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Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.
#katniss everdeen#the hunger games trilogy#the hunger games#primrose everdeen#hunger games#batcavescolony reads the hunger games#suzanne collins#'now it seems i have become someone precious' NOW? GIRL BFFR you're their hunter girl#and this isn't negative just bffr girl#your WHOLE DISTRICT did the three finger salute that you yourself says means admiration thanks and goodbye to someone you love and on top is#old a rarely used. your WHOLE DISTRICT decided in that moment that they needed to bring back this sign of respect for YOU#...................................................................#idk why some people are thinking i mean this as negative i don't she is unreliable but its not intentional. like when Peeta heart stoped in#CF she doesn't know what Finnick is doing at first cus she doesn't know off the top of her head what cpr is. she also thinks Peeta after the#reaping is acting for the cameras. he isnt we dind out later his mom basically told him Katniss was gonna win and he would die. obviously#shes not doing it on purpose shes just for lack of better words uneducated? as in she doesn't know everything shes not omnipotent#so when Plutarch (? second games guy) shows her his mokingjay hiden watch shes like *wtf that's weird?* then the people traveling to#district 13 show her the mockingjay cookie and explains it and she then goes on the difference between his watch and their cookie#and why does eveyone act as if district 12 is as bad as the capital? they CANT help Katniss and Prim in the way you want. they cant give#them food. none of them have any! and im not putting iton Katniss but they hid they needed food so they could stay together. it sounds like#some of you are in this our world mentally of what people do after a loved one dies (brings food constantly checks on them etc) district 12#cant do that. they dont have food and they're all suffering. you cant give someone food when you have none to give. then theirs the fact#that peeta DID help. Peeta buring the bread and tossing some to her then taking a beating from his mom is a HUGE thing in the books.#he used his resources to help her like you all said someone should.#district 12 DID (rip) care about Katniss before the hunger games. why do you think she was allowed to hunt? or how her trades were good#these are the little ways 12 can shows Katniss they love her. but again Katniss doesn't see this and YES its because she had ptsd before the#hunger games as well. i swear some of you make it seem like d12 was all living a life of luxury and glaring down at Katniss.#other things that show Katniss is in hight standing with at least her people of d12 is her dad was known enough through d12 for peeta dad to#comment on his singing along with his commenting on her mom. also her mom is a healer in the community. yeah her parents arnt the top but#of d12 but they are/were definitely high staning in the Seam.
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#ra speaks#it’s a silly joke/pun dw#we stay silly :3#edit:#woahg. that’s a lot of notes. hi everybody o/#10k. stop clenching your jaw and drink some water.#15k. eat some fresh fruit this week! I’m having kiwis tonight :]#20k. quit sitting like a shrimp it’s bad for your neck! sit up straight and do a little stretch every now and then#25k. I’m up at 2 AM but I’ll get to see the sunrise today :] if you can’t see that I hope you admire the sunset later today#30k. do something fun you haven’t done in a while. I haven’t drawn in months - I think I’ll paint a cat tomorrow :3#40k. I just slept 9 hours straight for the first time in weeks :] remember to ask for help when you need it! no glory in senseless suffering
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I don't want to regret the way I lived
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#choso kamo#junpei yoshino#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#this idea started as a 2 part series . then my braincells decided to spark and supplied 7 PAGES#'did you sleep hina' no#ws looking up mentally stable things like 'who has died in jjk' smh i love my hyperfixation media im sooooo glad so many ppl r DEAD#i *could* have included more ppl but i think this is a good crew. this is a yuuji emotional support crew#also Was gna include his grandpa final panel but i Did Not Want To#he is implied through th dialogue#side note i donot like how i cn see this scenario playing out . ..yuuji this isnt ur stop u r monopoly voice Just Visiting ok >:(#anyway I broke my own heart with this and ik i hyped it up a lot but i hope that its not just me...#hope i did not hype it up fr nothing and no one else finds it devastating :((((( that would b humbling in the worst way#pls ...join the happy party train.......i hate it here i suffered pls :<<<<#also !!!! colours in this !! i cooked i fear . adding th first bit of warm hitting yuuji's face after th first 2 panels....#ive never had that kind of experience while drawing before it was wild . painful ! but wild.#the whole transition from p 2->3 might b the most emotionally moving piece ive ever made to me#not 2 sing my own praises tho i will shut up ! i wil. nap
