’t mean I can’t get a cup of my favorite tea from my favorite barista.” His cheeky smile grew and you beat yourself up for blushing at him compliment.

“What’ll it be then? A small sencha?” You grabbed one of the small to-go cups in preparation.

“Nah let’s switch it up a bit.” He eyed the list of teas up and down, ogling the glass containers with delicate tea bags placed inside. “What box were you sticking your nose in just now?”

You looked down at your feet in shame, cheeks heating up at the memory. You had hoped he would forget about what he just saw or at least wouldn’t mention it out of pity for you. “Pumpkin tea. It’s a new shipment that just came in.”

“Huh,” he pondered. “Is it good?”

Your head shot up. “Seriously? You’ve never had pumpkin tea before?”

“Nah the commission doesn’t really like it when I eat or drink things that aren’t in my diet.” He wove his hand through his blonde locks, pushing them back out of his face. “They’ve been a bit more chill about things since I started dating Nakamura, but I’m still on a pretty strict food regiment.”

The fact that he referred to your best friend by her last name almost made your heart ache. For how much she doted on him he barely seemed to care. “That sucks,” you said. “Do you want to try it?”

He chuckled a bit. “Yeah, let’s give it a whirl.”

You heated the water and poured it out in a hot stream over the tea bag. “Here you go. That’ll be 280¥.”

He slid the coins over to you and held the piping hot to-go cup up to his nose, breathing in the heat and letting it run through him. A soft smile overcame his features and he pressed the cup to his lips, letting the brew hit his tongue. His eyes shot open. “Wow. That’s incredible.”

You couldn’t help but laugh. “Isn’t it really good?”

“It is!” He smiled up at you and you couldn’t help but drink in every detail of it. It was a happy and relaxed smile, one that a child would give after tasting candy for the first time. His eyes grew brighter than the sun as the tea coated his taste buds and pulled him into euphoria.

“Um, excuse me?” a small voice croaked from behind Hawks.

He moved to the side, revealing a small young woman holding hands with a little boy. He was chewing on an action figure and as he pulled the head out of his mouth you could see the bright flames of Endeavor coated in a layer of thick saliva.

“Hey there,” Hawks said. “I’m sorry, do you need to order?”

“No no no!” The rosey cheeks of the young woman deepened as chills of embarrassment filled her. “My son here is a really big fan and, well, we were hoping we could get an autograph.”

You weren’t sure how something like this would play out. You’ve seen the stares and the hushed whispers people give when watching Hawks and Yui in the shop. They almost look too scared to approach him, yet this flustered woman came out of nowhere.

“Yeah of course!” Hawks’ cheeky smile widened. He squatted so he was eye level with the boy. “What’s your name, little guy?”

The kid slid behind his mother’s hip, unsure of what to do or say.

“I see you like Endeavor. You have good taste. He’s one of my favorite heroes too.”

You watched in awe, jaw slack as if you had been slapped in the face, as you watched Hawks laugh and ruffle the kid’s hair. He signed a notebook that the kid’s mother gave him and just as he was about to say goodbye, the kid shot his arms up in Hawks’ direction. You could feel yourself melt on the spot as he picked up the giggling boy, spinning him around. It was so unlike him to do that, but at the same time it was everything you had ever imagined in the stories that Yui would tell.

That was the first time that you realized you were beginning to fall for your best friend’s boyfriend, and after that nothing would be the same.

Hawks came in and out of the shop more and more frequently, only now ordering a small pumpkin tea. As the days went by, the weather grew colder. Chilly winds howled past the store and jingled the chimes out front.

Hawks sauntered in, giving you the grin and nod he was now accustomed to.

“Small pumpkin?” you asked, gripping your scarf and holding it closer around your neck.

“You know it,” he winked.

You hated how every time he walked up to the counter your breath would hitch and your heart would skip a beat. The little wink he gave you definitely didn’t go unnoticed by you. You hid the flushed feeling by burying your face up to the tip of your nose in your scarf.

“So what’s been going on in tea land?” he asked. His fingers danced across the display of cup sizes and tea cakes to the side of the register. They stopped, resting on the side of the jar labeled “TIPS” in a fat black marker over bright colorful construction paper.

“Same old,” you replied. “How’s hero work?”

“Same old.” The two of you had grown comfortable with minimal conversation, almost finding it endearing that the two of you could communicate so much with so few words.

“And Yui?”

Hawks took a moment before answering. You looked up from the tea you were preparing but averted your eyes the second you realized he was staring at you. “I’m thinking of breaking up with her.”

You couldn’t pay attention to what he said next. All you could hear was the ringing in your ears at hearing his words. He was breaking up with her. The recent nights you had spent fantasizing what it would be like to be the one held in his arms at night seemed more in your grasp. The thought scared you a little.

“Hey, are you listening?”

“Huh?” He snapped you out of your thoughts. “Sorry, I think I zoned out a little.” You could feel your face heating up. “Why are you breaking up with her?”

“It’s been about four months,” he said, still toying with the rim of the tip jar.

It bothered you a little how he kept looking at it. Either put in a tip or leave it alone, you wanted to yell at him.

“Four months,” he repeated as if he needed to double check. “That’s when our contract is up, at least.”

You were confused. What was he talking about? “What do you mean?” The skepticism on your face made you look like a puppy being taunted with a bone.

“Heh, you’re cute when you’re confused,” he said. “Our relationship,” he trailed off in thought, trying to find the right words. “It was never real, I guess. Never has been.”

As Hawks spoke about the contract the two of them were under, that her agent and the people working at the commission made them sign, your jaw became more and more unhinged.

“Why did they force you to date in the first place?” The shrill of your voice was hard to tame.

“Her agent knows my people well,” he admitted, referring to the commission. “And they thought this would be good for her publicity. They were right since it got her the big movie she’s working on, but they told us if nothing happens after four months we can end it.”

“I see.” You were still trying to put the pieces together in your mind. “So you never really loved her.”

He couldn’t help but bark out a laugh. “I thought that was pretty obvious,” he admitted. “Look, I know she’s your best friend and all but she’s kinda hard to be around and to get along with at times.”

Deep down you knew he was right, but hearing it come from someone that you knew Yui loved and trusted made your blood boil. What made you feel even worse was the growing hope within you that if Hawks didn’t like someone like her, he could possibly fall for someone like you.

He looked down at his phone to check the time. “Shit, I have training with my intern in ten minutes.” As you slid his drink towards him he fished into his wallet to pay. Taking out an extra bill, he folded it up and put it in the tip jar. “Promise me that when I break things off with her you’ll be there to comfort her?”

The question took you off guard but you nodded anyway.

He smiled a deep and genuine smile that showed so much more emotion than could be understood by the human brain. “Thanks. She’ll need a good friend like you to keep her company.” And with that, he dashed out the door quicker than your eyes could follow.

A week went by and you heard nothing. Hawks didn’t come into the shop to tell you how it went and Yui hadn’t texted you with any of her usual updates for how the movie was going. It wasn’t until you were locking up shop on a Friday night that you received a FaceTime request from Yui. You texted her, assuring her that once you got home you’d call her back. You knew that he did it and she needed to hear from you right now.

Snuggled into the plush fabric of the side-of-the-road sofa in the middle of your living room, you called her back. It only took one ring before she picked up. Her face was blotchy and red and the makeup she wore on set was streaking down her features.

“What happened?” you asked, fully aware of the situation.

She explained in detail everything that had happened, from the warm tea she was holding in her dressing room when he called her to break things off to the way his eyes shimmered with both sadness and relief as he told her what was on his mind.

You tried to reason with her as she blew her snotty nose into tissue after tissue. Phrases like “I’m sure he doesn’t hate you” and “You’re better than him anyway” often came up. Truth be told, you were only paying attention to her side of the story half the time. You slipped in and out, mind wandering over to where Hawks may be and how he must be doing.

“Maybe he had a reason for doing it,” you finally said once she had started to calm down.

“What?”

“Do you think he, I dunno, wasn’t happy?” You shrugged a bit. Your eyes traced the rhombus patterns on your carpet as they avoided Yui’s saddened expression. “Maybe he just wanted to be a free bird is all.”

You looked up from your carpet and came face to face with Yui’s eyes. Once doughy and glossed over with a thick layer of gelatinous tears, they now held a form of anger and hurt that you have never seen from her. “How could you say that?” she asked. “How could you even think of taking his side?”

“I’m not taking a side, I–”

“Yes you are!” Her face was turning red and as much as you wished to defend the man you had caught feelings for you also wanted to be there for Yui. “I don’t know how you could defend him right now, you guys aren’t even friends.”

Hearing her say that hit you deep in the chest. Of course she didn’t know how often Hawks had swung by the shop. Of course he wouldn’t tell her.

“You barely know him, (Y/n), so why are you defending him?”

Why were you defending him? Even with Yui out of the picture, there would still be a slim chance that Hawks actually felt the same way you did. He’s the number two hero, an icon in more ways than one. His fangirls pooled at his feet constantly. Why would you, just a simpleton working at a tea shop, have a chance with him?

“I can’t even talk to you right now.” She was looking down, refusing to make eye contact with you through the small screen.

“Yui, I–”

“No. Just,” she trailed off. “Call me when you know whose side you’re on.”

And with that she hung up and you were left alone. You felt terrible, like the worst friend in existence. You needed something to calm yourself down after the shitshow you had a feeling would be your last conversation with her for a long time.

Your shaky figure got up off the couch and went into the kitchen, putting up the water for a cup of tea. Your hands visibly calmed down once you gripped the hot mug with the pumpkin tea bag swirling inside.

“Hey baby bird.” As you walked into the living room, the person lounging on your sofa startled you. You let out a scream and the hot tea sloshed out of your mug and hit your chest, the thin material of your shirt and the knit sweater you dawned doing little to nothing to stop the burning sensation. “Ah shit.”

Hawks ran up to you and pressed the sleeve of his hero costume against your chest. “I’m sorry. Are you all right?”

The wince you gave him let him know his answer. “What are you doing here?” you managed to croak out once the heat subsided. “And how the hell do you know where I live?”

“Followed you home,” he said like it was nothing.

“So you stalked me.”

“I like to call it stealth training.” The grin on his face resembled a snarky cat and as pissed off and angry you were about him and Yui and everything, you couldn’t help letting out a laugh.

The aura between you two was both friendly and awkward. It seemed as though you both wanted to say something but didn’t know what. As Hawks kept rubbing his sleeve against your damp clothes, his eyes trailed over your face and tried reading into what you were thinking.

“I talked to Yui,” you finally let out. “She’s mad at me.”

“So I heard.” He stopped moving and rested his arm on your shoulder. “You deserve better friends.”

You looked away. “No. She does.”

He let out a laugh. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. You, (Y/n), are kind, compassionate, care about your customers and you actually take time to listen to others. And I know Nakamura would say the same thing.”

Somehow the use of your friends last name didn’t bother you as much as it used to. What did cause you to blush was the sound of  Hawks saying your own name. The sound of it leaving his lips had an imprint on you like no other.

