#but also i want it to just go on indefinitely
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Not a terf, but I'll explain my take on it.
It doesn't piss me off, it concerns me. Who transitions? People with dysphoria, and it seems there are more and more LGB kids or autistic kids who get pushed to that track. Traumatized ones too.
I know what can happen with a misdiagnosis of the issue. The bandaid doesn't help indefinitely.
And with dysphoria... Well, I wouldn't give a liposuction to an anorexic person. That's basically how I see transition. I'm not going to advocate against it because clearly, there are cases where it's the last solution that can be tried to alleviate distress. But it shouldn't be the automatic choice for everyone. It's insane. Just like we don't give the highest dose of a heavy duty psych med to a mentally ill person right away. And just like we shouldn't cut off the limbs or eyes of people who feel like they should be disabled.
That's not to say trans people shouldn't dress the way they want or perform a gender. The latter would be stupid, because the roles themselves are dumb, but performing isn't a crime. I don't really perform the expected role because I have better things to do, anyway. Changing your name? Meh. Changing your legal sex? Nope. You didn't change sex. No human can. It also has legal consequences. The first example that comes to mind is legal protections for women, such as "you can't be fired for being pregnant". Trans men are legally no different from men, so now it's no longer a women's issues. And that means we can get rid of the protection.
Anyway. There's a difference between the right not to be forced into pregnancy and childbirth or genital mutilation, and the right to do extensive body modifications to resemble the other sex when it might not even be the right solution. I'm seriously hoping this won't be the next medical horror story (like lobotomy is) later on. I'm hoping we're not harming people instead of helping them.
Reality doesn't change because of our beliefs. I will never turn the sky green with the power of hopeful thinking. I can't become a man or a neutral human either. My body is me and I am my body, there's no soul or essence inside. I may not like it, but it is me.
why are terfs all like "bodily autonomy!" and then they get pissed at people for trying to transition. seems kinda contradictory almost as if their ideals are built on irrational hatred rather than societal progress
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mostly the thing that made me fall out with the system of psychiatry is just. how rigid it is and how unwilling to bend to the patient's individual needs, that if a treatment doesnt work its implied the patient didnt try hard enough to engage as opposed to....every single person is different and just because one treatment works for the majority of patients with that illness, the illness does not make all those people the same.
as well as that i also have issues with how people in the psych system trust their colleagues. i was psychologically abused by my psychiatrist for two years which consisted of him removing any medications, lying to me and discharging me for punishments. i tried to kill myself twice under him and his treatment of me caused that. he still works at the outpatients i attend bc who is going to believe a psychotic patient over a psychiatrist (which is another thing about the system that psychotic patients raising any concern is seen as delusion). and not only that but all his coworkers think hes a great guy. so how am i meant to get treatment for the damage he did to me when all of his colleagues are more inclined to try to protect their coworker than face the fact he is Abusive and Negligent to patients with personality disorders. How am I meant to get treatment for that trauma when all the system wants to do is protect itself first?
And that's not even bringing up how hard it is to be any kind of minority in psychiatric care. I've known Deaf people left on units without access to interpreters, essentially themselves from family, friends and anyone who speaks their fucking language, unable to defend themselves or even understand what doctors are telling them. As a trans person I have to go through my transition history every appointment. For what? and when transphobic legislation gets passed and I start thinking abt how i dont want to live in this world it is exhausting to phone a hotline knowing i will have to explain this whole thing to someone who doesnt know/care. and that black people are restrained, sectioned, diagnosed with schizophrenia and labelled aggressive at exceedingly high rates compared to white people. AND THEN the fact that Being a minority at all has negative effects on your mental health but psychiatry often seems to fucking treat mental illness like its exactly the same in everyone and will not sit down with minorities and hear them out on their struggles.
my like tldr is psychiatry is a system now and it refuses to engage with patients on an individual level it doesnt ask patients what they want and instead bases things off "reccommended treatments" which involve invasive interventions for certain diagnoses that patients dont get a choice in. and people are content to just have psych patients sectioned and isolated and they dont wanna think about the fact their human rights get taken away for indefinite amounts of time for WHAT?
it frustrates me endlessly. i dont want to be this ill but the system wont help.
