#pls go check out the og project it’s good!

[space-bowl]

You’re all I got N…I’m not risking that for some s̶̞͈̣̤̠͈͍̭͌͝ṱ̵̛͓̣̙̹͓͉͔̹̦̪̤͍̼̳̈̐̉̉͝͝ų̸̞̙͕̟̳̞̪̳̳̩̻̥̈́̔̍p̶̪͚̭͕̲͈̬̩̀͆̿͌̍̈́͑̀̓̕̚i̵̗͍̻̻͚̥͆̋͜͠d̷̠̎̓̈́̽̔̾͗ worker…

I’m taking her out, whether you like it or not.

Murder Drones: Intermission scene redraw! Please go give the original project some love. Also og scenes under the cut:

[koinotame]

\o/

hi! it's me, nana / koinotame!

if you're wondering why i went inactive and then deleted, my mental health kind of (really) tanked... and i ended up deleting my blog in a fit.

it's getting better bit by bit though! and i've been wanting to get back into writing (and talking abt my unhinged/yan ideas i can't really talk to anyone else abt), so. here i am! for now, at least

as for my previously posted writing, there's some good news and some bad news: the bad news is that everything i wrote directly into tumblr (99% of snippets, a lot of ask answers, most exact content warnings, etc) is gone. the slightly less bad news is that iirc there were very very few posts of mine that weren't reblogged by anyone at all, so they're probably still out there? feel free to send them my way if you find any and i'll rb them. @/midnight-remembrance also has reblogged a couple of them! there's a couple snippets i have saved in some places, so i might repost those on my own as i find them, but there's very few of those. the good news is that anything longer (proper writing — oneshots, hcs, yan alphabet responses and so on, prompt responses, etc) is safely backed up where i originally wrote it! some of it is also on my ao3, which is the same username. feel free to send me asks about any you'd like to see again and i'll repost them! i might not post them if i feel too embarrassed about/wish i hadn't posted them, and i might rewrite/heavily edit some of them, but i think there's only a handful that fall into the former category and none of them were particularly popular. either way, no harm in asking!

as for some other updates: i'm a little divided on whether i want to keep posting explicit nsfw or not so we'll see. i might just keep it out of main tags. idk yet. regardless of what decision i make, this blog is still strictly 18+ and that will not be changing. since we can reply from sideblogs now, this is a sideblog and not my main now. why? sometimes i prefer to check up on a blog frequently instead of following them for a couple of reasons, but this felt very awkward when they were following me. so this being a sideblog relieves a bit of that stress. if this makes it sound like i have severe brain worms, it's because i do. to that effect though, if we interact every so often feel free to consider us mutuals regardless of whether or not i'm actually following you =w=b tbh i.............. am not really into genshin anymore. i might post about it here and there but i just Do Not (really) Care about it anymore. scara aside to some degree i also have no clue what's going on post inazuma lol whatever projects or commitments to writing or etc i had made beforehand. i forgot all of them so just pretend that never happened ok? ok i'll also probably be posting more sparsely, but we'll see! and (this is obviously the most important bit) i have no clue where i put the mika edit so we're back to my og classic pfp. the header scales terribly and is temporary, please ignore that too

all that aside, as a treat for anyone who sees this in time,

*roughly 6/22 done, but fairly quick to write. roughly one paragraph per character (sneak peek line: "it's not too hard to be discreet with his unique magic when someone really deserves to fall face down a flight of stairs. or three. oopsie. odd they don't remember it, huh? well, he had nothing to do with that.") **more realistic isn't quite the right word(s)... probably won't post this one to the main tags regardless. won't be doing all of the characters (only important/relevant ones) and won't be writing more about/expanding on, so this one is just like. a one off experiment sort of thing. overall less violent than most takes on the au + leans a bit (or lot, depending on how you look at it) more on the religious aspect of self aware aus. i wrote a couple paragraphs a while ago, then rewrote them, but i'll only finish/post them if there's interest for it (sneak peek line: "aether has deluded himself and cast You aside entirely on his own—and when You finally grace them with Your real presence, zhongli is certain aether will be the first to fall from Your grace.")

i have one other new thing immediately ready for posting that'll get posted in a couple of days but that one's pretty silly

[canonicallyanxious]

Got a lot of free time on my hands rn [who could say why...] so i put a bit of effort into this year's top 10 lists by which i mean i stole canva's assets for myself and rubbed my gay little hands all over them pls enjoy

absolutely did not have braincells for a proper movies/shows list this year but i will have a special shows-adjacent list out at... some point idk

Full lists along with notes/ramblings under the cut:

Favorite 2023 Album Drops

10. Cherish - Vacationer

9. Phone Orphans - Laura Veirs

8. Praise a Lord Who Chews but Which Does Not Consume; (Or Simply, Hot Between Worlds) - Yves Tumor / this album is gender and no i will not be offering further explanations at this time

7. Red Moon in Venus - Kali Uchis

6. My Big Day - Bombay Bicycle Club

5. Metro Boomin Presents Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse - Metro Boomin, various artists / specifically the deluxe version which has some personal faves the og doesn't, like take it to the top and infamous