“And those,” he continued, “are some of the many reasons why I started to fall for you.”

You felt a sting in your cheeks as they grew hot from his words. He liked you? Did you hear that correctly? He fell for you? The same way you fell for him? The only thing you could think to do was let out a “huh?”

And Hawks let out a toe curling laugh. “I like you. Have liked you for a while now.”

You didn’t know what to say. You were so overwhelmed with emotion. All you could even think to do was stare at him with your mouth agape.

“Hello?” he waved his hand in your face. “Earth to (Y/n).”

You shook your head and the rest of your body, getting any jitters out. “Um, yeah.”

He barked out another laugh. “So, do you got something to say to me or are you gonna leave me hanging?”

You took a sharp inhale. “I think that I might also like you,” you said. “A bit.”

“Now was that so hard to say?” He took a step forward, raising a hand to cup your face. He wasn’t ready, however, when you stepped away, shielding yourself from him. “What’s wrong?”

“Yui is what’s wrong.”

It dawned on him how difficult and confused you must’ve been feeling, especially if you’ve liked him for as long as he’s had feelings for you. Yui Nakamura is your best friend so of course having feelings for her boyfriend, her ex boyfriend, would make you fall into a pit of despair.

“I’m sorry.” You turned away, walking back to your kitchen.

Even though you clearly wanted to be left alone, Hawks followed you and stayed in the door frame as you put up water for another cup of tea. “You remember when I caught you sniffing the heck out of that box of Pumpkin tea?”

You made a disgruntled noise of agony as you buried your head in your hands.

He chuckled. “That’s when I realized I had feelings for you. When did you know you had them for me?”

You sighed. “Look, Hawks. I really wish that things were different and that Yui wouldn’t be mad at me, but–”

“It’s a simple question, baby bird.” He reveled in the nickname.

Your eyes wandered over to the kettle and the soft heat that rose from the stove. “I think it was when I saw you give that kid and his mom and autograph and, I don’t know, you’re just...really good with kids is all.”

“Is that really all?” His cocky smirk struck you and you couldn’t help but hit him playfully.

“Shut up, asshole.” The kettle went off and you grabbed two mugs, placing pumpkin tea bags in each. “I like you, but I love Yui.”

“So I’m assuming that it would be inappropriate for me to kiss you right now?”

You handed him one of the now full mugs, your face lowered to hide your subtle embarrassment. “You are correct.” The two of you stood there in the middle of your cramped kitchen, neither darring to take a sip. “But,” you started. “We can maybe cuddle on the couch a bit and talk, if that’s something you want.”

His golden eyes brightened. “Yeah, baby bird. I’d like that.”

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How about Deuce, Azul, Idia and the Leech twins' if it's not too much, (smoll)male s/o saying "I love you." for the first time ? Thanks !

Sure, annonie! Since I also have a smol boi I can imagine this scenario in my head and It's! SO! CUTE! o(^▽^)o

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Deuce, Azul, Idia, Jade and Floyd small male s/o saying "I love you" for the first time

Neither of you two have said the phrase "I love you" no matter how much you two really want to say it because you two are too nervous to initiate it. He never had a romantic relationship before and is also as nervous as you so it's not really a surprise if you said it first.

He was always taking good care of you and always showing you physical affection. He enjoys hugging and cuddling your small figure, always nervously complimenting how pretty you are petting your head and everything. Yes, he has the balls to do all this but apparently not brave enough to say "I love you". Yes, very tragic.

So when you first said those magic three words, he was startled. Not sure what he really felt at the time but all we know is that he's shocked. When those words came out of your mouth, he made a dramatic gasp and stood like a statue, staring at you with his eyes all bugged out.

Despite him being probably ticklish, poking him even at his most sensitive areas won't even make him flinch, this is the most life changing moment for him. (almost correct, he's just being dramatic at the moment) He's aware that you love him but you saying it is still a shocking thing, this feels just like the time you confessed that you also have feelings for him. It takes a few minutes to go back to reality and when he does, his face is as red as Riddle's hair and fuming face combined.

He would feel ashamed about not being able to say it first. He would spit out thousands of apologies for not saying it first or not being not good enough because he didn't say it first. So he decided to spill all his feelings and what little things he loves about you in such a quick pace to the point he sounds incoherent. He'll get weird stares from other students and will get teased by both Ace and Grim later if they coincidentally walked pass you two.

Azul has said his love for you multiple times but it's not often as the others as he either doesn't have that much time to spend with you because of work or because he despises saying those words in public. Of course, he still wants to say his love for you but he has a reputation to hold and being overly affectionate is not something a gentleman nor a businessman would do! No matter how much he would love to hug your smaller figure from behind, it's just unprofessional.

He really doesn't give one if you haven't said you love him back but if this lasts until months, then he's getting anxious and antsy. He knows you love him back but he would appreciate it a bit more if you said it as well. He really craves to hear those three words from his s/o when dating. Plus, he has said it so much to you, why haven't you said it to him? He has these thoughts, thinking he was ready to hear it any moment but when he did hear it from you, he was caught off guard.

When you do say it, he stopped whatever he was doing. Yes, it was very unprofessional for a businessman to get so surprised over something so simple as that but give him a break. He might not be human but he still has the feelings of one. Plus, this is the first time he heard it from you. He managed to cover up his slightly shocked expression by clearing his throat and saying he loves you back, acting like nothing happened and tried brushing it off.

When he's in his workroom with both of the Leech twins there, he is having a hard time. Both having a hard time to focus and a hard time to keep his cool from his cheeks reddening in front of the devilish pair. He really cannot get that thought about you declaring your love for him, looking really cute and extra points for your shorter height making it seem more innocent and cuter. He kept adjusting his glasses and pinching the bridge of his nose. The two do realise that something's going on inside the mind of the octopus boy and decided to pester him about it later.

In his bedroom, a place where nobody is sure to see him doing whatever in there because he had forced the good habit of knocking and asking permission before entering to his dorm members, he's more of a mess since there's nothing restricting him from showing his true emotions. He's shifting all over the bed to the point of no return, all blushed up and still trying to cover it despite that nobody's there. It's always fresh in his mind and just prays for it to go away as fast as possible. It will, spoiler alert but it'll take a few couple of weeks or even months for the memory to fade away for now.

He has said his "I love you" to you before but it's not really that surprising or anything to be that shocked as he only declared it in text form. There's no way he's going to confess it verbally on irl because that's such a "normie thing to do"! And also because he's just anxious to say it in general. Yeah, it's just three words but they say so much and it's easier said than..actually saying it, especially in front of the person you want to say it to. Except he can't even say it in voice chat either.

It's like saying it in front of a cute anime girl character that every fan probably adores. You even have the cute height of an adorable move shoujo manga deuteragonist, the protagonist's love interest! cute, short and just the character's fan favourite, you know? It will either always take some time or it takes the end of the manga for the protagonist to confess. It's like the same thing except they're already together!

It was a normal day of voice chatting after a nice match of an online fighting game. He kept praising your amazing skills and tricks for playing for the first time and hoping that you two can play again. Then from that, he kept wanting to read these mangas he thought was interesting with you. He was very excited and filled with energy, how can't you not think that's straight up adorable and not express how you love that part of him?

So when you did, he went immediately silent. There's not even a noise of a ceiling fan. Just dead, utter silence. You kept calling out for his name no matter how many times he hasn't answered. Out of nowhere, he cut the call, leaving you alone. In just a few minutes later, he went offline. You were worried, what the hell just happened? You knew that kneading freakout about your sudden words but you for some reason didn't expect it to affect him that much. You might have to contemplate whether you should visit him to check if he's ok or not.

He's not ok, at all but not like in a bad way. He's happy but he's panicking. First, he's such a wimp for not saying the words first to the point you have to declare it first. Even if saying 'I love you' is such a normie thing, he's aware it's something important to say if you're in a goddamn relationship. Second, what was he supposed to say after that? 'I love you too'!? How? As much as he wants to spit it out, he couldn't. Though, one day. Maybe he could learn to say it back? Through the teachings of a shoujo mangas of course!

Jade is wonderful at saying his love for you verbally. His words can go from simple "I love yous" to a list of 150 reasons why he loves you in alphabetical order. Though he won't say it as much in public, his love language from both physical and verbal are endless! If you're a cheesy, affectionate man then he would be the perfect man for you! (though, he's always perfect for everyone in general)

There's no way for him to describe his love for you, especially his love for your small frame. It's obvious that he's a giant when compared next to you and he has pride for that. You unintentionally give him power and dominance just by staring at you. Just by holding you, he's amorous. He's always holding you close on his bed, whispering sweet nothings and the three words that never rolled out of your tongue until now.

It was another casual cuddling session after the long day of work of Jade. He was doing the normal thing, complementing your tiny body and saying his 'I love yous' and that. You were hesitant but after all this time of him praising you and after a long day of work, shouldn't he receive his reward and the thing that he should hear after months of being together? When you say the magic words, his eyes widen for a few seconds only for his face turns into his iconic toothy grin. He kept teasing you to repeat them as he pretended that he couldn't hear you.

He expects you to say these words more often now that you finally said it. For the entire time, he secretly waits for you to say those words because as much of a gentleman he is, he anticipated that you're supposed to say those words back not just because you're boyfriends but because he deserves it after all those comments he tossed to you. (don't worry, he means his words, it's just that my guy wants affection too) and when he finally gets it, he's very and finally satisfied, like he finished his final mission or something.

He might not show it since he's a master of hiding his emotions but he's genuinely joyful about it. He finally got one of his dreams about or with you finished and he was way more satisfied at the result. You're small innocent self finally saying I love you back is kinda like the dream for him for some reason.. Please say your love for him more without him begging because the last thing he wants to say to you is saying "say you love me"

Knowing Floyd, he doesn't care about what anyone has to say about his affection towards you. No matter where you are, if he's in a good mood then he has no resistance to just fling and run himself into your comfy arms. There's a reason as to why he chose you as your boyfriend after all.

He has a thing for people smaller than him and it's shown by bullying Riddle till he's about to blow up like a volcano (or already blown up, depends on how he feels or what he said) and you being his boyfriend won't make you immune to his teasing. If anything, he will bully you about your height even more but he knows where to cross the line unlike with other students. He's very touchy so expect him to touch your small torso every time he has the chance.

He doesn't even realise that you haven't said your love for him if your love language leans more to physical. He wouldn't mind if you don't say it if you're also returning his hugs and super invested in cuddling sessions. Kiss him, hug him or do anything that's physical and he would be just as happy but if you don't do any of that, then he might say something about it or puff his cheeks out, pouting.

You were on his lap, cuddling like always, ignoring the judgemental stares you two are getting. Brave enough for them to try staring down at your giant monster of a boyfriend. He pours everything interesting that has happened to him or he has witnessed, aka the normal things he does everyday (surprising of how consistent he was) and it was adorable especially with his cooing voice when he mentions something he really thinks is cool. You accidentally said that is what you love about him and he stopped and looked at you for a second.