Well said. I really hate how psych professionals will so often see a recommended treatment not working or making things worse and treat this as proof that the patient isn't trying hard enough instead of going "hey maybe this approach just isn't right for this person"
#chat with kat#psychiatric abuse tw#medical abuse tw#suicide tw#suicide attempt tw#racism tw#bigotry tw#transphobia tw#medical trauma tw
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guys I am trying so hard to finish writing covetous but my brain keeps being like "if you finish it, it will be Over" and no matter how many times I keep trying to convince brain that yes, that is the point, brain is resistant
#but i WILL finish it#i think i have two chapters and an epilogue left to write#and then some deleted scenes#bc why not#but also i want it to just go on indefinitely#;-;
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Ooh, now that we’ve seen N!Edwin and DP!Edwin talk about Feelings could we see the same with N!Charles and DP!Charles?
As simple as that.
Edwins version
ko-fi
#ask ask ask#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#doom patrol#dead patrol#oof man i was not made to write serious conversations#is this healthy? who the hell knows#but is it true to charles' character?#well i sure hope so!#in dp!charles mind#his whole reason for staying has always been edwin#if he gets to do stay with him#it'll be great no matter what form their relationship takes#if edwin loves him in a romantic way? hell yeah! then they can be even closer!#he is thinking in an 'I am his already since the day he found me' sort of way#and to be honest I think dbd!charles agrees#but he also knows he is a people pleaser so he doesn't want to just go and say yes to edwin to make him happy#without being sure he will be able to keep saying yes forever#dp!charles doesn't have this conflict because i genuinely don't think he's picturing forever#he's not as confident in their ability to outrun Death indefinitely#but that allows him to understand more clearly what he's feeling now!#I have thoughts about these boys as you can see
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You’re all I got N…I’m not risking that for some s̶̞͈̣̤̠͈͍̭͌͝ṱ̵̛͓̣̙̹͓͉͔̹̦̪̤͍̼̳̈̐̉̉͝͝ų̸̞̙͕̟̳̞̪̳̳̩̻̥̈́̔̍p̶̪͚̭͕̲͈̬̩̀͆̿͌̍̈́͑̀̓̕̚i̵̗͍̻̻͚̥͆̋͜͠d̷̠̎̓̈́̽̔̾͗ worker…
I’m taking her out, whether you like it or not.
Murder Drones: Intermission scene redraw! Please go give the original project some love. Also og scenes under the cut:
#chocoart#murder drones: intermission#serial designation n#serial designation v#BRUUUH THE EPISODE WAS SO GOOD#had to draw some of my fav expressions#posting this now so this doesn’t stay an indefinite wip I just wanted to get this out there#pls go check out the og project it’s good!#also I hope the background is ok I tried to make it snowy af#murder drones
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i found another big armored angel and you know what that means
i love his design. also oneshot btw im not getting into another decade old game.
#can oneshot describe fanart instead of fanfic? i don't care ykwim#also apparently he has a face now because he's mortal. i mean. im just. not gonna draw that#if i have better reference i might break my word and draw him hugging gabriel because apparently that's what i wanna do#aaaaand i literally just found a 360 degree reference of his model when im typing these tags#yeah i forgot i could just search for his 3d model for some reason#weird that should be literally the first thing i do why do i go straight to his wiki anyways#but still idk why i drew him kinda ugly so im just not gonna touch him for some indefinite amount of time#anyway#im still not playing diablo#unless i can play as the angel version of him which im 99% sure is not happening lol#if you want another trivia i drew this during an online meeting#tyrael#my art
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I want to be optimistic about the future, but as somebody who has been through 4-6 EoS events and witnessed several others friends have gone through, with a lot of the rumors/news breaking about future plans for the game itself, and some changes introduced in TFS I'm slowly starting to get a bad feeling about things. I'm not giving up on the game, but it's feeling hard to be hopeful when I'm starting to get similar vibes to the other EoS events I've been through.
