#but at least it was something about people with fucking personalities for once!! people with PROBLEMS!!

[aveline-amelia]

Thank you for your insight! Just to make clear, it was not shipping them that was the big deal, it was believing that Smallcroft would happen/has happened. There were some shippers who liked it but there was a degree of irony to some of them (as in it was more a joke although it was some ppl's genuine OTP) because the idea of Mycroft being this Casanova getting with women was strange even if you never believed he was ace or gay.

The convo was mostly "i can't believe he's straight I believed he was straight/aroace" and small minority saying "he could be pan/bi, it doesn't mean he is straight just because he had sex with a woman/has a girlfriend").

But I will say, reading the accounts of people, the people who believed at least something in the USA/British/some of Europe happened with Lady Smallwood to me outnumber the ones who didn't. And that included Mystrade shippers, Holmescest shippers, Johnlockers, anti-Johnlockers, an Adlocker, Sherlollies, some Mythea shippers... Some Mystrade folk seemed very hurt to me, like genuinely, it was talk about how they didn't deserve to be shut down like that because they were not agressive like some JL people (sorry JL but it's true) and were just having fun with the ship.

One person even said they believed he did sleep with her but it was because he was coerced and pressured into it and he was still not interested in women... It is because they are shown putting their coats on, which is used in film language to signify sex (once again, it's not that I am assuming you don't know this) especially since before it was allowed because of the Heyes code.

The Sexy Discretion shot (a couple kisses, fade to black). So the fact they reference sex and they used Faith!Eurus to say "sex" as a transition after Mycroft and Lady S talk about him "making it up to her", and then the next time they are alone and putting on the coats in the office - signifies they Fucked In The Office.

The ones who didn't believe he had sex believed he was at least somewhat interested because he took her card and he knew she had a romantic interest in him. The ones who felt he was "still gay" seem like a minority to me (speaking generally, not about your corner of the fandom). But this might just be the people I found. Maybe this is a cultural difference, fandom-wise? I will admit I know very little about Russian filmmaking.

Writing Series 4:

Ananda Abbington & Martin Freeman: *having problems in their marriage*

Moftiss: So guys guess what we based Series 4 on

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Moftiss reading Doyle canon: Mary Watson. Mary Watson is the key character.

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Mark Gatiss: I am gonna be the only straight guy in this show.

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Amanda Abbington: It's nice to come to work, it gets stuff off of your mind.

Moftiss: It would be terrible if art imitated life.

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Moftiss: So in the end, in order to redeem John, we will have him think about fucking Sherlock through a projection of his late wife Mary, whose death has traumatized him, all while texting Sherlock's sister whom he met randomly.

Martin Freeman: Are you sure this is going to redeem him?

Moftiss: Yeah

MF: I am so glad this is the last series

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Martin Freeman: Look, I can't see that pompous prick again in my life, get over with Sherlock quickly.

Moftiss: Our choices have consequences.

MF: What do you mean?

Moftiss: We recently realised you would be perfect as a villain.

MF: ...... I play Dr Watson.

Moftiss: Your point being?

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Moftiss: Moriarty's character was way more successful than we expected.

Andrew Scott: This is awesome, guys! So what's in for me in the new one?

Moftiss: First things first, how's your chooing game

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Steven Moffat: What if the viewers can tell that Redbeard was a boy who was drowned 1 hour before Sherlock figures it out?

Mark Gatiss: Impossible, Eurus is TOO clever.

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Benedict Cumberbatch: So who initiates the Johnlock scene? Martin or me?

Moftiss: Amanda

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Andrew Scott: So will it be explained that I was madly in love with Sherlock and was obsessed with him and couldn't live with the thought of him being with John instead of me?

Moftiss: It will be explained... but in a sisterly kind of way

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Show: *starts filming*

Moftiss: STOP!

Moftiss: We should add a Mary scene here.

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Mary Watson: This show is not about Sherlock and John as humans, it is strictly about the cases.

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Also Mary Watson: Ma bois

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Mark Gatiss: Wait!!!

Steven Moffat: What?

MG: Did you add a quote here about Eurus being an era-defining genius, beyond Newton?

SM: Shit, I almost forgot.

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Mary, from the heaven of assassins: You may kiss the groom.

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Benedict Cumberbatch: So will I have the ending line? Or maybe Martin?

Moftiss: ...Amanda

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Rupert Graves: Hey guys I have been enamoured with Molly Hooper since Series 2. I wonder if that will lead anywhere?

Mark Gatiss: What would you say about taking care of Mycroft?

RG: I'm sorry?

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Louise Brealey: Will Molly ever move on? For real?

Moftiss, bringing a coffin to the set: Oh haven't you heard?

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Martin Freeman, reading the TLD conversation script: Okay have you figured out anything yet?

Benedict Cumberbatch, next to him, doing the same: ...No

MF: I guess I 'll just rely on intuition then

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Martin Freeman: Okay why did the Woman know when Sherlock's birthday was but John didn't

Moftiss: Just say the fucking line

MF: ............. Happy Birthday

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Andrew Scott, visiting the TLD set: Did Martin replace me in the role?

Moftiss: Okay have you practiced your clock sounds or are you wasting our time here being the smartass?

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Una Stubbs: Okay but why do I call Mycroft a reptile?

Moftiss: Just say the fucking line... Mrs Stubbs.

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[nerdycheol]

Crossing The Line || K.M.G

Pairing: Kim Mingyu x Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff? ,Friends-to-Lovers, Confession

Word Count: ~1000

Warnings: Strong language, emotional tension

You never thought you’d be standing here, feeling this much rage toward the one person you loved most.

But here you were.

Mingyu stood in front of you, looking unfairly beautiful in the dim glow of the streetlights, his brows furrowed in confusion. You had just poured your heart out, raw and vulnerable, and all he had to say was—

"You’re my friend."