4. Unreal Unearth - Hozier

3. The Age of Pleasure - Janelle Monae / full disclosure this one is so high on this year's list because watching them perform this live did rewire my entire brain

2. The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We - Mitski

1. Javelin - Sufjan Stevens / the vinyl for this album comes with an art booklet made by Sufjan that includes 10 mini-essays about love, and reading them for the first time felt like putting my heart in a fucking blender. [you can also read them all here for free if you feel like doing that to yourself tonight]

HONORABLE MENTIONS:

SOS - SZA / the greatest mistake of my life was leaving SOS off my 2022 album list and it will forever haunt me. unfortunately it was also a big grower for me and was released too late in the year for me to realize its genius in time. can't put it on my 2023 list either but pls know it is number one album of the year. in my heart

Soft Machine - Arlo Parks / i think this could have ranked higher had i managed to get around to checking it out when it actually dropped but unfortunately my dumb ass didn't catch it until v late in the year so there you go

House of Groove - Roche Musique / compilation so technically there's a bunch of artists on this record, found this one a little late in the year but wanted to shout it out bc i really enjoyed every track i heard off of it, no small feat

Sorry I Haven't Called - Vagabon / i have no excuse or explanation for this exclusion, there were simply too many records i loved this year

Favorite 2023 Song Finds

(note: per tradition, not confined to 2023 releases, just bops i listened to for the first time this year)

10. So I Danced - DPR IAN (2023) / i forgot to include the year in the graphic and i am too lazy to change it soz

9. Angelina - Milo Korbenski (2021)

8. No Good - Young & Sick (2019)

7. Better Now - SebastiAn, Mayer Hawthorne (2019)

6. Liquid Love (Mr Jukes Remix) - Billie Marten (2021) / one of those remixes i like better than the og, and to be clear i like the og quite a lot. also as i was putting together this list i learned that Mr Jukes is actually the name of the solo project of Bombay Bicycle Club's lead singer so like the more you know!

5. Hair Receding - Xenia Rubinos (2013) / i heard this song for the first time in December which usually would put it at an unfair disadvantage compared to songs that i've had the full year to get attached to but listening to it shook my molecules so vigorously i had no choice but to put it on this list

4. Zero (JID Remix) - Newjeans (2023) / look i am fully aware this song is a blatant kpop ad for coke zero and the chorus literally translates to "coca-cola is tasty / coca-cola is tasty" but that doesn't mean it isn't a BOP. another remix i prefer to the og, i think jid's verse and subtle production tweaks really elevate it to something i never want to stop playing when it comes on

3. Been Thinkin' - Hikes (2019) / or: my most played song of the year! don't examine what this probably reveals about the state of my psyche too closely!

2. I'm Your Man - Mitski (2023)

1. Bruises - Angel Haze (2015) / though i was genuinely v surprised this one did not make it onto my spotify top 5, considering every time it came on this year a fugue state did overtake my whole body and did not dissipate until i had played it at least another four or five times

[shadowqueen1220]

Analysis on C! Tubbo's Emotional State

Disclaimer: I am in no means a professional and I am heavily basing this off of my own experiences and general observations. (Please let me know if my wording is bad)

This is all about the roleplay characters if it wasn't clear

Warning: self harm, self sacrifice, self destructive behavior and talk of mental health and canon typical violence

Tubbo has always been a self sacrificial character. He always helps his friends at the expense of his own safety (ie disc war and L'manburg). He is a bit of an overachiever and that has gotten worse when combined with tendencies of paranoia. (all og members of L'manburg have paranoia issues, stemming from the final control room)

After the Independance War, Tubbo was involved with the elections. He made a secret bunker, saying "hope for the best plan for the worse" in case the electrons went wrong. He was proven right and then had to endure a harsh dictatorship.

Spy Tubbo was constantly under stress. He not only was secretly slipping information to Pogtopia but had his role of Security of State as well. At the Elections, Schlatt verbally abused Tubbo and scared him into following his orders. Most of the things Schlatt had told Tubbo to have shaped him into the Tubbo that internalizes and represses all his emotions. (ie don't complain, don't cry, don't talk back, agree with everything I say). Tubbo, who already naturally liked to help his friends, was forced to become a yes man in order to stay safe.

The Festival was a disaster and a huge blow to Tubbo's self esteem. The famous line here is "Wilbur said he wasn't going to hurt me" and Tubbo wholeheartedly believed that he could trust Wilbur, his former president and older brother figure. However, all he got was the fact that he was now expendable to Wilbur. His death was brushed aside and it seemed like the only person who cared was Tommy. Even Tubbo quickly became desensitized to the fact that his own pain did not matter in the chaos of the situation.

His life becomes even more chaotic when he is thrust into the role of President and his self sacrificing nature kicked in when no one else would take the presidency. And then in the first 10 minutes into his presidency, he is shot and his nation is blown up.

Tubbo takes this all in stride, repressing everything in order to rebuilt but his cabinet does not listen to him and constantly talks over him. When his vice president and best friend gets into trouble, Tubbo learns that he must be louder in order to be heard.

