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What do you mean when you say your gender was reassigned later in life?
Wtf happened
My intersex variation made everyone around me stop treating me like a girl and I was punished relentlessly by everyone if I tried to be feminine
Only when I started identifying as a guy (which was wrong and didn't make me happy) did I start being treated better. And everyone kept saying shit like "oh yeah we already saw you as a man" essentially.
I was put on testosterone literally a few weeks after "coming out" as a man and even when voicing my discomfort about being on it they attempted to coerce me into staying on it
I did not fit into what they saw as female, so they decided that I had to be male to be "normal"
#fun fact#a story that was once told to me#was that apparently my mother tried to get me have top surgery#so she called the office to get something scheduled#and they needed my consent#so she tried to talk to me when i was very sleep deprived#and apparently i shouted at her ��i don't want that”#i do not remember this#but correct! i dont want top surgery
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i dont even want a dick i just wish i was born withone so people would stop seeing me as a girl
#im making a list of things i need to do to transition and tell me why learning to fish and hunt are at the top of that list#idk guys im tired of being percieved as a trans man i wish i was just seen as a man#whats awful is i catch myself sometimes misgendering myself because i convince myself i deserve it#if i got bottom surgery would this stop.would this cruel sick joke stop#ry talks#i should go backt ophysical journaling so you guys dont have to see this#soemtimes i wish i wasnt trans. and coming from me thats crazy im number one trans enjoyer over here#would it save me this weight in my chest? i dont know#i couldnt be cis i know that even if i had a dick but maybe this would all stop#im tired of the looks when i leave the bathroom im tired of being feminized when people interact with me#im tired of being grouped with the girls#i tell myself im grouped with girsl because im gay and im just fem cause im gay and id ont know#i cant explain it correctly but i always feel like im treated like a girl even by my friends#they cant help it itsn ot their fault and its nothing obvious too that they could change.#its partially my fault cause i havent learned the correct social cues that guysdo.i dont know how to dap someone up i dont know the correct#response to “whats good man” i dont know any of this. im so new here im so lost i just want to be treated like a boy. im a boy im a boy im#im a fucking boy please#maybe a mustache would fucking fix all this#maybe i need to learn to be a boy#im so tired i wish someone could teach me the things that boys do cause i know i am one i just dont know my fucking lines
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Despite becoming mentally healthier i am still so so miserable about being trans. Like no amount of self reflection and behavioural adjustment can replace a transition. Like i am doing so so good with my health but i still want to kill myself the same amount for whole different reasons now. How is a girl supposed to live like this
#personal#suicide mention#i dont talk about being trans much and its weighing on me#i kind of half-assedly came out as nb to by friends. which is untrue now. and i cant find it in me to correct myself#i want surgeries i want hormones i want people to stop being misogynistic to me. ill take transphobia over misogyny i swear to god#djjsushdeidksjjs. at least i can be like. half anonnymous on the internet. waves hi online friends i am scared about this#waves hi H. i know youre lurking. yea im like turbo trans now - of the agender variety. i think i might die without top surgery#anyway. happy pride to me i do not have the balls to be trans :/
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I hate to break it to transmasc tumblr but if you're trans you're gnc. There is no mode of being transgender that makes you gender conforming whatsoever. This ALSO means that you are not exclusively oppressed for any particular presentation. Any backlash you experience for your presentation is literally just transphobia; and nobody is saying it isn't bad. Transphobia is awful enough on its own and encompasses way more than anybody thinks it does. You really don't need to find another label for that oppression.
#emil chatter#like for a long time i thought i did until i realized#that if being trans itself takes an infinite amount of forms#so too does the hatred against us#people dont just hate us for one specific thing they hate us for existing in any way period#whether youre masc fem closeted stealth out and proud passing non passing or just fucking w your presentation#whether youre pre hrt non hrt or on hrt whether you have top/bottom surgery or havent gotten it yet or dont want it#it literally does not matter it wont make it better or worse#bc transphobes hate you for being you. they dont care about those things. they just dont#one of the hallmarks of any form of oppression is that you cannot do anything right and that there is no correct way to be you#let that sink in and youll understand a lot more
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okay one last saw rant, this one contains GROSS BLOODY STUFF so its under a readmore
I dont think mr jig saw has a good understanding of modern medicine. bc in the new film he's like "in front of you is a rusty spoon.......scoop your own brain into a jar, it'll dissolve the enzymes and lower the key.........but don't worry you'll be totally fine I promise, you don't actually need your full brain, there is historical precedence. it'll just rewire, you'll be totally fine, please don't worry"
BUT MR SAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! those cases you speak of! are of people getting brain surgery in a sterilized environment, this guy is self-scooping with something he got off the floor!!! and he's also going from top to bottom like he's hollowing out a pumpkin, like that's definitely not good for him!!! he won't be okay afterward!!!
but also the movie does sorta present mr. saw as being correct in that having your brain scooped out with a rusty spoon is actually fine and not a medical problem, because the guy doesn't really experience any badness while he's scooping, like he's totally fine and normal.