The words hit you like a slap.

You blinked. Once. Twice. Just to make sure you heard him right.

Then you laughed, sharp and humorless, your chest tightening as anger and heartbreak crashed into you at the same time.

"I don’t want to be your fucking friend, Mingyu." Your voice shook, but not with uncertainty. "I love you."

His lips parted, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallowed. "What?"

"I love you," you repeated, harsher this time, because if he was going to break your heart, you wanted him to at least hear it loud and clear. "I’ve loved you for years, and it’s fucking exhausting pretending I don’t."

Silence stretched between you, thick and suffocating.

Mingyu ran a hand through his hair, exhaling slowly. "I—"

"Don’t," you cut him off, voice dangerously close to breaking. "Don’t tell me you didn’t know. Because if you really didn’t, then you’re the biggest fucking idiot I’ve ever met."

He opened his mouth, then closed it again, like he was struggling to find the right words. But what could he say?

Every possibility was worse than the last.

That he noticed but ignored it?

That he didn’t feel the same way?

That he was just too much of a coward to acknowledge it?

"You look at me like I’m your favorite person," you continued, stepping closer, your pulse hammering in your ears. "You hold me like you don’t want to let go. You show up for me like I’m the most important thing in your life. And yet, you have the audacity to call me your friend?"

Mingyu inhaled sharply, but he didn’t back away.

"Tell me," you pressed, your hands balling into fists at your sides. "Do you kiss all your friends on the forehead when they’re sad? Do you hold them just a little too long? Do you get jealous when they talk about other people?"

His jaw tightened.

"You don’t," you answered for him. "Because this isn’t just friendship, Mingyu. It never was."

Still, he said nothing.

And that silence broke you more than any rejection ever could.

You sucked in a shaky breath, forcing yourself to take a step back. "You know what? Forget it. I don’t need an answer."

"(Y/N)..." His voice was barely a whisper.

"No," you snapped, your vision blurring. "I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep being the one who waits while you figure out your fucking feelings."

Mingyu reached for you instinctively, his fingers grazing your wrist, but you yanked your arm away.

And then you turned around and walked away.

You didn’t expect him to stop you.

You didn’t expect him to chase after you.

But he did.

His hand grabbed yours, spinning you back around with enough force to make you stumble. Before you could protest, his mouth was on yours, stealing the breath right out of your lungs.

It wasn’t soft. It wasn’t hesitant. It was desperate, messy, fueled by frustration and something deeper—something you had been aching for all this time.

Mingyu kissed you like he was drowning, like he had been holding back just as much as you had. His fingers tangled in your hair, his other hand gripping your waist like he was afraid you’d disappear if he let go.

You hated how easily you melted into him.

When he finally pulled away, his forehead pressed against yours, he was breathless.

"You’re not just my friend," he murmured. "You never were."

"Then why—" Your voice cracked, and he shook his head.

"Because I was scared," he admitted. "I didn’t want to lose you. I didn’t want to fuck this up. But I should’ve known... I should’ve known that losing you like this would be worse."

Your chest ached, but this time, it wasn’t from heartbreak. It was from hope.

"You better not be bullshitting me right now, Kim Mingyu."

A small, shaky laugh escaped him. "I’m not."

You searched his eyes, looking for any trace of doubt. There was none.

So this time, when you kissed him, it wasn’t out of anger or desperation. It was a promise.

And Mingyu kissed you back like he had been waiting for this moment his entire life.

[namgyunation]

rewatching s2 for writing reasons and seeing all of thanos and nam-gyu's interactions again, and omggg i love how much of a loser nam-gyu is lmao.

i'm personally a tragic one-sided thangyu and/or platonic thangyu truther because it's just so much more pathetic and interesting to me to view nam-gyu's loser, kiss-ass behavior towards thanos to be out of desperation to just have a fucking friend and to be considered even the slightest bit as cool / confident as thanos just by being associated with him.

jaewon said that nam-gyu's full of anger and resentment due to being completely disrespected by people his entire life. all he wants is to be loved and recognized, for people to respect him.

he wants it so bad but can never seem to convince people to view him that way. his insecurities and fear always show through, and to me he always comes off as so awkward instead of confident and strong. so when it comes to thanos, bro latched on to him right away. he thinks thanos is cool and craves his attention and validation in what i view as a 'fanboy' kind of parasocial type of way, as he clearly idolized thanos even before the games and rushed to be in a photo with him, despite trying to play it cool at first.

it made him feel good to bond with thanos and have the shared connection of being scammed by mg coin. being close to him and earning thanos's favor made him feel validated, and he had the desire to be seen as an equal to him and better than their other teammates.

nam-gyu is sooo mean to min-su because he seems him as weak, something that he desperately doesn't want to be associated with, and it just makes him an easy target for nam-gyu to feel stronger and better about himself whenever he pushes him around. he's mean as fuck to se-mi because she provoked him. she saw right through how insecure he was when she called out how he took thanos's pill and then tried to lecture the rest of the team, as if he wasn't clearly just as scared as the rest of them. she wasn't afraid to verbalize it, and it pissed nam-gyu off to be reminded of how he comes off to other people. he doesn't hesitate to be an asshole to people.

and yet, thanos repeatedly disrespects the fuck out of nam-gyu: brushing off his ideas, cutting him off, putting him down, and even going so far as to embarrass him in front of the whole team with the noona thing as soon as he tries to assert himself over min-su. jaewon has stated repeatedly that thanos didn't respect nam-gyu and looked down on him a lot.

despite thanos's behavior and the fact that nam-gyu clearly hates people looking down on him and reminding him of his own insecurities, he never directly speaks out against thanos, not even once, despite how clearly uncomfortable it makes him and how quick he is to speak out against other people (se-mi and min-su for example. min-su, especially).

