#but can you actually blame me when i'm surrounded by this bullshit

[esta-elavaris]

Petty vent will probably delete later.

Power was out for a while today because of an electrical fault in the house. No power til mid-afternoon while we waited for an emergency electrician, which meant no kitchen appliances bar the stove, whatever, it's all good, I don't eat 'til like 3pm anyway, and I'd be fine with a sandwich or some porridge or whatever should worse come to worse. Completely survivable situation, I was actually happy to have a chance to sit and read with 0 distraction.

Grandparents, in light of this situation, offer to go and get some fast food for my brother and I, because my nana is a typical "if you don't eat every hour you're going to STARVE, but also you're too fat" grandparent.

We say no, flat out - we don't want fast food, we certainly don't want to send our elderly grandparents to get it (because we could always use the data on our fully-charged phones to order something if we did), we're adults, we're fine, but the offer is very kind.

By the time my aunt hears the story, it becomes "Lucy and Craig were demanding that the two 80+ year olds go out and buy them food because they couldn't make do when the power went out". Grandparents do NOTHING to refute this version of events.

All of these people wonder why we both avoid them so often, and why the only fuckers we actually seek out the company of in this family is that of each other.

I cannot be arsed, man. It's so fucking stupid as I type it down that it doesn't even sound real, bar to everybody who has met my family - the first words out of their mouths usually being "Lucy how are you so decent when this is what you came from?"

(Meanwhile all of our cousins treat them like servants with 0 gratitude, while doing not even 10% of what we do to help them, and if you comment on it, you're the devil.)

[socialfakes]

the locked heart of a celebrini -jack hughes-

part 2; chapter 3: in the summertime

nhl players x platonic abigail celebrini

jack hughes x abigail celebrini

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abbycelebrini | love hockey boys. especially my brother, my best friends and my boyfriend ❤ tagged: mackcelebrini, eklund_72, beckettsennecke_

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mackcelebrini i love you so much❤ | abbycelebrini i love you more ❤💙

beckettsennecke_ i love you so much ❤ | abbycelebrini i love you the most 💕😊

eklund_72 i love you so much gorgeous girl ❤ | abbycelebrini it's possible i love you more handsome boy 😊💙

sanjosesharks hockey boys are better than other boys | abbycelebrini i wholeheartedly agree

lila.donaghue don't blame you. they're all super hot, especially the ones you surround yourself with 🥵 | abbycelebrini mhm | abbycelebrini which ones in particular brought you to this conclusion? 🤨 | lila.donaghue certainly not mack 😅 | mackcelebrini 😊😉 | abbycelebrini um no

user5 in your opinion, who are the hottest players? | abbycelebrini 🤔🤔 | abbycelebrini sennecke, eklund, hughes, boeser, hischier & makar | user5 which hughes? | abbycelebrini 🤐🤫 | user5 okay fair

user7 beckett is hot

user2 anybody else dying to know who her boyfriend is? or is it just me? | mackcelebrini yes | user11 of course. but she's happy so as long as that sticks, i don't really care who she's dating | user4 i really wanna know. but, privacy. | lhughes_06 i wanna know too | jackhughes yeah. tell us who he is 😫 | abbycelebrini i would like to know as well

trevorzegras you don't love me? 🥺 | abbycelebrini nope 😂 | abbycelebrini not like that, at least

tofff73 we love you too 😊 | abbycelebrini 🥰

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abbycelebrini | first time going to the the hughes' lake house & i loved every minute of it 😊💙 tagged: _quinnhughes, jackhughes, mackcelebrini, trevorzegras, eklund_72, lhughes_06, beckettsennecke_, colecaufield

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_quinnhughes you're always welcome here | abbycelebrini thank you quinn. it was a lot of fun | _quinnhughes it was a pleasure having you here

jackhughes loved every minute of it huh? | abbycelebrini you bet | jackhughes even when trevor and cole were fighting over the perfect toasted marshmallow and ended up throwing it at your face? | abbycelebrini yes even then. it was a funny memory | jackhughes wow. do you ever get mad? | abbycelebrini at you, always. everyone else? never | jackhughes whatever do you mean? i'm an angel | lhughes_06 bullshit 😂

beckettsennecke_ the most fun i've ever had in one summer ❤ | abbycelebrini thanks for coming with me

eklund_72 do we get to go back? | abbycelebrini eventually, i promise

colecaufield pleasantly enjoyed your company this summer 😊 | abbycelebrini you're so cute 😊

user7 you're so lucky. you got to spend the summer with some of the hottest people on the planet

lila.donaghue what? why wasn't i invited? | abbycelebrini you were in cuba with your family all summer, doofus

user4 luke is so cute in that pic | abbycelebrini luke is always cute ❤ | lhughes_06 🥰

mackcelebrini loved this summer. thanks guys for having us | jackhughes come back any time 😊 | abbycelebrini oh so you can be nice to mack but not me? | jackhughes hey i actually like mack 😂 | abbycelebrini 😔🥺💔

lhughes_06 loved having you here this year | abbycelebrini good because i plan on coming back every year for the rest of my life 😉 | user12 does that mean you're dating a hughes? | abbycelebrini 🤷🏻‍♀️

trevorzegras i completely apologize for hitting you in the face with the marshmallow | abbycelebrini it's okay trev. it was an accident 😊

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beckettsennecke_ | happy birthday to my absolutely gorgeous stunner of a best friend. lucky to have known you as long as i have. hope you had a wonderful birthday, beautiful. i love you so much 🥰 tagged: abbycelebrini

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abbycelebrini oh, becks. i'm gonna cry. i love you so much 😭❤ no words can explain just how grateful i am for you 😘 | beckettsennecke_ i love you | abbycelebrini oh and thank you for the flowers 😍 | beckettsennecke_ anything for you, love

user6 jealous of her hair. oh my

jackhughes wow. she is beautiful 😔 | abbycelebrini thought you didn't like me 😂 | jackhughes just because i don't like you, doesn't mean i can't appreciate an aesthetically pleasing beauty when i see one

lhughes_06 happy birthday 🥳❤ | abbycelebrini thank you 😊

_quinnhughes i can't believe i almost missed her birthday. happy birthday abby 🥳❤ | abbycelebrini thank you quinn

user4 she's so pretty | beckettsennecke_ isn't she? 😍

user7 the view looks incredible | beckettsennecke_ the view really was incredibly gorgeous | user7 you talking the actual view or abby? | beckettsennecke_ take a wild guess 😏

eklund_72 she still there with you? | beckettsennecke_ yeah | eklund_72 can you tell her i said happy birthday and that i'll see her when she gets home | beckettsennecke_ of course | abbycelebrini can't wait to see you 😊

user1 hey good lookin. happy birthday | abbycelebrini i love you

sanjosesharks happy birthday to our favorite girl 🥳💙🦈

officialsjsharkie happy birthday gorgeous 🥳💙🦈

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[mdhwrites]

if you've seen Steven universe how would you compare it to TOH? I've seen many takes that TOH is Steven Universe 'done correctly' which drives me up a wall, especially since TOH has a lot of the same flaws as SU (pretty much everyone has to be tied to steven in some way- the same way everyone's gotta tie into Luz, White Diamond pisses me off for the same reason the collector does and dear god both finales are messes and the worldbuilding is also kind of messy) but pretty much everyone can agree that Steven Universe's themes of restorative justice are good, its themes surrounding interpersonal relationships and intergenerational trauma is good- I've seen people justify how TOH handles its villains 2 ways "its doing steven universe's restorative justice but like correctly" or "its about killing your oppressors, which steven should have done" which is dumb. Idk this fandom has a huge hate-boner for SU and Amphibia in general though. I also saw someone have the take the collector and belos where foils which... Is weird I can see where they come from but they never are put together in a way that highlights their similarities and differences. So what are some actual comparisons that can made between the shows outside of LGBT characters and surface level stuff?

Sadly I have not seen Steven Universe so I can't really comment on much of it. I've seen the first episode (both halves), decided the gems were insufferable to me and Steven was okay and went on with my life because at the time, I was a full time college student and a part time Walmart employee. I do like some of the songs that have reached me but I never got an in with the show, especially since my early experience with it was much like Gravity Falls where I heard a lot of high concept stuff about it but not much about why I would actually enjoy a given episode, what was enjoyable about the characters, etc. like that. Honestly, the only criticism I know of for it is that people hate the ending.

BUT.