AND THEN!!! AND THEN!!!! he doesn't even melonball out enough brain to fill the jar before the timer gets off, so this elaborate aztec mask with heating strips on the inside closes around his face, and he gets face-cooked to death. which is also like........that's such a complex custom thing to build in a short period of time!! because he made all these traps in 2-3 weeks, canonically. like I don't care if you're a civil engineer, mr. saw, how did you do the metalworking for all this stuff so fast. I don't believe you could have made that aztec-sauna-death-mask, I am sorry.
AND ALSO ALSO the guy put so much of his brain into the jar, he should have gotten the key???? it seems like a very flawed jar. and then mr. saw is like "well, guess he didn't want to live hard enough lmao", like NO!!!! FUCK OFF!!!!! he literally filled the jar and dissolved the enzymes!! god.
sorry I just don't think mr. saw should have done all that. like maybe it was wrong.
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I see so many posts over different social media platforms about sexuality/gender hcs for the strawhats and i want to add in my own two cents because i believe im very correct (but anyone’s opinion is valid so long as it doesnt go against canon coding)
Luffy - the most aroace and trans guy to ever BREATHE. i dont mean aroace in that hes somewhere on the spectrum where he can still be attracted to people, because he cant. this guy had never grasped the concept of romance and never will, because theres no reason for it to him. hes trans because i say he is, i dont have many reasons for THAT but its just the signals hes sending me. trans to trans communication trust
Zoro - gay. thats it thats the post. no but i dont ship luffy with anyone but zoro is just attracted to literally any man who is strong, thats his criteria and thats all he ever needs. is he aware of it? not at all, he has no idea that its not normal to get bricked up by the thought of other men
Nami - i havent seen a bigger lesbian in media ever, genuinely i dont think any other character is as obviously lesbian as she is. she loves girls unapologetically no matter what, supports all girls at the end of the day (cough kalifa) . i also hit her with the asexual beam because i can, specifically demisexual because i THINK so
Usopp - while i wanna consider kaya, i wanna consider sanji too and thats making me lean between bi or omni even if omni is a label under the bi umbrella. its more a question of if he recognises his preference for men or not, because he does prefer then at the end of the day. the ace beam bounces from nami to usopp because he too doesnt feel anything and doesnt think about it either
Sanji - oh my god where do i begin. maybe just the blatant queer coding of wci as a whole?? of course hes attracted to women, thats not an aspect you can remove or just toss around to being something else. he loves and respects women, but he is so QUEER. all of wci is just queer coding, its a queer story and sanji is a queer character i will die on this hill. he probably has some kind of gender issues too, what specifically? no clue, but he likes people of multiple genders and is in deep denial about it all the time he wont ever truly accept it but he can one day as a treat live with that fact
Chopper - oh hes a reindeer he cant really have a sexuality DID WE FORGET THE FACT HES HUMAN TOO ISNT THAT LIKE HIS WHOLE THING, NOT BEING A MONSTER BUT ALSO A HUMAN. HE IS BOTH? i dont have any specific labels to slap onto him, just that hes a people lover and encourager of literally everything. ace beam bounces onto him too
Robin - trans trans trans trans trans trans trans trans you will accept robin transfem into your life right here right now. she can like anyone, she has no label on it, she just likes people and cant bother with genders or anything like that. the ace beam actually skips her because if they were doing a hear me out cake she’d be the one putting all of the crazy things. freak. (lovingly)
Franky - HOW TRANS CODED IS IT NOT TO REBUILD YOUR OWN BODY TO BECOME A BETTER VERSION OF YOURSELF AND TO REBUILD YOUR LIFE IN A WAY YOU WANT, BUT GOING BACK TO WHAT YOU LOVED ABOUT YOUR OLD SELF, AND EMBRACING IT. literally, trans goals. he modified his body and went i might as well give myself top surgery and an awesome dick while im here!! sexuality wise hes a lover of everyone, but he has preferences for women (robin) but encourages all bromances (with brook)
Brook - THIS IS WHERE IM MOST PASSIONATE!!!! people can say that hes the token straight grandpa. but theyll never understand the joy of old gay brook had a romance with his captain, the joy of brook trying to subtlety let the other strawhats know he accepts them (he isnt subtle at all and everyone knows). look at brook in drag twice for no reason and tell me he isnt queer, in some way. the ace beam finally hits someone and its brook, insert skull joke here
Jinbei - very specifically old gay man who didnt really do much throughout his youth, he always knew he liked men but he never had TIME to do anything, too busy being awesome and a father i fear. now that hes with the crew he isnt automatically gonna seek anyone out, but hes also not gonna restrain himself from finding interests in people, hes being more selfish now and thats good for him. finally the ace beam hits jinbei and proceeds to fly off towards other op characters that i might talk about some other time
can you tell im asexual and love projecting onto characters with it !!!!
