#but STILL.

[slow-drowned-angels]

“Well, you are so worried about having something fundamentally wrong with you, which must feel really hard.”

I was told something to this effect by a therapist after expressing 1) that I’m so anxious all the time and there must be something wrong with me such that I’m not “coping with it” adequately (because I have an anxiety disorder, my anxiety simply Sucks Worse) and 2) that I have issues typical of autism (and possibly adhd). “Something fundamentally wrong with me” was the issue here. Not in like a Bad Moralistic way, but like. It’s real. The difference between me and other people in my cohort is real. Help me maybe?

so I have always been a bit boggled by the idea of "self esteem." like I have always liked myself and wanted the best for myself and thought I was awesome and yet therapists have constantly been accusing me of having "low self esteem"

and it's only very recently that I have worked out that by Self Esteem they mean more like-- trusting myself. to be able to do what I want done. and my whole life I have been real shaky on that not because I don't think I'm awesome but because I have become increasingly and miserably aware that I have a fucking neurological condition. or two. that make it extremely difficult to do certain things no matter how much I want them done

and now that I've gotten myself diagnosed and medicated I am more getting what they mean. like. now I know I probably CAN do the thing if I am properly medicated and have gotten a good night's sleep and deploy the right playlist. and everything is way less scary because of that

but it's not because. like. I just needed to esteem myself more?? it's like if I fought and fought and finally got a wheelchair and was like "okay NOW I know I can make it through an entire trip to the grocery store" and people were like "see! you just needed to believe in yourself!" no I needed Y'ALL to fucking believe me

[reputable-opportunist]

Scrapped sketch. have to give stan props for managing to clean that shack i wouldve been frozen in fear at the 40 mystery microbiomes forming in the sink

[sweetvillainjude]

Thinking about how Cardan loves like a mortal, not like a fae. Thinking about this line in Wicked King: “I have heard that for mortals, the feeling of falling in love is very like the feeling of fear.”

What Cardan said to Jude before their first kiss: “You are terrifying.” And the way he’s always smirking or mockingly smiling around her because he smiles when he’s nervous.

[sassypantsjaxon]

Zoro about somebody else calling him names:

Zoro about the name Sanji calls him:

[lemonycranberries]

"therefore, hanguang jun, please protect this fragile and feeble man 🥺😊" THIS LITTLE SLUT IS QUITE LITERALLY THE YILING LAOZU AND YET HE HAS THE AUDACITY TO GO OUT THERE AND SAY THIS SHIT TO LWJ WITHOUT EVEN A LITTLE BIT OF SHAME. AS IF HE WAS AN UNPROTECTED DAMSEL IN DISTRESS AND NOT THE MOST FEARED PERSON IN THE CULTIVATION WORD

[sylvielauffeydottir]

i love seeing oppenheimer discourse on this website revolving around how the movie is going to ‘glorify the atomic bomb’ or ‘celebrate war writ large’ bc it honestly makes me think people know literally nothing about who oppenheimer was, what he came to believe, or what happened to him. but go off i guess

[theminecraftbee]

i deeply enjoy that the frozen citadel, giant intimidating castle of decked out, designed to be as intimidating as possible, symbol of the terrible things within. that frozen citadel. it will now forever have a pink sheep named poof who doesn't know what the ground is dangling from it. it's like a metaphor for tango and zedaph. i think.

[misting-moors]

watched a lawrence of arabia video essay a few days ago and. it is kind of crazy to me how. loa (1962) is considered this monumental, foundational piece of filmmaking that's gone on to inspire so many past and contemporary blockbusters and directors. and yet the general consensus and analysis of it is kind of shallow, or at least limited. im alluding to the ignorance (?) or maybe dismissal of te lawrence's sexuality in the film. like his sexuality is such an integral part of his marginalization/why he is treated the way he is by his fellow british officers. i don't think you can understand his character without also understanding that this is a man who is living in a time of extreme, extreme repression. in the british army no less.

he's still a british orientalist with a messianic complex. but his sexuality is an essential layer of his character and (one of) the core conflicts of the film--his inability to find a home, a people to identify with, a person to identify as himself stem from his class background and his sexual orientation, and how the society he grew up in rebukes and represses these aspects of his person.

[corvidaedream]

trying to respond to someone on instagram who messaged me in italian about one of my drawings, and cycling my responses back into english a couple times before i send them just in case google has turned "yes, i drew that four years ago" into "i hope you die" in italian somehow while i wasnt looking

[hkhyuk]

i’ve just been thinking about how a lot of people say that the robin mantle is a curse but.

but robin wasn’t a curse, not to dick, not really. to dick, robin was good. robin was everything. it was what his mom called him, it was light, it was hope. it was never a curse to him. robin was never meant to be a curse.

robin was never mean to be a legacy either, which is why when bruce took it away from dick, it became the way it did. i can’t imagine how much it would hurt dick to watch children die again and again and again in his family’s colours, when the colours were meant to be the embodiment of hope. bruce took the name robin away, and being robin changed. the mantle wasn’t kind to it’s wearer anymore. it wasn’t bruce’s to take and give away.

which is why, i think, that the reason the mantle is sort of, ‘kinder’ to damian, is because bruce wasn’t the one that gave it to him. it was dick.

[adimouze]

i still think how daniel was walking around the paddock one last time and probably in his emotions a lot but he still took the time to smile brightly at this fan who was crying? and hugged her? like he didn't have to. his friends were leading him away. he still stopped, gave her the brightest, crinkliest smile, and gave her a hug. even in his own sadness he made sure to give her a good memory. and isn't that just the daniel ricciardo, people's princess, of it all?

[rosenkranz-isnt-dead]

The Silt Verses chapter 36: All Lovers Part As Dust // The X Files S6E21: Field Trip // The X Files S7E02: The Sixth Extinction: Amor Fati

[sindar-princeling]

(for the record, they are not making new LOTR movies, but new movies set in middle earth - of course the headlines are clickbaity, and i didnt realise it before posting because I read all these articles)

[makshu]

I want to make it clear that he speaks with two different speech bubbles.

I'm still not sure if there's still a bit of Tsukasa in this body or if it's just a supernatural, but it's interesting that he speaks in two different ways.

[fishysaltine]

You guys are jealous because Neve and Lucanis flirt, I’m jealous because I can’t put my two cents in and am excluded from their funny conversations.