I have seen one other thing. I have seen about twenty minutes of the Steven Universe movie. With that I can say one thing definitively even if it's not clearing a high bar: The Diamond's turn to good is better than the Collector's because they have literally ANY reason to listen to the person preaching at them. The Collector doesn't. In fact, he has no reason to reform and it is drastically out of character for him to care about... Anyone?

Let me start on the Diamond's side because I don't have a lot to say about this but it is something I'm surprised I haven't heard anyone talk about: They were clearly traumatized by the loss of Pink Diamond. Whether or not you think this is a good part of the plot isn't what matters, the point is that this is a literal fact to the story. This grief has gone unresolved for literal decades (just going by Steven's lifespan, someone in my Discord provided the context that they blamed themselves for her DEATH, not just disappearance, for CENTURIES which only bolsters the point I'm making) and has festered in them a desperation for their old comrade? Friend? I don't 100% know but you get the point. So when her son arrives and can't be kept by force, they're going to be pretty amenable to listen to whatever demands means keeping him around. Is that great? No, I wouldn't say it is as the question of what happens when Steven dies is there but it works for forcing them to consider the consequences of their actions and how they may need to change to have the life they desire. It is a compelling force for the first step of change. It's not amazing but it is at least functional from a narrative standpoint, an emotional standpoint and from a character standpoint. Not that it's great but that it is functional. You can string together how this works without having to just invent bullshit.

The Collector has none of these three because he's the literal fucking worst.

I've talked about this before but the Collector isn't the child the fandom treats him as. Even if we try to disconnect the second season version of the Collector, who very much so knows what death is and the consequences of his actions, S3 Collector does have a foil to Belos: He's an actual colonizing piece of shit. Not in that he is literally colonizing places but in mindset. Everything to him is something to be used for his entertainment or enrichment or it is to be stripped of all rights and brutally oppressed until it fits the role he desires. This is what happens when you become a LITERAL. FUCKING. DOLL. And he even has enforcers like the armies colonies would use that have wildly more powerful magic, i.e. technology, in order to make that oppression more seamless. Remember: Hexside is actively hiding from roaming stars that he just has going around the Isles that hoover up people, making at least those who resist into dolls immediately without question, and then bringing them to him to be new play toys in his game. That is explicitly what he has been doing to the entire Isles for MONTHS once S3 episode 2 happens.

People do not matter to him and this even extends to King. When King steps out of line, The Collector cracks the whip. He's even willing to KILL KING for having the gall of caring about anyone other than him. Those death games would be just as lethal to King as it would be to Eda and Luz after all. And if you actually do divorce S2's "PLAY AMONGST THE BONES!" line (which is fucking awful because you have to remove literally all of the first appearances of a character which is usually considered, you know... Bad) and believe that he doesn't know what death is... He knows what pain is. He knows what torture is. He knows the despair of being trapped in a space where you can't move or act or do anything except watch as an observer on a world that could destroy you at any moment because your prison is all of your being.

And then he makes people into dolls, with consciousness, without a second thought. He is willing to BREAK people in order to make them play along. His literal plan was to shatter the bodies of the Owl House trio over and over and over again until they were subservient to his desires. That is WORSE than just wanting to kill them. And he only stops to throw a tantrum because he fails to succeed and starts whining about it like any selfish asshole not getting his way. Not like a child: Like a selfish asshole.

So with ALL of this, what does the show do to try to make him consider the consequences of his actions? Well... Nothing. It claims it's trying to do something but the tour with the trio is much more a circle jerk about how amazing the show was and how much could have happened if not for the shortening ("That sounds like something that could have been its own spin off!" Or whatever King says to Eda talking about her and Raine's time at Hexside) than it is about talking to the Collector. There's a couple lines here and there, talking to him about what works for making friends but does it stick?

No, the Collector learns nothing and in mocking Steven Universe, they make that clear. The Collector is told that people are complex and you must show compassion. Rather than actually believing this, he uses it like a blunt hammer, just like all of his other solutions, to make a problem of his go away. That's why he hugs Belos and assumes it will work. He is not considering the complexity of humanity or the person he is applying this to. It is just to solve a problem so he'll get praised and go back to playing his games. Nothing. More.

And then he fucks off instead of fixing the damage he'd done because why would he stay? Why would he help? He hasn't learned anything and he doesn't want to help these people. He has NO motivation for why he helps save the Archive except otherwise he loses his sweet crash pad. So afterwards? He's gonna go somewhere where he can be himself and not be scolded for it because this toy is no longer fun.

Edit: He does stay to change everyone back from dolls. That much more falls into the "It's the ending, we have to have the problem only he can fix be fixed by him" despite the fact that he is responsible for so much more destruction that would theoretically be pretty easy for him to fix as well. He only does what is demanded of him for the sake of a happy ending, not because of character motivation, not from how I see it at least.

The most condemning part of this is that it's all around Luz. All around someone he doesn't like. He sees Luz as trying to take away his only friend after all and, you know, he is correct about that. They don't even try to hide that fact during the tour. They're still clearly upset with him and not even trying to be his friend, they're just lecturing him. It doesn't work from a character perspective, a narrative perspective or an emotional one. King MIGHT have with better writing, there's a reason I always wanted the Collector redeemed by one of his games forcing him to have to kill King by the rules he made before breaking it and having to face how that's unfair and cruel to others since they wouldn't get that leniency, but that's not how the show plays it. King is an unwilling servant for one episode and then VERY against the Collector in the next until after the death games. When he first shows up, King isn't trying to mediate, he is ready to fight just like the other two. He's not the Collector's friend and he never was so why would the Collector bother listening to him?

That is why me saying the Diamonds, even with my limited knowledge, works better than the Collector is almost literally the worst you can do when it comes to something like this. All the setup is wrong, the catalyst requires explicit retcons and don't work with the character and the payoff is... Nothing. Literally nothing. The only way to have done it worse is to have had everyone praise the Collector before he then stabbed Amity and no one acted like that was a problem. It can only function because we are TOLD he's redeemed even if he never shows it.

Andrias standing alone as a farmer, accepting the punishment for his actions and trying to make better on them, is such better payoff to a redemption arc than anything the Collector gets and his redemption was in character and setup by his past. So then let's get to one of your last points: Why is it that the TOH fandom rags on SU and Amphibia so much, especially for their endings, when theirs is such shit?

Well... Because that's the reputation of TOH. That it is the 'good' one. That it is better than almost all other media. The show itself, with moments like the Collector mocking the SU ending by hugging Belos, reinforces this. As such, for you to criticize TOH as failing in a department that other shows are not rapturously praised for is to fall out of sync with the show itself. As such, all other works must be placed beneath it, especially if those are widely believed to have a flaw in an element to then raise TOH up with. This is part of why so many people want to say the Amphibia ending is wrong because the Amphibia ending is brave and controversial and saying something while the TOH ending?

I mean... Do you really think the Collector's the only part of it objectively flawed like this? Because if a major redemption for your big bad is botched this badly, you can bet other problems exist. I've talked about them at length. But there are probably people out there who would call me the Lily Orchard of TOH if I was better known.

See you next tale.

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That last line isn't an endorsement of Lily Orchard btw, just that I have to imagine it's the label I would be given. What little exposure I've had to her works is... YIKES. Just fucking yikes. My Discord has really enjoyed every time I've live reacted to a video of hers they've posted there. sigh

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[renpil]

returned to this abandonned cold room, probably a former restaurant's, in which people recently removed a large panel from the insulating wall i guess as an attempt to uncover a hidden room. only to find the cave-like walls of the basement behind

cold room's hygrometer still in place on the opposite side ; this whole part of the buildings is semi-underground and windowless

then climbed to the empty apartments on the two highest floors, had to literally *cut* through lots of brambles to manage to enter there. the whole place is devastated and has like 8 entire apartments empty, a good chunk of it really dark

got an opinion : i don't know how u feel about "urbex", but personally i kind of disavow the term. i did such things way before i was even aware of the word, and i think children and people probably always entered and spent time in abandonned and empty places. it makes me think that in a way the simple act of trespassing in empty places doesn't fully overlap what "urbex" is.

so, what "urbex" would mean then, more precisely ? as it can't simply be trespassing, i think it is left with a few specific things like the broadcasting of the activity, as well as seeing it as an activity on its own, and more importantly, its commodification. you can sell blogs, books, exhibitions, and even actual places using "urbex" as a signifier. the "aesthetics" of devastation as a whole became commodified ; occasionally, you'll see professional urbexers go further and defend "urbex ethics" : do not take anything, do not deteriorate the place further, do not move anything, do not *use* the place (in short, make it a museum)

these fairly common "rules" alongside with commodification are kind of bullshit in my opinion ; it transforms it into a purely aesthetic experience, dismissing as illegitimate any form of squat or scavenging, or to deliver yourself from frustrations, breaking some shit. so many times i thought that the discourse of some professional urbexers radiated a weasely desire to privatize abandonned buildings and control what happens in them, even though they're doing something illegal like us all.

