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[amelylinaa]

WIP

Hello everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful start of the year, wishing you all the best and most stable year, because honestly after all the horrible hectic stuff happening in the last year I feel like we all need some rest with a stable calm year.

I'm slowly but surely working on this month's wips, so don't worry they will come, but probably a little bit later than usually.

Right now 2 problems are making it hard for me to create stuff.

First is the weather and temperature change in my home town. For about 2 weeks now we are having abnormally cold winter, and my family's house is not prepared for it whatsoever , im typing with gloves on right now, thats just how cold it gets. So every time I sit near my PC i get cold to the very bones wich sucks, but let's just call it a fun experience of what will come faster : my suibstance painter textures or my fingers fall off haha

Second more severe problem is that my PTSD that I recently got diagnosed (and still cant wrap my head around me having c-ptsd) gets the worst out of me and my mental health is really at it's lowest. Tried to escape into making cc, but you can guess that first problem makes it difficult.

So yeah, just wanted to share I guess. Love you all so much, I know that I'm not that active especially with posting such personal posts, but i just genuinely want to thank all of you for the support I got from you through the years. I'm looking through all the nice words you ever said to me and this makes my mental struggles not that painful <3

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart!

p.s. this might be one very interesting black/white coat from a very interesting novel that i've read recently hehe

[restlessreveries]

Being so deeply obsessed with Exocolonist and the need for a balance between huamnity and the planet’s biosphere...

And then playing Satisfactory where my task is to turn this beautiful untouched planet into an industrial hellscape...

It’s certainly a weird Mood.

[ask-the-friendly-ink-demon]

so- dunno if i posted these but eh- revamped Prowler’s forms again- and this time- added a new one, and made reasonable suggestions for how he turns into these forms- and yes- i also edited the heights too the inked form, aka the friendly ink demon, is around 6′11 feet tall, his enraged form is around 9 feet tall, his berserk form is 11 feet tall, and his feral form is around 13 feet tall, still working on his corrupted and beast forms but yeah- ANYWAY HOW FOR EACH TRANSFORMATION WORKS IT’S QUITE SIMPLE! his inked form is mainly the easiest to control and maintain, he just needs to have an access to enough ink to do so. so- pretty simple, pretty normal, you’d be surprised of how much excess ink is left around the lodge and the new studios due to the first couple of weeks the toons were staying there after everything that’s happened. and as for his enraged form, it’s kinda a bit more simple, if he’s in his inked form, the only reason why he gains his enraged form is mainly due to unawarely using his aura (called King’s aura, apart of my headcanon for why my characters are able to do freaking- anime level shit of attacks, if someone asks about it i’ll have someone explain it) to gain more power, but this in turn greatly strains his emotional state so- hence the name enraged, he basically goes on a angry rampage. and now! for his berserk form! it is like you expect, if a drop of henry’s blood gets on him, or if his emotions get too overwhelming, he basically turns into the Berserk form, he looks more and more like the ink demon, and able to sprout wings in order to glide and or fly. AND NOW FOR THIS NEW FORM, the feral form, basically if enough of henry’s blood is absorbed into his ink, or if his aura is enfused with henry’s blood in his berserk form, he basically becomes an feral mess, his body becoming more and more eldritch. hence the wings, and everything else! that is- all i have gotten so far, again i have spent a lot of time on this and how i want it to go i don’t want to just use the obvious of “oh he can just absorb a bunch of ink”- NO- he uses his forms a lot in the aftermath verse, so i’ve been coming up with more logical ways for this, but then again i could be a bitch and change everything but this is a list i actually like so for now it stays like this, i will show his corrupted form and beast form, i just need to design them, mainly the beast form cause... i cannot draw beast bendy :( i try! but like.... yeah- you get the gist, big boy is hard to draw, but eh- just wanted to post these to show that i am not dead, just like with the henry one, i am simply trying my best to focus on both the official server, and on the story (backstory of the au in general) to make sure i have everything i need to not afford to freaking REVAMP IT AGAIN. SO HOPEFULLY- 5 REVAMPS IS THE LUCKY NUMBER FOR ME TO FINALLY PUT THE BACKSTORY OF THE AU TO REST- hopefully. anyways that’s all! enjoy!