I'll mostly focus on this article from Jason Schreier because I don't really trust any other rumours that are floating around. I know a lot of people are super depressed about everything and it's easy to spiral into doom and gloom, which I want to avoid because it just stresses people out, over things they can't really change, and primarily over things that are far from confirmed.
Obviously we don't know anything for certain yet, but from what little the devs told us when this happened:
While our team is taking time to help support each other, we want you, our community, to know that we expect no disruption to all of our previously communicated content plans. Our content roadmap remains unchanged. This also includes our future plans for next year and beyond.
Nothing is changed and plans are clearly in place. It goes without saying that this can be flipped on its head at any point, but it also has to be said that it would be quite strange for a franchise of this scale to simply go down without an honest attempt to keep it going. Obviously various media ends all the time and studios are shut down and all that, but I feel like people are jumping on that conclusion way too easily and simply over unconfirmed rumours which puts people in a mindset that "the game is over." According to devs and Jason's report, it is clearly not planned to be over. We have yet to see if that works out.
Either way, we're set for this year for sure and there's clearly a plan they've already hinted for next year. What concerned people the most, I think was this (more under):
The company also plans to continue updating Destiny 2, although it will no longer pursue regular paid expansions as it did in the past, according to the people familiar. During one recent meeting, a company leader told attendees that sales of each expansion had declined year over year, including June’s The Final Shape, so they would be moving away from an annual release model. Some staff said they’re optimistic about the vision for Destiny 2 under new director Tyson Green, a Bungie veteran who took the helm earlier this year. In the coming months, the people said, Bungie will look to retain and attract players with smaller-scale content drops modeled after Into the Light, a well-received update in April that added a new mode to the game. Rather than selling this content, they said, Bungie will aim to release it for free along with overhauls to activities that it hopes will appeal to hardcore players. Other vague plans for the future include a storyline that will feature characters and worlds that Destiny has not yet explored.
Personally, I don't necessarily see this as something bad. I've actually been in favour of stopping yearly expansion for years. A big expansion every year is a big thing to commit to and it simply cannot be up to the best standards every single year. Some years will simply be smaller or "worse" and they won't engage people as some others. To this day people are still demanding expansions the size of Forsaken, every year, and that is simply mathematically impossible to make. So we get stuff like Shadowkeep and people flip out (Destiny died back then too). In my opinion, I think expansions every 2-3 years with smaller content drops in between is much better and healthier, and would result in better expansions.
We don't know if expansions are ever happening again; this report seems to imply not, but nobody really knows what state Destiny will be in 3 years from now, if it still exists. Until then, I'm perfectly fine with smaller content drops and updates. Obviously we don't know what that will look like; maybe it will be bad, but maybe it will not be bad. We simply don't know. I think people just heard "no expansion every year" and assumed that it's all over and no other content will ever be interesting or engaging ever again, which is something I simply don't see. For example, this episode has quickly become one of my favourite content in Destiny ever and it's not an expansion. I feel the same about some seasons which I enjoyed more than some expansions.
This is a matter of preference of course. Some people only tune in for expansions so for them "no expansions" effectively means no more Destiny. A lot of people also wonder about stuff like raids, which launch with expansions; what about those? Are we ever getting a raid again? We don't know, though it's worth noting that some raids have launched with DLCs and seasons, so launching a raid without the expansion could still be possible. We'll simply have to wait and see.
A lot of people are also concerned about the confirmation that Destiny 3 was never in development. I don't find this surprising at all and firmly believe that people who believed in D3 in the first place have not been fully aware of just how much devs never wanted to make another game from scratch again. This is from when they announced vaulting back in Arrivals:
With Destiny 1, we solved the “ever expanding, exponential complexity” problem by making a sequel in Destiny 2. We left behind all of Destiny 1’s content and many of the features players grew to love. We believe now that it was a mistake to create a situation that fractured the community, reset player progress, and set the player experience back in ways that took us a full year to recover from and repair. It’s a mistake we don’t want to repeat by making a Destiny 3.