"Oh, Is that so?" oh, get prepared to be teased for that by the way. He's more in love with more than ever when you said that, especially the way you said it confidently, knowing that well it's unintentional. He has no shame to ask you to say it more or he'll squeeze you. Unsure if that's just a joking statement or not. I mean, he's technically squeezing the life out of you, screaming "I love you" at a ridiculously fast pace so he's probably not. Unfortunately or fortunately for you, he will ask you where's his daily "I love you" if you haven't said it yet before you separate your ways to your dorm for the next day to rise.

Can you tell I panicked when writing Floyd's part? Don't know why I panicked in the first place though, lol~

~𝕸𝖎𝖗𝖎

[kketilin]

Three Pieces — Chapter 1

Three different hearts, all missing a piece.

This is the story of how three different people fumble through love, all the while they try to fix and connect the pieces of their hearts.

[Chapter 1 of 5]

Collab Together with @pikashadow​! Cheating and Heavy angst warning !!

Ao3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/32867374/chapters/81562753

Pairing(s): Miyuki Kazuya x Sawamura Eijun | Narumiya Mei x Sawamura Eijun

Tags: Angst / Angst and Hurt/Comfort / Unhealthy relationships / Cheating / Eventual Happy Ending / Introspection / Multiple Endings

SAWAMURA EIJUN

Eijun was loved. 

 Eijun grew up in a loving family, one that cherished him like he was the most precious gem in existence

 he was surrounded by supportive friends that believed in him and helped push him to achieve greater heights

 he was sociable and was often told that he was as bright as the sun, people loved him 

 Never had he felt lonely  yet... 

 Eijun felt empty.  

 He didn't really understand the feeling either

 It wasn't the empty like he didn't receive enough attention from the ones he loved

 He felt a void in his heart that remained wide open no matter how much he was showered with affection and care 

 But it was the empty that felt like something was just missing.

 A part of him felt incomplete, like it needs something more

 He eventually discovered baseball after playing Pawapuro when he was hanging out at Nobu's place.

 The game was very... complex, but he felt an odd feeling of satisfaction when he watched his character pitch from the mound

 (He can't help but be curious, would pitching be that satisfying in real life?)

 It was on his 10th birthday when his family had gifted him with a pitcher's mitt, starting his dream of making it to Koshien and become the best pitcher there is

 Every single pitch he threw was just so satisfying and he felt felt a feeling of contentment after every single ball

 The joy of standing on the mound gave him a feeling of fullness he never felt before

 It was after the first strike he threw towards Nobu's mitt that he knew

 He knew he fell in love with baseball

 But... 

 He failed to realize, rather, he chose to ignore it...

 ..The still empty void in his heart remaining in his heart

 A gap that not even baseball could fulfill

---

“Ne, Harucchi” Eijun asked as he took a sip from his bottle, wiping the sweat off his face during the process “What is love?” 

 “L-Love?! Why are you suddenly asking something like that?” The petite teen stuttered in embarrassment, his entire face tinted pink that matched his hair. 

 Eijun only gave a smile in response before turning back to face the field, his gaze immediately falling on a certain bespectacled catcher crouched behind the home plate wearing his trademark wide annoying grin  

 “Because I don’t know if this is love” he whispered underneath his breath 

 He’d seen it in his Shoujo mangas before

 How a person’s significant other came into their life and completed the empty pieces in their hearts

 How the protagonist's heart always goes doki doki whenever the other's person is around

 How they felt as if their dull life became full of colors the moment their partner came 

 They called it love. 

 It was different from the love he felt for baseball

 (Even he won't kiss a baseball to show affection, that's just gross)

 And while he found it cheesy at first, he couldn't help but wonder

  Was this love he was feeling?

 He was slightly stupid (just slightly) but even he knew it wasn't normal

 Ever since the day Miyuki Kazuya told him that the best pitches are works of art produced by a battery working as one

 Ever since the day he called him ‘partner’ 

 He felt complete. 

 His heart would always start beating like crazy whenever the catcher slung his arm around his neck

 He felt like there were butterflies in his stomach every time the catcher would praise him and his pitches

 He would feel his face reddening as blood rush up to it whenever the catcher teased him with that grin he found so oddly endearing 

 And while he thought (or he was trying to convince himself) that it was solely due to his admiration and respect for the bespectacled catcher, Eijun knew it was something more than that 

 Eijun loved baseball more than anything else, every single ball he pitched slowly filled up the emptiness in him

 It's no exaggeration to say his world revolved around baseball and he left no room for anything else 

 Yet Miyuki Kazuya came and filled the empty gap he thought he had closed

 Miyuki Kazuya completed baseball for him. 

 Was this love?  

  Was he in love with Miyuki Kazuya?  

---

It was the night after he had just been promoted to the first string and most players have already retreated to their beds or practicing inside, leaving him and Miyuki alone in the bullpen 

 He windup and threw his pitch, the ball landing in Miyuki’s mitt with a satisfying smack.

 The older teen stood up and threw the ball back, calling out “that was a nice ball! Last one then we’re done” with a charming boyish grin that made his heart skip a beat 

 He can't help but think it should be illegal to be that handsome

 Eijun watched him crouch back down and he felt his face burning up

 (Thank god it was dark or else Miyuki Kazuya would make fun of his red face right now)

 “Miyuki-senpai” his lips opened without thinking and the words he’d been keeping hidden deep inside slipped off his lips “I think I love you—” 

 Ah crap— he didn't mean to—

 “Alright” 

 Eijun blinked, caught off guard.

 Did he just... accept his confession?

 While he didn’t mean to confess especially when he should be focusing on training even more now that he made it the first string, he was expecting to be turned down or worse, ignored. 

 Never did he expect his confession to be accepted,

 Or for his feelings to even be mutual for that matter

 (Miyuki Kazuya never really showed any signs of interest towards him and he thought the catcher only saw him as a obnoxiously loud kouhai so can you really blame him for being surprised?)

 “H-huh?” 

 “Let’s go out.” 

 Everything that happened afterwards left Eijun in a daze

 Without a moment's notice the older teen was already standing in front of him and he audibly gulped when catcher had closed the distance between the two of them, invading his personal space

 He felt a hand lift his chin and his breath hitched the moment he realized the catcher's lips was only a hair's breadth away 

 (His mind immediately registered how it looked so soft and so kissable)

 Miyuki Kazuya leaned in forward and it didn't take long before he felt warm, soft lips against his own

 Eijun gave up his first kiss that night

  Eijun was happy.

 Really happy.

 He still couldn't believe Miyuki Kazuya agreed to go out with him.

 And honestly?

 He felt like pinching himself or slapping his cheeks, hoping this wasn't a dream.

 (He actually did pinch himself one time during a game, causing his teammates to give him weird looks. But he somehow managed to laugh it off, giving them a bright smile and reassuring them he was alright. Thankfully, they didn't seem to think much of it, calling him an idiot before watching the game again.)

 Even right now...

 He and Miyuki Kazuya (or Miyuki-senpai as he had started calling him (much to his amusement)) sat on top of his bed, talking to each other.

 They weren't doing anything but talking, but he felt so happy.

  So complete.

 He suddenly felt the urge to tell him how happy he was.

 He looked at him, feeling his heart race as he (once again) realized how good-looking he was. And that he was his boyfriend. "Miyuki-senpa—"

 "Kazuya."

 He blinked a few times. "Eh?"

 Why did Miyuki-senpai just say his given name?

 He wasn't that stupid.

 He knew his boyfriend's given name.

 "Call me Kazuya, Eijun." Miyuki-senpai gave him an unreadable look.

 It certainly wasn't the first time, but he couldn't help but wonder what Miyuki-senpai was thinking. It was difficult to tell a lot of the time, especially with his poker face.

 But Miyuki-senpai was his boyfriend.

 And he wanted him to call him by his given name.

 Was it possible to feel happy, excited, and nervous at the same time?

 (Even he didn't know why he felt nervous. It could be because his boyfriend was his senpai. Or maybe it was because he knew (or at least hoped) their relationship will change once he started calling him by his given name.)

 For some reason, his hands felt sweaty. "A-alright K-kazuya-senpai."

 "Pfft. You always say my full name, but you're having trouble saying my given name? Drop the senpai." Kazuya-senpai... Kazuya snickered, giving him an amused grin.

 He wasn't sure whether to feel irritated or relieved. "R-right."

 "Say it, Ei~jun~" Kazuya reached out, pulling him close, causing him to gasp once he realized only a few centimeters separated their lips. He cupped his chin, fingers rubbing his chin, causing him to almost shiver at feeling those fingers so close to his lips.

 Being this close to him was so distracting.

 All he wanted was to lean in and kiss him.

 "K-Kazuya..." He somehow managed not to look at those tempting lips, meeting Kazuya's eyes instead.

 (Would Kazuya even let him if he gave in to the temptation?)

 Kazuya gave him a smug grin. "Louder~ I can't hear you."

 It was obvious Kazuya was enjoying this.

 ... If he were honest, though, a part of him was enjoying it, too.

 (Not the teasing part. But he was definitely enjoying getting to call him by his given name.)

 And he didn't know why.

 Maybe it was because of the teasing.

 Or maybe it was because Kazuya wanted him to say his given name louder.

 But he found himself saying his name much louder than he had intended to. "KAZUYA!"

  "Eijun-kun! it's time for lunch!" Haruichi walked in to their classroom with Furuya and Toujo in tow.

 Eijun put his hands together and bowed down apologetically "Harucchi! Gomen! I'm eating with Kazuya today!"

As much as he wanted to eat lunch with his best friend, he had already promised to eat with Kazuya

 And of course his boyfriend took priority.

 He liked Harucchi, the pink haired batter had always supported him since the beginning,

 But Harucchi can't give him the same kind of joy Kazuya can,

 He can't make him feel so complete,

  So full,

 It was something only his boyfriend could do.

 "Kazuya? You mean Miyuki-senpai?"

 "Since when were you on a first-name basis with Miyuki-senpai, Bakamura?"

 Oh. right.

 They haven't told anyone about their relationship yet,

 Both of them have agreed on keeping quiet for now,

 Kazuya was the starting catcher for the team after all.

 (It was really hard to hold back from yelling to the team during breakfast the day after his confession that they were dating though, he had to pinch his arms in order to not say anything causing him to receive concerned looks from Haruichi and Furuya but he just laughed it off saying he was just still sleepy)

 "I-I uhhh..." he managed to stutter out.

 Eijun wasn't exactly the best with keeping secrets,

 (It's really a surprised no one still found out they were dating after all this time)

 And he didn't really like to keep them.

 Especially from Harucchi of all people.

 But he can't betray Kazuya's trust on him..

 The thought of Kazuya being upset at him made his heart clench.

  He loves Kazuya far too much and he doesn't think he'll be able to handle it.

 Should he just lie instead?

  Lie to Harucchi and his friends?

 That doesn't seem to sit right with Eijun either.

 "Eijun!" a familiar voice called out, interrupting Eijun's thoughts

 A voice that made his chest feel warm,

 He turned to see Kazuya waiting for him out in the hall.