[my-darling-boy]

Convinced the husky that lives in the house behind us is just a sentient stuffed toy or the other way around

[hinamie]

10 years later

[noodles-and-tea]

Last part whoo!!!

PART 1 / PART 2 / PART 3 / PART 4

[crowkip]

yeehaw, baby!

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

the fact that shakespeare was a playwright is sometimes so funny to me. just the concept of the "greatest writer of the English language" being a random 450-year-old entertainer, a 16th cent pop cultural sensation (thanks in large part to puns & dirty jokes & verbiage & a long-running appeal to commoners). and his work was made to be watched not read, but in the classroom teachers just hand us his scripts and say "that's literature"

just...imagine it's 2450 A.D. and English Lit students are regularly going into 100k debt writing postdoc theses on The Simpsons screenplays. the original animation hasn't even been preserved, it's literally just scripts and the occasional SDH subtitles.txt. they've been republished more times than the Bible

[aerequets]

the mortifying ordeal of being known

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I think with Yor being so perceptive, she picks up on little things often (like we saw in ch 103). i believe this would impact loid more so than the usual person, because he is a spy and fakes every part of himself, so to be seen is simultaneously desirable and horrifying. like, it makes him torn between wanting to accept and reciprocate the love, or distancing himself so that it doesn't happen again.

thats mostly what the last panel is about, that dichotomy between 'omg this person noticed this about me, is this love' and 'oh shit this person noticed this about me, is this Doom'

just some thoughts i had🤪

[perfectlyripeclementine]

calling my lover "mine" but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighborhood is mine, and also everybody else's, "mine" like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. "mine" not like possession but devotion.

[voids-ideas]

Ok I am going to do this simply because the first thing I will put here I NEED to do it and I have 0 motivation to do it even though it is EXTREMELY important

In fact, I think that's the reason why I don't want to do it... anyway

If this gets to 30 notes, I do that thing ✅️

50 notes, I call to ask if my doctor's appointment has been scheduled (I've been avoiding it for two weeks now) ✅️

100 notes, I go wash my shoes that have long needed washing and are just sitting there, existing, waiting for me to deign to wash them. ✅️

200 notes, I finish organizing my room (I organized it halfway and then left a bunch of things that still don't have a defined place) ✅️

500 notes, I use the things I have to bleach and color my hair. The only thing that has stopped me is the fear of doing it wrong or being too lazy to maintain it. ✅️

1k notes, I stop doing things that I know will trigger my chronic pain with the pure intention of confirming that the pain was indeed real (don't do this. 0 recommended) ✅️

5k notes, I try some new food without fear of wasting money by buying something I most likely won't like (my autism hates new foods) ✅️

10k notes, I wear my bi flag earrings in front of someone I wouldn't usually wear them with. I trust that they possibly wouldn't have a problem with me being bi, but I would never get up the courage to tell them anything ✔️ (I haven't, but that person was in my room next to where the earrings are. They were 0% hidden) ✅️

20k notes, wtf I have absolutely no idea. If it comes to this, ehhh... Honestly, I have no idea what I'm doing here. Do I promise to be honest in therapy and stop telling them that everything is perfect even though nothing has ever been perfect? Yeah, that probably works. Please don't go this far, I don't know how to do this. Maybe I should... but... it would be awful to learn it

April 2024: I stop procrastinating editing this post with the things I've already done. I WANT THE HAIR SO MUCH BUT IT'S SO DIFFICULT

May 2024: Red hair, red hair, red hair. I'M CROWLEY, RED HAIR!!!!!

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael and Vanny had wild teen years in FNAF

[lokittystuckinatree]

I am simultaneously deliriously in love with the ending of Loki season 2 and absolutely loathe it

On one hand…Shakespearean tragedy at its finest, essentially circling back to Loki’s original Thor 2011 character arc by reversing it, and Loki has literally ascended to godhood. In the end, Loki’s ultimate selfless sacrifice was to sit upon the highest throne in the multiverse, and that to me is tragically ironically beautiful

On the other hand…Loki being alone makes me want to burn Marvel studios to the ground and do other unspeakable things

Best and worst ending of all time f u Eric Martin

[eddoovi]

Hi, hello, I wish to feed on every single piece of art of them

[shikisei]

ok stupid question my bad