I don't think anything has changed about their opinion on this over the years. It may have become even stronger actually, given how much content exists in the game right now and how much content would permanently disappear, alongside everyone's progress and collections, if they restarted everything. Not only that, but they know that a new game would have to launch with basically no content that would have to be built up over the years and would result in the same anger from players that plagued D1 vanilla and D2 vanilla. Nobody would enjoy going from 9 raids (maybe 10 if there's a reprised this year?) to 1 raid. Like I'm not sure if people realise this, but D3 will have no content in comparison. People were exceptionally mad about Beyond Light which reduced the amount of content and items due to vaulting; D3 would have less than that.
So I'm not sure why people expect and want D3. I never vibed with that idea. Not in any foreseeable future. I don't want to restart my progress, I don't want to lose everything I collected, I don't want to wait for years to get more than 3 strikes in the game. So the confirmation that this was never in development is not only super obvious to me, it's also relieving.
I think these are mostly the things that people are panicking over, from stuff that is now known a little better from Jason's report. When it comes to other rumours and leaks, we simply don't know if they're true and how detailed they are so I will not be stressing about them and I'd advise everyone else to not stress about them either.
We all love the game very much and the idea that it will end one day is very upsetting, but it will. One day it will end. Is that in 2 years or 20, we don't know. I'd like for people to definitely move away from the doomposters on twitter, to not latch onto any rumour or leak, and to give developers space and patience, as well as do anything we can to support those that were laid off.
I personally also think that the content creators with the biggest platforms should use the current anger and despair to pressure Bungie or Sony into making meaningful changes. Instead of posting about how "it's so over, goodbye everyone, Destiny is dead," I think they should be encouraging fans to bully these corporations with the one thing they understand best: money. Hey corpos, we ARE still interested in Destiny, we WANT to keep playing, we WANT it to keep going and we WILL bring our money if you do something about this situation. Because I don't trust any of these people who are claiming they're big fans and also how their livelihoods depend on making content for this one game, but are so easy to doompost and give up and say that the game is now over. How would anyone seeing this feel other than concerned and in despair?
Is it possible to change anything? No clue. Corporations can obviously be bullied into action, but we simply don't know how much effect we have here. Still, I'd rather try.
And I'd definitely try to stay positive, or at least neutral. We currently have no confirmations about anything being over, and plans for future content exist. Things will likely be different, but that doesn't always mean worse. And if it is? Well then it is and people will stop playing.
And of course, if anyone lost interest over this and over these reports, that's understandable. Taking a break from it all is recommended. Whatever happens, happens. If the game is still there and the interest is regained, everyone can always come back. No one has to decide right now whether they'll keep playing or stop forever. We can change our minds later depending on any new information and the state of the game.
The point of this whole thing is basically; we don't know anything for sure and overthinking about what-if scenarios that are years out is not very helpful. Venting concerns and talking to others can help though, which is why I want to try and stay as reasonable as possible in a situation where we genuinely don't have any proper confirmations.
We'll see! I'll keep playing while there's something to play and while that something is interesting to me, no matter how small. I hope this helps keeping people at least a little bit less stressed about the whole thing.