#one piece#headcanon#straw hat pirates#straw hat crew#one piece strawhats#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#nami#sanji#black leg sanji#tony tony chopper#nico robin#franky#soul king brook#first son of the sea jinbe#jinbei#jimbei#sexuality#gender#lgbtqia#wow this took long to tag and write#noahsop
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i've been seeing a lot of transmasc headcanons in art + fic lately, and that's great! but, as a trans man, i'm noticing that most scenarios involving these characters boils down to 1 of 3 scenarios:
coming out
suffering transphobic abuse
vaginal sex
and i'm not saying these things don't happen, or that there's never a case to be made for them, but i also find it kind of reductive? there's so much more to our experiences.
i want to see ftm characters who cant get or dont want top surgery, or who have bottom surgery. ftm characters training their voices, and learning from their cis friends how to shave and cut their hair and correct their body language. ftm characters who are embarrassed by their childhood pictures and hide them at all costs - or, alternatively, point and laugh at their old selves and go, can you BELIEVE i looked like that? ftm characters still getting a grasp on their own gender identity and presentation, who experience dysphoria and/or euphoria. ftm characters who have an identity beyond being created, being abused, and being fucked.
that's all i'm asking for.
#mine#ftm#transmasc#trans man#this is kind of rambly but im getting real sick of how transmasc stuff is portrayed in fandom esp in MTL#and this isnt directed at ftm artists/writers ftr#its aimed @ non-ftm people who do not want to broaden their horizons and make an effort to understand us
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Destroyer - Time Flies
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hi back again !! i said it wouldnt be long
(Content: suicidal ideation, death mention, alcohol mention)
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Delta’s back was against the wall. He needed it to brace himself, feeling far too dizzy to even sit up on his own. He sipped at the soda can, not thrilled with the flavor. Simon had given it to him by way of apology for having totally ignored him for two weeks. The scientist was sitting down on top of an overturned test dummy. Delta didn’t know why he’d chosen to have this conversation in the gym. The scattered dummies all about the arena looked like dead bodies. But maybe that was just where his mind was.
“He’s alive,” Delta repeated back to Simon slowly, rolling the words over in his mouth without any particular emotion.
“Correct,” Simon nodded, “He’s stabilized. He had the foresight to arrange a bunch of organ donors at Thales, which is good, because he’d probably be dead otherwise. I just wish he had the foresight to wear some damn body armor.”
“Death wish?” Delta hypothesized.
“Don’t say that. It’s not funny.”
Delta hung his head. Simon went on.
“The chancellor went ahead and fired the entire security team. They’re investigating them for conspiracy. And they’ve narrowed down the actual assassin to a list of ten people. I don’t suppose you saw them, right?”
“No, sir,” Delta answered quickly. He had been studying the floor of the stage at the time it happened. Besides, the shock had erased much of his memory.
“Right. Well, I don’t have to tell you it’s bad news. They’re going to find a way to make Nezu responsible, even if he didn’t do it originally. On their end, Paris is too weak not to take advantage of. Civil war is an inevitability. But on the bright side, the assassination attempt has actually done wonders for His Highness’s polling numbers. Funny how that works,” Simon hummed, a wry smile crossing his face.
Delta didn’t understand why Simon was telling him all this. It was a lot more context than he needed for the role he would play in it. He supposed it was a kindness. Of course, Delta was relieved that he would not be passed over to Nezu. In theory, anyway. The actual relief was slow coming; the dread had not left him. He could still feel the blood on his face.