 His heart immediately skips a beat.

 "Ah! Hold on!" Eijun called back, a felt his lips curl into a soft smile reserved only for his boyfriend.

 He turned back to his friends and put his hands together again, repeating his actions from earlier "Sorry guys, I have to go"

  Eijun was so happy.

 Sure, he didn't like having to hide his relationship with Kazuya from his teammates, especially his friends like Harucchi.

 (And he understood why they had to hide it, of course.)

 But other than that, he felt so happy with how his relationship with Kazuya was going.

 "What are you thinking about?"

 Eijun blinked a few times, Kazuya's voice bringing him out of his thoughts, causing him to look over at him.

 To his surprise, Kazuya was... a lot closer than he had been before, causing him to flush.

 They weren't doing anything besides cuddling in his bed, but with the covers over them and how close they were...

 Someone could easily get the wrong idea (or the right idea).

 Remembering belatedly that Kazuya had asked him something, he furrowed his eyebrows. "Sorry. I wasn't listening. What were you saying?"

 "Oh, really?" Kazuya drawled, causing him to blink at the almost... dark look in his eyes.

 (It was probably just his imagination, right?)

 Before he could even think of responding to that, though, Kazuya moved on top of him, hovering above him, causing him to gasp despite himself.

 "And what were you thinking about when I'm here with you?" Kazuya narrowed his eyes.

 Eijun almost gulped.

 Somehow, he had made him... angry?

 Eijun felt tempted to touch Kazuya, but he didn't know if he would let him, especially if Kazuya was angry with him. "I... I was thinking about you, Kazuya."

 Kazuya blinked a few times, his familiar (but also irritatingly good-looking) smirk returning to his face, almost causing him to breathe a sigh of relief. "Oh? And what about me?"

 "I was..." Eijun took a deep breath before reaching out and touching Kazuya's cheek with one hand. "I was thinking about how happy I am with you. You make me so happy, Kazuya."

 To his relief (and delight), Kazuya allowed his touch. He even seemed to... enjoy it, briefly touching his hand and leaning into it. "You're so sappy," he teased.

 Eijun flushed, shooting him a dirty look when he snickered. "Shut up. It's the truth."

 Kazuya snickered one more time before looking at him with almost... soft eyes, taking his breath away. "I'm happy to hear that. Really, Eijun."

 Eijun wasn't imagining things, right?

 Was that almost... soft look just for him?

 He tried to keep his attention on Kazuya's eyes, not wanting to look away from those almost soft eyes.

 (Really, he did.)

 But Kazuya being this close to him was so distracting.

 His eyes had a mind of their own, looking at Kazuya's lips.

 He cleared his throat, looking up at Kazuya's eyes again. But from the knowing smirk on his face, he knew Kazuya had noticed his reaction. "Kazuya, I..."

 "I know."

 He blinked a few times. "Eh?"

 "I know." Kazuya gave him a grin before leaning in and kissing him, causing his eyes to widen.

 Did Kazuya know him that well?

 Deciding to think about it later, Eijun wrapped his arms around him, responding eagerly to the kiss.

 Kazuya grinned into the kiss, obviously finding his reaction funny, almost causing him to huff.

 But any thoughts of huffing or Kazuya finding his reaction funny disappeared at Kazuya licking his lower lip, causing him to let out a surprised sound despite himself.

 When Kazuya did it again, he parted his lips, allowing his tongue inside his mouth.

 Kazuya's tongue darted forward into his mouth, exploring it for a couple of moments before touching his tongue, causing him to moan.

 Kazuya obviously liked his reaction, as he touched his tongue again, tightening his grip around him when he moaned louder.

 Someone could walk in at any moment and find them kissing.

 But Eijun didn't care.

 He didn't want Kazuya to stop kissing him.

 All he could concentrate on were his soft lips and the warm body above his own.

 And of course, the feeling of being so complete.

 He enjoyed it so much that when Kazuya pulled away a few moments later, he pulled him back in, almost grinning at Kazuya's surprised sound as their lips met again.

 He tightened his grip around him, tongue darting out to lick his lower lip.

 Much to his disappointment, Kazuya didn't let him in, causing him to whine.

 Eijun whined again, licking his lower lip again, belatedly registering a familiar sound.

 Not that the sound was as important as kissing Kazuya.

 And he probably would've ignored it and continued kissing him.

 If it weren't for a familiar voice.

 "What the hell?"

 They froze, Kazuya quickly pulling away and looking in the direction where the voice came from.

 To Eijun's horror, Kuramochi-senpai stood next to his bed, his eyes narrowed.

 "K-Kuramochi-senpai, this is..."

 Kazuya grinned at Kuramochi-senpai, not looking worried. Or maybe his poker face was hiding it? "Kuramochi, I didn't hear you come in. I was too busy giving Eijun here attention." He leaned in, kissing Eijun's cheek while keeping his eyes on Kuramochi, causing Eijun's cheeks to flush. "He missed me a lot today."

 Kuramochi-senpai clicked his tongue, looking irritated. "Seriously, Miyuki? You were kissing him while the door was unlocked? What if someone else had come in?"

 "But that's what makes it fun." Kazuya's grin widened. He laughed as Kuramochi-senpai glowered at him. "You're right, of course. We'll do better next time." He looked at Eijun, a teasing grin on his face. "Won't we, Eijun?"

 Eijun's cheeks turned pinker. "N-Next time?"

 Was Kazuya not worried at all about Kuramochi-senpai finding out about them?

 Kuramochi-senpai huffed, still glowering at Kazuya. "There won't be a next time if I have any say about it."

 Kazuya laughed again, kissing Eijun's cheek one more time before moving off him and out of bed. "So scary. I didn't know you cared this much," he teased.

 "Shut up!"

 Kazuya shook his head, looking amused before looking at Eijun. "Well, since Kuramochi's back, I'll get going. Good night." He winked at Eijun and at Kuramochi-senpai, causing Kuramochi-senpai to click his tongue again.

 And then, Kazuya left, closing the door behind him with one last wink.

 Eijun sat up on his bed, looking nervously at Kuramochi-senpai.

 What was he supposed to do now?

 "Are you sure about this?"

 Eijun blinked a few times. "Eh?"

 To his surprise, Kuramochi-senpai... didn't look angry with him.

 "Are you sure about this relationship with Miyuki, Sawamura?" Kuramochi-senpai gave him a serious look.

 He furrowed his eyebrows. "Do you mean because he's the main catcher?"

 Kuramochi-senpai rolled his eyes. "That's not what I mean. I just..." He huffed. "You know as well as I do what kind of person Miyuki can be. I just want to make sure you've thought this through."

 ... Not only was Kuramochi-senpai not angry with him, but he... was also looking out for him?

 Was something wrong with him?

 But even if something wasn't wrong with him, he...

 Eijun felt warmth in his chest at the thought of Kuramochi-senpai looking out for him. "I'm sure, Kuramochi-senpai." He gave him a bright smile. "I love Kazuya, and I'm willing to do anything for him."

 Kuramochi-senpai stared at him, as if he were trying to see how serious he was.

 He hoped Kuramochi-senpai could tell he was serious about this.

 Serious about Kazuya.

 "I see. Then that's alright."

 Eijun blinked a few times before beaming. "Eh? It is? You're... alright with us being together?"

 "I wouldn't say I'm entirely pleased you two are together." Kuramochi-senpai huffed before sighing. "But you seem serious about this." He clicked his tongue. "About him."

 Eijun nodded, feeling relieved. "I am! Thank you very much, Kuramochi-senpai!"

 "But..." Kuramochi-senpai glowered at him, causing him to almost gulp. "Don't do anything on my bed. Or you and Miyuki will regret it."

 He nodded a few times. "We won't, senpai, I promise!"

 Kuramochi-senpai huffed again before turning around and walking to his desk, causing him to breathe a sigh of relief.

 Kuramochi-senpai was so scary sometimes.

 But he felt relieved Kuramochi-senpai realized how serious he was about Kazuya and their relationship.

 (Did that mean Kuramochi-senpai wouldn't tell anyone about their relationship?)

 He furrowed his eyebrows.

 What did Kuramochi-senpai mean when he wanted to know if he had thought this relationship with Kazuya through?

 Well, he supposed Kuramochi-senpai had a point, especially if he remembered how love could affect people in his shoujo manga.

 But he would be alright.

 He loved Kazuya.

 And he was willing to do anything for him.

 As long as it meant they were still together.

  He's been dating Kazuya for several weeks now and every moment of it was pure bliss

 He was in euphoria and was savoring the feeling of completeness

 The fullness Kazuya makes him feel

 But it somehow felt wrong. 

 He didn't know when it started to feel this way

 Eijun gave and gave everything and anything to Kazuya but Kazuya never gave anything in return

 No.. Kazuya did give back, but it always felt like it wasn't for him

 It felt like Kazuya's heart belonged to someone else

 Even when he was settled on his bed with his boyfriend’s arms wrapped around his waist as he gets peppered with light kisses, it just felt so wrong

 So different 

 It felt like it was meant for someone else

 Someone who wasn’t him. 

 Of course, he just shrugged it off

 After all, he was Kazuya's boyfriend

 He was the one who Kazuya was dating

 Kazuya did accept his confession that night

 (It felt like a dream and even now Eijun still can't believe his accidental confession was accepted)

 Thinking about that night made Eijun's blood rush to his face

 “Kazuya,” Eijun turned his face to look at the catcher 

 “Hm?”  

 “I love you” 

 “...Yeah, thanks” Was all the catcher replied before returning his lips to his neck

 Come to think of it... Kazuya has never told him he likes him in return, has he?

 Even when he confessed, Kazuya never said he liked him back did he?

 Does Kazuya really feel the same way?

 Of course he does,

 They were dating after all.

 Kazuya does love him

 His boyfriend just needs... time before he could be honest

 Kazuya was a very private person after all

 He's just being ridiculously insecure  

  ...Right?

---

From: Kazuya💕✨

Subject: I can't make it

Sorry Eijun, something came up again and I can't make it. I'll make it up to you next time

 Eijun reread the message displayed on his phone screen again and sighed for the nth time in a row.  

 Kazuya couldn't make it to their date, again.

 It was already the third time he had seen the exact same mail from his boyfriend,

 And it's always "something came up" so he can't make it.

 Which was weird, really weird, considering how much of a planner Kazuya is.

 What could possibly happen for him to lay off his plans?

   Their plans? 

  Not that he was doubting Kazuya, of course. 

  Maybe a team member really just needed his help, or starting catcher duties, 

  Or it might even be family matters. 

  But he'd been really looking forward to this date with Kazuya. 

  While they do see each other on a daily basis in practice, lately Eijun could feel like there was... something in between them,

  Something he can't quite put a finger on.

  (Their relationship hasn't changed at all though, Eijun knew he was just probably being uselessly paranoid) 

  So, he had hoped this date would clear whatever was between them, or, at least, rid of his unfounded insecurities.

  But it looks like that wasn't possible now.

  Unconsciously, he let out another sigh. 