empty and abandonned places have fairly common uses like occasional squatting, and i use them for that ; to find seclusion and space to do stuff i otherwise wouldn't feel comfortable to do, when i'm surrounded with people ; it's an opportunity for some people to sleep a couple nights with a roof above their heads, crack some beers, smoke some joints without being seen ; if there's something interesting to take, i will surely do rather than letting it rot, and i think that's fine and cool.

though i don't want to dismiss "urbex" entirely because it would be a bit pretentious, and i don't think that "urbexers" are broadly responsible for its commodification. some of them seem like geniune chill guys. some people and practices can be blamed in some ways though imo. anyways, some more pics of these apartments :

wish i could someday paint bullshit on my walls like that without having to fear the annihilation of my face by some landlord

roofs, etc... there's even more empty and abandonned buildings on the same block but i think the rest of it is either innaccessible or still somewhat in use. so that's all for now.

[sapphire-weapon]

about re6 aeon and more aeon down the line this is what you said.

"And that is why Ada's been absent from ID, Vendetta, and DI -- and why she was originally planned to be in RE8. Her story with Leon is over. The two of them are now free to pursue independent storylines, even if they do still wind up running into each other again in the future -- they won't be beholden to each other the same way."

BUT the makeup compact is still there, existing because of the old arc. If leon and ada appear together again with a new arc and the compact is brought up, who is to say their new arc would be "new" and not just an extension of the old one, especially when there is romantic connotations behind the compact. and like you said re9 is being directed by the romance guys too. so what if the new arc is their journey to finally be together and not just "will they/wont they" lol.

see, this is the kind of question i like getting -- because it shows some actual thought on your guys' end. you read what i said, you thought about what i said, and you now have a new thought that's formed as a result.

so, a few things.

first:

RE doesn't do that with plot points. it just doesn't. we'll see steve burnside again before we see that compact again. and before anyone goes "but marvin's knife---" that was RE4make. hirabayashi was lucky enough to create RE4make as a direct sequel to RE2make. OG, mainline RE doesn't do that.

second:

leon's reaction to receiving the compact from helena matters. "women..." for him is shorthand for either "i don't understand her" or "she doesn't understand me." in this case, it's "she (helena) doesn't understand me." i've talked before about how helena exists as a juxtaposition for leon looking into a mirror at his RE2 self, so i won't go over it again, but this was just another moment of helena channeling RE2 leon -- and, in this particular case, it's meant to showcase current-day leon having outgrown his RE2 mindset.

this moment is meant to be payoff for leon's character development in RE6. so, it doesn't actually make sense for him to continue to attach sentimental value to the compact; it undermines his arc for him to do that. RE6 is written like absolute dog shit, and the change moment in leon's arc doesn't actually come until he's faced with the opportunity to run away with ada. his change comes when he turns it down -- so, shaking his head and being dismissive about the compact is meant to be the payoff. I'M SORRY RE6 IS SO SHITTY OK I'M SORRY IT SUCKS but it is what it is.

third:

you can only really extend an arc by making it recursive. but a recursive arc can't immediately follow the conclusion of a positive arc; a recursive arc needs a buffer in order to justify its existence -- more needs to happen first, because otherwise it just undermines the positive change and makes it seem like a lie.

two recursive arcs i can think of off the top of my head are cloud and vegeta. majin vegeta wouldn't have made sense if it happened immediately following the freeza arc -- because it would come off like vegeta was just being insincere about his desire for justice during his death scene on namek, and he never really changed, and he's just still up to the same old villainous bullshit he always was. the cell saga had to happen in between in order to solidify his status as an ally in order for his recursive arc to work.

and advent children got so much flack from the west when it was released, because the way it was released made it seem like cloud's character arc in 7 didn't matter. JP got the on the way to a smile stories first, which went through all of the bullshit surrounding geostigma and how cloud blamed himself for it all. so, by the time AC hit, for JP, cloud being the way he was in that movie made sense. but for the west, cloud went from "let's mosey" to horribly depressed deadbeat dad, and it made the western audience feel like nomura just threw out the entire last 1/3 of cloud's character arc in 7.

and that brings us to a second issue with the idea of a recursive aeon arc: the point of a recursive arc is to reinforce and strengthen the change that was brought on by a positive change arc. if a character goes through a change arc that ends up feeling weak, the writer can put in a recursive arc to strengthen that change. it's similar to the concept of a bone mending stronger than what it was before it was broken.

in vegeta's case, he was still kind of a shitbag throughout the cell saga. he was definitely on the side of the heroes, but he was never happy about it. so turning him majin in the buu saga was what finally brought personal conviction to his character with regards to his change.

in cloud's case, nomura felt that too much of cloud's change arc was dependent on cloud feeling as though he's kept promises to his friends, so he wanted those promises to bend and even break so that cloud finally changed for his own sake and not the sake of other people.

so, even if they went recursive with leon and ada, it would still not result in aeon endgame; RE9 would have to end with them in the same place as RE6 left them: definitively walking away from each other -- and, this time, feeling really fucking confident about it.

but i honestly don't even know what you could conceivably do to leon to make him go into a recursive arc with ada -- especially since DI already did the work to reinforce leon's positive change in 6. his eyes are fully open, he doesn't blindly trust anymore, and he's fully aware of the reality of his life and situation. the opportunity to go back with him is gone. you can only really go forward.

finally:

just because RE9 is being written by the romance guys doesn't mean it has to be aeon. RE4make should've taught you that.

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

Me and Big Name Fandumb Straggots petitprincess1 and ayylmao.tv after I call them out on their bullshit and block them, basically...But especially petitprincess1...

Because wasn't the entirety of that movie one big transphobic rape joke basically and she thought using a tacky, "sassy" gif of that Jim Carry bullshit even back in 2020 was a serve?

And yes, this fandumb does sexualize everything but in a very Bad Form, telling, neo nazi simping way kind of way that just dries up all moistness from the cunt when the rest of y'all can't seem to keep the word "degeneracy" out of your cheato dust breathing, incel/femcel mouths even "ironically" and that's why I couldn't bare trying to recommend these shows to any of my actually filthy, fucking John Waters loving queer friends who actually know who he is and actually know how to fuck. Because some of y'all fucked up the vibe so badly, in the Bad, Bad way... And I still (somewhat) blame Ashley Nicholas and her moistphobia for "Trend Setting" all that Bad, bad taste. Still tastes like that sauceless chikn nuggit (so if vivziepop actually made coco melon for tenderqueers... Oop!) Baja Blast flavored Furry Has -Been Tears, cheato dust, transphobia, and bad eggs in here sometimes and honestly if you're not a fanartists with loved ones keeping the vibes alive I'm kind of over it... My literal, crippled hands give me every excuse to write these think pieces while I'm waiting for my fanartist to help me complete and debut my character so I can focus on creating more art for her-- but these abled-bodied nasties have no excuse to be spamming the space with clickbait and gossip blogs regurgitating Medrano's every move on social media while harassing other artists and creators to the point where it just over saturates everything else good in this fandom and I have to turn my replies and everything off because abled bodied mentally ills get so offended when you call them abled bodied mentally ill and then I get an ask insulating I'm going "anti" when the insult was directed towards an anti who was essentially trying to tip my wheelchair over like a cow and block evading and harassing me in the first place-

Oh and let's not forget that I got screamed at, block evaded, harassed some more and called "biphobic" by another alleged bi girl, all for the crime of calling her "honey" but I guess I'm just gate keeping now because no actual queer person would think using a gif from Ace Ventura was an own and I guess that's why we have ayylmao.tv as our Fandumb Overlord and V*rb*l A*e as our Fandumb Mascot because we've learned from the Voluntary Celibates for The Radio Demon how BUNDADDY Ashley Nichols taught y'all during her SMUT SALONS to be too afraid of THE MOIST to go out and Experience some ACTUAL HUMAN CUNT, COCK, AND PUSSY despite being SURROUNDED BY ALL THESE PUSSY CUNT CUNT CARTOON WOMEN AND FURFAGS AND ALL THEIR PUSSY CUNT CUNT DICKS AND VAMPIRIC HENTAI TESTICLES. DRACULA GOT REINCARNATED INTO ALUCARD GOT REINCARNATED INTO A DEER, IN A STORY WITHOUT ALL THE NAZIS, COPS, OR RAPE BECAUSE IT'S WRITTEN BY A QUEER WOMEN, AND Y'ALL LET A STRAIGHT MAN PULLING A BLEEDMAN AND SIMPING NEO NAZI GAMERS BE LIKE: "I dont see why people want to fuck this character at all! UWU" AND THEN Y'ALL LISTENED TO A PEWDIEPIE ENJOYER MAKING A CLICK BAIT FARM OF A QUEER WOMAN'S ART AND YOU LET HIM BECOME THE FACE OF "HELLAVERSE" YOUTUBE MAKING "CONTENT" ABOUT "WORSE" CLICKBAIT BROS LATELY LIKE HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE ELON MUSK KEEPING DONALD TRUMP IN CHECK AND THEN I GUESS PETITPRINCESS1, V*RB*L A*E AND THAT OTHER V-TUBER BITCH I DON'T GIVE ABOUT JUST GET TO SHARE THE ONE KANYE WEST BRAINCELL-- THERE I SAID WHAT I SAID!

