#but at a certain point its just like. ok one of these groups is saying 'hi please acknowledge i exist' and one of them is saying

[gibbearish]

discourse protip: if you made an entire blog dedicated to telling a group of people they either don't exist or don't actually experience oppression, you're probs on the wrong side of things. just by and large

[deadsnakey]

𝐒𝐋𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍 𝐆𝐀𝐍𝐆 —> 𝐁𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐏

GENRE —> FLUFF

characters; Mattheo Riddle, Theodore Nott, Pansy Parkinson, Blaise zabini, Lorenzo Berkshire, Draco Malfoy.

You've been accepted into the friend group, the longer you're with everyone the more you build bonds with each one.

Inspired by @girllblogging777

✩ You and mattheo are definitely best friends and are the closest out of the whole group.

✩ Lorenzo sees you as a little sister and you see him as an older brother, but mattheo and you radiate the most sibling energy; you both have curly hair probably, bonus if it's also brown.

✩ You and blaise study together since the rest aren't helpful or they're just a distraction…mattheo and draco specifically. At least theo isn't too distracting even if he’s bored.

✩ chaotic, certain duos or trios are worse then others.

✩ Pansy and you always do girls night together every friday or Saturday depending if someone busy or not. masks, doing nails, crafts, make up on each other, trying products out theatre weird, movie marathon with snacks, etc. its a blast and the boys always complain because that seems so fun omg????

✩ the boys love teasing the shit out of you because they think its entertaining but will back off if they realize they're taking it too far

✩ you probably teach most of them how to correctly treat a women and things not/to say and not/to do, etc. give them a little reward for becoming gentlemen to keep motivating them. (they're dogs.)

✩ they listen to you most of the time

✩ tbh if you're studying or sum that needs a lot of focus and is serious to you, they will let you work and help as much as they can if you ask for it.

✩ they are probably really protective over you.

✩ most to lease? Mattheo, Draco, Pansy, Theodore, Lorenzo, Blaise.

✩ mattheo, Draco and Pansy is the worst of it, will fight for you.

✩ Theodore and Lorenzo are more verbally abusing someone and Blaise has a sharp tongue when he wants too, he is not afraid to be an ass to someone when it comes down to it.

✩ Lorenzo and Blaise are the nicest in the group not including you. They are still assholes but more toned down.

✩ Pansy and you team up on them allllll the time and they sometimes hate it, so they do it back to you cause they're petty little shits.

✩ when you're throwing up, they'll rush over to get your hair out of your way as quickly as possible.

✩ will try their best to comfort you if they find you crying or upset or sum. Theo and Mattheo are ones who immediately pull you into their chest to protect you; holding you firmly.

✩ they all give really good hugs, but Lorenzo's are probably the best.

✩ they make sure you're eating enough, drinking enough water, not over exhausting yourself and overall just watching over you to make sure you're taking care of yourself.

✩ if they find out you're not taking care of yourself like you should be, they will constantly be on you about it to the point it starts getting annoying.

✩ anytime y'all have classes with one another they will be pestering you asking if you drunk water today and if not, "ok, here's some water now drink, love.", like they will shove food down your throat so please just take care of yourself, its not worth the annoyance and hassle.

✩ crackheads, always getting into some shit and dragging you into it unless you don't wanna be apart of it. (though they'll beg you to agree lol.)

[peatbogbody]

oh yunho!

arguably the most enigmatic member of ATEEZ. as others have said, and as i have experienced personally, when you see him your first reaction is "well that certainly is an Idol." he looks like an idol, sounds like an idol. but the longer you look you start to go "....??? HUH?"

he's actually like the definition of hotness and proof it's not all about looks. like of course he's gorgeous but not like absurdly so or in the super striking, supermodel-esque way that certain other members are. but he's got a whole air that's just so effortlessly sexy.

in terms of his role in the group, he's stated himself that he's in charge of bringing the energy to the group, the "yunhogizer" as it were. i was thinking about this and decided i think it's less that he just *brings* energy (though he's very capable of doing that), but more that he has a big role in *setting* the energy level and color, and bringing diverse elements together. in this group, we have many members whose base energy/emotional intensity level they bring to any setting is very high. their "high energy" is chart-breaking and their "low energy" is still pretty intense and stimulating. joong, hwa, san, mingi and woo are all like this (not to say they're boring or one-track, they have many different levels and flavors they just very heavily lean to the more intense/darker side, ) whereas yeosang and jongho's main mode of operation is much mellower (yeosang can be intense and jongho has a lot of power but neither of them bring the kind of manic/demonic energy to music or performance the others do). but ys and jh are not only 2 against 5, they're also almost too contrasting with the other members, so that when paired directly against eachother it can be jarring.

yunho's like an egg binding the dough together. his strength is in his versatility. he can bring the energy and intensity when he needs to, which usually has the effect of sending the whole group's energy up to 11--see the dance breaks in Wonderland or WIN--but is also capable of heart-melting lightness and softness when he wants too--see the choruses in Light or the intro to Utopia. his voice may not be the most distinctive but it's just so pleasant to hear, like a warm hug.

And he can go anywhere in between, especially vocally, so he makes an excellent singer to put between members whose voices are extremely contrasting (when such contrast is not desired for impact). At some point I think I want to do a more in-depth vocal analysis so I won't get too granular here. But ok I'm going to keep going with the egg metaphor not sorry I'm a genius actually. You can beat him and incorporate him as a binding agent, separate him and use his yolk to add richness and flavor or whip him to stiff peaks to make a delicious fluffy cake or meringue. You get it. Yunho is quintessential in setting the tone of whatever ATEEZ is doing at a given moment.

now, off stage....well. on paper his assigned role is "puppy", and to the naked eye he can appear to be some combination of that and Some Guy. and that's not totally inaccurate. he is a verified Male Living Space Owner and ranked Valorant player whose default instagram post type is "boyfriend". but he has a certain je ne sais quoi to him that's hard to pin down. he carries a mischievous glint in his eyes at basically all times. he's suspiciously present in many of the most off-the-wall short-form content (bonus) on ateez's official accounts. he's also, apart from seonghwa, to my eyes the member most at home anytime gender-bending is called for--the boy eats girl group choreo for breakfast and has a blast doing it. but he's *also* capable of going full hype-house tiktokker mode when appropriate.

we love a man of mystery. i will continue to watch his activities closely.

not even touching the ?Catholicism i have zero context for that all i know is he does the crossy-thing in halazia?

yungiiiii! there is SO much to say about them but its too much for me to put in this post but lmk if yall ever feel like making a sandwich someday 😥

p.s. can i just say how pretty his bare-faced complexion is? that is all.

also HANDS i didn't include any pics bc i hit the limit and also i didnt want to kill anybody

next writeup will be about yeosang 🥰

[inky-duchess]

Writing Theory: Dialogue

One question, I often get asked on this blog concerns dialogue and how to write it. Dialogue is the characters speaking to one another or even to themselves and while it sounds easy, it can be difficult to chose what your character might say or how they might say it or even how it might present on the page/word doc/napkin you're writing it on.

Content: The What and Why

What is your character actually saying? Your character is in a situation (which hopefully you put them in or at least know what is going on, if you do not, it is OK). But in most situations, most characters interact in some way, whether it is verbal or not. What your character says has to link to the situation in some way. Picture yourself on a bus sitting next to a friend and you have just seen a dog out of the window. What would be the response or the natural line of conversation here? Probably 'Oh, that dog is cute.' or 'This journey is taking forever.' etc. It unlikely would be a long monologue about a character's deepest darkest secrets or an admission of murder. It is unlikely, but of course not impossible. But generally, one usually tries to keep the conversation to the present and the now. Allow your character to get their point, or even part of it, across to who they talking about clearly. Remember not only does their companion need to know what is being said, but as do your readers.

Why is this person saying this? There is a deeper level to what anybody says and we all know this. A person will generally keep to neutral phrases or topics in order to keep the peace, distance themselves from whoever they are having the conversation with or a person will be curt and short with somebody they are not getting along with or a person will be polite and formal to somebody who demands the respect. There is a reason behind word choice, a reason behind tone and even topic. You won't have to delve into the intricacies of the 'hello' or 'hey' types of dialogue but say if a character was in a situation they must or do chose their words carefully, then you have to consider the why of it as you write the conversation.

Characteristics of Speech

Characters don't talk like they are reading from an instruction manual. Personality, experience and other factors effect how your character might speak. Next time you are in a group setting, focus on how the people around you speak, whether its the sentence structure, the tone, the volume or the flow of their words. No character speaks the same as another, and nor should they. I go further into this in this post here. Now you have established your character's voice as it pertains to personality, now consider the actual voice of your character. How would you describe your character's voice? Even if you don't include a description of it in your narrative, you should have some idea of how your character speaks. Some people have gravelly voices, high pitched voices, clear, garbled, etc. You can of course, fan cast a voice if you wish. The way your character speak can give away things about them as people. Contractions, slang and colloquial phrases are often used to denote those of working class or poorer factions whether the lack of them, including a larger vocabulary, are often attributed to a wealthier, more educated class. You can say a lot about somebody by the way they speak and is an important tool in the entire show don't tell deal. Speaking of...

Showing, Not Telling when Your Character is Yapping

People don't often come out with what they really want to say. Thankfully or else I would be unemployed and in jail.

Concealment: Like I said before, characters will sometimes chose words or specific tones when speaking or breaking off at certain points to conceal what they are thinking. The dialogue might look something similar to using different approaches either with a character trailing off before the offending phrase (...) or catching themselves (-) or hesitating/considering their words/pausing before speaking. It doesn't often mean a character is being evasive, they may be avoiding harming somebody's feelings.

Class/Social rank: Like I said above, the way somebody speaks can be an indication of their status in society. This is not a bad thing, we have different ways of speaking because we come from different walks of life, we have totally different experiences. Writing the character's voice with this in mind can indicate your character's background.