“He’s alive?” Delta repeated incredulously. Simon gave him a sympathetic look, bordering on very condescending.
“Yes. He’s recovering from the surgery, but he should be back in two weeks. You won’t have to worry about another custody dispute.”
Delta nodded, taking another sip of the soda. His head was spinning. He’d been so ready for the change. He’d built himself up to die; he was planning on how he’d slit his own throat when Nezu came to collect him. That bad. Now, that was clearly off the table. His thoughts drifted back to the laptop in his room. A part of him wanted to destroy it right now. He would try to reclaim his innocence and bury any rebellion within his heart.
Ha. Good joke.
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Simon locked him back in his room. He guessed this would be the procedure until Paris returned. Not that he minded. He pushed the chair back in front of the door and returned to his computer.
There was the same frenzied white noise he was still getting from the original thread, plus all the spam in his DMs. But one message stood out to him.
sunspot: Hey I wanted to say thank you for the advance warning on Cyannet. It prevented a massacre for us.
Delta read it over and over. His heart hurt.
ndhakdvsnnd: you dont have to thank me
Really, it was the least he could do. Left alone for so long, the guilt had begun to marinate. He used to feel so terrible for going behind Paris’s back, so totally undeserving of the mercy he’d been shown. That had melted down into something else entirely. He had a number now. He’d done it manually and was sure of its accuracy, a standard deviation of <100. It had been 22,534 people just within the confines of his memory. The true count was probably higher; there were dark spots in his life that he knew were also filled with violence.
So there was no question about it really. He was evil. It was a surprisingly easy thing to accept; it’s not like he ever thought he was good. The realization didn’t drive him any closer to hysterics than anything else in his life ever had. It just existed as a quiet truth in the back of his head. He had done a lot of evil in Empire’s name. The only way he could see to make up for it was to prevent further deaths. Besides, he had come to hate Empire. He was ready for it to be destroyed.
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Paris peeled the fabric of his shirt back, revealing the thick layers of bandages around his chest. He was leaning back against the headrest, wearing loose, breathable clothing.
“Lung transplant. They said my heart is bruised.” He said in a hoarse voice. His eyes were totally bloodshot. Delta couldn’t look at him straight on. So much of Paris’s body was swollen or bruised from the surgery. He had been out. If he’d been anyone else, he would have stayed out. Paris was incredibly lucky to be alive. He didn’t seem too thrilled about it.
“Happy?” The prince hissed, his expression turning sour. Delta raised his hands in mock surrender, apparently having stared too hard for his liking. It’s not like Paris was physically in any position to hurt him. He could barely move. Regardless, there was a kind of danger to him now that had not been there before. His eyes were crazed. Delta excused himself.
“I don’t want you hanging around him right now,” Simon had said to Delta in a hushed voice when he first returned. As if it was something he had any say in. It was all he could offer in terms of a warning.
Paris was still in treatment for weeks afterward. The recovery had forced him to detox, no doubt contributing to his terrible mood. He was going through alcohol and nicotine withdrawal in addition to the healing process, each facet building off the other to create a kind of endless crisis in his body.
It was the worst Delta had ever felt for another person, though with him that wasn’t saying much. Sympathy was a pretty novel concept to him. Even at the time, he sensed he was misdirecting it. It didn’t change anything. Delta had made up his mind about Empire. Paris wasn’t excluded from that. He wasn’t innocent. But Delta could recognize the ways that Paris had been made victim to his own legacy — and it hurt him deeply to witness.
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sunspot: Why are you talking like that?
ndhakdvsnnd: like what
sunspot: I don’t know. You just seem kind of down on yourself?
ndhakdvsnnd: why does that matter
sunspot: I thought it might matter to you
ndhakdvsnnd: not really
sunspot: :/
ndhakdvsnnd: what is this i dont have time for this
sunspot: Sorry. Maybe I shouldnt pry so much. i just wanted to know if you were okay!
ndhakdvsnnd: im fine can you stop asking questions about me it makes me uncomfortable
sunspot: I’ll stop bugging you then. But Im here if you need anything! Like I said we are really grateful for the help so if theres anything we can do please just shout
ndhakdvsnnd: whos we
ndhakdvsnnd: ?