But this fandom space and the louder youtube fandumb space in general just makes it feel so unsafe to be a minority sometimes and I'm actually understanding why actual queer women and femmes with queer experiences outside the fandom, including actual kink and leather spaces, just cannot bring themselves to interact with it, or take it seriously as an Iconic Piece of Queer Media, despite Medrano's General Aesthetics and Good Choices being *SO* Objectively Pussy Cunt Cunt Slay! The fucking majority of the time.

Because hey, I can admit it, Medrano's Bad Choices ARE cringe, and her scorned ex crew members and the internet personas that tend to attract her attentions are even more so... And it sort of does bring down the mood a bit. But that's honestly just the consequence of being a young Scene Queen interacting with Fur Fags and Theater Kids the majority of her career so I can give her grace and forgive her.

The song 'Loser Baby' and these shows exist the way they do for a reason and I wouldn't change who Medrano is or her journey that brought her here for the the world.

And much like with Diablo Cody, and Jennifer's Body... First of all, I will be calling out the ableism Medrano lets Rogers write into her show sometimes, AND I'm not saying that Medrano herself has any control over the people marketing her shit, including her merch, or the people spreading misinfo she's sometimes maybe forced to interact with because of the environment that this creates, including incels monopolizing and monetizing anything having to do with her shit for their own gain ... BUT! That doesn't mean that while I suffer here I can't critique Medrano's Wider Fanbase and how it got like this because I do believe this youtube and vivziepaparazzi problem, with certain types of people having nothing better to do than re-posting and commentating on her every word.... All the time... IS a type of unfortunate trickle down by product of Medrano coming of age on the Internet in what was, at the time Metrosexual Scene Kid Fur Fag Central and thus today, because of everything she went through, her and her work can tend to attract another certain kind of lackadaisical person, for lack of a better term, who just does not give a single fuck about anything unless it offends them personally just because it gets "too political UWU" and makes *Insert Political Majority Here* "Uncomfortable" and "We should just all be here to enjoy the animation and sing Jambalaya blah blah blah bc antis bullied us into having a Victim Complex so now every 'Controversy' involving race, ability, gender or sexual orientation unless they're already considered 'degenerate' by cishet white male gamer dudebro standards is Invalid and any actual queer/femme in the fandom serving much more Queerer Pussy Cunt Cunt Looks and Opinions than we're used to by talking to the rest of like we're adults who don't need everything to be a SING-ALONG despite what Jim Carry and Jeff Bezos think? Well, that person MUST just be an Anti taking it too far and out to destroy the Community We Made out of Clickbait because she's being so Mean and Ruuuuuuuude~! UWU"

And honey, I'm just here to give y'all a Reality Check and spill that tea because any queer here is gonna opinions and Tell The Truth this Cunty it's the Crippled Girl who's Felt Personally Victimized by Brandon Rogers, has absolutely no parasocial relationship complex with Medrano whatsoever and thus can admit that she does have bad taste in (most) internet personalities (besides honestly Brandon) and that Sausage Party, Medrano's general affinity for DudeBro Humor that got Vaggie actually named "Vagina" and probably honestly brought a good chunk of her "DudeBro" fandumb over to help bronify the fandom (aside from maybe the actual can of worms hiring and retiring an actual brony and outted grommer probably opened..) Dear Evan Henson, and Owl City all suck... And while we're at it, Beetlejuice The Musical and the effect it had on the girlies in that fandom sucks too, but I like how it inspired Medrano so and I like what she did with it, so I'll give her that.

But you guys? The YouTube/Twitter Clickbait Incels and Femcels who think someone gayer than you going "Hon.." is an insult? I'm gonna give you one last read for the night from an An Inspiring Drag Creature...

Almost every single male voice actor in the Hazbin pilot just got replaced with someone hotter, nicer and more charming and attractive than them and y'all with extra hotties added on to the official cast and given their chance to shine and y'all complained about that. You COMPLAINED! Some retired pilot actors even went on twitter to encourage you by complaining about feeling insecure and unattractive in comparison too ... I realize that. 💀

But then Valentino's Official Voice Actor had to show up lying shirtless in bed on Twitter like G and tell y'all to calm down because basically for a lot of reasons, the wider fandumb space ain't giving Pussy, ain't giving Cunt, Ain't Giving Slay, and we love Stella, her brother, who's fucking her or badly wants to, Valentino, Crimson, and Striker here in Adult Land because their designs are Pussy Pussy Cunt Cunt Slay and all their voice actors are fucking hot too... I don't know how to word this without repeatedly empathizing one word multiple times but fictional written incest fiction and some pre- agreed upon fictional incest role play between two consenting and unrelated adults can be fucking hot too but some of y'all with your moistphobias just aren't ready for that very adult conversation and would flip your shits if the cookie actually crumbled like that in canon!

My name is Luna Worst, apparently...

In conclusion:

Can y'all tell I finally snapped, went off my shitz and pinched The Leprechaun today and do you think he's gonna turned me into gold? Meaning a monetized clickbait "explainer" video in which he calls me "Insane" because as a Thorny Irish Rose in a fandom where fools be kissing the blarney stone, making clickbait content farms off a Fiery Latina because they have no bitches of their own, I proudly claim it's my fight as a beautiful Irish Bitch to hold an Ugly Irish Arsehole giving Jason McGuire from Dark Shadows meets Perez Hilton meets That Creepy Reading or whateverthefuck accountable and finally kill the fucking bastard if I have to! :D

Merry Sinsmas, everyone! ;)

[violet-moonstone]

Skuld the Sorceress headcanons

shoutout to the httyd comics for giving me a bunch of characters to use in my fanfic. (this is for my thw rewrite)

so my backstory on skuld is that sometime after the events of httyd 2, she joins forces with the northern alliance, and while she's still up to her "sorceress" bullshit (at least thats the plan for now) she also has legitimately useful information about the barbaric archipelago that she's learned from travelling around and duping people. so she is actually useful but probably uses the mysticism to embellish and make herself appear more powerful. I think it would be great if she were like the mellisandre to drago's stannis (as in a mystical advisor blowing smoke up his ass about his destined greatness. i use a lot of asoiaf characters as analogies. except in this case skuld isnt a true believer, she's just a survivor who will say and do anything necessary). I really want to have some scenes of her giving vague-ass prophecies about the outcome of battles that could be interpreted as positive or negative based on the desires of the person listening. i love when shit like that happens.

I imagine she's particularly good friends with griselda the grievous and despite not being particularly fond of children in general, she likes griselda and chaghatai's kids, especially oktai . I'm thinking chaghatai probably sees through the sorceress thing and doesn't trust her. ragnar is probably scared of her.