i personally like to interpret it as him being so horribly desperate for a connection, a friendship, even if the foundation of said friendship is mostly built on them being on drugs together / wanting to get back at mg coin. so desperate that he'll let thanos step on him and put him down even though he so clearly hates it and is made uncomfortable by it. because thanos is "cool". because nam-gyu would rather take shit from him over and over than be alone, because at least when he's with thanos, he gets a crumb of validation every now and then, like when he repeatedly picks him in mingle. this is just how i prefer to view them as opposed to 'nam-gyu was desperately in love with thanos and pushed everyone else around bc he was jealous and wanted to kiss on him all by himself'

likeee give me pathetic, loser nam-gyu that clearly has a history of being disrespected his whole life that's turned him into a bitter, hateful person, and yet, when even the slightest possibility of something as simple as a friendship, a genuine connection and mutual respect, recognition from someone he deems as 'cool' is dangled in front of him, he's desperate enough to just let thanos step all over him.

thanos is strong, confident, capable of commanding a room, and not afraid to say what he wants. nam-gyu feels inferior to thanos, and thanos leans into it, but even then nam-gyu is still willing to take the blatant disrespect and let himself be pushed around in exchange for anything ambiguously shaped like a friendship.

[extremely-judgemental]

all these things are shitty not great things for the characters to be doing, but the characters aren’t doing them because they’re inherently problematic; they’re doing them because the author wants to be horny

If you can recognise the author’s presence in the book over the narrative, that is poor writing (SJM is guilty of this). Similarly, if you are intentionally trying to justify a terrible choice in the book as the author’s shortcoming, it’s completely up to you, but you are discrediting the character itself.

And trust me when I say this, readers who are heavy critics know that these are a result of SJM’s horniess. No one loves to analyse what she is smoking when she writes more than I do, but saying these choices shouldn’t define the character is excusing her responsibility as a writer. And SJM isn’t a novice. She is very meticulous about what goes into her books which reflects in the symbolism, parallelism, and foreshadowing (and the lack of editing). She KNOWS what she is doing and she doesn’t care.

Feyre’s torture UtM and the show in CoN is her exhibitionism kink, and Cassian/Nesta’s relationship is solely for angry/hate sex. Everyone knows that! What people hate is that she didn’t handle it well. And there is no need to resort to violence every single time. But she does. She actively advocates for these characters and their choices are portrayed as acceptable or normal behaviour when it comes from one’s current/would-be partner. Rhysand tormenting Feyre UtM is something people struggle to label as assault to this date, or Cassian having sex with a trapped Nesta in HoW as coercion. If SJM had taken the time to be responsible with these themes or taken accountability at least later when the issues were brought up, it’s understandable as an error of judgement. But no, here we are, people still arguing that Rhysand did it to protect Feyre. Or that Cassian is a man with heart of gold who gave Nesta what she needed.

There are plenty of actions and plots and decisions to be rightfully critical of in these books

Completely agree on this. But when every FMC in the series is abused by men and that becomes a core part of their journey, why should their experiences be overlooked? When the sexual scenes, however unintended, imitate real life sexual assault and are excused in the narrative, why shouldn’t the readers point them out? Especially when sex makes up half of these books.

‘Nitpicking’ would be me calling Cassian’s man bun stupid. (Yes, it is, and I hate it from the bottom of my heart) ‘Nitpicking’ would be me saying Rhysand is a loser for wanting brownie points that he knows the name of every one of his people. (He’s a fucking daemati, if I were Feyre, I’d be suspicious like hell) Instead, we are discussing a world built on misogynistic ideals where these characters are representatives of feminism and equality and whatnot. These MMCs are considered by a vast majority of the fanbase as the blueprint for the romantic partners they are seeking in real life. So it is completely valid to criticise the romantic/sexual dynamics the FMCs comes to terms with as a divine love made for them.

It is also valid to use these actions to criticise the characters. Actions define a person as much as their words. If the characters do something more than once, it’s a pattern which can be attributed to their personality. SJM may not have tried to make them abusive, but their actions definitely did, and the readers have every right to point that out too.

can i say something . can i be brave . a lot of y’all are trying to find endogenic reasons for characters in acotar doing things when the reason they did them was not because they are abusive / morally bad characters but because sjm wanted to make the books horny. did rhysand have to paint feyre and waltz her around the parties under the mountain basically naked? did he have to distract the hewn city by making feyre a pet and touching on her in front of everyone? no. sjm wrote it to be horny. did azriel need to be a cringecore emo fuck (affectionate) talmbout sad shower jerks and the cauldron giving him elain? no. sjm wrote it to lay the tension for being horny later. did cassian have to do anything he did in acosf? no. sjm wanted to be HORNY. all these things are shitty not great things for the characters to be doing, but the characters aren’t doing them because they’re inherently problematic; they’re doing them because the author wants to be horny, and they become problematic as a byproduct. there are plenty of actions and plots and decisions to be rightfully critical of in these books — trust me i want to 1v1 the inner circle in a pit — but some of the takes i’ve seen on this hellsite are trying to apply nuance to things done purely for the sake of being horny and it’s driving me crazy

[oopsiedaisydeer]

ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ, ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɴᴏᴛ… ᴀ ꜱᴇʀɪᴇꜱ

emotional tension, social anxiety, one-sided attraction?, unresolved tension, self-doubt, slow burn, angst, fluff, coming-of-age, friends to lovers?, awkwardness

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙤𝙣𝙚: 𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣 𝙞𝙣𝙫𝙞𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨, 𝘧𝘵. 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨!𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘩𝘺!𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

series masterlist here.

word count - 1.5k

You weren’t really a party person, but when your classmate, Amelia, texted you, inviting you to her house, you felt like it was one of those rare chances you shouldn’t pass up. It wasn’t every day someone asked you to join in on something. Usually, you were watching from the sidelines, feeling left out, but also wishing you could be more social, more outgoing. So when the invitation came, you agreed, with only slight hesitation.