Tubbo felt betrayed by Tommy's actions during the exile negotiations. He felt as if Tommy didn't respect his power and the pressure of living up to President Wilbur, the threat of becoming like President Schlatt and the expectations of the entire nation all depended on him.

Tubbo once again choose sacrifice but this time, he was not only sacrificing himself but harmed Tommy in his decision as well. Immediately Tubbo regretted his decision and regressed into his yes man habits to cope with the situation.

From here on out, this may be a bit of a stretch but I love putting lore goggles on to every scene for analysis purposes and with a character like Tubbo who is rarely played, we can get some character depth from seemingly "silly" bits.

Tubbo after exiling Tommy shifted from being self sacrificial to self destructive. Both presidents before him had died and the odds were not looking good for Tubbo, already he had made an awful decision that he immediately regretted. Yet he couldn't reverse it and didn't feel worthy enough to see Tommy.

Tubbo never built himself a home in L'manburg. No stuff, no place to sleep, no roots. He told Ranboo that the presidency was all his when the elections came around. He didn't want to be president anymore. He's worryingly self depreciating.

I don't quite remember the timing of this stream but Tubbo and Ranboo once went nether exploring. Ranboo panicked as Tubbo was extremely reckless during this adventure, jumping into lava without fire res, speed bridging with few blocks and jumping off of tall places without checking his health. In addition, Tubbo went through a series of projects as a President, always doing something new and often involving things that could hurt him (ie Ravenger teleportation, tnt jumping). We can see Tubbo become subtly self destructive during this time.

(sidenote: tubbo has a habit to jump off of high things and expecting the person at the bottom to water bucket. Tommy usually is the person to "catch him" and I find it interesting that they both had self destructive tendencies while the other was gone. I'll come back to this point soon)

We never get Tubbo's opinion on the Butcher Army. He heavily opposed the idea at the beginning of the presidency but agreed to take part in it despite Techno killing him being a traumatizing event.

And then Logsteadshire. The guilt of exiling his best friend and being the cause to his death is too much for his mind to handle and he passes out. We never learn how Tubbo got back to L'manburg and the next time we see him, he is back to throwing himself into project after project.

The next time we really see Tubbo is when Tommy and Technoblade take Connor hostage. Ranboo says that Tubbo is just staring at a grass block and when Tommy appears, Tubbo is severely shaken. He is glad that his best friend is alive and upset that he's teamed with his murder but has to all shove it aside to fulfill his role as president. Tubbo takes Tommy yelling at him and Techno's accusations with no protest and once again, represses everything to move on.

Already the Green Festival reminded Tubbo of familiar events but at this time he was in control or so he thought. He had already failed an execution so he was determined to make this word so L'manburg could be safer. He had failed Tommy so he might as well try to make the server a better place by killing Dream. Yet Tubbo had doubts about it.

Dream was manipulating Tubbo during his entire presidency. Tubbo truly believed that Dream was his friend and thought that Dream supported him as a president. His self esteem was so low that he searched for validation anywhere (ie "rate my kidnapping", "phil tell me I'm doing good pls") and Dream willingly gave him companionship.

But then Dream started screaming at him and calling him and awful president, Tubbo agreed with Dream. Tubbo saw himself as weak and stupid and no one came to his defense so it had to be true.

His fight with Tommy was very impactful and led Tubbo to believe that the discs mattered more than him but we'll get back to that soon. Most of the things said during this fight were forgiven by both parties so I hope it doesn't affect him much.

Sidenote: when Quackity suggests to execute Ranboo, Tubbo chooses forgiveness for Ranboo having been in that position before and snaps at Quackity. Here we get a glimpse of Tubbo's inner emotions and we can see clearly that the events of the festival have hurt him.

Doomsday is further proof to Tubbo that he is the worst President that L'manburg had. He stares at the destruction in mute disbelief and even throws himself into tnt and in front of a firework for Tommy. By the end of the experience, Tubbo is so drained that he has given up on government, the fight beaten out of him and he lets L'manburg go, thinking it was his fault it fell.

Tubbo has suffered the most from government yet strives to make a community. Snowchester was supposed to be his healing. However, Tubbo's paranoia from all the violence and the lessons that he has learned from the others, caused him to built a way to defend himself. He doesn't even make a bed for himself in his new house.

Then his life gets shaken up by the Disc War Finale. He refuses to talk about his feelings on the odds, accepts defeat instantly as they were "doomed from the beginning" and doesn't seem to mind the fact that he might die.

In fact, he says "It was about time anyway"

Tubbo thinks he is living on borrowed time. All of the presidents before him are dead and he is in a seemingly impossible situation. Death seems to be the only option and he has accepted it before hand so he is fine with it. Even Tommy seems shaken by this as Tubbo was so positive about the situation before. But Tubbo had been hiding that all for Tommy's sake as he is very self sacrificial.

When everything seems to return to "normal" Tubbo tests his nukes and later tells Ranboo that be had expected everything to go horribly wrong. He is trying to heal and does a decent job at it, starting a family and building Snowchester.