Nationality/Culture: As in the real world, we don't all speak the same language, it makes us who we are and marks out our culture and place in the world. Phrases, sayings and specific words or even pauses to consider the wording or sentence structure can denote a character from having a different mother tongue or culture than those around them. Your character may sometimes have to tailor what they say to somebody of a different culture or nationality even if they speak the same language. For example, if I'm writing a post here or in my WIP, I often have to steer clear of slang, sentence structure. grammar structure and phrases that non-Irish people are not familiar with.

Emotion: Emotion and dialogue walk hand in hand, a character will not speak without some emotion behind it and most emotions make us want to say something. Anger will make our words sharper, harsher, more abrupt. Happiness will make words flow faster, more positive and sometimes even jumbled. Grief will make one sound disconnected, numb and unable to think straight. The way your characters speak can tell your reader and the rest of the cast able to read their emotional state even if they cannot see their face or your helpful dialogue tags.

Sensibilities and Personality: Word choice and avoidance of certain words can tell somebody a lot about the person speaking. Somebody who avoids cursing or using 'vulgar' language might be considered proper, mannerly and formal. Somebody who does might be judged. Somebody who avoids topics that are considered taboo is somebody who aligns to social norms and expectations while somebody who tends to venture into incendiary topics is likely not and more free willed. These are not bad things but it can tell you a lot about the person speaking or in the way that person responds to somebody's words.

On Dialogue Tags and the Controversy of 'Said'

(nobody would ever fucking say that)

I don't buy into this drama over dialogue tags. Some writers will denounce them, some swear by them and they have been arguing over this as often as we do about the Oxford Comma. The real truth is that it is up to you. It is not a cardinal sin to use them and there is nothing - NOTHING - wrong with using the word said. There are of course some dialogue tags I personally hate and some I love but there is nothing wrong with the word 'said' or 'says'. Here are a few commonly used tags.

A

Accused: Used to pin the blame on somebody.

Added: Usually used when the character is adding to something they or somebody else has said.

Agonized: When a character is distressed over something.

Agreed: Used when a character allows something or agrees with something that is said.

Acknowledged: Used when giving voice to a fact.

Announced: Used for a statement.

Asked: Posing a question

Answered: To address a question.

Addressed: When a character draws attention to something or draws the attention of somebody.

Affirmed: Used when a character is stating an opinion or fact.

Apologized: When a character is saying sorry for something.

Approved: When a character is giving their support to a fact or something somebody has said.

Articulated: When a character expresses a thought/idea.

Asserted: When a character affirms an opinion firmly.

Advertised: Used when a character is drawing attention to something.

B

Babbled: Used when a character is talking excitedly, often nonsensically.

Backtracked: Used when a character is going back on something they have said.

Badgered: Used when a character is nagging another.

Bawled: Used when a character is crying out, usually wildly and very loudly.

Bellowed: When a character is shouting.

Began: When a character begins a sentence or thought.

Bemoaned: When a character complains of something.

Bit: Used when a character is being sharp with something that is irritating them or angering them.

Blamed: Used when a character is assigning blame for something.

Bleated: When a character is complaining or moaning, usually used in a derogatory way.

Blurted: When a character says something without pause or thought.

Boasted: When a character displays self-pride.

Boomed: When a character speaks loudly.

Broadcasted: Used when a character is announcing something, usually loudly.

C

Called: When a character cries out for somebody.

Chanted: When a character speaks in a monotone or often repeating words over and over.

Chattered: When a character speaks rapidly, usually out of nerves or excitement.

Chastised: When a character rebukes another character.

Cheered: Used when a character is excited or pleased about something.

Chimed: When a character adds something to something already said.

Choked: Used when a character is having a difficult time getting the words out.

Chuckled: When a character laughs slightly.

Chortled: When a character laughs slightly and breathlessly.

Coughed: When a character’s breath catches.

Croaked: Used when a character’s voice is strained or dry.

Crowed: When a character boasts loudly about something.

Cried: When a character exclaims or weeps.

Cursed: When a character use swear words or denounces another character.

Cautioned: Used when a character warns somebody.

Complimented: Used when a character is lavishing praise on somebody.

Condemned: When a character denounces something.

Considered: Used when a character is thinking aloud.

Conferred: When a character discusses something with another, usually quiet.

Commented: Used when a character is expressing a thought or opinion.

Complained: Used when a character is annoyed over something.

Criticized: When a character comments negatively on something.

D

Declared: When a character announces something.

Denoted: When a character is indicating something.

Dictated: When a character is insisting on something, usually forcefully.

Drawled: When a character is talking in a low, slow voice.

Droned: When a character is talking on and on, usually derogatory.

E

Elaborated: When a character goes into detail explaining something.

Emitted: Used when a character makes a sound.

Enunciated: Used when a character makes their words clear, often to add emphasis.

Expressed: When a character conveys their thoughts and opinions on something.

F

Fumed: Usually when a character is angry over something.

Fretted: When a character is anxious, usually a reputation of intrusive thoughts.

G

Gasped: When a character inhales suddenly, usually in shock or pain.

Giggled: Used when a character laughing.

Gloated: When a character is boasting over besting another character.

Grinned: When a character is smiling widely when speaking.

Groaned: When a character makes a low sound, usually in pain or discomfort.

Growled: Used when conveying anger.

Grumbled: Used when a character is complaining but in a quiet, low way.

Gulped: When a character swallows.

Gushed: Used when a character is talking excitedly about something they care about.

H

Hissed: Used when a character is angry or irritated.

Howled: Used when a character is making a loud, drawn-out sound noise out of pain and grief.

I

Insisted: When a character speaks or lends their support persistently.

Interjected: When a character adds something into somebody else’s discussion.

Insulted: To speak negatively about another character.

J

Jabbered: Used when a character isn’t making sense but talking rapidly.

Joked: Used when a character is making a jest or fun of something.

L

Lamented: When a character expresses a deep thought or grief over something.

Laughed: Used when a character is laughing.

M

Mewled: When a character’s voice is talking in a feeble voice.

Mentioned: When a character interjects something but doesn’t explain it.

Mocked: Used when a character is teasing, either in humour or spite.

Moaned: Used when a character is complaining, in pain or discomfort.

Mumbled: When a character is speaking in a low, almost unintelligible voice.

Muttered: When a character speaks quietly, usually in an effort to not be overheard.

Murmured: When a character talks quietly, usually not to be overheard or to not gain attention.

N

Noted: When a character brings attention to something.

Nattered: When a character goes on about something almost absent-mindedly, usually when nervous or preoccupied.

O

Observed: When a character is offering their view on something.

Ordered: When a character is giving instruction to another, usually forcefully.

P

Panted: Used when a character is out of breath or panicked.

Praised: When a character is showing positive attention to something or somebody.

Prattled: When a character is talking about something without a line of thought or sometimes reason or attention.

Persisted: When a character keeps at a thought or opinion.

Q

Quavered: When a character’s voice warbles usually out of fear or anxiety or sadness.

Quipped: When a character makes a witty remark.

R

Raged: Used when a character is angry.

Ranted: When a character goes on about something, usually in a monologue expressing their emotion about the subject.

Rambled: Used when a character is talking about something that doesn’t matter or warrant attention.

Relayed: Used when a character is telling another character about something that happened previously.

Remarked: Used when a character speaks about something.

Replied: When a character answers back.

Reprimanded: Used when a character is rebuking another for an action or word.

Responded: When a character replies to something said.

Recited: When a character repeats something from memory.

Repeated: When a character says something again, usually right after they have said it.

Retorted: When a character replies tartly or sharply.

S

Sang: Used when a character is happy or light about something.

Scolded: When somebody is reprimanding a character.

Screamed: Used when a character is scared or angry.

Squalled: When a character is crying out loudly.

Smiled: When somebody speaks when they are smiling, usually positively but can be negative.

Smirked: Used when a character is being smug.

Sneered: When a character is speaking in a derogatory way.

Snarled: Used when a character is being aggressive or angry.

Snivelled: When a character is speaking through a runny nose or tears. It is usually used to denote a character as weak or vulnerable.

Sniffled: When a character is speaking with a runny nose and tears.

Shouted: When a character is saying something loudly or with extreme emotional.

Shrieked: When a character makes a sharp sound, usually from extreme emotion.

Stammered: When a character’s voice becomes halted with pauses, usually an indicator of a speech impediment or nerves or anxiety or fear.

Stated: When a character makes a statement.

Stuttered: When a character speaks with difficulty, often repeating the beginning of words, usually out of fear, anxiety or nerves. But it can also be attributed to a speech impediment.

Swore: When a character curses or uses vulgar words to express their anger.

Scoffed: Used when a character is being derisive about something.

Sighed: When a character exhales out of annoyance, anger, tiredness or boredom.

Screeched: When a character’s voice becomes high-pitched and erratic.

Spat: When a character speaks so forcefully that they almost spit saliva in their effort to get their often emotion driven words out.

Sputtered: Used when a character is unable to get the words out, usually out of disbelief.

Sobbed: When a character is crying so hard that their voice is garbled by their tears and gasps for breath.

Suggested: When a character proposes an idea.

T

Thundered: When a character is talking about something in an angry way, usually loudly.

Told: When your character is relaying something to another.

Tittered: Used when a character is half-laughing, half-trying to stifle it.

Thanked: When a character expresses thanks.

Trumpeted: Used when a character is excitedly announcing something.

U

Uttered: When a character speaks.

Urged: Used when a character is prompting another to take an action.

V

Voiced: When a character expresses their opinion verbally.

Vociferated: When a character argues vehemently.

W

Wailed: When a character makes a sound of grief, pain or discomfort.

Warbled: used when a character’s voice quavers.

Wept: When a character cries when speaking.

Whispered: Used when a character speaks quietly, so not to be overheard.