That was three hours ago.

Now, you were standing in the corner of a loud, crowded house, gripping your cup of soda and feeling incredibly out of place. You’d lost Amelia about fifteen minutes after arriving, she disappeared into the crowd, born for these kinds of events. You, on the other hand, found yourself on a dark corner of the couch, physical distance between you and everyone else. Watching people laugh too loud, too hard, you tried not to draw attention to the fact that you had no idea what to do with yourself.

You weren’t really good at starting conversations, especially in a crowd like this. You’d given it your best shot at first, made a few half-hearted attempts to engage with people. But everyone was too busy with their own groups. You found yourself retreating to quieter corners, waiting for something to change, to give you an excuse to leave without seeming rude. You’d probably end up doing an Irish goodbye anyway.

That’s when you felt a tap on your shoulder.

You turned around, startled, to find Matt Sturniolo standing there, his usual easy grin on his face. He looked effortlessly casual, leaning against the doorframe with his arms resting by his side.

“Hey,” he greeted, his voice light. “You look like you’re plotting your escape, too.”

You blinked, shocked. Matt was that guy at school, the one everyone knew and liked, always the center of attention. He had a way of being effortlessly charming, surrounded by people all the time, always with something to say. Not popular, exactly, but likeable.

And yet, here he was, talking to you? Out of all the people in the room, you hadn’t expected him to come over. You felt your heart race a little. Why was he talking to you?

“I wasn’t planning on coming,” you admitted, feeling a little awkward. “But, you know, sometimes I think I should try new things.”

He tilted his head to the side, like he was considering your words. “Yeah, I get you,” he said with a small laugh. “I don’t even know why I keep coming to these, but it’s like... the social obligation to show up, you know?”

You couldn’t help but chuckle at how casually he spoke about it. It was refreshing, almost. “Really? I’m just here because... well, I don’t really know.”

“Real,” he said simply, his eyes scanning the party for a second before settling back on you. “Not really vibing with the whole chaos thing either.”

You hesitated for a second, then nodded. “Yeah, I’m more of a... stay up all night reading person.” You gave a small shrug, feeling the weight of the awkwardness lift a little.

Matt smiled, and he looks like he wants to ask you a question, but instead he says, “I like talking to people, but... I don’t know. Seems like everyone’s pretending to have a great time, but no one’s really connecting, you know? Maybe that’s just because I’m not drinking, for once.”

You blinked, surprised by his honesty. It wasn’t what you expected from him. Matt, the guy everyone liked, talking like this? It caught you off guard, but you found yourself nodding. “Yeah. S’all surface level.”

“Exactly.” He grinned at you, the weight in his voice lifting a bit. “Not really fucking with all this. At the moment, at least.” He waved a hand around, gesturing to the loud music and crowded living room behind him. “Not a fan of standing by myself in corners either.”

You laughed softly. “Your best option is just to disappear into a quiet corner and hope no one notices.”

“I think I might just start doing that,” he said, pushing himself off the doorframe. “You got a spot in mind?”

For a second, you just sat there, looking up at him. You could tell he wasn’t being sarcastic, and that, for some reason, he was genuinely interested in keeping the conversation going. You pointed toward the back door, which led out to an empty back garden. “Looks like it's quieter out there. We could explore?”

Matt followed you, his footsteps steady but casual. The two of you wandered out, stepping onto the porch, away from the chaos of the party. There, with less noise, the conversation immediately flowed.

“So, what do you usually do when you’re not... you know, pretending to enjoy parties?” he asked, sitting on the edge of the stairwell.

You smiled, relieved by how comfortable the conversation felt. “I read a lot. Write sometimes too. I can get lost in a good story for hours.”

Matt chuckling slightly, still looked intrigued. “Reading, I can definitely see for you. Writing, though?”

“Well, I don’t really talk about it much,” you said with a small laugh. “And we don’t exactly talk often.”

He chuckled. “Fair point. What kind of stories do you like?”

The question was so easy, so natural, that you didn’t hesitate. “Anything with people. Just like real human stories. Or stuff with magic or weird alternate worlds. I’m actually reading this book about... well, it’s a romance. You probably wouldn’t be into it, though.”

Matt smiled at your self-deprecating tone. “You’d be surprised. I recently read this epic historical fantasy trilogy, which had beautiful romantic and platonic elements. About this girl who studies to-”

“Wait, you?” you interrupted, surprised. “You like that kind of stuff?”

“Why not?” he asked with a grin. “I might look like a party guy, but I’ve got a lot of hobbies. Some might call me the hobby king.”

You laughed, feeling more comfortable by the second. You couldn’t believe how easy this conversation was. “Alright, now I’m curious. What other hobbies do you have?”

Matt paused, looking like he was weighing whether or not to share something a little more personal. “Well... I like to paint sometimes. I’m not the best at it, but it’s a fun release. And I go climbing basically every other day. Sometimes get down with a good craft too.”

You raised your eyebrows. “You’re definitely not what I expected.”

He laughed, a little sheepish. “I get that a lot. People don’t usually see the side of me that’s into this stuff. Except for my family.” He looked away for a second, almost as if he was debating something. Then he met your gaze again. “I guess I’m just... not what people assume I am.”

You studied him, noticing how his relaxed demeanor had shifted, just a little, into something more thoughtful. It was a side of him you hadn’t expected to see. He wasn’t just the charming, social guy everyone flocked to. There was more to him.