#destiny 2#bungie#ask#this isn't anything against the anon it was just a good opportunity to go into some of this#i think being concerned is very normal and expected#but also sometimes concern and anxiety and stress make us less than rational (me included)#especially when everyone online is reinforcing that stress and anxiety which they currently are#but there are other perspectives! especially in regards to the whole 'no expansions. smaller content drops.'#at first glance it can feel really bad but to me it just sounded like something i've wanted for years#i love expansions but a new one every year is a lot. both content-wise and financially for us. and development-wise for devs#taking a year or two off from expansions (or indefinitely) might be good#it might not! we won't know until it's tried. and i'd like people to give it a chance#primarily to give devs a chance
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Ughh how do i tell this guy that while we are on extremely the same page politics wise and i love a good vent sesh, i canNOT and i mean canNOT keep fielding his spiralling about rfk jr publicly lynching fauci and his copium fueled jags about the dems somehow uncovering election subversion and cancelling the results of the election
#like i share his concerns!!!#i also wish there was a secret anti-coup in the making!#but its just putting me off#like thank you for being my boss/situationship#but i just dont want to go down the rabbit hole anymore. like it could happen#right?#any crazy insane evil dumb stupid thing#is now on the table#indefinitely#why insist on torturing yourself unless you're planning what you're gonna DO abt it
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Collateral Angst - The real point of the story isn't "the victim was attacked" but "look how protective/self-loathing/angsty/loving the victim's friend is." (TVTropes)
How about collateral whump?
How does Fuuta feel about being the chew toy in any given Amane angst fic?
KIDDING (kinda). Real answer under the cut, but this is referring to the Amane timeloop angst fic by Kyanako and Nott!
Ow. Just, OW.
First and foremost, I think he’d be shocked to discover he’s not the main character. (Even in a non-fourth wall breaking sense,) I think after being so stuck in an internet environment that emphasizes the self, after envisioning himself as a hero so often, then to have his worldview shattered and believe himself a villain, it would not compute that the universe is administering cosmic punishment to some girl just a liiiittle to the left. Cue a lot of anger, a lot of attempted force to get himself out of the situation, and a lot of panic. Once he deals with the crushing blow that he’s not the special main character he thought he was, I see a few possibilities with even chances (depending on how many loops he’s been through/how the information was revealed/when the information was revealed/etc):
The first and best option is that he finds some sort of purpose in lifting up Amane. It sucks, and it’s going to get him beaten, tortured, and killed a million ways, but in doing so he’s helping the person he’s become the most protective over. He can at least take some pain away that the universe had aimed her way. She gets so much stronger and changes her frame of mind in honor of his misfortune. He may not end up on top, but he finds peace in willingly sacrificing himself for someone he deeply cares about. He'd become a more reckless and self-harming now that he sees that as his purpose, but he's happy with it.
If he’s in a slightly worse state of mind, he may come to the same peace, but for selfish reasons. He realizes he is some kind of chosen after all, since the universe is using him to lift up the true protagonist. He undergoes his suffering with the knowledge that he’s still a hero, he’s still special, he’s just special because he gets to help Amane. As his role goes to his head, he'd start trying to influence other things in the timeline, occasionally making things better but also making them worse if he tried to take on too much.
If he’s in a really bad state of mind, his desperate and hurting brain will make the connection that all this pain is technically because of Amane herself. If the universe is hurting him to hurt her, then without her, he’d be in no danger. He’d spiral – ranging from distancing himself as much as he can from her, to outright confronting her as the source of all this pain.
Not the worst but certainly not a good option – something clicks in his already-fracturing mind about Amane’s religious views and he sees the situation as his hell. God is real and punishing him for killing a young girl, so to atone he must suffer to protect His special girl. It’d be a weird mix of a mindset, since Fuuta genuinely believes he’s in hell for what could feel like an eternity until he’s paid his debt – but also retains the small hope that he’s working towards the reward of heaven. He would do absolutely nothing in this case, thinking just rolling over and going with the flow is what he's meant to endure.
#milgram#fuuta kajiyama#amane momose#i was going to write a scene but i just kept thinking of more options and wasnt sure which one would actually happen in the story#theyre also assuming time passes indefinitely after the realization#when (if) the loops stop he may be able to be shaken out of these mindsets but like any timeloop story itll leave a mark...#i know amane gets further from the cult in this because of everything and wouldnt be 'helping' fuuta as much as in canon#but i still wanted to pitch it as an option since his mental state would be even worse than canon#and thus even more susceptible to 'something to rely on' :(#thanks for making me SAD ;---;#(lol it was really cool to think about!)