Whimpered: Used when a character’s voice is feeble and weak, usually in pain or fear

Wheezed: When a character’s voice is strained from lack of breath, such as after a coughing fit.

Whined: When a character complains usually in an irritating way.

Y

Yammered: When a character is talking about something with no line of thought.

Yelped: When a character cries out in shock, pain or discomfort.

Yawned: Used when a character is tired or bored.

Yelled: When a character speaks loudly out of anger or panic.

Yowled: When a character cries out, usually high-pitchedly.

Overusing dialogue tags can sometimes take a reader out of the narrative and make your scenes read more like plays. I generally follow the rule of 'if it not essential' it is out the window. You can simply write dialogue in speech quotes and nobody will stop you.

What's in a Voice?

While we have already gone through the personal sound of your character's voice, what does it actually sound like when they are speaking? When describing the voice of your character while they speak, allows the reader to hear what they can only read and offer a clue how the character is feeling in the moment.

Absent-mindedly: When a voice betrays one’s distraction

Booming: When a voice is loud and carrying.

Breathy: When a voice is peppered with breathes.

Brittle: When a voice betrays a strained mind or fragile sense of mind.

Clear: When a voice is devoid of anything to obstruct or conceal it.

Deep: When a voice is low pitched.

Flat: When a voice is devoid of pitch or emotion.

Gravelly: When a voice is rough, croaking like when one just wakes up.

Guttural: When a voice is rough, coming from the back of the throat.

Harsh: When a voice is unkind and hard.

Husky: When a voice is rough.

Monotonous: When a voice is unvaried in pitch, all in one tone of voice.

Muffled: When a voice is obstructed, such as when the mouth is covered.

Nasally: When a voice sounds like it is coming from the nose, often sharp.

Piping: When a voice is high-pitched, almost sing-song.

Raspy: When a voice is dry and rough sounding.

Rich: When a voice is pleasant sounding to the ear.

Shrill: When a voice is high-pitched.

Silvery: When a voice is clear, soft, and musical.

Soft: When a voice is quiet.

Sonorous: When a voice is deep in sound.

Thin: When a voice is strained, with uneven pitch and tone.

Throaty: When a voice comes from the throat, often rough and croaky.

Tremulous: When a voice is shaking.

Velvety: When a voice is smooth.

Warm: When a voice is comforting, gentle.

Weak: When a voice lacks any strength.

Whispery: When a voice is low, hushed.

Wobbly: When a voice is unsteady.

Avoid the monologues if you can

Nobody can really have a conversation with somebody when that person is rattling off about themselves or their dastardly plans etc. It's not really realistic but in fiction, we kind of want to allow characters to do on a little, to let loose and bare their soul in a speech worthy of Peter Dinklage's best work (Laws of Gods and Men, GoT Season 4). Personally I only give somebody monologuing a few minutes before I interrupt with the good old "that's crazy" or multiple "yeah"s. A character has to be captivated - or captive - to listen to somebody keep talking, talking, talking.

Interaction

Again, your characters are meant to be real people, they are not robots on stage. When people are talking, it isn't perfect. When emotions are high, people will often cut across one another or interrupt one another. When characters are excited or in agreement, they might finish one another's sentences. The dialogue in The Bear, is fantastic for this as the interactions feel real. The characters interrupt one another, talk over one another and finish each other's thoughts. People follow a pattern of talking with people they know, they are less guarded and more prone to speaking their mind if they are comfortable with them or know what to avoid saying. People are more formal when speaking to strangers. People will speak differently to different people, there are things you can only say to your sibling and you wouldn't talk to a classmate you barely know the same way you will speak with a dear friend. The way character's interact can tell the reader a lot about the relationship between the characters.

[delight-angelsbliss]

Hello, may I request S1-30 where Sonic see his crush excitedly showing papers, stickers and perfume for letters to their group of friends asking for their opinions in some combinations of it bc she is writing a very important letter, then some days pass she seems kinda down and never touch in the subject of the letter anymore just to Sonic found a crumpled love letter cleanly to him with no sender but with the same combination of paper, stickers and perfume that he and their friends chose to reader's letter? (Btw I've been liking your writing a lot 💕)

Prompt: writing a letter only to throw it away

Warnings: none to my knowledge crazy notes go brr

Notes: I'm back queens did u miss me HELP THIS IS SO CUTE also ty I've been trying hard 😋 ok so basically when I was writing this on a bench with some ppl but someone was harassing me coming way too close and breathing down my neck I was literally so creeped out brother euugh and someone was laughing screaming saying " she's getting harassed!" I also had therapy and I might go back to a mental hospital again. Chat btw is sonic a homeless man? Idrk so I'll just pretend they have apartments and stuff lol also the reset thing isn't absolutely gone but I'll manage

Ever since February started you've been raving about a particular letter you're making everyone knew about it and even tried to help you

What perfume? Moschino pink Boquet seemed fitting! Should I pick the blue or pink envelope? White with hearts may be cool

The one who helped you the most was definitely amy, I see her as a romance enthusiast and would definitely be there for anyone who struggles or something with romance

But someone was more intrigued than helpful, ofc it was Sonic! Making little jabs at you for trying, pushing to who it could be, teasing you for having a crush

It was ENDLESS!! He was so relentless with his teasing that it got annoying at some point. But could you blame him? From his point of view you were in love with someone else and that made him jealous

He felt heartbroken but let it go to keep you as happy as possible

It's like his heart was ripped out his chest and eaten but he paid no mind and instead tried his best to continue helping you with the letter for mystery person

But at the point where he made peace with you not being in love with him.. You've already stopped talking about it

It's like you've never even heard of it

Maybe it has been sent? He didn't know but it made him a bit worried

But one day while back at his place, he finds a neatly designed letter, the envelope was white and had small hand drawn hearts every where with a nice perfume scent

The letter had his name on it but no sender, but the cute packaging reminded him of a certain someone's letter

Was it really from you? No way. His heart lights up and so does his smile, if it was really from you he had to find out!! His crush left him a letter his life felt whole and complete

If it was really from you then Sonic knew he had to confront you about it

Not long after he starts racing to your place, but suddenly he goes back home

It's best to get some flowers, don't you think?

With everything in hand, flowers and the letter, his feet race to your apartment

In mere seconds Sonic reaches your place, his heart beats as fast as possible as his hand hovers against your door. The sun had its time and was now setting, the shade from the others building and the combination from the setting sun made it all feel so much more romantic

Sonic calms his breathing, returning to his normal state: cockiness

His hands finally give a strong knock

After you open the door, your gaze meets the letter that was oh so gently in his hand

"Be my valentine..?" Sonic holds out the flowers

Maybe leaving letters do work

[alphajocklover]

This is me currently and I’d absolutely love to be turned into the straightest, douchiest, big and beefiest jock you got! Thank you for the stories 🙏🏻.

So you want to be a straight, beefy, douchebag jock, right? Actually, scratch that, if I remember correctly you want to be the straightest, beefiest, douchiest jock possible? You aren’t content to be just a jock. You want to be the biggest, best jock around. A real alpha male. That's a good start. All jocks need to be ambitious, especially alpha bro douchebags. I can definitely help you. Well, more accurately, the Douchebag Revolution can help you. I checked a couple of things and I’m absolutely certain that you’re a victim of SAD, a douchebag jock that was turned into a gay nerd using time travel. I’ve talked about both SAD, the Society Against Douchebags, and the Douchebag Revolution before. The revolution are the people who gave me my time machine after all. So this is going to be less about turning you into a douchebag jock, and more about turning you back into the douchebag jock you were always meant to be. Now, there are a few different methods that the Douchebag Revolution uses to help those changed by SAD. One I showed in an earlier post is a serum that combats the effects of the nanobot SAD injected you with. It also includes a pretty strong dose of testosterone and some steroids from the future, so even if you weren’t already supposed to be a douchebag before this will definitely make you into one. Not that someone who doesn’t have those nanobots inside then should use the serum though, that could mess you up. Another is, of course, the time machine. This one is very complicated, because while using the time machine would mean they’d get the chance to stop SAD from changing you at all, if SAD noticed them your entire life would be transformed into a battle between the two groups, and trust me when I say that that can get messy. Time travel is already complicated enough without starting a time war, so usually they avoid that method. The final method would probably be best for you. It’s called Douchebag Rehabilitation. It’s not an instant fix like the others. It’s sort of a… program.  How it works is that the Revolution takes you to a secret facility somewhere in the far future. They use a mix of drugs, specialized training, and seminars that could turn the nerdiest gay guy into a raging douchebag. It usually takes about a week or two, a month at most, and with time travel it’ll appear instant to anyone watching from the outside. They’ll take you away, and five minutes later, the new you will be back and ready to have some fucking fun. This method does take longer, but from what I’ve heard it's actually really fun. You get to spend a whole month working out, meeting fellow douchebags, and banging hot bimbo volunteers. So, let's get you on your way! If this is what you want there isn’t any point in putting it off. I hope you have fun at Douche Rehab!

Ok. Yeah you… definitely had fun, didn’t you. I can tell from the cocky smirk on your face, and your now massive muscles, that the program definitely did its job. How long did you stay there, a month? You’re big even compared to most douchebags! I wonder how many girls you fucked. I hear most fuck at least 20 girls during their stay but I bet a stud like you got up to 40 or something. I’m glad I was able to help you become your true self. I kind of wish you and the other douchebags would stop referring to me as ‘that fag reporter’ though.

[djevelbl]

Alright! So! Kaboodle has been haunting my head like a cool little ghost roomie for a wee bit now /pos and I just,,,, look my blog is alllll about incoherently screaming into the void that is the internet about whatever is haunting my head this time, it was inevitable that bnuuy girliepop would get her own post ok? If nothing else, then it's surprising it hasn't happened before--

(like with Branzy's post from a while back, this is a character analysis of, y'know, THE CHARACTER??? so yeah! This is about the bunny girl killing ppl on LifeSteal and not whoever the hell talks behind the mic! I don't feel like I should have to say this, but I've seen ppl be dumbasses over LS!Kab AND actual Kaboodle too. so. don't be an idiot over this — you're encouraged to scroll on if you don't care to read it! This applies to any other names I throw around, like always — happy reading!)