#whump#whump community#whump scenario#living weapon whumpee#whump prompt#living weapon#guilt#delta#paris
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this is fully a bad fanfiction vaguepost (pt 2) but: if we’re going to do transmasc alec we have to understand that the other undersiders (presuming all cis) would not be all cutesy and helpful about it. it would be like so
taylor: goes on a liberal mental monologue to herself about supporting transgender people but still resents alec for “wasting” being an objectively beautiful girl while she’s stuck over here looking mid as fuck, doesn’t understand why he’s not on T and working out 24/7 if he wants to be a man
brian: goes “ok that’s chill man” and does use the correct pronouns but unconsciously regards alec as a Different Type Of Guy than him (nothing has changed from canon)
rachel: has 0 idea he’s trans but if she found out she would go “Ok. I dont fucking care.” while having 0 idea what ‘trans’ means
lisa: scheduled his illegal top surgery, was considering giving him a “don’t worry we’re a SUPPORTIVE villain team ♥” spiel when she first met him but realized he would not give a single fuck and hasn’t brought the topic up again since
aisha: briefly nosy about it but he wouldn’t give a single fuck about that either and the friendship would continue as scheduled. their new bit is aisha condescendingly telling brian or taylor entirely fake and made up and insane sounding things about trans people while alec nods sagely in the background and goes “it’s true you know”
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girl i want bottom surgery so bad! jfc. i feel like this is part of why a lot of online trans women "culture" feels off to me, because of a general assumption of everyone being non op (or a very generous interpretation would say "a general assumption of everyone being non-op and pre-op", but we know that people dont like to talk about trans women wanting bottom surgery at all).
it's genuinely weird and alienating. like posts that say shit like "a girl without a dick is like an angel without wings" like what are you on girl why do u hate your sisters so much? or those horny posts like "get your local trans girl a pumpkin today!" under the assumption that trans women love to top a pumpkin. or something. idek. it's really strange
but back on point. i had my orchi in 2018. i was going to like. doctors and shit back in 2019 and early 2020 but cancelled all my stuff cause of the start of the pandemic. i woulda been done by now if that shit hadnt happened. i want bottom surgery so fucking much the dysphoria is hitting again a lot lately. damn.
also TMI but i used to not ask ppl to refer to my situation as a clit but lately that's been how it's going and it's way fuckin nice i used to think it was cheesy back when i was a baby trans; but it ain't! that's just correct terminology
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god being a trans guy is genuinely so hard. if i want friends, i have to accept that theyre going to misgender me. i can't feel anything because if i'm angry, i'm dangerous. if i identify as non binary, i need to accept that people will pretend i'm NOT transmasc. if i correct people on my pronouns, they 'correct' themself by using they/them. if i want to pass, i cant smile or laugh.
the thought of having long hair can make me cry. the thought of being a girl is the worst thing ever to me. but people see me as a girl. people see me as a girl, even when i introduce myself with he/him. people will think of me as something im not no matter what. and they apologise. and maybe they mean it. but it doesnt matter. it's been too long and now i dont know if i'll ever be able to just be me, because i'm feminine and i love makeup but i want to go on T and i want top surgery and i want to be a boy.
i want to dress how i want and i want people to see me as a boy in a skirt. i want to be able to say it's NOT okay that you keep misgendering me. i want to be able to comfortably exist.
i dont want to be excluded from women and girl's spaces because i dont feel safe around men or boys. i want to be able to exist without throwing away the fact that i was raised as a girl and that i grew up as a girl but i also want people to both understand that and also understand that i'm NOT a girl.
i dont want to be dangerous. i dont want to be a little girl. i want to be me and i dont know if i can ever do that.
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hi im sorry if this is weird to ask and you definately dont have to answer, but how did you start transitioning? im sure its different outside the us, but i guess i mean like more how did you get the "courage" to ig? im just now in my early 20s and i want to start before its "too late", but im just worried abt so much shit surrouding it (family, my job, school, etc) and it stops me everytime i get close to trying to
im sorry, idk i just remeber seein your top surgery pics a while back and thought abt asking for a bit cause im kinda alone in this. its okay if you dont respond, ik this might be like a hard subject
hello, this isnt a weird question at all, especially if you find yourself in a situation where you feel alone about this matter.