But then he gets the memo that Tommy has been trapped in prison with Dream. He checks out the prison, being a inconvenience to the guards and is hardly fazed when Sam threatens to kill him. He leaves feeling disappointed that he cannot help but that is what it is and Tubbo thinks that Tommy is the strongest person he knows.

So that's why Tommy can't be dead. Tubbo denies Sam's words and when they finally register, begins an investigation to find out who's to blame. He becomes self destructive again, wearing Dream's armor and building a familiar panic room to research the crime.

He is once again extremely reckless when investigating. With Ranboo's help, they go and investigate the egg and Tubbo shows his lack of care for his own safety. He tries to break open the egg, challenges Bad and Ant to a pvp and suggests to continue investigating. But at this point, Ranboo has noticed this recklessness and gently reminds Tubbo of Michael.

From this point, Tubbo seems to be healing again. And then to make things better, Tommy is back and they are going to kill Dream but that's okay because it hasn't really settled yet. Tubbo is once again shaken by Tommy's return and follows him in silence to make sure he is really there. He is so worried about Tommy, he reaches out to MIA Ghostbur to help him.

Tubbo is still self destructive but less so after this. He still jumps off high places but does so more out of trust. He finally gets a bed in Snowchester and things seem to be looking up.

But then Tommy's words about Dream settle in. Dying is no longer permanent and Tubbo has things he wants to protect. To do this he recommissions the nukes but is panicked when one is stolen.

We have no idea where it is going to go from here, but I can already see some problems with Tubbo's increasing paranoia.

In addition, the details about the nukes and their suicide button and Tubbo's willingness to sacrifice himself for the greater good does not bode well.

Overall, Tubbo is a complex character and I greatly enjoy how he is played.

Thank you for reading and let me know if you have any comments!

[yoichichi]

since everyone is shipping their mutuals, where’s yours 😝

AHH LMAOO 😭 I knew this was coming smh (I’m just playin hehe) IF I FORGOT YOU IM SORRY JUST SEND ME AN ASK - I’m genuinely so bad at remembering moots PLS do not take it personal I promise it’s not like that I swear on everything 😭😭

@alert-arlert - SASHA - Sasha. Ur so soft and sweet and I just know she takes one look at you and becomes OBSESSED with you, like lovesick puppy style. She’s constantly looking at you every time she cracks a joke and is always bringing you little things to make sure you’re taking care of yourself and not draining yourself too much :((( I’m not even kidding or being coy when I say Yuuta here LOL. I can just picture you two sitting and chatting it up and talking off of each other until you’re both interrupting the other but neither of you care or notice cause you’re just so happy <333

@arminiloveyou - yk I’m gonna say Armin - of COURSE I’m gonna say armin - however I think Jean would be so good to you 🥺 not only will he be the most patient parter ever, like so nurturing and taking things as slow as you need, but he is constantly gonna be doting on you and spoiling on you. I’m talking paying for your nails, your eyelashes, even filling up your tank - like the whole nine. At this point he wonders why you’re even still working 🤨 his Home Screen is you and demands bi-weekly photos of you to keep it “fresh” 🙄😭 he also is so good at giving you your personal space and being clingy without overstepping any boundaries

@touyaz - Ace. Ace ace ace. I sat here thinking, contemplating, pondering on who the hell would be your perfect match(es). After much consideration here are my thoughts: Suna. First off, the pair of you together is my worst nightmare. But I really think you’ve met your match. He gets on your nerves JUST as much as you do until you both hit a stale mate and decide to take it out on someone else atsumu LMAOO. But also the vibes between you two feel so right and just <333 also he lives for you to call him pretty and whenever you do he’s mentally twirling his hair around his finger like “really 😋🥰” also Megumi - but purely because I know you’d make his hair fall out and he’d be mad cause he’d enjoy it <33

@plutowrites - oh Pluto… at this point who DONT I ship you with LMAO - the Pluto x anyone agenda is STRONG. Regardless, I’ll never forget the OG - Tsukishima himself. You guys are always a pair in my mind, and I’m obsessed with the whole sun n moon trope (which you two fit perfectly we’ve been through this). Your perfect grumpy boy <333 okay we don’t talk about this enough but you n Armin? Yeah you two are just golden. He’s down bad for you from day one and is your perfectly slightly unhinged boyfriend who takes care of you and keeps you in check <333 also I’m just biased for height differences, imma sucker for em :3

@missmeinyourbones - obviously I’m legally obligated to say Jean here 🙄 but no fr besides jean I want to see u with Megumi so bad just bc I know you’d be pissing him off and bc I have this feeling he’d be obsessed with you and it’d drive him up the wall! He’s constantly like how’s she doing ?? Did she eat today ? Sleep enough? And then he gets mad when his heart does a little flutter when you text him cause he’s like no… ain’t no way I like her this bad. Anyways annoy him for me please 😁

@alonezz - me Annie 🥺🥺🥺 ur so sweet n smart and she’s ur perfect little grumpy gal and she likes how much ik you would dote on her <333 maybe I’m projecting but that little trope would be so cute <333 she also loves when you talk about the things that interest you most and sometimes you can catch her going a little pink when she realizes she’s only been half listening to what you’re saying cause she’s been so busy staring at your face and thinking about how bad she wants to kiss you 🥺

[starxscream]

For the writing ask: 1, 3, 12, 22 and 35.