So to preface whatever word vomit I'm about to commit, lemme bring it all out already: my knowledge of LifeSteal Season Six (the one that features Kaboodle) is basically One (1) whole recent stream, and maybe three videos all set on the very beginning of the season — don't expect this to be accurate, but I'll do my very best based on what I've got on hand.

With that out of the way, I'll proceed to yank bnuuy girliepop by the hair and into my microscope:

It's no secret that Kaboodle has a bit of a problem with trusting people, even to the point where she called whatever happened with ash "betrayal," when most of us wouldn't consider it that — she was taken advantage of (from what I understand of her POV to the situation), sure, but they were never teammates, they were never friends in the server; she's been having a big problem with trust and how she uses it, mostly because she's very extroverted and people-oriented — less in the sense that she knows how to read people and the little signs within their voices, and more in the sense that she thrives around people. She's insecure over her own survival abilities and her PVP prowess, and as such has taken to leaning on others to cover up her blindspots — she's been leaning on those surrounding her like her life depends on it because, to a certain extent, it does: if you don't know how to fight, you find someone who does and attach yourself to them, learn their tactics, grow alongside them so you can stand on your own; Kaboodle is still not yet there, she's just now realizing she has to stop trusting people just because they were chill with her once.

But she thrives within a group, she's extroverted and is fed energy through chatter and socializing — that type of person will intrinsically have it harder to detach their feelings from being projected onto other people (reason why she considers the ashswag incident a betrayal, even though I'm pretty sure there wasn't any precedent for trust to be placed on him) and as such will simply have it harder to keep to themselves; we can see this so clearly in how she interacts with others: she doesn't move even an inch, no flinch and no instinct to run away even as Clown launches into the air and he fakes an attack on her with the Mace. She follows ManePear around as they sneak close to PrinceZam and baconnwaffles0 to eavesdrop on their conversation, and barely fights back as she gets killed a half hour or so after with no indication of why he would do that. She calls Zam her "frenemy" and while that word includes enemy in its spelling, it also includes friend.

She still hasn't quite let go of Squiddo's betrayal, and while I'm not informed on what that situation is, I can say one thing about it: Squiddo learned from last season that they shouldn't blindly trust whoever she calls a friend outside of LifeSteal, I'm sure (the temporary ban they got for helping Wemmbu with... I think it was his orbital cannon??? Plus his support of the 4Cvit and Reddoons team-up over his support of Squiddo; these things would do that to you), so she doesn't — they allow herself to be friends and have teammates, allies, so on, but they're not above taking sides if that means she gets out on top (their betrayal of 4Cvit leaves this being very clear to the audience — she's done playing around, they're here to survive and win it; as much as one wins LifeSteal, of course) and this is a lesson all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed new LifeStealers have to learn if they want to come back next season: whatever you and someone else had outside of LifeSteal stays outside of LifeSteal — once you're inside, your relationships are inherently different. There's no way about it.

Clown understands this — he's willing to partner up with friends and foes so long as it benefits him, and he's not above getting dirty if that's what it takes; he trusts people as far as he can throw them, and he fucking hates knockback on his weapons. Kaboodle is not exempt from this rule, regardless of whatever relationship they shared before LifeSteal Season Six — she can't quite wrap her head around this notion, especially obvious on her video about her first experience on the server: one of the first things she did in that thing was showing the audience a chart she made on how much she trusts people on the server, and in that chart she singled out Clown by saying that there's nothing that would make her distrust him because they're friends! They know each other! She knows him better than most do!

But he's not the guy she knows — he's most of that man, sure, but she's never experienced first hand how Clown is on the server.

What I find interesting, is that one stream I watched — technically I watched two: Kaboodle's Confrontation stream from the 5th, and Clown's POV of the same conversation; I didn't watch the whole Clown VOD, but it got pointed out to me (everyone thank clownscasino for this) that Clown was scared — to me he seemed more nervous than scared, but the point still stands on this whole thing: Clown was uneasy over meeting Kaboodle to discuss... Whatever it is she wanted to speak about; he wasn't indifferent, curious, bored — he was specifically uneasy over the concept. The conversation hung over his head like a thunderstorm cloud, never leaving and never lessening — he was affected by the idea and sure, it was because he thought she would try to kill him, but doesn't that say a lot about him?

He cares. In the absence of somebody to stay by his side, he's come to care for a familiar face.

... Did you know Branzy had been Clown's teammate consistently for three seasons in a row? (more or less — I'm new to this thing, cut me some slack) that's an incredible number, considering how polarizing and dividing LifeSteal can easily become for its players — they've all bounced around teams and allies like a twink at a fraternity party, yet Branzy had always remained by Clown's side; similarly, Clown stuck by Branzy's. They didn't help each other frequently — mostly because by the end of their runtime Branzy wasn't logging in all that much — but they sure as all hell stayed loyal to one another; there's a reason their duo is so popular, regardless of whether you wanna mash their character together like two Barbies or not: even within the massacre and bloodshed of LifeSteal, the violence and backstabbing and betrayal, the Funhouse Duo/Clownzy have always stood by each other.

Season Six is the first time that Clown doesn't have his bestie of all besties/his work bf around to lean back on — he's left on his own, and while he can certainly survive and even thrive on his own, it just isn't the same; there's no more friendly face he can pick out from the crowd, no more loving person to care for and fret over. He's always been alone, at the end of the day, but it hasn't stung half as much as it does now.

All of this is to say: Clown is an introvert telling Kaboodle to just "not trust people", while Kabs is an extrovert who can't help how she gets attached to people — they're an interesting duo to watch as they discuss, because while Kaboodle says that she's gonna start being more careful around people, not trusting others etc. etc., she still stays put as she watches Clown come down on her, Mace in hand. She still tells him that she trusts him as he's telling her "well you shouldn't!" She still follows ManePear around and gives him iron when she's asked, based on the momentary truce they held, a precarious thing entirely dictated by his hand and not hers.

I get what Clown is saying when he tells her to "not trust anyone — not even me", as he's the veteran between them and the one who has the most knowledge, he understands how the server operates and what the point of it all is, the atmosphere bred within its code and how it spreads like a disease amongst its players, yet it just circles back to being annoying — it reminds me of that conversation Woogie (I think) and Kaboodle had on her video about her first day(s?), where Woogie was undermining her experience, ideas and beliefs, and the only difference is the amount of misplaced loyalty Kaboodle has for (LS!)Clown; she trusts him without him having to do anything, and that's something that goes down wrong with him, obviously: he advises her to keep her cards to her chest, where somebody with less mercy (less love for her, less unwilling care, less desire to see her thrive on her own terms and by her own merit) would've let her get herself killed with that big heart of hers that's in need of affection and attention.

She's so excited as she recounts her last week to a listening Clown, immediately sighing with great relief as he explains he wasn't helping ManePear when he was hunting her, she says "I love Batman" as Clown exclaims he would be Batman and while I don't think cc!Kabs is quick-on-the-uptake enough to have a surface vs deeper meaning line thrown in the middle of Killerbunnies banter that's not necessarily fully in character, I reserve the right to believe whatever the fuck I wish, actually.

He humours her, lets her ramble and asks about what happened to her eye, he follows along with her DC comparisons and takes the time to explain to her what actually happened between him and ManePear.

He says he doesn't trust anyone, but doesn't love require some trust? What a hypocritical Clown, you turned out to be. I hope, if it comes down to it, you show her she matters more to you than those self imposed rules of yours, as I'm sure she'll show you you matter more to her then those rules you try to teach her

[angelxxx444]

Senses - Sid Jenkins x Reader (Oneshot)

“Sid, pass me the spliff” You beg, as your words fall on deaf ears. It feels like minutes fly by before you try again. .

“Sid!” You shout again, an urgency in your voice as you snap your fingers in his face a couple of times to redirect his attention to you. 

“Oh, yeah, here,” he says, his eyes flickering to you for one moment as he carelessly hands it over to you before redirecting his attention elsewhere again. You roll your eyes at him (it's not like he's paying enough attention to notice anyway).

“Are you ogling at Michelle again?” You sneer at him, slight jealousy laced in your voice. 

“I'm not googling; it's not like that,” he defends, yet he still does not turn his gaze towards you. 

You give him a swift punch to his shoulder before getting up from the bar stool you were previously lounged on.

“I'm going to dance; you're welcome to come or continue your staring,” you say, the last part being merely a whisper. You place the spliff on the table and are quick to join the others on the dancefloor, not even sparing Sid another glance. 

You soon forget all about the previous interaction as you dance around the room, bumping and grinding with whoever is closest to you, occasionally stealing sips of people's drinks (and praying this wouldn't give you Mono). Eventually, you were tipsy enough to the point that everything was starting to become pixelated. All you could feel was your body swaying with the music as all senses were collapsing around you. 

“Hey, maybe you should take a break for a little” You knocked back into reality as Sid grabs a hold of your forearm, causing you to stop your dancing.

“Oh so now you're paying attention to me?” You questioned, rolling your eyes at him (which this time he noticed. 

“I'm just trying to be your friend here” He argues back.

“Well, have you considered that maybe that's not what I want?” You reply sharply before turning away from him again and making your way over to the smaller group of Chris, Anwar, Maxxie, and Jal. 

“Can one of you please just dance with me so I can pretend that didn't just happen?” You hurriedly ask, trying to avoid looking back at Sid.