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What We Do in the Land of Ooo
🧛♂️ What We Do in the Shadows x Adventure Time crossover AU! ⚔
Finn Mertens in place of Guillermo de la Cruz
Marceline Abadeer in place of Nadja of Antipaxos
Bonnibel Bubblegum in place of Laszlo Cravensworth
Jake the dog in place of Colin Robinson
Vampire King in place of Nandor The Relentless
Betty Grof in place of The Guide
The Lich in place of Baron Afanas
Peppermint Butler in place of Wallace the Necromacer
Simon Petrikov in place of Derek
BMO in place of Nadja Doll (her old consciousness uploaded or something was an idea I had)
Marshall Lee & Gary Gumball/Prince in place of Sean & Charmaine
#I want to clarify that I don't have any plans to write this out as some sort of fanfic.#I also don't have any plans to draw actual redesigns for any of these characters.#this is all an indefinite WIP; anyone who wants to make content about the idea please tag me please I'd to see it!#also want to mention that this was somewhat inspired by recent fionna and cake content!#I suppose this AU could take place in the land of Ooo or it could take place on staten island but I was thinking land of Ooo#up to yall though if you wanna sketch any ideas from this lol#I was just trying to find images that somewhat fit the character they're in place of if you're curious as to why I chose the images I did!#also this isn't going with the nandermo stuff to clarify before people are like hey this is gross; no read the tags first; read my rambles!#these aren't 1-to-1 character crossovers; obviously I'd want to take some liberties with each of them if I were to put more effort into it!#vampire bonnie bubblegum would be cool to see! it doesn't need to make sense; we're having fun with it here! Vampire Betty Grof too!#Finn could also be an adult here if y'all want; I wasn't thinking too hard about this; just popped into my head & wanted to jot stuff down!#I'd also be curious to hear what adventure time characters you'd put in the roles of the wwdits ones; replacing mine or ones#that i didn't end up listing! I'd love to see a vampire Simon Petrikov & Finn Mertens though if anyone wants to draw that. anyway thats it!#mine#op#wwdits#what we do in the shadows#adventure time#adventure time fionna and cake#fionna and cake#adventure time spoilers
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oh nbd it only took about 150 hours, a year in real time, and approximately 17 tries at the final fight, but we fuckin got here!!!!!!!!!!!!
it! is! gremlin time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#squirrel plays bg3#oc: iona raedir#astarion#okay full disclosure i COULD have gotten the fight earlier but i wanted it to go perfect#and totally forgot that the game doesn't just end when the 4 rounds expire#i fully thought that and when i got there and needed ONE more round to get inside because orp's concentration got janked i was like#“oh. oh this isn't actually NEARLY as hard as i thought. oh hang on actually i'm pretty good at this game.”#and literally dealt with the brain within one turn#building both minsc and astarion to attack like 4-5 times a turn and bringing them both was a HELL of a move#but also. i think minsc's dialogue may be favored if you bring him along because. boy did he not stop yapping#anyway iona had an awful time and then a great time and she shall continue to have a great time indefinitely#yaaaaaay for my girl
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I FUCKING LOST YARN CHICKEN NOOOOOOOO
and it's not possible to run out and get another ball tomorrow or any time this week because everyone who drives in my house is currently incapacitated and i'm too tired from my own health bullshit to bus it
i need to go to bed before i spend CAD$14.99 on same-day shipping for a single ball of yarn
#i also want to try and match lot number which i can't do with an online order#and failing that hold it up to my project to see if it's still a close enough match#which i also can't do online#but this project is one of the only things going for me right now since i've been sick#idk if i can wait indefinite time before being able to get another ball#there's not a lot i can do without finishing this row :(#hm. actually theres some stuff i could do#i just hate going out of order#but maybe i can do that. just this once#personal
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#hi its another cringe post#i keep wanting to make bf posts all the time but i dont bc my life isnt anyones business but also i wanna talk SO bad#because i am feeling so much!! and i cant keep randomly hounding my friends for it i feel so annoying <3333#so i basically just need to vent some Feelings (vent in a good way i will explode otherwise)#it really is a category 5 down bad moment. hoping so bad that this works out long term fr fr#<---- is soooo impatient about the passage of time#anyway im just insane (still.) (will continue to be insane indefinitely)#utterly and absolutely captivated by him going off about shark phylogeny when i used 'birds are reptiles' as a convo starter#he needs to stop being so cool i literally am just a little freak!!!