What font do you write in? Do you actually care or is that just the default setting?

Arial... I don't change the font bc messing with special fonts can make it hard for me to read. I do have lighter text on a dark bg to make it easier on the eyes tho! I'm not super picky with font

3. What is your writing ritual and why is it cursed?

Strokes chin well so before I write I slap on either ASMR or fitting songs to the characters/story im writing about. Then I sort of close my eyes or pace around and . meditate? dissociate? man idk I let my mind visualize where I want the story to go and then I start writing it- It just helps me get motivated KGNHGKH I ALWAYS have some sort of BG noise tho even if it's jus the TV playing. I'm not rly sure how it's cursed but knowing that I primarily write on my phone might be-

12. If a genie offered you three writing wishes, what would they be? Btw if you wish for more wishes the genie turns all your current WIPs into Lorem Ipsum, I don’t make the rules

god ok LOL first one PLS i wish to have more motivation to work on/finish bigger projects like multi-chapter swatchkaard or my og story with Beelze (cough check it out at @mirakelousworld cough). Second one is the strength to write better dialogue bc that shit gets me HARD sometimes, I feel like it ends up being very samey between a lot of characters !? and LASTLY the ability to describe settings and actions better, im good with emotion that's my forte but i forget abt settings a lot and im pretty bad at factoring in setting and places into my writing as it's very character focused instead

22. How organized are you with your writing? Describe to me your organization method, if it exists. What tools do you use? Notebooks? Binders? Apps? The Cloud?

Discord and Discord pins (SHAKING CRYING) I'm not organized at ALL. However for bigger projects I make outlines on google docs before I begin writing it out! My outlines are pretty messy and silly but they get the point across. Otherwise I don't have much organization besides random notes i write here and there for ideas I don't want to forget

35. What’s your favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?

All of them <3

[wobblyjellyfish]

Top Ten Songs from this year you'd want to see win and top 10 songs from past years you'd always recommend. Let's go~!

fandom i hug u thank u for this ask

Top 10 I’d like to see win (note: not all of this are in my personal top 10, also not in any particular order)

Malta: Je Me Casse by Destiny - this is everything i wanted Toy to be, Destiny has a fantastic voice and the swing vibes are so fun and energetic

San Marino: Adrenalina by Senhit feat. Flo Rida - ah yes, eurovision king™️ Flo Rida, but all jokes aside this song is brilliant and a bop

Italy: ZITTI E BUONI by Måneskin - LET THEM SAY CAZZO YOU COWARDS ALSO IF ITALY DOESNT AT LEAST MAKE TOP 5 IM RIOTING

Bulgaria: growing up is getting old by Victoria - this song makes me cry

Iceland: 10 Years by Daði Freyr og Gagnamagnið - giant himbo recruits family and friends to sing about how much he loves his wife

Russia: RUSSIAN WOMAN by Manizha - this song so different from everything else this year, and just so much fun

France: Voilà by Barbara Pravi - big Stromae vibes and very soft and pretty

Ukraine: SHUM by Go_A - traditional lyrics meets modern music in the most beautiful way

The Netherlands: Birth of a New Age by Jeangu Macrooy - this song is a celebration above all else and a new language in the competition! and it’s beautiful!

Norway: Fallen Angel by TIX - this is the most stereotypical eurovision nonsense this year and i think it would be both hilarious and brilliant if he won and id celebrate if he did

(all images from the official eurovision site)

Top 10 songs id always recommend (again in no particular order)

Norway 2009: Fairytale by Alexander Rybak - i am a Rybak stan first and a person second dont @ me

Ukraine 2007: Dancing Lasha Tumbai by Verka Serduchka - i feel like this is obligatory, what an icon

Italy 2016: Occidentali’s Karma by Francesco Gabbani - genuinely brilliant satire with a funky beat, very catchy and a good dance

Iceland 2019: Hatrið Mun Sigra by Hatari - KINGS. ICONS. WE STAN.

Moldova 2010: Run Away by SunStroke Project feat. Olia Tira - Epic Sax Guy

Portugal 2018: O Jardim by Cláudia Pascoal feat. Isaura - this one has a lot of meaning for me personally so i will always recommend this, they deserved so much better

Belarus 2017: Story of My Life by NAVIBAND - listening to this is like getting a shot of serotonin straight to my brain it’s so cute and wholesome

Portugal 2017: Amar Pelos Dois by Salvador Sobral - will i ever not cry listening to this? probably not

Norway 2019: Spirit in the Sky by KEiiNO - i am also a KEiiNO stan first and a person second, pls check out the rest of their discography

Italy 2019: Soldi by Mahmood - phenomenal song with so much heart

[fredheads]

❤️ 🧡 💛 BRIANA’S FICS MASTERLIST 💙 💜 💚

so briana did this for me on my birthday and it was the highlight of the day and i have been looking forward to returning the favour ever since because i love each and every one of these stories with a burning passion... if you want to be amazed im p sure she only started writing fic last year (2 years ago? time is a blur) so please read one or two to see how impressive these are and then i think you absolutely contractually have to leave a comment if you are reading this