before i begin, obviously none of the things i say are a guide or should be taken as exact reference, they are just my experience, precautions i took and things i realized/explored; this will also be LONG
i began transitioning around 2016 (i was 19-20 iirc), this is when i began to reconsider my gender and how i saw myself, i wasnt sure about my stance on myself so i used the label genderfluid as that was what felt right atm, i wasnt sure if i really wanted to be a guy or just felt like it every so often; back then i only confided this information to my then boyfriend
i began using a different name online, tried different clothing and also got my hair cut way short for the first time, basically tried and experienced, i was also used to crossplaying often (cosplaying male characters)
in 2018 i was fully set with the idea i wanted to be a man, id fully take on the role of one online and i had already told other friends i trusted about this
i stopped using the label of genderfluid by this time as well, i also tried binding a bit but it was complicated for me so it wasnt long lived but definitely helped in settling the idea of what i wanted
in 2020-2021 i came out to my parents, i tested the waters *a lot* first, i brought up topics like having transgender friends or similar too see how they would react, luckily they both did positively. after this i felt confident in telling everyone else irl
in 2022 i got my legal name change (the process in Argentina is basically a re-enacment of your birth certification with your preferred name and gender, i dont know if this is different or the same elsewhere), and in 2023 i got top surgery, the overall healing process was around 6 months, i did require aid for things like getting up from bed and eating
i was freshly 26 for my surgery by 2023, what im trying to say is for some people its something that could take a lot of time while others might find instantly this is their correct way to feel and be, but its also never too late or never too early and its also okay to change your mind and go back on how you felt, utimately its your decision to take
truthfully you will have to think and consider hard in which areas and with which people you feel safe sharing your gender, some people might not be open to the idea and depending on the circumstances it might not be worth the risk (like at a job or school) unless you have a backup plan to fall onto if it comes to a worst case scenario; i hid these things from my family for a lot of time (especially my internet-disconnected, right-leaning dad)
i think "closet" transitioning or just taking small steps that can be subtle to others is a good idea if you are still unsure about your situation and/or environment, in the sense of exploring ideas, terms, feelings, and with things like trying on different clothes or changing the way you present yourself in a smaller scale (like friends you trust or online presence)
i think its also important i was an adult by this time, therefore (as stupid as this sounds because it is) i had more credibility in the eyes of others to my emotions and how i felt, but this is something that depends and varies with the environment you are in and the people that surround you
ultimately it truly never is late or early, its okay if you try it and change your mind, no one is going to punish you for it and no one is entitled to how you feel about yourself other than you; i hope this helped in any way and if not feel free to ask again about more specific ideas or topics regarding this
#ask#syd.txt#again not weird and feel free to inquire again#long post#also no hrt talk because i currently dont have experience with that yet
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doc, is it trans to want top surgery (ftm) when you get older? /gen im struggling with myself rn
im afraid that is a question youll have to answer for yourself, my friend! there are a lot of trans men that want/get top surgery, but not all trans men want/are able to get top surgery, and that doesnt make them any more or less trans. and while im on the topic, you dont have to be a trans man to want top surgery either. the point is, if youre trans, how you decide to deal with that is completely up to you! there is no correct way to be trans. and even if you arent, it doesnt matter! theres no correct way to be you. do your research, experiment with what you like, and do what you think will make you happy and be the best for you. if that means top surgery then thats great! if not, thats fine too! in the end only you can decide who you are and what you want, and i think thats wonderful.
#personally top surgery is one of the best decisions i ever made#but its not going to be for everyone#and it doesnt have to be#but if its something you want then i wish you luck!!#i will do anyones top surgery. you have to trust me i can be trusted. smiles#the doc is in#replies from the void#important
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Hi finch! It's the person talking about binders a lot again. I just need other people to bounce thoughts off of bc I don't know anyone else irl who's trans/transmasc.
For context, I'm afab but not a woman and also not a man. I used to be a girl bc i was raised that way and didn't know there were other options but i haven't grown into a woman. I dont want to grow into a woman. I'm pretty sure I'm agender? At least that sounds more correct than the other labels I've gone by (girl, demigirl, nonbinary). I guess I experience gender similarly to sexual attraction (aka I'm very confused and don't understand how other people know what their gender is or how they experience gender).
That's not the point of this though, it's (once again) the topic of top surgery. I feel like I'd be fine without getting it... like if I'm by myself my chest doesn't bother me. It's there and I don't hate it. I dont think I experience dysphoria, especially not the way other people do. But if I'm out in public I know that other people will notice my chest and read me as a woman and treat me accordingly as a result. THATS what bothers me, I think. I haven't gone swimming in a few years because of it and i kinda miss doing that... But I think if it wasn't seen as a woman thing/a widely sexualized part of the body I'd be fine just keeping my chest. But on the other hand I'm worried about opting to remove it. What if I regret that choice? What if I hate how I look after? I mean, once I have the surgery that's it, that's my body. And I guess I could keep a small bit of breast tissue but that's not the point lol
There's also the other side of the coin. I just looked in the mirror earlier and for a second my brain didn't register my chest and that felt so correct. It felt so right. But I'm still worried about making a decision because it'd be so much easier to just let my chest be the way it is because it doesn't bother me THAT much. And I wonder if a reduction would feel better but my chest is already on the small side (cant tell you the size bc i never bought real bras lol I've only ever worn sports bras) and I don't know if it would help me. Like what if I regret the reduction? Or on the flip side, what if I do it and it's not enough? I don't want to have to go under twice.