“Hey, no problem by me Y/N,” Chris says with a wink as he quickly places both hands on your lower back (one being slightly closer to your as than the other). You lock your arms behind his neck as the both of you begin to just sway and grind onto each other. The music blares in your ears as you look around the room, searching for a certain someone. Your eyes meet the prize as Sid is in the corner sipping a beer, staring as you dance with Chris. You smirk at him before conjuring up your little plan ‘If I couldn't before, this might finally get your attention’. As the music changes you swiftly turn your back to Chris as you began to grind your ass into him, hearing him give a loud wolf whistle before running his hands all over your body. You throw your head back as he continues, locking eyes with Sid again, this time, you know you've caught his attention. He throws his beer can off to the side before he makes his way over to the both of you. You are whisked away as he takes you by the arm and pulls you apart from Chris.

“Hey! What gives?” Chris yells over the music, sending a glare towards Sid.

“I just need to borrow her” Sid replies before dragging you away from the rest of the group to where he previously resided. 

“Ok, so you got my attention, now what?” He questions you, clearly frustrated. 

“Oh sorry, I didn't realize you had stopped ogling Michelle?” You innocently reply, a slight smirk finding its way to your face.

“What is your problem?” He asks with an exasperated sigh, both hands gripping your shoulders.

“My problem is that you are so oblivious it hurts!” You shout at him, holding your head in your hands with anger.

“Well I'm sorry I just don't understand women,” he shrugs.

“That's not the point Sid” You reply with a sigh. “I just wanted you to pay attention to someone other than Michelle for once”

He opens his mouth to reply but then quickly stops himself, he looks down and sighs before returning his gaze to you with his stupid puppy dog eyes.

“I'm sorry, Y/N. I really am. With the whole situation between Tony and Michelle breaking up again, I've just been sort of occupied.” He responds, taking your hands in his.

“Look Sid, I'm not mad, it's just hard when the only person's attention I truly want is giving it to someone who won't even look their way” You regard, taking a slight dig at Sid (definitely deserved).

“How about we get out of here then? Go do something, just the two of us?” He (awkwardly) inquires, a shy smile spread across his face, a light blush dusting his cheeks.

“I'd rather enjoy that” You reply, a deeper blush spreading across your own. He drags you out of the bar, neither of you even sparing a glance back to anyone else. The rest of the night is filled with delight as the two of you roam the streets, hand in hand. Eventually, the two of you end up sitting on a random park bench, chatting idly with each other. 

“I'm truly sorry again Y/N, i know my attention earlier tonight was elsewhere, but now looking back on it, I regret every second” He states, before turning towards you, making direct eye contact with you.

“I know now where my true attention should have been” He affirms while giving you a shy smile. You gently cup his face with your hand as you draw him in closer, all you can feel is his breath across your face as you both lean in. Your lips meet in a tender and compassionate kiss, mouths moving against each other with pure passion before eventually coming to a halt.

“I'm really glad you came to your senses” You affirm, a smile spreading across both your faces as you share a laugh. Wishing this night would never come to an end.

[nabi-unveiled]

Nabi Notices (April 8, 2025)

My drafts tab is a veritable graveyard of potential posts at this point, including:

A half made fmv for When It Rains

A partially completed comparison discussing the importance of movement during transitions between Boy Next World, Heart Killers, and See Your Love

Posts about reflections and sense of time in Secret Relationships. That one is still moving forward, but it's slow going.

The rest of the BL challenges (and ideas for my own set of BL challenges)

The list could go on. My drafts are an accumulation of intentions. That's really to be expected though. My home is the same way. One day I'll get a picture in that frame on the wall in my bedroom. It's only been 10 years. I'll eventually get a plant in the pot on the windowsill too.

It just that without deadlines, my brain doesn't always cooperate. And it frequently decides to go on side quests.

All this to say, I'm still figuring out exactly how I want to approach certain shows, tasks, etc. for this blog. I always do best when I have systems in place. It helps counter the chaos of my brain.

Inspired by @watchthisqqq, I do think I will start creating master posts for shows that I write several meta/longer posts about. That'd certainly make it easier to find my own stuff and update my pinned meta master list in the future. Any other ideas/suggestions that might make things easier in the future are welcome.

The Things I Noticed This Week:

I watched a lot of great shows and episodes this week. It was really fun after the not-so-great previous week. In general, I'm watching a fair amount of the BL stuff that's currently airing. I also binged Secrets Happened on the Litchi Island. I'm playing catch up and liveblogging a first watch of Love for Love's Sake (no spoilers please; I'm only at ep 2). And I currently have When Life Gives You Tangerines in rotation as my laundry show.

Fabulous Fit

This week was apparently the week of noticing basics. I loved Muenfah's jeans and belt buckle at the shabu-shabu restaurant in Your Sky of Us. It was particularly noticeable since everyone else was in fairly standard black pants. A good pair of jeans goes a long way.

And Yeowoon's running outfit in Love for Love's Sake is sooo basic. But I love it.

I feel like the strings on the hood would be a problem when sprinting, but I really appreciate this style of workout gear.

Fascinating Find

Ok. By rights, Litchi Island should be the fantastic frame of the week. It's beautiful cinematography. But I'm trying to highlight a different show in each category, and the search for spicy/steamy scenes involving bookcases that was triggered by this screenshot was the most fun search I had all week. And maybe the biggest treasure hunt I had went on in a while.

I really appreciate @pinkkop, @notafanbut, and @my-rose-tinted-glasses trying to help me out. The list is still very short, but we're up to two (Litchi and Only Friends) with a "it's close enough" third (History 4). There's also plenty of heavy staring in libraries or bookstores 😂.

Fantastic Frame

This shot felt like a great way to close out Perfect 10 Liners. I loved the hearts on the social media post between each set of sweethearts and Wine being in the center with the finger heart. It's really the social media post that gets my fantastic frame.

Wine talking about how it was actually fun to be a part of this chaotic group was really a reminder to enjoy our journeys and the people in our life. For a show that I had largely written off during the first third (sorry Arc/Arm fans), I really came to enjoy it in its home stretch.

Fun Fluorish

The clear symbolism winner this week has to be the honey in Top Form. They incorporated references throughout the episode and set it up as a storytelling moment that went beyond just sex. I found myself rewatching the earlier parts of the apartment scene more frequently. The emotional tension was delightful when Akin was tormented thinking Jin was avoiding him. But I appreciated seeing something new in an NC scene.

Even if the music did distract me, and I kept envisioning a manic pianist completing his final performance. I don't mind that choice from an artistic standpoint, but any rewatches of this portion happened on mute so I could focus on the honey happenings.

Anyways, the rug is toast, but it was one heck of a first time as a couple. I'm sure some people were put off by the use of the honey, but ... that wasn't me. I try to keep my kinks in check when writing this blog, but I'll play. It did make me curious enough about the sensory aspect that I tested it out on my arm.

I know a lot of people worried about the stickiness. The bigger issue (for me) was that it got stiff very quickly. Maybe that's why they kept pouring it on. It's also possible their honey was just a lot warmer. 🍯

Favorite Fragment

I'm loving all of the astronomy references in Heesu in Class 2. I've spent the last four months crafting creative video scripts about astronomy topics with at least two to three months to go on that particular project. There have been some inaccuracies, but the show is doing far better than most in terms of incorporating scientific information. I particularly loved this line.

Because it's subjectively correct by many people's standards. Many resisted the reclassification just because it felt like a downgrade. But it's also subjectively incorrect. Many people consider dwarf planets to be more extraordinary, because we don't know a lot about them and there are only five currently recognized (although we hypothesize there are more). Whereas most of the planets got lumped together in my video scripts. Pluto got to have its own. And objectively - Pluto itself didn't change at all. We're really talking about perception and labels here. Not facts. And at it's core, that's a key theme of this show this week - perception. Perception of ourselves, perception of others, and perception of the possibilities.

My Queue for the Coming Week:

As always this list is prone to change, and there will be things I watch that are not on this list. It's just "most likely" I'll watch these.

Heesu in Class 2 (Ep 5-6)

Top Form (Ep 5)

Sweet Tooth, Good Dentist (Ep 3)

Love for Love's Sake (Ep 3)

When Life Gives You Tangerines (Ep 4)

[npdkondraki]

hey okay, can you give me the top ten most vital (from your perspective) scp stories to read. i don't know what's actually good and what's nothingburger

smiles!!!! of course i can!!!!!!! deciphering whats really 'vital' is pretty difficult since it really depends on if ur more interested in the doctors or the actual foundation / the scps themselves, and from there whether ur more interested in the actual scp documents or the tales, etc etc. it gets overcomplicated quick ^-^;;. ANYHOW. yes yes of course yes look at our recommendations. these are primarily world-building based, but feel free 2 ask and i'll req some tales instead .:3

1) scp-3001 - mild warning for? derealization? maybe? its reality bending based so its Strange. the plot with this one is that a man named robert scranton gets transported to essentially a void-esque plane of existence and slowly rots away. its primarily his logs that hold the article together but i think its interesting, and the scranton reality anchor* (*which comes up semi-often when dealing with any reality bending based thing) is based on this so its nice knowledge that kind of ties it together

2) excerpts from physics division field manual 13: special circumstances, humanoid threat entities - this ones just fully about reality benders & i think it is SO fascinating. reality benders also play kind of a large role depending on what tales & characters & scps you read about, but most often youll hear the term "type green" be thrown around and thats where THIS handy thing comes in!!! .:-)

3) extended biography of "the administrator" - its the admin!!!! the admin is in a weird spot as hes technically not.. a character? really? hes more of an 'idea' i guess lol. anyway point being this entire thing features small bits of him speaking to the reader through the form of little notes. i think its really interesting and kind of humanizes the higher level staff (as the admin is like. to my knowledge one of the highest level staffers, if not THE highest level depending on the canon????)