  "Seriously, can you stop sighing already?" A voice he barely registered familiar grumbled from his side. 

  Eijun turned his head and his eyes immediately widened at seeing familiar platinum blonde hair and icy blue eyes staring right back at him.  

  "N-NARUMYA MEI!" He pointed a finger at the said ace pitcher as his jaw dropped, stuttering in surprised. 

  "You're that brat from Seidou, and it's Narumiya-senpai to you." He paused for a moment and looked at Eijun as if he were... studying him?  

 Narumiya was studying him? Why? 

  "So? What are you doing here?" The blonde gave him an awfully familiar unreadable look "Waiting for a date?" 

  "No, I'm just about to lea— why the hell do you even care?!?" 

  Seriously, what was with this guy? Prying into someone else's business like that...

 And technically he was about to leave, seeing his date couldn't make it

  He turned away, about to leave when Narumiya opened his lips again, about to speak

  "Hmm” He hummed and placed a finger on his chin as if trying to assess the situation “Kazuya bailed on your date, didn’t he?" 

  Eijun whipped his head towards the blonde and immediately tried to defend his boyfriend by reflex "Something just came up! He didn't bail on anything!" 

  How did Narumiya even know it was Kazuya he was waiting for? 

  Even his own teammates (save for Kuramochi-senpai) and friends didn't even know 

  So how did an outsider of all people know— 

  "So It is Kazuya you were waiting for!"  

 For a split second he thought saw Narumiya scowl at him before it was quickly replaced by a triumphant smirk 

 Was he seeing things...? 

 He scanned the blonde’s face again, seeing no signs of a scowl on the latter’s face 

 He was sure he saw Narumiya scowl 

 Why would he though? 

 (He was sure he didn’t say anything rude or unusual (not that he was planning to though, he’s just aware he has a history of doing so) to receive such a thing) 

 Eijun decided to shrug it off, thinking it was just his eyes playing tricks on him and returned his attention back to what Narumiya was saying 

 “You guys are dating, aren’t you?” 

 “N-No! I mean—” He immediately tried to defend again 

 Wait— Narumiya didn't know?

 But he just said—

  Oh.

 The blonde had tricked him into admitting it.

 He can’t believe he fell for that and gave it away 

 Mentally scolding himself, he tried to come up with some sort of excuse but the blonde waved a finger, eyes glinting mischievously “No use making excuses, You're a terrible liar.”  

 Eijun reluctantly nodded with a sigh to which Narumiya grinned triumphantly, eyeing him once again

 “You’re free now though, right?”  

 “Huh? Well yeah I guess... wait why are you even—” 

 Eijun raised a brow at the question 

 Why was he asking? 

 It’s none of his business anyways whether or not he was free 

 “Let’s go on a date then! ♡” the blonde grinned 

 He looked at Narumiya in disbelief “Excuse me?” 

 Was he... serious? 

 A date? 

 With him, an enemy?

 Even after he just found out he was dating Kazuya? 

 What was this guy thinking? 

 “I said, let’s go on a date right now” Narumiya repeated, pronouncing each syllable slowly “If you still didn't understand that then there must be something wrong with your ears” 

 No, he heard that, alright.

 (His ears are perfectly fine, thank you very much.)

 But a date?

 He remained staring at the blonde agape

 He suddenly felt his arm getting tugged and looked down to see Narumiya's arm curled around his, trying to pull him  

 “Well, you’re paying for your own food though!” 

 “Haah?! I didn’t even say yes—” 

 “Kidding! C’mon I’ll pay for your food!” 

 The blonde suddenly pulled him with so much force that Eijun nearly lost balance and fall but Narumiya proceeded to tug on his arm and pull him wherever

 “Hold on!” 

 Despite his protests the blonde didn’t listen but weirdly enough, he found himself letting Narumiya drag him around 

 Well, a single ‘date’ wouldn’t hurt, would it? 

 There's nothing between them anyways,

 Just a friendly date

---

Eijun didn't know how he got into these situations.

 ... Okay, so he knew a little bit.

 As he wouldn't be out here in the first place if Kazuya didn't promise to go out on a date with him.

 But Kazuya texted him, letting him know he couldn't make it.

 And that something came up.

 (That had been happening a lot lately.)

 But hanging out with Narumiya Mei (of all people) just because Kazuya couldn't make it?

 Narumiya was the enemy.

 Was he that starved for attention?

 (He didn't think he was, but he was hanging out with him. And if he were honest, the last time they had a... 'date', it wasn't that unpleasant.)

 They were at the same café Narumiya had taken him to for their last 'date'.

 It seemed Narumiya was a regular here.

 Narumiya had joked it was a perfect spot for dates, and he had even winked at him.

 Which he didn't understand.

 Was Narumiya saying he should take Kazuya here?

 Or was he saying something else?

 (And why did he wink at him? Was something wrong with him?)

 "What do you like about Kazuya, Ei-chan?"

 Eijun almost choked on his drink, although he wasn't sure if it was because of the question about Kazuya or the nickname. "Eh?"

 Narumiya gave him an amused look. "What do you like about Kazuya?"

 "No... I heard that." Eijun furrowed his eyebrows, causing Narumiya to raise an eyebrow. "Why are you calling me 'Ei-chan'?"

 Narumiya grinned cheekily at him. "It's a cute nickname, isn't it?"

 "That's not the point! We're not that close!"

 Narumiya sipped his drink. "It's just a nickname." He smirked. "Unless you'd rather me call you 'Eijun'? Does Kazuya do that?"

 Eijun huffed. "Fine, whatever! You can keep calling me 'Ei-chan'! It's a nickname I'm used to anyway!"

 "I'm happy to hear that, Ei-chan. It's really the perfect nickname for a cute guy like you." Narumiya winked at him.

 (Again with the winking. Seriously, was something wrong with him?)

 Eijun resisted the urge to huff again. "Why are you asking me about my relationship with Kazuya?"

 Narumiya gave him an unreadable look, causing him to stare as it resembled the one Kazuya gave him sometimes. "I'm just curious." He shrugged, sipping his drink again. "You must really like him to put up with his treatment of you. That or you're just stupid."

 "What did you say? Don't call me stupid!"

 Narumiya gave him a scrutinizing look. "Do you really like Kazuya that much? He didn't even show up to you guys' date."

 He wasn't sure why, but he almost gulped at the way Narumiya looked at him, as if Narumiya was trying to figure out all his secrets. "I... I told you! Something came up! Who are you to judge my relationship—"

 "I'm not judging you or your relationship with Kazuya." Narumiya rolled his eyes at his huff. "And I am older than you. You should treat me with more respect."

 Narumiya was so annoying sometimes.

 And yet, sometimes, he reminded him of Kazuya.

 Eijun didn't know what it was exactly.

 But both enjoyed teasing him.

 And both had amazing poker faces at times.

 And while Kazuya had stopped annoying him about showing him respect ever since they started dating (at least in private), the way Narumiya tried to get him to show him respect was just like what Kazuya used to do.

 Eijun scowled, tempted to cross his arms in front of his chest. "My relationship with Kazuya has nothing to do with you! I'm happy with him!"

 "You are, huh?" Narumiya's eyebrows furrowed. "Why do you stay with him when you could be with someone who will treat you better?" He winked again, gesturing to himself.

 Why did Narumiya gesture toward himself?

 It wasn't as if he were ignoring him.

 Narumiya didn't need to tell him to look at him while they were talking.

 This guy was so weird sometimes.

 Eijun's scowl remained on his face. "You wouldn't understand."

 "Oh, really?" Narumiya drawled, leaning in closer and raising an eyebrow, causing him to stare as he remembered multiple times when Kazuya had done the same exact thing. "Try me."

 Eijun tried to speak.

 (Really, he did.)

 But for some reason, he found it difficult to speak with those dark blue eyes watching him, an almost dangerous gleam in them.

 He cleared his throat, tempted to look away. "I..." He looked down at his cup, his eyes softening, missing the way those dark blue eyes seemed to darken even more. "I love him." He looked up at him, smiling softly. "Kazuya may have let me down a lot, but I know something important must have come up."

 "And you're going to forgive him? Just like that?" Narumiya scoffed.

 He furrowed his eyebrows. "Kazuya can't help it if something important came up. He's busy."

 Narumiya clicked his tongue. "Busy enough not to meet up with you? You're his boyfriend!"

 ... It hurt.

 Narumiya's words hurt him.

 Not because Narumiya was insulting Kazuya, although that was part of the reason.

 But because... it was the truth.

 What could be more important than one of their dates?

 And yet, Kazuya was the main catcher.

 Or maybe something happened with his family?

 "I don't like it either. But I can't be selfish if he's busy." Eijun smiled softly again, causing Narumiya to make a face. "I'm willing to do anything for him. I love him."

 Narumiya pursed his lips, scowling for some reason. "He really doesn't deserve you." When Eijun glared at him, he grinned cheekily, gesturing toward himself. "I could probably treat you better than Kazuya ever could."

 Eijun blinked a few times. "But I'm not dating you. I'm dating Kazuya."

 Why would Narumiya even say something like that?

 Sure, Kazuya wasn't the best boyfriend.

 But he still loved him.

 They were making their relationship work.

 And he... was happy.

 Narumiya pouted for some reason before giving him another cheeky grin. "Maybe I should give you my number in case this kind of thing happens again."

 "It won't. And I wouldn't call you even if you did give me your number." Eijun huffed.

 Narumiya's grin remained on his face. "You know you want to see me again, Ei-chan." He puffed his chest out. "Especially someone as handsome as me."

 Eijun furrowed his eyebrows. "What does that have to do with anything? You're still the enemy."

 "But we can become friends." Narumiya leaned closer, a mischievous gleam in his eyes. "Or more."

 Eijun snorted, picking up his drink. "You becoming one of my best friends? Like that will ever happen."

 Narumiya leaned back in his seat, pouting.

 He could've sworn he had seen a frustrated look on his face at one point.

 But that was probably just his imagination.

 He didn't know Narumiya that well.

 And why would Narumiya feel frustrated?

 It made no sense.

---

Eijun tried not to think about any negative thoughts when he was with Kazuya.

 He was enjoying his relationship with him so much.

 He didn't want to let those thoughts overshadow his relationship with him.

 The only thing he wanted was to enjoy his current relationship with him.

 He wasn't good when it came to thinking deeply about something anyway.

 So what if Kazuya hadn't told him his feelings for him yet?

 So what if it felt wrong somehow?

 He loved Kazuya, and he was willing to wait for him.

 Kazuya was still dating him after all.

 He could be patient.

 And maybe he was being selfish, but he wanted... more with Kazuya.

 So he leaned in, kissing Kazuya on the lips, Kazuya responding a moment later.

 He kissed him with his lips for a few moments before licking his lower lip, almost grinning when Kazuya parted his lips.

 His tongue darted into his mouth, Kazuya moaning and tightening his grip around him when their tongues touched.

 They pulled away several moments later, breathing heavily.