I want drago and skuld to actually be completely head over heels for each other but extremely hesitant to show anything other than lust because both of them think about love as a weakness. aghhh i cant get them out of my head!

also im using the premise of the fire tides as setup, so drago has that tormpentipede dragon attatched to his shoulder. uh...this is going to make intimacy between them...interesting. i have some ideas but idk how wild i wanna make things

anyway im in love with this villain couple and i need to draw them (especially with skuld in some new outfits i have in mind for her. i put some inspiration photos below)

got some mellisandre obviously. the second photo is great because wings of war (working title for the wip) is also going to take place in fall/winter and i love the image of skuld surrounded by drago's freezing, exhausted soldiers meanwhile she's all elegant and unscathed

hildur from norsemen. i love this conniving bitch with my whole heart. she's my favourite character in the show. also definitely using her fur lined cloak as inspiration

reluctantly adding skade the witch from the last kingdom because i cant stand her but i like her clothes and accesories. I love the concept of her character but idk...maybe it was the acting? something about her felt whiny and juvenile when she should have been intimidating and sultry. anyway. next.

morgana pendragon my actual wife. i. love. her. free my girl, she did all of that but like...can you blame her???

anyway, i think my ideas for skuld's clothes will look a lot like morgana's winter outfits but with the colour schemes of her gowns pre-villain arc.

i think skuld's outfits were a lot more similar to skade's before she joined the northern alliance, but the more she gained influence, the more they (specifically griselda and drago) were willing to indulge her finer tastes

[silverfox579]

mod!harry potter x dc

Death looks away from the universe for one second to take care of some personal business. When they look back, the multiverse is broken. They decide to send their new bridge, the Master of Death, to go and fix it.

Harry did not sign up for this.

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"So, let me get this straight."

Harry tried not to grimace. The blonde Brit who'd had the misfortune to catch Death's eye looked on the verge of an aneurysm—and really, he couldn't blame him. If he'd been told by an interdimensional sort of deity that all the suffering he'd endured throughout his lifetime was actually one giant mistake, he'd want to shoot the messenger too.

John Constantine, occult detective and twice-damned soul, massaged the side of his head. No one else could see Harry, but Constantine had applied a spell to freeze time the instant Harry had been dropped in—literally—so there were no other active humans in the rowdy bar save for the two of them. 

"You're saying this," the wizard said, waving his hand to gesture to...everything, "is because your boss...blinked. And their siblings, the 'Endless', fucked over the entire multiverse in the span of that one, single blink?"

"Er," Harry said. "Pretty much."

John leaned backward over the bar. He closed his eyes. "I can't do this sober," he declared, reaching out to rummage through the shelves behind him. "Morgana's left tit!" The bottles wouldn't move. Time being frozen meant that there were some...unique restrictions on the surrounding environment. 

John flopped over, splaying out on the bar. "Just kill me now," he moaned. "Why would you tell me that? Are you outta your bloody mind?!"

"I mean, the world was supposed to reach this stage eventually," Harry attempted to reassure. "So it's not really like, forbidden knowledge. The only difference now is that it's reached a point where Death can do something about it."

John shot him a dirty look. "I don't give two fucks. Bugger off, bitch." Then he flipped him off.

Harry sighed again and looked down at his very, very long list of souls. "I'll put you down for an IOU then," he said, scribbling down a note on the weathered parchment. "If you ever want to cash it in, just call for me. A reaper will connect your request to me."

"What do I even qualify for?" John's face scrunched. "A bloody get-well card?"

Harry perked up a little. "I have a brochure here—"

"Never mind." John slammed his face back down onto the bar. "Gewr outd."

Harry sighed.

The next home visit didn't go much better. Probably because he'd directly appeared in the person's home.

"Please just listen to me," Harry all but pleaded. "It'll be quick. Ten minutes, max. I promise."

Wally West couldn't do much more than cross his arms thanks to the sticking charms Harry had cast on him, but his glare was deadly enough to make him cringe.

"You get one," he said in a low voice, his wife guarding her heavy stomach with a wary look in her eyes. "And if it turns out to be bullshit, you won't get enough time to regret it."

"Congratulations!" Harry blurted out. "You're eligible for death benefits!"

Wally punched him.

"He punched you?"

"He punched me."

Superman laughed, his cape swaying gently in the wind of the barren planet Harry had taken him to...to avoid property damage and all that. "You must've really spooked him. Flash usually isn't one to punch and run."

Harry shot him a withering glare. Clark managed a sheepish grin.

"To be honest, there isn't a lot I'm allowed to offer you," Harry admitted, shaking out the brochure with Clark Kent's benefits from his sleeve. "I mean, Ra already pretty much covered everything with you Kryptoninans. Indestructibility, laser vision, flight, the works. Is there anything else you want?"

Clark thought it over. "Not really," he admitted. "I'm happy with what I have. The simple life's all I've ever really wanted, y'know? Well, maybe not all the time, but it's good." He smiled. "I've had a good life."

Harry scrutinized him. Then he snapped his fingers. "I got it. How about this? I can give you this." He summoned a small glass cube, containing a single seed-like core in the middle.

"What's this?" Clark asked, holding the cube up to get a better look at it.

"That's Krypton."

Clark nearly dropped it. Luckily, he caught it before he did. "It's what?"

"To be exact, it's a world seed with a nearly identical formula to Krypton," Harry elaborated. "Here's a manual on how to raise it. Normally, it'd taken a few millennia to grow, but the version I gave you is already mature. It'll be around the size of a small moon, so pick a good spot for it, okay? It won't be big enough to sustain a whole population, but it'll show you some of the sights you missed out on." He dropped a thick tome in Clark's lap.

"I—" Clark stared at the cube in stunned silence.

"If you decide you want to return it, just call my name," Harry informed him. "Since I chose it for you, you'll get a free pass. Otherwise, just follow the manual, and you'll be good. Okay?" He didn't wait for a response. "Great! Looks like we're all done here then. I'll drop you back off."

"Wait—"

Harry snapped his fingers.

"I already told you," Jason Todd glared, "I'm not falling for your cheap ass scam. Go bother someone else. You're ruining my vibe."

Harry pinched the bridge of his nose. "I already resurrected your adoptive mom from the dead. How is that not enough proof I'm the real deal?"

"Yeah, for like five minutes," Jason scoffed rebelliously. Harry felt like strangling him. "Any scammer could do that."

Harry wanted to scream. "You know what? Fine. If you don't believe me, I will bloody prove it to you—"

[myriad-ofmuses]

Currently blue and yellow eyes directed to the other once he dropped into a chair of his own beside him, and began to recant events from start to finish, occasionally pressing into his injured pad when the traumatic ache in the back of his head began to creep up his spine again, keeping his focus grounded.

As he continued, the emotional toll it had left him with became more apparent, eyes dry, but posture tensed and shaky, guilt weighing heavy on his soul for his part in the whole mess.

As the story wrapped up, he got up briefly and stepped away from the hospital bed to Glide's office in back, letting himself in with a lock-pick claw and stealing a bottle of Scotch from the lower desk drawer, along with two shot glasses.

Re-locking the office he returned to Emil's bedside, using the over-table to prepare the shots of liquor for both himself and Rush.

"I showed up.. like this, with no memory, and completely hysterical."

He supplied the conclusion while offering out the shot he'd poured him, with a dry chuckle at the confused brow raise at his brief side-quest.

"You'd be surprised what kind of secrets you can ferret out when you're trapped in a place, and have to pretend to sleep."

He downed the first shot with only a residual shiver, returning fully to his seat and somewhat anxiously running his clawed digits through his hair with a deep sigh.

"Some of it is.. familiar. I think it's been lodged in my subconscious. It's.. probably what my re-occuring nightmare's been, if I had to guess.."

What he really was craving was a smoke, but considering their surroundings, that'd be a jackass move. So instead, he placated himself with another shot of scotch, downing it quick like the first.

"More or less, I have this stubborn man to blame."

His gaze shifted to the doll on the bed, with a tired sort of affection. Regardless of what feelings revived over time, he was getting an earful when he woke, that was for certain.

"I'm sorry Rush.. for what we've put you through. I.. should have backed you up, with a united front.. maybe he would have listened. At the least, it would have been harder for him to arrange the meeting behind both our backs."

He sighed again and closed his eyes, digits tapping against his head, as if trying to coax more wayward memory, a bid that was actually possible, presumably because of the proximity of his spouse.

"I think he.. was worried that Arcana were rallying against us. We were becoming a threat, there were rumors.. I guess he thought we could use his inside connection to come to a peaceful agreement of some kind.. before first blood was spilled into an all-out turf war."

He poured another shot and simply stared into its oaken depths, keeping it cradled within clawed digits, ears lain back again as he pulled his legs up onto the chair.

"It's.. not like he had me convinced, but I.. suppose I underestimated the risk. But hell.. who expects to fall into a temporal rift during a rescue misson?"

He snickered without humor, head pressing against his knee with a quiet groan.