4) yesterday - this is specifically from the daybreak canon, where the sun basically kills fucking everything. its good! it provides a lot of characterization for pretty much the "main" characters (or at least the ones who pop up the most lol). it's a REALLY fascinating look at how all of them interact when faced with certain doom, esp given they were/are all friends at some point

5) incident 239-b-clef-kondraki - ok despite the title im not biased here i swear. this one just comes up a lot Generally and i would amiss to not recommend it. it slips between written visual & audio logs and notes clef (& co) wrote, which i personally just think is pretty Neat .:-)

6) duke 'till dawn - ignore my biases about kondraki this ones again just relevant and comes up kind of often and i would, again, be amiss to not recommend it. storytelling is primarily told thru written visual logs as well as interviews with staff

7) personal log of dr gears / personal log of [redacted] "iceberg" [redacted] - im grouping these together since they tell the same story and are two halves of one whole. gears & iceberg are both fairly important and these are also just interesting looks at how they operate. both are told thru the format of journal entries

8) 7 things that new level 3 researchers should know - this is an entire like essentially a pamphlet styled booklet written by sophia light to share knowledge with mid-tier staff. its neat and i think its fascinating to see what actual workers say about the foundation, and specifically working in the foundation .:-) (also ill admit im biased here sophia light is just very cool to me. i recommend reading about her sometime! ^_^)

9) a recording of prometheus innovations' pitch for the scranton encabulator mk vi, and the ramifications of its existence - this is primarily a bunch of reality bender based technobabble but its cool!!!! theres actually some interesting things that are mentioned in here!!! also its just fun. there isnt a whole lot i really remember about this one but from what i do remember its great and i enjoy it .:-)

10) founding - this ones part of classical revival canon, a canon based in, of course, reviving the older canons of the scpverse from when it first started But Better Now. it particularly is about the kind of 'main guys' creating the foundation basically. (oh, fair warning, youll see a lad named 'francis' be mentioned, that's alto clef from before he was properly alto clef ^_^)

[canmom]

social mechanics in RPGs

not a metaphor this time

so. a comment prompted by seeing this float by the dash.

some TTRPG mechanics are designed to abstract over something. you don't want to intricately simulate climbing a wall so you make a mechanic that says 'roll your Climbing Up Shit number and see if you get up the wall in time' (or whatever the stakes may be). any time you need to climb a wall, you just roll one die, and done. maybe offer a little description.

some TTRPG mechanics are designed to draw the game towards the thing they're simulating and make it a focus. these rules might be elaborate, intricate subsystems - the combat rules in D&D being the archetypal example. particularly in later editions, D&D is really interested in combat, it wants to have an elaborate tactical sim where you're juggling different resources to gain an advantage, it wants combat to take up a lot of game time.

in D&D the combat rules are largely self-referential (i.e. game constructs interacting with game constructs) and don't leave a lot of room to determine things by pure narrative logic, so the system needs to have enough depth to carry that. some systems, such as The King Is Dead, structure nearly every interaction.

other TTRPG systems leave more to player improv. there are various frameworks to account for the interface between the fuzzy narrative game world and the hard, procedural, mechanical one. PbtA has its 'moves', which trigger based on conditions to push the narrative in a certain direction. OSR games like to say 'rulings over rules', where the rulebook is silent on a subject and the GM makes a call on the spot based on the narrative situation. exactly what qualifies as 'going aggro', or whether your gambit is feasible and what dice you should role, is a judgement call.

exactly what should be precisely litigated by a rulebook and what should be left to the improvisation of the players, shaped by various vague prompts, is a huge part of the art of TTRPG design. it depends a lot on the group as well.

I think when it comes to social situations in RPGs, it is easy to get lost in these ambiguities. 5e D&D has three numbers on your character sheet called Deception, Persuasion and Intimidation. (in 3.5e the first two were instead called Diplomacy and Bluff). exactly when you should roll these numbers, and how it interacts with the fiction, is left to the discretion of the group.

the stereotypical "I roll to seduce" could be one approach, an approach where the dice system completely abstracts over social encounters - pretty boring. but equally there is the approach where you roleplay a conversation, and after a certain amount of back and forth, the DM declares 'OK, role me a Deception check' and evolves the fiction accordingly - now you're using it a lot more like a PbtA move, pushing the course of events down bifurcating paths at specific moments, and otherwise pursuing free improvised roleplay. however, from the numbers-and-dice side of things, this looks exactly the same.

some games like Burning Wheel offer a conversation system of comparable complexity to its battle system, designed for tense debate-like confrontations. it has something like a dozen actions - e.g. you can make a Point, Obfuscate, or make a verbal Feint, just as in combat you can Attack, Push or Disarm. Is this to Burning Wheel's advantage? it worked pretty well the one time I played it like 10+ years ago, but I also had a very talented GM who could probably have staged a very convincing debate scene regardless. however, the system provided structure, and prompts (how do I make a point? how do I obfuscate?), so it would surely have played out differently without it. it certainly led to a very intense and fun moment of roleplaying where I had to step out onto the 'stage', which has honestly informed me in TTRPGs ever since.

that said, a lot of the time, the best system for adjudicating social situations is literally just to roleplay it out and make a decision - 'what is this character feeling', 'what that character would say'. no mechanical abstraction can beat the human mind when it comes to simulating human beings. that is the unique advantage of TTRPGs as a medium, which no computer or board game can match! don't throw it away lightly.

the problem for a lot of discussions of RPG design is that how the group handles social situations at the table - what they say and when, when they call for dice - is something that depends a lot on the specific group dynamic, rather than something that can effectively be engineered by a rulebook. like many aspects of RPG practice it is something you learn by doing it and watching other players, not by reading about it in a book. you can try pretty hard - Apocalypse World and cousins are statements of a paradigm as much as anything, most trad games have pages and pages of GM advice - but that's not the same thing.

what makes D&D D&D, what makes indie story games indie story games, are their various play cultures, their habits and traditions - and the book is only part of it.

some players might find the prompts given by the notional buttons that say 'persuade', 'deceive' and 'intimidate' (or equally 'go aggro', 'seduce or manipulate' etc.) to be useful pushes in the right direction to play a highly social character, especially if they feel shy or awkward in life. others might find these limited options constraining, or simply irrelevant. or they might find a way to make them fit the rhythms of their group.

thing is, though, it's highly contextual and you aren't going to solve it forever by turning it into an argument about which is the best book-product-tribe to belong to.

[charbies]

I love your coloring style! I struggle so much with painting color, do you have any advice for cohesive color schemes, or how you go about picking what colors and values to use? Do you always use references?

Yes!!! Ok so for a long time I struggled with color too, I would get stuck and give up on whatever I was working on because color just didn't make any sense

truth is, I don't think you can get very far with figuring out color without first figuring out VALUES

So when we color first and then desaturate the left pic, we get a very boring, flat pic, limited values. Middle pic and right pic are 2 examples of grouping values by foreground, midground, and background to create more contast & dynamic layouts.

Case in point; contrast shows our eyes where to go. Our eyeballs like having clear focal points, it makes a good drawing that much more satisfying to look at within its borders.

2 layouts for values that I personally like are dark foreground on light background, and light/dark foreground on midtone background.

once I have a value study I like, I start laying color in by applying a gradient map. Drawing programs will have presets, but I highly recommend learning to build your own gradient maps. From there I'll tweak the hue around until I find undertones I like (more on that later)

NOW LETS TALK LOCAL COLOR. I define local color, aka "flats" as the color your character is "made out of." Basically ask yourself what colors are your character, if your character was sucked into a vacuum where there was no organic source of light/shadow/sun/etc that would influence the local colors.

Once I have local colors, I use a new layer set to overlay and "lay" the local colors over the gradient. Local colors we want + gradient undertones + dynamic values = cohesive colorssssss

Now one thing I want to mention about color in general is, when I started doing digital art, my brain would "icon-ify" colors and pick colors based on an object's "information" (e.g. frogs are green). As a result, I'd pick a lot of saturated colors in the upper right quad of my color picker, and this would limit my color pallets quite a bit.

Now that I'm more well-versed with values, I've intuitively gotten better at picking local colors in other quads and on parts of the color wheel that go against object "info." In general, I like picking local colors that are warm & earthy.

Additionally, you can always use overlay to create cohesion if you're trying to go for a certain look/feel that's tricky to manually pick out on the color wheel!

Last 2 things I'll mention are I avoid using a large amount of default digital "white" in artwork. This white literally does not exist in nature, it's like a vacuum to the point where these "clouds" just look like holes in the pictures here. I highly recommend looking at examples of traditional underpainting & using undertones, this was a gamechanger for me since I learned how to carry a traditional technique into digital art and it greatly improved my digital art

References I always use references, for 2 reasons: 1) I have a tough time conceptualizing whole ideas in my head and can't draw most things from memory (womp womp). 2) I legit do not practice anything ever, oops, I am usually learning at least 1 new thing every time I draw, so basically it'll be like "ok time to learn how wolves work" and this requires references lol. I'll use photos or hostages (ie my partner lol) for anatomy & poses, pinterest & posemaniacs are fantastic for this.

Anyway that's every silly little thing I could think of to say lol. I've done digital art for 10ish years, I'm fully self-taught, take that as you will lol. Thanks for asking this, hope it was helpful! :+)

[marshals-2]

The many slanders against fartshals dot blog

Picture a post about how certain groups of people that call themselves communist are in fact not so. This is nothing unusual online, one such post appeared on line on the 24 april 2025 by tumblr user irangp. This post said, simply, that communists cannot call themselves that if they are, in times of conflict, turned into nationalists, social chauvinists who become bourgeois nationalism’s strongest soldiers denying self determination for oppressed nationalities (which, we will note, is is different from the bourgeois nationalism of already developed political communities with nation-states). An important distinction is further drawn, which will be important, is that this does not apply to ethnostates. This is, thus far, perfectly fine. Nobody should really reject this statement, it is entirely agreeable. Unfortunately, there is an issue when the poster lists examples of such self proclaimed communists, among which serbians who are against the existence of Kosovo* are presented in the company of genocidal Israeli*, west Asian (presumably Iraqi, Turkish, azeri, and the like) leftists, Indians on Kashmir, et cetera.