Before you could say anything else, a group of his friends appeared. As they called out to him, Matt hesitated, his smile faltering for just a second. He looked back at you, his eyes briefly holding yours as though wondering if you’d follow him back inside. But just as quickly, he masked it with a smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. 'Be right back,' he said, before turning and walking toward the group, his voice suddenly louder, more animated.

Matt's easy-going demeanor became something more familiar, charming, effortless, but distant. His friends were like a wave crashing into the calm he'd created with you. ‘Hey, bro!’ one of his brothers shouted, slapping his back, and just like that, his focus was gone. He shot you another quick glance, a little too bright, too practiced, like he wasn’t sure if he should feel guilty for walking away, but he did anyway.

You stayed in your quiet spot, unsure of what to do next. Hugging your knees to your chest, you tried to enjoy the quiet breeze, before standing up, and walking through the crowd. You paused in the kitchen, observing him. He had his back to you, but his body language somehow radiated toward you in clear waves.

He laughed louder, gestured more broadly. It was like something had turned off in him, and the mask had clicked into place. It wasn’t that he was faking it. It was just... different. More performance than person. And for a moment, you felt a strange pull between wanting to stay hidden in your corner or step into the chaos he was now part of. 

Shaking the feeling off, you managed to make it out the front door in one piece. No goodbyes necessary. Checking your phone, you accepted it was still an okay time to walk home alone.

Matt lingered in your thoughts as you made your way home, a smile that seemed to tease its way onto your lips. You found yourself replaying the conversation, wondering if it had meant anything at all.

Maybe he was just being his usual charming self, effortlessly moving from person to person, like he always did.

A quiet thought slipped in. Had you gotten attached to the moment simply because he'd talked to you? Maybe it was just the rarity of someone actually taking notice, being interested. You probably shouldn't get too worked up about it.

It wasn’t something that happened often.

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[ultimate-marysue]

Once again I'm begging DC to stop introducing super cool plotlines that they intend to abandon and barely acknowledge ever again.

Like, what do you mean that -in the fucking reality we live in- there's no comics of immunodeficient young CEO Tim Drake fighting antivaxxers?? Why isn't there an arc of Red Robin risking his life in those awful Gotham Sewers to save someone he cares about?? How tense it could be, him having to come up with ways in which to remain isolated from the sewage, each new fight becoming increasingly riskier just by virtue of Tim losing resources to keep himself safe. Maybe even choosing sure infection to save someone else and not knowing if he'll make it. Hell, give the guy his own rogue that's like a plague doctor infecting people with bioengineered viruses.

Bruce and Damian with their broken backs/missing spines are similar in the sense of, what even is the point of introducing this thing as such a big event only to forget about it???? Like, I get not dragging the "will Batman recover?" And that, to some extent, he must recover because it's Batman and I know DC is not going to let Bruce Wayne retire ever. But right now we're not even at a ret-con when they rearranged the universe to keep Bruce at a working age, he still has a broken back in canon and it's barely mentioned. I remember during Failsafe/Zurr he keep talking about getting old and his missing hand and stuff and it's like...bitch there's more pressing issues than your two grey hairs.

Like, I'm not even complaining about the emotional set ups they never pay off because they can't be bothered to figure out how to get characters from point A (disliking each other for very valid reasons/complicated and complex feelings) to point B (happy sitcom family). I'm talking about these grand moments they like to introduce as a way to raise the stakes with no intention of ever dealing with the consequences. Which, you know, immediately nullifies said stakes????

And let's also not get into completely rebooting the universe without paying off some characters set ups and then dragging the character around with nothing to do. Like yes, I get that Steph's Robin era and its ending may not be canon now?? But why couldn't it be cano so that at least she has stuff to do? And personality?? Like, yeah, brutally torture the girl who just gave birth for shock value and then completely forget about both those things.

It's just...it's worse than bad. It's a waste of potential for characters most of the time until someone comes along and decides to actually write something interesting for them (new Cass run for example, or Juni Ba's Boy Wonder). I don't get why DC doesn't let writers actually commit to at least some semblance of consequences for the characters which, in turn, could give you such interesting arcs and new thematic villains. Anyways..

[forsaken-headcanons]

my justification on the existence of skins

skins are just different people. alternate universe, maybe? (amount of similarities with the 'original' varies wildly from skin to skin)

every once in a while the default character is replaced with someone else for some time. a few rounds, maybe?

or maybe they're just a temporary addition that exists alongside the original.

either way, they disappear after some time. some kind of 'glitch in the system'??

since i'm mostly familiar with noob skins, they will be what i talk about. won't talk about all of them and i can't be bothered to actually look up any of the skin names outside of a month old youtube video, so these may be incorrect names or unobtainable skins.

inverted noob is essentially just a 'swap au'. not characters swapping roles, but having the 'opposite' personality. a lot more confident and less stressed during rounds.

trapped noob is actually controlled by the smaller noob, with the larger noob acting as a sort of mech, which may or may not be somehow powered by the smaller noob's lifeforce. however, getting thrown after getting beat up when you're like 5 centimetres tall is a probably just guaranteed death. acts relatively similar to default noob, along with having a lot more knowledge about engineering and how to maintain such a massive (in comparison to them) mech. the mech could be made out of glass or a similar material to explain the attempt at a transparent effect on the body. the head could contain a lot of vital components to make it a similar weak point comparable to a human head.

spiders noob is actually some kind of noob-shaped puppet (my mind is leaning towards big massive plush with a lot of the stuffing missing) controlled by a metric fuck ton of spiders. spider hivemind, maybe? they're relatively chill but don't talk much, an account of being spiders.

retro noob is literally just an alternate version of noob from like 2009 or sometime like that. acts mostly the same as default noob.

noob cosplay is a bit of a wildcard. literally can be anyone ever, but with a noob colour scheme. is a different person every time, but memories may transfer between cosplay noobs. has on multiple occasions taken the form of other survivors (or killers, but they're either extremely dazed and/or sleepy or just straight up past versions of that killer). something potentially similar to regretevator's fleshcousin, but different. absolutely some type of hivemind. rounds may be perceived as dreams/nightmares to the actual person they are based off of. at least one character has experienced such a dream, undecided as to who yet but i think the mystery might be fun.

milestone skins all take place within the same universe, each at a different point in time. i like to think of it as some sort of zombie apocalypse au based on the 'build to survive the zombies' game, purely just to further justify my killer & survivor concepts based on it.