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laying flat on the pavement
still feeling Very Sad that the ahsoka show didn't care more about baylan and shin at the end
#i will never have closure :(((( i will never be whole again :((((#i want to know their whole story soooo badly and i CANT#i have to wait indefinitely for a movie and/or season 2 that might just go on to Also not focus on them#very sad#baylan skoll#shin hati#they did NOT appear in my dreams last night i am out of luck
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just got the tumblr blackout post on my dash again ugh
#every time i see it i always wonder#why they chose july as the month to start.#july aka disability pride month aka the time that a lot of disabled people are going to be wanting to#engage with the community#which is mostly found on tumblr#not to mention that a fuck ton of people have friends on here that dont have any other social media#so are they just supposed to not talk to their friends for an indefinite amount of time ?#ALSO how the fuck are we gonna know when its over ?#if we cant open tumblr to check how are we supposed to know.#its really obvious that op didnt think any of this through#id maybe even go so far as to call it ' performative '#since it seems like op didnt actually think about everything a total blackout entails#the whole post reads like their thought process was ' reddit is doing a protest blackout so we should too '#and then they made that post without giving any further thought to it.#idk its complicated but i definitely will not be participating in this#no matter how much the changes annoy me
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Hi. (Announcement in the tags)
#uhmm...i don't know how to explain this...#so my family has been having a lot of trouble lately#mostly our relationship with our step father#there's been ups and downs..well..more on the downer side. the only main reason my mother married him was because of..well..#money..as trash as that sounds. i can't deny the fact that I've been able to continue my studies due to his financial support.#i don't want to justify anything that i've probably done wrong to him but emotionally right now—i'm simply scarred to the point where—#I don't think I could heal without professional help. I've been struggling a lot with it ever since of what he did#i felt disgusted. dirty. I felt lost. I didn't want to forgive him. maybe this is the punishment i have to endure because I didn't have it—#—in me to forgive him. I know the principles of my religion and it is stated that one must always find forgiveness towards others.#no matter how big their mistake is. but you see—I'm not God. I am human. my kindness isn't as grand and as big as Him.#my patience is limited and so is my forgiveness#that applies the same to my mother. my mother is a very patient person when it comes to her husband. but yet again she isn't an angel—#nor is she God. she is also human and has limits to what she could handle and what she could forgive and forget.#they argued tonight. and I don't think it'll slide or end well like the past arguments. and I'm sorry to say but—#I won't be able to be active all that much either.#without him now I'll probably have to look for part time jobs. which is gonna limit how active I will be here and on my main account#I will probably go into an indefinite hiatus for some time#maybe I'll come back...maybe I won't. hopefully I will. just...pray for me that I have it in me to continue doing what I love and—#—sharing these little bits of what I do in my free time with you.#I won't have the time to reply to anything for the time being. college tests are on the way and I have to prepare myself for—#—the better or worse.#if things go downhill and you don't hear from me for a long while. then this will probably be my last post here.#I'll still be able to reply to messages on other platforms#but I just don't have the emotional stability to talk right now. No it's gonna be fine. I have faith in me and God.#I know that He doesn't put His children into burdens that none of them could handle.#and if He thinks I could handle this. then I will. and I can. He is with me and so is all of your faith.#that puts me in a sense of reassurance a little hahah...#yeah.. so...I'll see you then..bye.
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