 Not wanting to stop, Eijun pulled him back in, letting out a pleased sound as Kazuya pulled him closer.

 This time, Kazuya's tongue darted into his mouth, Eijun moaning and tightening his grip around him when their tongues touched.

 Eijun pulled away a few moments later, peppering Kazuya's face with kisses, causing Kazuya to laugh.

 "I want to see you." Kazuya tugged on the bottom of his shirt, as if letting him know what he was trying to say.

 Eijun flushed, but he pulled away, taking his shirt off, not missing the way Kazuya's eyes lit up.

 Was that reaction really for him?

 He mentally shook his head, pushing that thought away.

 Of course it was for him.

 What was he thinking?

 Kazuya didn't touch him again, studying his bare chest and stomach, as if he had never seen it before.

 It wasn't... bad.

 The way Kazuya was staring at him.

 (Maybe even liking what he saw?)

 Kazuya wrapped his arms around his waist again, his warm fingers touching his bare skin almost making him gasp.

 "You look good. Really good."

 Before he could reply, Kazuya leaned in, kissing his neck, causing him to gasp despite himself.

 He moaned as Kazuya started placing kisses up and down his neck, Kazuya's laugh against his skin making goosebumps form.

 He gasped again as Kazuya touched his nipples, moaning when Kazuya started pinching it. "Kazuya!"

 "Does that feel good?" Kazuya pulled away, his eyes darkened with lust.

 Eijun didn't want to admit that it did feel good.

 And that he didn't want Kazuya to stop.

 So instead of admitting it, he leaned in, kissing him, almost grinning when Kazuya responded eagerly to it.

 Eijun pulled away a few moments later, grinning at Kazuya's protesting sound before leaning back in, giving him such a long and hard kiss that it made Kazuya moan.

 This time, Kazuya pulled away a few moments later, letting go of him to take his shirt off.

 It certainly wasn't his first time seeing Kazuya shirtless.

 But usually, other people were around.

 And they were usually bathing or changing clothes.

 Having a shirtless Kazuya this close to him in his room without any other people around...

 It made him want more.

 Eijun leaned in, kissing his neck, causing Kazuya to hum and tilt his head, giving him better access.

 He grinned against his neck, loving how Kazuya was letting him do this, placing kisses up and down his neck.

 Kazuya moaned when he touched his nipples, tightening his grip around him.

 Eijun pinched his nipples, starting to place gentle kisses up and down his chest, gasping when Kazuya pulled him on top of him.

 He pulled away enough to look him in the eyes, grinning devilishly. "Does that feel good, Kazuya?" Keeping his eyes on him, he leaned back in, nipping his ear, causing Kazuya to cry out.

 "Hiro!"

 Eijun froze, feeling Kazuya tense under him, causing him to pull away and look at him.

 He looked at Kazuya for an explanation, but Kazuya wasn't looking at him. "'Hiro'? Who's that?"

 Because he wasn't that stupid.

 He knew this 'Hiro-san' had to be a person.

 Why did Kazuya call their name out?

 (Instead of his.)

 Kazuya finally looked back at him several moments later, giving him an almost... apologetic look. "I didn't mean to..."

 Kazuya was dating him.

 He should be calling out his name.

 Not this 'Hiro-san'.

 Eijun remembered what he had been thinking about earlier.

 How he had felt like Kazuya's touches were for someone else.

 How... it had felt wrong.

 "Kazuya, who's that?" His heart raced as he waited for Kazuya's answer.

 What was he supposed to do if Kazuya told him he was going to break up with him for this 'Hiro-san'?

 He didn't want that!

 This feeling of being complete...

 It would go away if Kazuya broke up with him.

 Kazuya's almost apologetic look disappeared, leaving a cool one in its place. "That's none of your business."

 Eijun almost winced at his cool look.

 Maybe he shouldn't have asked?

 But he didn't care about that.

 He wanted to make sure Kazuya wouldn't break up with him.

 That came first.

 "Then I don't have to know."

 Kazuya blinked a few times, clearly not expecting that. "What do you...?"

 "You can think of me as this 'Hiro-san'." Eijun tried to smile at him, hoping Kazuya couldn't tell how scared he was.

 But instead of looking reassured, Kazuya furrowed his eyebrows. "But you..."

 Eijun smiled, and this time it was more genuine. "I really don't mind. You can think of me as your 'Hiro-san'."

 Kazuya gave him an unreadable look. "Are you sure? Because we can end this—"

 "No!"

 Kazuya winced at his loud voice, furrowing his eyebrows again. "No?"

 "We don't have to break up." Eijun tried not to sound scared or desperate. "It's alright with me. As long as..." He took a deep breath. "As long as I'm yours."

 Kazuya gave him another unreadable look. "And you're alright with this?" he asked slowly.

 Eijun nodded a few times. "I'm happy with our current relationship. So you can..." He tried to smile again. "You can think of me as your 'Hiro-san'."

 "I see. Then if you're alright with it, I guess we don't have to break up."

 Eijun almost breathed a sigh of relief.

 They weren't going to break up.

 Kazuya would still be his.

 He'll still be able to feel complete.

 Sure, he wanted Kazuya to look at him and only him.

 But he couldn't force Kazuya to return his feelings.

 (Especially when Kazuya was thinking of someone else.)

 And he was still dating Kazuya.

 As long as Kazuya was his, that was enough.

 That was enough for him.

 Because he didn't want to think about Kazuya leaving him and having to feel so incomplete.

---

It was wrong. 

 Eijun knew it was all so wrong.  

 Agreeing to let his boyfriend think of him as someone else, 

 As this “Hiro-san’, and not as him, Sawamura Eijun, his lover  

 It was wrong. 

 He knew he shouldn’t be doing this; He was Kazuya’s boyfriend, his lover, his partner.  

 He wanted Kazuya to look only at him,  

 To think only about him 

 But the moment he heard Kazuya call out someone else’s name, he felt his entire world get shaken up 

 All this time... Kazuya had loved someone else 

 Someone who isn’t him.  

 Kazuya’s heart didn’t belong to him 

 It was never his. 

 Why did Kazuya even accept his confession? Agree to go out with him? 

 Did Kazuya ever truly... like him? 

 Was this why not once he had told Eijun those three words he’d been dying to hear? 

 What about the times when he teased Eijun with those tempting lips? 

 Those soft, loving looks he would give Eijun from time to time? 

 The times he told Eijun he was really glad to hear Eijun admit he made him happy? 

 Was all of those a lie...? 

 (Deep inside he had hoped those were truly for him and him only even when he knew it was all for someone else) 

 Maybe this was why he had been feeling there was something different between their relationship, 

 Why he had felt that all those kisses were not for him 

 Because it really wasn’t, 

 It was all for this ‘Hiro-san’ Kazuya had called out. 

 It was wrong but... 

 The feeling of completeness... 

 He didn’t want to lose it; he didn’t want it to go away. 

 And he loved Kazuya, 

 He was willing to do anything and everything just for him. 

 Even when his boyfriend breathily whispered “Hiro” in between their kisses, 

 Even when he would watch how his boyfriend closed his eyes as he kissed down his neck, softly moaning “Hiro” over and over again, 

 It was fine, 

 Eijun was just fine.  

 (Sure, he spent several sleepless nights at first but he eventually got over it and learned to accept reality) 

 They were still dating, and the feeling of being so complete was still there, 

 Kazuya was still his, 

 And that was enough for him 

 He suddenly felt warm lips against his own, snapping him out of his thoughts. 

 He immediately responded to the kiss yet all his doubts were still lingering at the back of his mind. 

 “What’s got you distracted?” Kazuya breathed out once their lips separated 

 Eijun shook his head in response “It’s nothing, sorry.” 

 Eijun didn’t want to lie to Kazuya, 

 But he can’t tell him either that he was thinking about how wrong it all is,  

 How unfair it feels. 

 But he was the one who suggested it in the first place, he had no right to complain. 

 Kazuya stared at him for what felt like hours and Eijun thought he’d try to get him tell the truth, which, thankfully, he didn’t and proceeded to connect their lips together once again 

 The catcher licked his bottom lip, asking for access which Eijun granted. He felt Kazuya’s tongue explore the inside of his mouth for a while before it touched his own, making him moan. 

 Their tongues danced with other and while Eijun would normally give in to pleasure, 

 He couldn’t. 

 Not when thoughts of how Kazuya called out someone else’s name instead of his flooded his mind 

 Was this how ‘Hiro-san’ would kiss him? 

 Was this how ‘Hiro-san’ would act? 

 Was he doing it right? 

 Being ‘Hiro-san’ for Kazuya... 

  Was he doing it all right? 

---

From: Narumiya Mei

Subject: Let’s go on another date!

Are you free tomorrow, Ei-chan? Let’s go on another date if you are! ♡

  To: Narumiya Mei

Subject: Sure

Sure, it’s our off day tomorrow. What time?

  From: Narumiya Mei

Subject: Are you serious?

Eh? Wait really?

  To: Narumiya Mei

Subject: None

Do you want to go or not?

  From: Narumiya Mei

Subject: Let’s go!

I do I do!!! I was just surprised you agreed so easily. 10:30 at the bus stop near Seidou.

 He didn’t know what he was thinking when he found himself agreeing when Narumiya had asked if they could go on another one of their ‘dates’ again 

 Narumiya was their enemy   

 And he really shouldn’t be hanging out with him especially right before the start of the summer tournament 

 (If Kazuya had showed up to their dates in the first place, he wouldn’t have been dragged into 'dates’ by the blonde more than twice and wouldn’t have even exchanged contacts with the ace pitcher) 

 But even so... if he was being honest, hanging out with Narumiya had been fun 

 And really, it served as a good distraction, especially with all that’s going on with Kazuya... 

 Sure, he was too arrogant and haughty, 

 He kept asking Eijun about his relationship with Kazuya which he found irritating, 

  He'd often gesture to himself and try to touch him, or his hand at least, which was really weird, 

 (And there was all that random winking. Seriously, were his eyelids alright ?) 

 And there were moments where he’d remind Eijun of Kazuya, 

 But after spending a bit more time with him ever since their first ‘date’ 

 He found Narumiya... slightly likable, just slightly. 

 There would be moments were Narumiya was actually... sweet 

 Caring even. 

 Which, weirded him out every time, 

 He never expected that the Narumiya Mei had such a soft side to him, especially with how much he declares himself as the king. 

 “Ei-chan!”  

 He turned to see Narumiya making his way to him. The blonde was wearing a black top over a black and red gingham shirt paired with ripped denim jeans and maroon red sneakers. 

  "Sorry, were you waiting long?" He panted, trying to catch his breath after rushing all the way to him 

  Did Narumiya just... apologize?  

  He didn't even think the word 'sorry' existed in the blonde's dictionary 

  And why was he even in a rush? He's exactly right on time. 

  Was this even the real Narumiya Mei?  

  Maybe it's just an imposter trying to trick him... 

  The Mei he knows, or at least, have heard about was not someone who would not apologize at all 

   (Maybe even say he should be grateful he gave some of his precious time to him) 

  Eijun suddenly realized he'd been lost in thought and hadn't answered when he noticed the concerned look Narumiya had 

  "It's fine, I just got here myself" he smiled. 