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ARCANE: TIDDIES OF PROGRESS: Caitlyn's 🧁🧁 in Season 2 (2024)
#arcane#arcaneedit#caitlyn kiramman#kirammountains#caitvi#arcane league of legends#league of legends arcane#league of legends#caitlyn arcane#arcane caitlyn#type: gif#media: arcane#s2 ep1#s2 ep4#s2 ep6#s2 ep8#s2 ep9#vi#vi arcane#arcane vi#maddie#congrats kirammountains enjoyers i keep my promise and i did it asap#the quality kinda suffered a bit bc of the giga crops but i did the job skksskskks#vi gets a cameo too lol congrats to vi and maddie for seeing the kirammountains first hand cough cough
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baby au in beach episode :^)
#royai#riza hawkeye#roy mustang#fullmetal alchemist#fma#nael hawkeye#haitham mustang#03!baby au#sorry all i draw lately is royai happy family(as if its my fault. its a good au)#to make up for it i'll still draw the same au but they're suffering instead next#i shouldve drawn an extra panel between the first and second one of nael locking in^tm before being shot augh T__T
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What if you were Pluto’s most devout nun and you found out the only two people you’ve ever had romantic feelings for were God’s dead girlfriend and God’s dead daughter. Like what are you even supposed to do with that information.
#these are the questions i hope alecto answers#harrowhark nonagesimus has suffered more than jesus#though maybe not more than her girlfriend - lesbian jesus#harrowhark nonagesimus#harrow the ninth#harrow the ninth spoilers#htn spoilers#htn#tlt#alecto the first#alecto the ninth#alecto tlt#john gaius#jod#gideon the ninth#gideon nav#griddlehark#tlt spoilers#ntn spoilers#the locked tomb
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the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.
sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.
you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.
it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.
but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.
they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.
they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.
barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.
and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.
but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.
they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!
this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.
#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone#yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post.#writeblr#ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person#and on this blog we support workers.#at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going.#when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens#have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists#and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like.#it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases -#at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory.#it was what i had seen.#and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference#we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol'#so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender#and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID.#he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different#i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.
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limitations (part 1)
early access + nsfw on patreon
#i feel like it'd be easy to think of laswell as being unreasonable in this moment (surely she could've let price at least see simon right?)#but she's just lost a squadron of men#one of her closest friends has suffered a life-changing injury after almost dying and one of her soldiers is now a volatile smoke monster.#also first time drawing laswell can i get a heyo#captain john price#kate laswell#monster 141 au#giragi art
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I come bearing art of my favorite guys
I've never posted here before so if the formatting or quality is scuffed oh well
#first ever post woagh#totk#tloz#tears of the kingdom#the legend of zelda#totk spoilers#<- idk if i need to tag spoilers but i will just in case#i think the image quality suffered :[
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Harowhark study because i got the flu (Nonegesimitis).
#the locked tomb#harrowhark nonagesimus#the way i really couldn't make myself like harrow during the first book#harrowhark the ninth#how the mighty have fallen#i also hope gideon and ianthe make alecto friendship bracelets and unionise#i hope harrow is left alone with the dog (for a while)#harrow the ninth#gideon the ninth#tlt#i love seeing her grimmey#rat girl my beloved#rhyme art#pine art#love to see her suffer#i have shrimp feelings for her#my art
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Astarion is living his best life, finally free!
The paladin broke his oath.
This ain't about him.