- 🫐 anon

That works!

[redpandapirate]

Severance Episode 7

I've seen some people on reddit theorize that Gemma is being SA'd on the testing floor. One person said the dentist and "love you" scene were just fetishes.

I do understand where this idea comes from. It's probably the most fucked up scenario one (especially as a woman) thinks of when seeing people being severed in not just two but multiple persona. And let's be honest, it is also a very realistic threat women would face if severance were a real thing.

Buuut while I could see SA being brought up in the future, I do not think Gemma is being SA'd in the rooms. The experiences are clearly tailored to her. Mark said she hates writing thank you cards, so one of her innies does nothing but that + she gets taunted with the last exchange her outie had with Mark. I assume she also has a fear of dentists and flying (pretty common fears imo). I assume Lumon wants to either

1. Sell Severance as a way to get out of unpleasant situations. We've already seen this with the pregnancy cabin but they're likely perfecting this for easy everyday use.

2. Obviously they want to complete something with Gemma, somehow she will "sire a new world". They also say once she is done she will have to go and Mark will be free of pain (probably grief). This sounds to me like they want to find a way to delete the original person (outie) or be able to sever any negative emotion. In Marks case "deleting" all memories of Gemma and therefore his grief. Either to sell this or to do something more sinister (we still don't know what the revolving is for example, just profit is probably not the end goal of Lumon)

Of course the big question still remains. What is cold harbor? Why does that last door complete whatever they're doing with her? Since they're apparently able to simulate a crashing plane it really could be anything. Personally I hope it has nothing to do with SA or her miscarriage.

And my personal biggest question that I've had since watching season one: Why Gemma and Mark? Everyone is obsessed with Mark and him finishing cold harbor. The Dr. Maurer dude was already looking at Gemma while in the fertility clinic. Because she simply would be their next victim? Or because they had been waiting for her arrival? There has to be something special about them and I don't believe it's a cliche "Oh, because their love is just soo strong", at least I hope it's not lol.

(Also why tf do the people in the testing floor office look like MDR? Are these the ones they saw on their outdoor retreat or are there two sets of look-alikes? Wtf is that about)

While I don't want this season to end, I'm so excited for the last episodes.

[rei-ismyname]

That is a really good point. I'd love to see that too, though I think it could go either way. At that point in time Logan is so high on his own farts and pretty much everyone enables him. He's never been especially shy about trying to kill Scott himself. It may not be explicit but are there many ways to slash or stab a moving target non-lethally with science fiction sharp metal claws?

I guess that's Logan though, right? Violent and hypocritical. I'm sure he'd have complicated feelings privately, likely filtered through his Jean obsession with a hint of 'a warrior deserves a better death than that.' That's just speculation though, the point is that we didn't get it, reflecting or otherwise.

I absolutely agree that Logan behaved worse, however he wants as usual. I've been re-reading bits of the Utopia era and for all that people complain about Scott and blame him for whatever - without him every single mutant would have died several times over. I think he's held to an impossible standard during the most difficult time for mutants and then cast aside once the crisis was over. He wasn't just a military leader either - he dealt with political crises and an ongoing extinction event while being attacked by governments, paramilitary groups, robots from the future, demons, etc etc times a million. We should always criticise our leaders and what they do in our name but nobody else put their hand up. I believe whoever was in that position would have received similar treatment while doing a worse job. We'll never know, but it's interesting that the Jean Grey school didn't really face any serious threats.

Yeah, fuck Old Man Logan though I appreciate that Jean herself got to emphatically reject his bullshit. It's hypocrisy either way, but especially coming from that fool.

Yeah, I mean dude has his chance to and he threatened, terrified and traumatised them. I know you mean that Doylistically, but I was pretty satisfied with the kids' reaction to that clown as any kind of moral authority. The Jean Grey school was built from glass and Logan threw a lot of stones. Him internalising young Jean's disgust would break the pedestal Marvel built for Logan. Creepy MF.

Yeah Rosenberg's run was peak Logan Behavior. Everyone was getting in on it so Scott did the sensible thing and abdicated/decentralised leadership. Still got blamed for everything. Logan's emotional immaturity is never more apparent than the Rahne situation (which was a terrible choice btw. Spot on trans coding with nothing new to say, just fodder for Logan's violence.) It's there on the page for once - what was anyone supposed to do to prevent that? She walked away to live her life how she wanted. Short of locking her up, that's life. Agreed re the funeral.

I have a grudge too.

Yeah, I mean I'm always going to be glad they did something new. Broke the cycle of misery that had been going on for at least a decade. I feel like a lot of grudges were put away to make it work, though they were never truly buried. The problem with Logan is that he's too damn popular and it's frozen his personality at where it was in the nineties. People change around him and just accept how he behaves. We could be generous and say that the apologies and growth happened off page. Not only is that unlikely (his behaviour hasn't changed a bit) but it's a waste of character growth. I'm not the average Wolverine enthusiast (I assume) but that would be great to see.

I'm adding that to my wishlist too, though I doubt it'll ever happen. I think Wolverine fans can handle some honest emotional growth and consequences for his actions, but Marvel is conservative with their cash cow.