Something is wrong here, one of these is not like the others. While israel*, the west Asian states, and india, received varying degrees of support from the United States and Europe, this is obviously not the case for serbs regarding Kosovo. The world is roughly split in two on the issue of Kosovo*, but western opinion is roughly universally in support of its “independence” and has, since the start of the more heated struggles from the breakup of Yugoslavia onwards provided political, economic, and military support to the ‘state’. I point out as much, taking some cheap shots about nato bombings and organ trafficking along the way to show that I’m very very serious about hating Kosovo* in my typical bitchy irony poisoned tone nobody likes.

Here’s the kicker, I got a response, a very long one in fact. Starting off with “why are you so attacked by me simply stating that serb nationalism isnt communist?”. Fantastic, if the post ended here I might have believed that this really was all this person believed on the matter, we will ignore the fact that what I actually said was that opposition to Kosovo* is itself not in any way anti-communist, nor should any serb be disqualified from being considered a communist for having such an opinion. I made no defense of Serbian nationalism nor do I have any intention to, my opinion on the modern state of Serbia is clear, though this guy doesn’t know me and I will not hold it against him that he doesn’t know what it may be. The post continues.

To quote irangp: “notice how i said nothing about kosovo having the right to be an ethnostate? i even mentioned that ethnostate=/= self determination, but for some reason this disturbed you so much you felt the need to show your whole ass on my post.”

This provides me with an interesting dilemma, do I call our friend immensely stupid for believing that saying “oh but it’s not ok to be an ethnostate” while supporting an ethnostate, or do I throw in the accusation of copying liberal Zionist rhetoric? Does this not parallel the wise words of such thinkers as owen jones? But this is a low blow, I will instead point out that you cannot eat your cake and have it, you either support Kosovar* self-determination and the ethnic cleansing it entails, or you do not. You cannot say that you want a Kosovo* that is independent and not ankle deep in blood. This is absurd.

In a similar note, he continues: “tell me is it communist to support the nationalist expansionist aspirations of a capitalist state just because it opposes NATO?”

I don’t know, is it? Is that remotely related to what is being discussed? Is Serbia an expansionist state for wanting to quell a secessionist movement in a non-colonized territory? It would be absurd for me to support expansionist sentiment within Serbia regardless, as Kosovo would be but step one of a revanchist campaign that would most certainly come to my home as well. I would sooner die than let that ape vucic anywhere near my country. Only the inheritor to Tito’s mantle can take back his magnum opus, Macedonia.

In any case, I did not make my response to argue about how communist it is or is not to support capitalist states that go against nato, though I will argue that, regardless, any defeat of nato as the military wing of the global core and its regime of bloody  exploitation and simple butchery is, if not communist, a moral imperative. Kosovo is, again, a tool of the American drug trade, not to mention their organ and human trafficking. Kosovo also serves to shelter Albanian criminals from the law in the countries they operate, much like how American sex pests will frequently move to israel lol. I don’t think it’s too much of a stretch to say it would be preferable for none of that to have happened and for the Kosovars to instead have remained without “self” determination as subjects of Belgrade. Keen eyed readers (though I kid myself by using the plural form here, I don’t imagine anyone will read this, I’m just procrastinating actual work) might have noticed that I previously said I’d sooner die than live under the yoke of Belgrade myself. This is, however, because it would not change a damn thing in this country. If vucler somehow would have done anything to even slightly improve conditions here, I would become the SNS’ strongest patriot.

“if anything it made thing worse since it was seen as a halfway solution which they got into just because they wanted to keep the appearances of being the world's police. they didnt feel any different toward albanians than they felt towards bosniaks, no nato country wanted to send troops on the ground so they resorted to useless bombardment”

Ironic, of course, since Izetbegovic also received western support in much the same way as Kosovo*, I like the idea that the US only intervened, illegally as is often pointed out in discussions such as this, to show strength, as if Yugoslavia was somehow the only country experiencing armed conflicts and ethnic cleansing at the time or since. I like this idea since the west was rightly criticized for letting the Rwandan genocide happen around the same time, this being the only other such genocide that got its own UN ad-hoc criminal court alongside the three-way massacre spree that hit Yugoslavia. Why didn’t they start bombing there? Where is the US now in the face of ethnic cleansing in, say, the aforementioned Armenia? Myanmar? Do I even need to mention Sudan?

“and also point to me where i said that NATO occupation of Kosovo is good?”

I have to say I don’t believe he said that, nor did I say he said that. I will now say exactly that. The point stands about having and/or eating cakes. There simply is no self determination in Kosovo today, it is a tool of the US, anyone purporting to support this so-called state is supporting the NATO occupation, there is no way around this.

Please note that this is a response to exactly one of the like 10 paragraphs in this response, the rest of it is roughly as insane, accusing me of watering down politics by using the left-right divide (I will concede this, I myself hate the left-right divide and only used it because our friend used it when talking about, to quote: “serbian leftists about kosovo”. I can recognize now that this was in fact using leftist as a derogatory term in the stead of communist, this is the type of hair-splitting pedantism I can get behind (I mean that, this is not a sarcastic comment, I am a pedant myself.)

There’s further comparisons of the rhetoric between Milosevic and Zionists, though I’ve found that israel comparisons are ultimately useless since the Israelis do equip rhetoric that can be valid if applied to the right situation. It is simply vile when considering that they are crybullies who accuse their victims of what they do. As such, any and all rhetoric around any and every case of genocide and ethnic cleansing in the modern day is a dance of “you are doing this, I am innocent” by one party and the opposite claim by the other. It is entirely pointless as both an intellectual exercise and fact-finding endeavor to take this into consideration. I joke about Kosovo* being the israel* of the Balkans because of their attitude and behavior, but primarily for being fake states created and solely persisting due to American support.

Israel* supporting Serbia is hardly relevant either, Kosovo* today maintains a strong relationship with israel* alongside Serbia.  Fake recognizes fake I guess. It’s an interesting point though, since many Kosovars are frequently in shock when their government expresses undying support for israel*, I imagine narratives of ethnic cleansing and an ethnic/religious fueled butchery of muslim populations would make israelis hesitant to jump on the bandwagon. While our friend seems to be gladly taking the word of israel* at face value, I beg to differ.

The rest of it is more drivel about what is socialism or communism or leftism or what have you, some Marxist magazine I never mentioned that interviewed some fascist I didn’t mention with some unsourced screenshot of some book or essay I never mentioned to argue a point I never made. Truly I am dealing with a very productive, to the point, focused e-communist. I will not even touch on the issues of  who was bombed or how much, the goal of these bombings is clear and the disregard of the US for human life or its puppets and pawns is so blatant at this point that one should be deeply ashamed for arguing that them killing Kosovars is a sign they did not back the state. Icing on the cake was the hoxha plug though

In conclusion, and tl;dr, the age old observation that every e-commie has one issue they will simply inflexibly toe the state department line on stands true. But more entertainingly, our friend made so many insane claims in such a short paragraph that I wrote like 1500 words about what must have been no more than 2-300.

*not real states

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IT'S RANT TIME

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The good part about having such a flopped account is that I can take advantage of my own insignificance to avoid the analyzes and rants I promised to do 45 years ago.

Like this one:

That said:

Do you know the difference between a happy family and a broken one? A Max Tennyson.

and thats why Victor and Elena Validus are the most wronged characters in Ben 10!!!!

No shade, but there is a pattern because, not content with being a bad father to Carl and Frank, Max went and removed Victor Validus' right to be a father too!

There are still controversies about what of Alien Swarm is canonical and what isn't, but none of their characterizations have ever been taken seriously, so… 365 so fresh!

OK. Victor Validus is an emblematic character in his own right… A serious symptom of the disease that Ben 10 never really addressed - the complete uselessness of the plumbers and the way corruption has made this institution so dysfunctional and unfair. I like the way the movie acknowledges that Max acted in bad faith - more than once - and how, in the end, he realizes it. What annoys me is that NONE of the serious mistakes made by the plumbers, individually or at an institutional level, have negative repercussions for them in the series. The faith placed in the Plumbers is NEVER shaken, on the contrary, the position of plumber is something to be aspired to even by an ex-offender like Kevin… though the organization is highly deficient, flawed, vulnerable, negligent and inflexible. The protagonists themselves, however generous and “virtuous” they may be, seem oblivious to the recurrence of certain mistakes.

WAIT what does Tennyson have to do with it? For those who have already seen the film, it is self-explanatory, but let's get to the point… Well, the Tennysons are part of the only group in the series that has a level of autonomy in relation to EVERY institution/nation/system/organization/kingdom you can imagine. Often, they even influence them. So much so that from the Poison (Max) Elena saw where she could find the cure (Ben) because if a Tennyson had the freedom to make mistakes, only another Tennyson would fight for the freedom to make it right.

The series has always oscillated between the values attributed to the plumbers and they have always been good at reminding us that appearances can be deceiving, which means that, yes, there is diversity between the perspectives presented, the problem is that impunity has always prevailed.

How many plumbers teamed up to immobilize the Validus? Countless, I bet. How many were censured for failing to investigate, prevent or contain the swarm? Probably none.

“It's a kids' show, that sort of thing doesn't fit the story.” hmmmm… That's an excuse that doesn't stick with me because the franchise took itself seriously enough to explore a series of delicate discussions that reverberate in society to this day. Racism, illegal immigration, deficiencies in the prison system, ethnic cleansing, slavery, the existence of militias within the nullifier, even stockholm syndrome!!!!! In fact, the franchise is constantly celebrated for its “sensitivity”. Please! Some things are just plain incoherent.