"There's.. so much to make up for. So much loss.. so much unprocessed bullshit.. I.. I have to apologize to Carmine too.. her eye.. Gods.. I didn't think remembering would mean even more mess to clean up.."

He jolted suddenly, sloshing a bit of scotch over his hand at the reflex, and with a quiet curse, downing the remaining half shot before any more of it could be wasted.

"Arcana.. that's-.. there hasn't been a whisper of them. Rush.. did you..?"

He somewhat warily eyed Rush's approach, but offered no resistance when the wrapping was applied to his bleeding paw, ignoring the heat that rose up beneath the striped fur of his cheeks, averting his gaze slightly.

The reminder that he wasn't the only one that had undergone change stung a little, it could hardly be compared when his twin's alterations were temporary, his body could be remade, reshaped to the exact specifications it had been before. Even extensive surgery couldn't do that in his case, when his code itself had been rewritten.

He simply nodded to the other's words, though the cold dismissal of Emil's life in the event that this last bid failed, made his soul twist with nausea. The verbally expressed detachment of their shared mother was also not lost on him, but he knew better than to call attention to this inconsistency of facts.

For all he could remember, maybe Rush had fully cut ties with her. It wasn't his business regardless.

He fell back into step with the taller and accompanied him the rest of the way to the medical wing, letting him move ahead to push open the double doors, and following in behind him.

His nose wrinkled a bit from the familiar scent of sterile antiseptic, pointedly ignoring the other patients in case he caught a glimpse of a familiar face, focused only on the bed containing the plush doll hooked up to various beeping machines.

It would have been a comical sight if he wasn't intimately familiar with the intricacies of ghost monsters, and on top of that, able to slightly see through the toy's exterior to the fragile soul within it.

The nausea reared its head again, and he had to close his eyes for a moment to let it pass, praying he wouldn't lose what little breakfast he'd been able to force down.

He would have been thankful for the sudden distraction of a lapdog Manta monster, if it didn't mean he was forced within close proximity of the puddle-shallow narcissist, regarding him coolly while he gave his report in that snide voice that made his fur prickle.

Under typical circumstances, he did his level best not to get himself injured on a job, just to avoid falling under his care again. Those weeks he'd spent housed here, trying to piece together an identity from the shards he'd been left with - had been more than enough.

Glide had taken personal offense to his presence here, being under the archaic belief that only physical wounds were worth his time and expertise, and having been convinced that Sylvan was just faking the whole thing. Something he whined about to his nurses when he was sure that he'd been under medicated sleep.

If you asked him, he just didn't want to deal with emotional and mental wounds because he was piss-poor at it. With an ego as inflated as his, anything he didn't automatically excel at, had no importance at all.

If he didn't have his uses, if he wasn't a healer with glowing accolades, his cruelty wouldn't be tolerated.

But when most of them had too much accumulated LOVE to heal even minor scrapes and scratches, let alone the kind of damage that resulted from a job gone sidewise - there wasn't much choice.

His attention was pulled back to Rush at the offered chair, and he quietly took the invitation, seating himself at the doll's bedside.

"Still.. need the pain for clarity. It's fine."

He noticed a pitcher of water left on a nearby overbed table and poured himself a cup with a shaky paw, downing it like a shot to both quench his dry throat, and help the nausea recede, taking a slow breath.

Well.. no more delaying. He said he would try.

Apprehension slowing his movement, he nonetheless finally took the plush doll's hand in his, leaning closer to speak quietly over the dormant soul within it - his own beating hard within his chest.

"Emi.. can you hear me? It-.. It's Syl.."

[narconfessions]

Not dark per se, but definitely a NPD confession that I dont feel I can share elsewhere.

I actually Do want to collect "oppression points." I like being part of marginalized groups because it makes me feel special and being the victim in situations makes brain go brr. I dont go so far as faking things to feel oppressed, but I do take pleasure in being plural/disabled/queer/trans/cluster B/autistic/a trauma survivor/etc (which I am) partly because I like feeling special.

(Disclaimer this is not to say that discrimination and hatred based on these things does not affect me negatively. I do experience and struggle with ableism and queerphobia and other things.)

i can't believe my eyes because i genuinely thought no one else felt this way and im so relieved to know im not the only one. this is tough with my severe impulsivity too because sometimes i impulsively come out in situations where i KNOW i'm not safe just because i impulsively want attention and sympathy.

i think the problem with the whole thing surrounding "oppression points" is that most often, it's just a term pulled out by marginalized people who have fallen into the trap of respectability politics, to describe people who don't fit their worldview. for example, autistic people who i've seen shit on autigender people because "IM autistic and IIIII understand gender so why can't you". and just look at the endless cycle of exclusionism within the queer community. it's always that we "just want oppression points to be special" but the whole problem in the first place is that we've made oppression out to be something special in the first place! the online world has placed a hierarchy on who is coolest and most valuable based on how many marginalized identities they have. we've created this idea that being marginalized is "cool". sure, it can be a big part of your identity but i've met so many people online who genuinely believed they were cooler and more interesting than cishets just by virtue of having a different gender modality or sexuality and i've also met so so many cishets and guys whose mental health has genuinely plummetted because they think they are not cool because they have no or very few marginalized identities and it's like. being gay or trans or nd or disabled IS cool, but it's not what MAKES YOU COOL! no one is inherently better than anyone else based on unchangeable aspects of their identity because your morality is based on what you choose and how you act, not just who you are. i'm not saying "aw boohoo white cishets are so oppressed" because that's bullshit, but i do think it's ridiculous how much we've turned marginalization into a competition of cool points. you can have as much pride in your marginalized identity as you want but you are not morally better just by virtue of being an Oppressed Person. so that's why this whole "oppression points" thing has taken off and instead of criticizing the hierarchy of oppression-based worth and value that's contributed to it, people just blame other marginalized people for being the "wrong" kind of queer or nd. there's nothing wrong with liking having multiple marginalizations and enjoying the attention from it, it's just when it becomes, like you said, something that people take as paradigm for peoples value or "coolness" and fake stuff because they think it'll make them cooler, when it's a problem like babe no! you are not a boring person just cuz you're cis or straight or nt or abled or white or whatever you have a personality and a life and a value. if people realized that they had value outside of societal checklists and boxes, then people making fun of other marginalized people for being supposed "fakers wanting oppression points" will die down. (none of this is said to invalidate you it's just my take on the nuance of the whole 'oppression points' thing.)

[adrianasunderworld]

I am living for the Ms. Roseheart slander, and she definitely deserves is. But I wonder what would happen if Yuu has like tattoos and piercings and gives of a total don't f with me I'll rock your shit kinda vibe but I'd actually a total sweetheart and is friends with all the mythical creatures around the school ( I'm going somewhere with this so stay with me) and then she threatens them and then everyone is ready to go after her.

Ghosts, fairies, a dragon (I am one hundred procent convinced is somewhere in that school) and a lot more. And this goes down and then certain things just stop working, the food goes bad, there isn't a lot of heat (sweaters and shawls become necessary) plants start dying and shiny things start going missing.

I just imagine her waking up at an hour in the night in the woods or something surrounded by creaters that tell her to leave and not come back.

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk hope it was worth it. :)

Yuu is the edgy disney princess we all need. When you hear the birds chirping for your end, that's when you need to leave.

I can see Mrs.Rosehearts thinking Yuus alternative look is unprofessional, inappropriate, all that bullshit. Is constantly assuming the worst in them, "Only hoodlums dress like you, so cleary you are the one to blame for this." She has put them in detention for multiple things, even stuff they didn't do or actively tried to stop. And it's essentially landed her on the shit list of all of Yuus creature friends, and suddenly all this weird stuff is happening to her and only her.

[superherorambles]

I am having more platonic Damikon thoughts so y'all all get to be subjected to this

I think, when It happens. Like when Damian inevitably can't take it anymore (because he has a short fuse, he always had, and he doesn't like having to endure things that make him unhappy) and he ends up screaming at Jon, probably calls him every insult under the sun, with a tacked on, almost like an after thought "-I CAN'T STAND IT BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, YOU ASSHOLE!" I think he packs his things, and moves in with Conner. (Idk I'm bullshitting abt where Conner lives in this scenario bc I can do that, but I think he'd have a nice, quaint studio apartment, just outside metropolis, where the city starts to thin out and turn to wilderness)

Conner flies him back to Gotham so he can keep attending school/do Robin stuff, and his family are all aware of where he is, ofc, bc you know dick would freak the fuck out if he didn't know

But anyways, I think when Jon finds out, he comes to Conner'a apartment to try and talk to Damian, but Conner answers the door because he *knows* who's at the door, and says, in a low, smooth tone, because he doesn't Damian to over hear, "You're like a little brother to me, so I'll say this once. Stay away from him until you figure your shit out, got it?"