PARENTDALE - COMPLETE ❤️

but for you this place is shame - (fredsythe) the og fp pretending to be from the northside so fred will love him fic.... 

seventeen and coming clean for the first time - (fredsythe) fp explosively comes out to his dad in the trailer park during a whole Scene TM and the aftermath of that... HOOOOOO BOY do i think about this one all the time truly one of her most iconic works

it was me and you and the whole town under water - (fredsythe) old dads fred and fp taking a road trip to pick archie up from toledo when that was happening I CRY ABOUT THIS FIC EVERY DAY OH GODDDDDDDD IM TEARING UP RIGHT NOW! 

i won't treat you like you're typical - (gladys/penelope) THE most important lesbian antics no one is talking about 

Happy Birthday, FP Jones - (fredsythe) two old gays slow dancing on fps 50th birthday thinking about all the second chances they never took DO NOT read without tissues

the more things change (the more things stay the same) - (fredsythe, penelope) penelope’s poor heart has to contend with walking in on fred and fp not once but TWICE in a lifetime 

with somebody who loves me - (baby fredsythe) on GOD IM CRYING AGAIN..... LIL FREDSYTHE’S FIRST OUTING AT A GAY CLUB 100% CUTENESS AND FLUFF

only love makes you that crazy - (fredsythe) she wrote this one for me for my birthday... marty mantle gets taken to beat down town after being a homophobe! part of the “marty gets his ass handed to him” canon that briana and i are the keepers of 

i thought of you and where you'd gone, and the world spins madly on - (fredsythe, mary & fp, major character death) mary checks in with fp on the fourth of july after fred’s death pls... bring tissues

(as long as you love me so) let it snow, let it snow, let it snow - (fredsythe, smut) EXTREMELY FESTIVE HOLIDAY SMUT! ft. the sheriff’s office holding cells...

my funny valentine - (fredsythe) fp gets his ear pierced so he can ask fred to be his valentine fp you fucking goob........

it's a feeling that you cannot miss (and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it) (fredsythe, fp + mary) mary and fp get high as hell and come out to each other after freds death THIS IS THE BEST FIC EVER YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED

i'll help you carry on - fp and archie bonding time OH GODDDDD IM GOING TO START CRYING!

the time to hesitate is through - (fredsythe au) - the most romantic stranger airport bathroom sex you will EVER read i PROMISE!!!! 

STRANGER THINGS - COMPLETE 💚

not my type - robin realizing billy hargrove plays for the opposite team aka is a big ol mullet wearing mo

STRANGER THINGS - ONGOING MULTI CHAPTER 🧡

why must i be a teenager in love (harringrove) - billy/steve childhood friends to lovers au WHOOOO boy this one has ALL the good suburban pining if you want to cry you should read this bad boy

PARENTDALE - ONGOING MULTI CHAPTER 💜

'Til I Hear It From You - (fredsythe + ensemble) THE EMPIRE RECORDS AU THAT SHOULD BE ALL I HAVE TO SAY! 

if i only could, i'd make a deal with god (and get him to swap our places) - (fredsythe) god this is my favourite shit...... fred and fp [redacted] fp senior and deal with the fallout

these lines were here long before we came around - (teen fredsythe) rich fp halloween au featuring fp and penelope being friends and fred and alice being friends! 

pictures of you - (teen riverparents) based on a one tree hill episode... the class is paired up for a project with some unusual pairings

parentdale tumblr drabbles - (mostly fredsythe) if you don’t click on this cuz its not specific ill punch u in the face if u wanna see some of the most exquisite writing u have ever seen read this fic i promise u

[fueledbysprite]

abandoned wips masterlist

so not too long ago i did an insta poll asking if i should expose all my abandoned fic drafts cause i mean it’s not like theyre ever gonna see the light of day otherwise. i was going to do it when i hit 3k kudos on ao3 and i did so i suppose it has come time for me to expose my mistakes

for obvious reasons, don’t repost these (idk why anyone would lol) but if you really like one of these and want to see it continued, just hit up my ask box and i may or may not consider~

Miscellaneous Fandoms:

Ninjago: Zephyr - a Morro backstory fic bc the hageman bros refuse to feed me more content of my son. barely started it but yknow its there

Miraculous Ladybug/BoBoiBoy: this failed attempt at a fanginette fic bc @secretagentspydetectiveninja got me invested even tho writers block is a binch hahshs

BoBoiBoy:

kokotiam gang angst that reminded me i cannot for the life of me write emotional angst (or any angst for that matter oop)

ramenzo (and kaifang) angst that i churned out on a saturday afternoon on a writing spike instead of doing homework bc I Do Not Control the Writing Juice

au where bbb is a forest guardian(?) and fang just wants away from Society (same fang same) i will probably be yearning for woodland aus till the day i die bc who *doesnt* wanna ditch everything and go live in the middle of the woods amirite?