Cyclops mourns Logan

Pretty sure he's dated more psychics than that

They really called it Cyclops in YOU. Hell yeah. Anyway, Logan is dead. Scott, unaware that he's in a comic book, is treating this event as if it's forever. Lucky for us, because their messed up relationship is like crack for me. He considers how Logan was his most complicated relationship, and that's a lot coming from him.

There's definitely resentment there, because Logan was and is a selfish jerk. It's refreshing honesty, and very Scott Summers. He's remembering all the different ways in which Logan made his life harder, acted like a creep, or spited him needlessly, yet Logan's death is keeping Scott up at night.

I love this flashback to after the Dark Phoenix Saga (I think) and it makes pretty clear that Logan transferred his idealisation from Jean to Scott. Scott is standing at his wife's grave and somehow Logan manages to make literally everything about him. At least he acknowledges his grief and says 'sorry for your loss.' Wait, no that doesn't happen actually. The bastard just tells him he's not allowed to quit because of his psychosexual obsession. I wonder what Scott is thinking as he walks off. An optic blast in the back would be somewhat justified (and funny) but Scott usually has better self control than that.

He considers the aftermath of Fatal Attractions, when Magneto performed field surgery on his bones. Logan definitely wasn't used to not being immortal and the apex murderer. His recovery was long and his whining intense.

Is Scott biting Magneto there?

Scott approaches Logan as he's punishing himself in the Danger Room and echoes his words back to him, offering him a hand up. He remembers the heartwarming threats and the good times shared together fighting for their lives. Brothers in grief and violence, rivals who are simultaneously paternal figures to each other.

Scott is very prone to blaming himself for things going wrong, and Logan was always there to remind him. I don't think he's being fair on himself but he never really is. Blaming Scott for things is an X-Men sport. He repeats Logan's insane words for a third time - 'we don't get to quit.' Scott cries in the snow on all fours outside the base where Logan was repeatedly tortured and dehumanised, but he doesn't quit.

Scott imagines what Logan's funeral would be like, and he's not far off. He thinks hard about an appropriate way to honour his memory. The answer is obvious - alcohol and violence. I have no doubt Scott knows exactly where every mutant hater watering hole is, but it's funnier to imagine him wandering around until he finds one.

Proving he knows him pretty damn well, Scott sends Logan off by beating the shit out of some bigots and drinking over their unconscious bodies. 'Here's to you, bub. See you in a year or so.' Cyclops is pretty famous at this point, so these dudes probably know exactly who he is. They'll be telling that story for a while, of the time they were drinking and hating on mutants then Scott Summers came out of nowhere to fuck them up. Logan wouldn't be proud exactly, but he'd probably grunt and call him bub. That's practically 'I love you' from Logan, and Scott loves his dumb ass too.

[thewardenisonthecase]

btw tw for talking about abuse

I've seen a lot online about how the game never mentions Caterina's abuse of Lucanis while he was growing up (being beaten and starved, which is mentioned in the Wigmaker Job) and I think there's a small mention to it if you're a crow (when asked, he says it was torture training under the first talon and that he resented her for a long time)

And while I do think part of the reason why this isn't brought up is just due to how sanitized this game is when it comes to the crows, I think I do understand why in world wise it's not possible to just be like hey lucanis, fuck your grandma.

It's really hard, loving someone who hurts you. Because you know they're hurting you and yet, you still love them. It's even harder when they're family.

Because its not like Lucanis doesn't know that she hurt him. He says so himself - he hated her, he resented her, and althought I do think him 'justifying' it by saying that at least it prepared him for the life of a crow, at least he still admits that it happened.

But the thing is that despite all this shit, she's still his grandmother. And like, yes, blood shouldn't excuse justifing this behaviour, I feel like it's cultural. Idk how spain or italy works when it comes to family, but here in brazil, you'll hear so many stories of physical abuse happening in families, and its still a situation like Lucanis - i hate them, i resent them, i love them, they're my family.

It's a...complicated situation and I think Lucanis's situation is made worst by the fact that he only has two family members alive and that he cannot let go of.

She beat him, she starved him, he hated and resented her, and he was afraid of dissapointing her, even if in her eyes, i don't think he could. I mean, he comes back an abomination and she still tenderly says 'my poor boy' when you rescue her in the Villa.

All in all...it's tought and I think that it would not be Rook's place to suddenly make Lucanis want to kill his grandma bc he wouldn't. Sorting out those feelings is something he has to do himself, and i'l almost glad the game doesn't make rook do a therapy session with him to talk about it.

[somelazyassartist]

I have such a specific gender envy of abandoned animatronics it's truly upsetting I'll never get to look like that

[trainingthots]

This cannot be to me Delicacy Love,

I do not think if you as anything of the sort, and if anyone is the Narcissistic Ass it is me. I love every single one of your flaws, especially your tendency to project your insecurity onto others. I do the same things only much worse. I am not using anything against you, i do not fight against you. Its one if the problems in our relationship, that i never could tell you no and that your self loathing meant my love for you made me the least desirable person in the god damn world to you. This man, so easy to degrade and humiliate, to use and despise their girl, got spun around and lost when i met you and fell in love. All of a sudden out of my element i only wanted to love, care and respect you, but had no idea how to do that because of the toxic awful person i was. When i felt like j was never going to get to love you and have you completely, i frustrated and angry at myself for being so ineffectual at the one thing i wanted did what i always do, fuck it all up and pretend that i only failed because it wasnt worth doing. How wrong i was. How wrong i still am if i make you feel this way. But the facts dont line up. I have not been critical of you, i am dealing with pain and loss, but it is helping me realize my awful mistakes and filling me with regret and the urge to do better and right by you. This is once again orobably not for me but for the man you actually love. I am so tired of gim being the one who breaks your heart. I am not the jealous type, but i am amgry that while i am hurt from finding out about all my pain and losing you, i feel so much empathy for you being jn pain from losing him. I am a total pathetic mess. I am sorry for your loss, and i hope to be there for you while you grieve.