Now, isn't it funny how Max destroying an innocent man's life, condemning his daughter to a life of contempt, helplessness, loneliness and stigma, trying to discredit her pleas for help, being the real culprit for the advance of microships through his own omission and negligence, has never been cause for judgment or made him less loved by the fanbase? When I say that the crimes committed by plumbers are ignored by the series… It's because they ARE. Literally. And by extension, by the fanbase. Female characters are judged more for looking down on Ben than Max is for being incompetent.

So let's talk about Elena. Because what they did to her was a massacre.

Yes, it's going to get hazy because UAF inserted a plot twist that shattered the Elena of the movie, but everything about her was more interesting than the series used to allow. At least in the beginning. It's very subtle, but if you think about it carefully, you can see that she was one of the best parallels they made with Ben. Like, seriously, apart from being the only female character who played soccer, she was the plumber's daughter crossing heaven and earth to rescue the parental figure who was supposed to be her protector, she was obstinate enough to face Gwen and Kevin without backing down, intelligent enough to decode the nature of the chips, to know how to attract the only person who could stand up to the queen and conduct an investigation independently. SHE WAS A TEENAGER. WITHOUT ANY SUPPORT. No omnitrix or mana to help.

However, the writers of UAF decided to make two or three episodes about the events of the movie as a form of marketing. And, for some reason, the two episodes revolve around the hormones of a teenager who is highly inclined to commit infidelity after a kidnapping and about how crazy the two characters who are his love interests (including the one who was kidnapped) are.

I DO give it the benefit of the doubt because i was able to extract some very interesting things from Revenge of the Swarm and The Perfect Girlfriend. In both we witness a level of desperation that rarely any character reaches. Also: 1 - We discovered that a lot of Elena actions were the result of devastating, self-destructive grief. 2 - We had the reintroduction of a REALLY dangerous (?) villain. 3 - And I liked her design. 4 - We saw a very strange demonstration of her hunger for connection - and attempts of control that weren't exclusively tied to the old imperialist agenda that always concerned villains like Vilgax or the Incursians etc. 5 - There was self-sabotage. 6 - And to MY delight *though very briefly* Ben and Julie synchronized on one thing: both tried to reach the consciousness of the old Elena at critical moments and both showed genuine concern for her, despite being her biggest targets. So far, these two have been the only ones to do so. How ironic… ⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊

by the way, i have a predilection for some of the elements inserted into the plot of The Perfect Girlfriend, you know, the sounds of Persona (1966) and The Stepford Wives (2004) echoed there, but we don't need to talk about it now. ⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚

but like ... NONE of that mattered in the end. Elena turned to DUST before our eyes. She ends The Perfect Girlfriend saying that they would see her again and then SHE WAS NEVER SEEN AGAIN (does THAT appearance in omniverse count? I don't think it should).

There is very little emphasis on the fact that father and daughter - probably the only family they had - were abandoned by everyone because of the crimes of which THEY WERE victims. Elena had her life stolen from her and was reduced to a Yandere. The queen was never defeated. Those who expelled Victor for a smuggling operation that never happened subsequently showed very little interest in taking any action against the queen or in locating the microships in any way (in UAF, when they resurface) The plumbers? They never really helped with anything. But, for heaven's sake, the end of the MOVIE suggested that things had been resolved. Why untie the knots made in the movie and why, in two episodes dedicated to exploring a love triangle that wasn't a triangle, wasn't love, wasn't anything? The plot twist isn't even the crux of my criticism, but what blossomed from it. Girl, nothing came of it. What was OKAY became UNNECESSARY. For what? Not even God knows.

Well, anyway…

Victor and Elena suffered and died alone, far from those they once trusted. That's what was left for them.

And it's a shame, honestly!

[foxleotie]

hi i know this isnt a question but if its ok id like to talk about my intersex experience, i just discovered i have pcos and i am someone who has taken testosterone in the past, just as i was becoming an adult. i know i have pcos but i still have imposter syndrome cause i cant remember exactly how masc i was as a kid, though im certain of a lot of unusual masc traits i had back then (including no period). idk im just feeling like a faker and it sucks lol, hope this wasnt an inappropriate ask

I think a lot of us intersex people experience imposter syndrome, even those of us with very clearly atypical genitalia or chromosomes. I believe the biggest reason for this is because perisex (non-intersex) society does everything they can to make it seem like we do not exist or that we theoretically exist in extremely tiny numbers. When they are forced to confront the fact that we exist, they make sure to label us as “disordered freaks” who have to fit a very specific mold to be their idea of intersex. If we don’t fit that mold (very few, if any, intersex people do), then you just “don’t count” to them.

On the other hand, a lot of people also try to say that intersex people don’t exist, that we’re just “disordered females” and “disordered males”. They stand on the idea that we’re all perisex, just disordered freak versions of one or the other.

Society does whatever they can to convince everyone- including ourselves- that we aren’t real. It can be hard to break away from that mindset, even if you know you’re an intersex individual. I knew for a long time, but it wasn’t until recently that I actually started embracing it. Growing up, I was convinced that I must still be biologically female but just the absolute worst, edge-case version of “female” one could be- because that’s what I was told.

I could honestly write a whole essay about the relationship between the PCOS diagnosis and the prevalent societal ideas I just talked about (and I actually plan on making a YouTube video about this in the coming months!). In my opinion, PCOS is kind of a meaningless diagnosis at this point, especially since it’s usually diagnosed on symptoms alone- symptoms that can be very different from the next person with the same diagnosis. It’s often the only diagnosis you’ll get as a woman experiencing pelvic pain (because women’s gynecology healthcare sucks) OR it’s the label they immediately give you if you’re an AFAB person showing signs of intersex characteristics (such as a lack of periods, facial hair, deepened voice, ambiguous genitalia, etc). It’s the one of the easiest ways to push that idea that intersex people are an extremely tiny group and have very specific traits (“if you are diagnosed with PCOS, you must just be a woman with a disorder, right?”) as well as the easiest way to get AFAB intersex people on feminizing hormones to make them appear as perisex (female) as possible. It’s one of the main tools of intersex erasure and suppression used today.

I apologize for rambling, just know that you’re not alone and the intersex community is often very open to talking about and sharing struggles like this. It took me a long time, but I now love the fact that I’m intersex and fully embrace it. I hope you’re able to get there and experience that love for yourself and your intersex identity, too. 💛💜

Thank you for sharing!

[fee-phy-fo-fum]

hiii ^^ how about number 18 in the ask game for your craft type??

(the ask game)

HIHI

ok this gets long oops. the tldr is paper, btw. i carry around a notebook and a stack of post-its at almost every point of time.

but funny story, a couple months back my friends and i had a discussion about this and we have like. a stardew farm we named rock lobster. its no longer named rock lobster but scissors lobster, because we decided we're not rock and we weren't confident enough about paper to say anything about it.

and yeah, thats probably the easy answer

BUT

i also have a lot of thoughts on craft. craftonomy vs craftology, what makes you a certain type above others? is it inherent? is it the intent or is it the action? do you make your craft type or does your craft type make you?

because craftonomy and craftology both exist at the same time and its like (cont under cut)

craftology is like. astrology-style descriptions of craft type, which also means its not entirely too-too accurate, because, well, astrology. you're really going to classify everyone into three (maybe six, inclusive of dual types/cusps) personality groups based on birth time? you think that's going to work?

but the greater implication here is that if its like astrology, then the date of your birth is what determines your craft type. and then roughly approximating from their birthdays, with how bonnie and odile are that close to each other and also 3 types split across 12 months, id loosely approximate it to be like. jan-apr rock (isa mar 9 + bonnie apr 3), may-aug paper (odile may 16, mira jul 27), sep-dec scissors (siffrin sep 1). this does not account as directly for mira's dual type, because like. shes end july. but also yes she's dual type, but based on her hands she tends towards paper gestures, so maybe more predominantly paper than scissors so.

in which case, dependent on date, its either rock or paper for me, likely paper bc siffrin's would set the date.

but of course thats all conjecture and assumptions that its based on birth date. maybe you're just born with it. maybe you're born a type, and its immutable and even if you don't know, it influences the way you grow up.

but does it show in your abilities or does it show in your intent? is it the means or is it the ends?

because isa is like. we know that he didn't use to be like that, but he decided to work towards being dependable, growing an armour around his old self to protect them, and like i think a big part of his self is that his motivations intrinsically align itself towards being there for the people he cares about. a la protection/rock craft.

so it's not necessarily that you're born with the traits of like. whatever your craft type is. but the intent is there. you intend to protect, even if you're not very good at it.

i wouldnt consider myself, outwardly, to be a creative person by any stretch of the word. i like my structure and my rules and my guidelines and i can be incredibly pedantic about the most miniscule of details. i like my boxes and i like sticking in them. and outwardly, i think, i'm a little sharp around the edges.

but i wouldn't say i like it, or that how i come across is how i intend to come across sometimes. or like. idk. words hard. if id like to be paper type, if i intend to be more creative, is that more paper than the way i act and how its more scissors callous, manipulative?

and then we move on to like type-based skills. if we base it off of the party's skills, which i wouldn't like. confidently say are fully representative, because its like. a sample size of one per type. but i would say that their skills are kinda what you would expect of it when you think protection/creative/piercing.

but if we look at that, any skills i might have are probably closer to odile's. im not about to be in the realm of being a tank (my glass cannon ass could never), or defending people, or making people strike weaker, or making people take hits better. im not about to be around the lines of buffing speed or the likes of it (i think mira's attack buff is very scissors, personally), not going to be like. yeah. i would stab people (and have) but its like. thats another thing

but if you ask me to find workarounds. if you ask me to push the limits a bit. if you ask me to read the words on the paper intently and find loopholes in the phrasing.

i can do that! i can do that.

(i think if paper is going to buff a stat, its going to be luck btw, but thats a whole other thing)

but yeah. i think paper, for most part.