Idk, I've just been thinking about this for a few months now and I'm being indecisive about it. The decision will probably be influenced by how easily I could get the surgery (bc from what I've read you need a letter from a therapist and all that stuff here and also the insurances like to pretend that nonbinary people/people who wanto to do something other than the "normal/full transition" dont exist) and if I think it's worth the stress of having to explain those feelings that I dont even quite understand myself yet. I mean, having a surgery (or potentially going on hrt but somehow that is even more daunting than surgery to me) would make me visibly trans and I don't think my country is doing too well in regards to queer safety yet. I don't know if I want to be visibly trans but I know that I dont want to basically "fully transition" and be read as a man. That'd be too far in the other direction. Ideally I just want to confuse people but that sounds like an unsafe situation to be in, especially in my current almost fully cishet social circle...
Man, I wish Shape-shifting powers were real so I could just test things impermanently before actually going through with permanent changes. That'd make this whole thing so much easier.
Idk, I just wanted to be able to tell another trans person about this and maybe get some advice or something. Im so sorry about how long this got. Thank you for reading it! I appreciate your account a lot, it's nice to just read everyone's experiences. Thank you for running the account and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day.
Everyone, go hydrate! /nf
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Hey kiddo!! I completely understand those worries and my best advice is: if you have any doubts, don't do it. Top surgery is irreversible and it isn't worth it. Wait until you're 1000% sure. I completely understand that's hard and other people's assumptions is so annoying. I wish shape shifting skills were real too!!! That would be so handy.
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Me and my friend hung out for a few hours yesterday and yapped about op way too much so now i wanna contribute more sexuality hcs but for side characters instead of any specific group. you can have ur own hcs these r just mine
ace - TRANS TRANS TRANS TRANS TRANS you will believe in transmasc ace agenda. he is so trans, what are you doing walking around shirtless CONSTANTLY if not to flex your top surgery scars. he’d beat up anyone as a kid who called him a girl hes known this for a WHILE. sexuality wise hes gay, hes gay and theres not a hint of asexuality in him because hes a freak and unapologetically loves men openly. gay icon in the op world
law - i havent seen law being shipped with a woman once and i find that really funny and telling of what people think of him. and theyre correct, hes a gay man. difference between him and ace is that he’d rather die than admit he even likes people so yk. cis but he did ace’s top surgery
sabo - i have never before seen a character so very much be aromantic without being an implied aromantic character. hes not repulsed by romance its just that hes preoccupied with overthrowing the government and supporting his brothers at all times, he has other things to worry abt. gender, could be anything and could honestly fluctuate depending on the day. at the very least, he fist fights transphobes on the daily and in a modern au would hangout at iva’s drag bar and fight anyone who acts weird
yamato - if you dont think yamato is a transman i want you to get away from my blog okay thanks. that isnt a hc, thats a fact and ppl who disagree are weird in my eyes. sexuality wise, he could honestly like ANYONE, but he just finds himself drawn to men more often than not (ace) so if you were to ask him he’d just say “oh men are cool, women are pretty but you know i cant find myself drawn to them” and he thinks hes normal get a load of this guy
kaku - most proudly bisexual guy to exist. i think he started to think more to himself about things during his time at water 7. he could also be okay with it and live his life that way without any shame because he wasnt an assassin working for the government there, he was kaku so yk, he could actually openly be with whoever he wanted. gender, cis man but if you talk about him using they/them only he’d just laugh and not correct you
lucci - hah gay. him and kaku probably got married in water 7. cp9 questioned kaku for marrying lucci, meanwhile pauile just questioned to himself how things would work cause of the pigeon. lucci is such a gay man, he fucking trans too dont ask me how i know i just know. Ai can sniff out my fellow transguys from a mile away alright
kalifa - oh i love it when women hate on men but the second a woman shows up she acts all flirty and confident. totally heterosexual of you kalifa. no but shes such a man hating lesbian, she always has been and could probably be due to men’s treatment of her during childhood which made her really not like most of them. i need to write out a backstory for her damn. oh and shes trans trust me on that one