  For some reason Narumiya turned away and Eijun noticed his ears were red, probably from all the running 

 “A-anyways!”Narumiya turned back to him again, clearing his throat in the process, “There’s this new café not too far from here! Let’s go!” 

 “A new café?” He tilted his head slightly as he asked 

 “Mhm” Narumiya hummed agreeingly “I heard it has a great romantic atmosphere as well” He turned his head to wink at him 

 A romantic atmosphere? 

 Why did Narumiya tell him that? 

 (And there’s that wink again! Why does he keep doing that?) 

 They made their way to the café, holding small talk along the way 

 At some point Narumiya had even joked about how “There’s other guys who can treat you much better than Kazuya does!! Just look around you!” as he gestured to himself for some weird reason he doesn’t know 

 Seriously, what was Narumiya even trying to say? 

 He doesn’t get it. 

 Before he knew it, they’d already arrive at the café. It wasn’t that far from Seidou and was only a few minutes' walk from the bus stop. 

 Narumiya eagerly walked ahead him, opening the door first only to freeze on the spot. 

 ...What happened to him? 

 Why did he suddenly stop? 

 Curiously, he glanced over the blonde’s shoulder, following Narumiya’s eyes to the counter where an eerily familiar bespectacled brunette had his lips interlocked with the barista over the counter 

 That hair... that pair of glasses... 

 Eijun felt his heart stop as realization hit him 

 Was... was that Kazuya...? 

 Narumiya turned to him, eyes widened with emotions he couldn’t understand “Isn’t that Kazuya...?” 

 “Oh.” he stared blanky “It is Kazuya.” 

 His eyes drifted downwards to the barista’s chest, his nametag hanging from the straps of his apron 

 ‘Nakamura Hiro’ 

  Ah.  

 So that’s it, 

 He’s ‘Hiro-san’. 

 The guy who Kazuya loves. 

 The guy his boyfriend loves. 

 He turned around, about to leave when a hand suddenly grabbed his arm 

 “You’re just going to leave?!” Narumiya hissed; his blue eyes frighteningly dark “Your boyfriend is literally kissing someone else and you’re just going to leave?” 

 Why was Narumiya so upset...? 

 Sure, to others, it might be pretty alarming. 

 But it’s Kazuya and his ‘Hiro-san’ 

 He had no right to interfere. 

 He placed his hand on top of the blonde’s, trying to calm him down, and gave him a reassuring smile “Yeah? It’s fine y’know.”  

 “Fine?! How is that fine?!” 

 “...Because it is, Kazuya loves ‘Hiro-san’, I knew that already.” Eijun hoped Narumiya wouldn’t notice how his voice slightly trembled  

 Narumiya gaped at him for a moment as he tried to process what he had just said “You knew Kazuya liked someone else and you’re still dating him?!?” He suddenly felt the grip around his arm tightening and for a moment Eijun thought it might leave a bruise “How are you fine with that?!?” 

 “Because I love him.” 

 It wasn’t a lie. 

 It hurt, but it wasn’t a lie. 

 He loved Kazuya. 

 As long as they’re together then he’s fine, 

 He’s fine even if Kazuya loved someone else. 

 “I love him so it’s fine—”     

Narumiya suddenly pulled his arm causing Eijun to yelp in surprise, and proceeded to drag them somewhere more private, away from the café. 

 “Stop lying to yourself!” Narumiya roared making him wince at the sudden volume “You’re not fine! There’s no way you’re just fine!”  

 “I’m not—” He felt something wet dripping down his cheek. 

 Was these... tears?  

 “See?” Narumiya’s voice sounded so pained and so full of pity “You’re not okay...” 

 In a blink of an eye, he felt strong, slender hands around him, hugging him comfortingly. His vision blurred with tears. 

 He felt his throat tighten as tears streamed down his face but even so, Eijun still tried to convince himself with the same lie over and over again,

  That he was just fine.

 “Leave him.” Narumiya suddenly spoke in a demanding tone “Leave him already.” 

 Eijun immediately pushed the blonde way “NO!” 

 “Why?! You’re just hurting yourself!”     

Narumiya’s dark eyes darkened even more 

 “Because it’ll hurt more if Kazuya leaves me” 

 The feeling of completeness, 

 It’ll be gone if Kazuya leaves him. 

 And never did Eijun want to feel empty ever again. 

 It was wrong, 

 But he was fine with that. 

 It was like a rose with thorns, 

 Loving Kazuya was beautiful... 

 ...Even if it hurts. 

 “As long as Kazuya’s still mine, it’s fine.” Eijun answered sharply 

---

Eijun... wasn't doing well.

 The summer tournament finals loss was a bitter pill to swallow.

 Especially when he knew it was his fault they lost.

 No one outwardly blamed him or even looked at him as if they did, but he could tell they did.

 It was in the way everyone made pointed comments about the loss, especially around him...

 Especially the comments about how they had gotten so close...

 And they had.

 They were one out away from Koushien.

 One out away from getting their revenge against Inashiro.

 And he had blown it.

 None of his senpai had scolded him, but they also didn't tell him it wasn't his fault.

 And while that was a bitter pill to swallow, he had accepted that it was his fault they lost.

 And felt determined to learn from it.

 (As far as he was concerned, everyone blaming him for the loss was a good thing. They easily could've tried to reassure him and tell him it wasn't his fault. That he was only a first year and couldn't help it. And that would've made him feel worse. Like... they didn't trust him enough.)

 His pitching wasn't the best after the summer tournament finals, but he could still pitch.

 And that was the most important thing.

 Unlike now.

 He had the yips.

 He understood everyone wanted to get stronger and join the first string.

 He really did.

 But his baseball career could be ending, and it seemed like none of them... cared.

 His teammates hadn't approached him.

 Or said any kind words.

 As if they were... enjoying his rare silence.

 (Was he really that annoying?)

 It was at times like this when he felt grateful for his relationship with Kazuya.

 Sure, it still wasn't the most ideal relationship.

 (The image of Kazuya kissing Hiro-san never seemed to leave his mind no matter how many times he tried not to think about it.)

 But they were still together.

 And even if Kazuya didn't love him back, he still cared about him.

 Of course, he didn't know how much Kazuya cared about him.

 But at least they were still together.

 That was what was important.

 ... Or so he thought.

 Even since he had gotten the yips, he started doubting everything.

 His worth as a pitcher.

 (Which wasn't much right now. He was painfully aware of that.)

 His standing on the team.

 If he could pitch again.

 If he could pitch to the inside again.

 And... his relationship with Kazuya.

 He didn't mean to, of course.

 He loved that Kazuya was still his.

 Loved that they were still together even though Kazuya loved someone else.

 He still felt complete.

 But lately, he couldn't help but wonder why Kazuya was with him.

 Baseball was important to both of them.

 But he hadn't pitched in a while.

 Kazuya hadn't caught his pitches in a while.

 And he understood Kazuya was busy with his captain and main catcher duties.

 But he was an useless pitcher.

 Before, he could somewhat pitch.

 But now...

 Why was Kazuya still with him?

 Was Kazuya still dating him because he... felt sorry for him?

 He shook his head.

 He was the one who told Kazuya that he could think of him as Hiro-san.

 That wasn't Kazuya feeling sorry for him.

 But that was before he had the yips.

 He didn't know what Hiro-san was like.

 (Even though he had been trying to act like him whenever they were together.)

 But he didn't think Hiro-san was this... gloomy.

 This quiet.

 He had tried to apologize to Kazuya, but Kazuya (for some reason) told him it was alright.

 If this were before he had learned Kazuya loved someone else, he might've felt relieved.

 And his chest would've felt warm.

 But that soft look Kazuya gave him...

 That was for Hiro-san.

 Not him.

 Why was Kazuya still with him when he wasn't acting like Hiro-san anymore?

 He hated the thought of it, but...

 Why hadn't Kazuya dumped him for Hiro-san yet?

 (He never wanted Kazuya to dump him. He loved feeling complete. But...)

 Hiro-san seemed to feel the same as him.

 So why?

 Of course, he felt relieved and happy Kazuya hadn't dumped him for Hiro-san yet.

 But moments like this made him wonder.

 He sighed, clenching his fists.

 "What's wrong?"

 He gasped, eyes widening.

 He had completely forgotten he was currently with Kazuya, hanging out with him in his room.

 They had been cuddling on his bed.

 But from the way Kazuya sat up, frowning at him, he didn't think Kazuya wanted to cuddle anymore.

 (Again, it was his fault. Hiro-san would never pass up an opportunity to cuddle with Kazuya.)

 Eijun sat up, looking down at his hands.

 He wasn't sure what to say.

 (Something that had been occurring more often ever since he had gotten the yips.)

 "I..." He clenched his fists before relaxing his grip. He looked up at Kazuya, noticing his furrowed eyebrows. "It's... nothing. Sorry."

 Kazuya narrowed his eyes. "Don't lie to me. I know something's wrong. Tell me."

 "Why do you care?" he blurted.

 He froze, eyes widening as he belatedly realized what he said, noticing as Kazuya's eyes widened.

 What...?

 Why had he said that for?

 Before he could say anything, though, Kazuya furrowed his eyebrows. "What do you...? Of course I care."

 And it should've been alright after that.

 Maybe he could've gotten away with it by coming up with an excuse.

 If it weren't for him and his big mouth.

 "Why? I'm an useless pitcher."

 Kazuya gave him a warning look, but he didn't try to reassure him or protest it wasn't true.

 Eijun got up, standing next to his bed and looking down at Kazuya. "I haven't pitched in days. And you don't even care."

 "That's not true, and you know it," Kazuya protested. "I know it's frustrating not being able to pitch, but you should listen to Kantoku."

 Again.

 He had lost track of how many times he had tried to bring up his fears, doubts, and worries to Kazuya.

 And Kazuya... didn't even seem to listen.

 As if his fears, doubts, and worries... weren't important to Kazuya.

 He had thought Kazuya cared for him.

 (Even a little bit would be alright. He was still dating him after all.)

 But did Kazuya care at all?

 He clenched his fists. "I know I'm not Hiro-san even though I said you can think of me as him."

 Kazuya gave him that warning look from earlier.

 "And I'm alright with that. But I'm still your teammate." Eijun hated the way his voice sounded soft and hurt.

 Kazuya got up, standing next to him and raising his eyebrows. "What, so you think I don't care about you at all?"

 "It's the truth, isn't it?" Eijun clenched his fists even tighter. "You don't listen to me at all, and you don't seem to care whether I pitch again."

 Kazuya narrowed his eyes, stepping closer. "That's not true, and you know it. I—"

 "Then why won't you listen to me?" He closed his eyes briefly before giving him a pained look. "Would you listen to me if I were Hiro-san?"

 Kazuya glared at him. "Stop bringing up Hiro. That's none of your business."

 Eijun gave him another pained look. "Kazuya, I'm happy we're still together. But there's more to a relationship than kissing."