#Baldur's Gate 3#BG3#Astarion#Gale#Halsin#Oathbreaker#Oathbreaker Knight#BG3 Tav#Cephas the Tav#tbh i didn't know much about paladins and just chose at random bc i wanted the multiclass achievement#and his paladin oath lasted literally one fight LMAO#first cephas post!! and he's suffering hah#ALSO the oathbreaker knight? SMASH
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pvp civ nation...... this aint much but pls take my contribution for this series bc im going insane i love hate this man so much get him out of my head
#senart#pvp civilization#pvp civ#I'LL MAKE A PROPER ONE I SWEARR I JUST NEED TO GET THIS OUT OF MYSYSTEM FIRST#if it turns out he gets a bad ending in ep 6 i dont think i'll be ok like#he deserves a good ending . or a villain arc at least. he deserves to go batshit crazy after how everyone treated him#ALSOO the chekovs gun video journal device thing?? The excessive 4th wall breaking?#Is it just me or does jt feel like evbo is gonna lose his memory/already lost his memory and was sent to the wood sword lvl with tabi#or like . Idk?? It feels kind of truman show ish. Well maybe not that but its just the vibe im getting w the way that everyone has their-#-own secrets. How the diamond swords seems to know who evbo n tabi is. How princezam knows about the diamond swords#and then theres also parrot whos just?? Weird overall?? Idk whats going on w him but i need to know his backstory wdym u think evbo will-#-hate you if he knows what you did??#ANYWAY BACK TO THE VIDEO JOURNAL AND POTENTIAL MEMORY LOSS.#I dont want jt to go that way (mostly bc i dont want to see evbo suffer more than he already did) but it rlly does seem like its heading to#that direction w the way that it also has become a way to narrate what he went through (ie when the ep shows his attempts to beat the-#gold sword lvl but hes narrating it from the future. from his video journal. where he already beat the lvl)#im going insane#Wait also what i meant by the truman show vibe in relation to the excessive 4th wall breaks it makes it sound like pvp civ is just a -#simulation#wait i just remembered its the matrix not that mb umm#anyways.#empty chattering
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"This place is called the Burial Mounds. The hatred is intense, isn't it? And the resentment too? When a living person enters this place, there's no coming back-- for the body or the soul. They can forget about ever escaping. Wei Wuxian, you, too, can forget about ever escaping."
(full resolution here)
#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#the grandmaster of demonic cultivation#mdzs fanart#wei wuxian#yiling patriarch#burial mounds#mxtx#fanart#art#i called this file “a wake” while working on it lol#do u ever think about how MXTX has declined to describe Wei Wuxian's time surviving the burial mounds the first time#because she says it would be too horrific to depict#at least after all of the suffering of his first life he eventually gets a happily ever after with his lan zhan#I wanted to portray what isn't really shown in the adaptations but could be a picture of what wwx's experience would've been like#hopefully this accomplishes that feeling#my drawings
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save him
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#and this is why you dont spontaneously try to add a background to a random sketch without planning beforehand#always draw the background first. do not suffer as i did#platonic btw ^_^ dont tag as their shipname whatever it is thank u#wtf... art#one piece fanart#zoro#roronoa zoro#cat burglar nami#nami
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when yuor beautiful traitorous wife is on a business trip adn leaves you all aloen at the bar :(((
#being diluc is suffering#this was one of my first posts to really pop off on twt iirc the masses just cant resist a pathetic wet cat of a husband#genshin impact#scaramouche#genshin wanderer#lumine#diluc#scaralumi#wanlumi#fanart#digital#my art
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posting all of these on the same day as i'm posting them on insta. as an early christmas treat. just for you :) imagine a little bow on all of this stuilly art, okay?
#stuilly#scream 1996#billy loomis#stu macher#billy x stu#stu x billy#scream#I don't even like nor celebrate christmas fjhdsjkfhsdhf I do like giving gifts tho hehehe#also the is another piece of art i gotta post seperately bc it needs a content warning whoops#OH AND please zoom in on the first one if tumblr allows it (if not... i am uploading it to the drive)#you can see what stu has written down as 'notes' :)#oh and yeah there is one single doodle from the musical in here whoops#my long disstance one sided relationship with scream'd (i want her. I need her. She does not know I exists type beat yknow?)#friends have started to joke that we fly out to vegas and everyone goes gambling while I watch the musical. my suffering is their amusment
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