ramenzo n boifang water fight bc you cant convince me these idiots dont get up to ridiculous shenanigans on their downtime

abandoned draft for the sequel to the og ramenzo fic (dont bother reading it literally nothing happens i swear)

i literally don’t remember where i was going with this i think it was supposed to be fang introspection but idk??

uhh kaifang with ramenzo vibes i think this was gonna be? i genuinely don’t remember anymore oop-

RAMENZO IN QUARANTINE yes this one was regular au (i mean duh) and it’s a shame i never ended up finishing it-

i am actually goboifang t r a s h...until i realized im going to have to make all the food by myself and i never learned to make food :’)) (fr if anyone provides me with any kind of fanon gbf content i will love you forever pls)

this...exists even tho i honestly prefer it didnt but ramenzo is ramenzo n ramen has freckles i will fite u on this (dont read it pls)

if anyone wants ramenzo crumbs (and i mean that quite practically) then feel free to consume the Specks

dont read this pls im begging just dont lets yeet it into the void it doesnt exist~ I Do Not See It

update: i discovered this uhh kaifang post-bora ra incident thing in my other drive

Miraculous Ladybug:

okay forewarning there are wayyyy too many of these so im skipping the ones that are sequels/dependent on other fics for context just to spare myself from having to sort through this mountain

i was planning to participate in chlonath week 2k19 (unfortunately for chlonath nation I Do Not Control the Hyperfixation oop) if you want context then ask

marcnath crumbs thats it thats the doc

oh look allya is self projecting again (writing is still pain) (marcnath)

for the one who requested chloenette with the dialogue prompt i am so sorry

idk why this feels like something ive posted before but then again all lovesquare is the same to me (dead) so who knows im not gonna bother checking hshsh (marichat)

chlonath go to comic con or sth idk chloe is tsundere as always (or would have been anyway if i ever ended up Finishing this)

i *think* this was based on a @terrible-miraculous-ladybug-aus post but heck if i remember now- (lukanette??)

i have absolutely no recollection as to where i was going with this but if anyone finds the concept interesting then by all means go ahead n snatch it- (manon finds the miraculous i guess?)

this is a great. opening. to a chloe fic. that doesnt exist. oof :,)

caline bustier’s home for orphans amirite (i mean she basically already adopted the whole class so)

im genuinely not a fan of the jealous!lover trope but someone in the marcnath server wanted some at one point so i. attempted. and failed but you know thats to be expected at this point :’3

oh look allya is projecting her writing struggles onto marc again is anyone surprised?

theres probably a museum brotp story in here but it doesnt exist and at this point it never will rip

oh good lord not this again i genuinely managed to forget about it for a while until now-

i just read the first line and im already reeling what the heck is this nathanette(??)

WHY IS THERE MARICHAT IN MY WIP FOLDER WHAT

allya stop projecting onto emo weebs challenge failed

i really wanna know where the context for chlonath skiing trip came from i literally have 0 recollection of this at all??

YO I ACTUALLY REMEMBER THE CONTEXT FOR THIS ONE anyway nath n aroace!alix arranged marriage au anyone?? well too bad cause i abandoned it oop-

ahahahahahahaha wdym i wrote 7k of chlonath and then ditched it i would never do that lmao-

i think this was a hunger games au uh

something something marcnath

marcnath angst i guess? *allya pls stop trying to write angst we’ve already established that is not a thing you can do*

something something chlonath

im never gonna forgive @powerdragonmoon for the fact that i thought “beecock” while glancing over this to figure out wth was going on. cholaon works here too tho so that is what i shall call it //sideways glare at moon

take your otp. now put them on a trampoline. but heaven forbid you ever finish the fic- (chlonath if it wasnt obvious)

nathanette doll au from forever ago with @lotus-duckies that was a real concept its a shame i have 0 commitment

i wanna call this lukanathanette but i honestly don’t remember where i was going with it so idk

hi uhm what is this and why is it so depressing allya fr quit self projecting on emo tomatoes oml

chlonath established relationship i guess??

museum brotp go skating?? is that what this is?

how much chlonath do i hAVE also chloe u tsundere

nathaniel is Yearning n tbh i dont blame him cause same (ft. marc)

i could swear this was gonna be luklonath (chlolukanath??) but i wouldnt be able to remember-

if anyone can figure out what’s going on with marc pls tell me bc i dont-

cholaon but theres no context

Oh god im finally done good lord that’s all of em i hope i never have to look at a mlb doc again in my life anyway pls be grateful n enjoy the crumbs n stuff thanks i sacrificed my sanity for this-

[springblush]

♡ song tag ♡

rules~ list 10 songs you’re currently obsessed w/ & tag 10 people ♡   hey i was tagged like 5 million years ago when i was less active by my wonderful @wonboowoo y’know that i love you lots?? well i’ll say it again, 

♡ i ♡ l o v e ♡ y o u ♡ ok but im actually kinda hyped to do this cuz im really into music in general so.....watch out for full on music reviews lmao

in no particular order

1. fromis_9 - dkdk ♡

ok just.....everyone let’s take a moment to appreciate girl groups who do cute concepts....like listen to the absolute perfectness in this song, its cutesy but not to overboard and it makes me hella nostalgic bc it reminds me of the music i used to listened to and it makes me super happy!! cute concepts in kpop deserve all the love and attention, especially in girl groups (they work really really hard) 