 "What do you...?"

 Kazuya wasn't the type to talk about his feelings.

 But Kazuya knew what kind of person he was.

 And he had hoped he could share his feelings with Kazuya.

 But Kazuya didn't care.

 Kazuya only cared about touching him and talking to him about baseball.

 (And Kazuya had barely talked to him about baseball ever since he had gotten the yips.)

 He sighed. "Feelings, Kazuya. You don't care about my feelings at all."

 "But you said you're alright with our relationship."

 He almost sighed again. "I am happy with our relationship. But you never want to listen to my feelings. Is this what you do with Hiro-san?"

 Kazuya glowered at him. "I told you not to bring up Hiro."

 Eijun wanted to reach out and touch his hand, but he wasn't sure if Kazuya would let him. "I'm not asking you to share your feelings with me. Although I would like it if you did. But..." He struggled to keep eye contact, especially with the way Kazuya glowered at him. "Is something wrong with telling you my feelings? Why can't you just listen to me silently? Hiro-san—"

 "Shut up! Stop bringing up Hiro!"

 But Eijun found he... couldn't stop speaking. "Do you even love Hiro-san? You don't care about his feelings at all? Hiro-san—"

 "I said shut up!" Kazuya roared, causing him to flinch. "Stop talking about Hiro like you know him!"

 He hated that Kazuya was getting this angry.

 And... he hated how Kazuya wasn't listening.

 He took a deep breath before reaching out for Kazuya's hand. "Kazuya, I..."

 But Kazuya stepped away from him, eyes cold. "You're not him."

 He froze, hand still outstretched. "Eh?"

 What did he just...?

 "You're not him."

 His heart dropped.

 It couldn't be...?

 He stepped closer, almost flinching again as Kazuya's eyes darkened. "K-Kazu—"

 "Shut up! You're not him, and you'll never be him!" Kazuya roared, causing him to flinch.

 Eijun's eyes widened in horror.

 What... had he done?

 Sure, he didn't like it how Kazuya loved Hiro-san.

 And sure, he didn't like it how he pretended to be someone he wasn't.

 (All for Kazuya. He loved Kazuya.)

 But he was... alright with their relationship.

 Because it meant Kazuya was still his.

 Because it meant... he still felt complete.

 His tongue felt like it was glued to his mouth.

 He couldn't say anything.

 "Forget it. We should've done this a long time ago."

 His eyes widened even more (if it were possible).

  Oh no.

 That did not sound good.

 Eijun stepped closer, his heart clenching at the way Kazuya's eyes darkened. "Kazuya, wait. I... didn't mean it. I'm—"

 To his horror, Kazuya stepped around him, making his way toward his door. "No. Clearly, I was the stupid one for believing this would work." He shook his head, stopping in front of the door. "What was I thinking?"

 ... Why did he say that in past tense?

 It was as if...

 His heart dropped at the realization.

 "Kazuya, wait! I'm sorry!" If Kuramochi-senpai were in the room, his jaw would've dropped as he practically flew across the room, clinging to Kazuya's shirt sleeve. "We can... We can still make this work!"

 Kazuya turned his head to look at him, raising an eyebrow. "How? You'd still be with someone who doesn't love you. And I'd still be with someone who isn't Hiro."

 His heart...

 His heart felt as if it were breaking.

 "I'll do better next time! I..." He hated the thought of it, but if it meant Kazuya wouldn't leave him... "Please, Kazuya! I'll... I'll be a better Hiro-san for you! Give me another chance!"

 But Kazuya shook his head, his eyes dark. "You're not him, and you'll never be him."

 Eijun felt tempted to grab the spot where his heart was. "Please, Kazuya! I—"

 "Shut up!" Kazuya roared, causing him to flinch and let go of him. "It's over! Why can't you realize that!"

 Kazuya opened the door, looking back at him. "I'll see you at practice, Sawamura."

 It was as if Kazuya had slapped him.

 Kazuya... Kazuya called him Sawamura...

 His family name...

 As if... they were back to the relationship they had before they started dating.

 "K-Kazu—"

 Kazuya glowered at him, and somehow, he looked angrier than before, causing him to shiver. "Don't call me Kazuya anymore! You have no right to call me that!" He gave him a warning look, a dangerous gleam in his eyes. "And you better not call me that tomorrow at practice or if we somehow see each other at school."

 And then, Kazuya left, not looking behind him even once.

 Eijun quickly chased after him, but he found himself... freezing right outside his door.

 So that was it?

 Kazuya... broke up with him?

 (Did Kazuya think he was annoying, too?)

 He really hadn't meant to say any of that.

 Sure, he wasn't totally happy with his relationship with Kazuya.

 But at least they were still together.

 Unlike now.

 Why had he let his doubts, fears, and worries bubble up like that?

 Kazuya...

 Kazuya had broken up with him.

 (And for good reason. Maybe Kazuya had gotten tired of him.)

 He trudged away from his dorm room, feeling numb.

 It was strange.

 He thought if Kazuya ever broke up with him, he would feel indescribable pain.

 Thought his life would be over.

 Thought feeling empty would hurt more than this.

 But he wasn't even crying.

 Sure, his heart was screaming in pain.

 But he wasn't crying.

 Was something wrong with him?

 He made his way out of Seidou, trudging over to the bus stop, not even realizing where he was at first.

 Had... Had Kazuya cared about him at all?

 If someone else (like Furuya) had confessed to Kazuya, would Kazuya have accepted them as easily as he did him?

 Would... Would Kazuya have at least listened to their feelings?

 He blinked a few times, not sure if he were trying to stop himself from crying or because he finally realized where he was.

 This...

 This was the bus stop where he would wait for Kazuya.

 Where Kazuya had promised to meet him for their dates.

 Dates he never showed up to because he was too busy kissing Hiro-san, his traitorous mind whispered.

 He shook his head, sitting down despite himself.

 While it was true he and Narumiya had caught Kazuya kissing Hiro-san that one time, that didn't mean Kazuya had bailed on all their dates.

 ... Right?

 But if Kazuya had cared about him even a little bit, he would've shown up for their dates instead of bailing on him.

 Kazuya had tried kissing him and making him feel good, as if the pleasure could make up for what Kazuya had done.

 And while it did feel good, it had felt wrong.

 If Kazuya had cared about him, he would've apologized and actually showed up to their next date.

 But he hadn't.

 He laughed humorlessly, shaking his head.

 Of course he hadn't.

 Kazuya hadn't cared about him or his feelings.

 Eijun sniffed, not even realizing he was crying until he looked down at his lap and the bus stop bench, watching as his tears wet his pants and the bench.

 He wiped away the tears, sniffing again.

 Why was he crying now?

 Why didn't he cry earlier?

 (Something was wrong with him.)

 He didn't know why.

 It was as if all the pain he had been holding in just... bubbled up.

 Kazuya didn't care about him.

 Would never care about him.

 Kazuya only loved Hiro-san.

 He let out a choked sob, wrapping his arms around his legs.

 He had felt complete not too long ago.

 But he felt... empty now.

 As if... he had never met Kazuya.

 Or Kazuya had taken his other half with him.

 He sobbed, tightening his arms around his legs, knowing no one would come check on him.

 (Why would they? It wasn't as if anyone cared.)

 Tears coursed down his cheeks, the tears not stopping as he continued thinking about Kazuya.

 And how empty he felt

.

An hour ago...

 No, maybe even thirty minutes ago...

 He was still dating Kazuya.

 They were still together.

 But now...

 All their moments they shared together...

 They were starting to blur.

 And he didn't want that!

 Sure, his heart felt as if it had broke.

 But he would rather cry and feel this pain than forget about his memories with Kazuya.

 Kazuya...

 Kazuya probably didn't even care that he had broken his heart.

 That he was here by himself, crying his heart out.

 And that was what hurt the most.

 ---

NARUMIYA MEI

Mei didn’t know why, 

 But he felt a strong urge telling him that he had to go to the bus stop right now. 

 It was by chance, or should he say, a twist of fate, that he had run across Sawamura Eijun, or Ei-chan, on his way back to the campus 

 (...It was a pure coincidence, he swears, it's not like he had been waiting at the bus stop the moment he heard they were meeting up there for their date)

 And it was mainly curiosity that was fueled from the fact he was dating Kazuya that Mei had dragged him to his favorite café in the area 

 He found the fellow southpaw... interesting, and really cute. 

 Not the kind of person Kazuya deserves. 

 Which what led him to often visiting that very same bus stop on his off days to see if the brunette was there (In other words, to see if Kazuya had stupidly bailed on their date again) 

 He knew the reason why he felt such a strong urge to go there right now was probably because of Ei-chan 

 It probably wasn’t a good idea, especially when after the loss he had just experienced in Koshien,  

 But he felt... no, he knew he would regret it later if he didn’t listen to his instincts. 

 He suddenly recalled their last date before the summer tournament started 

 How he and Ei-chan had caught Kazuya cheating with someone else, 

 How Ei-chan‘s voice trembled as he told him how he knew Kazuya had loved someone else the entire time, 

 How Ei-chan painfully convinced his own self that it was fine. 

 He knew Ei-chan wasn’t fine, 

  It was terrible, 

 Seeing Ei-chan cry... seeing him hurt himself just for the sake of someone who didn’t even deserve it, 

 Seeing his usually lustrous golden orbs so pained and dark. 

 If he were Kazuya, he would have cherished him like no other, 

 He would have given him all his hours when he had the chance. 

 He would never let him cry.

 He rushed to the bus stop where he always finds Ei-chan as fast as possible.

 He knew he had to get there quick.

 He didn't really know why... He just knew.

 When he arrived, he noticed a figure sitting alone at the stop, curled up in a ball and... crying to himself.

 He stepped closer quietly to get a proper look and felt himself holding his breath as he recognized the mop of brown hair the person had

 “...Ei-chan?” Mei asked carefully, hoping it wasn't the brunette who was crying to himself

 It didn't take long before misty golden eyes looked back at him

 He lookes so lifeless, so... empty,

  So broken.

 "Ei-chan... what's wrong?" tried to ask carefully but it only led to the brunette crying even more, shaking his head as he did so.

 Mei was at lost, he didn't know what to do to help and the sight of Eijun crying tore his heart.

 He made his way beside the brunette quietly and gently placed his hand on his back, rubbing soothing circles to help and comfort him. "I'm right here. Just cry it all out, i won't leave your side" He whispered softly, surprised at how tender his own voice sounds

 Seconds became minutes and those minutes felt like hours as he stayed by Eijun's side, patiently rubbing his back as he tried to speak warm, reassuring words of comfort.

 Mei noticed how the sobbing stopped "are you alright now?"

 Ei-chan nodded weakly and Mei breathed in relief, glad the brunette was slightly better now. 

 Deciding it's better to ask sooner than later, he inhaled deeply as he opened his mouth to speak yet Eijun beat him to it.

 He turned to face Mei, eyes still foggy from confusion and pain, hesitantly, he spoke

 "Kazuya... He broke up with me.."