And... Jon can't really argue with that, Conner *would* use some of that kryptonite Tim has hidden away and would absolutely rip his head off, so Jon stays away.

Alternatively, I would also like to see Damian moving to Blüdhaven w/ dick and Wally, I think he would just show up on their door step crying, something unintelligible about yelling at Jon and finally confessing his feelings, and Wally just ushers him in with a kind smile and helps him unpack in the spare room (Damian doesn't use the spare room that night, he cries himself to sleep tucked between dick and Wally, surrounded by love and warmth)

Everyone's a little confused about the new Robin/Nightwing teamup, but it's p chill because Robin is actually fairly relaxed around Nightwing, and he ends up helping out in Star City as well ("The Flash teaming up with Robin was a surprise." "A pleasant surprise?") So he doesn't feel quite so useless.

Jon isn't entirely sure. How to process the confession. But for Damian, it's like a weight is finally off his chest. Sure, he's totally dreading having to speak with Jon after what happened, (I mean, could you blame him?) but he feels so much *lighter*, because it's not looming behind him, making him question every action he takes regarding Jon, making him think "is this too much?", or "is this what a regular *friend* would do?"

Damian realizes he was so tired of hiding it, and now that he's finally just ripped off the bandaid, he feels so much lighter (yeah, he ran away to Blühaven, but again, can you blame him? He sought comfort the only way he knew how)

It's like Robin can finally fly again

[unserenedreaming]

Imagine this. You are a 9 year old child. You live in a position of relative power: your father is the ruler of the region you live in, meaning you grew up in comfort and safety. Your own power is restricted however on account of your sex. As a girl, you are restricted in what you get to do, and how you are allowed to act. Acting in a way that doesn't uphold the patriarchy gets you in trouble. You feel like an outsider because you want to do things that don't fit into the mold of a lady, unlike all the women around you. Your father loves you and wants the best for you, but even he will likely expect you to conform. There is only one person in the entire world that you feel understands you and loves you for who you are, faults and all. You then are separated from this one person, perhaps forever, and feel utterly alone, even when surrounded by family. The only thing on the planet you feel still understands you is your pet.

Then imagine if you made a friend, one friend who you actually got along with and could have fun with and that friend died violently and the ones who ordered his death and carried it out faced no consequences. You blame others and you blame yourself. How would you feel on top of knowing that they died, that they died in a horrific, though not necessarily true way? In Ned's POV he saw Mycah's corpse: he was cut almost in half from shoulder to waist. Camp gossip likely went around, making his death more and more gruesome, as is the way of the world. Imagine you, a 9 year old kid, here from your elder sister's best friend/most loyal lowerborn lackey that your friend's death, which you feel guilt for even though you SHOUD NOT, is the most horrible thing you've ever heard? Can you imagine that shit?

These are your words: "Arya likes to pick class and class structure up and put it down when it suits her every time she has the chance. She’s pleased to play with Mycah, but puts him in situations that his relatively low rank make dangerous for him." To me, it sounds like you're putting the entirety of Mycah's death on a child. I wasn't aware Arya ran him down and cut him in half, but maybe I missed that in the text. And for the record, I don't blame Sansa either. The girl was in a shitty situation if she lied or told the truth. I put the blame squarely at Joffrey and Cersei's feet.

You also said that perhaps Jeyne was being malicious because she was possibly frustrated knowing that Arya "put" Mycah in that dangerous situation. I'm calling bullshit on that. The only person, the ONLY PERSON who we see ever mourning Mycah is Arya (I am sure his father mourned him as well, but since he was never actually shown, we can't be sure). In the quote I listed above, Arya is angry because none of her father's men did anything to stop his murder, nor the murder of Lady. And Arya keeps on remembering Mycah. No one else gave a crap about the "butcher's boy", even into ASoS. She's the sole carrier of his memory. Sansa sure as hell doesn't, neither does Ned. Though we don't get Jeyne's POV, I can assume she doesn't care either. But again, this is an assumption.

On the note about Gendry's agency being violated. I see Arya saying that as a desperate attempt to keep one of the few people she knows and trusts by her side. This girl has been through hell, she's seen countless people tortured, raped and slaughtered before her very eyes. Gods forbid a young child would want to keep her only friends by her side. Should she have asked if he wanted to? Absolutely. Does it even matter? No, because Gendry chooses to stay with the brotherhood alongside Hot Pie. This hurts Arya deeply, which is understandable. If you had two people left alive that you knew and trusted and they decided to stay when you knew you still needed to go, wouldn't that hurt you? It's not entirely reasonable, but again, we are talking about a traumatized child.

You mentioned that Jeyne wouldn't have been malicious in her retelling to Arya because she freaked out when she witnessed Ser Hugh's death. You're telling me that you have the same level of emotion when retelling a story of death as you do when you witness the death right in front of you? Dang, you're stone cold.

You say that Sansa is "remarkably sensitive" to class differences between her and Jeyne. I suppose that makes sense. When Sansa is brought before the Queen after Ned was imprisoned, she mentions that Jeyne is confined with her. I suppose a high born girl can't stand to share her rooms with a lower born girl and had to say something, to make sure the class differences between them were known. Jeyne is taken away by Littlefinger to become a sex slave. We all know where her eventual journey led, the poor girl. But at least Sansa was sensitive! Can you see how utterly batshit that is?

on the "Sansa being the true loner of the Starks"

I just saw a post saying that Sansa is the 'odd one out' amongst the Starks because she's surrounded by her brothers and a tomboyish sister (Arya). It is true that she is surrounded by brothers and a sister who rejects the patriarchal roles of a woman (Arya) but she is by no means a loner.

The two other named young noblewomen in Winterfell are Jeyne Poole and Beth Cassel. Jeyne is the closest thing to a best friend for Sansa, while Beth is described more as a hanger-on than an actual friend. Jeyne strived to make Sansa happy, often at Arya's expense: Jeyne would often whinny like a horse or call Arya Horseface when Arya would walk by. When Mycah is unjustly killed by the Hound, Jeyne taunts Arya by telling her the Hound cut Mycah into so many little pieces that his own father assumed it was a bag of meat to eat. Jeyne Poole was the daughter of Winterfell's steward. Arya was the daughter of Lord Eddard Stark, Lord of Winterfell and Warden of the North. In my opinion, it is only by her close friendship with the other daughter of Lord Stark that Jeyne feels emboldened enough to make such a comment.

And then let's talk about Catelyn. There is no denying that Catelyn Stark loved each and every one of her children with the fury of a thousand suns. In fact, the older I get, the more I understand her (excluding her treatment of Jon which deserves an essay all on its own) She saw Sansa as the perfect daughter:

"Sansa was a lady at 3, always so courteous and eager to please. She will grow into a woman far more beautiful than I ever was, you can see that." These are words from Catelyn Stark about her elder daughter.

"Arya was a trial, it must be said. Half a boy and half a wolf pup. Forbid her anything and it became her heart’s desire. She had Ned’s long face, and brown hair that always looked as though a bird had been nesting in it. I despaired of ever making a lady of her. She collected scabs as other girls collected dolls, and would say anything that came into her head." These thoughts from Catelyn Stark about her younger daughter.

Sansa fit into the traditional patriarchal view of what a noble woman was supposed to be, which made her easier to manage for Catelyn. Arya does not.

The only person that Arya truly, honestly and deeply feels akin to is Jon. This is not me saying that the only person who loved Arya was Jon. Her family loved her deeply. But I am examining the POV of Arya and Sansa.

Arya loves and gets along with her siblings, but she is an outsider compared to them: they all have the red hair and blue eyes of the Tully's. Only Jon shares the looks of the Starks. This to me has always been the most obvious divide; the physical differences between Robb, Sansa, Bran, & Rickon and Jon & Arya. Jon and Arya have always relied on each other more than anyone else, pre-canon or into ADWD.

To wrap this rambling post up, I disagree that Sansa was considered an outsider/the odd one out in the Stark family. In truth, that position doesn't even belong to Arya, though she is the odd one out amongst the trueborn Starks. It belongs to Jon and Theon. Both are boys who desperately want to be Stark children but can never be, and their subsequent actions, both positive (Jon) and negative (Theon) are direct results of that desire and lack of result.