2. loona haseul - let me in ♡

g u y s loona is so underrated its sad :( i personally did not like loona at first (aT FIRST) buuuuuut the talent! in every single member! god made girls as talented and beautiful as loona to make sure that they could bless this earth...i have this one preference to the song bc it sounds so royal and with the orchestra and the last chorus... p u r e  t a l e n t (also give a listen to some of my other fav solos: kiss later - yeojin, vivid - heejin, singing in the rain - jinsoul, and around you - hyunjin)

3. wanna one - light ♡

guys,,,,wanna one is just amazing go listen to all of their songs they’re kings,,,i chose this song bc i’m pretty sure this is my fav wanna one title track of all time, and it’s so well made and catchy and it sounds so so os os soo so os s o good and y’know wanna one just always has my heart~~ other recs: i.p.u. (i promise you), energetic, boomerang, wanna be (my baby) all of these songs in general are happy upbeat songs however i’ve cried to all of them,,,stanning wanna one makes me sad T^T

4. ahn hyeonseop & lee euiwoong - it’ll be good ♡

ok this is a purely uwu song like its so good?? they are such talented baby bois and they deserve all of the love in the world pls,,, this gives me major nostalgia, mostly bc at the time, i did some major projects and worked while listening to this,,, again a lot of pd 101 trainees have debuted and deserve attention and support sooo here are some other songs i thought were good by the pd 101 boys! my flower - jbj, rainz - juliette, nu’est w - deja vu, just u -jeong sewoon, the.the.the. - shihyun and longguo, jelly - hotshot

5. yoo seonho - your song ♡

alright yes i listen to a LOT of cutesy songs but srsly,, this one hit home in my heart like ugh seonho is super cute and talented and he’s improving so so much!! i love him so much and i cant wait until he comesback (maybe even with guanlin)!! anyways stan yoo seonho,, he has lots of potential and is very cute!!

6.  mxm - diamond girl ♡

wah,, the vibe of this song is so good?? its very retro, very funky but also, very mxm,, its also super aesthetically pleasing and nice to listen to,, they’re already rookie monsters and are super popular and dONGHYUN!! he deserves all of the love and our very cute alpaca!! youngmin is also a very talented rapper pls go support our bnm kings~ (also bazzi and anne marie reacted to this song and said it was good,,,, i love royalty stanning royalty)

7. a.c.e. - take me higher  ♡ 

wow guys pls go take a look at this song, its like the bop of the summer, especiALLY THE BRIDGE OH THE BRIDGE OF THE SONG IS SO GOOD,,, the breakdown is so well done i was shaking when i heard the song,, also the concept is gold, a very bright and gorgeous mv,, with boys,,, in crop tops :^),, anyways check it out!! they deserve more recognition!

8. the boyz - keeper  ♡

uhhhh bop of the summer?? cutest song in the world?? yes??? pls pls pls go and do me a favor: stan the boyz. this is like the cutest song ever g u y s im not even kidding when i say im whipped for them,,, and like, the choreo?? pls give me some live stages bc i am in love with the freaking choreo its so cute and really cool,,, and also i was like biaswrecked collectively by the boyz in the span of 3 minutes soooo yeah!! i love them so much :/

9.  gugudan’s semina - semina  ♡

the og pd 101 s1 team!! yes! its the girls that stole all of our hearts with that first audition on pd 101 and they got all As! now they debuted with a very fun, sassy, and bright song that highlights vocals and rap! the mv is super cool and pretty, as expected of gugudan,, i love mina and sejeong and nayoung, this was jellyfish’s best decision yet,, anyways im literally obssessed with this song, pls give them your support!!

10. yang da il x wendy - one summer  ♡

maybe this is the song of the summer,,, hmmmm,,, this is a very chill, nice, relaxing song that basically sums up a very nice and calm summer day,, the vibes are really nice and i gotta talk about my bOI WOOJIN ACTOR WOOJIN YALL IT WAS SO FREAKING CUTE ASDFJOFSIOI the vocals are also amazing so overall a great song!!

ughhh this took so long im so sorry bUT! im tagging all, i said aLL OF MY MUTUALS every single one of you aS WELL AS THE PEOPLE I TALK TO,,, if you’ve already done it,, do iT AGAIN COWARDS

@taeyoming @playfuldisaster @m0onbean @mlmchan @tojaehyun @majinstic @runjen @softlyjungwoo @wonboowoo @jeno-screaming @godrics @myday6ix @renjunchokingnct @onegoldenbranch @ongnable @ongsung @najaeminclub @kimdoyoungclub @rcnjun @godtierjeno @whiplashlive @chittafont

oOF THAT WAS A LOT OF PEOPLE ok everyone i love you so so much have an amazing day today and an even better one tomorrow! get some sleep, eat well, hydrate dont diedrate, rest up, and take care of yourselves for me!! love youuu~