You are not unlovable, and the abandonment thing is something i have always accepted and ignored. You have abandoned me so many times its ludicrous. I am not belittling you. I am trying to understand your growth and change while ignoring my own pain. Once again i am not doing the best job, but i am trying.

Nothing I do or post js against you. If someone is doing that it is not me. There is a lot of stuff done in my name that is not me these days. Close your eyes, open your heart and know i would never intentionally hurt you. It is all love from me. I will not criticize you, i will not shame you, i will not even tell people what is going on with me because it risks people thinking poorly on you, and i will not have it.

Forever Your Cheerleader,

The Marquis De Sad

Unlovable

To you,

I'm a narcissist and you know it's true. I've projected all my insecurities just to protect this fragile ego. Now that you've exposed me, I can admit the truth about my low self-esteem and self-worth. I'm temperamental and throw tantrums like a child. I'm narrow-minded and get defensive in arguments. I hide the truth about my life because I genuinely hate myself and all my flaws. It's who I am. 

Thank you for showing me how little respect you have for me. I now understand your intentions of making me feel the pain and dishonesty I have inflicted onto you. There's no need for defending myself at this point if you feel encouraged to make me feel like the most ruthless immature person that has existed. I'm glad you feel a sense of fulfillment in your quest to making me aware of the hateful person I am. 

It's true that I'm unlovable. Everything I attach myself to doesn't truly belong to me. I chose to abandon both myself and others, so please continue writing about how much you despise me. Use everything against my will to prove to me that I was a mistake in your life. I deserve to be agonized and shamed for trying to love you.

You said it yourself that I look like shit, so please let me continue to deteriorate alone. I am unworthy of love and believe I will continue to be just an option. To tell you the truth, you were the first person I felt comfortable being around without a mask. I could be my most authentic autistic self with you, without fear that you'd abandon me for my weirdness. When I felt unsafe, you were always the first person I’d turn to because I gave you the key to my tender heart. I guess it never meant anything anyways.

The narcissist in me is frustrated that I can't control your desire to use my pictures, trauma, and love against me. If you wish to continue belittling me just to prove how terrible a human I am, you've already done an amazing job. And still, I can never hate you because I already hate my life, and you don't deserve that. I'm sorry for being unlovable. 

Me

February the last, 1966 Anne Sexton, from Complete Poems

[bearenjoyers]

sorry im just thinking about bcs but like. why not add a few smaller scenes of gus interacting with his own men? why does it seem like, in comparison, mike is almost immediately elevated to a higher status than those two in bcs purely because we actually get to see him having normal conversations with gus? like i understand they might not keep the plot moving as well because of the fact obviously if victor is currently doing something it’s because gus told him to etc. but for the most part all of the smaller interactions gus does have with those two ends up being in a somewhat high stress situation where it feels very tense between everyone. and it’s just like damn! is it always like that?? why do those two even care that much about their jobs if their boss is a bit of a dick? etc. i think even an additional scene or two with those guys (either alone or the both of them) talking with gus in a more normal situation could’ve both added a bit more depth into how gus treats his employees (we got a lot with how he treats lyle and co., but not a whole lot with the illegal side of things), how comfortable vic and tyrus feel around him in a calmer setting, and exactly why they both feel the need to be as loyal as they are to the guy.

and also on the other side of this i don't think it'd hurt to maybe elaborate on their pay just a bit..? i'm not saying to randomly put a number out into the atmosphere but i just mean some smaller things like. do they buy nicer things for themselves? what's their housing situation? what's their car situation? are the escalade / yukon their own vehicles or does gus just use those two for business situations? do they use them when they're doing their own stuff off the clock or do they have their own cars? etc. that can also help with understanding their motivations a bit. don't get me wrong i don't think they should be visibly rich or something because that's not what gus would want but just smaller things! cause it's easy to write their loyalty off as Well they probably get paid super well, which i'm sure is true, but if they don't show a single hint of that then what's the point. even something as simple as giving tyrus a nice watch, or maybe victor having a nicer looking gun, etc. something small like that. because as it stands right now the average 41 year old viewer who watched the show once only knows and will only ever know victor and tyrus as those two guys in the background who do random stuff for gus with no clear motivation. just the personification of "On it boss (salute emoji)". and to be honest this is true for a whole lot of fans who do watch the show multiple times and enjoy thinking about it more in depth, because on screen we barely have anything about the two.

and to be clear i'm not trying to say we should have an episode just for them or something like no i understand they're side characters. i understand we don't need all that. and i understand this is also primarily Jimmy's show. but it's not like these two are on the same level as like, arlo or paige and kevin etc. these guys have been around since brba. victor was literally introduced in the same episode gus was. and they are a huge part of gus's story, especially in brba. s4 wouldn't have been what it was without victor and tyrus. and in bcs, ignacio's situation wouldn't have been the same if it weren't for victor and tyrus as well. and i just personally believe that if their goal with gus in bcs was to go back and elaborate on how everything came to be and show what he was like a few years younger, they could've dragged victor and tyrus into that. and i think his character would've benefited from taking that extra step with those two.

[doriansbutt]

I see your ‘I thought this was a normal thing everyone experiences’ and raise you ‘I am the only one who experiences this and if I say anything people will think there’s something wrong with me’

[jackass-jones]

Really into the episode of Ouran where this girl confesses her love to Mori but he doesn’t feel the same because he’s into Honey and the girl’s reaction is just like YIPPEE I LOVE YAOI THATS SO COOL FOR YOU YAY 🥰

[widevibratobitch]

laalalalala another vent post because i have no therapist to pay for listening to my bullshit