AND AGAIN, THIS IS NOT AN ATTACK ON SANSA. This is a response to a comment I saw from a (presumed by me) Stansa. Sansa absolutely deals with isolation in the series as the books goes on as a captive in Kings Landing. All the Starlkings do as they are separated across the continent and eventually Essos (Arya).

Anyways, hope this wasn't too much of a pain to read, I'm buzzed right now. Love Y'all.

[cipheramnesia]

much like that other anon, I also want to say thank you for all your thoughtful and nuanced posts about transness and queerness and oppression and whatnot, though for another reason. people always talk about finding an IRL queer space to see that not everyone's immersed in the online bullshit we see so much of on this website, but that's not an option for me (by the time I was comfortable enough with the idea of being queer to consider it, my health wouldn't allow it)

I didn't have an in person queer community to guide me away from that type of bullshit when I was younger and first realized I was trans (or, I'm ashamed to say, to stop me from falling for transmed bullshit either) and I was stuck in that school of thought for longer than I like to admit (I think there's something to be said about how much easier it is to take out your outrage on other marginalized groups instead of the power structures keeping us all oppressed, about how systemic change is slow and sometimes feels like bashing your head into a wall but blaming someone you have the power to go after feels like you're doing something now, about how addicting it is to feel like you're actually doing something even if that something is only hurting other people and not changing anything for the better, and about how the people who push that sort of thing use those feelings to their advantage when trying to bring other people around to their line of thinking, but that's a topic for another time, and I digress)

but even without an IRL queer community I did have the next best thing: blogs like this one, run by people like you who bring the inclusivity of real life queer community with them into their online space and don't put up with the bullshit that's so rampant on social media. surrounding myself with better people and their inclusive and empathetic opinions eventually set me straight (set me queer? being set straight sounds horrible) and led me to realize I could be and needed to be better

I know blogging about queer issues can so often feel like you're telling a whole bunch of people things they already know, but at least one impressionable young queer became a better person for having read those posts, so, thank you

I'm like a little bit tearing up. I'm just happy making any tiny difference and hearing it feels like a lot.

[suguwu]

😱😱😱 Bee you do it to Takao like that?? You kill him like that!? No goodbye, no last "I love yous" that's so cruel!!

okay before i get into THAT, you never fail to provide the most beautiful detail to every mundane moment, but if i gushed over every one, this ask would get five part series too

Honest to god i was so certain Takao would've actually left in the end. Like "oh your soulmate's here? guess i'll die" and he just!! goes!! and let's be real in his shoes, i dont blame him. at least he said something. he communicated his feelings and he took a step back because he wanted space.

like yeah reader suffers a bit, but she's got a solid support system. she's got her parents, she's got her friends. have i mentioned i love Abe and Yoshikawa so much?? what would this story be like without them? how would Reader cope without them?? i dare not think.

also you're so good at describing food, i wanted those crepes so much

okay and i must know, what's the soulmate clause in the marriage contract, what was all that about??? it sure sounds like a lot of boring paperwork to me, and a headache to work through. you're so good at weaving subtle worldbuilding in where it matters, but that's the problem, i want the story to be about bullshit soulmate clauses in marriage contracts. what are soulmate laws here, what do they look like

Kita is so good, that's the problem. the progression of their interactions between text and phone call to eventual physical visits was very sweet. If he was an asshole that'd make things easier. and honestly i was Very nervous where it was going because like especially when the wedding got cancelled after reader met her soulmate, i'd lose my mind because you KNOW that got people's tongues wagging.

it's unfortunate that it's not hard to imagine that a lot of people would in fact, find reader insane for not immediately choosing her soulmate in a heartbeat. your neighbors, your co-workers, distant relatives, people on the goddamn street etc

oh my god speaking of, i wasn't kidding when i said i would've fist fight Atsumu in the streets, i could've HOWLED.

Aran is a fuckin blessing because i knew the twins were gonna have Opinions on reader after she rejected Kita. THEY may be protective of Kita, but I'M protective of reader and i'm stronger, i know it. i could beat them. the social expectation surrounding soulmates would be abysmal, can you imagine?? and we only got a little taste of it, when Atsumu just threw his hands up like "He's your soulmate!" as if that was supposed to be the end all be all statement to end an argument. when reader is MARRIED??

oh, you already have a partner? forget them! you met your soulmate! guilt tripped reader for KITA'S choice to remain in contact as if it's her job to manage his feelings. i'd ream Atsumu so hard it'd strip the hair dye from his follicles and he'd have to go back to Onigiri Miya, a brunette again.

thank god reader has supportive loved ones. thank fuckin god. if i got grilled by the general public, or even people in my life why i chose Some Guy and not my Soulmate, i would kill everyone in the room and then myself. SMH

okay i definitely had more to say but i'm gonna cut myself off now before i go insane luv u so much bee, congratulations again on getting part 2 out!!

whisper beloved this had me ROLLING lmao thank you so much for taking the time for this!!

cut because this is a long answer lol

i did do it to takao like that i'm afraid,,,he deserved better but i couldn't give it to him. i knew it from the start

takao could have peaced out and honestly it would have been the expected thing for him to do in this society! so he just took a step back. which i think was hard for him but easier than it could have been, knowing the support system reader has in place. i'm SO glad you love abe and yoshikawa they are also near and dear to my heart,,,love a good friendship!

lskjdflksjdf once i'm done with the fic i may release some of my worldbuilding notes! for the shrine clause (and a clause used by most marriage venues), it's one that allows the person getting married to get out of the contract without any consequences if they meet their soulmate. so they would get their deposit/any money back and not be held responsible for any penalties that might otherwise be described in said contract.

for the form they hand in at the time of marriage, some countries track soulmates and have bureaucratic systems around it. it's almost like a census in some ways. the form is essentially a report about whether either party has met their soulmate and if they are marrying their soulmate. it can be used as a way to stop the marriage if the soulmate desires to do so.

kita is Very Good and that's half of the issue, like you said! and yes, society has a Lot to say about reader's choice - it's very unusual and there's a lot of controversy around people who don't stay with their soulmates (don't even get me started on soulmate divorce).

PLEASE I AM CACKLING honestly atsumu deserves a fist fight for that one! both the twins do in their own way (osamu distracted kita so atsumu could go after reader). reader's been hoping to avoid them because she knew from aran's stories (they've met a few times, mostly over facetime when he was visiting kita) that meeting them probably wouldn't go well. and...on the money with that one.

thank you thank you for all of the thought that went into this ask. you are always far too kind and i'm so glad you enjoyed it!!!

[bylightofdawn]

Lee Dong-sik might actually be coming for Obi-Wan's crown when it comes to shipping with infinite sadness. Lee Dong-sik/Infinite Sadness is definitely the actual major pairing in this fandom I've decided. Spoiler ranting below

I'm almost done with episode 9 and I am HATING this bullshit superiority needlessly blaming Dong-sik for Min-jeong's death that Ju-won is doing right now.

Get right the fuck out of here with that bullshit, sir. How the fuck is he supposed to MIND READ she was still alive when he found dismembered fucking fingers at a serial killer's murder basement. The amount of mental reaching you have to do to come to that conclusion is staggering.

How has he managed to become even smugger and makes me want to punch him even more in his pretty face and bloody his nose?

I'm also feeling super fucker cheated that Dong-sik did not get the chance to kick Kang Jin-muk's ass. I'm sure there will be some convoluted plan surrounding his suicide but right now I am feeling very crabby about the whole thing.

I also need to go edit my previous beyond evil post because when I was live-blogging it I thought Ju-won was in Busan trying to find someone who knew the prostitute. I still want to believe he's battling with some kind of guilt for her death. But right now he's coming across like a class-a bastard and I don't particularly enjoy his character.

You're really going to go to a traumatized man who was literally digging into the dirt desperate to find his sister's corpse, only for him to get the thinnest glimmer of hope he's finally found her and can get some fucking closure only to get that ripped away and then decide "How can I make this worse?" Oh let me go lay foundless accusations and pile MORE GUILT onto his head. Maybe you should kick him in the balls while you're at it?

Yes, I might be at risk of becoming the one who views Lee Dong-sik as her little Meow Meow. No, I am NOT okay with that and I do not want to talk about it. But I am very much turning into a feral Rosa Diaz from B99 when Dong-sik is becoming my Arlo.

Edit: OH MY GOD THAT ENDING. Motherfucker it’s 1 am I cannot stay up for another hour+ episode of Lee Dong-ski’s endless man pain hour. I have work tomorrow gdi