koby - sometimes a lot of op characters will be inlove with luffy and never get their feelings returned, and one of those people is koby. yeah hes gay, and asexual he just kept discovering stuff like that when training under garp cause garp is so okay with everything, and then we incorporate more moments between him and helmeppo like in the live action where they sit and talk about stuff. koby realises hes gay and sighs. “that explains a lot…”
buggy - gaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy he doesnt like women he cant bring himself to he had his first tragic yaoi relationship as a teen and never looked back. gender is whatever you want it to be baby. freaky as all hell my GOD every time im reminded of the cross guild and what they do to buggy i just know. theyre so freaky
shanks - bisexual icon but hes been hung up on the same ex (buggy) for so many years that other romances are less prioritised cause “omg what if buggy comes back:}” get over it man he aint coming back for u. trans man, look at him and his pussy yeah thats a trans dude hell yeah
Said friend i yapped with is —> @brooks-heart-sunglasses pookie 🤞
#noahsop#one piece#portgas d ace#revolutionary sabo#trafalgar law#koby one piece#buggy the clown#shanks#kalifa one piece#kaku one piece#rob lucci#headcanons#gay#lgbtq#asexual#ace#aromantic#aro#bisexual#bi#lesbian#trans
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I saw one of uyr most recent posts, and a thought occurred to me. (I know it was about more of a trans Masc experience but my question regards what could b describedas the opposite so i hope i dont trigger anybody). Can fat be transferred To the breasts? Cause I don't want plastic or silicon in my chest if possible. thans for reading
Lee says:
Yes, it is possible, but fat grafting can carry risks (necrosis, infection, lumps) and most of the fat that is grafted doesn't remain there and is reabsorbed by your body so it often requires multiple sessions.
As a result, fat grafting wouldn't be able to provide a comparable increase in breast size compared to implants.
Fat grafting might be used to correct small divots and smooth out the contour after someone has had a double mastectomy for top surgery, for example, but it wouldn't be used to increase the breast size by a cup or more as is typical in a breast augmentation.
Solid silicone and saline-filled non-textured breast implants are typically your best option for breast augmentation if estrogen does not create the breast growth you had hoped for.
A plastic surgeon can tell you more about the risks of implants, but risks may include:
Capsular Contracture: This is a condition where the scar tissue around the implant tightens, which can cause the breast to feel hard and may result in discomfort or changes in the breast's appearance.
Implant Rupture or Leakage: Breast implants can rupture or leak. A saline implant rupture will lead to deflation and an obvious change in breast size, while a silicone rupture may go unnoticed (silent rupture) but can cause pain, breast shape changes, or even local complications.
Infection and Bleeding: As with any surgical procedure, there's a risk of infection and bleeding. In some cases, the implant may need to be removed and reinserted after the infection is treated.
Changes in Sensation: Some people experience changes in nipple or breast sensation. This can be an increase or decrease in sensitivity and may be temporary or permanent.
Breast Pain: Some individuals might experience pain in their breasts following the surgery, which can be temporary or chronic.
Asymmetry or Unsatisfactory Cosmetic Outcome: There might be dissatisfaction with the aesthetic outcome, including issues like asymmetry, unsatisfactory size, or scarring.
Cancer: A rare but serious risk associated with certain types of textured breast implants is a type cancer.
Need for Additional Surgeries: Implants do not always last for your entire life. Over time, they may need to be replaced or removed due to various issues like cosmetic concerns or complications.
Interference with Mammograms: Breast implants can interfere with the detection of breast cancer during mammograms, requiring additional, specialized views.
Systemic Symptoms: Some individuals report a variety of systemic symptoms known as breast implant illness, including autoimmune diseases, joint pain, mental confusion, muscle aches and chronic fatigue.
While all of that sounds scary, and you may feel like the risks aren't worth the benefit for you, many folks undergo breast augmentation without complications. It's a choice each person has to make in consultation with a plastic surgeon based on their own needs, goals, and medical history.
Shared decision-making with a surgeon can help you decide whether breast augmentation is right for you. They can also help put the risks in context and can tell you the percent of patients that typically have those complications-- often it's pretty low.
So if you may be considering undergoing a breast augmentation, the potential for complications are something you should discuss with a surgeon-- they can also tell you more about what techniques can be used for augmentation.
Followers, anything to add?
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